Chapter 21 Chapter Twenty

We often sigh in our lives: If we had done something positive at that time, we might have lived a better life, or if we hadn’t done that at that time, we would not be in this situation today... If, it is not only a beautiful vision, but also a kind of confession.But life, after all, has no ifs, and you can't start all over again.But the ship of life needs hope to support it, and reflection to make the oars.It's just that Tsangyang Gyatso's "if" is beyond his control. If Tsangyang Gyatso had been brought up as a soul boy in the Potala Palace since he was found at the age of three, he might not have had a love that was cut and messed up.In other words, if he has been living in his happy hometown, there will not be so many rules and regulations to stop the flame of his love.

Tsangyang Gyatso's father is Tibetan and his mother is Monba.In their culture, true feelings are the power that infiltrates people's hearts. The capital of the Menyu area is called Mendawang, which is the abbreviation of Daden Wangpo. According to the legend of the Menba people, Daden Wangbo is the name of the sun.In this sunny place, there are many love stories of Monba people.According to legend, a handsome young man walked out of the clear and transparent lake. He used the moon as a bow and shooting stars as arrows to shoot the bootlaces of love at the girl he admired.There is also a legend that Zhuovasangmu, a poor girl who descended from a fairy, fell in love with the king Galawangbu at first sight, but was persecuted by the queen. In the end, the truth defeated the evil and the lovers got married.

Tsangyang Gyatso grew up in such an environment, where freedom, romance, and true feelings nourished him.Even if he becomes a living Buddha, he cannot separate himself from his longing for these legends.The ignorant feelings secretly surged in his heart. So Cangyang Gyatso enjoyed his love with Yuqiong Zhuoga wantonly.At this time, their feelings are heating up rapidly, as warm as boiling water. Although they have a fixed place for dating, there is still no impenetrable wall in this world after all, not to mention that the branches of love have already climbed over the wall unknowingly.Big trees attract wind, and big leaves attract insects. There is always a kind of people in this world who pervertly pursue a preference for novelty.They hunted around, keenly observing every detail they were curious about.This handsome man and beautiful woman must become prey in their eyes.The secret love affair finally reached the ears of Sangye Gyatso under various chances and coincidences.

Hearing about Tsangyang Gyatso's new relationship, Sangye Gyatso felt a headache.As a puppet, Sangye Gyatso believed that he should not be bound too tightly.After all, he was a young man longing for freedom, and he also had a keen sense of politics. Once he put too much pressure on him, he worried that this young man would turn against him.Although he knew that Tsangyang Gyatso was not his opponent, it would be better not to go that far. Therefore, when Tsangyang Gyatso proposed to go archery or go to the market, Sangye Gyatso did not make much objection.As long as he doesn't care about politics and things that shouldn't bother him, that's fine.He even opened a small side door at the back of the Potala Palace to facilitate the entry and exit of Tsangyang Gyatso in ordinary clothes.Although he knew that Tsangyang Gyatso was going out more and more frequently, he only thought that it was the playfulness of young people.He never thought that the passionate seeds in Tsangyang Gyatso's heart had taken root, sprouted, and even bloomed in the world overlooked by the Potala Palace.The flower even swaggered, disdainful of the eyes of the world.

Sangye Gyatso felt a little regretful, it would be great if he could be controlled more strictly.At the beginning, he was proud of solving the problem of Cangyang Gyatso's first love, and went to manage his political affairs with confidence and boldness.But who knew that the emotion in Cangyang Gyatso's heart was actually a glacier floating on the sea, only a small part of it was exposed, most of it was hidden, waiting for the day when it would be revealed. Sangye Gyatso called the servant who served Tsangyang Gyatso, and he wanted to know how Tsangyang Gyatso spent these days.The servant brought not only the news that Cangyang Gyatso was nostalgic for the woman in the world, but also the love poems he wrote.Patiently, Sangye Gyatso turned over the poems.It is undeniable that this young man has a talent for writing poetry.Even his poems, a well-learned scholar, are not as fresh, natural, and touching as his poems.He has also heard some of these poems. These poems are being sung in the streets and alleys of Lhasa, nourishing the nerves of sensitive Tibetans.He also sang for it and applauded several of them.But today is different, what he sees today is a crisis.

Not only did he know about Cangyang Gyatso's passionate love, but he also knew about his previous absurd relationship.It turned out that Tsangyang Gyatso's heart was no longer in the Potala Palace.His heart is a bird attached to the branches, fluttering in the world, unwilling to fly high.If he is not restrained, he will definitely get into trouble. Sangye Gyatso will not easily publicize Tsangyang Gyatso's "deviance" to the public. This is betting his political career.But he will not allow Tsangyang Gyatso to act recklessly, so as not to cause incidents that affect his political career.

