Chapter 11 genius dream
I am filled with the joy of life when there is no human interaction.But I can't overcome this gnawing little trouble for a day, life is a gorgeous robe, full of fleas.
In everyone's life, there will be several paragraphs of deep or shallow fate.It's just the length of time, the gathering of clouds and the scattering of clouds, it's up to you and me to decide.Walking through the crowd of people rubbing shoulders, fate will guide you to find the person who is connected with you.Perhaps no one in this world can accompany you to the end, but we still have to be grateful for those profound encounters. Life is a long and unpredictable long journey. Xiaofeng Lengyue, willows and fallen flowers are just moments of scenery.Those who walk together are not only love, but also indispensable family and friendship.Regardless of whether one day we will become passers-by who turn around indifferently, we must cherish any fate. I thought that a lonely woman like Zhang Ailing should only be a confidant with words, and have a cuddle with loneliness.In fact, we all understand that a woman who loves words should have deeper emotions than ordinary people.Zhang Ailing is the kind of woman who can hide thousands of tender feelings, and there are not many people who can make her fall in love with her.Sometimes she is as cold as a plum blossom, sometimes as charming as a begonia; sometimes as deep as a haze, and sometimes as light as a breeze.Anyone who has read her words should know that in her life, she met not only two deeply in love men, but also friends who went hand in hand through wind and rain. In Hong Kong University, a campus full of flowers, Eileen Chang was often injured by inexplicable loneliness.Apart from studying hard and going to the library to read literature books, her life is very simple.However, there is such a girl who walks into her life inadvertently, making the loneliness that follows her closely go further and further away. Her name is Yanying, and she is of mixed race.His father is a Ceylonian of Arab origin, and he owns a Moshidian jewelry store in Shanghai.My mother is from Tianjin. Because of the transnational marriage, she broke up with her family and cut off contact with her family.Yanying has dark skin, a petite and plump body, and well-defined features.She's bright, fast-talking, and savagely funny.It was this enthusiastic female classmate who changed Zhang Ailing's indifference and melancholy, and made her life in HKU more laughable and interesting. Now you can still see a photo of Yanying and Zhang Ailing on the roof balcony of Yanying's house.Due to the passage of time, the original black and white photos became more blurred.Although the years have left mottled marks on the photos, we can still clearly see the bright smiles on the faces of the two young girls in skirts.Having seen many photos of Eileen Chang, how many of them can smile so knowingly? Later, Yanying's name appeared in Eileen Chang's works many times, and she became the most important confidant in Eileen Eileen's life.Perhaps Yan Ying is not an indispensable part of Zhang Ailing's life, but her existence is like the misty morning dawn, adding a ray of gorgeous clouds.Zhang Ailing was originally an indifferent woman, but she couldn't be indifferent to Yan Ying. Zhang Ailing wrote an article "Yanying Quotations", which tells some life anecdotes of this optimistic girl, so that we can understand the personality charm of this ordinary girl more clearly.Yanying was flipping through the pictorials at the newsstand, but after looking through all of them, she didn't buy any of them.The newspaper vendor said sarcastically: "Thank you!" Yanying replied: "You're welcome." When Yanying buys things, she always erases some change when paying the bill.She does this even in Jewish shops.She took out the contents of the purse and said, "Look, it's gone, really, it's all here..." Such a cute and interesting girl, even the shop owner was moved by her childishness. Yan Ying is intelligent and sensitive, and also quite talented in literature.Zhang Ailing said that she also had the idea of being a writer, and she also actively studied Chinese, and even said a poetic and philosophical sentence. "Every butterfly is the ghost of a flower from the past, coming back to find itself." After reading this sentence, it seems to make us understand a lot.The reason why Zhang Ailing likes to associate with Yanying is not only because she can infect her happy atmosphere, but she can also see the softness and loneliness deep in Zhang Ailing's heart. They share the same fatalism, believe in past lives, and believe in karma, not coincidence, but destiny.Perhaps many people don't know that when Eileen Chang came to Hong Kong for the first time, one of the people who sailed with her was Yan Ying.It's just that they hadn't become destined at that time, but those who are really destined will meet each other even if they turn around. Yanying was lucky to be one of Zhang Ailing's close friends.Or maybe Zhang Ailing was lucky to meet such a warm and cheerful girl when she was lonely and withdrawn.During her study in Hong Kong, the person who watched movies, went shopping, and bought snacks