Chapter 15 Fifteen, Love Tribulation

Su Manshu repeatedly fell in love and ran away repeatedly, making it impossible to guess who he really loves.If she is the peerless beauty in the world, why does she have to let her down again and again? There is such a song, which is sung like this: "I only love one person in my life, and I only make one kind of mistake in my life..." However, who really loves only one person in their life, and who makes only one kind of mistake in their life?No matter how simple life is, there will always be uncontrollable turmoil, just like dust flying under the sun, wanton publicity.Living in this world, you can't find true peace. Even if you are lucky enough to hide in a remote mountain with the one you love and live a life uncontested with the world, it should be a thousand sails in the world. The choice after that, the reason for retiring from the world is because of the need for healing.

It is said that people's love is linked to three lives, and there is even an eternal fate. The debt that cannot be settled in this life will be reincarnated in the next life. It's a real relief.So we come to this world not only to fulfill our personal mission, but also to find the other half of ourselves.Some people are bound by many love affairs, entangled for a lifetime, and exhausted, they still cannot break free from the net of fate.We are the scavengers of the years, the past time is dead, what we can do now is to salvage the debris of the streamer, and pay homage to the beauty that once existed.

The cherry blossoms of that year have turned into spring mud, the azaleas of that year are still crying blood, and the willow branches of that year have become the perfect farewell gift.Su Manshu's love for the first time is like a legend, too beautiful and psychedelic.He is a lonely man walking on the shore of the world, always accidentally drowning in the river of love, he lied that every slip is an accident, but in fact he is willing to rush to death again and again.The turbulent waves cannot submerge his enthusiasm, the tide ebbs and flows, and the clothes wet by the sea will dry again, together with his damp mood.Life is in a hurry, and it seems to be a short time, but it has gone through thousands of mountains and rivers.All the way he sighed that the fate of the world was like a dream, but he pushed himself into the abyss of the dream, and every time he escaped with injuries, such a reincarnation, he had no regrets.

We watched Su Manshu return to Shanghai from Japan, thinking that the weather was calm, but we didn't know that his heart had been subjected to turbulent waves.Su Manshu's trip to Japan this time cannot be described in a few words, because there was an emotional adventure, and the traces left in his heart by this emotion were more sincere and profound than those before.It is said that when fate closes a door for you, it will open a window for you. All dark rooms in this world are self-enclosed.Only oneself can push oneself to the precipice of desperation, and those who are determined will not leave a way out, and everything will be destroyed.

As smart as him, as passionate as him, how could he be willing to seal his heart firmly.The heart is like a glacier, but no matter how deep the ice is, the water under the ice will still flow turbulently.The so-called heart is like still water, it is just for those who have suffered a huge blow. After the wound is repaired, the calm heart lake will be full of waves again.Emotion is like the heartbeat, as long as life continues, there will be no moment to stop.So when Su Manshu met a young woman who was playing the zither on stage at a small concert in Tokyo, his supposedly peaceful heart stirred up another storm.

A woman as beautiful as a butterfly, gurgling zither sounds, dancing like a butterfly, took Su Manshu away from the hustle and bustle to a dust-free place.There are clear streams and streams, birds and flowers are fragrant, and a beautiful woman lives there, and the mountains and forests are her country.This woman is called Baisuke, a Japanese girl who plays the koto. She has a light body, a moving appearance, elegant and charming.Su Manshu's heartstrings were plucked by her graceful and slender fingers, and she was allowed to play the unique sound of nature in the world emotionally.Some people say that this is a love net set up by Baizhu for Su Manshu, but there will be such a stupid woman in the world who will tie herself into it together, leaving no room for escape?

In fact, how careless Baizhu is, she is just a busker who has been reduced to the end of the world.Every day, I use my zither sound to please the spectators in the audience. A weak woman who can't even take care of herself, how can she bother to design others?If there is a fault, it is that she is too beautiful, and that she should not be emotional.From the day she chose to perform as a performer, it meant that she gave up her former self, put on a gorgeous mask, and forced herself to smile at the spectators.She is more afraid than anyone else, afraid that one day, she will fall in love with a certain spectator, and she is afraid that she will fall in love and cannot escape.

Su Manshu is not an ordinary spectator, he doesn't even need to see her face clearly, he can read her mind only in the flowing zither sound - the lonely and helpless mind of a lonely actor, her qin sound is complaining about those A worldly man who doesn't understand style.However, what attracted Su Manshu deeply was the glamorous temperament lingering on Baizhu.Su Manshu has been lingering in Fireworks and Willow Alley in China, met countless talented and beautiful kabukis, loved them, abandoned them, owned them, and lost them.But the unique style brought by this Japanese woman who grew up in the land of cherry blossoms made him fall into the entanglement of fate again.

