Chapter 4 Chapter 3 The sunset of that day

After Ji Ting entered the room, Xu Shuyun said with a smile: "This child, it seems that he really can't drink a little wine." As soon as Wang Fan and Xu Shuyun put away the bowls, Zhiyi came back, and said anxiously to Wang Fan as soon as she entered the door: "Mom, I can't find Zhi'an, what should I do?" Wang Fan comforted her and said: "Fool, the school is so big, where do you go to find her, who else is more familiar with her in this area? Don't worry, she will come back when you get tired outside." After seeing off Gu Weizhen's family, Xu Shuyun was still tidying up in the kitchen, and Ji Peiwen walked into his son's room.

Ji Ting half leaned against the head of the bed, eyes closed, wearing earphones, his face was still flushed, he didn't know if he fell asleep or was listening attentively.Ji Peiwen sat by the bed and carefully took off Ji Ting's earphones. Ji Ting felt the movement, opened his eyes, and sat up quickly, "Dad, what's the matter?" Ji Peiwen brought the earphones close to his ears, and as soon as he took them closer, he heard deafening music coming from inside. He frowned, stopped the Walkman, took out the tape inside and took a look, it was Beyond's concert album.At that time, it was the era of Beyond's popularity, and many of Gu Weizhen's students were fans of this band, so he had heard some of it, but when he heard the frenzied percussion sounds and screaming singing, he couldn't help it. I feel like I have a terrible headache.Of course, he understands that young people's preferences are different from those of his generation, but he never thought that his always quiet son would like this.

"I thought you were listening to the piano concerto your mother bought for you." Ji Peiwen returned the tape and the Walkman to his son and said flatly. Ji Ting lowered his eyes, played with the earphone cable subconsciously, and replied: "I also listen to it, but it will get annoying if I listen too much." "This...don't you think it's too noisy?" Ji Peiwen pointed to the tape in the Walkman. Ji Ting smiled, but didn't speak.Of course he won't say that he actually likes such crazy music. For some reason, he feels hysterical when he listens to it.

Looking at his son's smile, Ji Peiwen thought, maybe he doesn't know this son who he has always been so proud of as well as he imagined.Seeing that Ji Ting didn't speak, he decided to pick up the words and said: "I heard from the principal Chen of your attached middle school, it seems that you have filled in the fifth middle school in your volunteers?" Son's chat. Ji Ting immediately opened his eyes wide, glanced at his father, and then seemed to understand something, a kind of light in his eyes quickly disappeared, but then he chose to remain silent.Seeing that he was silent, Ji Peiwen went on to say: "The fifth middle school is also good, but the school has a lot of people and is far away from home, so I discussed it with your mother, and I think you should go to the middle school attached to our school. Okay, so, we entrusted Principal Chen to help you change your choice back." After saying this, Ji Peiwen looked at his son seriously, but he couldn't see any traces on his son's face, which made him suddenly groan for no reason. Feeling uncertain, he added, "Son, we are all for your own good. You have been a good boy since you were a child. You are the pride of your mother and me. We place all our hopes on you. ..."

"Dad!" Ji Ting interrupted his father's words, "I understand, it's fun for me to fill in the fifth middle school, it's just a whim, I'm regretting it, you can change it." He took out the tape from the Walkman , and then got off the bed, "Dad, I'm going out for a walk." Seeing Ji Ting walk out of the door, Ji Peiwen felt a little worried. His son is sensible, he has always known, but he accepted it too calmly, and he felt uneasy, so he asked: "Where to go for a walk? It's dark, don't go too far." Ji Ting turned his head at the door, "I'm just walking around the school, I'll be back soon, don't worry, I won't go too far."

He left home and walked aimlessly on the campus at dusk. He couldn't express what he felt in his heart. The remaining alcohol was burning him, but his heart was clear. , There is something like a ball of cotton wool blocking it, it's not pain, it's just stuffy, I can't cry or say it, but it's stuffy that can't be ignored. Don't go too far, they say. He knows he won't go very far, he just wants to find a quiet place where no one is around, and then he will go home and continue to be a good boy.Since he was a child, he has been used to forcibly pressing down something in his heart. Slowly, doing what everyone thinks is right has become something like instinct. Sometimes he also feels that maybe he is born a good boy.

There are people everywhere, and nowhere can I breathe properly.Ji Ting kept smiling and saying hello to the classmates, teachers, or acquaintances of his parents he met on the road, but he couldn’t help but go to the secluded path. Finally, there were fewer and fewer people. Familiar, until his eyes suddenly opened up, he didn't know that he had been here a long time ago. The setting sun that was about to set made the surroundings dim and ambiguous. Ji Ting leaned his back on a smooth boulder in the grass, took out the tape from his pocket, looked at it carefully, and then began to tear it hard. He pulled out those straps, wrapped them around his hands, and wringed them off with his hands.

