Chapter 5 2. Poetry and insomnia (2)

I wrote about a character’s childhood insomnia in "Long Live Youth". My respected teacher Xiao Yin criticized: "There are children who are fond of playing and don't want to sleep. It is impossible to dare not sleep." It's just a matter of your mental health. Insomnia did not cause too much of a problem. From then on, I only knew that people must bite the bullet to survive, eat when they need to eat, drink when they need to drink, and sleep soundly when they need to sleep.There are many problems that cannot be clearly thought out, and if you still have to think about the unclear problems, then something is wrong.

At about the same time, I was keen to recite "Three Hundred Tang Poems", which I think is one of the few books that really benefited me.The way to treat my spiritual crisis is to study, read, and recite books. "I don't know how to sleep in spring, but I don't know how many flowers fall..." I can read clearly, "The moonlight in front of the bed is suspected to be frost on the ground..." I also understand. I don't understand the meaning of "Shu Monk holding Lu Qi, going west to Emei Peak" and "I love Master Meng. I heard about it all over the world", but I also recited it happily. "Return to the scene into the deep forest, and shine on the moss again", I feel a little bit about Wang Wei's sentence.The other two sentences "Advise you to drink more wine, and you will leave Yangguan in the west without any old friends" I feel very deeply, and it is a pity to part.I also admire Zhang Jiuling's "A Bright Moon Rises Over the Sea", although I had never seen the sea at that time, and I didn't know the scene of the moon rising over the sea.

It probably has something to do with reading ancient books. I believe that painting is also a very elegant and tasteful thing, so I bought the Mustard Seed Garden painting book.I draw horses and bamboo.I can't remember exactly how the bamboo was painted, but the horse was painted like a mouse.But I still proudly wrote a poem about painting horses when I was ten years old: Who can chase the wind for thousands of miles, Traveling long distances without feeling tired, Just because Bole can't be found, Turn into a dragon and go to the sky. I still can’t explain why I wrote such a sour poem, and some people even praised me for being extraordinary. I believe that I am imitating the words of adults. I hope the Fang family can help me find out the source.

Poetry also has some meaning.One is bragging and self-confidence.One is speed efficiency, chasing the wind for thousands of miles.One is toughness, long-distance travel.One is that it is not of much use in the end, and can only go to Jiuxiao to masturbate and amuse itself, if it is not self-deception. My family once lived in No. 3 Baozi Hutong. There is an abandoned back garden with artificial rocks and bamboos. At night, the shadows of bamboo leaves are reflected on the window paper. Under such conditions, I Not being able to become Zheng Banqiao can only prove that I am a beauty blind.Also, since I was in elementary school, I always got "B" or "C" in art homework, and I only got A once. I took the homework handed in by my sister, changed it, erased the original signature and marks with watercolors, and handed over to teacher's.

Only read in turn.I recited "Book of Filial Piety", "University", "Su Xin Ci", "Huajian Ci", I recited Bing Xin and Ba Jin, and later Lu Xun's.The four tones of the Chinese language, the ups and downs, the repetition of sentences, the expositions that are too large and inappropriate, and the beautiful but indeterminate words, all make reading and reciting so joyful, charming and controlling, like singing hymns, like singing. Chanting mantras is like praying to God.For example, "The way of great learning lies in Ming Mingde, in being close to the people, in stopping at the ultimate good, knowing the end and then having steadiness, and then being able to be calm, and then being able to be at peace, being at ease and then being able to worry, and then being able to gain after worrying. Those who want to bring peace to the world first To rule a country, those who want to rule their country first organize their families; those who want to rule their families first cultivate their bodies; those who want to cultivate their bodies first rectify their hearts;

Reading such a book is like taking a bath, covering the head and face like a shower, embracing the whole body like a bathtub, relaxing muscles and blood circulation like a rotating massage, and metabolizing metabolism like a sauna steam.It rhymes with the rhyme, rises step by step, is unbreakable, and fits upside down, just like the old Beijing cloth sellers shouting: After pedaling and then kicking, after pulling and pulling, after spreading and covering, after washing and drying! I also really like vacations. Every summer, when the holidays are approaching, due to the extreme heat, lack of sleep, and exams, I am exhausted and haggard.Once the summer vacation is over, take a good nap first, catch up with a soaking rain, and then stroll around Beihai Park and Pingze (Fucheng) Gate, listen to the cicadas, the sound of water, and the birdsong, and then read. I like to read I'm ecstatic, I like to spend my time with myself, and I like to take vacations -- not for fun but for reading.Every year at the beginning of the summer vacation, I make a ecstatic and inspiring summer life and study plan, and the execution is not satisfactory.After the holiday, I really feel that my knowledge has improved, and even my body has developed.This liking to live independently, but not lazily, and especially not wasting time, is probably preserved in me to this day.