Chapter 8 chapter eight

It's like a building that was carefully built with building blocks was suddenly pushed and collapsed, everything collapsed in an instant!All the things that I tried my best to hide were exposed naked, without even any buffer time. From the evening to late night of that day, Yin Cheng sat on the hospital bed blankly, neither eating nor talking, as if he was deaf, unable to hear any sound, as if he was blind, and could no longer see anything. He didn't seem to hear Zhen En's voice of regret and crying, he didn't hear any explanation from Yin Xiamo, and he didn't seem to see her increasingly pale face and body trembling like a high fever.

All night. Yin Cheng just sat on the hospital bed like this, no matter how the doctors and nurses persuaded him to rest, no matter how gently or harshly Yin Xiamo begged him to sleep for a while, no matter how Zhen En cried and said that she was lying, no matter what Ou Chen said in a deep voice , he can't seem to hear it all. From the dark night. Until the dawning sun shines through the dawning sky. Yin Cheng's face became paler and paler, and he was unusually silent, always maintaining the same posture, sitting quietly on the hospital bed. When Dr. Zheng came in the next morning, he was surprised to find that he was extremely weak!What surprised Dr. Zheng even more was that he told her that he refused to do today's kidney transplant operation.

In the corner of the ward, Yin Xiamo heard a "boom" in his ear! Her head was full of cold and hot tearing pain, and the moment her weak legs heard that he refused the operation, they suddenly couldn't support the weight of the whole body, just like in the misty cotton ball, his refusal The operation was the final fatal blow to her... "I can't—!" Zhen En yelled in panic, her eyes were red and swollen from a night of sleeplessness and crying, she threw herself to Yin Cheng's hospital bed, and said in tears: "I'm talking nonsense! I don't have anything at all. I know! Everything has been arranged for surgery! You can’t give up now! You have to have surgery! Please! I’m talking nonsense, it’s not like that, really, it’s not like that..."

"Then where is Ou Chen now?" Yin Cheng said quietly, "If he isn't lying in the operating room waiting to remove that kidney for me, please ask him to appear in front of me." Jane froze suddenly! Yes, Ou Chen has entered the operating room and is about to wait for anesthesia.It was all her fault, she caused trouble, she made things mess up, why wasn't she the one who got sick, how could she make up for it all! ! "Doctor Zheng..." Yin Xiamo walked out of the corner slowly with a pale face, her voice was weak but calm: "...the operation will be as usual, I will leave it to you today."

"I refuse." Yin Cheng said firmly. Dr. Zheng looked worriedly at Yin Cheng, who was extremely stubborn and stubborn on the hospital bed, and then at Yin Xiamo in front of him. Seeing that her pale paper cheeks were flushed like a fever, he couldn't help frowning worriedly. "Xia Mo, you..." "I am a family member and have the right to make the right judgment for him." Yin Xiamo looked at Dr. Zheng firmly, the stubbornness in his eyes even surpassed that of Yin Cheng, "I will sign the consent form for the operation, so please arrange it as usual surgery today."

"I said, I refuse!" Yin Cheng pursed his lips tightly, with a never-before-seen anger in his tone. He suddenly raised his head, stared at Yin Xiamo, and said, "Even if I die immediately, I will never accept this operation! I personally don't agree, No one has the right to agree for me! Not even you—not!" Yin Xiamo was stunned. Ever since she was a child, she had never heard Xiao Cheng speak to her in this tone.Slowly, she turned her head to look at him. He was pale and weak on the hospital bed, and his usually docile eyes showed anger towards her. Her heart suddenly ached!

"you……" She closed her eyes. After a long time, she said blankly: "Unless, what you mean is that you no longer recognize me as your sister... Otherwise, today's operation must be carried out!" "Xia Mo──" Zhen En gasped and looked at Xia Mo who suddenly became cold in shock. "Even at the cost of your happiness..." Yin Cheng's voice was soft and silent. "Sister...you said...why was I born..." Yin Cheng stared blankly at Yin Xiamo as the cold sunlight shone on the hospital bed, "I live in this world just to drag you down, right..."

