Chapter 91 Chapter Ninety

Shi Yan had that feeling again, always feeling that there was something wrong with Zhuoyou's theory, but she just couldn't point out where the problem was.But she didn't bother to care about his problem: "I don't care whether you have a choice, or whether you are in the officialdom or not, I have moved out a long time ago, and it has nothing to do with you. If you are a little bit human, a bit bloody , you should make it clear to your enemies, let them have a bit of humanity and a bit of blood, fight whoever they should fight, don't use the child to open the knife—” "If they were human and bloody, they wouldn't do this kind of thing. Yan'er, this is exactly the effect they want. They just want me to betray my relatives, my family is ruined, my wife and children are separated, and even my closest relatives don't support me. I, hate me, they're trying to break me down this way—"

This time she caught his weak spot: "Did they cause your betrayal? According to what you said, my work is caused by Wen, but is it caused by Wen that we broke up?" "Didn't the surname Wen cause the breakdown of our relationship? If he didn't instruct that lowly woman to write that letter—" She interrupted him: "don't shirk your responsibility, did I move out for that letter?" "That letter must have played a role, and the incident between me and Aunt Jiang, wasn't it caused by Wen?" She was surprised: "That's also caused by the surname Wen? He taught you? Forced you?"

"If he hadn't punished my parents during the Cultural Revolution and drove them to a cadre school, I would—" That's it! She retorted: "How many parents were sent to the cadre school? Don't they all-become like you-like?" "How do you know they didn't—I—do that?" She really didn't know if those people became like him, and she didn't want to know, she said helplessly: "You never admit your mistakes, you have to blame others for everything, and you always have to find a scapegoat. If you are not like this , at least there is still a little hope of correction, but like you, you don’t admit your mistakes—do you still expect not to betray your relatives?"

He argued: "I—I'm not used to admitting my mistakes verbally, but haven't I—actually—changed everything? And verbally—I beg you, can I ask for less? I have never begged in my life. , it's all - begging on you -" "What are you begging me for? Didn't you ever try to excuse yourself?" She realized that the meal had turned into a debate, so she interrupted herself and said, "I don't want to talk about this anymore, the points are separated, and it's meaningless to talk about it I just ask you to do one thing: please go and tell that Wen, I have left you a long time ago, it has nothing to do with you, please don't implicate my child just to punish you—"

He smiled disdainfully: "Do you think that political struggle is just playing tricks? If you run to say that you have nothing to do with me, people will think that you have nothing to do with me? He has already made a move, even if he made a wrong move, it is considered to be a wrong move for me. Neighbor, he won't correct it, let alone my—wife—" She was very upset: "how can he be so unreasonable? Tell him, I'm not your wife. If you dare not go, let me tell him—" He lowered his voice and shouted: "What are you going to tell him? Said that you have drawn a clear line with me? Are you willing to turn around and stand on his side to deal with me?"

I'm not mean--I'm just telling him I've got nothing to do with you--" "Then why should he trust you?" She thought for a while: "I can ask Yao Xiaoping to testify for me, I have moved out from you long ago, and our marriage certificate is also—" He threw his chopsticks on the table and made a loud noise, which startled her. She was afraid of looking into his eyes, and felt that his eyes were fierce. god".He said solemnly, "Did you tell Yao Xiaoping about me?" She pretended to be confused: "your business? What's your business? What can you tell her?"

"Stop pretending, you know what I'm talking about. I'm telling you, if you're stupid enough to tell her everything, you-don't think I'll ever forgive you-" She was angry: "When did I ask you to forgive me? If you asked me today to tell me that you have hurt your child, and you don't feel guilty at all, and you don't want to save your child at all, I have nothing to tell you gone." After finishing speaking, she went out and was pulled by him. He begged in a low voice: "Yan'er, don't go, I haven't finished talking yet. Please move back to live, please don't be a loved one, and an enemy will be quick." I can't let them watch the jokes—"

"When you are almost losing your child's life, are you still thinking about your face? How much is your face? Is it worth that much? Worth more than a life?" "I asked you to move back to save—the child's life—" Seeing her expression of "willing to hear more about it," he explained, "I've made all the arrangements, you move back, An An Heart gave birth to the child, and—" She asked: "How can you give birth without fertility indicators?" "Fertility indicators are only used to register for household registration. If you want to give birth, who can keep the child in your stomach so that it doesn't come out?"

"But if you can't get a hukou, won't the child become a black and black hukou?" "It's okay to be black and black, but it's just that you pay more money to go to school. Who dares to arrest and kill the child?" That was true, but where was the money to be found?She asked: "What about my job? If I don't have a baby, I lose my job—" "What do you still want to do in public? Just stay at home and take care of your children." "I don't work, what will I eat with my children? Drink the wind from the southeast and northwest?"