with Eileen Chang was Yanying.The person who walked the campus with Zhang Ailing and talked about her thoughts was also Yanying.Yanying knew that Zhang Ailing, who was silent and aloof, was actually delicate and reserved in her heart.Therefore, she not only cherishes Zhang Ailing, but also has a lot of pity. And Zhang Ailing's friendship with Yanying is also extraordinary.It is said that amorous women love to cry, but Eileen Chang seldom cries.She said later that she cried twice in her life, one of which was for Yan Ying.It is said that once during the summer vacation, Yanying originally agreed to stay in Hong Kong to accompany Zhang Ailing, but for some reason, she left early without saying goodbye.Zhang Ailing was very sad about this and cried loudly, presumably because she was too lonely. They also have a common hobby, which is painting.Zhang Ailing liked painting since she was a child, and Yan Ying also happened to have a talent in this area.Later, when Hong Kong was occupied, they often painted together in order to pass the time.One for sketching and the other for coloring, it can be described as a perfect match.The cover of Zhang Ailing's novels was designed by Yan Ying twice. Her ingenious and clever ideas won Zhang Ailing's favorite. The so-called friendship between gentlemen is as light as water. Although the friendship between Zhang Ailing and Yan Ying is deep, they have always kept a distance.After parting in Hong Kong, they reunited by chance at St. John's Campus.Afterwards, Tianya was separated, experienced ups and downs, and met again.When they are together, they cherish each other.When not together, they faintly miss. In Hong Kong University, apart from the friendship with Yan Ying, there is another unforgettable event, which is very important in the history of Eileen Chang's writing.At HKU, she wrote an article in Chinese for the only time.This is the most famous and outstanding of her early works - "My Genius Dream".I believe that as long as Zhang Ailing is mentioned, her famous lines will never be forgotten. "I am a weird girl who was regarded as a genius from an early age, and I have no other purpose in life except to develop my genius..." This "My Genius Dream" was written to participate in the essay competition for the third anniversary of the "West Wind" magazine.At the time of writing this article, Zhang Ailing was only nineteen years old.However, her brilliant talent is astonishing, her unique literary talent and shocking conclusion "Life is a gorgeous robe covered with fleas" are even more memorable.Finally, a collection of essays was published, and her title "Genius Dream" was accepted. But Zhang Ailing was extremely dissatisfied with the results of the "West Wind" awards, and mentioned this matter many times during her lifetime.When she compiled "Zhang Kan" in the 1970s, she added a postscript at the end of "Dream of Genius": ""My Dream of Genius" won the thirteenth honorary award of "West Wind" magazine essay. The number of words is limited, so this This article was compressed as much as possible, just within this number, but the first place was several times longer. It’s not that I’m still competing with each other decades later, but because it affects the content and credibility of this article, I have to mention it.” According to Eileen Chang's recollection, shortly after the essay was sent out, "West Wind" magazine notified her that she "won the first prize, just like winning the first prize in a lottery ticket."Unexpectedly, I waited until I received the official list of all winners. The title of the first prize was "My Wife". Mentioned with honor'".Zhang Ailing also said: ""West Wind" has never been explained to me in words. I am just a college student." Time has passed, and no one has searched for what was going on in that essay competition.The reason why Eileen Chang is brooding is because she values her writing.In fact, she is not a flamboyant person, her heart is as quiet as a lotus, so caressing about it is for cherishing.But as a reader who really loves her writing, she doesn't care whether she has won any awards, but cares about the endless charm exuded from her books. Eileen Chang is a genius, and the world will show more kindness and tolerance to a genius.Therefore, her eccentricity, her loneliness, and her alienation from the world are all worthy of forgiveness and respect.If we look at her with ordinary eyes and ask for her, then Eileen Chang would not be a legend in Fendai Chunqiu. Perhaps Zhang Ailing has never been a woman who yearns for beauty. She understood at a very young age that life is for slaughter and pruning.So she has never been afraid of being broken, the spring water flows eastward, the autumn moon is incomplete, and how many warm stories will be squeezed dry.Years can afford strong memories, and they can also empty everything out. When we wore gorgeous cheongsams and looked at our graceful figures in front of the mirror, thinking we were all kinds of charms, Eileen Chang watched coldly from a distance.There may have been a short silence, but the words she couldn't bear to say were finally said.Speak so loudly, so crisply, so thoroughly. Life is a gorgeous robe, covered with fleas.
