Chapter 10 Chapter Ten I want to try, can I fall in love with you?

The next day when she went to work with eyes swollen like peaches, her colleagues all looked at her in surprise.But the advantage of the new job is that no one inquires about your private affairs here, and the colleagues are surprised, but no one asks: Tan Jing, what's wrong with your eyes? With swollen eyes, Tan Jing copied a bunch of documents, all of which were required by Sheng Fangting. Recently, the whole department has been very busy because the sales promotion has started.She carried the pile of things to Sheng Fangting. He was looking at the computer and making a phone call. She put the documents on his desk, and he just nodded to show that he understood.

Tan Jing returned to her seat, but after a while she received a call from Sheng Fangting: "Tan Jing, come to my office." Tan Jing thought that he had something to say and forgot to tell her, so she got up quickly and walked to his office. "Sit." Sheng Fangting was answering the phone again, motioning her to sit down, and after finishing the call, he put the phone on the table and looked at her carefully, "What's wrong with your eyes?" Tan Jing didn't make a sound, he asked again: "Did you encounter any difficulties?" She has been working very hard recently, often working overtime until late, and he sees it.When she first went to work, she looked gloomy and always seemed unhappy.In the past few days, I have become acquainted with my colleagues, and I can see her smiling. She took half a day off yesterday afternoon, and when she went to work today, she had a pair of peach eyes.Although he knew he shouldn't ask, caring for his subordinates was part of his job.

"No, it's because of a little personal matter." "Oh." He knew he shouldn't ask any more, "Then you go out to work." "Thank you, Manager Sheng." Tan Jing misunderstood his meaning, "Don't worry, I will handle my emotions well and won't delay work." When eating at noon, Gigi asked her to come with her.Tan Jing lost her money and was not in the mood to eat, but Gigi greeted her warmly, and she couldn't refuse.Most of the time, colleagues in the company eat at the tea restaurant downstairs, which is regarded as a cafeteria by them because it is cheap and clean.At first, Tan Jing was always alone, but later her colleagues gradually asked her to join them, because she was hardworking and did not like to tell tales.Women are very gossip by nature, colleagues tell her a lot of gossip, she has a strict tongue and can keep secrets, so Gigi likes her very much.

Gigi is known as the queen of gossip. She knows everything in the company. Not long after they sat down, a beautiful woman came to greet them: "Hi, Gigi!" "Hi! Let's eat together?" "No, my boss works overtime and ordered takeaway. I'll come down and buy a mandarin duck for him." The beauty smiled like a flower, "This is very unfamiliar, a new colleague?" Gigi took the opportunity to introduce to her: "Helen, the new administrative assistant in our department, this is Catherine from the marketing department, a famous beauty in the whole company."

"What beauty, don't listen to her nonsense." Catherine smiled, obviously happy to hear this compliment. After Catherine left, Gigi told Tan Jing: "This Catherine has been secretly in love with our manager Sheng for a long time. She has dated our manager Sheng 16 times in private and was rejected 15 times. In the end, Manager Sheng agreed to the appointment, but asked her The showdown rejected her outright and broke her heart for the better part of a year." Tan Jing asked honestly, "How do you know?" "Is there anything else in the company that I don't know?" Gigi said complacently, "I'm the queen of gossip, and I'm not bragging. Also, Catherine was originally the secretary of Vice President Wang, but the Vice President had a heart attack and was hospitalized a while ago. His wife came from Taiwan to take care of him. When she saw Catherine, she thought she was a goblin, and immediately clamored for the vice president to change her secretary. The chairman had no choice but to transfer Catherine to the marketing department. Now our planning department can Bad luck."

Tan Jing didn't understand at all, Gigi sighed: "Every project made by our planning department, she has to pick the bones, even if the punctuation is wrong." Tan Jing feels that the head office is similar to the stores below, except that the intrigue here is more intense, and the colleagues are more polite.When quarreling, it’s not what you say directly, but emails come and emails, you email, I email, and CC other people at every turn. Many emails are full of swords and swords. Gigi was about to get excited when she suddenly stopped talking and told Tan Jing quietly: "Look, the woman who walked in is Shu Qin, the manager of the human resources department. Do you know her nickname? Her name is Aunt Tiger."

