Chapter 29 The past is over

(People always have the most difficult time. The most difficult time for him is the days when he left his hometown and wandered in that strange city. During the years of wandering, Zhang Zhengnan can always think of him. Perhaps, for others, this is just an irrelevant mutual relationship One thing to take advantage of, but for Qin Zhi, being remembered is a kindness. He thinks he has finished paying back this kindness, and is no longer entangled in the past.) Qin Zhi resisted the ladder, not knowing where to send it.He felt that those friends behind him who wanted to make trouble in the bridal chamber were not going to let him go.He ran fast and hid. Once he was caught, he thought he would not be able to bear the ups and downs of the bridal chamber.

The noise behind him became smaller and smaller, Qin Zhi put the ladder away, created the illusion of running out of the yard, turned around and found a corner in the yard and squatted in.He stayed there obediently, until the pursuers ran farther and farther away. At this moment, it was already ten o'clock in the middle of the night, and the blower was still humming in the yard. Squatting and squatting, Qin Zhi felt a gust of hot air blowing from the back of his neck.He was startled, goosebumps all over his body.The wine suddenly woke up halfway.He turned his head and opened his mouth to shout something, but the person behind him covered his mouth, "Brother, it's me, it's me, Zhang Zhengnan."

Qin Zhi turned his head and was fully awake.The person behind him was none other than Zhang Zhengnan who told nonsense that something happened to him and he was locked up by his family.He used to be Qin Zhi's best friend and best brother. Why did he call himself brother, with such a strange tone?Zhang Zhengnan's "Brother" yelled with a hint of fawning and pleading.Before, this person was not like this. Moving his body, Qin Zhi looked back.In the dark night, Zhang Zhengnan's eyes were wide open, and the horror in his eyes could not be concealed even in the middle of the night.The whites of his eyes were bigger than the black ones, and he looked like a front-line coal mining worker who just got out of the mine.

"Zhang Zhengnan?" Qin Zhi was a little uncertain, but he hid his body back.This guy looked like he came out of a pigsty, and the stench that couldn't be frozen in such cold weather radiated from his body.Qin Zhi felt dizzy for a while, did he admit that he was wrong?The well-known and personable Zhang Zhengnan?He shouldn't be like this. Zhang Zhengnan's laughter was a little awkward.He laughed a few times, and said with self-mockery: "I think Xiao Ning will come, I'll come to find her." Qin Zhi didn't believe his words, "Then there's no need to hide here."

Zhang Zhengnan: "At home... There are other people... They are grabbing me all over the place." Qin Zhi remained silent.With his head still dizzy at the moment, he couldn't analyze a reasonable explanation, even fantasizing about a story would not work, it was too dramatic. Zhang Zhengnan stayed for a while, then shivered.He looked around, stood up after making sure it was safe, and said, "Let's find a place to talk?" Qin Zhi also stood up, shook his head and refused, "I'm getting married today." "Our brother for many years, you wouldn't be so unfeeling, would you?" Zhang Zhengnan begged in a low voice, his appearance, tone, and form were as wretched as he wanted.

What bent Zhang Zhengnan's spine and made him so wretched? Qin Zhi didn't say a word.They just stood there quietly, looking at each other, looking into the distance who had lit a firecracker that didn't go off during the day.Zhang Zhengnan was startled, and immediately squatted down to look around. "What happened?" Qin Zhi asked him. In the darkness, Zhang Zhengnan bent over with difficulty, even trembling.He shook for a while, and said, "Qin Zhi, my brother is in trouble, really. I know it's not suitable for you today, but can you help..." It was still that wretched air that couldn't be concealed.

With a slight sigh in his heart, Qin Zhi was helpless.Who did he provoke?First Lang Ning, then Zhang Zhengnan, why is it so difficult to get married properly?He looked at the group of old classmates who were still looking for him all over the yard, and Wu Jiayang who was still singing on the roof without embarrassment, that's all, that's all, just this time, the last time, as if there was no one in the school When taking care of himself as a semi-autistic patient, Zhang Zhengnan has always been with him, always thinking about his repayment. "Go upstairs, have you eaten yet?" Qin Zhi asked him, pointing to the community building.

"Not yet." Zhang Zhengnan stood up, looked around, and answered carefully. Qin Zhi led Zhang Zhengnan back slowly, and Zhang Zhengnan followed cautiously.When he reached the entrance of the building, Wu Jiayang stood on the small roof of the yard and pointed at him and shouted.Qin Zhi turned around and glared at him, making a "shh" gesture.The guy immediately shut his mouth obediently, and watched curiously as Zhang Zhengnan sneaked into the building from the corner of the yard. Even if some people turned into ashes, Wu Jiayang could still smell him.He already knew some things, but he just didn't want to say them.Originally, he wanted to wait for his boss to get married in a safe and sound manner, and then he would sell this good one.

