Chapter 6 3. I want a revolution (1)

When Japan surrendered in August 1945, my national love and patriotism suddenly ignited.The students were all so excited that they went to the fifth grade teacher Zheng Yi every day to talk about state affairs.Teacher Zheng said that before the War of Resistance Against Japan, Chiang advocated the "New Life Movement", and the country had hope, but the Japanese invasion interrupted the process of China's rejuvenation, and so on, we were filled with righteous indignation.The more I think about it, the more I love our country. How many times have I made up my mind in tears that I would rather give up my life for China.By the way, Teacher Zheng was a well-known model teacher in the city after liberation, and she was not spared in the anti-rightist movement in 1957.

Also this summer, I made the decision to skip the middle school entrance exam.I saw a cartoon by Feng Zikai: three or four children were drawn walking with their legs tied together, the fast walking children were dragged and unable to move forward, and the slow walking children were also dragged into a mess.I actually got inspiration from this painting. I think I am the child who walks fast, and the school's class teaching system is the rope tied to the child's legs.I took the sixth-grade textbook that my older sister was teaching, and decided that the lessons were nothing new to me.Moreover, there has been such a thing for a long time. I, who was in the lower grade, helped my sister with the homework of the higher grade.It's just that it's a bit bragging to say it now.

I originally wanted to apply for the Municipal (Male) No. 3 Middle School at the intersection of Zujia Street, which was very close to home. At that time, it was a separate school for boys and girls.When I arrived at the registration window, they asked for a primary school diploma and stated that they would not accept applicants with "equivalent academic ability". In addition, after going to school, it is still the first in the exam almost every year. After Japan surrendered, my father came back from Qingdao, and things went away for a while.One night he brought home a distinguished guest, the gentle and gentle Comrade Li Xin.At that time, the "Military Mediation Executive Department" composed of the country, the Communist Party, and the United States was engaged in a truce between the country and the Communist Party.The chief representative of the party in the mediation team in Beijing (Ping) was General Ye Jianying.Comrade Li Xin seemed to be working beside General Ye.As soon as Comrade Li Xin arrived at our house, he took control of everything.He first explained to me the principles of criticism and self-criticism regarding the quarrel with my sister that just happened, which left me speechless and completely cast down. Invincible way of argument.For me, this is a way to be a sage, to criticize myself before encountering problems, which is too great.Self-criticism made me feel ashamed and forced at the beginning, but you cannot escape Comrade Li Xin’s analysis, you can only follow him, and after you are convinced—you can’t be unconvinced—after you figure it out, you will be as comfortable as you are. The brightness is unparalleled.

Immediately afterwards, Uncle Li Xin knew that I was being ordered by the school to participate in the speech contest for middle school students in the city. The competition was held by the Political Department of the 11th War Zone, and the content of current affairs and politics was required.My father first expressed his disinterest in this, but Uncle Li Xin said that he must talk about it. He talked about the Three Principles of the People and the Four Freedoms (proposed by Roosevelt).I still remember a line from my speech: "Look at those children checking coal cores on the garbage dump, have the people's livelihood principles of the founding fathers been achieved?"

You don't need to be polite, the junior high school group of this competition, I speak the best, even the host mentioned that Wang Meng's speech sounded like a bronze bell in the concluding speech.But I only got the third place, the reason is of course the sponsor's political leanings.They smell my speech.I also learned my first lesson in fighting legally in the White Zone. By the way.Yang Hushan, who represented the high school students of our school in the speech contest, has been engaged in diplomatic work after liberation and once served as my country's ambassador to Libya.

Comrade Li Xin was mainly engaged in the research and writing of party history, and he is a famous expert in party history.As the first communist I met in my life, his eloquence, his confidence in the truth, his completely different ways of thinking and expression, and the creativity, firmness, completeness, and systematicness of all his thoughts And the invincible power of Gongwuwubu made me feel the real enlightenment, turning the clouds to see the sun, and shining brightly. The power of theory lies in its connection with reality.I greeted the arrival of the "National Army" and "U.S. Army" with enthusiasm, and when the excitement was over, I found that people were still poor.Newspapers published news about corrupt officials who were turned into "robbers", poor people without a livelihood, a family of four committing suicide by oral poison, American vehicles running rampant, running over and killing many people every day, and traitors transformed into underground workers.With nothing to eat and nothing to wear, I was walking on the street and saw fat dogs and men after eating and drinking. They were coming out of restaurants that I never dared to visit. I really hate the smell of chicken, duck, fish, oil, sugar, scallion and ginger. I really believe in the justice and necessity of "cracking down on local tyrants and dividing up the land", and I believe that what the people want is of course a communism of equality and justice.

What's more, the book I'm reading is Ba Jin's "Destroyer", Cao Yu's, Mao Dun's Yu, and Suimolafeizhi's "Iron Flow".These books tell me that society is rotten and China is on the verge of danger. What China needs is a big change, a violent storm, and the baptism of iron and blood. It’s not just these socially critical works, I think back, including Hans Christian Andersen’s fairy tales and Grimm’s fairy tales, including "The Little Match Girl", "Living Water", "Cinderella", "The Happy Prince", "Scarecrow", "Dick" Laus and Little Claus and Snow White have left me a deep impression and strong excitement. There are many injustices in the world, there are many beautiful, kind, honest and bitter people in the world, and there are many "" The King's New Clothes" needs to be exposed, there are many "Cinderellas" and "Snow Whites" and "Little Mermaids" waiting for the prince who loves them, there are many creatures turned to stone by the devil waiting for the "Water of Living" (kind of like Avalokiteshvara's Yang Zhijingshui) brought back to life.I feel that revolution is the lifeblood of such a resurrected life.The reality is too ugly, and the ideal is so beautiful and moving. Only the revolution can turn the ugly reality into a beautiful ideal. For this reason, our revolution must pay a high price. For the revolution, it is also for the ideal. No matter how much we pay The price is also worth it.Literature and art, especially literature, often become a revolutionary factor, and I can clearly see this from myself.