Chapter 64 Chapter 63 The Best You (No.343 - No.347)

I fell asleep on the sofa. It was already one o'clock in the afternoon when I woke up.I actually slept for twelve hours, the bright sunshine hit my face, and the golden world appeared as soon as I opened my eyes, reflecting the embarrassment and embarrassment of last night like a dream. Maybe it really was a dream.I don't allow myself to keep thinking. The adult world is just fine.There was something sad when I was a child, and there was plenty of time to reminisce and be sad.Now work does not allow you to sink, so wash your face, shake your head, and make money with your heart broken.

I have never been to the hospital again, nor have I contacted Yu Huai.I remember that two days later was the day when he returned to the United States. There are so many things I don't understand, but he has made it very clear.Maybe no matter how I change, I'm still that poor Geng Geng in his eyes, and naturally I can't compare to a talented student like him who runs wild all the way on the Kangzhuang Avenue. Shit, who cares. Who cares about you. I closed my eyes and looked up, holding back all the tears. Lin Fan was discharged from the hospital a week later.The three of us went to pick him up, and my dad allowed me to drive with him for the first time.

So I almost chased my dad's tail again. Lin Fan stayed in the hospital for more than four weeks, and there was a carload of belongings packed around the hospital bed, which is really amazing.I watched from afar my dad and auntie Qi busily putting things away and arguing lively, and for some reason I felt that this appearance was quite harmonious. Will Lin Fan still think of his biological father? That kind of family relationship is much deeper than the relationship between Yu Huai and me at the same table for three years, right?I should have more memories of the atmosphere of a family of three created by my parents than I miss Class 5, right?

But it doesn't prevent me from looking at these two people who will eventually be together for a lifetime, and I feel that time is really great, there is nothing wrong with it, and there is nothing I can't let go of. I think, I should also say goodbye to my past, and then leave the rest to time. "Dad!" I yelled at him, "you go first, I have something to do." I couldn't recognize Yu Huai's mother. There are three wards for uremia and similar cases. I went in one by one and walked around. I didn't see a face like Yu Huai's mother, but I saw the dead old woman who almost scared me to death last time.

I remember Yu Huai said that they are in the same ward, so it should be here. Looking around the faces of six people, a woman with a pale and swollen face kept looking at me. I wanted to make out her eyebrows, but she suddenly asked, "Who are you looking for?" The voice is as soft as a feather. I've heard that uremia patients can't do heavy physical work, but I didn't expect to be so weak. "I want to see Yu Huai's mother." She smiled, and the sickly fluffy flesh on her face was piled together, without a single wrinkle, and it was horribly weird. "I am. Are you his classmate?"

"Yes," I nodded, "Hi Auntie, my name is Geng Geng." She raised her eyes slowly, not knowing whether it was because of fatigue or other reasons. "So it was you," she said. Yu Huai's mother and I have nothing to talk about. In fact, I don't know why I came to take a look. Apart from being polite and respecting the elders in the same hospital, maybe it's because of the last little curiosity. Yu Huai's mother seemed very happy that someone came to visit her. She asked me a lot about my work, and kept holding my hand and saying, "That's great, that's great, you're all promising."

So, I can't even remember the original appearance of the fierce aunt at the parent meeting. "Auntie, I wish you a speedy recovery." I was a little embarrassed, "During this time, I didn't bring any flowers and fruits to see you, I..." "Auntie, remember, I wasn't happy to let you sit at the same table with Yu Huai back then, did I?" I didn't expect her to bring it up, thinking that she had already forgotten who Geng Geng was. Do people like to remember when they are sick?Yu Huai's mother patted my hand and didn't wait for my response, just continued talking on her own.

"At that time, I was really afraid that he would not go the right way, and I didn't have time to take care of him. His grandparents were in poor health, and his father couldn't come back from abroad all year round. Of course I had to do my filial piety for him. So I was very impatient with Yu Huai. , do things without considering his feelings. This disease has been born for six or seven years, and many things have been taken care of. I delayed him twice. This time, it’s better to die this time. I know, I'm not dead yet." "Don't say that..." As I said, I am not at all fit to comfort people.

