Chapter 9 Chapter Nine: Miscellaneous

Jinxi came in from the outside with the clothes she had just put away, seeing that I was just sitting sullenly, without making a sound, half sitting in front of the bed and carefully folding the clothes, with skillful and neat gestures. After tidying up in a while, she sighed and said, "The way Mr. Wen went out just now made others feel sad." I sat down on my back and said quietly, "Have many people seen it?" She nodded slightly, "Master Wen is overly sad, as if he lost his soul, how could he know that he has to hide his face, this hour is the time for evening class again, and there are people coming and going."

I gave a soft "um" and fell silent again.The room was dim, and the candle flame flickered, making people's eyes sore. I switched to an oil lamp and lit it. As usual, I spread out the scriptures and read each word silently.Jinxi listened for a while, then said gently beside her: "Listening to the lady reading scriptures today, I am not as preoccupied as I was two days ago." I smiled lightly, and said: "If I can convince him, forget about my concern, otherwise meeting him will be embarrassing, and I don't want to." Jinxi was silent, and then said: "Master Wen's temperament, if the lady speaks too hastily, I'm afraid it will hurt his heart too much, and it will also hurt the friendship that I have known for many years. After all, Mr. Wen has a deep affection for the lady, and we can all see it." Here, in the future, Diji Luyue and Shen Jieyu will need him to take care of them in the palace; but if the words are too soft, I'm afraid he won't listen to the persuasion, and he will always keep this heart there, anyway. It’s not good for anyone. In short, it will take a lot of effort to persuade him.”

I closed the scripture and smiled: "What you said is that I am also grateful for his years of thought. In order to make him accept it, I racked my brains to remember all the old things." Jinxi also laughed, "Looking at the lady sitting blankly two days ago, Huanbi thought she would agree to Mrs. Wen." I laughed it off, "How could it be? If I had to agree, I would never have entered the palace before. Although things have changed over time, human nature will never change." Jinxi said: "Lord Wen, it's really not the best candidate for a lady. Because..." Jinxi smiled, "His affection is always out of date."

"Inappropriate?" I thought about it carefully and smiled, "One time before entering the palace, when I was sure that he was a candidate for the draft, he came to tell me not to go to the draft, but he wanted to propose a marriage; the next two times In the palace, it is even more impossible; and now..." I felt sad, "How can I think about these things in my current state of mind?" Jinxi understood, "So Mrs. Wen might as well not talk, we both have room to meet and talk. He doesn't understand, if the lady really likes him, she won't be sent to the draft that day, and she will have a marriage contract with him long ago."

I raised my sleeves and said to her: "Then you still said that you were warm and touching to me that day, which is very rare." Jinxi lowered her eyes docilely, and smiled slightly, "The servant girl is just telling the truth. It's just that the lady and the servant girl both understand very well that being moved is naturally moving, and has nothing to do with feelings. If the lady doesn't like it, she doesn't like it. Force yourself." I asked, "Where's Huanbi?" "Knowing that Mr. Wen is coming in the afternoon, he found a reason to go out like a servant girl."

I raised my eyebrows, "That girl seems to be out of her mind this time. Maybe she thought I would agree to Wen Shichu." Jinxi's smile was warm and plain, "The maidservant knows that the lady will definitely not agree to Mrs. Wen. Falling flowers are intentional and flowing water is ruthless. More importantly, if you bend your heart to avoid temporary hardships, you are not the Zhenxi you have always known." Lady." Her eyes were clear and clear, "My lady's persistence and cherishment of affection is the most precious thing about her." I looked at her and smiled, "If you know me, it's you, Jinxi."

