Chapter 32 Chapter Thirty-One

Huang Hai stopped calling, Shi Yan felt empty, the only consolation was "this is good for everyone".She tried her best not to think about her interactions with Huang Hai over the years, because the more she thought about it, the more uncomfortable she felt. It could really be considered anticlimactic, even worse than anticlimactic, like eating a whole plate of peanuts, and it was fine until the last meal One was moldy peanuts, which covered up the aroma in front of it, and I ate a plate for nothing. I really feel sorry for those peanuts that are not moldy in front. Now she sticks to three things to comfort herself. One is that Huang Hai had a first love, which shows that he didn't always pretend to be her in his heart, but only thought of her after his first love failed; Her contacts show that he has a very temper. Now she just said "mean", and he lost his temper. What if she called him "ugly"?Don't you want to lose your temper even more?Although the third point was the fuse that caused their breakup, it seems that it is not so important now, that is, Huang Hai is always throwing great shit.

She arranged these reasons from high to low according to the severity of the plot, and slowly, the third one was crossed out, as if she didn't lose her temper that time because of the yellow sea dung splashing on Zhuoyou, but because he said she didn't It was her own responsibility to get into a good school, that's why she lost her temper.But she also remembered that Huang Hai didn't say that, she just said that she herself was also responsible. "Certain responsibility" doesn't seem to be too much, because she was really flustered during the college entrance examination.

Then, the second point didn't seem to be a big mistake, she called him mean, of course he was angry.Vile! What a serious word! And she remembered that after she said "vile", he didn't get angry, but said very pathetically, "I can't do anything", which means that he didn't run away because of anger, but because of despair , a man desperate for love, can you blame him for running away? Now there is only the first one left, it is useless for her to excuse him no matter what, because it is a fact.She now feels that the reason why she has not been able to fall into Huang Hai's arms is because of his girlfriend. If he loved her in the first place instead of that female classmate, then she would definitely not care about his appearance.

With this reason to stay there, she felt much better.She thought, I don't ask for anything in love, I only ask that he has never loved anyone else, is this too much?She herself replied: Not at all too much.But she also knew in her heart that although this requirement was not too much, there were not many boys who could meet this requirement, and there would only be fewer and fewer boys in the future. She doesn't understand what's wrong with boys, why they love to find a girlfriend early, but they don't follow through with the love after finding it, and then they blow it off to find another girlfriend, which makes the girl in the back angry Yu Huai, he himself didn't have a good life, and in the end, he couldn't carry out his love to the end, so he had to blow it off and find a new girlfriend, a vicious circle.Can't boys spot one at a glance and avoid more trouble?

She originally wanted to say that girls are not like this, but she immediately thought of Yao Xiaoping, and found that not all girls are like this.But she is very confident in herself and feels that she will not be like this.She thought, I'll look carefully beforehand, and if I'm sure, I won't fall in love if I don't look right;If everyone was like me, there would be a lot less unfortunate people in this world. She mentioned this to Yao Xiaoping with the pride of a role model in love. Yao Xiaoping warned her: "You don't like boys who have had girlfriends? Then you'd better find one quickly, because the older you meet, the older you will be." The greater the chance, the greater the possibility of having a girlfriend before—”

She thought to herself that I have the final say on this matter?I want to quickly find one can quickly find one?But she didn't say it out, for fear that Yao Xiaoping would think she was in a hurry to find a boyfriend. Yao Xiaoping asked curiously, "Why hasn't Zhuoyou contacted you yet?" "how could I know?" "Is there any news about your staying in school?" She felt that Yao Xiaoping asked the question knowingly, if there was news, how could Yao Xiaoping not know?She expressed her dissatisfaction by keeping silent, and Yao Xiaoping suggested: "I think Zhuoyou is forcing you to find him, so you can go to him, anyway, it's for staying in school, and it's not shameful, as long as you don't let him Just take the opportunity to take advantage of you—”

She felt that Yao Xiaoping and Yao Xiaoping were getting more and more speechless. It was really like two cars running on the road, and there was no possibility of handover.But Yao Xiaoping didn't seem to think so, and said enthusiastically, "Shall I ask for you?" She lazily said: "Forget it, I'm ready to go back to 'Dongdongguai', at worst, I'll take the postgraduate entrance examination in two years—" "You made Huang Hai go away in anger, how can you still take the postgraduate entrance examination?" She didn't like the saying "drove Huang Haiqi away", as if she was responsible, but she had nothing to say, because she was indeed the one who made him go away.She said angrily: "Without him, I wouldn't be able to pass the postgraduate entrance examination? I don't believe in this evil—"