How did this person find him here? Wu Jiayang looked at the old classmates who were all over the yard looking for the groom, and suddenly understood in his heart.Those people don't know that news yet, and they will still use Qin Zhi's news as a way to sell something to please some people.Wanting to understand this point, Wu Jiayang, who was originally drunk, unexpectedly showed a rare clever look.He waved to Ma Bodong who was booing all over the yard.Ma Bodong came over and smiled at him, "I don't have a ladder, so don't expect to get down tonight." Ma Bodong raised his eyebrows and turned to look for the ladder.

Qin Zhi and Zhang Zhengnan came to the new house.Today, his goal was too big, and as soon as he entered the stairs, a group of neighbor's children immediately surrounded him and shouted: "I found it! I found it!..." Those children shouted everywhere, and the old classmates who couldn't find Qin Zhi rushed forward again.Zhang Zhengnan, who followed in, was crowded into a corner, no one cared about him, how could he recognize him? Yan Cheng Kuo Shao and Zhang Zhengnan are irrelevant to this man with his head bowed and smelling bad, and cannot be connected with normal thinking.

The guests all drank a lot, they grabbed Qin Zhi and threatened him with nonsense.Qin Zhi looked at the entrance of the building with a wry smile, today is really not suitable for talking. Zhang Zhengnan tried his best to shrink his body, looking at Qin Zhi who was standing outside the new house with a helpless expression.He hoped that his temperament could save him, but at this moment, Qin Zhi couldn't save himself. Suddenly, without warning, a hand was placed on Zhang Zhengnan's shoulder.Zhang Zhengnan trembled in fright, and looked back in horror, but it was Lawyer Chen and the four of them, all with ambiguous smiles on their faces.Wu Jiayang raised his head and yelled loudly towards the stairs, which aroused the drunks on the upper floor to be even more excited. They rushed up, and they all grabbed Qin Zhi and went downstairs to make trouble in the bridal chamber. "Boss Zhang is having a carnival today? Tsk tsk, look at your outfit!" He Yiyuan teased, and moved away from the stairs. Zhang Zhengnan looked ashamed, turned around and wanted to leave, but Wu Jiayang called him back, "Everyone is looking for you outside! Some buddies in my Public Security Bureau said that it is tens of millions." The wretched man had no choice but to turn around and look at the group of four.At this moment, Zhang Zhengnan thought of death.Such an unbearable situation, being seen by an acquaintance who is not as good as oneself, is simply life worse than death. Attorney Chen pointed to the stairs.He didn't laugh at Zhang Zhengnan, but he couldn't hide the gloating in his eyes. "Go up, the boss will take a while." Zhang Zhengnan nodded, and quickly went upstairs against the corner. Qin Zhi was tortured for two full hours before he could escape, and when he came upstairs, Zhang Zhengnan was already full.Standing at the door, Wu Jiayang pointed to the three big bowls on the coffee table and said, "Three big bowls of noodles, these are really edible." Qin Zhi smiled, pointed to the door, and the other three people in the room stood up and went out.When approaching the door, Lawyer Chen whispered to Qin Zhi, "Don't lend him money." Qin Zhi froze for a moment, nodded, patted him on the shoulder to send him out, and closed the door behind his back. The two best brothers from before sat blankly in the room, and Zhang Zhengnan, who was full, felt safe.For the first time in a week on the run, he felt human. "I'm out of luck." Zhang Zhengnan looked up at Qin Zhi and said with a wry smile. Qin Zhi looked at the haggard face that had been washed clean and the chin was covered with beard stubble, and nodded, "I said, that's a privilege only for women, once a month, how can you have that function?" "I've become like this, I'm so happy for you, really. Betrayed friends, pryed brothers and wives, if I were you, I would set off firecrackers to celebrate." Zhang Zhengnan said self-critically. "Let's let it go, let's let it go for a day today. Don't be sad, prying other people's wives is a big deal nowadays, and it's something that capable people do, and ordinary people can't do that." Qin Zhi replied. "Sarcasm me?... You don't ask me, why did you become like this?" Zhang Zhengnan smiled wryly. Qin Zhi sighed deeply.Feeling thirsty, he stood up and poured a glass of water.Downstairs, Guan's mother didn't know who she was scolding, but her voice came up loudly. "Look, look, I said that two hundred catties of noodles would be enough, but now six hundred catties have gone out! What are you talking about, who told you to carry it like this? Who said it can be put here? This relative The only thing missing is these bowls of noodles? Take it away, take it