Chapter 29 The shadow of the sun flies
For people after the age of thirty, ten or eight years are just a matter of time.For young people, three to five years can be a lifetime.
"Time is speeding up faster and faster, and the strings and strings turn into strings and strings, and the dying years of the rush are already in sight." This is what Eileen Chang said. The last few decades of her life were urged by light and shadow. Spend in a hurry.She seems to be able to skillfully divine her own life, and when she was young, she was able to predict everything in the future.In fact, the person who admires and understands her the most in this world is Hu Lancheng after all, because only he has said that she is the person who takes care of the water and flowers in the world of the Republic of China.She doesn't need to know the world, everything in this era will come to negotiate with her. In the years after Lai Ya left, Eileen Chang did not live like years, but time flew by.Perhaps when a woman reaches this age, she no longer needs a man who can thrush her eyebrows.So the days without love are no longer regrettable.The world at that time was not peaceful. Whether it was Europe, the United States, or China, it was full of turmoil and noise.But Zhang Ailing avoided all these and walked into her own soul.Close the door of your heart, and never ask the outside world. The wheels are rolling, and the sea of people is filled. Back in time to the previous year, 1966.Because of a person named Ping Xintao, Zhang Ailing's fate was rearranged.This person, whom she had never seen in her life, made her work that had been silent for many years find a stage.Ping Xintao, this is a name that everyone is familiar with. He is the director of Taiwan's "Crown" magazine, the husband of the famous female writer Qiong Yao, and the nephew of Ping Jinya, the owner of the Central Book Company. Due to the influence of Xia Zhiqing's article, Zhang Ailing's fame has set off a wave of upsurge among Taiwanese readers.When Ping Xintao heard the name Zhang Ailing from Song Qi, he felt cordial and happy, and it was a great honor to be able to publish works for her.Zhang Ailing was very pleasantly surprised to hear the news that she could cooperate with Crown.At that time, she took care of Lai Ya all the time, and even the contract was signed by Xia Zhiqing. From the signing of the contract, Zhang Ailing's first work published by the Crown caused slight waves on that island, until it set off decades of wanton waves.It can be said that Ping Xintao recreated the legend for Eileen Chang.The legend of her later years is from 1966 to the end of her life.This process is very long, decades of real time.This process is also very short, but it blooms and fades a few times. Shortly after its publication, the crown took advantage of the situation and set sail, and then published successively, "Zhang Ailing's Short Stories Collection", "Rumors", etc.In this way, Zhang Ailing found her piece of sky in Taiwan. Although she was in the United States, she was in charge of the situation with words.The grand occasion of Shanghai Bund was reproduced in Taiwan.This beautiful woman who once wore a gorgeous cheongsam and walked under the neon lights is no longer young.But not only her writing will not age, but even after years of repairs and worldly decorations, it becomes even more perfect. Zhang Ailing, who was once lonely and proud of the world, experienced a difficult period of writing for survival. She is deeply grateful for Ping Xintao's unique insight.She later said in a letter to Xia Zhiqing: "The only thing I have always asked for from publishers is business ethics. Over the years, although the royalties of the Crown have been two thousand dollars every six months, sometimes doubled, it is my only fixed income..." Exactly In other words, the crown gave Zhang Ailing a stable income, so that she could stop worrying about life and allow her to live a leisurely life in her later years.These harvests are the rewards fate gives to a humble author. Ping Xintao also admired and respected Zhang Ailing very much. He later recalled: "Zhang Ailing lived a simple life, and the letters I wrote were also extremely simple. In order not to increase her troubles, I wrote letters in a few words, telegrams, and even polite I don’t even have any greetings from her. It’s really "A gentleman’s friendship is as light as water". In order to get in touch with her quickly, I usually send letters through the fax machine of a grocery store near her residence. But every time she goes to the store Even if she receives a fax, she may not reply immediately, and there may be a gap of 20 or 30 days. I think she must be very used to this plain but direct way of communication, so we can maintain each other for 30 years. Friendship remains unchanged." The friendship between gentlemen is as light as water. Indeed, light communication can last for a long time.In fact, from the cooperation between Zhang Ailing and Crown, we can know that she is a long-term person, or that she is a person who hates complicated things.Especially when she was old, she didn't socialize with others, but Ping Xintao respected her way and understood her situation, so Zhang Ailing was willing to entrust the writing to him until the end.However, Zhang Ailing moved repeatedly when she was old, which