Chapter 13 Chapter Twelve

Lovesickness is a grinder that grinds the heart, it turns non-stop all the time, grinding out traces on every inch of the heart, as if it wants to grind the heart into powder.Tsangyang Gyatso remembered the prayer wheels held by those pilgrims.A small prayer wheel turned in their hands in a never-ending spiral, round and round, making a humming sound, as if someone was whispering in it.These whispers are incantations that never stop in people's ears, chanting the prayers in their hearts. Slowly, Tsangyang Gyatso walked to the prayer wheel in the palace, the huge body of which indicated its existence.Tsangyang Gyatso touched the scripture tube, and he felt that the creaking and rotating object should be his longing for his lover.

The prayer wheel is a very special object of Tibetan Buddhism.Inside it are mantras, or scriptures.Once turned, it is equivalent to chanting the scriptures once.Pious Tibetans carry the prayer wheel with them, and whenever they have time in their hands, they will whine it, so that the piety in their hearts will sound. For the majority of Tibetans who are illiterate, the prayer wheel is undoubtedly a great boon.Just turning it is equivalent to reciting complicated scriptures.However, the sutras carried by the small sutra cylinder are limited, so Tibetans believe that the larger sutra cylinder can hold more scriptures, which will naturally have more divine power.Therefore, the prayer wheels in Buddhist temples have greater utility.Those hands covered with ghee turned the prayer wheels one by one on the prayer corridor, and the turning prayer wheels creaked, spreading prayers throughout time and space.

According to the Buddhist scriptures, turning the prayer wheel for one day can fulfill the power of the mantra 100 million times.This kind of merit is very rare, so there are prayer wheels all over the Tibetan area, so that the prayers of the world can reach the Buddha's heart.However, rather than saying that the Tibetans are turning scriptures devoutly, it is better to say that they are just expressing their respect for the Buddha with a persistent power of piety.The humming and creaking sounds are the whispers in their hearts and the expectations in their hearts. Cangyang Gyatso didn't know this.The sound of turning, telling, is the longing in his heart.It's just that the longing is not for the aloof Buddha, but for his sweetheart.

Cangyang Gyatso wrote his longing into love poems, and entrusted them to the distant world.His expression was on his face, and he didn't make any concealment. Doesn't he know that the leader of the Yellow Sect can't miss the mortal world?No, he knew it, he was very aware of the distance between him and her, but that thought kept haunting him, and he couldn't get rid of it, couldn't get rid of it.Just like when he became the sixth Dalai Lama, he couldn't get rid of it, couldn't avoid it, he could only obey the arrangement of fate.But now, looking back at his past, he still doesn't have the ability to struggle, not to mention, he doesn't want to struggle either.

He allowed himself to sink in his thoughts, and let his thoughts overwhelm him.It is difficult to arouse his interest in any affairs. The sea of ​​Buddhism that he used to enjoy swimming in has become like a dry pond; He imagined her warm embrace, like his mother, but younger and more fragrant.He is willing to immerse himself in this gentle village and never wake up.Even if there is no news of her, it is beautiful to just miss her from afar. However, why didn't he want to send her his thoughts.But his identity makes him powerless.He is the supreme living Buddha, and also a puppet imprisoned in the Hua Palace. He can't think of any other way except to ask Qingfeng, Baiyun, and Xiaoniao to express their affection for him.The young Living Buddha was trapped in Potala, and even more trapped in his heart by longing.

Looking at Tsangyang Gyatso's love poem, Sangye Gyatso narrowed his eyes worriedly.Although he didn't want Tsangyang Gyatso to learn the ability to master politics, he also didn't want the Living Buddha to act out of line.An unqualified living Buddha means that he cannot be a qualified puppet, which will cause trouble for him, become the target of the enemy, and even cause him to lose his power. This is something he cannot tolerate.He has to find a way, he has to eliminate any influence on his power.The first thing to do is to investigate and find out who this woman who haunts Cangyang Gyatso is.He wants to find a feasible way to achieve his goal.

The people he sent rushed to the corner of the gate without stopping, to the market where they met.They did not find the girl, but they got a message.Sangye Gyatso listened to the news with satisfaction. He knew that this was the best way to solve the problem. He taught Cangyang Gyatso as if nothing had happened. When he saw Cangyang Gyatso's expression erratic, he coughed hard, and Cangyang Gyatso withdrew his eyes angrily.That loss seemed to leave the beloved girl outside alone. Sangye Gyatso coughed twice again, which made Tsangyang Gyatso look up at him.Sangye Gyatso pondered for a moment and asked, "Before you sat on the bed, did you ever like a girl?"

Tsangyang Gyatso's pupils dilated immediately, he never thought that Diba would talk to him about this, it was something he kept hidden in his heart.He nodded somewhat at a loss, and what he got was Diba's satisfied nod.Cangyang Gyatso was confused, what was Diba thinking?Is he going to teach him a lesson? Sangye Gyatso smiled slightly and told Tsangyang Gyatso: He had too many affairs in the past, so he didn't have time to deal with some remaining issues before his enthronement.In order to let Cangyang Gyatso study with peace of mind, he secretly sent someone to Menyu, preparing to pick up his relatives to Lhasa.

Tsangyang Gyatso's heart rose to his throat, Sangye Gyatso sent someone to Menyu, who did he send to see, did he see her?He wanted to ask, but he didn't dare to ask, he was afraid of revealing his outrageous thoughts, especially to this person who regarded him as a puppet. Sangye Gyatso sighed regretfully, and he told Tsangyang Gyatso: He was sorry for what happened to Tsangyang Gyatso's parents, but they were just his parents in this world, and they didn't have much blessings. But because they are the birth parents of the sixth Dalai Lama, they will receive great blessings after reincarnation. This is their blessing.