away, you still don’t know my temper?... I’ve been busy for more than ten days, hey, who are you? Relative? Whose relative? Just what Didn’t you come to help?! Bah, don’t mention that dead old man in my family, I haven’t seen him tonight... Is that enough? There are more than ten people in your family! Take a few more bowls back, and there will be sweet rice tomorrow, Remember to come and get it, the bowl has to be returned... Oh, who are you? The vegetable seller? The vegetable seller also eats and drinks here?" The old lady's voice was full of joy. Although the words were still so ugly, the bitterness before was much less in the words tonight.It's rare, tonight's mother Guan is very generous, and she keeps selling the noodles, maybe she is worried that they will be stored for a long time, and they will become moldy after the expiration date? "Lang Ning has been here, she is very sad." Qin Zhi put the water glass on the table and said to Zhang Zhengnan. Zhang Zhengnan didn't say a word.He smoked cigarettes one by one, to show that he was all out and didn't care.Qin Zhi looked at him and didn't know what attitude to use to suit him.Mr. Zhang left the money, in essence, there are only two words left: trouble. However, Qin Zhi did not dislike him.When he was in college, his unsociable temper always didn't get along well with others.At that time, Zhang Zhengnan, who called the wind and rain in school, liked to exchange money for affection, and paid for all mankind, always had friends around him.Zhang Zhengnan, who has many friends, doesn't know what's wrong, he always loves to drag Qin Zhi everywhere, and always drags Qin Zhi to any party.Thanks to him, Qin Zhi finally had some good memories about the school during his four years in college.On this point, Qin Zhi felt that he should not forget him in his whole life. As for adulthood, the stories of adulthood always reveal the vicissitudes of life that cannot be explained clearly.Qin Zhi has feelings for this senior and really treats him as a friend.If Zhang Zhengnan hadn't given him a chance, then perhaps Qin Zhi wouldn't exist now.Seeing him like this, Qin Zhi was shocked and incomprehensible.What happened to make Zhang Zhengnan smell so bad that even a dog can't even smell it? After being full, Zhang Zhengnan found a sense of security, and the temperature in the room made him drowsy.After putting out the cigarette butt, Zhang Zhengnan raised his head and said to Qin Zhi, "I need some money." Hey, it's been included in the topic so quickly?Qin Zhi was stunned for a moment. Zhang Zhengnan really wanted to lower his posture, and put some guilt into his attitude, just like before, calling "Brother", maybe then Qin Zhi would help him?However, his mental state changed after he was full and before he was full. He tried hard for a long time, but he couldn't scream anymore.Now that he is not hungry, he has found pride and dignity. He waited silently for the rejection sound he was used to these days.Anyway, he was going to be rejected, so it was better to say it earlier, and he was completely frank. Qin Zhi looked up and down carefully at his seniors, older brothers, and brothers, and finally he smiled with relief and said, "Okay, but I don't have too many." Zhang Zhengnan was completely surprised, and then a strange smile appeared on his face.He tried his best to use his eyes to see through and explore Qin Zhi most intuitively, and then he patted the sofa, just like when he was sitting on the English-style leather sofa in the luxurious student apartment in college, calling Qin Zhi to come to his side sit. Qin Zhi sat over, took out the check book from his arms, filled in the numbers and handed it to him. Zhang Zhengnan took it, looked at the numbers, and was a little surprised, "I thought you hated me, so I was the last one to come to you." "I've always hated it." Qin Zhi said without looking up. "...When you were in college, everyone said you were weird." "You are with me just to show them your generosity, I know that." "It seems...it's like this. These days, I have begged many people. My own first-milk compatriots told me to die quickly, and they wished for my bad luck. My bad luck seems to be satisfactory now, and the whole world is looking for a sequel." "That's it." Qin Zhi replied. Zhang Zhengnan pushed the check back and smiled wryly, "Well, my ID card can't be used anymore, if you can, give me some cash. The bank, those damned guys are looking for me." Qin Zhi took back the check and nodded.He opened the door and whispered something to the people waiting outside.Lawyer Chen looked at him really badly, and Qin Zhi also knew that he was asking for trouble, but such a day was really not suitable for seeing this painful person. He didn't know what to say.If Zhang Zhengnan didn't explain, he didn't intend to ask - knowing other people's miserable things