Chapter 30 things around

(The room is warm, and the babies are all cleanly dressed. They are lying on rows of wooden beds, some sleeping, some playing, some crying. The nurses who are at work are busy back and forth, their mouths following the needs of their care. hands, introducing those children to Guan Shuyi one by one. None of those children is healthy. It is impossible to describe such a great sorrow. This kind of sorrow is concentrated in this room, without special words, moving descriptions, and tragic narratives. That kind of helplessness, that kind of sadness that can't grasp anything and is empty, stabbed and grabbed Guan Shuyi's tear sac.)

Early in the morning, the newlyweds went out, because the next day was the New Year, the streets were full of tides, and everything was expensive.Guan Shuyi originally wanted to go out with Qin Zhi to buy some things for the orphanage.The 20,000 yuan in the house was a ticking time bomb in the hearts of the young and old. If it was not dismantled, the old couple would suffer from insomnia for a day.In order to save the old man's sleep, Qin Zhi and Guan Shuyi decided to go out to fulfill their wish. However, women must not be taken to the streets. Really, going out turned into shopping for new year's goods.

Guan Shuyi bought some Spring Festival couplets, a statue of the God of Wealth, and the candied melons that the old kitchen prince sent to heaven... She couldn't help spending money, spending the gift money she had only received. In the ears, people's voices converged and buzzed together, which sounded chaotic, but there was a wonderful sense of peace and security in my heart. "I saw a woolen sweater on the Internet a while ago, and grandma wore it very well. There is a special counter upstairs. You can look at the things for me, and I will come when I go." Guan Shuyi put a few plastic bags in Qin Zhi's hand Li, turned and left.

Qin Zhi nodded, bought a bottle of hot drink, occupied a drink seat, and obediently waited for his wife.He enjoyed this feeling very much, the feeling of "I'm waiting, she will come back", very hopeful, very sweet, very satisfied, and very down-to-earth.Get up together, go to the street together, discuss things together, and get busy at home together.In his heart, Qin Zhi is such a person with a sense of small family. The child sitting next to him pointed at the giant bear dancing and dancing at the door of the store to attract customers, crying and asking for it.The young couple helplessly grabbed the child's arm.Under the puppet bear is a big living person. They are afraid that they can't afford it, and they can't satisfy the wish of this little ancestor lying on the ground.

"If you don't get up again, I'll throw you here! I'll sell you!!" the young father threatened. It's a pity that the child ignored him at all, and he continued to roll, and the sound became more and more tragic.To Qin Zhi's ears, the child's cries were as piercing as the sound of slaughtering a pig.Qin Zhi looked at the bustle and felt tired for them.He and Guoguo were right and absolutely right in not having children.Now that Qin Zhi saw a child, he tried his best to discover the noisy, cumbersome, and dirty side that belonged to the child.He knew that he was using this method to anesthetize the roots of a certain Chinese tradition.You can't bite a child, absolutely not.

In the building, the sound of the advertisements turned into bullets along with the music and shot into the ears of the people in the small town, and they gathered in groups at a certain vendor.Just watch, but don't buy.Guan Shuyi jolted down from upstairs and put a large bag of things in Qin Zhi's hands. "This is...a woolen sweater?" Qin Zhi looked at the pile of things in wonder. Guan Shuyi was very proud, she raised her chin, "This is... the whole family's sweater." Qin Zhi pulled her to sit down, "You will also be scolded when you buy it. After my grandma and grandpa finish nagging, your mother will continue nagging. They will nagging that you are broken, and they will swear that they will never buy anything from them again. "

Guan Shuyi shook her head again and again, "No, I told them that it costs 30 yuan for one piece, and 100 yuan for four pieces, and they will only think that I bought it... Uh, guess who I saw?" Qin Zhi followed Guan Shuyi's eyes to see that Dou Jianye was standing in the shoe sales area on the first floor with a bunch of things, and beside him, Wei Qin was trying on boots one by one.Dou Jianye kept giving advice, Wei Qin followed his instructions and kept changing. "Did I read it wrong?" Guan Shuyi rubbed her eyes, a little in disbelief.The people who shouldn't be together the most in the world are together?