Tan Jing was taken aback: "What?" "Don't look at her gentle, in fact, she is more ruthless than men. More than one or two managers have died under her hands. Anyone who fights with her will end well. The chairman trusts her very much, even though she is not a direct descendant. .” Gigi didn't expect that Tan Jing was recruited by Shu Qin herself, because Tan Jing's position is too low, and anyone from the human resources department can interview.Tan Jing also had a good impression of Shu Qin. In just a few short encounters, she only thought she was smart and capable, but she had no idea that she had the nickname "Aunt Tiger".

As soon as Shu Qin sat down, before ordering, she received a call from Nie Yucheng.He knew that it was her lunch break time, so he asked straightforwardly, "Do you have time to come out?" "what?" "I'm just downstairs in your company, and I want to talk to you about something." "Okay, I'll come down right away." Shu Qin stood up and hurried out, took the elevator downstairs, and saw Nie Yucheng's black Buick from a distance.He had already seen her, so he got out of the car and opened the door for her. The air conditioner in the car was turned on very high, but there were fine beads of sweat on his forehead, and his expression was not quite right.She looked at him seriously and asked, "What's the matter?"

"My father's physical examination report came out, there was a tumor in the liver, and the biopsy result was malignant." After Nie Yucheng finished speaking, he looked at the front windshield in a daze. On the square in front of the office building, the marble floor reflected the white sunlight, and the water drops from the fountain became more dazzling under the scorching sun.He held the gear shifter tightly, and his palms were covered with sweat.Shu Qin didn't say anything, just patted the back of his hand lightly, as if comforting. "I used to feel that he was sorry for me for many things, but now that I think about it, I have many things and I have done too much, but he never blamed me."

"Don't be sad, now that medical methods are advanced, we should seize the opportunity to treat him first. Are we going to have an operation?" Nie Yucheng shook his head lightly: "As soon as the report came out in the morning, several liver and gallbladder experts visited. The location of the tumor was too bad. It happened to be on the artery. It couldn't be operated on, so it had to be treated conservatively. I was admitted to the hospital today and started radiotherapy and therapy. chemotherapy." Shu Qin knew that he was in a state of confusion, so she asked directly: "Is there anything I can do for you?"