Before the words finished, Huanbi had already walked in. Seeing that only Jinxi and I were there, he asked curiously, "Has Mr. Wen left? What did Miss tell him?" Jinxi and I exchanged a glance, and both smiled knowingly. A few days later, I went to Huanyi again, and the gossip I heard has been greatly reduced.Taking advantage of the warm weather at noon on this day, I took a large basket of clothes and went to the stream to wash by myself.He spoke frankly and clearly with Wen Shichu, and he was greatly relieved.It was as if a boulder had been dropped from my heart. When I got to the stream, I could only hear the gurgling and splashing of the stream, but Mo Yan was the only one there.

Seeing me coming alone, she glanced at me and said calmly, "You seem to be in a good mood today." I stroked my cheek unconsciously, and said with a smile, "Really? I don't think so much myself." She let out a "huh", shook off her shoes and socks with both hands, and jumped into the stream with one foot.I exclaimed, "Is it cold? Come up quickly, you can't stand in cold water." Mo Yan laughed loudly and said, "What are you afraid of! This is not against the temple rules." He stretched out his hand to pull me, "Come on, you come down too, it's cool!"

I couldn't stop laughing, but in the end I was weak and was pulled down by her.The cool water of the stream dripped onto the skin, as if there was a small fish's mouth gently pecking at it, and it felt relaxed and refreshed.After all, it was still in the spring, and after a while, they couldn't bear it anymore. The two laughed and shook hands and jumped ashore again. She patted her clothes, and said with a half-smile: "The imperial doctor in the palace hasn't come for several days, but you have nothing to worry about." I smiled back and said calmly, "My concern was not for him."

She didn't raise her head, but simply said, "I'll see how you deal with him. If he doesn't come, you don't have to deal with him. Naturally, you don't have to worry about it." When I heard her speak so quickly, I couldn't help but "puchi" a smile, and I admitted it.So he spread out the clothes casually, sprinkled a handful of saponin powder, and just concentrated on scrubbing. Mo Yan was always a loner among the nuns in the monastery, didn't fit in well with others, and had a vicious look, so the nuns in the monastery never dared to embarrass her, let alone ask her to do heavy work.So Mo Yan only needs to take care of himself.