Qin Zhi felt nothing.He handed the half bottle of drink in his hand to Guan Shuyi, "What's wrong! They are quite suitable, why can't they be together? The age is up, the emotion is sprouting, and there must be a companion. You To put it bluntly, a full man does not know a hungry man is hungry!" Guan Shuyi turned her back as if she had done something wrong.Although those two people were not around here, she still treated it as a secret and told Qin Zhi confidentially, "They are mortal enemies. They were mortal enemies in the past life, and they will be mortal enemies in the next life. Really, believe me, They get married at least once every seven days, and get divorced every fifteen days. This is a tragedy, a big tragedy! I want to stop them, I must stop them!" She stood up after speaking.Qin Zhi grabbed her tightly.

"Don't get meddled, that couple is pretty good, why isn't it suitable? They also said that I am not suitable for you!" Guan Shuyi glanced at Qin Zhi, "Who said that?" Qin Zhi immediately covered his mouth with a drink bottle and shook his head repeatedly, but he didn't let go of that hand. Guan Shuyi broke free a few times but did not break free, so she had to sit down.She held her cheek, and she no longer had the desire to shop. Thinking about those two people, all the memories were of them fighting and twisting each other, how could they be together?How did they get mixed up? !She couldn't imagine it.

"My wife, I didn't like it at first because I looked at it too carefully. After reading too carefully, I found the advantages. I got used to it, and I didn't care about the shortcomings. What is an enemy? This is an enemy, an authentic enemy!" Qin Qin Patting Guan Shuyi on the head as a comforting gesture. "I've never kept Wei Qin from you about the matter between me and you." Guan Shuyi, who was hit, looked depressed. Seeing his little wife's depressed face, Qin Zhi knew that she had been hit.However, he felt that Wei Qin had done nothing wrong, and if he told Guan Shuyi that he was going to die, he would definitely mess up her attitude just now with her attitude.He absolutely cannot ask Guan Shuyi to do such evil things.This is something to remember and hate for a lifetime, it's too bad.If it really happens, Guan Shuyi and Wei Qin may not even be friends.

"They're bringing their relatives, they can't get married!" Guan Shuyi murmured. Qin Zhi smiled, "You said it, you can't beat the relatives on the other side with eight poles, and the country doesn't object, so you have no power!" "Dou Jianye's mother is difficult to deal with. If Wei Qin marries, she will be looked down upon!" "Is there anyone harder to fight than your mother?" Guan Shuyi suddenly raised her head, and looked at Qin Zhi with a hint of threat from the corner of her mouth.Qin Zhi raised his hands in surrender, "I was wrong. You said all these things about your mother, why can't I say I'm hungry?" Guan Shuyi knocked on the table, with a serious political expression on her face, and said affectionately to Qin Zhi: "Comrade Qin Zhi." Qin Zhi saluted and replied: "Yes." "Comrade Qin Zhi, since you got married, have you noticed that your mouth has suddenly broken?" "not found." "Comrade Qin Zhi, since you got married, I found that you have a strong observation ability on life, and you have learned to imitate. My mother is also what you can say?" "I made the wrong wife. You can say my grandma, I'm definitely not angry." "Don't admit your mistakes!" "why?" "I want to enjoy the quarrel between husband and wife, so that I feel like I'm married." "Okay! Don't admit your mistake, then what?" "Then, just tell me, why didn't Wei Qin tell me? We've been together since childhood, she and Dou Jianye are really not suitable..." "Honey, you are not Wei Qin's mother, this is something her mother should consider, right?" Dou Jianye took a stack of invoices to pay. Wei Qin stood up and looked down at the pair of boots on his feet carefully.Her feet swayed from side to side, with a hint of the delicate and naive look that only women in love possess.Lonely Jianye ran back and gave the invoice to Wei Qin.They were chatting and laughing, with intimate expressions, and occasionally some casual ambiguous actions, which fully demonstrated that the two people had been ambiguous for a long time, and their adultery was born early. "They are not suitable for anything. Poor Wei Qin, what is she going to do?" Guan Shuyi pulled Qin Zhi for help. Qin Zhi was speechless about her carelessness.He patiently touched her head.Take a moment to comfort, "What are you worried about?" Guan Shuyi looked at the happy couple and said: "I am worried that Dou Jianye's