"My father has a big regret. After I broke up with my ex-girlfriend, I have never had a girlfriend again, and I have no plans to get married." Nie Yusheng raised his eyes to look at her, "Would you like to be my girlfriend?" "You mean to show a play to uncle?" "My father said that he doesn't need me to find a random woman and use marriage to perfuse him. It's not fair to me, nor to my future wife. I feel the same way. Over the past few years, I feel that I You have lost your purpose in life, you say you don’t want to go home, because the house is as quiet as a tomb, and you feel like a widow, in fact, I am the same. But everything in the past will eventually pass, that person, I will try my best to forget her , I want to try to see if I can fall in love with you." Shu Qin laughed at herself: "Nie Yucheng, why do you just wishful thinking that I would let you try?" He didn't answer. Shu Qin said unceremoniously: "I'll tell you for you, because you clearly know that I love not you, but someone else, so you won't feel ashamed, because you have no choice but to fall in love with another woman , you still love your ex-girlfriend." "I'm sorry... I think of feelings too purely and things too simply. Because you used to say, Nie Yucheng, if there is no other way, if you can't wait any longer, if you really feel hopeless, then we will Let's make do with it for the rest of our lives, it's better than marrying someone else and hurting someone else. Now I want to try, if you want, please give me this chance. " Shu Qin looked at him: "Are you not going to wait? Do you feel hopeless?" After half a minute, he said, "Yes." When he said this word, he still lowered his head, and his voice was very soft, but his hands were clenched into fists, as if what he said was not a single word, but a wound, a fatal wound.Shu Qin asked: "Why? Apart from your father's illness, what else happened?" Nie Yucheng didn't answer her. After getting off the car, this scene kept shaking in front of Shu Qin's eyes. Many times she was desperate, and many times she persuaded herself to forget it and really let it go from now on.But Nie Yucheng was different, she always felt that he might wait forever, waiting for his ex-girlfriend who had long since disappeared into the vast crowd. She couldn't help but make a phone call to Sheng Fangting. He was probably still in the office and it was not convenient for him to talk, so when the call was connected, his tone was very polite and polite: "Hello!" She told him bluntly: "Nie Yucheng just talked to me and wanted me to be his girlfriend." Sheng Fangting was only silent for a few seconds, and then asked her, "What about your own opinion?" Shu Qin was suddenly furious: "Do I have my own opinion? Have you ever asked my own opinion? Now you come to ask my own opinion! My opinion is that you better go to hell!" She cursed and dropped the phone. She never thought that loving someone would take so long, and she never thought that waiting for someone would take so long.Many experts say that love is nothing more than adrenaline and dopamine, which lasts up to three months. After three months, the secretion of this hormone stops, and the love will naturally disappear, and it will be transformed into friendship or other more lasting habits.But Nie Yucheng maintained a stubborn habit, waiting for a faint hope, even if he knew that hope, he would never come again.She had never heard of that woman's name, nor had she seen a picture of that woman. Nie Yucheng never talked about her to her, just like she seldom mentioned her ex-boyfriend in front of him.But she knew that Nie Yucheng still loved that woman, and he hid her deeply in his heart, as if she never existed. Now he said that he would try to see if he could fall in love with someone else, and then asked her to give him this chance. She was at a loss. Maybe he really wanted to give it a try, but she felt that such a sudden change was not as good as the original one.It turned out that they were friends and confidants, they could have a quiet meal of wine, or they could talk a few intimate words on the rooftop.They were very close for a time, not the closeness of lovers, but spiritual.Because he also knew that she was desperately in love with someone, just like himself. She felt that she needed to rest, sort out this mess of thoughts, and think calmly and rationally again. The phone beeped, it was a short message. Nie Yucheng sent it, and he said, "I'm sorry for causing you trouble. I'm too selfish. If you don't want to, we are still good friends." She hesitated and did not reply to his text message. When she drove the car home, she saw Sheng Fangting's car parked in front of her from a distance.In fact, the distance from the company to where she lives is not too close. He must have rushed over after answering the phone, so he arrived earlier than her.He has always been very careful, so he took the risk of driving over here, in fact, he was already showing an attitude to her. She felt very depressed, knowing that she must be persuaded by him again. At night, she bought fruit and flower baskets and went to the hospital to see Nie Dongyuan.My friend's father is sick and should also go to the hospital.Nie Dongyuan lives in the VIP ward, and the conditions are quite good. Nie Yucheng is also there. He was not too surprised to see her coming. He took the fruit basket in her hand and said thank you. Nie Dongyuan looked fine, and he also knew that his son had such a friend, whom he met when he was in the United States.At first he thought that his son had something to do with this woman, but after searching for someone, he found out that although his son had a relationship with this woman, and even