"He has been admitted to Tsinghua University, so I don't live up to it. The family is short of money. If his father is forced to transfer back at that time, the family will have no money to treat me. You don't know, this disease is a bottomless pit. Every week He needed dialysis, but he couldn’t support it. At that time, Yu Huai insisted on giving me his kidney. How could I lose the rest of his life for my old life? After the kidney transplant, he was half useless. There is no end to the road, and when I got the kidney source, I finally spent all my savings on surgery." I was so sad to hear that, I could only hold her hand tightly.

"His father can't come back. After the kidney transplant, the rejection reaction was serious. He had to take medicine all the time. It turned out to be more expensive than dialysis, and he couldn't live without people. Yu Huai told me that he won't go to Beijing anymore." Yu Huai's mother suddenly cried. "He has been admitted to Tsinghua University, and told me he won't go." I stared blankly at the crying woman.Her cry suddenly became very far away in my ears, very far away. Yu Huai went to a key engineering university in the city, took care of his mother while going to school, and managed to complete all the credits within three years.

"He told me that he repeated his studies for a year, and when he was most uncomfortable, his friends sent text messages to persuade him. There was nothing to be sad about. The big deal is that he lived a year longer than others and earned it back. So he worked very hard and couldn't get into Tsinghua University. I worked hard to graduate in the same year as my classmates." Of course I know this sentence. Because I sent it to him. "At that time, my illness had improved, and I couldn't do heavy work, but I didn't need to be hospitalized. I thought everything was fine. But when he said that he would go to the United States to study, I was still worried. My family had no money, so how could I afford it? Him? He said that he got a full scholarship and worked part-time by himself without help from his family. The security deposits were all collected by relatives. I also feel bad. I delayed his last volunteering. I can’t delay this time. him." "Who knows now..." Yu Huai's mother cried more and more sadly, "Do you think I should die?" I listened quietly, unable to say a word. There are too many blessings and disasters in this world.I'm not mature enough to look at it calmly, so I can only hang on to it as nothing to do with myself.But when everything happened to Yu Huai, I really couldn't treat it with a normal heart. "Don't blame Auntie for dragging you to talk. Auntie is suffering in her heart, and she knows that he and his father are suffering even more. If they can't talk about life and death with them all day long, doesn't that make them more uncomfortable? I put such a good one The kid was screwed, he was very happy to tell me that he met you before, and said that you have developed so well now, he felt that he couldn't hold his head up in front of you, and said that he was so old, he might not be as good as you Independence, I feel happy and sad when I see you. I thought to myself, who is to blame? Isn't it all my fault?..." Yu Huai's mother cried like this for a long time, and finally let go of my hand shyly. I don't remember what nice words I said to comfort her. After walking out of the ward for a long time, I finally couldn't help but look back. There are still people coming and going in the corridor.I used to think that the hospital was a bridge between life and death, but I forgot that before the end of death, the long process of dying from death also happened here.It not only tortures the patients, but also the healthy people. In the confrontation with the god of death, the patients sacrificed their lives, but the family members sacrificed their entire lives. I thought that boy with a rough face just couldn't stand up because of a small setback. I thought he was still full of the arrogance of the proud son of heaven, but I didn't know that the boy who smiled and said to me, "Let's sit at the same table together" Young man, thousands of rivers and mountains have passed behind his back. I suddenly saw him in the crowd, walked over with a lunch box, and turned into the ward. He said "I'm going back to America the day after tomorrow", but he didn't, of course he didn't. But I couldn't take the steps to hold his hand again and ask about this long process. I like that Yu Huai back then, the best and best Yu Huai. But are those fragile memories of worship and beautification really enough to bear the sadness of Yu Huai now? He was the best him at the time, and I was the best me later. But the best of us is separated by a whole youth. No matter how hard you run, you can't cross your youth, so you have to extend your hand to say goodbye. I turned around dejectedly, and walked towards the door.