family conditions are too good; I am worried that Dou Jianye's mother is too powerful; I am worried that Wei Qin has a bad temper and is too small-minded; I am worried that Dou Jianye is a playboy; Improper, wrong account; I am worried that Wei Qin will suffer a big loss; I am worried that Wei Qin is still obsessed with all this happened; I am worried that she will not tell me if she is injured..." Qin Zhi was moved by the extremely pure female friendship between Guan Shuyi and Wei Qin.Really, in the city he lived in, it was almost impossible for female friends to develop a pure friendship that brought out a mother's love. "Hey...Guan Apple, let's go home! Some things, you can find an opportunity to mention some things appropriately. It depends on Wei Qin whether you listen to it or not. It's immoral to tear people down." Guan Shuyi slammed the table and stood up, "It's immoral if I don't stop it!" Qin Zhi stared dumbfounded at his woman slapping the table, then turned around and ran to the shoe cabinet, just like a big wife grabbing a mistress, Niu B coaxed and jumped in front of those two people.Qin Zhi didn't understand this.He believes that no matter how deep the friendship is, Guan Shuyi has no right to interfere with Wei Qin's feelings, and the obligations between friends should be limited to the end. An hour later, the four found a tea room to negotiate.Qin Zhi didn't understand why he had to adopt a negotiating attitude, and he couldn't understand why Guan Shuyi arranged herself in the accompanying seat—why did he sit next to Dou Jianye, a poor man? The young couple whose secret was discovered sat with their heads bowed, Wei Qin bowed his head in embarrassment, and Dou Jianye bowed his head to play with the cigarette case. "Hey, you didn't do anything to feel sorry for us, did you? My Guan Apple is not your mother, why do you have such an attitude?" Qin Zhi thought so in his heart, but he didn't dare to say it. "Crack!" Guan Shuyi patted the glass table. ?? The two men trembled and lowered their heads even lower.Qin Zhi didn't understand even more, how inferior were they to Guan Apple? "When did it start?!" Guan Shuyi asked very seriously, her expression was exactly that of Guan's mother II. Wei Qin played with her fingers and murmured, "The second day after your wedding." The attitude of those two people is really strange.They were sneaky, occasionally raising their heads, their eyes met, but they immediately avoided it. Qin Zhi shook Guan Shuyi's hand, her hand was cold, even trembling.Qin Zhi was a little surprised, he felt that this matter was a bit of a fuss, and wanted to persuade him, but when he raised his head and saw Guan Shuyi's cheeks covered with tears, he still kept his mouth shut. Guan Shuyi organized the conversation for a long time, cleared her throat, and finally said: "Dou Jianye, according to your conditions, you can find anyone, really, why Wei Qin? You know, next, your mother will hurt her, People around her can hurt her, and you, you can't protect her—you haven't learned that, you never will." Dou Jianye raised his head, looked at Wei Qin, and at Guan Shuyi who looked distrustful.Wei Qin smiled at him with the corners of his mouth pulled. For a moment, Dou Jianye thought that he should indeed have a clear attitude.These days, from the weird start in the meeting room to the time they walked together, he didn't know what he really liked about Wei Qin. "Xiaoguan knows me very well." He started awkwardly. Guan Shuyi nodded and sneered, "Yes, you can do nothing but play games and escape from life. If you were born in an ordinary family, it would be easy to explain, but your family is different. Your elder brother is very good, so you should be able to do it too, but I never saw you try." Wei Qin wanted to defend Dou Jianye with a few words. After thinking for a long time, he found that Dou Jianye was extreme, chronically depressed, sensitive, and easily hurt. Yes, why did he like him?Do you sympathize?She sat there, not knowing how to get the support of her friends.She and Guan Shuyi are both women from small towns, and their innate instincts limit their yearning for love, and they pay more attention to practical things.Just a few months ago, Wei Qin was an absolute suitor. A boyfriend doesn't have to be too tall, just be a little taller than yourself. You don't have to make too much money, just enough for the two of you. You must have a house, as long as it belongs to you. Academic qualifications don't have to be very good, but it's good to be able to talk about common topics once in a while. You don't have to be too handsome, as long as you know how to be responsible. Now, this