Chapter 19 Chapter Nineteen

Looking at the slowly rising full moon outside the window, I forced myself to suppress the bitterness in my heart, closed my eyes and took a few deep breaths, feeling that the depression in my heart was released.He let out a long breath, comforting himself that he would face all this sooner or later. Turning around, I saw him standing by the door and staring at him quietly, his eyes were facing each other, and they were tightly intertwined. From his eyes, he felt infinite affection and a little bit of pity.A bright smile appeared on my face, and I said, "Are you going to pass?" He came over and grabbed my hand, looked into my eyes and said, "Don't force yourself." Not daring to meet his gaze, he lowered his head and said, " Don't you have confidence in me?" He held my face in both hands and said, "If you are sad, I will blame myself." Leaning in his arms, buried his face in his chest and said, "This is my choice, I It has to be faced."

Outside the door, Gao Wuyong softly reminded me that the time had come. His eyes stayed on me for a while, and he said to the outsider, "The queen will send someone to take you to the women's house." , Heartbroken, lying on the table and sobbing.This is the love I pursued, and this is the feeling I have been unable to let go of. Only then did I realize that feelings are indeed easy to let go but hard to take back, and the feelings I invested in cannot be taken back. The tears seemed to have dried up, but only the bitter feeling remained deeply in my heart. "Another woman who is sad for him." Hearing the long-lost voice, I felt mixed joy and sorrow in my heart. I raised my head and saw Ba Ye looking at me indifferently.Standing up, staring at him blankly, not seeing him for a few months, this handsome man with a face like a crown of jade has actually become much thinner, he said in his heart: "Ba Ye seems to be less busy these days." He smiled slightly and said: " yes?"

I made a gesture of invitation, and the two of them sat down. I smiled slightly and said, "Why is Baye here?" He put away his smile, his eyes were serious, and he raised his eyebrows and said in a cold voice, "Listen to your explanation." He smiled wryly in his heart, unexpectedly he would be the one who asked for the answer first, he pulled the corner of his mouth and squeezed out a smile and said, "What's the explanation?" He shook his head lightly and said, "Ruoxi is indeed no longer alive, but everything about her you have never seen again?" How do you know." Before I could reply, he had already narrowed his eyes, and said with a confused face: "Besides, it is indeed as you said, you are indeed alike, just like one person."

Traveling through time and space, this concept that cannot be explained in the 21st century, how could people understand it three hundred years ago.I am afraid that if I say it, he will definitely regard me as a person who is insane.All of a sudden, many thoughts swirled in my mind, and in the end I decided to keep concealing it. I cleared my mind and said softly, "Although I don't have Ruoxi's face, I do have her thoughts for some reason." Seeing his surprised expression, I continued: "I seem to remember everything about her, as if I have experienced it myself." His voice was choked up, and bits and pieces of the past flashed in his mind, and he had lost his calm. , anxiously said: "Then you now...?" Intercepting his inquiry, he said: "I am continuing to live for Ruoxi."

The two of them were silent, as if a century had passed, a faint smile appeared on his face and he laughed at himself: "Ruoxi still loves him, she never let him go." Answered, then secretly bowed his head and acquiesced.He continued to laugh and said: "If it's Ruoxi, my feeling is indeed right." He was slightly stunned, but instantly understood that he was talking about that trip to Biewan. He stood up, stared at me quietly for a while and said: "Don't worry about unnecessary people anymore, and only live for yourself from now on." My heart warmed up, and then I felt a little bit of grief, and I said: "Baye also let go Let’s leave a way out for Hongwang.” He said lightly, “The victory or defeat has been decided, I will not do unnecessary things.” My heart was relieved, and the heart that had been hanging these days was relieved.

After speaking, he walked up to me and pulled me into his arms.I wanted to leave, but my heart moved, so I quietly let him hug me.After a while, he let go of me and turned around and strode out. At this moment, his figure was no longer elegant, only lonely and miserable. Looking at the moonlight outside the door, I couldn't help thinking, this is just the beginning, how to explain it in the future, my head aches a little.Under the moonlight, a long figure came into view, looked up, the visitor had Yingying lowered his body to greet him, hurriedly got up and stopped him and said: "Sister, I can't help it." Cuizhu smiled and said: "I have to change my name to master in another day." , why not."

Seeing a row of palace lanterns from a distance, I flinched a little, suppressed the urge to turn around and run away, gritted my teeth and walked slowly, following the green bamboos without squinting.Seeing me coming, Ulanara smiled and said, "My sister is finally here." After sitting down, he glanced around inadvertently, and found that only his concubines and the thirteen Fujins were familiar, and the others were probably the wives of important officials in the court.Seeing me sitting next to the queen, the ministers' wives, Fujin and others showed surprise expressions, but they all passed by in a flash.Seeing me like this, the concubines in the palace all looked pale, as if they already knew the reason.Zhao Jia met my eyes, with a good-natured smile on my face, and I smiled as a sign, or because of her attitude towards Luwu, I have always had a good impression of her.Seeing us like this, Mrs. Fucha next to Mrs. Zhao Jia looked angry and disgusted.With a slight smile on her face, her eyes swept over fiercely, and they looked at each other for a few seconds. She hurriedly turned her face away and stopped looking back.