stayed with her at his home, it was completely just a friend relationship. "Xiao Shu, sit down. Xiao Nie, please say hello and give her a cup of Longjing tea. Pity me, the doctor won't let me drink tea before the rain. I'll call my good friend when I bring it to the hospital." Shu Qin said with a smile: "When uncle gets well, I'll give him some Biluochun. One of our colleagues is from Dongting Dongshan. The Biluochun fried at home is delicious." "Oh, I'm gluttonous." Nie Dongyuan said, "I ate vegetarian dishes at night. I didn't feel full and I was greedy. You said tea again, and I became more greedy. I know it today. It turns out that tea is too. Hungry." The two of them were talking, and Nie Yucheng brewed a cup of Longjing and put it on the tea table.Shu Qin picked it up and saw that the tea color was clear, and the buds stood upright in the cup. It was really a good Longjing tea.Nie Dongyuan also told her enthusiastically: "Actually, Longjing tea is the most stupid to use this kind of glass cup, but there is no good tea set in the hospital, so I will do it for a while. After I am discharged from the hospital, I invite you to drink tea at home. Then we will use coarse porcelain Soak your Biluochun in a big bowl, that's the authentic way to drink it." "Uncle really has a lot of knowledge. There is an allusion to soaking Biluochun in a big porcelain bowl." "Of course! Biluochun is particular about drinking from large bowls. The tea is extremely thin and the utensils are extremely thick." Nie Dongyuan said, "Nie Yucheng didn't even know, I didn't expect you to know." "Nie Yucheng is a nerd. When he was in the United States, he was either in the laboratory or in the library, thinking about the heart and blood vessels. How could he have the time to study this. But just call him and tell him to make beef stew with potatoes. Guaranteed to run faster than a rabbit." Nie Dongyuan laughed, seemingly happily: "This kid is like me. When I was young, I was greedy for beef, but at that time cattle were an important asset of the production team, and there was no beef to eat during the holidays. But one summer, The weather is very hot, so I took a few cows to the river, buffalo... do you know the buffalo?" Shuqin nodded.Nie Dongyuan said: "When the buffaloes are very hot in the afternoon, they will be taken to the river ditch to let them soak in the water. At that time, the production team was very busy, and the cattle herders tied the buffalo's rope to the bank for a while. Then he went to the field to earn work points. You don’t understand earning work points. The production team pays rations and money based on work points. This cattle herder is greedy and wants to earn two work points, so he puts the ox rope to the tree. After going to the first line, I went to the field. Unexpectedly, there was a cow among them, which was well soaked in water. I didn’t know what happened. Suddenly, I was tripped by a rope. After struggling for a long time, the trip became tighter and tighter, and finally I was trapped In the water, he was drowned abruptly. When the cattle herder came back to see, a cow was drowned. Oh, don’t waste it. The weather is hot, so I quickly called the whole team and took the cow from the water. They were raised in the water, killed and skinned, and each household was given a piece of beef." Nie Dongyuan said with joy: "Our family also shared a piece. It was soaked in water. I was afraid it would be spoiled, so I burned it and ate it that night. The beef is delicious. This is the first time I have eaten beef in my life. Since then, I have felt , Beef is the best thing in the world.” Nie Yucheng was a little surprised. He only knew that his father was born in the countryside and suffered a lot when he was a child, but he never heard him describe it.What my father often likes to say is that he himself started from selling mineral water, and later invested, started business, started real estate, listed in Hong Kong, and achieved today's business empire. The doctor who took over the evening shift came and came to the ward to say hello.Nie Yucheng went out to talk to him, but Nie Dongyuan suddenly asked Shu Qin, "Did that kid propose to you?" Shu Qin was startled, and quickly said, "No." "It's fine if I don't have one. I'm really afraid that he'll marry any random woman because of my illness." Nie Dongyuan said, "Even if he proposes to you, don't agree to him. He hasn't turned the corner yet. You should forget about it." People who don't forget, even if they associate with a fairy again, it will be a waste of work." Shu Qin smiled awkwardly, and Nie Dongyuan said: "Give him a chance, it's not easy. It's the first time in seven or eight years that he brought a girl back for me to see. He is actually a very solid person, and he can take this step." , with his own sincerity in it, you can't ask him to do it in one step and forget the past completely." "He didn't ask me to see you. I came by myself." "It's not the same. If he didn't tell you that I was sick, how would you know?" Nie Dongyuan said, "He chose to tell you immediately. At least, he treats you as a family member, as the best best friend." He sighed, "My son doesn't even have many friends. For a long time, I worried whether he was depressed. You are very good, and I am very grateful to you for being by his side during his most difficult time. If you Yes, give him a chance. He has trapped himself for too long, too hard, and needs a new start too much." At ten o'clock in the night, the lights in the ward were about to be turned off before Shu Qin and Nie Yucheng left the hospital. Nie Dongyuan needed a good sleep to cope with the next day's treatment.On the way home, she asked Nie