Chapter 17 Section 17

This is just a small town that couldn't be more small. After Jiang Yanrong got off the car with his travel bag, he almost saw the whole town. There was only one street in total, with a few shops scattered here and there.Jiang Yanrong looked around, but didn't see any middle school. When she walked to a fruit shop, she asked: "Where is your county high school?" The owner of the fruit shop looked her up and down and asked: "Are you a new teacher? The school is still forty minutes away!" "Is there a car?" "Yes, there is a car from the Highway Bureau, and there is only one bus at six o'clock."

She looked at her watch, it was only half past three, so she decided to walk.After asking about the route, she hesitated a little, then picked up her travel bag and was about to leave when the boss said sympathetically, "It's hot in the sun!" She smiled and didn't say anything.The boss suddenly said enthusiastically: "Let my girl take you there by bike." Before she agreed, he raised his voice and shouted: "Azhu!" The girl called Azhu came out in response. Jiang Yanrong saw that it was The girl was about sixteen or seventeen years old, with short hair and big eyes, but she was also very pretty.The boss chatted to her in Taiwanese for a while.Ah Zhu nodded, smiled at her and said, "Are you a new teacher?" She spoke standard Mandarin.

"No," Jiang Yanrong blushed a little. "I'm going to see a friend." Ah Zhu nodded again, rolled out a bicycle, and said with a smile: "I'll take you there." She took Jiang Yanrong's travel bag and put it on the shelf behind the car, then patted the front bar of the car, signaling Jiang Yanrong to sit on it.After Jiang Yanrong sat firmly, she nodded to the boss as a thank you, and Ah Zhu stepped on the car almost immediately.The roads in the countryside are not difficult to walk, but due to the typhoon the day before yesterday, the loess roads were muddy, with occasional puddles.Ah Zhu rode skillfully, and asked:

"Where does Miss come from?" "Taipei." "Ah, no wonder you are so beautiful!" The girl's frankness made Jiang Yanrong blush again.Azhu went on to say: "Very few people here wear qipao and high heels." Jiang Yanrong smiled helplessly.Ah Zhu asked again: "Miss, who is she looking for at the school? I graduated from this school, and I know all the teachers there." "Really?" Jiang Yanrong's heart beat wildly. This is an excellent opportunity to inquire about Kang Nan.This time, she came here rashly. She was not sure that she could find Kang Nan. It has been five years, how many changes have been made in personnel affairs?Would he still be in this tiny county high school?Suppressing her excited emotions, she deliberately said lightly: "Is there a teacher Kang Nan here?" "Oh, Teacher Kang? Yes." A Zhu answered straightforwardly: "He taught Chinese."

Thank goodness!Jiang Yanrong was so excited that he almost fell off the car.Think about it, in another half hour, or less than half an hour, she will be able to meet Kang Nan.Kangnan, Kangnan, is he still the old Kangnan?How surprised and how happy he would be at seeing her!His little face is finally here!It's a few years late, but he won't care!She knew he wouldn't care! "Are you from Teacher Kang's family?" Azhu asked again: "Are you his daughter?" "No!" Jiang Yanrong blushed again. "Teacher Kang is very nice, but he doesn't care about others and doesn't play with students."

"Is a teacher Luo Yawen here?" Jiang Yanrong asked. "Oh, Mr. Luo, he teaches physics and chemistry. He is best friends with Mr. Kang Nan, like Mr. Kang's son." Azhu said, walking around a pool.Suddenly, Ah Zhu called out smartly: "Ah, I see, you are Teacher Luo's girlfriend, aren't you?" "No!" Jiang Yanrong said awkwardly. "Teacher Kang is very strange!" Ah Zhu suddenly said another sentence, because he didn't know what it meant, Jiang Yanrong simply didn't know how to explain it.But, Ah Zhu didn't mean to ask her to talk, she took it on her own: "We call Mr. Kang the drunk old man, he drinks all day long, sometimes he gets so drunk that he doesn't even go to class. Sometimes, he came to class and smelled of alcohol all over his body. Once, when he was drunk, he was crying and laughing in his room, and we all ran to watch, and Teacher Luo rushed to drive us away."