In everyone's life, there will be several paragraphs of deep or shallow fate.It's just the length of time, the gathering of clouds and the scattering of clouds, it's up to you and me to decide.Walking through the crowd of people rubbing shoulders, fate will guide you to find the person who is connected with you.Perhaps no one in this world can accompany you to the end, but we still have to be grateful for those profound encounters. Life is a long and unpredictable long journey. Xiaofeng Lengyue, willows and fallen flowers are just moments of scenery.Those who walk together are not only love, but also indispensable family and friendship.Regardless of whether one day we will become passers-by who turn around indifferently, we must cherish any fate. I thought that a lonely woman like Zhang Ailing should only be a confidant with words, and have a cuddle with loneliness.In fact, we all understand that a woman who loves words should have deeper emotions than ordinary people.Zhang Ailing is the kind of woman who can hide thousands of tender feelings, and there are not many people who can make her fall in love with her.Sometimes she is as cold as a plum blossom, sometimes as charming as a begonia; sometimes as deep as a haze, and sometimes as light as a breeze.Anyone who has read her words should know that in her life, she met not only two deeply in love men, but also friends who went hand in hand through wind and rain. In Hong Kong University, a campus full of flowers, Eileen Chang was often injured by inexplicable loneliness.Apart from studying hard and going to the library to read literature books, her life is very simple.However, there is such a girl who walks into her life inadvertently, making the loneliness that follows her closely go further and further away. Her name is Yanying, and she is of mixed race.His father is a Ceylonian of Arab origin, and he owns a Moshidian jewelry store in Shanghai.My mother is from Tianjin. Because of the transnational marriage, she broke up with her family and cut off contact with her family.Yanying has dark skin, a petite and plump body, and well-defined features.She's bright, fast-talking, and savagely funny.It was this enthusiastic female classmate who changed Zhang Ailing's indifference and melancholy, and made her life in HKU more laughable and interesting. Now you can still see a photo of Yanying and Zhang Ailing on the roof balcony of Yanying's house.Due to the passage of time, the original black and white photos became more blurred.Although the years have left mottled marks on the photos, we can still clearly see the bright smiles on the faces of the two young girls in skirts.Having seen many photos of Eileen Chang, how many of them can smile so knowingly? Later, Yanying's name appeared in Eileen Chang's works many times, and she became the most important confidant in Eileen Eileen's life.Perhaps Yan Ying is not an indispensable part of Zhang Ailing's life, but her existence is like the misty morning dawn, adding a ray of gorgeous clouds.Zhang Ailing was originally an indifferent woman, but she couldn't be indifferent to Yan Ying. Zhang Ailing wrote an article "Yanying Quotations", which tells some life anecdotes of this optimistic girl, so that we can understand the personality charm of this ordinary girl more clearly.Yanying was flipping through the pictorials at the newsstand, but after looking through all of them, she didn't buy any of them.The newspaper vendor said sarcastically: "Thank you!" Yanying replied: "You're welcome." When Yanying buys things, she always erases some change when paying the bill.She does this even in Jewish shops.She took out the contents of the purse and said, "Look, it's gone, really, it's all here..." Such a cute and interesting girl, even the shop owner was moved by her childishness. Yan Ying is intelligent and sensitive, and also quite talented in literature.Zhang Ailing said that she also had the idea of being a writer, and she also actively studied Chinese, and even said a poetic and philosophical sentence. "Every butterfly is the ghost of a flower from the past, coming back to find itself." After reading this sentence, it seems to make us understand a lot.The reason why Zhang Ailing likes to associate with Yanying is not only because she can infect her happy atmosphere, but she can also see the softness and loneliness deep in Zhang Ailing's heart. They share the same fatalism, believe in past lives, and believe in karma, not coincidence, but destiny.Perhaps many people don't know that when Eileen Chang came to Hong Kong for the first time, one of the people who sailed with her was Yan Ying.It's just that they hadn't become destined at that time, but those who are really destined will meet each other even if they turn around. Yanying was lucky to be one of Zhang Ailing's close friends.Or maybe Zhang Ailing was lucky to meet such a warm and cheerful girl when she was lonely and withdrawn.During her study in Hong Kong, the person who watched movies, went shopping, and bought snacks with Eileen Chang was Yanying.The person who walked the campus with Zhang Ailing and talked