Because of admiration, Su Manshu rushed to visit her after listening to Baizhu's performance, and Baizhu, who had seen countless people, also read Su Manshu's extraordinaryness from Su Manshu's behavior and charm.That afternoon, Su Manshu and Baisuke made a pot of coffee and tasted it quietly. The rich aroma filled the entire Tokyo.Until dusk, until night, time hastily passed away, and the lingering fragrance still lingers for a long time.Because of the mellowness, it is unforgettable and cannot be forgotten.This feeling, when they think of each other many years later, it is still difficult to suppress the nostalgia for the beauty in their hearts.

This was a long and profound conversation, and it was the first time Baizhu told a spectator about his tragic life experience.The young and suave man in front of her made her feel very cordial. She never shook hands, but she could feel the temperature of his fingertips.Lost to the end of the world alone, she has tasted the indifference of human feelings. She longs for warmth and warmth, and refuses some care that she cannot grasp.Perhaps it was because they were both fallen in the world, their similar experience made them hit it off, and they decided that this encounter was a romantic relationship.Su Manshu thought of Bai Juyi, who was demoted to Jiangzhou Sima thousands of years ago, and the pipa girl he met by the Xunyang River.Could it be that the current life of him and Baizhu was their previous life?In the alley of historical reincarnation, they meet again, he is still the poet of that year, and she is also the actress of that year.

That night, Su Manshu read aloud the verses of "Pipa Xing" to the Japanese woman, telling about a love relationship that has been passed down in Chinese history for thousands of years.The girl playing the zither went to the Tang Dynasty in a dream and saw the first man who wrote poems for her.This man was reincarnated to find her, so Su Manshu wrote the most poems for Baizhu in his life.On that night, Su Manshu wrote a poem for her, "Jasper doesn't have to worry about her humble background, and the fairies from the same country are ecstatic. The cassock is dotted with cherry petals, half of which are fat marks and half tears." Bosom friend, now that bosom friend is by her side, within reach, how can she not be overwhelmed by it? Su Manshu is a legend, and it is undeniable that no matter his life experience, his fate, or his emotions and fate, he is different from any ordinary person.For Baizhu, who is already passionate, this is undoubtedly the illusion and temptation of dreams.He used the mystery of a monk and the deep affection of a poet to impress a lonely woman who is looking forward to love and yearning for love.In the depths of the world of mortals, they have too similar feelings, everyone yearns for prosperity, but they only want to chase a romantic lonely cloud.Walking through the fog, forget the country you are in, forget the dynasty, forget that you are a monk or an actor. This is how Su Manshu knocked on the door of Baizhu's heart that was firmly sealed in the dust. The door she had bound with indifference for many years was pushed open effortlessly by a half-monk and half-vulgar man. She didn't know whether to rejoice or lament. .She naively thought that this long heart-to-heart talk was the beginning of love.She foolishly thought that the first man who wrote poems for him would be her ultimate support in this life.Little did they know, the play had already ended before it even started.Before Baizhu took off today's makeup and returned to yesterday's self, Su Manshu ruthlessly chose to escape again. When Baizhu sincerely planned to make a promise with his body, he would only play the zither for him, under the cherry blossom tree and in front of the bright moon window, but Su Manshu ruthlessly refused in exchange.He was so bad, knowing that they would not be together in the end, he wanted to disturb her peace.The reason for his refusal was so high-sounding that it even made people feel that he was affectionate and suffering.Even if they refused, they replaced it with love poems, thinking that this would relieve the pain of others.But there was no match for him, so he wiped his hair with tears in his eyes and wrote a poem: "Wushe's Lingbo muscle is like snow, and he holds a red leaf cable to write a poem. Huanqing has a bowl of heartless tears, and I wish I could meet when I was not shaved." Hate not to meet each other when he was not shaved, it was just such a poem that made Baizhu speechless, made the world forgive his sins, feel sad for him, and shed tears for him.Su Manshu repeatedly fell in love and ran away repeatedly, making it impossible to guess who he really loves.If she is the peerless beauty in the world, why does she have to let her down again and again?If he is a Buddha with thousands of spiritual mountains, why doesn't he meditate on Zen meditation, but is greedy for the world of fireworks?If it was him, why did he draw scars one after another on his heart? He is a cloud, a wild goose, in love with wandering and floating.It seems that it is beautiful to come and go in the wind, and it is chic to shuttle in the rain.So he can't land, he can only fly, and every time he leaves, he deletes the old dreams and let himself walk in the clouds.