Chapter 18 Chapter Seventeen

After Yan Jing left, Shi Yan and Yao Xiaoping waited for him in the dark.Shi Yan had already sat on the ground with her buttocks, so she didn't pay attention to it. She sat on the ground crookedly and wrapped her legs with her skirt to avoid mosquito bites. But Yao Xiaoping was reluctant to sit down on the ground, fearing that her skirt would get dirty, or it might be because her skirt was too short to cover her legs when she sat on the floor, so she walked back and forth beside Shi Yan, saying, "This Zhuoyou is quite rich." , even bought a motorcycle, I don’t know where he got so much money? He is just a lecturer, and he hasn’t worked for two years—”

"Maybe his family is rich?" "His mother is the director of the Municipal Education Commission, so she shouldn't have much money, right?" "How do you know that his mother is the director of the Municipal Education Commission?" "Listen to what you said strictly—" Yao Xiaoping said half-jokingly, "Hey, let me tell you, you might as well dump your boyfriend from a prestigious school and fall in love with Zhuoyou—maybe it will be good for you to take the graduate exam— -" Shi Yan said angrily: "Don't talk nonsense, I don't think I would sell myself to the point of being a graduate student—"

"How did you sell yourself? Isn't Excellence worthy of you?" "I didn't say he wasn't worthy—" "That is, not as good as your boyfriend from a prestigious school? Tell me, what does your boyfriend from a prestigious school look like? Is he more handsome than Zhuo Zhuo?" Shi Yan faltered and said nothing, Yao Xiaoping guessed, "Is it that Huang Hai? I guessed wildly, it just so happens that he is from a prestigious school—" Shi Yan reluctantly said, "No—" "It's fine if it's not—" Yao Xiaoping seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.

Shi Yan asked curiously: "Why did you say 'it's fine'?" "Do you even need to ask? Huang Hai is so ugly—" "Didn't you say -- you can't judge a person by their appearance? How can you look for a boyfriend based on appearance?" "But you can't ignore your appearance. Like Huang Hai—he grows up like that, and his psychology is generally a little—abnormal, distorted, and too inferior. When people are too inferior, they go to the opposite side and become arrogant. , anyway, it is not normal. If you follow him, you will live a very tiring life. Others will speak ill of him in your ears every day, and you have to deal with it every day. When you get home, you have to explain, promise, express Loyalty, it's annoying. No amount of affection can stand up to everyone's disapproval—unless you hide somewhere where no one is around—"

"Why should a person care what others say?" "How can people ignore what others say? Haven't you heard of it? People are social people. You live in society and always hope that society will recognize you. A person's life is a process of seeking to be recognized. It only depends on who is in that circle. in search of--" Shi Yan felt that what Yao Xiaoping said was reasonable, and she herself always thought so, but sometimes she was reluctant to admit that she cared so much about what others thought, as if once she admitted it, she would become a mindless person.She got a little bored talking about Huang Hai, and only wanted to hear Yao Xiaoping talk about Excellence, but she was too embarrassed to ask, so she had to bring up the topic: "Why haven't they come here? There are too many mosquitoes here, killing people --"

"The family building is far away, and it is not in the same direction as the youth teaching staff building. If he is strict and smart, he will go back to their building to get his bicycle first, and then ride to find Excellence, but I guess his brain is not so good, he will definitely directly Run to find Excellence, and if you can’t find Excellence, go back to his own building to get a bicycle. He’s a sportsman, he’s just a little developed, but simple-minded—” Shi Yan said curiously: "You look down on him so much and you like him, isn't that contradictory?" "Where am I contradicting myself? I'm just saying he's not very bright, but that doesn't mean I don't like him—"

"But you—can see his problems so calmly, doesn't it mean that you haven't—fall in love with him?" Yao Xiaoping laughed: "You mean to say that only when love is confused or blind is love?" Shi Yan murmured: "Then—there is always a——stage of obsession, right? Could it be that love can be so sober from the very beginning? Or you have already loved, so you don't care—" "Where have I ever loved? I told you, I have lived in that little place all my life, and there is no one worthy of my love." "Then why are you so sober?" "Isn't it good to be sober? The person you choose when you are sober can spend a lifetime together. Otherwise, once the love is over, conflicts will start—"