about her thoughts was also Yanying.Yanying knew that Zhang Ailing, who was silent and aloof, was actually delicate and reserved in her heart.Therefore, she not only cherishes Zhang Ailing, but also has a lot of pity. And Zhang Ailing's friendship with Yanying is also extraordinary.It is said that amorous women love to cry, but Eileen Chang seldom cries.She said later that she cried twice in her life, one of which was for Yan Ying.It is said that once during the summer vacation, Yanying originally agreed to stay in Hong Kong to accompany Zhang Ailing, but for some reason, she left early without saying goodbye.Zhang Ailing was very sad about this and cried loudly, presumably because she was too lonely. They also have a common hobby, which is painting.Zhang Ailing liked painting since she was a child, and Yan Ying also happened to have a talent in this area.Later, when Hong Kong was occupied, they often painted together in order to pass the time.One for sketching and the other for coloring, it can be described as a perfect match.The cover of Zhang Ailing's novels was designed by Yan Ying twice. Her ingenious and clever ideas won Zhang Ailing's favorite. The so-called friendship between gentlemen is as light as water. Although the friendship between Zhang Ailing and Yan Ying is deep, they have always kept a distance.After parting in Hong Kong, they reunited by chance at St. John's Campus.Afterwards, Tianya was separated, experienced ups and downs, and met again.When they are together, they cherish each other.When not together, they faintly miss. In Hong Kong University, apart from the friendship with Yan Ying, there is another unforgettable event, which is very important in the history of Eileen Chang's writing.At HKU, she wrote an article in Chinese for the only time.This is the most famous and outstanding of her early works - "My Genius Dream".I believe that as long as Zhang Ailing is mentioned, her famous lines will never be forgotten. "I am a weird girl who was regarded as a genius from an early age, and I have no other purpose in life except to develop my genius..." This "My Genius Dream" was written to participate in the essay competition for the third anniversary of the "West Wind" magazine.At the time of writing this article, Zhang Ailing was only nineteen years old.However, her brilliant talent is astonishing, her unique literary talent and shocking conclusion "Life is a gorgeous robe covered with fleas" are even more memorable.Finally, a collection of essays was published, and her title "Genius Dream" was accepted. But Zhang Ailing was extremely dissatisfied with the results of the "West Wind" awards, and mentioned this matter many times during her lifetime.When she compiled "Zhang Kan" in the 1970s, she added a postscript at the end of "Dream of Genius": ""My Dream of Genius" won the thirteenth honorary award of "West Wind" magazine essay. The number of words is limited, so this This article was compressed as much as possible, just within this number, but the first place was several times longer. It’s not that I’m still competing with each other decades later, but because it affects the content and credibility of this article, I have to mention it.” According to Eileen Chang's recollection, shortly after the essay was sent out, "West Wind" magazine notified her that she "won the first prize, just like winning the first prize in a lottery ticket."Unexpectedly, I waited until I received the official list of all winners. The title of the first prize was "My Wife". Mentioned with honor'".Zhang Ailing also said: ""West Wind" has never been explained to me in words. I am just a college student." Time has passed, and no one has searched for what was going on in that essay competition.The reason why Eileen Chang is brooding is because she values her writing.In fact, she is not a flamboyant person, her heart is as quiet as a lotus, so caressing about it is for cherishing.But as a reader who really loves her writing, she doesn't care whether she has won any awards, but cares about the endless charm exuded from her books. Eileen Chang is a genius, and the world will show more kindness and tolerance to a genius.Therefore, her eccentricity, her loneliness, and her alienation from the world are all worthy of forgiveness and respect.If we look at her with ordinary eyes and ask for her, then Eileen Chang would not be a legend in Fendai Chunqiu. Perhaps Zhang Ailing has never been a woman who yearns for beauty. She understood at a very young age that life is for slaughter and pruning.So she has never been afraid of being broken, the spring water flows eastward, the autumn moon is incomplete, and how many warm stories will be squeezed dry.Years can afford strong memories, and they can also empty everything out. When we wore gorgeous cheongsams and looked at our graceful figures in front of the mirror, thinking we were all kinds of charms, Eileen Chang watched coldly from a distance.There may have been a short silence, but the words she couldn't bear to say were finally said.Speak so loudly, so crisply, so thoroughly. Life is a gorgeous robe, covered with fleas.