So, she quickly finished washing the clothes in her hand, but she didn't leave, just took the clothes in my basket, put them on the boulder and beat them with a stick.Her hand gestures are extremely proficient, and the force she taps on the clothes is neither light nor heavy, nor does it splash water, like a housewife who is used to her work. I didn't pay any attention to it, and saw that the clear water of the Biqing stream was as transparent as a green belt, soft and swaying, leaping lightly over the green grass beside the stream, and I felt much better. Faced with each other in such a silent manner, she suddenly lowered her head and mumbled, "You are fine." I couldn't comprehend it for a while, and blurted out: "What?" She stopped what she was doing, glanced at me, and said, "You don't like that imperial doctor, that's fine." I laughed dumbfounded, "How do you say such a thing?" She was in a daze, her eyes were cold and violent for a moment, and she forced a few words from between her lips and teeth, as if spitting out a mouthful of disgusting thick phlegm, spit it out in disgust, threw it far away and threw it loudly, " Smelly men are not good things!" I said "ah?", but I didn't dare to laugh, and I didn't know how to respond. Mo Yan said bluntly: "It's like that imperial doctor, he doesn't care about you like an ordinary master who has fallen out of favor, you know it yourself. A man, when he can't get you, he always does everything he can to please you to please you. I got it, getting rid of you is like throwing off a broken shoe, how can I remember how much heart and effort I have put in for you, and I have forgotten it all." She finished speaking in one breath, speaking too hastily, huh panting heavily. I was silent, and I ran my fingers across the cool stream water, and the coolness penetrated into my heart through my skin.I fixedly looked at her, with a questioning tone, "You..." She clapped her hands and looked up at the bright golden sun. The strong light forced her to squint her eyes slightly. Her voice was a faint line, like a sharp needle, shining with a narrow and cold luster. Slowly approaching: "I'm not afraid to tell you, I became a monk halfway." I nodded, "I know that if I had been a monk since I was a child, I wouldn't be so out of place, and I wouldn't be so irritable." She raised her eyebrows and said loudly, "That's right. I was married and had a child before I came to this Ganlu Temple to become a monk and practice." Mo Yan looked at the stream in a daze, and occasionally picked the moss in the crevices of the rocks, which was so dark and green. The color is like her state of mind at the moment, "I am impatient and rude, but when I was young and unmarried, who was not a good daughter? She was gentle, quiet and shy. It's just that after getting married, let alone exhausted, if you meet a husband , the husband’s family is harsh, even the best pearl-like daughter’s family will be ground into fish eyes.” In fact, if you look closely at Mo Yan's complexion, it's not ugly at all.Even though the wind and frost of the years and the hostility in the corners of the eyes can no longer be concealed, the soft and beautiful curvature of the jaw still has a different charm.It can be imagined that if the time goes back twenty years, her appearance is also very delicate and pleasant, and she has also been admired by many men. "Then why did you become a monk?" Mo Yan said without hesitation: "I married the wrong person! He and I are of the same family. We both come from an ordinary farming family and live in a neighboring village. We have known each other since we were young. Before we married him, he treated me well, and I knew how to spin yarn with one hand. I can help with the housework, so he happily married me back. Later, when I got older, I gave birth to two daughters again and again. The stinky man disliked me for not being able to bear a son for him to carry on the family line, and I couldn’t afford to raise two. Daughter, as soon as the little one was born, I drowned her alive. I was so angry and sad that I quarreled with him, and he wanted to drive me out. The mother-in-law and sister-in-law not only refused to persuade, but also fanned the flames, sowed discord, and said I want to find a new wife for him who is young and capable of giving birth. I brought my eldest daughter out in a fit of anger, and I didn't even ask for a divorce letter. A woman who can't give birth to a son has been ridiculed by others, and has no ability , I could only drag my daughter to the temple to beg for a bite of food." After she finished speaking, there were tears in the corner of her eyes.However, his tone was flat and alienated, and even his own anger and unwillingness were faintly invisible.This kind of calm must have been sad to the end.I was terrified when I heard that, how cruel it is for a man to drown his newborn daughter with his own hands!I was also sad in my heart, so I kindly advised: "Don't be sad..." Mo Yan raised his head vigorously, quickly wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes, cut off my words, and spat contemptuously: "Bah! Is a stinky man worthy of making me sad! Let him live his dream." I was sad, but also a little relieved.Mo Yan's two daughters were rejected by her husband's family and kicked out of the house.But I am glad that my Ozuki is fortunately a daughter, so that I can survive in the palace safely and avoid many people's open and dark arrows.But if I'm still in the palace, I'd better be my concubine and enjoy the wealth and honor, I'm afraid I'll secretly regret that my Ozuki is a daughter. I secretly suppressed my thoughts, remembered something, and asked, "You said your daughter came out with you?" Mo Yan said with a "hmm" and sneered: "Do you think Ganlu Temple is a good