would make him feel tired. Qin Zhi sat there in a daze, while Zhang Zhengnan picked at the tablecloth without saying a word.The air conditioner in the room was releasing the temperature slowly, Qin Zhi felt drunk and fell asleep in a daze. He was having chaotic dreams, and he didn't know how long it had passed, and he vaguely felt someone talking in his ears.Qin Zhi wanted to open his eyes, but he couldn't do anything. The large amount of alcohol eroded his brain nerves again. He couldn't think, and he couldn't control his body. Around midnight, Qin Zhi sat up and shook his head. Wu Jiayang stood up and poured water for him, and Ma Bodong handed him a letter.Qin Zhi turned his head to look left and right again, Zhang Zhengnan was gone. Qin Zhi opened the letter hastily written on a piece of red paper with a gift list—it seems that people nowadays are not used to communicating in this way anymore.Touching Zhang Zhengnan from such an angle gave Qin Zhi a wonderful feeling, like holding a scalpel and finally cutting the surface of the skin.In fact, words are a wonderful thing. Sometimes, words are more honest and real than words. Hello Brother Qinzhi, Money, your subordinates gave it to me.You don't say anything and they get what you mean.From this point of view, I am still inferior to you.After so long, I can't find anyone around me who can help me and remind myself at the right time.In the past, I always thought that I was better at being a man than you, and played better than you. I couldn't figure out why I always had to compare with you.In the end, you were a follower who never gave up, but I started wandering around this world with nothing, and I don't know how long I'm going to wander! I don't know how to be a human being. I just discovered this today. These days, I've been on the run.My family is looking for me, those so-called friends are looking for me.I walked around day and night, and found out later that what I dreaded most was not creditors, but poverty with nothing.I'm just a cowardly idiot who doesn't dare to take responsibility, a coward who looks like rotten water. Call me whatever you want. In the past, I always thought that I was the smartest, so I often acted as a bystander, and I liked to hide in the dark and observe other people's temper, and I took pleasure in it.This time, in a seemingly small gamble, I lost half of my father's hard work, leaving a mess for my father and brother to support, and I just left without knowing when I would come back. On the day I left, I called home.My mother was crying on the phone, and I was crying at the newsstand by the side of the street.I want to make a lot of calls but don't know who to call.It was long after I left my hometown that I thought of Lang Ning.It turned out that I really didn't love her, otherwise why did I think of her in the end? I desperately want to be with her just because we fit so well together.Everyone thinks it fits, and I think that's fit.I think that if I miss Lang Ning, I may never find a suitable woman who can match me. Education, family background, appearance, and social status are all well matched. What is commensurate is not necessarily the most suitable. This is the truth I only understand now. Qin Zhi, you know, sometimes I wonder why Lang Ning likes you?In the past, I thought it was just a girl's unreal dream. When Lang Ning grows up, she will gradually realize that it was a mistake. Indeed, when everyone told her it was a mistake, she really thought she was wrong. I did those things, hurt you, hurt her innocently. I'm sorry, but I don't expect you to forgive me. Brother Qin Zhi, it's too late to say anything now.The woman who robbed her only friend, and then abandoned that innocent woman, after much deliberation, there will be no more bastard like me in this world.I didn't want to go home, didn't want to face the familiar environment, and just left a mess and ran away.I know that in the end it was my poor father who wiped this pile of Hu Hu for me. These days, I think a lot. Really, I have never had such ample time to think and see many things clearly.I grew up completely different from you. I didn't lack anything. As long as I wanted to, I could be satisfied with everything. Even if I was not satisfied, my parents would find a way to satisfy me.They loved me, and they still do. Now, I dare not face them, I am so cowardly that I dare not even look back, it turns out that I am nothing more than that. I don't expect to be forgiven by you and Xiao Ning.It's best for her to hate me for the rest of her life, so that I can have a little peace of mind.Seeing that you have found a suitable woman and a suitable life, this is also God's compensation for you, and evil will be rewarded for evil like me. Brother Qin Zhi, I'm leaving, I want to find a place where no one can find me, stay for a while, and when I figure