"You don't know about this. The postgraduate entrance examination is not like the undergraduate examination. There is no national unified examination for professional courses. The tutors themselves write the questions. Whoever the tutor likes will recruit. If you don't have inside information, how do you know what the tutor likes? Such a student? I'm afraid it will be difficult to get into the exam—" Yao Xiaoping said a lesson, "I told you not to blow the Yellow Sea away, don't you believe—" She said sincerely, "I wouldn't do something so mean—"

Yao Xiaoping smiled: "Now you have a 'despicable' on the left and a 'despicable' on the right. In fact, you have never seen the real despicable people. You scold people who are not despicable, and you can’t see the real despicable people at all. Their despicableness. Forget it, let's not talk to you about this, let's go to our graduation assignment." When Yao Xiaoping said she was busy, she was really busy. Before the formalities for staying in the attached high school were completed, the attached high school came to ask Yao Xiaoping to take over the class, because a teacher leading the senior year fell ill, and the school was in a hurry, afraid of the impact. The school's college entrance examination results.Yao Xiaoping has been there for a few days, and she is very well received by the school. She has arranged for Yao's classes for the next semester. She is teaching senior three, and she will start working during the summer vacation to make up lessons for students, and she will be paid.

Yao Xiaoping happily reported the good news to Shi Yan every day, and said today: "That's it, I have to make up classes during the summer vacation, so I can stay in City D." Two days later, he said: "The school said that the teachers of our attached high school are treated the same as the teachers and staff of the teacher's college. Young teachers can be divided into half dormitories. Shi, you should finish the matter of staying in school quickly. The two of you can share a bedroom—" These news made Shi Yan more and more anxious. Although she was ready to go back to "Dongdongguai", she had to wait until the matter of staying in school was completely in vain, right?There was no news from Zhuoyue at all, and the department never informed her to go to the school to go through any formalities, while the others had received the recruitment notice one after another and started to go through the formalities.Everyone in the class seems to be very busy, but she is alone and bored.