Jiang Yanrong's heart ached as if being squeezed tightly.Connan, oh Connan! "Besides," A Zhu laughed, and said, "Mr. Kang is the dirtiest, the room is always in a mess, he doesn't change his clothes, and his shirt collars are all black. My father said that old men don't even like to take a bath." After speaking, she smiled again. Connan, what has he become?Jiang Yanrong felt incredulous.Her neat and unrestrained Kangnan, her tender Kangnan, could it be the old man that Ah Zhu is talking about now?Is he very old?However, no matter how old he is, he is still her lovely, poetic Kang Nan!His position in her heart will never change!But now, she felt an indescribable tension. She longed to see Kangnan immediately, but was afraid of seeing Kangnan again.

"Mr. Kang doesn't cut his hair either. His hair is so long, and he doesn't shave his beard. If his beard grows too long, he just cuts it with scissors," Azhu said again, laughing as she talked about something. Very happy things: "I often come to class with a beard on one side and no beard on the other. Haha, it's so funny, he is a weirdo!" wack!Yes, from the description in A Zhu's mouth, he is not only a weirdo, but a monster!The county middle school is in sight, there are no tall buildings, just classrooms surrounded by rows of wooden houses, but there is a huge open space.Compared with Jiang Yanrong's middle school in the past, this place is simply a slum.When I got off the car at the school gate, due to the high terrain, there was no stagnant water, and the sky was full of loess. The wind kicked up the dust, making it impossible to open your eyes.Ah Zhu pointed and said:

"Crossing the second room in the third row on the right side of the playground is Teacher Kang's house, and Teacher Luo's is in the last room." "Thank you for sending me!" Jiang Yanrong said, opening her handbag and wanting to give her some money. He shouted: "Ah, don't! Don't!" Then, he jumped on his bicycle and drove towards the way he came, as if fleeing from a refugee. After going for a while, he turned around and waved to Jiang Yanrong, and said goodbye with a smile. Jiang Yanrong watched Ah Zhu's shadow disappear.She stood at the school gate for three full minutes, but couldn't summon up the courage to go in.After so many years, if she comes here rashly again, what will Kang Nan think?Suddenly, she felt a wave of panic, feeling that this trip seemed a little too reckless.What would she say when she saw him?Can she ask: "I have come to you, do you still want me?" If he scolds her, what can she do?Moreover, when she came here, she was too hasty and didn't think deeply. Her current identity is still Li Liwei's wife. What does she want Kang Nan to do?

No matter, don't worry about all this!She was eager to see Kang Nan, and to tell her the grievances and longings of the past five years first. The feeling of "thinking about you, remembering you, haunting your dreams" must be as strong as hers!After seeing Kang Nan, discuss everything slowly, and we can always negotiate a result.Now, Kangnan is her big tree, and she is a little vine with nothing to cling to. She must find this tree to be her support and master.When she entered the school, she hesitated again. Is Kangnan still the same Kangnan as before?She felt weak in her legs and could barely move.Now is the time for class, and she is sensitive to the fact that the students in the classroom are paying attention to her.She quickened her pace, then slowed down involuntarily, her heart was beating wildly, Kangnan, Kangnan, how much she wanted to see him but was so afraid of seeing him!There are students on the playground who are taking physical education class. Before she walks to the playground, both the students and the teacher cast curious eyes on her.Her uneasiness deepened.Cross the playground, go to the right, and pass through a corridor. The third row of houses behind the corridor is what Ah Zhu instructed.She was so nervous that her hands were cold, her palms were full of sweat, her heart was beating on her chest like a drum, and her breathing was short and uneven.In the corridor, she saw a large full-length mirror. She walked over and stood in front of the mirror: "I must calm down first! I must calm myself first!" She thought, taking a deep breath in front of the mirror.What a coincidence that there are four words "Sinxin Plastic Surgery" painted in red on the mirror!In the past, there was also a mirror painted with the four characters Zhengxin Plastic Surgery in the girls' high school.Jiang Yanrong looked at the mirror, and then, as if she had been hit by a stick suddenly, she saw herself in the mirror; her long hair draped around her shoulders, even though it was blown to pieces by the wind, she was still curly.The rouged face was water red, and the lips were red and full.A green cheongsam wraps her mature body, and white high heels make her look slim.Sure, she's not ugly, but she's definitely not who she was five years ago!Until now, she was surprised to find that the power of time to change people is so great!She is no longer a thin girl in a white dress and black dress, with short hair and a childish and dreamy face, but a well-dressed, mature young woman with a resentful face.She touched her cheek with her hand, and could hardly believe this fact. At this moment, she missed that little Jiang Yanrong so much.