Tsangyang Gyatso looked at Sangye Gyatso silently, and he felt that what Sangye Gyatso wanted to say was not just these.Sure enough, Sangye Gyatso quickly said: The sent person came back and said that Tsangyang Gyatso once had a lover in Menyu.These words made Cangyang Gyatso's heart beat violently.Rigzin Wangmo, he is finally going to mention Rigzin Wangmo.In his heart, he suddenly no longer worried about what Sangye Gyatso would think about him, he just wanted to know the current situation of his lover. Sangye Gyatso was not in a hurry to talk about Rigzin Wangmo, he just comforted Tsangyang Gyatso: You were very young at that time, I don’t blame you for this, not to mention, the monastery you are in is a Red Sect monastery, and you married a wife Having children is also a normal thing, so no one will blame you for your behavior at that time, so you don't have to worry.

Cangyang Gyatso became annoyed in his heart, what's the use of saying these things, he just wanted to know the recent situation of Rinzeng Wangmo!Sangye Gyatso saw the dissatisfaction in Tsangyang Gyatso's eyes, he pondered for a moment, and said: You are now the suzerain of the Yellow Sect, and what you say and do represents the main purpose of the Yellow Sect, so let the past Things, let it be a thing of the past.The person sent to inquire about the news, the girl who used to be with you understands the truth, she is already married. "She's married?!" Cangyang Gyatso blurted out in shock.Yes, she is married, married into a good family, this is her blessing.Sangye Gyatso looked at the shocked Tsangyang Gyatso and smiled smugly.Don't pay too much attention to her, she is also considered a smart woman, knowing that you, as the suzerain of the Yellow Sect, cannot be with her, so get married quickly. Cangyang Gyatso shook his head, he didn't want to believe it, but he had to believe it.She was married, she didn't wait for him, it was in vain that he missed him so much!He remembered her oath, didn't she say that only death can separate them?Why did she break her vow so quickly? ! Me and the women of the city, A concentric knot made with three characters. There is no solution cone to solve, It opened itself on the ground. (Translated by Yu Daoquan) This is the poem he wrote about it later. He was confused in his mind, and he didn't know how this concentric knot opened by itself.Are those vows of eternal love just like a joke? A voice repeated in his mind: She's married, she's married!He couldn't figure it out, she used to love him so much, but why did she marry someone else?She was ready to give him the happiness of a lifetime, why would she betray him? ! His heart was full of pain, he could no longer hear the voices from the outside world, only the question in his heart: why, why? !He wrote the hatred in his heart into a poem: couple in love since childhood, Could it be the descendants of wolves? Although living together, I still want to run back to the mountains. (Translated by Gao Ping) Thinking about it, they have known each other for many years, but their friendship for many years was betrayed today.Why is this so?Is she a descendant of wolves?That's why they are so ungrateful!Even after giving her the best, she betrayed herself. Cangyang Gyatso couldn't figure it out, he could only use various possibilities to speculate on the lover's betrayal: Beauty is not born from the mother's womb, It should be a peach tree growing; This hate peach blossom is easy to thank, Luohua is more affectionate than Ru. (Translated by Zeng Yan) Cangyang Gyatso still couldn't figure out why the person he loved so much would betray him, they were so sweet back then.Maybe she was really a peach blossom essence, who seduced him in the form of a woman.It's easy to thank peach blossoms when they bloom, but her feelings are not as sentimental as this early thanked peach blossoms. He blamed her for being ruthless, but he still couldn't figure out why.His heart was crying, but he still remembered how cute and gentle she was, and he remembered her affectionate eyes when she looked at him.But she was already someone else's wife, and everything between them seemed to have never happened. He wanted to go to her to ask what happened.But as the patriarch of the Yellow Sect, how could he do such a thing? !What's more, it was for a person who betrayed him!He should regard her and the past as floating clouds, forgetting all of them, those are not the life a Dalai Lama should have, but the disturbance he endured when he descended into the world.He is the Dalai Lama, and he should regard all this as meaningless past in his life, but why is he still asking in his heart: why, why? When Cangyang Gyatso blamed his lover over and over again in his heart, he forgot that he was the one who left her.Although such a departure was not out of his wish, he did leave, and there was no news of him once he left.He forgot that for a woman, first love is the most unforgettable love, no matter how much pain she has experienced, it is still the love she will never forget in her life.She is not a descendant of wolves, let alone a tree of peach blossoms, she will always have love for him in her heart, even after he abandoned her. Some love is helpless.In this world, not many people can afford it.After all, what people have to face is the secular life.In the face of these decisive loves, all we can do is to sigh, to pour a glass of wine, and to drink into the void. Just like Rigzin Wangmo, how can we bear to blame her?Tsangyang Gyatso's departure took away her heart, she looked in Lhasa's direction desperately, she knew that he would never look back into her eyes.She closed her eyes in despair, what else could she do?Her heart will not change, even if he doesn't know it.She wants to send all the love of her life to hopeless love. After this, how can she have the heart to love others again? But her house is filled with marriage proposals every day.Unmarried women are always the most sought-after.How could her family match their enthusiasm?They also don't want her to die alone, they want to arrange a happy life for her. But only she knows that without him, she is just an empty shell, so what does it matter who she marries?Why don't you satisfy your family's wishes and give the rest of your life to a hopeless future.So, with love for her lover and love for being abandoned, she embarked on the road to her husband's house.This is not betrayal, but helplessness. Only Tsangyang Gyatso was heartbroken by the news.He lost his love, and in the Potala Palace, no lovesickness poems could be heard, only the creaking and silent sound of the prayer wheel.