Yucheng to stop, and went to a roadside convenience store to buy a dozen beers.When they are upset or depressed, they often buy a dozen beers in this way and eat hot pot at his house.After the two returned from the United States, they both felt that the most delicious food was Chinese food, and the simplest Chinese food was hot pot.Boil a soup base, put anything in it and rinse it.Shuqin is busy with get off work and tired after work, so cooking a hot pot saves her worry and effort. Turn on the hot pot, and when the soup boiled, Shu Qin opened two cans of beer first, and said, "Come on, let's get drunk tonight." Nie Yucheng picked up the can and touched her, and the two of them took a big sip.Shu Qin said: "I know you're upset. What's going on with your ex-girlfriend? I have to figure it out before I decide whether to go into your muddy water." "She's married and has a baby." "Is this what makes you desperate?" Nie Yucheng remained silent, and Shu Qin said: "You are so stupid and innocent at first glance. My ex-boyfriend got married last year. How do you think I dealt with it? I sent him an email, wishing him a happy wedding, and also I sent him a gift. It hurts, of course it hurts, and I can endure the pain even if I die, what obligation do people have to wait for you forever? You are willing to wait because you are stupid, and you are willing to wait for others, but they don’t want you to wait!" "She and I once... also had a child..." Shu Qin looked at Nie Yucheng in surprise, he hadn't had a sip of wine, but even his eyes were red and his voice was hoarse. "Forty-eight days, very small embryos, even B-ultrasound may not be able to see them, so they were destroyed." Shu Qin didn't speak, she just listened silently. "When she was having an abortion, I didn't know anything, and I was still applying for an American school for her. I also thought that since my father disagreed, then we should go to the United States and get married in the United States." "Did your father give her money?" "No." He lowered his head, holding the soda can tightly, as if trying to choke something, "If she took my dad's money, I would still feel that she had to do it out of necessity, because of my dad's pressure, will leave me." "why?" "She never loved me, she said." Words and sentences became so clear and embarrassing, on that thunderstorm night, I stood in the rain like a madman, listening to her words, so clear, so cruel . "Nie Yucheng, I did it on purpose. I did it on purpose when I was pregnant. It's also planned to get rid of it, because it will make you sad. The cruelest thing in this world is nothing but making you think you have everything. In the end Only then did I realize that everything was false. You know what it’s like to lose everything you love the most, don’t you? You know what it’s like to lose the future, right? I never loved you, we’re done.” Clean up?How about clearing up?He used to love her like that, but in the end he took out his heart and let her trample on it. "How could she do this, a child, a life... was used by her as a tool to hit me..." There are too many unspeakable secrets, too many heart-wrenching details, why did she take the initiative and enthusiasm that night and let him cross the line of defense that he shouldn't have?He thought that maybe she was insecure or even desperate for the future, so she took the initiative to push the relationship between the two of them a step further, but he never dreamed that the final truth would be so embarrassing and cruel. In the torrential rain, he ran wildly, running down the mountain road from the door of her house. In the middle of the night, there was a boundless sea. He just wanted to drown himself in that sea of ​​despair. That rainy night reappeared in his nightmares many times. The heavy rain poured down on his head and face, and it seemed that there would never be an exit, and there would be no end.There is nothing more embarrassing than being betrayed by someone you love deeply, and her plan step by step is so insidious and vicious.She had figured out what would make him sad the most, she had figured out that he would work hard for their future, she had figured out that he would turn against his father, she had figured out how to give him the most fatal blow . After he finished the wine, the empty jar was crumpled into a ball, and the edges and corners of the metal pierced his palm, but he smiled: "Romeo didn't meet Juliet, no, Romeo met Juliet, but Juliet gave him a knife, It was still stuck in his heart, Romeo couldn't struggle...he didn't even think about struggling...he was killed by Juliet. What could be more cruel than this kind of thing, the person you love, stabbing you in the heart ?” Shu Qin was speechless, but just opened another can of beer and handed it to him. "Actually, she doesn't know. As long as she says she never loved me, I will be so sad that my heart will be broken. I really don't need to add more things to the snake. I have to get a child to kill her. How cruel she is, a life...she How could it be like this... She never loved me, the woman I loved for ten years, she said she never loved me, she lied to me. She lied to me... And I am so cheap, cheap until now , she married and had children as if nothing had happened, and I can't forget her." Nie Yucheng was drunk. Shu Qin had never seen Nie Yucheng drunk for so long, because every time she drank with him, she was the first person to fall down.He didn't make trouble when he was drunk, just sat there, very quietly, drinking one can after another, so that she didn't even realize that he was actually drunk, until finally he suddenly collapsed down, silently , like falling asleep. She knelt down to help