Shi Yan still thinks that love should have a stage of being in love, otherwise, it will be as if you have never loved.But she didn't want to argue with Yao Xiaoping, because she knew she couldn't argue with Yao Xiaoping. Yao Xiaoping said: "I don't know that Zhuo Liang is reluctant to lend his motorcycle to take you to the hospital—" When Shi Yan heard this, she felt a little nervous, fearing that she would run back empty-handed and say that Zhuoyou refused to borrow the motorcycle, and she would be too embarrassing in Yao Xiaoping's eyes.She even regretted that she shouldn't have asked Yan Jing to go to Joyo, so she could have asked Yan Jing to go back and get his own bicycle, but now she didn't even know that Yan Jing was willing to take her to the hospital by bicycle.Judging from the situation just now, the strictness was only helping Yao Xiaoping for her sake.

Today's experience hit Shi Yan hard, she basically had no relationship with boys before, so she had no chance to test her status in the hearts of boys.But she often sees other girls who have boys come to show their attention, help fetch water, ask out to go out to the street, ask their relatives, and give her the feeling that boys should be courteous to girls as a matter of course.Although she doesn't have many boys to be courteous to her, she thinks it's because she didn't give them a chance. She was only thinking about taking the postgraduate entrance examination, and never thought of establishing any relationship with the boys in the class. If she gave them a chance, they should have the original intention Courtesy, because she should be no worse than those girls in the class.

In her life, the only boy she had a little contact with was Huang Hai, and Huang Hai was quite attentive, so she thought that was the way boys were, and they were very attentive to girls. How did she know that boys were courteous to girls with a purpose, and she Obviously not the target of others. She began to wag her right foot, trying to get her foot in order and walk back by herself.She tried to shake it, and found that it was not as painful as before, but the ankle was a little swollen, but it didn't look like a fracture.She continued to sway back and forth, then put her feet on the ground again, slowly and hard, and felt that it was no problem to step on the ground.She stood up with support, and she succeeded.Just as she was about to tell Yao Xiaoping, she heard the sound of a motorbike and knew that it was Joyo and the others.She hesitated for a moment, and didn't tell Yao Xiaoping that she could walk on her right foot.