After standing in front of the mirror for a while, she noticed that some students gathered around, making comments and whispering behind her.She hurried out of the corridor and took out a small handkerchief from her purse.The handkerchief brought out a bunch of keys and dropped them on the ground. She picked them up. They were the keys to the house and the box. Yes, home!I don't know what it looks like now?She didn't lock the door when she left. I don't know if the thief will visit her?Li Liwei didn't know if he went back?Where did he go in his rage?He will never commit suicide, will he?No!He is not someone who would commit suicide so easily!She stopped at the door of the second house. She stood still and pressed her hands on her chest. How could she think of Jia and Li Liwei at this moment?How complex and incredible the human mind is!Looking at the small wooden door, she suddenly lost the courage to knock on it.Kangnan, Kangnan, Kangnan, the Kangnan she missed for so long, the Kangnan she thought she would never see again, is there only such a door between her and her?However, she really didn't dare to open this door, she simply didn't dare to predict, what was waiting for her behind this door?Closing her eyes, she seemed to see Kang Nan opened the door, looking at her suspiciously and distrustingly, then he took her hand tremblingly, and she fell into his arms, followed by a whirlwind Happiness, surprise, and sad emotions like a world away.Really, she was almost dizzy.Open your eyes, the door is still closed.Taking a deep breath, she raised her hand and knocked on the door.She heard movement and the door opened.She hardly dared to look, but she saw it, and she immediately felt a relaxed feeling like liberation.The one standing inside the door was Luo Yawen instead of Kang Nan.Now, Luo Yawen was looking at her in confusion, apparently he hadn't turned his mind around yet, so he couldn't figure out who was standing at the door?But then, he was greatly surprised: "It's Miss Jiang?" He asked suspiciously. "Yes." She said softly, very disturbed. Luo Yawen's surprise did not dissipate, he was taken aback for a while, and then said: "Come in and sit down!" Jiang Yanrong walked in, and a mixed smell of tobacco, wine and rotten smell hit her nostrils.She stood in the middle of the house in bewilderment.Really, it was a room that couldn't be more messy.A bamboo bed was piled with quilts, books, clothes, and some peanut skins.There were empty wine bottles at the foot of the bed, and not a single well-placed book on the shelves.There are cigarette butts and ash all over the floor, as well as students' examination papers, and there is not even an inch of space on the desk, which is full of students' exercise books, composition texts, and books.There were also empty wine bottles, a plate of moldy side dishes, and many strange things that could not be described.This room is not so much for people to live in, as it is more appropriate to say that it is a dog kennel.Jiang Yanrong glanced around and stood there blankly, not knowing what to do.After a long time, Luo Yawen vacated a chair for her to sit on, and said: "Miss Jiang is from Taipei?" He said, looking keenly at Jiang Yanrong and her travel bag. "Yes." Jiang Yanrong said, and sat down awkwardly. They were silent for a while, and then both regained some composure with each other, and the initial tension disappeared.Luo Yawen said: "Kang Nan went to class. Composition class, two classes together, will end at five o'clock." "Yes." Jiang Yanrong responded. "Come here—" Luo Yawen said tentatively, "Are you looking at him?" how to say?Jiang Yanrong sat speechless, hesitated for a long time, and said mechanically: "Yes." Luo Yawen looked at her.Then say: "We saw your wedding announcement in the newspaper. How are you doing?" How to say?Jiang Yanrong frowned, bit her lip, and raised her eyes to look at Luo Yawen.Luo Yawen continued to ask: "Is there a baby yet?" Jiang Yanrong shook her head. "No." Luo Yawen was silent for a while, and Jiang Yanrong also sat silently.Then, Luo Yawen suddenly said, "Didn't you have a good time?" Jiang Yan looked at Luo Yawen anxiously, and smiled wryly.Luo Yawen stared at her thoughtfully, his face serious