Chapter 23 bitter

According to Feng Youlan's recollection, from the fall of Peking to the time when Tsinghua University's teachers and students moved southward, Tsinghua University was completely empty during this period.Feng said: "The few of us who attended the school affairs meeting still live in Tsinghua University, and what they said was to protect the school. I told the library staff in the library that China will definitely come back. If China comes back, these If the books are lost, that’s not good. As long as I’m in Tsinghua, we have to protect them for a day.... Later, the Japanese army officially entered Beijing, and the Japanese took over everywhere. It is meaningless, but it is actually kept for Japan, waiting for it to receive it. This is the decision to move to the south." "After the decision, those who moved to the south and those who stayed behind cried bitterly and said goodbye."

After the "July 7th Incident", Feng Youlan and Wu Youxun went south to escape. In Zhengzhou, Henan, Feng invited Wu to eat Yellow River carp, and met Xiong Fuxi. The three of them ate and chatted, and almost all topics were related to national humiliation.Xiong likes to keep dogs and tells many dog ​​stories.Many people in Beijing fled, and dogs could not be brought with them, so they had to abandon them.Those dogs, though abandoned, still guarded the door, refusing him to go.Feng Youlan said, this is the so-called bereaved dog, and we are all of them. Feng Youlan dictated the "New History of Chinese Philosophy" in his later years. When he wrote "Modern Chinese Aesthetics: The Founder - Wang Guowei" (Volume Six, Chapter 69 of the book), it involved the issue of "artistic conception" and was associated with "77 "Before and after the incident, I felt sincerely, and wrote a postscript specifically: After the Japanese army entered Beijing, he felt that Tsinghua was completely different from those who stayed behind at the Tsinghua University Council.One night, Wu Youxun and him inspected Tsinghua Garden together. The bright moon was in the sky and it was very quiet. Guarding an academically and educationally complete field for China, Beijing has fallen, and they are still guarding, isn't it serving Japan?A few days later, he and Wu Youxun went to Changsha to look for Tsinghua University.He read Huang Zhongze's poem from the Qing Dynasty: "Such a star is not the same as last night, for whom the wind and dew stand at midnight." He thought that what he wrote was a sense of disillusionment, and he chanted it repeatedly, feeling very painful.After arriving in Changsha, Feng lived in a small upstairs of a friend's house. He often leaned on the railing and looked at the winter plum blossoms under the railing. Life is very profound and painful.

In 1946, Southwest Associated University was disbanded due to the victory of the Anti-Japanese War, and Tsinghua University also moved back to Beijing.In the same year, Feng Youlan was invited by the University of Pennsylvania to give a one-year lecture on the history of Chinese philosophy in the United States, and compiled the lecture notes into a book published by Macmillan Company in New York.During her lectures in the United States, Feng Youlan deeply felt: "When I talked about some old Chinese things abroad, I myself became a display in a museum. I felt very uncomfortable. At that time, I thought, I still have to make my own country better. I often think of two sentences in Wang Can's "Ode to the Tower": "Although you believe in beauty and not in my land, can a husband and a husband stay for a long time?""