Withdrawing his eyes, he sat upright with a calm face, but his heart was secretly sad, he was meditating, and suddenly he heard the silence around him.Looking up, I saw Xiao Shunzi leading a small group of eunuchs approaching quickly, and a voice came from a distance: "The emperor is here." Everyone stood up and stood solemnly. After a while, Yinzhen smiled slowly. come.As everyone knelt down on the ground, and then stood up and sat down with everyone blankly, I felt a little numb in my mind, will I live like this from now on? During the banquet, Yin Zhen deliberately smiled, not as cold as usual.After drinking for three rounds, everyone finally let go, toasted each other and drank together, doing orders to add to the fun.On the women's side, they also began to talk about light topics such as clothing and makeup.Everyone was probably not sure about my identity, and they were afraid that my words would be inappropriate, so they just nodded to me and didn't say much.

After sitting for a long time, he finally couldn't sit still, so he quietly got up and went to the layman. Lying on the grass in the imperial garden, quietly looking at the full moon in the dark blue night sky, I saw the moonlight pouring down like milk, and the long hair like a girl hanging down a waterfall, silently splashing on the ground Wisps of light smoke rose, circles of mist appeared, and then slowly dispersed in the air.In an instant, all the troubles seemed to have passed away, and I felt that everything around me was peaceful and serene. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath, and there was a faint fragrance of the moon.

My mind was empty, as if my consciousness had been pulled away.After a long time, I suddenly felt dark in front of my eyes, as if the moonlight was blocked by something.Puzzled in his heart, he opened his eyes and looked, only to see Fourteen standing in front of him.He got up and sat up, patted the grass, and Shisi sat down with a slight smile.After a while of silence, Fourteen said: "Mynah told me all about it." He groaned, but remained silent. Fourteen continued: "I will try my best to protect you in the future. Although I am an expired prince in the Forbidden City, there are few people who can stop what I want to do." Hearing this, he felt helpless. This move was for redemption, but my mind changed again, and I remembered what Shisan had said, so I smiled bitterly: "You all live well, that's what Ruoxi wants to see most. Please remove your eyeliner in time, one jade sandalwood is enough, don't hurt innocent lives any more." Fourteen's eyes tightened, and he said in a cold voice: "Do you really think he will let us go? It's just that he hasn't found a suitable reason now." I knew that my own persuasion alone would not be able to untangle him, so I kept silent. Seeing me like this, Fourteen shook his head and said: "Although her heart is in his There, but I am still happy, after all, she is still in this world." After that, he got up and strode forward.