"I feed you—and the child—" She looked at him suspiciously, not understanding how he became so generous all of a sudden: "Don't you believe that the child is yours? Why are you willing to raise the child again?" He faltered and said: "I—I asked Dr. Liu, and she said—I didn't understand—but I think she didn't make it clear—at first she said you were pregnant at the end of June—but then I said When I went to ask her, she—and said—that the end of June was your last—period time, and the real pregnancy time should be—mid July—” "Don't you even understand this? Didn't she say it in front of you when we went to get the indicators that day?"

"But—in the middle of July—didn't that ugly bastard still—seek you?" She couldn't get angry: "He just went to deliver a book, and he only sat in the living room for a few minutes. Could it be—is it the reason for you to doubt me?" "How do I—how do I know he's been sitting for a few minutes?" She was so angry that she couldn't speak, but finally realized that this matter was irrelevant, and she didn't plan to be with him anymore, and why did he wrong her? He said earnestly: "Yan'er, I know there are some contradictions and misunderstandings between us - but at this time - we should learn from the KMT and the Communist Party, let go of the past, and form a united anti-Japanese front. If at this time We only consider our personal interests and settle old accounts, which is not conducive to unity, and our enemies wish that we are not united, wish that we are divided, then they will be too easy to defeat us—” She has always listened to the party's words as an imperial decree, and never made a second turn in her mind. Whatever the party says, we can do what we do.Joyo's words, which sound like the words of the party, have a hypnotic effect. When she hears "let go of the past", "united front", "unity", "division" and so on, she has a sacred feeling. Disobedience is the same as treason.As if she had been hypnotized, her anger disappeared, and her rebuttal nerves were completely paralyzed, leaving only a longing for progress and a noble desire. He asked: "Yan'er, okay? I beg you!" She dreamily asked: "What's good?" She saw a flash in his eyes of the teacher blaming the students for not listening, or blaming the students for their "pig brains". She was much more sober, waiting for him to lose his temper. But he obviously held back, and said patiently, "I'm asking you to move back—" "You let me think about it." "Don't go to ask your dog-headed military adviser again, you should be more mature, don't always be like a little girl, always asking others for ideas, and in the end you can't get the idea, and you will - family scandal - leaked out—” She couldn't bear his condescending tone and said back: "What kind of family scandal do we have? We are not a family at all. What kind of family scandal is there?" With an expression of "holding a knife on his head", he gave in and said, "Okay, you can discuss it with her, but remember, there are some things you can't tell her, otherwise you will treat her as a bosom friend , but she treats you like a fool. What you can say and what you can't say, you're such an adult, you have to know in your heart, lest others treat you as a fool—" After she returned to the dormitory, she couldn't wait to tell Yao Xiaoping about the conversation with Zhuoyou today, and asked eagerly, "Do you think his method will work?" Yao Xiaoping categorically objected: "Don't be fooled by him, he is obviously trying to save face and not let his enemies see a joke. He is such a person, do you think he will really support you and your child if he says he will support you and your child?" ?Even if he raises it, he must be a big brand, a dud, and treat you as a servant of the family. He holds the money pocket, and if you want to use the money, you have to ask him for flowers. Let me tell you, Those days were not for people—” The little hope she had just had was shattered again, and she said discouragedly: "Then what do you think? Don't work anymore, and rely on parents to support you?" "Mom and dad can't support you forever, I think—" Yao Xiaoping said tentatively, "If you really want to give birth to this child and lose your public office if you lose your public office, you should—go to Huang Hai. I think his Man, if he said he would raise you and your child for a lifetime, he would really do so, but Zhuoyou must be a verbal revolutionary. He needs you to save face now, so he will make you an official and make a wish. When he is prosperous one day, he will still fuck you-" "Why would Huang Hai--talk what he says? Has he made it to the top?" "He's different, one is because he is kinder, and the other is—" Yao Xiaoping hesitated for a while, and said in a word, "Objectively, he also—is not allowed to—" She didn't know whether Yao Xiaoping's "objectively not allowed" meant that Huang Hai was too ugly and he was not allowed to transfer his love objectively, or that Huang Hai had no official career and could not be successful.Fortunately, these are not important, because it is impossible for Huang Hai to support her and the child, and he will have his own family soon.She thought that the Spring Festival was approaching, and Huang Hai was about to marry that past Xihua, and she felt a little uncomfortable, so she simply said: "Don't think about Huang Hai, he is getting married soon——" "It's just 'getting married soon', you haven't gotten married yet, it's still too late—" She said dejectedly: "If he dumps his girlfriend now, the crazy woman will definitely not be able to survive. Forget it, don't kill another for the sake of one life."