Chapter 34 The third series of my work 1. About "Jian Fu Ji"

It is said that publishing an anthology is a literati affair.After the author's death, friends collected posthumous works for him to show that he loves to cherish them, let alone those who published them during the author's lifetime, at least there should be a kind of emotion mixed with joys and sorrows, but I am like a dead tree. , there is no vigorous atmosphere at all.I only feel some of my enthusiasm and courage in the past, which is obviously contrasted with the silence in front of me and the diluted state of mind obtained from the growth and knowledge of the past two years, and I am more aware of my own current numbness and stubbornness.There are of course various reasons for this.One is that I am not my age, I can only blame time and myself.One is due to the environment. Now that the Northern Expedition has been completed, political training is about to begin, and the world is indeed at peace, it is inevitable to make people feel the loneliness and sorrow of the Taiping people.

In this peaceful loneliness, thinking back to Beijing in the era of the "revolutionary government" two years ago, it really makes us recall the courage and determination of young people in the past and the excitement of performing tragedies with the government.The rally in front of Tiananmen Square, the fluttering of colorful flags, the faces of male and female students with raised brows, the street fighting on West Chang’an Street, and the barefoot parade in Hadamen Street in the rain, how tragic is this!The gunshots in front of the State Council, the bloodstains along the Dongsi archway, the dead bodies in various hospitals, and the memorial meeting of the Third Hospital of Peking University, how exciting this is!In fact, taking the "March 18" massacre as an example, a total of forty-eight young people were killed. Is it worth making a fuss after seeing us for two years?However, on that day, honestly, I don’t know how many young people’s tears were shed, how many young people’s blood was stirred up, how many memorial services were held by the young people, how many elegiac couplets were made, and how many memorial plans were drawn up.Up to now, none of the monuments have been erected, (except Ms. Yan Dawei; Liu Hezhen has none.) Not only the blood and sorrow, indignation and tears of the past are only cold papers, but I even want to watch another memorial service for young martyrs but not available.This kind of lively youth unity will probably never be seen again.Of course there are many unsung heroes among our friends, but there are also quite a few scholars and professors who are loyal to the party and state in the past.The age is useless for violent thinking, and violent thinking will disappear with it.This is why Taiping people feel silent.

Some people think that this quiet attitude is the resignation of youth, but I don't admit it.I thought it was just the cleverness of young people to improve a little self-defense.There is only one head per person. Although it is not a big deal to commit crimes such as rebellion, weak-mindedness and lawlessness, the disaster of death without a place to bury is unnecessary.At least I think that if I have to die and sacrifice for my country, at least I want a group of relatives and friends to shed a few tears for me, but this is not easy to do, in this day and age.Therefore, the courage in the past, against the theory of "reading to save the country" and "don't talk about state affairs" of celebrities, now I really dare not have the same opinion in conscience.If the students’ dormitories do not have electric lights and they send representatives to ask the principal to install them, these representatives will be accused by the principal of being Communists and even expelled.As for the fact that there are no books to read, the representative of the dormitory may not have to do it in his humble opinion, and it is better to be a young obedient citizen.The school affairs are still like this, and the state affairs are even more obvious.This point of view is really beneficial to "students".

Therefore, the various arguments in this book are just outdated old days, and readers can take them as old days, but fortunately, the author has no dream of setting up his own words to hide famous mountains and pass them on to others.Drastic theory is not convenient for any government. It is good for Duan Qirui's "revolutionary government" to advocate drastic theory. Wouldn't it be another inconvenience with another "revolutionary government"?This is the theoretical difference between the era before and after the revolution. However, I also feel that it is necessary to preserve the old days as the time goes by. Sometimes it is included in the book, which is a good souvenir that arouses the interest of past outings.The more people live in the dirty city, the more they will miss the bright and beautiful flavor of the wild.The more lonely the people of Taiping are, the more they have to think about the gunshots of the war-torn era in the past.The courage is gone, but there is still half a point of nostalgia.People from far away places have to do paper-cutting to summon their souls; the past two years in the south have made me feel the loveliness of everything in Beijing and old friends who are alive or dead.Although the soul may not be recruited, but it can be quite comforted in oneself. The sorrow and blood and tears of the past, in today's eyes, all have a little cuteness.So I just regard these messy and rough words as soft films collected from my past involvement in the Beijing literary world.The photography process is really rough, and it has not been modified by photography experts as usual.However, there are many shadows of gentlemen, scholars and celebrities in the photos taken at that time, and because they were taken by accident, the gentlemen never shaved their faces, trimmed their hair and sat upright in front of me, and did not embellish them afterwards. Come is still lifelike and very kind.It was meaningless in those days, and it seems that the time changes and the situation changes.Although it is still very rough, it is better to be rough.That's why I collected and preserved him.Or because the scholars and celebrities photographed, although they were civilians at that time, are all honored officials and prominent positions now, and they will surely fly to the top in the future, so it is also desirable to indirectly increase the value of these remnants of their civilian era?The boringness of my anthology can be imagined here.