it out, I'll go back and apologize.I will shave Lang Ning and let her cut me up.But I thought so, but I don't know if I will have such courage by then. Well, stop talking nonsense, thank you again for your help.This kindness can only be repaid later. Sinner: Zhang Zhengnan Qin Zhi licked his chapped lips, smiled wryly, and scolded: "This stupid pig still hasn't grown up." He Yiyuan opened the window, looked at the silent yard and asked Qin Zhi: "Boss, don't you hate him?" Qin Zhi tore up the letter and threw it aside, leaned on his arm and thought for a while, then replied seriously: "No, I thank him. If I want to hate it, it's because his parents hate iron and steel. Besides, without him, I wouldn't Come back; if you don’t come back, you won’t meet Guoguo. It seems to be written in a book: Be grateful to your enemies, they will inadvertently give you unimaginable gifts. In fact, the roads in the world It's circular, and all your life you've been going in circles, and you don't find out until you're unlucky." He raised his face and smiled at the four people in front of him, his smile was extremely relaxed.He knew they didn't understand why he did it. There are always the most difficult times for a person, and the most difficult time for him is the days when he left his hometown and wandered in that strange city. During the wandering years, Zhang Zhengnan could always think of him. Perhaps, for others, this is just an insignificant matter of mutual use, but for Qin Zhi, being remembered is a kindness. He thought he had finished repaying this kindness, and he was no longer entangled in the past. Zi once said that the most proud thing in life is when the gold list is named, and the wedding night in the bridal chamber. Is this what Zi said? For the time being, it’s wrong to be wrong. Qin Zhi didn't go to bed until early in the morning and drank a lot—after three o'clock he and some brothers ate some side dishes, drank a lot, and talked nonsense all night.Qin Zhi's wine quality was really not that good. At the beginning, he dragged poor Guan Shuyi and talked a lot of nonsense, but Guan Shuyi didn't listen to a word - she also drank a lot.How they came back, neither of them knew very well. When they woke up in the morning, one of them was in the kitchen and the other was in their parents' bedroom, except that they were not in the bridal chamber. When Grandma Qin got up in the morning, she found that Qin Zhi was sleeping in the kitchen with a new pot on his head.Guan's father, Guan's mother, was frightened in the middle of the night. His own daughter came into the house in the middle of the night, got into their bed and cried and said that she loved them. She didn't want to leave for the rest of her life. To say that marrying too close is really not a good thing, there is no mystery at all.At this moment, Lao Guan's family doesn't feel like marrying a daughter at all. Guan's mother looked at her daughter's sleeping face, sniffed her nose, and swallowed tears: "Why do you think she was just born, and she was lying between us in a little floral jacket?" Father Guan got up without saying a word, put on his coat and went to sleep in the room where his daughter used to be. The Guan family doesn't feel like marrying a daughter, and the Qin family doesn't feel like marrying a daughter-in-law either. It's just...the marriage is too close. At ten o'clock in the morning, Qin Zhi was woken up by his grandmother knocking the lid on a pot. The relatives had already left, and the compound had returned to calm. Qin Zhi searched for himself for a long time, and finally found it on his head that was so painful that it was about to explode.He stared blankly at his grandma tidying up the temporary new house. In the quilt, the bride didn't have one, but there were a few banana peels, and there was a white men's sock, but it definitely wasn't his. "Go up and pick up your daughter-in-law!" Before Grandma Qin could finish her sentence, another pot covered her. Qin Zhi went upstairs, clutching his swollen head, and knocked on the door of the old man's house.The father-in-law didn't let him in, saying it was a rule, and he had to go back three times to get in.After a while, the old man went out with his daughter in his wife's floral pajamas on his back. "The same goes for your group of friends, you can feed a little... This girl, why is she so heavy..." The old man was nagging, but his words were full of love.Qin Zhi followed the old man downstairs with a lost smile.Guan Shuyi was still hungover. At the corner on the second floor, she looked up at the wall and suddenly said, "Having a husband is great?! I have one too!" Qin Zhi was shocked for a moment, then smiled wryly.This girl was probably comparing herself to others in her dream. Father Guan sent his daughter to the first floor, turned back to the house, turned to Qin Zhi