Finally one day, when she was so anxious that she wanted to commit suicide, the department gave her a notice telling her to go to the school administration building.She felt that she must have gone through the procedures at "Dongdongguai". Although she felt a little melancholy, after waiting anxiously for a period of time, she finally had a result, and she felt that it was better than continuing to wait. She turned to the school administration building with her mind full of "turning holes". She remembered that although she often passed by this building, she had never entered it. It gave her the feeling that the door of this building was not opened for students. Brainy people come and go here.But as soon as she entered the building, she found that her previous thinking was wrong. There were many students in the building, each with some forms in their hands, rushing here and there like headless flies. She also joined the team of headless flies, and compared the notice in her hand, she found the "Political Works Office" in a roundabout way.She saw a lot of students queuing up in front of some offices along the way, but there was no one queuing up in the room she went to. Only then did she realize that the "Political Work Office" was looking for her, not the "Graduation Office". She was so frightened that she thought she had violated the rules of heaven, and the school called her to lecture her. When she timidly entered the office, a young man on the phone gestured to her, telling her to sit there and wait.She ran out quickly and stood outside in the corridor waiting, as if entering the political work office was equivalent to being punished.After a while, the young man finished his phone call and came out to call her, "Is that Shi Yan?" "yes." "Please come in." She went into the Political Work Office and waited for the young cadre to speak, but the man said, "Sit at the table and fill out these forms." She moved the chair to the table, sat on the edge of the chair with her buttocks pointed, and glanced at the forms in a daze. It was like reading a bible, but she didn't understand a single sentence. It felt like a death sentence, waiting for She signs.Her hands were shaking, not knowing where to start. Seeing that she didn't write, the man asked curiously, "Do you—have reservations?" These words are as difficult to decipher as a secret code. Could it be that the right to appeal is reserved?She asked anxiously: "Reservation? What reservation?" The man laughed, and said irrelevantly: "My surname is Chen, you can call me Xiao Chen, we will meet often in the future. Now you fill out the form first, and if you have any unclear points, you can ask me—" She felt that Xiao Chen's attitude was very kind, not as if he was trying to scold others, and she also felt that the form had become kinder, not like a death sentence.She nodded gratefully, and began to look at the form carefully, and found that one was the "Basic Information Survey Form for the Faculty and Staff of Provincial Teachers College in C Province", and there were some other forms, and one even swore to keep state secrets.She somewhat understood what Xiao Chen meant by "we will meet often in the future", that is to say, she will become a staff member of the C Provincial Teachers College, and will work in this building in the future. She didn't expect to stay in school like this. Although she didn't know how to stay in school, it was definitely not like this in her imagination.She stood there in a daze, thinking of Zhuo Zhuo, of eating with a few officials in the restaurant that day, and of the series of events that happened during this period of time because of staying in school, she just felt like a dream: Is this how you stay in school? Seeing her standing there in a daze, Xiao Chen urged, "Hurry up and fill out the form, I have a meeting later—" She asked, "Do I—have to fill out this form?" Xiao Chen was amused, and he chuckled: "How can we transfer the file to you if you don't fill out the form?" She thought, this has to be transferred to the file?Isn't her file in this administrative building?She asked her questions, and Xiao Chen laughed again: "Although they are all in this building, the student files belong to the student files, and the cadre files belong to the cadre files. There are strict procedures for transferring—" When she heard the word "cadre", she suddenly asked without thinking: "Then what if I don't want to stay in school?" Xiao Chen looked at her in surprise: "You don't want to stay in school? Then——I really don't know what to do. I don't do this either. Principal Zhang asked me to bring you the form to fill out. You wait for me Go ask—” She panicked, fearing that it would be a disaster for Xiao Chen to ask, so she quickly stopped and said, "I'm talking nonsense, you don't need to ask—" Xiao Chen said: "I seem to have heard that if you do not accept the allocation from the state, you have to fill out a form and state the reasons why you do not accept the allocation, such as your parents are old and frail and need care, the husband and wife are separated, etc. .If you do have practical difficulties, I can help you get a form—" She quickly stated: "No, no, I have no practical difficulties, I will fill out the form and give it to you right away—" She filled out the form, and Xiao Chen said in an official tone: "Now you go to the school hospital to have a new employee physical examination. If you fail the physical examination, we will not be able to hire you, but the school will assign you another job—" She asked fearfully: "I'm just like this - I went to the hospital for a physical examination? People - will you give me a physical examination?" "You have a student ID, don't you? Just show them your student ID—" She was still worried: "I have a student ID card, but how do they know that I am staying in school?" "There's a list at the hospital, you'll know when you go—" Only then did she leave the administration building with peace of mind and went to the hospital for a physical examination. She felt so amazing in her heart that the school had already listed her as one of her own, and the list had already gone to the hospital, but she didn't know it at all, and was still there anxious Had to commit suicide.The question popped up in her mind again: Is this how to stay in school? When Yao Xiaoping returned to the dormitory at night, she told Yao Xiaoping everything that happened today.Yao Xiaoping made a fuss and said, "Huh? You came from behind? I haven't been notified to go for a physical examination yet, the form has already been filled out—" She said in a trance: "I still can't believe this is true. Is this how you stay in school?" "What else can I do? Zhuo Zhuo really has a way, he said he got you into the principal's office, so he got you into the principal's office—" She corrected, "It's not the principal's office, it's the scientific research office—" "Does that make any difference? Anyway, it's a vase for the principal—" She said seriously: "Is it a vase for the principal? Then I quit—" "Stop talking about it, why don't you do it now? If you don't do it, don't fill out the form first—" Yao Xiaoping punched her and said, "You are just lucky, and you just fascinated him. For you Get this good job—” "Did he conspire?" "Who else could it be if it wasn't him? Does the principal still know that you are such a grass-roots person?" "Then why doesn't he—ever—talk to me?" "If I tell my thoughts, you will definitely be unhappy. Forget it, I'll stop talking. I'll keep my head down and see him from now on. It's no fun to ruin the relationship—" Shi Yan was about to ask Yao Xiaoping what she was thinking when she heard the concierge call her to answer the phone.Yao Xiaoping said: "Haha, say Cao Cao, and Cao Cao will be there."