him, but she couldn't help him, and dragged him. She couldn't drag a man who was 1.8 meters tall, no matter how thin she was, and the last effort made her fall to the ground.She was out of breath and decided to give up, let him sleep on the carpet, went into the guest room by herself, and found a blanket for him to cover. He fell asleep like a child, with the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, and the corners of his eyes were wet, and he didn't know if it was tears, wine stains, or sweat drops.Shu Qin bent down to cover him with a blanket, which startled him. He tugged at the blanket as if pulling some life-saving straw, and the corners of his mouth moved slightly, as if he was talking in his sleep.After listening for a long time, Shu Qin understood what he said: "Please... come back..." This man kept saying that he was desperate, but in his dream he still prayed for that woman to come back.How much deep love does it take to be so humble. The hot pot was sizzling, and Shu Qin picked up a chopstick of Flammulina velutipes for herself. It was too spicy, and she took another big gulp of beer.Many times she feels that she can be called a lover, and she has loved someone for so many years without complaint or regret, but today, she feels ashamed. Nie Yucheng had that nightmare again, a nightmare he hadn't seen for a long time.He was running alone in the rain, with streaks of lightning above his head, but what was more ferocious than the lightning was the quiet words.Every word and every sentence she said was like a knife, and every knife pierced his heart. He just wanted to yell, but he couldn't make any sound. Like a high-pressure gun, it hurts to hit the face.He was running down the hill, and there was a bright lamppost in the driveway, it was a car, and he just wanted to hit it head-on, and he would be smashed to pieces, and he would be completely relieved if he hit it, and he would never have to run like this again In the rain, when he bumped into it, he no longer knew the pain... Nie Yucheng woke up, the curtains were not closed, the sun was shining on the bed, and he blocked the glare of the sun with his hands on his face.The hangover headache made him feel uncomfortable, but he was relieved to be sober. There was no trace of the rainstorm in the nightmare, and the sunny summer morning was outside the window. He just had a nightmare. Everything is just his nightmare. He got up and took a shower, changed his clothes, and when he left the room, he found that Shu Qin hadn't left yet, and greeted him: "Morning." "morning." "Yesterday you were drunk, and I couldn't pull you back. I thought you were going to sleep on the carpet all night! But you slept until midnight, and got up and went back to your room." No wonder he woke up in the morning, didn't even take off his clothes, the socks were still on, it turned out he was drunk. "Porridge." Shu Qin put a bowl in front of him, "Your rice cooker is good for cooking porridge. I'll buy one later." The two of them sat down to have breakfast, and Shu Qin bought fried dough sticks. The surrounding area is full of high-end apartment complexes. Every morning, Nie Yucheng buys a sandwich at the convenience store to eat. I don't know where she found the fried dough sticks.However, drinking a bowl of white porridge in the morning with a hangover will make my stomach feel much more comfortable.Shuqin tore the fritters apart and said to him, "I've decided." "What?" He looked up in astonishment. "It turns out that you were bitten by a snake once, and you were afraid of well ropes for ten years. I have decided to date you and see if I can cure your illness." "Who said I was sick?" "Don't worry! You're not sick. You had a nightmare last night. You yelled so loudly that I could hear it in the next room." "It's normal to have nightmares, who doesn't occasionally have nightmares?" "It's normal to have nightmares, but no normal person has nightmares. You need to see a psychiatrist for three years!" Nie Yucheng finally took a look at her, Shu Qin couldn't help but laugh: "Don't look at me like that, yesterday you were drunk and told me yourself that you saw a psychiatrist for three years because you had nightmares every night." Nie Yucheng felt very frustrated: "What else did I say that shouldn't be said?" "Yes, there are too many. You even proposed to me!" "what?" "Just kidding with you, it's really easy to deceive, just like a child, believe what you say." He was silent for a moment before saying, "I'm easy to deceive." The sourness in his tone seemed to be mixed with helplessness. Although Shu Qin was careless, he was embarrassed to rub salt on his wound.She said: "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. In fact, you didn't say anything last night, that is, you are too stupid. I think you are too stupid. Well, let's have a date, you are a normal man, As a normal woman, I don’t need to be a widow for the rest of my life, right? Feelings can be cultivated slowly, we can be good friends, maybe we can be boyfriend and girlfriend.” Nie Yucheng said, "Thank you, I know you want to help me." "Who said that, I actually want to help myself." Shu Qin said in a frivolous tone, "Don't think that I have no one to chase after. The reason why I picked you is because I think you are good-looking, and your family is rich. The key is to understand me, not to dislike me for never loving you." Seeing that Nie Yucheng's expression changed, Shu Qin hurriedly served him a bowl of porridge: "Eat more, what's wrong with me today, don't say anything nice, bah bah! Don't tell me Think about it, I must be drunk yet." Nie Yucheng lowered his head, and after a while, he slowly said, "I'm still drunk."