when he was leaving, and said, "Yesterday your friend sent the gift money to us, and I'll bring it back to you later. It's okay for the two families to treat together." This is not good, the gift money is all wrong. You go back and tell your grandma." The old man wanted to show that he didn't love money, but Qin Zhi didn't like it.He nodded indiscriminately, probably not listening to anything. "Uncle, you go back!" Qin Zhi muttered, covering his head. Grandma Qin is a pot of lids again, "Called Dad, also called uncle!" Guan's father looked indifferent, "No, no, why are you being polite, the child is not used to it!" Hua Si said, but the old man stood there without moving.He gave the change fee yesterday, a total of one thousand yuan.Logically speaking, the woman's family doesn't need to give this money, but Guan's father also drank too much yesterday, so he put his arms around Qin Zhi and said, "Brother, brother, I will give you a thousand yuan, can you call my father?" Qin Zhi held back for a long time, then lowered his head and called out "Dad".The old man was very happy, and his temper came up again when he was excited, "Hey, um, um, go back to sleep. I have hired someone to clean the new house and the yard. Go to sleep, go to sleep! Don't worry about anything, Dad Bao It's..." Qin Zhi nodded, turned around and went back to the house, threw himself on the bed, and fell asleep with his arms around his wife.After this sleep, they slept until the time when the news network rocked the earth every night. The young couples both woke up hungry, and they all lay on the bed, not wanting to move. Qin Zhi poked Guan Shuyi with his elbow, "Daughter-in-law, get up and serve dinner." Guan Shuyi was not happy anymore, she twisted her lips and said, "This is your home." Qin Zhi looked like a master, "It's also your home." Guan Shuyi's big nose exhaled an air of pretending to be cute and naive, "Hmm...she's not...she's shy." Then... Qin Zhi vomited.I really vomited. I drank a lot of wine yesterday and didn't eat anything.This is not the first time to get married, so I don't have much experience. Guan Shuyi lay on the bed, pointed at Qin Zhi and said nonsense: "You... You unchaste man, whose child does this belong to?" Qin Zhi turned around and tickled her. The two people in the bedroom were giggling loudly. Grandma Qin looked at her old man, and the old couple smiled so ambiguously. "It's better to have children earlier, and we'll show them." Grandma muttered to Grandpa in a low voice. Qin Zhi groaned and got up, picked his eyes in the mirror, and wandered out of the bedroom into the main room.In a small corner of the main room, grandparents are counting banknotes.An hour ago, Lawyer Chen brought the accountant to pay the account. He didn't dare to disturb Qin Zhi, and left in a hurry after explaining.It's almost New Year's Eve, and everyone's family has a lot of things to do. Qin Zhi, who was in a good mood, smiled and teased the old couple, "So much money? Grandma, you got rich!" Grandma Qin looked unhappy, she followed Qin Zhi to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, took out a box of dishes packed in the restaurant yesterday, poured it out and put it on the steamer to heat it up. Qin Zhi is used to the savings of his grandparents, and thinks it's all right.The older generation is used to thrift.Besides, it’s not wrong to pack it. I don’t know how much chicken and duck are left from the meal yesterday. It’s a shame to waste it. Whether it is the old Qin's family or the old Guan's family, they are all the same simple and thrifty families. "Your fourth cousin, none of my four daughters pays five hundred yuan. Guess how much she gave you!" Grandma Qin knocked on the lid of the pot with a spatula. "How much?" Qin Zhi dealt with it casually, while looking at the piles of take-out boxes in the refrigerator and worrying - when will this be eaten?He really didn't care how much others paid, but he had to show proper attention to the topic of grandma. "Five hundred! Tell me, does this make sense? Her family is a child, and you are the only one in our family. You will have children at the full moon tomorrow, and you are not allowed to invite them to weddings and funerals. We don't care about her family's money. Also, they If you have something to do at home, you are not allowed to go! Did you hear that?! Did you hear that?! Did you hear that?!" Grandma Qin took out a plate, put half a fat chicken in it, and added two bowls of porridge, while cooking Fan chattered angrily. "En! En! Got it, got it!" Qin Zhi hurriedly agreed, but he was worried about the child problem mentioned by the old man.He didn't know how to open his mouth to the two old men. He was determined not to ask this question... child.He turned around and entered the house with the tray in his hand, and when he came to the door, he asked