Chapter 74 Chapter 73

Now Shi Yan is waiting for Zhuo Liang to punish her. She has even written a suicide note, telling the truth about everything before and after, and finally said that if she dies for no reason, then Zhuo Liang is the culprit. She copied many copies of the suicide note and put them in envelopes. The recipients' addresses were written on the envelopes. From the city newspaper, wait, she signed all these suicide notes and sealed them with her own seal, but they didn't seal them, and handed them all over to Yao Xiaoping for safekeeping. Yao Xiaoping comforted her, saying that maybe the matter would not develop to that point, and then patted her chest and said, "If something happens to you, I will definitely not let Zhuo go—"

She didn't know Yao Xiaoping's ability to not let someone surnamed Zhuo go, but she didn't want to ask, so she was satisfied with having such a good friend who was willing to avenge her in theory. Now her relationship with Yao Xiaoping has improved to a higher level. I don’t know if it’s sympathy or like-mindedness. Anyway, they have a good heart and a heart-to-heart bond. She completely understands Yao Xiaoping’s situation, and Yao Xiaoping also fully understands her situation, or Yao Xiaoping has always understood her. However, she did not fully understand Yao Xiaoping's situation until now.

She also fully experienced the boldness of throwing away the key to go to the revolution. This time, she did not lose a dependence emotionally, but truly put life and death aside.She didn't know how Zhuo Liang would punish her, but she had imagined all kinds of weird ways to die, such as riding a bicycle, tripping over a steel rope tied to the road and falling to death; or going down the stairs After a few steps, the stairs collapsed and fell to his death; or Zhuo Liang came into the dormitory in the middle of the night, covered his mouth and nose with gauze soaked in chlorine and francium, and suffocated to death; On stage, birth and death.

But she never imagined the way of death by knife and axe, not because that kind of death is unromantic, but because she thinks that the outstanding bad is not the bad of thugs, but the bad of poisonous snakes. whole person.For example, for Yao Xiaoping, instead of going directly to the department to file a complaint, he asked Zhao Shiguang to file a complaint with Yao's husband in a roundabout way; or for Hu Liying, instead of directly beating and scolding Hu, he asked others to report to the newspaper. Go up and slander Hu. In a word, Zhuoyou pays attention to killing without blood, and the purpose of not seeing blood is to wash away his own ties so that he can get away with it.The most hateful thing is this kind of person, and the most terrifying thing is also this kind of person.

She thought of such a terrible ending, and dared to confront Zhuo Liang, which gave her a sense of victory: How about it?I’m not afraid of you, it’s up to you what to do with me! Maybe this is the so-called “death and rebirth”, it’s not brave, it’s just forced, just like Chen Sheng and Wu Guang, it’s already too late, desperately rushing to the destination is death, rebellion It is also death, maybe rebellion can find a way out for itself, so why not rebel? She felt that her situation was similar to that of Chen Sheng and Wu Guang. Now that the scandal between Zhuo Zhuo and Aunt Jiang had been broken, could she still be expected to let her go?Instead of following him reluctantly, tolerating the scandal between him and Aunt Jiang, and finally being retaliated by him, it is better to rise up and run away from him, so as not to worry day and night, at least you can guarantee that you will not be tarnished and your children will not be affected.

Every morning when she went to work, she made preparations that she would not be able to come back. When she came back safely every afternoon, she felt that she had taken advantage of her life and wasted a day.She also doesn't care whether there are articles slandering her in the Evening News of D City. If there is any slander, it will always reach her ears. His whole scandal was exposed. She doesn't miss the life with Joyo at all, what is there to miss?He completely treats her as a high-end nanny who doesn't need money. She does all the housework. He doesn't do anything. Shall I go to the sun?Excellence is not helpful in these things. If she talks about him, he will say, "If you don't want to do it, don't do it, and no one will force you. I hate those people who work hard and can't complain."He was writing there all day long and didn't accompany her. Every now and then, she had to go through that horrible "making love" process, which made her sick just thinking about it.

Now she lives with Yao Xiaoping, which is more comfortable than living with Zhuoyue, because Yao Xiaoping takes care of cooking and grocery shopping. Although Yao Xiaoping works in the attached middle school, she is more free than her. She doesn't have to sit in class, and she completes her homework after class. Just go home.Yao happened to pass by the vegetable market on his way back from get off work, so he went in to buy vegetables, and when he got home, he lit the fire to cook, because it was gas, so it was quick to cook. Rigorousness is like a sentinel who arrives on duty on time. He comes over every afternoon around five o'clock to help turn on the water and get hot water. Shi Yan doesn't have to do anything, and sometimes just helps choose vegetables.The three of us ate dinner together. After eating, Yao Xiaoping sent Yan Jing to wash the dishes. After finishing the work, Yao and Yan Jing went out for a walk. She didn't know where they went or what they did. Anyway, Yao Xiaoping only needed to go for a walk They all come back very late.

Yao Xiaoping sometimes joked while cooking: "Shi, do you think I am a man who repays kindness and revenge? I use excellent gas and support you in divorcing him. I will suffer retribution sooner or later—" Sometimes Yao Xiaoping said: "I made your life here so comfortable, it's like digging a grave for myself—" She was puzzled: "Why?" "You live here so comfortably that you can't think of leaving. Doesn't that mean that you have lost a little thought of Zhuoyou? He originally expected you to run back to him if you couldn't live here for two days. Now Alright, Zhuo Zhuo is going to vent his anger on me, I will also find a time to write the suicide note—"

Yao Xiaoping made herself laugh out loud, and after laughing, she was worried again: "What if the gas in this altar runs out? Will he help us?" She didn't know either, in fact, she didn't want to use Zhuoyou's gas, she wanted to break up with him completely, without any involvement, but she knew it was impossible, no matter how hard she tried to get rid of him, she would never be able to break up with him in this life. It's clear, because half of the genes of the child in the womb always belong to him, and she can't kick him out even if he wants to see the child.Since it is unclear, there is no need to make a fuss about a jar of gas.