pair of best friends have found a boyfriend who has absolutely no intersection with their lives.Guan Shuyi can still use some reasons to explain this problem, because she is full of strong motherhood, and this motherhood is exactly what Qin Zhi needs.But what about Dou Jianye?He has a good family background, is tall, looks good, and has a mediocre education, and he is a person in a completely different world from himself.Wei Qin's heart was fluctuating, but it was impossible for her to leave Dou Jianye.She's in it, totally in that. Dou Jianye picked up the tea and poured himself a cup.Qin Zhi helped him fill it up with a wink. After drinking a few more glasses of water, Dou Jianye finally organized what he wanted to say.He raised his head, with a firm goal, and fixed his eyes on Guan Shuyi, with a hint of compliment, a hint of pleading, and a hint of seeking understanding.His tone was solemn, perhaps, he had never been so serious in his life. "When I was young, everyone liked to compare me to my brother, but I was not as smart as my brother. No matter how hard I tried to study and work... Heh... everyone's talents and opportunities are different. Yes, my brother has suffered with his parents. When my parents started their business, my brother took me to live and suffered a lot. "However, because I have suffered less, it becomes easy to forgive myself. I am not as good as my brother's handwriting, I am not as good as my brother, I am not as good as my brother, I am not as good as my brother, I am not as good as my brother, I am not as good as my brother. In business... I have nothing but that same last name. "I'm jealous of my brother, I hate everyone. I've been competing with my brother, myself, and my parents since I was in school. I worry about this, I worry about that, I worry about this, and I become It's getting worse and worse, and the quality is getting lower and lower. "I like Wei Qin. She never mentions my brother or my family in front of me. She loves to control me, everything, playing games, smoking, and sleeping time. Stay with her She scolded me all the time, most of what she scolded me was not because I didn't live up to expectations..." Dou Jianye looked at Wei Qin, Wei Qin smiled at him, and he continued, his tone becoming more and more firm. "She thinks that I can't take care of myself, she loves me, she loves Dou Jianye, how dare Dou Jianye not love her? I am a person who likes to show off among my friends, speaks acrimoniously, and is very unpleasant. I know, They like to be with me. It's also for my parents' face, my brother's face, and my family's money that is impossible to give them. Although I am stupid, I know how to use these things. "From being sensible, teachers, society, companies, no matter how excessive things I have done, there will always be someone to solve them for me, whether it is skipping school, dating early, fighting, dyeing my hair, or failing all the exams. I work I can't do well, willful, extreme, and swearing. The more people there are, the crazier I am. They look at me with envy and contempt. I know, but this is my life, my home, and I can What should I do? You should laugh at my ignorance. In fact, every family has a problem, a defect that cannot be solved. And I, I play such a role in my family. Look, what is it? Someone has to do it. If I pass my brother, there will still be other problems, right?" Guan Shuyi didn't know how to answer Dou Jianye's words, she seemed to be shocked.In her opinion, Dou Jianye shouldn't be so clear-headed, but he is so clear-headed. Qin Zhi looked at the man in front of him who was forced to talk about all his unbearable things. At this moment, he seemed to see Zhang Zhengnan, but it was not Zhang Zhengnan. Dou Jianye took out his wallet from his body, took out a card and put it on the table, with a self-deprecating smile, he said, "I want you to rest assured, really, Xiao Guan, I want to put myself here very frankly." , makes you feel at ease. If you are at ease, Wei Qin will be at ease. There are about 400,000 yuan in this card. Over the years, I have quietly acted as an agent for the brewery, and I still made some money that has nothing to do with my family." "I bought a house. I bought it the year before last. Wei Qin has been there, and she likes it very much. The house is not big, just over 80 square meters. It's a house I've been paying for for many years. I think... I want to be with Wei Qin, and I will never compare myself with anyone else. You see, I am a worthless Dou Jianye who only knows how to play games, but at least I will not shirk my responsibilities. Please believe me, I will not put my family Things are intertwined