However, although he is Diba who monopolizes real power, Tsangyang Gyatso still bears the title of the sixth Dalai Lama.He can't forcefully demand, let alone condone. The only way, and also the best way, is to let him go to the mountains to meditate for a period of time.Perhaps, retreating could cool down his passion for love. Going to the mountains for meditation is a tradition of Buddhist practice.Buddhism believes that the world is dirty, there are many substances, and they will bring countless desires.If people can be separated from these materialized lives, and people get used to a low-material lifestyle, people can gradually learn to see the world with their hearts, not just with their eyes.

Therefore, since ancient India, there have been many ascetic mages.They went into the deep mountains, lived in the open air, endured hunger and hunger, and spent lonely days of practice.During this period, most of them sat quietly to understand the affairs of life and the world, without working or seeking food.In a situation of severe material scarcity, look for spiritual epiphanies. More decisive than this kind of retreat are the mages who sacrificed their lives in the emptiness.These mages often have high virtues, and their practice also has a great ambition, that is, to benefit all beings.Their practice can make them endure hunger, and finally they even passed away in the cave while maintaining a sitting posture.Their bodies will not decay, and they swear that they will spend thousands of years to protect the world in front of them.

But for Tsangyang Gyatso, not to mention using the real mummy to protect the world, even going to the mountains for meditation is a painful choice for him.His heart is not in the mountains, but in the world. Cangyang Gyatso's secular relationship is not over.The hair he kept in order to go to the world tightly bound the world to him.He is inseparable from the secular world, how can he carry out real practice?To separate him from the girl he loves is as painful as tearing off the morning glory vines wrapped around the branches. But he had no reason to refuse.He is a monk, so he should practice; he is a Dalai Lama, so he should cut off the world.At this time, his love was faced with a choice: he had thought about being too sentimental to damage the holy life,

If you enter the mountain, you may not fall into the city. The world is safe and secure, Live up to Tathagata and live up to Qing. (Translated by Zeng Yan) On the left is the predestined fate that he has no choice, and on the right is the girl who is inseparable.Cangyang Gyatso was heartbroken at this intersection of life. For Tsangyang Gyatso, the Buddha is always the supreme being living in his heart, and his respect for the Buddha has never changed.He just didn't like the life of a living Buddha, but it would be a heart-breaking thing for him to completely abandon the existence of the Buddha.He even imagined that if she also escaped into this empty door and stayed with him, he would have no complaints.Even if I go to the most claustrophobic valley with her, I have no regrets:

If I like someone, Embroidered Buddha Blue Lantern House, I have no linger, The Valley of Escape. (Translated by Liu Xiwu) But such an imagination is nothing but fantasy.Not to mention, he still dare not tell her his identity, even if she really entered Buddhism, it would be difficult to get along with her day and night.Buddhism has its own Buddhist rules, so how can it be tolerated that male monks and female nuns teach and accept privately. If you want to achieve the "Dharma of All Worlds" that "does not disappoint the Tathagata and does not betray the Qing", it can only be done in the Red Sect.Since he is the suzerain of the Yellow Sect, it is already impossible for him to find the law of both. "I can get what I want, and I can get what I want in bear's paw", but we can't have both, and the dilemma of either one or the other often makes us at a loss as to what to do.But when people are in a dilemma, they have spirituality and thoughts.When the Buddha faced such a choice, what would he do?He had struggled too.Facing a prosperous and happy life and the road of becoming a monk, he was also confused, but he found the direction of his heart and knew that what he yearned for was to find the way to save sentient beings.When faced with penance or the road of wandering, he was also confused, but he was looking for the direction of his heart, knowing that the road of penance was impassable, and he still needed to travel and experience more changes in the world before he could have an epiphany.He was also confused when faced with living in the world or Nirvana, but he was looking for the direction of his heart, knowing that Nirvana can allow people to find their own way of liberation. Both fish and bear's paw can be what the heart desires, but what is the direction the heart yearns for the most, as long as you look at your heart carefully, you can understand.It is also wisdom to be able to follow your heart and not be hindered by choices. Cangyang Gyatso was born in the mortal world, so his heart certainly belongs to the mortal world.The Dharma is boundless, but for Tsangyang Gyatso, after all, it is an illusory breeze that can only be felt but not grasped.Only the temperature of real love can make him boil.But although reality is so close, it is so far away.This helpless melancholy can only be turned into a poem: Lovers are handsome, More affectionate. Now I want to go to the mountains to practice the Dharma, The trip was postponed and postponed. (Translated by Gao Ping) Cangyang Gyatso used various reasons to delay and delay the plan of going to the mountains to practice.How could he be willing to leave this place?Although the Potala Palace was the last place he wanted to stay, it was a thousand times better than the remote and quiet mountain forest.In the land overlooking the Red Mountain, there is the girl he loves. His heart is tied there, and he will not feel comfortable going anywhere.