made people feel that she was an unstable person.In fact, it is precisely because she wants to be stable so much that she chooses to migrate frequently. She is afraid in her heart, and she is afraid of any entanglement.Even a falling leaf or a whiff of the wind is an unreasonable disturbance to her. "Aside from writing, her life is very simple. She wants to keep her own life, chooses solitude, even enjoys this solitude, and doesn't think it is hard. She doesn't value fame or money... She has been in contact with Zhang Ailing for 30 years. I haven’t met each other, but I have communicated a lot of letters. Although each letter is only a few words, but the continuous friendship is very precious to me..." This passage was also said by Ping Xintao, which shows that he knows Zhang Ailing, he Cherish this woman I have never met. After Lai Ya's death, Zhang Ailing's life remained unchanged. Apart from revising her old works, she devoted all her energy to translation and writing.In 1969, she also transferred to academic research. At the invitation of Professor Chen Shixiang who presided over the "China Research Center" at the University of California, Berkeley, she went there as a senior researcher.It can be seen that although Zhang Ailing closed her heart at this time, she has not completely isolated herself from the world.When she sees through the scenery, she will never look at the cold cup of tea in the world again. However, for Zhang Ailing, this job is just an understatement.For her, although this job is suitable, it is not very interesting.Especially in terms of interpersonal relationships, Zhang Ailing still goes her own way and never goes to work on time.People who work there rarely meet her.Occasionally, it is like a glimpse of a glimpse, passing by like the wind, and then disappearing. There is a person in charge of doing some auxiliary work for Zhang Ailing, named Chen Shaocong. He wrote an article "Passing Shoulders with Zhang Ailing", in which there are several passages: "I have the same office as her, at the end of the corridor. After opening the door, First it is my office space, and then I open a door to enter, and it is her world. There is only a thin board between me and her, and the sound of breathing and coughing is heard. She arrives at about one o'clock every day, and she opens the door , gave me a little charm, and slipped into the back room like a puff of smoke, and it was rare to see her come out all afternoon. I tried my best to restrain myself, not to disturb her quietness..." "After learning about her loneliness, in order to be sympathetic to her, I adopted a new countermeasure: Every day near the time of her arrival, I simply avoided it and sneaked into the library to chat with others for a while. After making sure that she has safely entered her lonely kingdom, she returned to her original position. This is done entirely to save her the effort to deal with me." Such a vivid description is enough for people to see a real Zhang Ailing.She is withdrawn, sensitive, reserved.And everyone can understand such a woman very well, and even avoid disturbing her as much as possible, and give her respect and respect.She lives in the city that belongs to her alone, and everything in this world is just an inexplicable noise to her.She is resisting, because this world can no longer give her any surprises.There is no one she wants, no one or anything she is attached to. In the end, she couldn't do the job either.When Chen Shixiang saw the research report she submitted, he was "extremely disappointed that the words collected were too few".Chen Shixiang showed the report to three other scholars, but they all said they could not understand it.Faced with such a result, Eileen Chang was not upset, she never expected so many people to understand.In her heart, there are only a few people hidden, and she naturally disdains what most people think.Leaving was a relief for her. In fact, life in California is very suitable for her, simple and stable.In these years, Eileen Chang has lived through the vicissitudes of life, she needs stability too much.Here she writes at her desk every day, expressing her feelings with words, and being a bosom friend with the moon.No one can disturb her, and the remuneration brought by the crown can make her enjoy peace.In Taiwan, she has achieved the status that many writers have spent their entire lives wanting. Zhang Ailing, the woman of the Republic of China, took root in the hearts of readers in this way.She became a legend in the Republic of China, and many people searched for her because of this legend.If these people hadn't disturbed her like this, and let her live in her own isolated island, silently, perhaps she could live a peaceful life in her later years and be more calm and confident.But she is like an ant, afraid of all the wind and rain in the world, running around in panic for a simple nest. It is obviously a snow-colored pear blossom, but it is covered with dust by the wind and clouds in the world.In fact, she is not afraid. If she is really afraid, she will bid farewell to the world.But she still lives stubbornly, so resolutely, so lonely.Like listening to the classic old song on the phonograph, it rotates repeatedly; like the sycamore tree planted in the deep courtyard, guarding the incomplete years, unwilling to grow old.