with my life. If my parents really want to hurt Wei Qin, then we will walk away and I will find a job. I am not good, but I think... I am in my future home, It can be regarded as a pillar. What others think is their business. As long as Wei Qin is willing to rely on me, I am willing to work for her. Really, I will give Wei Qin the money now... " Dou Jianye stuffed the card into Wei Qin's hand, but Wei Qin refused to accept it.They were twisting together, twisting and twisting, Wei Qin suddenly hugged Dou Jianye, and cried out loudly. Qin Zhi picked up Guan Shuyi's coat and helped her put it on, took Guan Shuyi's hand who was at a loss and smiled, and smoothed her hair. "I said, let's go back. Friends, sometimes you need to stop. You did a good job." Guan Shuyi didn't resist anymore, and let Qin Zhi pull her away from here.The moment the door was closed, Qin Zhi glanced at the weeping couple hugging each other. Qin Zhi thought, Dou Jianye is still different from Zhang Zhengnan.This Dou Jianye at least knows what he wants and how to do it, and he will work hard silently to shoulder his responsibilities.As for Zhang Zhengnan, um...it's really hard to say which category he belongs to! One hundred sets of children's clothes, thirty boxes of snacks and candies, plus twenty thousand yuan.Qin Zhi and Guan Shuyi have been preparing all day, and they are finally ready.Qin Zhi rented a tool cart to pull these things, and went with Guan Shuyi to fulfill grandma and grandpa's wish. The orphanage in the small town was hard to find, so they asked several friends to find out the address. Before leaving the house, Grandma Qin instructed Qin Zhi to bring several large bags of clothes that the elderly would not wear.Qin Zhi looked through the clothes, many of them were new.The old people save, save and save, and the result is that they save more and more, but their bodies are always old and they don't change them all year round. The young couple sat in the tool cart and chatted all the way.Guan Shuyi was inexplicably excited.Qin Zhi didn't understand why she was so excited.Guan Shuyi explained: "I haven't done good deeds for a long time, and the mood of doing good deeds is really good, I feel that I have become noble." Qin Zhi was dumbfounded, and grabbed her hand speechlessly. "Let's go, and if we see fate, we can bring it back and raise it, okay?" Guan Shuyi said with a hint of jokes and a hint of coquettishness. Qin Zhi still didn't speak, and still held her hand silently. The tool cart slowly came to the orphanage.Guan Shuyi opened the car door and looked at the courtyard in surprise.The small town is not big. Guan Shuyi has walked through this street countless times since she was a child. She has seen it from the window of a bus, she has seen it from the window of a taxi. Know that this is the welfare home. They stood in the yard for a while, looking around, but the warm reception scene they had imagined did not appear. After a while, a janitor opened the door, looked at them, and walked over slowly.He first looked at the symbols on the car door, and then at the cargo in the back of the car, and said in a flat tone: "Which unit are you here to show love for? It's the Chinese New Year, and everyone is on holiday. No one is there!" Guan Shuyi was embarrassed and didn't know how to answer.Qin Zhi came over and handed the old man a cigarette.The old man looked at the sign and stuffed the cigarette into his mouth.Qin Zhi hurriedly helped, and said, "Master, we don't belong to any unit, we came here by ourselves. Look for whoever you want, as long as we put our things down." The old man was even more strange. He turned around and went into the reception room to make a phone call, and greeted them with his head: "Come in, it's warm in here." The reception room was really warm. Qin Zhi and Guan Shuyi sat for a while, feeling more and more boring. "There's an exhibition room over there. I'll take you to see it?" The old man stood up, took out a bunch of keys from a drawer, opened a door leading to the inner building on the side, and turned to him. Guan Shuyi and Qin Zhi looked at each other, so they stood up and followed the old man to the inner building. Qin Zhi and Guan Shuyi strolled around the exhibition room. At first they looked at the photos on three walls very seriously, but after looking at one wall, they felt a little helpless.One pile of those photos is the inspection by the leaders, and the other pile is the love offered by the major units.There are boxes of food and supplies piled up in front of each photo, and the people behind the boxes are smiling and holding some children, all of which are the same. · Really