"...Since I was very young...you took care of me...you didn't have time to play with other children...in the orphanage...to protect me...you were beaten many times by those bad children..." "In order to protect me... You hurt someone and you were locked up... When you came out, you were covered in injuries... But you refused to say what happened inside..." "You take care of me...to treat my illness...to go to school for me...to work hard every day...you can only sleep three or four hours a day...to make more money...you entered such a complicated entertainment circle... "

"Sister...I know...you love me..." "But... are you going to give up your life's happiness for me now... What am I... a blood-sucking bug that sucked your entire life and happiness away..." "If it's your younger brother, he must always hurt you..." Yin Cheng said in a daze, "then, then... I'd rather..." "It's not because of you!" As if struggling in an ice cave and a stove, Yin Xiamo's head was already in pain as if it was about to split open, and his eyes were dizzy after waves of dizziness, and his sanity was gradually dissipating.Restraining the pain in her body, she approached the hospital bed with a pale face, slowly smiled at Yin Cheng, and said softly: "It's not because of that kidney that I chose to marry Ou Chen...it's because I like him...even if I don't Surgery... I will marry him too..."

"The one you like is Brother Luo Xi!" Yin Cheng said sadly.Connecting all the things with the time they happened, the facts are already so clear and cruel. "You broke up with Brother Luo Xi because of me... It was Ou Chen who coerced you, and he used that kidney to force you to marry him!" "No... I like Ou Chen..." Yin Xiamo shook her head stubbornly, but what kept flashing in her mind was the phantom of Luo Xi lying lifelessly on the hospital bed, yes, it was a phantom, Luo Xi did not commit suicide, but she had a nightmare, and she could not combine reality with reality. Nightmare mix up!