Time passed quietly in silence, the moon gradually slanted westward, and the shadow of the tree grew longer and longer on the grass.His body lost a little bit of temperature, and he sneezed a few loudly, feeling a little pain, so he got up and walked towards the residence. Pushing open the door, through the dim light, I saw him sitting silently by the bed.He walked forward quickly, sat next to him and hugged his waist, maybe he felt my body was cold, he pulled away the thin quilt and pushed me in, and then lay down beside me.Turning over and lying on his side, he looked at his face, his expression was normal, but he was quietly staring at the ceiling.After a while, he turned around and stared at me face to face and said: "I only hope that you are the mistress of Yinxi Pavilion, and you don't have to attend this kind of banquet in the future." His heart was moved, his eyes were a little hot, and the grievances in his heart disappeared without a trace because of his words.Close to his waist, snuggled into his arms, smelling the familiar smell, my heart was full of happiness.Suddenly he felt a little trembling in his body, puzzled in his heart, looked up at him, only to see that his face was reddish, and his eyes were staring at me eagerly.Immediately, she understood his intentions, her face flushed, and she turned her back to him in embarrassment, feeling worried and expectant in her heart, not knowing exactly what she was thinking.Seeing my reaction like this, he sighed softly, put his arms around my waist from behind, and the two of them kept this posture quietly for a long time in silence. Two days later, the brigade stopped at the gate of the palace.I was sitting in the carriage, looking out from the gap in the curtain, he was standing with a smile on his face, while Ulanara and the others were talking softly, probably as words of concern before leaving.Leaning on the soft cushion with eyes closed, although I felt uncomfortable, but thinking that I would soon return to the place that belonged to the two of us, my whole body immediately relaxed a little. Seeing him coming in through the curtain, he immediately closed his eyes and fell asleep, suddenly felt the heat on his face, opened his eyes and saw that he hurriedly blocked his face with his hands, he straightened up and said: "I am afraid that you are like this, so I don't want you to come .” His ears heated up, and he said anxiously, “What’s wrong with me.” He looked at me and shook his head helplessly. As the distance from the garden gradually approached, people became more and more happy. The carriage stopped slowly, and Gao Wuyong outside said softly: "Your Majesty, there are some stones on the road ahead, we may have to stop for a while." Yinzhen said in a deep voice, "Deal with it as soon as possible." His heart twitched for no reason, There was a shudder all over his body, and a bad premonition rushed straight to his forehead.Involuntarily leaning against him, Xu felt my uneasiness, he smiled lightly and said, "I'm getting more and more boring." Hearing his deliberate teasing, my heart still felt like a big stone was pressed, Not happy. Seeing me like this, he also fell silent. Time slipped by little by little in the silence, and he moved his body a little uneasy, and he suddenly said: "I have seen them." He was a little hesitant in his heart, but he still said: "I have." Words, a trace of coldness rose from the soles of the feet to the back, and could not help shivering cleverly, not knowing what would happen in his heart. I was thinking ecstatically, when someone outside the car said: "Your Majesty, Eunuch Gao ordered the slaves to bring some tea." He opened the curtain unconsciously, and saw a capable eunuch standing beside the car. Seeing me coming out, the man quickly left He took out something from his arms and stabbed it into the car, his heart was anxious, and his whole body hurriedly leaned towards him. The guards outside shouted to catch the assassin, and then there was the sound of ping-pong-pong fighting.Hearing Yinzhen's anxious voice beside his ear, his mind was a little dull, he lowered his body to look at the blood on the felt pad, followed the bloodstain upwards and saw a gleaming dagger stuck in his abdomen, as if his whole body regained some clarity, he turned his head and said: "It's good that you're fine." It was getting darker and darker in front of my eyes, and I felt like I was flying lightly, standing on the clouds and floating farther and farther away.I was a little happy in my heart, it turned out that the sky was so beautiful.Suddenly I heard someone calling me incessantly by my ear, listened carefully, it turned out to be Yinzhen, looking around, there was no one, feeling a little anxious, I followed the voice to find... It hurt so badly that I took a deep breath and struggled to open my eyes.An eager voice came from next to my ear: "Doctor, she's awake." Following the voice, he looked at his haggard face, trying to reach out his hand to caress his frowning brows. Arm, grinning: "Your face is so ugly." After being busy for a while, the imperial doctor said that the danger is over, and he just needs to adjust slowly in the future. His face warmed up with the imperial doctor's diagnosis, and he held my hand tightly and said: "Finally, you can rest assured." A flash in his mind, Thinking of everything that happened that day, he shook his body and asked, "Have you found out?" His eyes flashed, and he said in a deep voice, "Don't worry about it." Seeing him like this, he said with a deep heart: "No It will be Ba Ye and the others, they will not use such a clumsy method." He stared into my eyes and said: "I have promised not to hurt their lives, take good care of yourself, and the matter will be cleared up." During the few days when I was recuperating in bed, I thought about this matter carefully every day. My thoughts often wandered between affirmation and negation, and I was even more tired than I should have been at the end of the day.In the past few days, many people have come to visit him one after another. When I think about it carefully, I can't see Shisan alone. When I asked several people, they either hesitated or talked about him. Looking at the medicine on the table, Yinzhen sat by the bed and blamed: "Why are you making trouble with your body?" He was restless and kept silent, he sighed and said: "Thirteen will come to see you soon. "I said: "Then when the thirteenth master comes, I will drink the medicine myself." The two looked at each other, seeing pity and anger flashing in his eyes, although they couldn't bear it in their hearts, they still persisted stubbornly, He said bitterly: "They really hold a lot of weight in your heart." After speaking, he flicked his sleeves and went out. Looking at the sunset and sunrise outside the window, my heart feels a little chilly, Master Jiu seems to have passed away this month, and it is now the end of the month, and I just can't stop it.Listening to the hurried footsteps outside, Thirteen hurriedly entered the room and stood in front of the bed, looking at me.Picking up the medicine at the bedside and drinking it, he said quietly, "Master Jiu has already left." Thirteen had a puzzled expression on his face, and said, "How did you know that?" Tears flowed down the corners of his eyes and he murmured: " He killed them anyway." Shisan said: "Brother Huang didn't intend to kill them." Seeing my disbelieving expression, Shisan continued: "This incident has been investigated, and it was indeed the eunuch they placed in the palace who did it. It's just Brother Huang I have promised you that I will not hurt their lives, so I just ordered them to be strictly guarded. It’s just that at this point, their life will be more painful than their death.” Thinking about Shisan’s words in his heart, he felt a little discouraged, and smiled wryly. Said: "What about the eighth master?" Thirteen shook his head and said: "Why are you still so hard to see it? For the eighth brother, his life is meaningless with the fourth brother succeeding to the throne. He is still alive today. In the world, it's just that he is still tied to Hongwang." Seeing that I was silent, Thirteen said: "Brother Huang has never been influenced by others, but he always remembers what he promised you. This is not his style. Ruoxi, don't make things difficult for Brother Huang, look at your beloved The woman hurt in front of his eyes, but he was helpless, the pain in his heart is something we can't understand." Close your eyes and meditate, feeling a little bitter in your heart.Every time something happens, I just blame him blindly, but don't consider his feelings at all. Maybe he is also extremely contradictory, maybe he also needs a place to vent and a person to talk to.There was a trace of self-blame in my heart.At this moment, I was eagerly looking forward to him appearing in front of my eyes, but my wish was not fulfilled. Since that day, he actually visited me in the future once.