himself, "Master?" Grandpa Qin, who was counting the tickets, turned his head, "What?" "Which one is the fourth cousin?" Qin Zhi wondered and recalled the relatives in his head. "When you were young, you borrowed our bicycle for a year and didn't return it. Your grandma came to ask for it before you came back." Grandpa Qin really had a problem with this relative. Nodding his head, Qin Zhi kicked the door open.Guan Shuyi has already woken up. Seeing the whole plate of muscles, Guan Shuyi felt nauseous, stood up and said to Qin Zhi, "I won't eat it to death. I'll eat it at home." Qin Zhi nodded with the chicken leg in his mouth, and turned on an old-fashioned black and white TV with Qin Zhi's characteristics in the bedroom.No matter what age, the old Qin's black and white TV still survives, and there are only twelve channels on the buttons on the side of the TV. Guan Shuyi went upstairs, and came back after a while, and said to Qin Zhi with a sad face: "My family is also eating leftovers, or mix several kinds together. Husband, let's run away from home, wait for them We'll come back after eating the leftovers." Qin Zhi was delighted, and he pointed his finger at the door, "From now on, you don't need money to eat apples." Guan Shuyi's expression was exaggeratedly ecstatic, she turned around and went out of the house, and went to the apple stand to pick some.While picking it, Grandma Qin called her to stop, pointed to the warehouse and said, "There are some good ones over there. These are all wilted, so don't eat them. Let's sell them. If you can't sell them, Grandma will give you pickled applesauce." Guan Shuyi nodded, she was so happy that she was going to die.After thinking about it, she was wrong. Before co-authoring, she ate badly?Forget it, forget it, what could be happier now than eating apples without spending money?I thought it was gone.Marrying a fruit seller is indeed the most correct. "Are grandparents still counting money?" Qin Zhi asked as he put a piece of chicken into Guan Shuyi's mouth. Guan Shuyi took a bite of the apple and chicken, chewed and nodded.She stuck out her finger and said, "I've counted three times. My mother is also doing this kind of thing. They will probably have to count money for a living in the next few days. Give me a pinch, I was exhausted yesterday!" " Qin Zhi picked up a tissue on one side and wiped his mouth and hands, and resignedly moved his wife's joint-pointing foot and rubbed it.Of course, there are also behaviors like taking advantage of it occasionally. The two were chattering happily, Grandma Qin and Grandpa Qin came in without knocking on the door. Guan Shuyi jumped up in shock, but the old man looked indifferent, not indifferent, the expressions of the two old men were a little heavy, and they didn't notice what they were doing. Qin Zhi looked at grandpa holding stacks of money in each of his left and right hands, and grandma Qin clutching a long gift list with a dull expression on her face. What's wrong?It was fine just now! Guan Shuyi hurriedly gave up the sofa and asked the old man to sit down.After doing it for a while, Grandma Qin kept nudging Grandpa Qin with her elbows, and the old man said, "Basket basket... I have something to tell you. Your grandma will say something about it in a few days. I'm thinking, it's better to go earlier That's right, otherwise we both wouldn't be able to sleep." Qin Zhi was stunned for a moment, he looked at Guan Shuyi, Guan Shuyi looked at him. Grandma Qin spread out the gift list, pointed to a line of words on it and said to Qin Zhi, "Look at this." Qin Zhi looked down, and it was written on the gift list—— Name: For the child?? Gift money: 20,000 yuan. Grandpa Qin fumbled in his pocket for a long time to find a pack of cigarettes. Looking at the protruding cigarette holders, the cigarette was a pack of cigarettes from many brands.The old man took out one and lit it, and after taking a few puffs, he said: "I think about it, this may be money given by your own father and mother. We don't have such relatives in our family, and it is 20,000 yuan if you give it. And, before I also received a letter, which was also written to the child." Qin Zhi remained silent, Guan Shuyi came over and took his arm. Grandma Qin took out an old-fashioned envelope from her pocket and handed it to Qin Zhi, "When you were in the third grade, it was also winter. When your grandfather and I opened the door early in the morning, we saw an envelope on the ground with thirty yuan inside. Money, and nothing else.” Qin Zhi knotted the envelope, but the first thing he saw was the position of the postmark, but unfortunately there was nothing on it, just an old-fashioned kraft paper vertical envelope. "Your grandma and I were also afraid. At the beginning, we were afraid that someone would take you away. After receiving the thirty yuan, we took