The sound of the motorcycle was getting closer and closer, and Shi Yan's heart was pounding. Half of it was because of joy and excitement, because Zhuo Liang came as soon as he yelled; You will feel that she deliberately lied to him.She didn't know how to explain to everyone that she couldn't walk when she just sprained her foot, but now she can walk again.Maybe no matter how she explained it, no one would believe it. She decided not to go to the infirmary today, lest the doctor find out that her feet are fine.But it is probably more suspicious not to go to the infirmary, so let Zhuozhuo drive her to the infirmary, and then no matter whether the doctor finds out that there is any problem, she insists that it hurts. She was playing tricks in her mind, and the motorcycle had already arrived.As soon as he stopped, Yan Jing got off the back seat, leaving only Joyoth standing there with his legs crossed.She glanced at him and found that he was only wearing a white vest and a pair of shorts underneath. The color was very light, and if you didn't pay attention, it would look like you were not wearing any clothes.She was embarrassed to keep looking at him, and quickly said: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry to trouble you, Mr. Zhuo—" Joyo simply said: "Come on, I'll take you to the infirmary—" "You don't need to go to the infirmary—you can just send me back to the dormitory—" Yao Xiaoping said, "How can I do that? What if I break a bone?" "Shouldn't be broken—" Yan Jing also persuaded: "Anyway, Lao Zhuo has already ridden his motorcycle, why not go to the infirmary to have a look? Take a look and rest assured—" Shi Yan still wanted to explain, but Zhuo Zhuo said: "If you don't go, don't go, I will take you back to the dormitory—come up—" The other two also urged: "Go up, go up, it's too late, the infirmary is closed—" Shi Yan walked behind the motorcycle amidst the urging of everyone, trying her best to walk as hard as possible, lest they think she did this trick on purpose so as to call Zhuo Liang here.Excellence stood there the whole time, and when she sat up, she said, "Grab my vest, I forgot to wear a shirt just now, so you can grab it—" She didn't know what he meant by that. He told her to grab his vest because he was afraid that she would be embarrassed, or he didn't want her to hug his waist, so he asked her to grab his vest.She timidly grabbed the corner of his vest with one hand and under his seat with the other. Zhuo Zhuo asked: "Sit down? Then I'll start." He started the motorcycle very slowly, which can almost be called "slowly".Shi Yan felt that if she drove so slowly, she could catch under his seat without falling off, so she let go of his vest. The other two exhorted loudly: "Hold on tight, don't fall—" Shi Yan had never ridden a motorcycle before, this was the first time, and she was a little nervous.But after sitting for a while, I felt that it was no different from riding a bicycle, probably because Joyo drove very slowly.She wondered if he was driving fast on purpose so that she would have to catch his man?She has heard several similar stories, all of which were told to her by her high school classmates. They all have boyfriends, and several of them have done this kind of thing, deliberately driving the car very fast, Deliberately telling scary stories, etc., anyway, it's all to scare the girlfriend into running into my arms. Those girlfriends of hers seemed to be highly skilled, and they could see the boyfriend's tricks at a glance, but they all pretended not to know, and slipped into his boyfriend's arms. She thought a little nervously, if Zhuoyou deliberately drives the car faster later, should she hug his waist?How tight?She imagined the scene of hugging his waist, she was a little excited, but strange.She felt a little strange, as if her mind was too calm, as if what was happening in front of her was not real, but her imagination. She was just thinking wildly, and Zhuo Liang kept driving without saying a word.When he arrived at her bedroom, he stopped the car and asked, "Can you go upstairs by yourself?" "can." "Then I won't send you up, it's too casual and unsightly—" "No need to send it, thank you." He was still standing on the motorcycle, and when she got out of the car, he said "Then I'm going", and drove the motorcycle away. She was so sad, why did she meet this kind of person today?It seems like no one takes her seriously, playing cards is to be a foil to others, and no one takes her seriously when they go, Yan Yan sent them back for the sake of Yao Xiaoping, Zhuo Zhuo sent her for the sake of rigor, In the eyes of these people, she is not an independent existence at all, but a subsidiary existence of others. She limped upstairs, took a casual shower, and then lay down on the bed, but for some reason, she couldn't fall asleep. Today's events kept turning in her mind, and every detail made her unhappy. Why are boys like this?It's too practical, once you see that you don't have any hope of being a boyfriend and girlfriend, you won't even be courteous to you. She thought bitterly, you are too--seeking only profit, right?Then she thought that "seeking only profit" seemed inappropriate to use here, so she used a sentence that Yao Xiaoping often said: "You think rake is delicious and you don't need to cook it?" How can a girl fall in love with you if you don't show courteousness first?How could you agree to be your girlfriend?You are waiting there for the girl to be your girlfriend first, and the girl is waiting for you to be courteous first, so the confrontation between the two armies may never come to fruition. Yao Xiaoping never came back, she must be with Yan Jing, Shi Yan felt a little sour, why is Yao Xiaoping so popular with boys?Now that he's married and has a child, he can make the silly boy Yan Jing fall in love at first sight, and he can also make the bachelors in the Young Teacher's Building fix their eyes on him, as if Zhuo Liang didn't show interest in Yao Xiaoping. Shi Yan really wanted to ask Yao Xiaoping about Zhuoliang, but Yao Xiaoping never came back. She wondered curiously: I don't know what Zhuoyou is doing now?He ran away in such a hurry, did he want to go to his girlfriend?He must be married, otherwise why would he live in the family building? Lying there, she suddenly missed Huang Hai very much, and wanted to know how he was doing now. All the little things they had together came to her mind, and now she realized how precious Huang Hai's hospitality was, because boys were not as she imagined As she had said, they would love to be courteous if she allowed them to.