Guan Shuyi curled her lips, probably feeling hypocritical, she pulled Qin Zhi to leave.The old man sweeping the dust with a feather duster by his side looked at them sideways, but he said to himself: "Do you think it's hypocritical? In fact, it would be good if there were more hypocrisy. This In the past two years, many people have eaten so much that their mouths are full of oil, but when they turn around, they say that life is hard to meet everyone. If you have money in your pocket, you would rather waste it than be hypocritical." Qin Zhi smiled embarrassingly, so he had no choice but to drag Guan Shuyi and continue to look interested. A gust of north wind rattled the windows, and there was a faint cry of a child on the second floor.Guan Shuyi ran out of the exhibition room, stood at the entrance of the building listening for a while, and wanted to go up. Unexpectedly, there was a locked iron door at the entrance of the corridor.That door divides the world into two halves, one half has the cry of a child, but the other half cannot go up.Guan Shuyi was a little anxious. On the waist of the cleaning old man, the bunch of keys rattled, but he didn't open his mouth and didn't look at them. Guan Shuyi looked eagerly through the door, and saw a little girl in a flowered dress poking her head on the stairs. "Baby, come down!" Guan Shuyi called out the candy in her pocket. The little girl ran down the stairs.Xu Shi ran in a hurry, and when she came to Guan Shuyi, she squatted down instead of picking up the handful of colorful candies. Guan Shuyi also squatted down, looking at the child curiously.She admits that she is curious, this is her first contact with orphans, her first contact with the world. This little girl was wearing a pink floral dress with a bag of rice on her chest.She squatted and rested for a while, then stood up slowly, and stretched out her little hand from the railing. Guan Shuyi was startled.This child's lips and fingernails are all purple, dark purple. "Lili has congenital heart disease." An explanation came from behind.Guan Shuyi turned her head, and there was a short gay man in his mid-thirties standing there with a smile on his face.Qin Zhi stood not far away without making a sound, and did not come over. The gay man first introduced himself as Guo, then vigorously shook hands with them, saying "thank you" and "sorry". "The leader is not here, I am helping in the cafeteria, neglect, neglect, neglect!" "Why did you lock the child up?" Guan Shuyi pointed to the iron gate with a questioning tone in a bad tone. Comrade Guo explained in a good-tempered manner: "Many children are grown up and run around all over the building. If they are not careful, it will be bad if they run out. You see, if Lili runs out and gets sick, there is no one around. what to do?" Guan Shuyi didn't speak any more, and looked at Qin Zhi as if asking for help.Qin Zhi walked over, but didn't face her.He apologized to Comrade Guo with a polite smile: "I'm sorry for causing you trouble. Let's put down our things and leave." Comrade Guo quickly waved his hand and said it was all right, but then pointed to the reception room on one side and said, "Shall we take a tour first?" "Can I go in and see the children?" Guan Shuyi still asked. Comrade Guo said apologetically: "We don't accept visitors here. Look..." "Please, I just want to see the children. I've been thinking about it all day, when I'm shopping, and when I'm buying clothes. If I don't see it, I won't give up." Guan Shuyi begged, even if Qin Zhi squeezed her palm hard, but she still begged paranoidly. Comrade Guo looked puzzled, thought for a long time, gritted his teeth, and made up his mind to refuse, saying: "Children have their own lives, and they are not for people to visit." Qin Zhi sighed slightly, and said, "Comrade, it's like this. I'm also an orphan. We just got married. The old man in the family gave us 20,000 yuan and asked us to send it anyway. We really are not visiting, I The wife just wants to see the child, and we have no malice at all. Can you tell your leaders about it?" "Hey, why haven't I seen you? Which orphanage did you grow up in?" The old man who was ignoring the porter was suddenly very interested, and asked with a smile on his face.At this moment, there was a smile on his face that he didn't have just now, and he even touched Qin Zhi's head, just like treating his own grandson. "I was adopted." Qin Zhi explained.He stood motionless, allowing the old man's somewhat rough hand with hair hanging up and down to stroke him. The old man touched it for a while, and then asked with concern: "Is the house that took you in good for you?" "Okay." Qin