Chapter 62 wandering

Su Manshu never talked about his life experience to others, even if he was as close as Liu Jiping and Chen Duxiu.Liu Bannong once talked about his novel "The Story of the Broken Hairpin" in a letter, but Manshu used two words in a row in his reply letter.He replied: "The record belongs to Zixu, I hope you don't need to ask me. ... Unwisdom is like everyone in the totem society, and there is no way to teach the teacher. Today, the disease is rarely cured, and the book "Records of Human Ghosts" has more than a thousand words. If Mr. Yiri sees it, there is no need to ask."

Shen Yanmou recalled that Su Man's background was so different that it was hard to tell.Occasionally made oral statements to Shen, but Shijiu was vague.If Jia asked, he would always say: "Very boring, very boring." There are many speculations about Su Manshu's life experience, and his friends Chen Duxiu, Liu Yazi Liu Wuji and his son also conducted many researches on this. In 1969, Su Huishan, Su Manshu's ninth younger sister, revealed the mystery of Manshu's life experience: his father Su Jiechang had been doing business in Yokohama, Japan for many years, and married his concubine Kawaisen.Hehexian has a younger sister, Heheruo, who came to the Su family with Hehexian, wishing to be Su Jiesheng's concubine.There is a red mole on He Heruo's chest, Su Jiesheng said after seeing it: "Yidang gave birth to a precious son." So he lived together with He Heruo.When Heheruo was pregnant with Liujia, Manshu's second uncle, Su Desheng, hired Su Jiesheng's third concubine Da Chen in China. When he came to Yokohama, he saw Hehexian's sisters and expelled them from the house.Jaishan Su had no choice but to find another house to accommodate the Hehexian sisters. Within a few months, Hehe gave birth to Manshu.

Three months after Su Manshu was born, He Heruo returned to her natal family and later married a Japanese soldier.Manshu lived with Hehexian, and was once taken to Tokyo by his biological mother.When Manshu was six years old, because Su Jiesheng's wife, Huang, was of a young age, and his concubine, Chen, gave birth to a daughter, the eldest son Su Xuting was the only heir of the Su family.Jaishan Su took the opportunity to inform Manshu of his existence.The Su family was overjoyed after hearing this, and immediately took Manshu back to the Su family, and brought him back to his hometown, Lixi Village, Xiangshan County, Guangdong to live.Although Su Manshu was loved by his grandparents, he was repeatedly looked down upon by Huang, Da Chen and others at home.

From the age of 7, Su Manshu entered the village school to study.Soon, Manshu showed his superiority, and his writing speed was extremely fast, which was beyond the reach of others.But he has a withdrawn personality and rarely talks with others. However, once he talks with others, he will argue with others when he meets someone who disagrees with him. In 1895, Su Jiesheng took his concubine Da Chen and his daughters to Shanghai to do business, while his eldest brother Su Xuting went to Japan to study business with his cousin, leaving only 12-year-old Manshu in his hometown in Lixi.At that time, after the Sino-Japanese War of Sino-Japanese War, the people of the country hated the Japanese, and Manshu was regarded as a "heterogeneous" by the people in his hometown alone, and was reviled.Manshu is "reminiscent of his life experience and depressed", so much so that he thinks that he is a Japanese who was abandoned and adopted by the Su family.Later, in his "Swallow's Niche Essays", he wrote about himself in a poem written by his predecessors, saying sadly: "Looking up the lantern with tears in my eyes and stacking clouds of paper, I send it in a sealed seal for thousands of miles. How much money do I have left after selling my son?"

In March of the following year, Su Manshu was brought to Shanghai by her aunt to find her father.He told his father that there are dozens of people in his family, his grandmother is the one who loves him the most, his sister-in-law is quite virtuous, but his aunt and relatives despise him, so he "looks down on everything and is determined never to return home."Since then, Manshu has never returned to his hometown. In April 1897, due to his grandfather's serious illness, Jaishan Su returned to his hometown. Su Manshu, who was studying in Shanghai, lived with Da Chen and suffered all kinds of abuse.In November, his grandfather became seriously ill. Mrs. Da Chen returned home with her daughter and took away all the daily necessities, even the quilt and quilt lining, leaving only a cotton tire for Manshu to live on.The eldest cousin Su Weichun returned home from Japan and passed through Shanghai. After learning about it, he couldn't bear it and bought a new quilt for Manshu.