you back to the countryside for a year. We were worried for more than a year. Slowly The ground also wants to open up, this feeling is different from others, no matter how well we hide you, we can't stop people's parents coming, right? Later we waited. When we just came back At that time, your grandma quietly hung a bell on the door curtain. During that time, as long as there was a slight sound, we would jump up. We waited, waited, waited until now, and the bell never rang again." Qin While talking there, Grandpa carefully observed Qin Zhi's expression. Qin Zhi was expressionless.Guan Shuyi held his hand tightly, and she could feel layers of sweat emerging from her husband's palm, and those beads of sweat were all cold. From the time he got the 30 yuan envelope, the old man has had something on his mind over the years.After so many years, thinking about it is a heavy feeling, and thinking about it is like cat scratching.It's all right now, Qin Zhi is married and has a daughter-in-law, the old man doesn't want to hide it anymore. Grandma Qin took up the conversation and continued: "At the beginning, I thought that no matter who came to take you away, I would fight them and go to court with them. Later, you grew up day by day, and you are a serious child. Don’t tell us anything, and never cause trouble for the family. Your grandfather set up a stall in the small market, and you went to collect the cart after school, and we don’t have to worry about studying. I thought about it when your grandfather and I couldn’t sleep , Such a good child, why don’t you just want it if you don’t want it? I didn’t hang the bell to tell them to take you away, I just wanted to ask them, people’s hearts are made of meat, the meat that fell out of October pregnancy, why? It's so heartless, put the children in the basket in the cold winter...they are all sensible children, so good, how can you be willing?" As Grandma Qin spoke, tears welled up in her eye sockets.Without saying a word, Qin Zhi took his grandma's hand and touched the calluses on it.There are some old scars on those calluses, just on the surface of Hehe's skin that can't be washed off in his whole life.These wounds will open in winter, and it is difficult to heal with any good medicine.It is these hands that nurtured me to grow into an adult, and it is these hands that took me out of the basket and raised me until now.Qin Zhi looked up to comfort his grandparents, he really wanted to laugh, but in the end he pulled out a smile that was uglier than crying, and then burst into tears. Grandma Qin wiped her grandson's tears with her fingers, and Qin felt that her hands were as rough as sandpaper.He buried his face in those hands, twitched his shoulders up and down, and said in a muffled voice: "Grandma, let's stop doing this business. You and grandpa will stay at home from now on, do whatever you want, and stop working.吗？我想好好孝顺你们。” 秦爷爷擦擦眼泪笑，“说啥呢？都摆了一辈子水果摊，我和你奶还能行，闲不住。这人不干活了，就该死了啊。” 关淑怡鼻子酸的可以酿出醋来。她很想哭，又不敢。看着那样难过的三个人，她想了半天，觉着如今自己应该可以代表秦知说一些话了。也许，这些花只有她有权利说。她站起来，走到奶奶身边搂住她，“奶奶啊，您别难过，我和秦知哪里都不去，谁家的孩子也不做，这辈子我就是老秦家的孙子媳妇。以后我好好孝顺你，好好跟秦知过日子，谁来带秦知我都不许他走，我们就跟你们过。” 说着说着，那傻丫头哭了，也不知道哭个什么。她觉着自己家丈夫太可怜了，咋就那么可怜呢？她想不出用什么方式安慰这家人，想不出用什么方式去心疼自己的男人、自己的丈夫，她也只能陪着哭，肚子里发着成堆的毒誓—— 这辈子一定要对他好，对他全家好。 秦知呆想了一会儿，站起来，走到家门口卸下了那个生锈的铃铛——小时候他以为那铃铛是为了提醒来客人了才挂上去的。摘下那铃铛的那一刻，他下意识地看下门外。 门外黑漆漆，什么也看不到。 “以后，这铃铛就别挂了，这钱也不能要。”秦知把铃铛放到桌子上说。 秦奶奶用手背擦了一把眼泪，“不能要，那也没地儿还啊？两万块呢，不少了，你们以后有了孩子，这钱……” “奶，咱不缺这两万块，这钱……别要了。”秦知坐下说。 秦爷爷抬头冒了句：“不要，丢街上？” 这下关淑怡跟秦奶奶一起乐了。关淑怡拍拍桌子上的钱，说：“那不是……有啥社会福利院、社会老人院吗？里面都是孤儿，或是没人管的老人，咱把钱捐了替他们做好事。这样也不要他们钱，也不欠这个人情。秦知是老秦家养大的，跟他们没关系！” 关淑怡这话算是说到爷爷奶奶的心里去了。秦奶奶连连点头，虽然真的舍不得，但是这钱确实不能咬，秦爷爷熄了烟头，很是同意地取出两叠子钱丢桌子上，“捐了，捐了！明儿你们俩啥也别干，就去那个……那个院，捐了。全部捐了，两万……两万零三十块，不成算上利息，都算清楚了，都捐了！” 送走了爷爷奶奶，秦知脸上的笑容慢慢卸下。关淑怡没去劝他，有些事儿，劝不清楚。她只是坐在他身边，跟他一起面对，等他与自己商量。 忙忙乱乱的，天色渐渐晚了，秦爷爷电视里的戏曲频道的声音听不到了。关淑怡拿起两叠子钱，顺手丢到一边，拽了秦知起来，“你睡不睡啊？不睡干点儿别的。” 秦知看看她，点点头。 这两人穿好衣服，悄悄上三楼打开了新房。关淑怡将屋子里的灯统统打开了后，扭头伸着手指对着秦知快速地花圈，“咱家的电表这会儿会不会这样动？云霄飞车一样，刷刷刷的，一圈又一圈？” 本来满腹心事的秦知顿时乐了，“你爸交电费的吧？” 关淑怡吐吐舌头点点头，“可不，幸亏他们睡了，不然又是一顿骂。” 新家一百二十多平方米，三室一厅。所有的家具物品没开封地丢在一边，这收拾收拾要好多天呢。小夫妻挽起袖子开始忙活，一个给物品拆封，一个拿着抹布擦木地板，又是一阵默默无语。 干了半个多小时，关爸爸一言不发地进屋。老爷子转了几圈，假装看家里的墙缝，假装那点儿东西。就这样，看上去像是无意识地关了几盏灯后，老爷子站在门口嘀咕：“明儿再收拾吧。” 关淑怡抬头看着她爸爸乐，“白天都睡够了。” “别干得太晚。”关爸爸说完转身出去，临到门口的时候小声嘀咕了一句：“这电表转得，刷刷刷的，一直转圈，跟云霄飞车似的……” 秦知默默无语地抬头看着门的方向，老爷子走开后，他一屁股坐到地方上开始乐。关淑怡拆下家具包装，走过来丢到他脑袋上，数落他：“不许嘲笑俺爹！” 秦知绷着脸抬头，特真诚地摇头，“没笑，真的。那电表刷刷刷地转，我都不笑。你爹坐过云霄飞车啊？不容易啊，还知道云霄飞车呢……哈哈！” 关淑怡伸出手对着他的后脑勺啪得就是一下，“不许嘲笑老人。” 秦知抓着她的手扯着她坐到自己怀里，两人拥抱在一起看着墙壁上的新婚照。 “以后，咱好好地过日子，好好孝顺你爸、你妈。” “还有你爷爷、你奶奶。” “嗯……果果。” "Ok?" “以前，我总是想他们什么样儿，其实我想过很多次，见到他们，绝对不认他们，他们怎么哭着求我，我都不认他们。” “你亲爸、亲妈？” "Ok!" "What now?" “放下了，我只求他们忘记我，最后再也别想起来。” “别想那么多了。” “嗯……果果？” "Ok?" “我们……再过几年，领养个孩子好吗？你喜欢男孩子还是女孩子？” 关淑怡呆了一下，坐起来看着秦知。不要孩子是早说好了的，她下意识地抚摸了一下肚子，心里针扎一般猛地疼了一下，也许，就是在这一刻，关淑怡懂得了郎凝。现在，她想要一个孩子了。因为她爱这个男人，所以她想为他生一个孩子，属于他们两个人的孩子。 女人想要孩子的最最基本的欲望，其实是占有，是她为他打上的第一个私人烙印，是家庭的第一层共有关系。 此刻关淑怡的心中有一种微妙的感觉，她觉着，她有了。 那个烙印，她有了。