He has never done this before, but it doesn't matter, no one sees it anyway, he is still a role model with excellent character and learning before returning to others, he feels that he has never been as happy as he is now.He was immersed in the destruction of that poor tape, and he didn't realize that there were other people here. He was startled when he heard the sound of "tsk tsk", suddenly stopped what he was doing, raised his head, and saw With his hands behind his back, Zhi An slowly turned out from the other side of the stone. Zhi An didn't speak, but looked at the messy masterpiece in front of Ji Ting with a kind of "amazing" eyes.Ji Ting was stunned for a moment, and then realized that he didn't care so much about being seen by her, so he smiled at her, and continued to destroy the box of Beyond album he once loved.Zhian looked at it for a while, and finally said: "What's so interesting about this, come with me."

She made a gesture to him to follow up, Ji Ting hesitated for a moment, dropped the entangled things in her hands, and walked towards her back.Zhi An led him familiarly through a dense weed bush, then climbed up a small dirt slope, and finally motioned him to lie down in the grass on the top of the slope like her, Ji Ting did as he did, but still puzzled.I saw Zhi An took out a well-made small slingshot from his pocket, Ji Ting knew this, and it was a gift from his father to Zhi An.Then, she took out a bunch of hedgehog-like shrub fruits picked on the road, put one of them in the holster of the slingshot, tightened the rubber band, slightly pushed aside the front branches and leaves, and aimed forward.Ji Ting looked forward, and it turned out that there was a small road under the top of the slope where they were. At this time, students and couples in twos and threes began to stroll along the small road. Seeing a pair of conjoined twins walking in front of them, Zhi An closed his eyes. One eye, ready to aim.

Ji Ting hurriedly grabbed her, then shook his head, he probably knew what she wanted to do, and subconsciously stopped her.Zhi An gave him a warning look, and then gestured with his mouth to let him go. Just as Ji Ting let go, the hedgehog fruit in her slingshot was launched. In fact, this kind of fruit can't hurt anyone, but if it hits the bare skin, it will still hurt. Zhi'an's first bullet hit the target's head very accurately, and then only heard the woman's scream, two The combined heads quickly parted.It turned out that the thorny fruit got entangled in the girl's hair, and she didn't take it off for a long time. The boyfriend next to her posted up to help, but the more she helped, the more she helped, until the girl's hair was messed up, and she couldn't get it off. Did not untie that thing.Ji Ting originally wanted to blame Zhi An, but when he saw this scene, he couldn't help laughing, he almost couldn't laugh out loud, and Zhi An beside him also covered his mouth, secretly laughing.