Zhi replied with one word. A female childcare worker ran down the stairs, bent down and picked up Lili, who was eating candy, opened the door and walked out, asking loudly, "Which unit is this offering love?" The young couple was suddenly embarrassed again. On the other side of the aisle, Xiao Guo called for a while, and finally came back and told them they could go up. Guan Shuyi turned her head to call Qin Zhi, but Qin Zhi shook his head.His smile was forced, and his voice of explanation was also forced, "You go, I won't go." Ever since seeing Lili just now, Qin Zhi has started to feel wrong.Guan Shuyi really wanted to comfort him, but this was not the time. Guan Shuyi clapped her hands at Lili who was lying in the nurse's arms, and the little girl hugged her obediently.This girl doesn't seem to understand what life is. No one taught her to be shy, and no one told her not to go with strangers when they came.The children here are like this, if you want to hug, she will give you a hug. Seeing Guan Shuyi disappearing on the stairs, Qin Zhi stood there motionless and waited. "I made dumplings, do you eat them? I brought oil for you?" The concierge extended his hand, pulled Qin Zhi, turned around and left. The old man's voice was hoarse but gentle, just like his own grandfather.By coincidence, Qin Zhi went with him without a trace of resistance.The people here made him feel a little familiar, as if he had been here before.The smell on this old man's body, and the smell on that Lili's body, he seemed to have smelled it before, very familiar, but he didn't know what it was, when and where it happened in his memory. Guan Shuyi's heart was very soft. Ever since she entered the nursery on the second floor, her tears hadn't stopped.The children here are well looked after, really well, but she is just sad, unspeakably sad. The room is warm, and the babies are all cleanly dressed. They lie on rows of wooden beds, some sleeping, some playing, and some crying.The childcare staff at work were busy back and forth, their mouths following their hands, introducing those children to Guan Shuyi one by one.None of those children were healthy. There is no way to describe such a great sorrow.This kind of sadness is concentrated in this room. There is no special vocabulary, touching description, and tragic narrative. Tie it, hold it. These children were also conceived from the warm womb of their mothers. Perhaps their mothers had expressed their expectations ten thousand times when they were conceiving, but they were abandoned in the blink of an eye because of their incompleteness. After being abandoned, they were gathered here by the state, in this room.Live together, live indefinitely.The outside world doesn't know them, and they don't know the outside world either.No one calls the shots for being alone, no one takes responsibility for their lives. Guan Shuyi couldn't understand, really couldn't understand.Why would you be willing to throw away a baby born in October?She wanted to hug these children, to hug them all one by one. "You'd better stop hugging. You are dressed cleanly, just in case I piss on you..." Comrade Guo said with a smile, but he changed seven or eight of them in the blink of an eye. Diapers for children. Guan Shuyi sniffed, trying to say something, but couldn't open her mouth.There is an air conditioner and an air humidifier in this room, but there is also a smell... the strongest and most pungent smell of urine mixed with talcum powder that Guan Shuyi has ever smelled in her life.That's right, twenty or thirty children are strewn together in one room, no matter how you clean it up, you can't clean it up, right? Guan Shuyi bent down, stretched out her hand and gently weighed the chin of a little chubby guy in the small bed beside her, that chubby guy immediately grinned and giggled appreciatively. "This is Yiyi, isn't it cute? The little guy is so funny, anyone can laugh." Comrade Guo came over to explain. "What's wrong with him," Guan Shuyi asked, sobbing.Such a cute and clever child, what did he do wrong to be left here. "Hey, our little Yiyi doesn't grow very tall, and he can only be a doll that doesn't grow up all his life!" Comrade Guo came over and picked up the little doll, threw it up and down a few times, and put it back on the small bed. Listening to the child's laughter, Guan Shuyi burst into tears, feeling beyond sorrow. "You are too emotional. This is the first nursery. Are you going to cry to the fifth floor?" Comrade Guo grabbed a roll of toilet paper hanging on the side, tore off a piece and handed it to Guan Shuyi. Guan Shuyi wiped her snot and tears, and muttered something in her mouth.The