and composed. "May I ask, what is the purpose of your visit this time?" He asked straightforwardly. "I—" Jiang Yanrong said in a panic and panic, "I——don't know." Yes, what is she here for?What did she say?She felt completely confused, confused, she couldn't analyze what she was doing at all. "Are you divorced?" Luo Yawen asked. "No, no, not yet." "So you're just visiting, aren't you?" "I—" Jiang Yanrong raised her head, determined to face the reality, and told Luo Yawen everything. "I had a falling out with my husband, so here I am." Luo Yawen looked at her with a serious expression on his face. "Miss Jiang," he said, "over the years, your temper has not changed much, you are still so emotional, so impulsive." He paused and said, "To be honest, Miss Jiang, if I were you, I wouldn't Let's go this way." Jiang Yanrong looked at him blankly. "Kangnan is not the same Kangnan as before," Luo Yawen said with a sigh, "he doesn't have the energy to fight all kinds of forces to fight for you. At present, you are still a married woman. For him, it is still the same as before , is unattainable. Even if you are free, today's Kangnan can't be combined with you. He is not the Kangnan you knew before. Look at this room. I have sorted it out Everything is the same as this house, do you understand? To put it cruelly, he is now sick and dirty, old and confused, drunk all day long, and knows nothing about human affairs!" "I ruined Kill him!" Jiang Yanrong said softly, lowering her head: "However, I can make up for it, with me, he will recover..." "Really?" Luo Yawen sighed again: "You are still so naive! How could he have you? You are Mrs. Li now, his surname is Li, right?" "I can get a divorce!" "Do you think the divorce can be settled smoothly? Even if your husband agrees to the divorce, will your parents agree to your divorce to marry Kang Nan? I'm afraid they should sue Kang Nan for seducing a married woman and harming the family." What's more, Miss Jiang, you and Kang Nan will never be happy, if you meet Kang Nan, you will understand. Fantasy love is much more beautiful than reality." Remember, yes, she can't get a divorce done, and the opposition around her is still there.She can never belong to Kang Nan! "Besides, Ms. Jiang, do you know about Kang Nan's work here? I can't teach the third and second grades of junior high school, and I can't teach the second grade of junior high school. Now I'm teaching the first grade of junior high school. This is his revised composition. Take a look!" Luo Yawen handed over A copy of the composition came over, and Jiang Yanrong opened it to look. The word "read" was written in a red pen, and the word "B" was written in front of it, but the whole text was not changed.Jiang Yanrong recalled their notebooks before, his comments paragraph by paragraph, deleted and corrected word by word, and now it has changed to this point, her nose is sore, her eyes are hot, and her vision has become blurred. "You know, if he loses this job, he will really have to beg for food. Miss Jiang, don't give others information about attacking him, he can't stand any hardships and twists and turns!" Jiang Yanrong sat silently, Luo Yawen's The analysis was so clear and precise that it was impeccable.She was at a loss and didn't know what to do. She only felt sore in her heart and dizzy in her mind. "You know," Luo Yawen said again: "Even if all opposition is gone, he can't be your husband anymore. He can't even support himself now, so he can't bear you anymore. He can't really endure hardships, He can't do without cigarettes and alcohol, and the cost of these two items is already more than his salary." "Can't he quit?" Jiang Yanrong asked weakly. "Quit?" Luo Yawen smiled wryly: "I don't think it's possible. Over the past few years, he has given up on himself quite a lot. I don't leave here because of him. I have to stay here to take care of him. Fortunately, he has been better recently Now, he is learning to face the reality. Miss Jiang, if you still love him, it is best not to disturb him anymore. Now, calm is more important to him than anything else. Or, after another period, he can cheer up. Currently , don't bother him! If I were you, I wouldn't see him!" Jiang Yanrong