The two smiled mischievously, the couple below finally took off the little hedgehog after the girl's braids were all gone, and looked at Ji Ting's direction viciously together, the boy took a few steps forward, Said, "Who is it?" Zhi An and Ji Ting immediately lay motionless on the grass, the lush branches and leaves in front of them were the best barrier. The boy looked down for a while, although he also guessed that the prankster was on the top of the slope, but it is impossible to climb up from the position of the path, and it is bound to take a huge circle to reach Zhi'an Their place was also one of the reasons why Zhian was so unscrupulous.Ji Ting didn't know this at the time, he just felt like a heart was about to jump out of his chest, until he heard the sound of the other person's walking away, he breathed a sigh of relief, half got up, and found out guiltily that his heart was full of pranks The sense of joy of success and the previous depression began to recede.Zhi An also sat up, giggling, "Ji Ting, you stupid pig, they almost saw you." Ji Ting said unconvinced: "You are not the same, you laughed so loudly just now, otherwise they would not have looked over." "Did you see that girl's hair like a chicken coop?" Zhi An said with a smile, and Ji Ting couldn't help laughing when he thought of it.After laughing, he picked off a dead leaf from Zhi An's hair and said, "So you came here, but Uncle Gu and the others said they couldn't find you." Zhi An took advantage of the situation and lay back on the grass, "You can't even lie. They won't look for me, except Zhi Yi. They will only say, 'Anyone in this area knows her well, and she will come back after playing'." She held a piece of grass in her mouth, and under the dim sunset light, there was a beautiful shadow on her face. Ji Ting had no way to refute, because she was right, so he said: "Actually, Uncle Gu and the others love you very much, why do you always make them angry, can't you be more obedient?" Zhi An sneered, and threw the straw out of his mouth, "Love me? They will never see me in their eyes. They would say 'Zhi Yi likes this, so give Zhi An one by the way', so I have everything that Zhiyi has, but these are never what I want. Your Aunt Wang, she has never hugged me or scolded me since she was a child. She only has Zhiyi in her eyes. When she was young, I thought I was not good enough, so I must do better than Zhiyi in everything, I have better grades than her, and I am better than her in sports. I hope my parents will say: 'Zhi'an is awesome!' But they will only say' Zhiyi, it's okay, it doesn't matter if you don't have good grades, if you are not healthy, take care of it slowly, no matter what, you are our baby', the little red flower I brought back happily, they took a look at it and put it aside, Zhiyi didn’t have a little red flower, but they held her in their arms. Later I realized that when they don’t like someone, it’s wrong to be good, and it’s wrong to be bad. If being obedient doesn’t make me happier, then Why do I still want to please them? My father only looks at me more when he scolds me. " "How could it be? You are also their daughter. How can there be parents who don't love their children?" Ji Ting comforted her, but he himself felt that these words were very pale. Zhi'an smiled secretly, "You won't know, but I know why some things." But she didn't go on, but asked with a sneer, "You said you want me to be more obedient, so you, a good example of obedience, hide away." What's the deal with that broken tape in this corner?" Ji Ting's face suddenly darkened, "Sometimes I don't know what I want." "Go crazy with alcohol, you're really ashamed, you just drank like that with just one glass of wine." Zhi An's small face was full of contempt. Speaking of this, Ji Ting blushed again, "I think I really can't drink." "Who poured it on you? You were so anxious to drink it up." Zhi'an propped his head up with one hand, pushed him with the other hand, and asked, "Tell me, what is wine?" taste." Ji Ting said embarrassedly: "Didn't you drink a little too?" "I just licked it. Don't talk nonsense, tell me, what does it taste like?" "Well, it's spicy and bitter...but it's also a little sweet." The two lay on the grass, watching the night swallow up the setting sun bit by bit. "It's going to be dark." With a thought in his heart, Ji Ting said to Zhi An, "Zhi An, were you afraid of the dark when you were young?" Zhi An didn't seem to hear what he said, so he asked again, and then heard her "hum" and said: "I'm not like you, coward, I like the night best, when it gets dark, I can't see anything." Well, you can do anything, it doesn't matter." After she finished speaking, she suddenly took a deep breath, her small face wrinkled into a ball. Ji Ting was taken aback by her expression, and hurriedly asked, "What's wrong? What's wrong?" Zhi An gritted his teeth and sat up, "Damn it, my stomach hurts more and more." "Then what should we do? Does it hurt? Let's go home." Ji Ting helped her up vigorously, but with the last bit of light, he saw Zhi An behind the light blue school uniform skirt that Zhi An specially wore for today's graduation ceremony. Traces of brown. Without thinking about it, he wiped it with his hand, and it was a little wet. He put his finger under his nose, smelled a bloody smell, and couldn't help but turn pale in shock, "Oops, Zhi'an, you bleed a lot." Zhi An was also taken aback, pulled the skirt over to have a look, first froze, "What is this?" Then, as if suddenly remembering something, she gasped again and wailed, "No way!" "What's the matter?" Ji Ting still didn't know why, so he was so worried that he supported her shoulder and asked, "Where is the bleeding?" As soon as he finished speaking, he was pushed away vigorously by Zhi An, he was unprepared, he couldn't stand upright, and fell down on the grass.In the dark, he couldn't see Zhi'an's expression clearly, only heard her say bitterly, "Ji Ting, you're a pig!" Then she ran away in a hurry. A girl's menarche is always accompanied by the awakening of a certain consciousness lurking in her heart, and then her body, like her mind, begins to grow wildly. When Zhi An returned home that night, the blood on the cover-up skirt still did not escape Wang Fan's eyes.Wang Fan was slightly surprised, but he still took a bag of things from his room and put it on Zhi'an's bedside.She was silent all the time, and Zhi An didn't speak. Perhaps they both understood that such silence should not happen to a mother and daughter, but no one planned to break the deadlock. Wang Fan was about to walk out of Zhi'an's room, thought for a while, then looked back at Zhi'an who seemed to be doing his homework, and said, "You have grown up, what should you do, what should not be done, what should you do? Think clearly, don't be as ignorant as before." Zhi'an didn't answer, she used an eraser to scribble and correct the handwriting on the homework book, until there was a small scratched hole in the homework book, she thought, she was still growing up too slowly, and she was already impatient , Only when she grows up can she do what she wants to do. At night, Zhiyi lay on another small bed adjacent to Zhian, curiously asked how Zhian felt, and Zhian said casually: I don't feel it. Girls at this age are always afraid and curious about menarche, and perhaps they are more looking forward to it. There are precocious girls in the class. They have already experienced this kind of "girl's coming-of-age ceremony" in the fifth grade. In Huanxiu's expression, one could always find a trace of secret joy.Zhi Yi thought, although she is an elder sister, she is inferior to Zhi An in everything, and even becoming a real girl falls behind her. Of course, she doesn't care about this with her younger sister, she just feels slightly in her heart. Feeling very sad, I don't know when she can become a mature girl.But what about being a mature girl, and then becoming a woman?A woman who belongs to another man?She suddenly remembered the figure on the stage during the day, that face with delicate brows... As if stung by her own thoughts, Zhiyi covered her head with the quilt with both hands.Her inexplicable fear in the dark, what if "that thing" never comes, will she never be a real girl? ...