childcare worker over there came over and patted her on the shoulder, then turned around and continued to work like a spinning top. The second house, the third house, the children are all the same, because they are incomplete, so they come here. There is no difference between the first room and the second room. Guan Shuyi followed Comrade Guo from room to room.Because she was crying so hard, Comrade Guo had no choice but to stop and stand with her in the corridor until she finished crying. "Actually, you don't have to cry. Really, they are quite happy. The younger ones don't know how to be sad, and if they don't know how to love, they won't be sad. Compared with the younger children, the older ones are pitiful. What I know everything, I know everything, I know that I have parents, I know that I have a family relationship, I know how big the outside world is, I know that it is very comfortable to be hugged, but in a blink of an eye, I am thrown here, this is sad. ?Like Lili...and me." Guan Shuyi stopped sobbing and looked up in surprise.Comrade Guo smiled indifferently and lifted up his trousers.Guan Shuyi was surprised to see that one of Comrade Guo's legs was very thick and the other was very thin. "You...are also an orphan?" "Yeah, I grew up here." Guan Shuyi looked at his legs, the two different legs were covered under the trousers, not to mention, they couldn't be seen at all. "It's not a big problem, why?" Guan Shuyi was very angry. Handing Guan Shuyi a piece of toilet paper again, Comrade Guo smiled broadly and looked indifferent. "Probably they like perfect children. Everything is the same, and the starting line is also the same. Disabled children still have inconveniences. Once they are dragged down, they will last a lifetime. Maybe they will cry at the beginning. I thought about it, and they will definitely cry. Yes, but what happened to them after crying, I don't know." Guan Shuyi pulled the toilet paper, turned her head to look downstairs and said: "My husband, he is color blind, so... was also abandoned." "Looking at your conditions, you are still living pretty well, right?" "But he doesn't want children, and I want them." "Color blindness is genetic, right? He did nothing wrong." "Well, it's genetic. But what if it's a girl? Girls are fine." Guan Shuyi explained, explained to this stranger, and also explained to herself. Comrade Guo thought for a while, then took out a cigarette and a lighter from his pocket and handed it to Guan Shuyi.Guan Shuyi looked at him in surprise. "I didn't ask you to smoke it. You closed your eyes and lit the cigarette." Guan Shuyi took the cigarette, closed her eyes, and fumbled for the lighter.Her two hands moved up and down, back and forth, and she was burned several times, but she couldn't find the flame that burned her several times.She couldn't light the cigarette properly and had to open her eyes and look straight ahead. Comrade Guo took the lighter and cigarettes back and said: "This world is the world of healthy people. All items are invented and created according to the physical and mental conditions of healthy people. One thing is very simple for you. It is very difficult for a blind person to do such things. I am afraid that your husband has really suffered a lot, and he is afraid that his child will be wronged. He is afraid that the child will also bear the most sad things in his heart. Something. You should understand him more. You see, we also have children who are healed after the operation, and when they are brought home, they can also die in old age, and they can also love you, even if they are not biological." 关淑怡没有说话，却下意识地抚摸下肚子——她的那个，这个月没来。 郭同志看着她的动作，想了下，问：“您丈夫，是多大杯丢弃的？” “六岁左右吧。我们在一个地方长大的，我妈吗跟我说过，那时候，事儿闹得一条街都知道了，不过……他的爷爷奶奶，对他特别好，什么都尽着他。” 指指一边长廊上的座位，关淑怡跟这位郭同志坐了过去。关淑怡有一肚子的话没人说，憋得几乎要崩溃掉了。这些日子，关淑怡每天都在担心着，每当身上出现一些类似的情况，就要往WC跑，她是一次一次失望，越来越不安。 走廊里，跑过来几个孩子。大概是被丽丽的糖果吸引，他们一溜烟地从三楼跑下来，一起来到关淑怡的面前。他们不说话，只是看着关淑怡。这些孩子跑动的时候并不喧哗，只是安静地跑。 “上午不是刚发了苹果跟小饼干吗？”郭同志蹲下问孩子们。 关淑怡摸摸口袋，连忙站起来跑下楼。过了不久，开工具车的司机抱着几大箱食品，跟着关淑怡回到楼上。 郭同志制止了关淑怡要派发的动作。他打开一箱糖果，只抓了一把，然后一个孩子手心里放一块糖。那些孩子非常满足地散去，并不贪婪。他们齐齐地跑到楼口那边停下，坐在楼梯上向这边看，不看关淑怡，只是盯着糖果箱子。 “每个孩子，身体都不同，有些正换牙齿呢，原本就不好了，再长出七扭八歪的牙，就更加不妙了。”郭同志开着玩笑，却将那些糖果搬进一间屋子，还反手锁住门。 他见关淑怡一脸不愿意，只好又说了句：“您给予了太多的爱，可我们人少，真的无法每天都这么满足这些孩子。再说，院里有规定，除了必要的饭食，上午下午会加餐的。爱这个东西．给了，就会膨胀，是无法再取回的。您看，我们这些保育员，一个人照顾二十多个孩子，要是每个都照顾得无限制的精细，就像在家一般，那是不成的。他们必须按照规定去活着，保证这些孩子健康地活着就好。您的糖果是好，可您给完便走了，您走之后，还会回来吗？即使会，又能一年来几次呢？不要随便给予希望……呃，对不起，对不起，我说多了。” 关淑怡安静地待了一会儿，站起来，从口袋里取出钱放到郭同志的手里。她非常非常认真且慎重地说：“我会回来的，不做保证，但是我要回来的，来看看，来尽一些能尽的义务。真的非常非常谢谢您。您让我明白责任其实比给予一份简单的爱要沉重得多。我在课本上学过，但是刚明白。谢谢您。” 郭同志笑笑，从口袋里拿出一本单据，很认真地说：“我给您打个条，年后，您再来一次，补个手续。还有您的单位地址留下，别做无名英雄，就叫他们写个报道，上上报纸，哪怕是虚的。要是多有两个您这样的，您说该多好！” 关淑怡彻头彻尾地尴尬了。