looked at Luo Yawen beggingly. "Don't you see him?" she asked suspiciously. "Yes," Luo Yawen said affirmatively, Jiang Yanrong felt that he had the power to dominate people. "Think about it, what good is meeting him for you? Other than confusing him again?" "Mr. Luo, I can stay and help him," Jiang Yanrong said enthusiastically, "I can do things for him." Everything has brought him back to life, I can help him correct his papers, tidy up his room, and serve him..." "What will others say?" Luo Yawen asked calmly: "What will your husband do? What will your parents do? Even this school does not allow your existence. Students will speak, teachers will speak, and the principal will also Speaking, in the end, it just knocked off his job and put both of you in a desperate situation, think about it again, don't you?" "If I get a divorce..." "Isn't it the same? Your parents won't let go easily, public opinion won't stop attacking, and there won't be a place for you in this world." He sighed again: "Miss Jiang, remember my five years ago If so? You are just a pair of lovers, not a pair of predestined people. If you are smart, leave here before he comes back from get out of class! It is the most sensible for you and him. You love him, don’t destroy him It's gone!" Jiang Yan was terrified, every word and sentence of Luo Yawen was deeply struck into her heart, she felt a chill down her back, and her hands were covered with cold sweat.Yes, she has ruined Kangnan enough, she can't ruin him anymore!She looked around in a daze, longing to catch something, to support her, to help her.The big tree she relied on is gone, where will this little vine of hers cling to, and where will she rely? "Okay," she said weakly and feebly, "I'm leaving here!" Luo Yawen looked at her deeply, and said earnestly: "Don't think I'm driving you away, I'm doing it for your own good, do you understand? I've been poor all my life, and I've traveled all over the world. I haven't worshiped anyone, but I worship Kangnan. He once saved me from a difficult situation. Now, I will do my best to take care of him, believe me, Miss Jiang, I love him too!" Jiang Yanrong's tears were blurred, she looked at her watch, it was already 4:40, so, in another 20 minutes, Kang Nan was going to finish class.She stood up and picked up the travel bag. For a moment, she felt that her future was uncertain and she didn't know where to go.Luo Yawen stood in front of her and said, "Now, where are you going?" where?The world is so big, but she has nowhere to go! "I have somewhere to go." She said hesitantly.Reluctantly swallowed a hard lump wriggling in the mouth of the throat. "At 5:10, a train from the Highway Bureau arrives at the town's train station. At 6:30, a train leaves for Taipei. At 7:10, a train goes south." Luo Yawen said. "Thank you!" Jiang Yanrong said, walking towards the door full of misery. When she came, she really didn't expect to leave without seeing her face.Kangnan, her Kangnan, was just a shadow in her dream. "Miss Jiang," Luo Yawen held the door and said enthusiastically, "You are the bravest girl I have ever met! I admire your willpower to pursue love!" Jiang Yanrong smiled wryly. "But, what did I get?" She asked sadly. What did you get?This is beyond what Luo Yawen can answer.Standing at the door, they looked at each other for a while. Luo Yawen looked at his watch. In ten minutes, Kang Nan would be back.Jiang Yanrong sighed, raised her eyes, looked at Luo Yawen silently, and said in a low voice, "Take care of him!" "I know." "Goodbye then!" She smiled sadly, "Thank you for your kindness!" Everything, Mr. Luo." "Goodbye!" Luo Yawen said, watching her back disappear into the corridor in front of her alone, feeling his eyes moist. "A good girl!" he thought. "That's great! The world is sorry for her!" He closed the door and leaned his back against it. "But, this world is also right, who is wrong?" Carrying the travel bag, Jiang Yanrong walked towards the school gate.The travel bag seemed to have become extremely heavy.She walked step by step, her mind was still confused and dizzy, she couldn't think of anything, she just took steps forward mechanically.Suddenly, she felt a shock all over her body, and her eyes were attracted