"I beg you...Xiaocheng...my sister, please...believe in me once...it's not because of you...it's really not because of you..." Staring blankly at Xiao Cheng who had been silent all this time, the feeling that she could no longer convince him made her flustered all of a sudden. Xiaocheng... don't believe her anymore... "Xiao Cheng... Please accept the surgery... Even if it's for my sister, okay... My sister wants to be with Xiao Cheng forever... My sister can't lose you..." Tears fell silently from her eyes. Drop by drop. It fell on the white sheets. "Yes... It's all my sister's fault... You forgive me... My sister promises you... My sister will work hard to live a happy life... But if there is no Xiaocheng... What is the use of my sister's happiness..." The ward was eerily quiet. Zhen En looked at the tears in Xia Mo's eyes foolishly, is that Xia Mo? Is that Xia Mo who won't cry even if she bleeds? She was shocked and heartbroken, tears flowed down her cheek . Dr. Zheng, who is used to seeing life and death parting, couldn't bear to watch it any longer. She knew that the sister and brother of the Yin family had deep feelings for each other, but... In the cold sunshine, seeing the fragile and crystal clear tears slowly dripping down her pale cheeks, Yin Cheng was heartbroken, and stretched out his hand tremblingly, wanting to wipe away the tears for her.However, he took a deep breath, clenched his fingers tightly again, looked at her with clear eyes, and said: "...for me, sister, you have already sacrificed too much, now, you have to sacrifice your life's happiness , I would rather die..." "Nonsense! What is not dead!" Yin Xiamo stood up abruptly, she staggered back a few steps, her body began to tremble uncontrollably, her face also changed from pale to a strange flush, as if a crazy emotion controlled her, her eyes were confused, shaking her head desperately, He yelled: "Don't think about it all day long! Do the operation! As long as the operation is finished, you will be fine! Listen to my sister, good boy, everything is ready for the operation, this time listen to my sister, just listen to my sister this time, okay?" it is good?!" Dr. Zheng looked sadly at Xia Mo who lost control of his emotions.Only she and she know that even if Xiaocheng's operation is successful, due to the concurrent failure of other organs, it is very likely... "Sister, I want to live too..." "I want to take good care of you, even if it's only half a year, even if it's only a month... don't let you worry about me anymore, let me take good care of you..." Yin Cheng smiled, but tears flowed down quietly, "...so I know you can I am very happy to have a suitable kidney transplanted to me...even if I can only live for a short period of time...I will stay by your side..." "But……" "...Do you want to exchange these with your happiness...and brother Luoxi...he loves you so much...you and brother Luoxi like each other...but for me...do you want to sacrifice everything..." "I do not care!" The head cracked open, and Yin Xiamo's whole body seemed to be tormented repeatedly in the devil's ice cave and furnace. The pain and trembling shattered her last sanity, and she couldn't care less, tears flowed crazily on her face . "I only have you, Xiao Cheng! I don't care about anything! As long as you live! I only have you as my family member! You are dead, why am I still alive! Those are all meaningless! Xiao Cheng! I only want you to live! As long as you live!" "So Brother Luo Xi can die?!" Yin Cheng cried out in pain, his eyes were clouded by tears, he couldn't be frightened by his sister, he couldn't let her make a mistake to the end. "Brother Luo Xi committed suicide because of that wedding! He was lying on the hospital bed for rescue! I am your younger brother, but do you not care about him at all? Aren't you afraid that he will really die?!" It was like a flash of cold lightning! Yin Xiamo was frozen stiffly, her eyes were dark, her pale lips opened and closed silently, but no sound came out. Luo Xi... A ward as cold as a snow cave... A figure lying quietly like a phantom, with thick white gauze on the wrist, pale face, closed eyes... As if he was already dead... The dark eyelashes didn't even tremble the slightest... "And Brother Ou Chen...for me...to remove one of his kidneys...to affect his health for the rest of his life...for me...do I really have to sacrifice so many people..." Ou Chen... There was a white mist in front of him. Those pains that tore her body apart, like devil's claws, made her mind muddle, and she couldn't hear the intermittent words that made her heart bleed... Is everyone suffering because of her... all the pain... "sister……" "I know you love me...but...I won't agree to undergo surgery...sister...no matter what you say...I will...never...to undergo surgery..." She already knew... She will get her due... The white mist filled the sky, waves of dizziness made her want to vomit, and the ground was spinning crazily!Her back was drenched with hot and cold sweat, as if in sea water, the waves finally submerged her!She is so insignificant, so incompetent, even though she has used all selfish means to betray Luo Xi and hurt Ou Chen, she still cannot turn everything around... no more hope... Xiaocheng is so determined, there is no room for maneuver... In the vast mist, there was a faint voice calling her, as if in a dream, a nightmare that has been, has been unable to wake up, the cold metal feel of the doorknob, shivering slightly, there is a long corridor outside the door, and the footsteps are stiff and slow I was walking, I don't know where to go, I don't know how long I have to walk before I can stop and take a breath... "Xia Mo──!" When Jane opened the door of the ward and chased out worriedly, she saw that thin figure slowly fainting on the cold ground in the long corridor. This illness came violently and suddenly, as if there was a flame of despair burning violently in his body, completely burning Yin Xiamo's strong will to ashes.She suddenly had a fever of nearly 40 degrees, her lips were pale and chapped, and her skin was hot and hot. No matter what methods the doctors took to reduce her fever, it seemed that she had given up. She would rather fall into a coma with high fever and never wake up. "Xia Mo……" The hoarse voice was mixed with trembling with pain, Ou Chen stood stiffly in front of the hospital bed, he couldn't believe that she was still fine before he entered the operating room, but she collapsed all of a sudden! Snow-white hospital bed. Her eyes were tightly closed, and her face was flushed abnormally, as if she was deeply trapped in a nightmare, and she was struggling from time to time, her body was trembling non-stop, trembling like a child with weakness and fear. "..." Her head was shaking restlessly on the pillow, her expression was so painful, as if the nightmare was extremely terrifying, she wanted to wake up, tried hard to wake up... "Xia Mo……" Holding her hot hand, Ou Chen was horrified by the scorching heat of the palm like a branding iron, and the pain clenched his heart so tightly that he couldn't breathe. "What did you do to her?!" Turning back suddenly, Ou Chen glared angrily at the pale and weak Yin Cheng in the corner of the ward. He knew that only Yin Cheng could hurt her so deeply, because only Yin Cheng was the person she cared