"Time is speeding up faster and faster, and the strings and strings turn into strings and strings, and the dying years of the rush are already in sight." This is what Eileen Chang said. The last few decades of her life were urged by light and shadow. Spend in a hurry.She seems to be able to skillfully divine her own life, and when she was young, she was able to predict everything in the future.In fact, the person who admires and understands her the most in this world is Hu Lancheng after all, because only he has said that she is the person who takes care of the water and flowers in the world of the Republic of China.She doesn't need to know the world, everything in this era will come to negotiate with her. In the years after Lai Ya left, Eileen Chang did not live like years, but time flew by.Perhaps when a woman reaches this age, she no longer needs a man who can thrush her eyebrows.So the days without love are no longer regrettable.The world at that time was not peaceful. Whether it was Europe, the United States, or China, it was full of turmoil and noise.But Zhang Ailing avoided all these and walked into her own soul.Close the door of your heart, and never ask the outside world. The wheels are rolling, and the sea of people is filled. Back in time to the previous year, 1966.Because of a person named Ping Xintao, Zhang Ailing's fate was rearranged.This person, whom she had never seen in her life, made her work that had been silent for many years find a stage.Ping Xintao, this is a name that everyone is familiar with. He is the director of Taiwan's "Crown" magazine, the husband of the famous female writer Qiong Yao, and the nephew of Ping Jinya, the owner of the Central Book Company. Due to the influence of Xia Zhiqing's article, Zhang Ailing's fame has set off a wave of upsurge among Taiwanese readers.When Ping Xintao heard the name Zhang Ailing from Song Qi, he felt cordial and happy, and it was a great honor to be able to publish works for her.Zhang Ailing was very pleasantly surprised to hear the news that she could cooperate with Crown.At that time, she took care of Lai Ya all the time, and even the contract was signed by Xia Zhiqing. From the signing of the contract, Zhang Ailing's first work published by the Crown caused slight waves on that island, until it set off decades of wanton waves.It can be said that Ping Xintao recreated the legend for Eileen Chang.The legend of her later years is from 1966 to the end of her life.This process is very long, decades of real time.This process is also very short, but it blooms and fades a few times. Shortly after its publication, the crown took advantage of the situation and set sail, and then published successively, "Zhang Ailing's Short Stories Collection", "Rumors", etc.In this way, Zhang Ailing found her piece of sky in Taiwan. Although she was in the United States, she was in charge of the situation with words.The grand occasion of Shanghai Bund was reproduced in Taiwan.This beautiful woman who once wore a gorgeous cheongsam and walked under the neon lights is no longer young.But not only her writing will not age, but even after years of repairs and worldly decorations, it becomes even more perfect. Zhang Ailing, who was once lonely and proud of the world, experienced a difficult period of writing for survival. She is deeply grateful for Ping Xintao's unique insight.She later said in a letter to Xia Zhiqing: "The only thing I have always asked for from publishers is business ethics. Over the years, although the royalties of the Crown have been two thousand dollars every six months, sometimes doubled, it is my only fixed income..." Exactly In other words, the crown gave Zhang Ailing a stable income, so that she could stop worrying about life and allow her to live a leisurely life in her later years.These harvests are the rewards fate gives to a humble author. Ping Xintao also admired and respected Zhang Ailing very much. He later recalled: "Zhang Ailing lived a simple life, and the letters I wrote were also extremely simple. In order not to increase her troubles, I wrote letters in a few words, telegrams, and even polite I don’t even have any greetings from her. It’s really "A gentleman’s friendship is as light as water". In order to get in touch with her quickly, I usually send letters through the fax machine of a grocery store near her residence. But every time she goes to the store Even if she receives a fax, she may not reply immediately, and there may be a gap of 20 or 30 days. I think she must be very used to this plain but direct way of communication, so we can maintain each other for 30 years. Friendship remains unchanged." The friendship between gentlemen is as light as water. Indeed, light communication can last for a long time.In fact, from the cooperation between Zhang Ailing and Crown, we can know that she is a long-term person, or that she is a person who hates complicated things.Especially when she was old, she didn't socialize with others, but Ping Xintao respected her way and understood her situation, so Zhang Ailing was willing to entrust the writing to him until the end.However, Zhang Ailing moved repeatedly when she was old, which made people feel that she was an unstable person.In fact, it is precisely because she