place? Those nuns look down on me from a poor background. It is a great kindness to take me in. I tried my best to settle my daughter down the mountain. I can take care of each other. When I first came here, I was more tempered. They usually tolerated their cynicism, sarcasm, making things difficult and bullying me. One day I finally couldn't help it, and smashed a hundred-pound heavy woman in the temple. Big water tank, no one dares to bully me anymore, after all, people are kind and bullied, and the persimmons are soft." She clapped her hands with a sigh, and said to me: "You are too good-tempered, let it be They bully." I smiled and said: "You still have a grown-up daughter to rely on. Anyway, you are naked and single in the temple, so there is nothing to be afraid of. As for me, I came out of the palace, and the Ganlu Temple is my last shelter." Therefore, if I leave here, I really have nowhere to go. What's more, there are Huanbi and Jinxi, who will be dragged down by me again." Mo Yan thoughtfully, nodded his head and said, "That's right. That's really wronged you!" I smiled wryly, "It's just muddling along. If you say you are wronged, how can you not be wronged?" Mo Yan said: "That's true. You can see from the appearance of the group of aunts in Ganlu Temple that they fight openly and secretly for small things as big as sesame and mung beans. You used to be a nobleman in the palace, and there are much more women there than in Ganlu Temple. , as long as a man is involved, wealth and power are involved, which woman is as vicious as a murderer with red eyes, and you have suffered a lot of grievances in the past." She is a rough person, and I was really touched when she said such considerate and heart-warming words.Looking at Ganlu Temple, who would say such things to me except Huanbi and Jinxi. The circles of my eyes were slightly red, I wanted to be strong after all, and I didn't want to be seen by her, so I just lowered my head and rubbed my clothes, and said softly: "You can see clearly." Mo Yan hummed softly and said, "What's not clear, looking around the world, it is always men who enjoy happiness and happiness. Women, no matter if they are from poor or rich families, they suffer the same." She sighed: "Just like you and me, if people were not driven to the extreme, no one would be willing to abandon their family and become a monk on the way." These words were like a heavy blow to my heart, and I was shocked.However, no matter how shaken my heart was, I just smiled and didn't say anything. Seeing that I was just in a daze, Mo Yan knew that I was in a bad mood, so he said with a smile, "I'll tell you a joke." I managed to refresh myself, smiled and said, "What?" She smiled mysteriously, and said calmly again: "That stinking man from before came to look for me again last month." I said "ah?" and said, "Do you want to go back with him?" She cast a sideways glance and said, "He wants me to go back, but if I go back with him, I won't be here now." She smiled and said, "The newly married wife of the stinky man also gave birth to a daughter, and the stinky man He told me that his newly married wife is young, but her appearance is not comparable to mine when I was young. Moreover, my hands and paws are clumsy. I used to weave two pieces a day, and the weaving was dense and good. Then Women can’t weave a single thread in two days, and they often break the thread and make the wrong needle, which drives the stinky man to death, and it’s useless to beat him.” "Then how did you tell him?" There was a soft but cold light in Mo Yan's eyes, "I just told him one thing, to bring back the life of my dead little daughter. As long as she comes back to life, I will go back with him. That stinking man had nothing to say, so he just walked away "Her tone became gentle and sad, "You don't know my little daughter, how cute she is, I love her so much. It's a pity that she has only lived in this world for less than three days." There was silence all around, There was the sound of the wind passing by, whimpering, and Mo Yan's sadness, which made people feel very sad. Mo Yan wiped away his tears fiercely, and said: "The stinky man is so beautiful, tell me to go back and let him enjoy the blessings of everyone for nothing, so I won't be his mother. I am clean and alone, with my daughter, It's much more comfortable than being in his house. My little daughter, I can't die in vain." I vaguely remember flipping through it before, and saw an article like this: Go up the mountain to pick wild plants, and go down the mountain to meet your old husband.He knelt down and asked his old husband: "How about the newcomer?" "Although the newcomers say good things, they are not as good as the old ones. The colors are similar, but the hands and claws are not." "Newcomers enter through the door, old people leave through the joint." "New people weave the yarn by hand, so the yarn is artificially woven. One piece of yarn is woven every day, and the yarn is more than five feet. Comparing the yarn, the newcomer is not as good as the old one." It can be seen that the misfortune of men and the misfortune of women have been the same since ancient times, and there has been no change.Mo Yan, on the other hand, is much tougher and more courageous than Mi Wunu. I shook her hand tightly and comforted me: "It's okay, it's over after all." Mo Yan smiled sadly, "Do you know why I am willing to tell you these things?" I shook my head and smiled, "Probably because you think I'm tight-lipped." She smiled silently, and held my hand instead, "Because I can see that your heart is suffering no less than mine." I smiled quietly, and the wind blew through my wet hands, as if I felt the tightness of the tears after they had dried.However, what can I say.After all, I can only be speechless.