by a figure walking over.Kangnan, if he didn't even change his name, then he would be Kangnan!He was holding a stack of composition texts, walking slowly, his gray hair was messy on his head, his face could not be seen clearly, only a beard was visible.His back was stooped, his steps were staggering, and his two bony fingers grasped the stack of books tightly.Not far in front of Jiang Yanrong, he stopped.For a split second, Jiang Yanrong thought he had recognized her.But, no, he didn't look in Jiang Yanrong's direction at all, he just wanted to smoke a cigarette.He put all the notebooks in one hand with great effort, and reached into the bag with the other hand to fumble. After fumbling for a long time, he brought out a lot of messy torn papers before he found a crumpled and shriveled cigarette. Come.Jiang Yanrong could see his childlike joy, and after fumbling for a long time, he found a box of matches. He lighted the match with great difficulty, and went to light the cigarette tremblingly. Finally, the smoke ignited.However, the large stack of notebooks in his hand was scattered all over the floor. In order to save the notebooks, his cigarette also fell to the ground, and he uttered strange curses.Then, he bent down and groped all over the floor, first found the cigarette, stuffed it into his mouth, and then struggled to collect the notebooks scattered on the ground. When he stood up again, Jiang Yanrong could hear his violent breathing.Grasping the notebook again, he staggered another step or two, and a cough broke out suddenly, he stopped and let the cough pass.Jiang Yanrong could see his thin face clearly, she bit her lips tightly so that she would not cry out, she immediately understood why Luo Yawen asked her not to see Kang Nan, Kang Nan was gone, her Connan is dead!She looked at the hunched old man in front of him. At this moment, he was wiping the spit from the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, put the cigarette back into his mouth, and continued walking forward.When passing by Jiang Yanrong, he glanced at her indifferently, her heart was beating wildly, and she was so afraid that he would recognize her.However, he didn't recognize it, lowered his head, and walked away with difficulty.She understands that she has changed a lot. In five years, everything can be changed so much!She rushed out of the school gate in one breath, covered her mouth with her hand, and leaned against the school wall. "My Kangnan! My Kangnan!" She cried out in her heart, and tears welled up in her eyes.Where did her Connan go?Her poetic Connan!Those deep and affectionate eyes, that half-smile mouth corner, that slightly frowning brow, that natural and unrestrained demeanor, and that unrivaled talent, where have all these gone?Is it all her fantasy?Where is her connan?Is it really like smoke like clouds, like dreams like shadows?How terribly true!She wished she hadn't come and seen this Kang Nan!She also wants her Kangnan, the Kangnan in her dream!Connan she misses day and night!The car from the Highway Bureau came, and she got into the car with a large group of students.Still feeling the sharp pain in his heart, the car drove away, raising a cloud of dust.Kang Nan's hunchbacked and skinny shadow bit her heart like a devil.She looked out of the car window blankly, wondering what was going on in this world? "Who is that woman in the green dress who has been to school?" one student asked another. "I don't know!" replied the other. "Where did she come from?" "I don't know!" "Where is she going?" "I don't know!" The car stopped and she got out of the car.Yes, "No one knows where I came from, and no one knows where I'm going!" She was holding the travel bag blankly, looking at the criss-crossing railroad tracks at the station. "Hi!" A girl greeted her, it was Ah Zhu from the fruit shop. "Going? So fast!" "Yes!" She said softly, yes, I'm leaving!Just don't know where to go.She was still standing, looking at the track leading everywhere, and the evening wind blew over, brushing her long hair. "No one knows where I came from, and no one knows where I'm going!" She recited softly, no one understood, how could she understand herself?Twilight surrounded her in all directions.