Chapter 17 8. Central Youth League School (1)

When I was transferred to the Communist Youth League Committee in March 1949, I was recognized as having clear thinking, keen insight into problems, and using my brain.In addition, I have already learned a skill from Comrade Liu Feng. No matter how much the masses are talking about it and cannot agree on it, I must summarize a few points from the big picture: the revolution is advancing, the consciousness of the masses is improving, our work has achieved remarkable results, and the new Activists are emerging and the like.After listening to such an analysis, people will immediately get a feeling of climbing high and looking far away, feeling refreshed, united and hopeful.Standing tall, seeing far, always full of confidence, always calm and steady, this is my childish skill, which has affected my life.

But soon I exposed the innocence and naivety of my youth and the side that didn't meet the needs of work in terms of mentality and physiology.For example, during an evening meeting, I would sit in a chair and fall asleep.Since insomnia in high school, I have been sleepy all my life, and I believe that sleep is the primary guarantee for health and career.At that time, the enthusiasm of the group of cadres of the Communist Youth League Committee (97% of them were underground party members from college and middle school students) mainly showed their enthusiasm by staying up late and working overtime. La is absolutely never resting or sleeping, working overtime to win the complete victory of the revolution.And I am deeply disgusted by this. I don't understand how a revolutionary can only know how to be busy but forget to draw inspiration from truth, goodness and beauty from the brilliance of his career and the magnificence of life.At that time, I already knew a word - transactionalism, why are there so many transactionalists.I also believe in Lenin's famous saying: You can't work without rest.I firmly believe that when you are tired, you must rest yourself.I don't have enough "spirit" and sometimes lose things and forget about the things assigned by the leader.I want to play and have time to watch and appreciate.When the meeting is endless, and there are more and more talks on the wheel, I will suddenly lose my mind to appreciate the sparrows and clouds, lights and trams outside the window.

When people calmed down, they admitted a common sense: it is too early for a fourteen or fifteen-year-old child to become a cadre. When the institutions were merged and adjusted in the summer of 1949, I was advised to continue to go back to school.But I didn't want to accept this arrangement. I was already impetuous and my heart was higher than the sky, and it was difficult for me to go back behind the desk.I was actually "laid off", so I temporarily went to the summer study group to take care of the meals. During this period, I learned to drink for the first time.I deal with private suppliers of grain, oil and vegetables every day. Today you find that store A’s vermicelli is 20% cheaper than store B. You switch to store A, and the next day you find that store C’s rice is better and cheaper than store A.In the end, you pretty much gave up hope of taking advantage of competition among privateers to get the best food deals, and instead learned to clink glasses with privateers.However, the big report organized by the study group was still very exciting. I listened to Ai Qing's criticism of Xu Zhimo's poem "Don't Screw Me, It Hurts", and I heard Zhou Yang talk about the revolutionary literary movement. Siqi and others gave lectures to the students participating in the study group, showing the richness, brilliance, invincibility and vigor of the new ideology of the liberated areas and the Communist Party.

Then, at the end of August, I was assigned to study in the second phase of the Central Youth League School.I'm in class fifteen.Most of the 15th class came from Beijing. Xu Mengshan, who was the leader of the Taiwan Democratic Self-Government League, was a student of our class and a member of the party branch of the class at that time.There are also some student party members from Shanghai and Nanjing.Most of them are regiment cadres who already have a little "revolutionary" experience.Class 17 is a freshman from Shanghai.Class 18 is mainly new participants from Beijing. At the beginning, the Central Youth League School had not yet entered the city, and our school was located in Liangxiang County in the south of Beijing.Going to school in Liangxiang County has symbolic meaning.The Chinese revolution took the road of the cities encircling the countryside. Once liberated, those who came from the countryside to the cities took over.My study in Liangxiang showed the color of the old revolution.We lived in the houses of the fellows from the "number", and we scrambled to fetch water for the fellows. We inherited the good tradition of the revolutionaries of our predecessors who were pro-farmers.

This is the first time I have lived in the country since I grew up, and it feels new. We have listened to many high-quality and high-standard lectures. In today’s words, our teachers are really a super luxurious lineup: Li Lisan talks about the labor movement, Chen Shaoyu (Wang Ming, then director of the Legislative Affairs Committee of the Government Affairs Council) talks about marriage law, Deng Yingchao talks about women At work, Feng Wenbin (the then secretary of the Youth League Central Committee) talked about the youth movement, Ai Siqi talked about philosophy, and Sun Dingguo talked about party history.Deng Yingchao's Beijing accent is crisp and vivid.Ai Siqi's hair sounds like a Sichuan accent.Wang Ming's speech had no special features.The most memorable thing is that Tian Jiaying, who worked beside Chairman Mao, talked about Mao Zedong Thought. He talked from afternoon to night, and after dinner, he talked until late at night.The big class was held in the open air, and each of us prepared a small Maza and memorized it with a notebook.After dark, the gas lamps were lit, which attracted too many phototropic flying insects, and I had to stop the lecture several times to catch and kill insects with paper bags.I still remember that Tian Jiaying said that Mao Zedong Thought is like an ocean, everyone can go to scoop up the water in it, but the water will never dry up.Mao Zedong Thought is like a piano, everyone can use it to play endless wonderful movements.When talking about the exposition of Mao Zedong Thought on intellectuals, Tian said that intellectuals need to be politicized and organized.He said that the chairman said that intellectuals are "chattering and scrambling for nothing", which I can't learn from other materials.Tian Jiaying talked about Mao Zedong Thought completely in his own language, and what he said was his own experience, and I could feel that he was also intoxicated in his own lawful speeches.

But I also have some reservations: he talked so eloquently, the rain poured down, he couldn't listen to it, and he talked for six or seven hours in one breath. No interaction, Q&A, discussion, questioning.He is completely a liberator, savior, proclaimer, commander, and prophet. He is teaching the mentors of these young cadres, and the listeners are only one-sided recipients, absorbers, and those who start from zero or negative numbers.Such lectures at least tire me out, both for myself and for the teacher.I handed a note after nine o'clock in the evening: "Please master the time".At that time, it was possible to hand in notes while listening to lectures, and no signature was required.Teacher Tian picked up the note and read it out. He is very democratic, but he didn’t take it seriously. The leader of the Academic Affairs Office next to him said, “Let’s talk, let’s talk”, and he continued to speak eloquently without restraint Let's go on.Some students also showed surprise expressions after listening to the notes read by the teacher.