Yao Xiaoping said, "Hmph, let's use this to test him. If he keeps helping us get gas, you can reconcile with him, otherwise—" She thinks it's too much of a joke, she and the problem of excellence are definitely not a problem of gas. A few days after she moved back to Nanyishe, Zhuoyou came to tell her that she had obtained the fertility quota. "Thank you," she held out her hand, "give it to me." He took her hand and held it, but didn't give her anything: "What for you? Do you think it's a certificate? An indicator is an indicator—"

She pulled out her hand: "Then there must be a certificate, right?" "The certificate is in the school hospital, let's go to the hospital together tomorrow, we must go together as two people, otherwise we won't get the quota—" She laughed and said, "Two people have to carry one indicator?" "It's not lifting, but—the school's regulations, you also have to go to the hospital for some examinations, you'll know when you go—" The birthright of the child is important, she agreed. Yao Xiaoping stayed with Zhuoyue for dinner that day, Yan Jing went to buy a few bottles of beer, and drank with Zhuoyue in full swing, people who didn't know where saw the four and thought they were two loving couples, who knew that they were husband and wife , but not in love, and the other couple is in love, but not husband and wife. Maybe things in the world are like this, love and husband and wife are often incompatible. The next day, Shi Yan took half a day off and went to the school hospital with Zhuo Zhuo to get the "credentials".She had been to the school hospital during the last employment medical examination, and her impression was not very good.When I came to the obstetrics and gynecology department today, my impression was even worse. How does it look like an obstetrics and gynecology department?Although she doesn't know what an obstetrics and gynecology department should be like, there must always be some instruments, some hospital beds, and a few white coats dangling around, right? But the Department of Obstetrics and Gynecology in the Teachers College is so small that there is a scale at the door, like the one used by farmers in "Dongdongguai" to weigh pigs. The bamboo poles are not much better, and there is a bed covered with white sheets, which looks dirty.In the obstetrics and gynecology department, I saw a woman in a white coat who claimed to be Dr. Liu, but she felt that she was not even a nurse. She was at the level of Aunt Jiang, only wearing a pair of black cloth shoes with white rubber soles. Dr. Liu focused 90% of his attention on talking to Zhuoyue, and at the same time, he used 10% of his attention to do some checks for Shi Yan, such as measuring his height and weight, and checking his blood pressure. The most professional examination is to let her lie on the bed and touch her stomach a few times, which takes less time than her twisting and undoing her trouser belt. She couldn't bear it anymore, and asked, "This place—how do you have a baby?" Dr. Liu ignored her, seeming to disdain such a stupid question.Zhuo Zhuo helped to explain: "I don't give birth here. I only create files and do some tests here. In the end, I go to the hospital in the city to give birth. Isn't that right, Dr. Liu?" "That's right. Your lover doesn't understand, you go back and tell her—" Zhuo Zhuo added: "Dr. Liu said that when you are about to give birth, you can call a car twice in the school team, once for delivery, and once for pick-up. They are all free of charge. You need to pay for the production expenses first, and then bring the invoice back for reimbursement— —” It was the first time she had heard that an invoice would be issued even for the birth of a child. No wonder Excellence had to issue an invoice for everything.However, after hearing these details, she felt relieved, and snorted: "I don't think this is a place to give birth—" After chatting with Zhuoyue, Dr. Liu sent them a small yellow notebook with the height, weight, waist, chest, etc. written on it, as well as the schedule of pregnancy checkups. It seems that she has to come to this place several times, but she I'm not going to come with Zhuoyue, lest Dr. Liu be absent-minded and make a mistake in examining her. Dr. Liu also explained the matters that should be paid attention to during pregnancy, mainly related to matters between husband and wife, such as what contraceptive methods are usually used, what contraceptive methods are planned to be used after delivery, external ejaculation is not safe, and how to wear condoms It works, wait, and forced them to buy a pamphlet edited and printed by Dr. Liu, about couples’ sex life and contraception. After touching it with sweaty hands, the man's genitals in the picture turned into a long streak of black ink, like standing on the ground with three legs. Such a broken book actually costs ten yuan without an invoice, which makes people suspect that Dr. Liu is doing black market business.But Zhuoyou didn't care about money, so he bought it like a treasure book. With this Huang Benben, a big stone in Shi Yan's heart was released. This is the birth index, and now her child has the right to be born.Some time ago, she was always as if she stole something from others. She was not straight, angry, and evasive when speaking and doing things. Find out you're pregnant.Now that you have the indicators, you can feel proud.It was really strange, as soon as I got the indicators, I felt my stomach was heavy, as if I couldn't grasp the balance without walking on my back. She walked out of the hospital with duck steps, Zhuo Zhuo suggested, "Let's find a place to have a meal and celebrate." She almost said: "What are you celebrating?" After he reminded her, she remembered that he is the father of the child, and he has the right to celebrate, but she didn't want to celebrate with him, wishing to pick out half of his genes and give him back , because she was worried that his virtues would be passed on to her children.She excused impatiently: "I only took half a day off, and I have to go back to work—" "Then go after get off work?" Without waiting for her to evade again, he continued, "Let's have a meal together, for the sake of the children—" His tone was very pleading, his eyes were also begging, and it was for the sake of the child, so she agreed as soon as her heart softened.