wants to be stable so much that she chooses to migrate frequently. She is afraid in her heart, and she is afraid of any entanglement.Even a falling leaf or a whiff of the wind is an unreasonable disturbance to her. "Aside from writing, her life is very simple. She wants to keep her own life, chooses solitude, even enjoys this solitude, and doesn't think it is hard. She doesn't value fame or money... She has been in contact with Zhang Ailing for 30 years. I haven’t met each other, but I have communicated a lot of letters. Although each letter is only a few words, but the continuous friendship is very precious to me..." This passage was also said by Ping Xintao, which shows that he knows Zhang Ailing, he Cherish this woman I have never met. After Lai Ya's death, Zhang Ailing's life remained unchanged. Apart from revising her old works, she devoted all her energy to translation and writing.In 1969, she also transferred to academic research. At the invitation of Professor Chen Shixiang who presided over the "China Research Center" at the University of California, Berkeley, she went there as a senior researcher.It can be seen that although Zhang Ailing closed her heart at this time, she has not completely isolated herself from the world.When she sees through the scenery, she will never look at the cold cup of tea in the world again. However, for Zhang Ailing, this job is just an understatement.For her, although this job is suitable, it is not very interesting.Especially in terms of interpersonal relationships, Zhang Ailing still goes her own way and never goes to work on time.People who work there rarely meet her.Occasionally, it is like a glimpse of a glimpse, passing by like the wind, and then disappearing. There is a person in charge of doing some auxiliary work for Zhang Ailing, named Chen Shaocong. He wrote an article "Passing Shoulders with Zhang Ailing", in which there are several passages: "I have the same office as her, at the end of the corridor. After opening the door, First it is my office space, and then I open a door to enter, and it is her world. There is only a thin board between me and her, and the sound of breathing and coughing is heard. She arrives at about one o'clock every day, and she opens the door , gave me a little charm, and slipped into the back room like a puff of smoke, and it was rare to see her come out all afternoon. I tried my best to restrain myself, not to disturb her quietness..." "After learning about her loneliness, in order to be sympathetic to her, I adopted a new countermeasure: Every day near the time of her arrival, I simply avoided it and sneaked into the library to chat with others for a while. After making sure that she has safely entered her lonely kingdom, she returned to her original position. This is done entirely to save her the effort to deal with me." Such a vivid description is enough for people to see a real Zhang Ailing.She is withdrawn, sensitive, reserved.And everyone can understand such a woman very well, and even avoid disturbing her as much as possible, and give her respect and respect.She lives in the city that belongs to her alone, and everything in this world is just an inexplicable noise to her.She is resisting, because this world can no longer give her any surprises.There is no one she wants, no one or anything she is attached to. In the end, she couldn't do the job either.When Chen Shixiang saw the research report she submitted, he was "extremely disappointed that the words collected were too few".Chen Shixiang showed the report to three other scholars, but they all said they could not understand it.Faced with such a result, Eileen Chang was not upset, she never expected so many people to understand.In her heart, there are only a few people hidden, and she naturally disdains what most people think.Leaving was a relief for her. In fact, life in California is very suitable for her, simple and stable.In these years, Eileen Chang has lived through the vicissitudes of life, she needs stability too much.Here she writes at her desk every day, expressing her feelings with words, and being a bosom friend with the moon.No one can disturb her, and the remuneration brought by the crown can make her enjoy peace.In Taiwan, she has achieved the status that many writers have spent their entire lives wanting. Zhang Ailing, the woman of the Republic of China, took root in the hearts of readers in this way.She became a legend in the Republic of China, and many people searched for her because of this legend.If these people hadn't disturbed her like this, and let her live in her own isolated island, silently, perhaps she could live a peaceful life in her later years and be more calm and confident.But she is like an ant, afraid of all the wind and rain in the world, running around in panic for a simple nest. It is obviously a snow-colored pear blossom, but it is covered with dust by the wind and clouds in the world.In fact, she is not afraid. If she is really afraid, she will bid farewell to the world.But she still lives stubbornly, so resolutely, so lonely.Like listening to the classic old song on the phonograph, it rotates repeatedly; like the sycamore tree planted in the deep courtyard, guarding the incomplete years, unwilling to grow old.