After Da Chen left, Su Manshu entrusted her uncle and aunt to take care of her, but the situation was still not good.Manshu later translated Hugo's, in which it was fabricated that an aunt forced her foster niece into prostitution, probably as an accusation against the aunt's indifference to her back then. Su Manshu abused her concubine Da Chen, but loved the younger sisters born to Da Chen very much. In the spring of 1898, Manshu went to Japan to study with his cousin Lin Ziyuan. As soon as he disembarked, he learned that a conference was being held here, and hurried to the flower shop to buy all kinds of rouge powder for his younger sisters.The cousins ​​who were traveling with him knew his temperament and laughed it off.

When I was studying at Datong School in Japan, one day, when talking about something in class, the teacher Chen Yinnong said: "Wait for someone to raise your hand for the xiangzi." Japanese "xiangzi" refers to mixed-race children. The mother's mixed-race child is "Xiangzi".More than half of the class raised their hands, and Manshu was among them. Su Manshu's study expenses in Japan were provided by his cousin Lin Ziyuan. Lin was naturally stingy and only supported Manshu ten yuan a month.At that time, students studying in Japan could earn manuscript fees by translating books, but Manshu only went to a village school for one year in the countryside when he was a child, and because of his frail health, more than half of his year's study in the village school was ill. one thing.Manshu can only live in the cheapest "lower dormitory" where the poorest students in Japan live, and eats white rice mixed with lime.But he took it easy and didn't think it was hard.In order to save kerosene costs, he did not light the lamp at night.The fellow resident asked him, and he replied: "I have read the textbooks by heart during the day, so what do you do by burning the lamp?"

In 1903, when his father Su Jiesheng learned that Manshu had arrived in Hong Kong, he went to the China Daily newspaper in Hong Kong to find Manshu and urged him to return to his hometown to get married.Manshu hid in the room and was determined not to come out. Chen Shaobai persuaded him repeatedly, but he sighed and did not answer.Not long after, Manshu told Chen that he had decided to become a monk and was going to a certain monastery to receive precepts.Chen thought that he was cold by nature, so he donated dozens of gold to help him make the trip.A few months later, when Manshu reappeared in Hong Kong, he was already wearing black clothes and sandals.

In March of the following year, Su Jiesheng was seriously ill and was dying. He asked his fellow countryman Jian Shichang to go to Hong Kong to find Su Manshu and persuade him to return to his hometown, hoping to meet his father and son before he died.But Manshu said to Jane: "I don't have any money, please go back first. Uncle. I will borrow money from friends and then go back. If I go back without money, I will be looked down upon by my family." On March 15, Jaishan Su died, Manshu refused to go to the funeral , but chose to go straight to Shanghai. According to Su Huishan, the ninth younger sister of Su Manshu, Jian Shichang went to Hong Kong to find Manshu when Su's father died.Manshu asked Jane: "Is your father alive?" Jane replied: "He has passed away." Manshu said: "If my father is alive, I will go back. Now that my father has passed away, it is meaningless to go back." So he did not return to his hometown for the funeral.

In 1907, Su Manshu met with his adoptive mother Hehexian in Tokyo.At this time, Hehexian was already married to a Japanese businessman, and the purpose of the meeting was to tell Manshu about his remarriage, and to prepare him to meet his husband.About a month later, Manshu met with his mother and her husband.Manshu seems to be quite dissatisfied with his mother's remarriage, so he chooses the place of meeting to be a kiosk used by Japanese for political talks, and refuses to talk to his mother in Japanese. The two meetings are accompanied by his friend Chen Guoquan, who serves as his interpreter.

Su Manshu's adoptive mother He Hexian wrote after seeing Manshu's paintings edited by He Zhen: Zhu Zongyuan recalled that Su Manshu talked with his friends, "every time he talked about his mother, he had a long conversation. Every day, he said: 'I must have the intention of comforting the old man. Photography must be kept in the pocket. Those who have sincere friendship with friends must present their mother's photography as gifts." After the failure of the second revolution, Su Manshu was in the study room, depressed, sometimes lying in bed under a quilt, not eating all day long, and eating five or six bowls of rice immediately.Every time he sighed: "The pain of wandering, is it more painful?" Manshu spoke Mandarin mixed with Cantonese, and pronounced the "ling" of "floating" like "Leng", which made people feel especially sad.Soon, Xu Xue'er, who had helped Song Jiaoren draft the Kuomintang's major political proposals, died of grief and illness.Jiang Kesheng revisited Shanghai, and Manshu frowned.The two drove to the guild hall, caressing the coffin and weeping.