about the most. And he... nothing... When he was silently lying on the operating bed in the operating room, waiting for the operation to start, he suddenly realized that his life was so lonely. He walked into the operating room alone, unaccompanied.When he signed the consent form for surgery, no one was around.When he was lying on the operating bed, no one outside the operating room was worried except the anesthesiologist and the doctor. Maybe…… She didn't even notice him leaving. All she loves is her brother. It was only because of her strong love for her younger brother that he became important and had a bargaining chip to exchange with her.If it wasn't for that kidney, she wouldn't even look at him again. that moment. There was bitterness in his heart, and the contradictions and struggles were about to drive him crazy.It's a despicable act to coerce her with a kidney, but he has only one way, and it's the only way to keep her!However, when Yin Cheng knew all of this, wouldn't even this last sliver of hope be extinguished... When the doctor told him that the operation had been cancelled, he sat up from the operating bed in silence, the loneliness in his heart was covered layer by layer like winter snow. He thought his heart could gradually cool down. However, when he saw her in a coma with a high fever on the hospital bed, he realized that he had overestimated himself.Loneliness and coldness are all bearable, but her pale sick face and painful trembling are like a sharp knife cutting his heart, making him prefer to bear a hundred times the loneliness and coldness, and he can't stand watching her in pain. "What did you do to her again?!" Yin Cheng asked Ou Chen back in a low voice. His face was snow-white, his eyes glowed with stubbornness and stubbornness, he was totally different from the docile and well-behaved Xiao Cheng in the usual days, as if he had already made up his mind and no one could make him change it. "..." Ou Chen pursed his lips tightly, but he was speechless for that rhetorical question. After a long time, he looked at her who had a high fever and was unconscious on the hospital bed, and said hoarsely: "Even if it's for her, you should undergo the operation." Xiao Cheng is almost everything to her, she can do anything for Xiao Cheng, as long as Xiao Cheng can live healthy and happy.It should be that Xiaocheng's refusal of the operation shattered her hopes, and she collapsed suddenly. "I won't take your kidney, and I won't let her lose her chance of happiness because of that kidney." Yin Cheng stood up slowly, his eyes were still focused on Xia Mo's body worriedly, but he didn't dare to let himself look at her sickly face any longer, his heart felt like a hot iron The plate was tormented for a second. Walk out of the room slowly. Yin Cheng stood blankly in the corridor of the hospital, the empty silence made his mind go blank.My sister's body has always been healthy, she will get better, he can't compromise because of temporary fear, my sister will get better soon... In the ward, Jane in the corner has long been forgotten by everyone.She stared blankly at the direction where Yin Cheng disappeared, and then stared blankly at Ou Chen standing in front of Xia Mo's hospital bed, her eyes were still red and swollen, the tears on her face hadn't been wiped clean, she looked extremely embarrassed up. What happened in the past two days has completely messed up her mind, she no longer knows what is right and what is wrong, it seems that there is nothing right or wrong in this world, only the suffocating sadness makes her Tears could not help but flow down from time to time. For a long time. Ou Chen stood unusually silent. As if in the dark night, his eyes were dark and his back was stiff and straight, as if he was telling himself that he had done nothing wrong and he would not regret it!However, her weak and hot fingers in her palm trembled slightly due to the high fever, like reeds blown by the wind by the river, destroying his last tough nerve... The fever never went away. Although Ou Chen invited the best doctor in the country to treat her overnight, even though the doctors tried all kinds of methods, tried various injections, and tried various physical methods to lower Yin Xiamo's body temperature, but her His body temperature broke through 40 degrees several times, and his whole body quickly became pale and haggard under the torment of the high fever in a coma. On the third day. The doctors told Ou Chen helplessly that Yin Xiamo's cold and fever caused by the cold had deteriorated into acute pneumonia. Snow white pillows. With an infusion hose tied to his wrist, Yin Xiamo was unconsciously struggling and dreaming, his brows were furrowed together uneasily, his dark eyelashes trembled tightly on his pale face, but his cheekbones were unusually flushed as if there were flames of pain about to Burn her to ashes! ... "...a kidney replacement operation must be done as soon as possible, otherwise with his current physical condition, it will be difficult for him to last for more than three months... It is impossible to find a suitable kidney source...The blood type is very special RH negative B, the source of plasma in the past was It is very difficult, and it is even more difficult to find a kidney that matches not only the blood type but also other indicators..." ... "I found a kidney source that is very suitable in all aspects, but that person has not yet decided whether to agree to transplant the kidney to Xiao Cheng..." ... "That person's name is Ou Chen." ... The red fire filled the sky, as if every inch of skin was burned, and the road could not be seen, and there was thick and rolling black smoke ahead... ... "Marry me, I will donate my kidney to Xiaocheng." ... "Even if I disappear in this world in the next second...you will still marry him without hesitation..." ... Struggling in pain, she was tightly surrounded by the blazing fire, did she do something wrong, right from the beginning to the end, she did it wrong, her eyes were closed tightly, as if her throat was tightly strangled by a nightmare, her dry lips were constantly Whispering indistinct words in pain, his body trembling convulsively... ... "...Even if you have a kidney transplant... the complications of various organs in your body...you need to be mentally prepared..." ... "Are you proud?... He actually committed suicide for you... He actually cut open an artery with a blade..." ... "So Brother Luo Xi can die... Brother Luo Xi has committed suicide because of that wedding! He is lying on the hospital bed for rescue!...Aren't you afraid that he will really die?!" ... "And brother Ou Chen...for me...to remove one of his kidneys...for me...do you really have to sacrifice so many people..." ... "...But... I will not agree to undergo surgery... Sister... No matter what you say... I will... never... undergo surgery..." ... From morning to night, Yin Xiamo, who was in a coma with a high fever, was trembling and trembling. With her pale face and black eyelashes, she trembled and struggled helplessly like a child, as if she no longer had the slightest strength, as if despair had made her give up completely... "Mother……" "Mother……" Ou Chen, who was by her side all the time, suddenly heard this sentence clearly. He held her hot and trembling hand suffocatingly, his eyes were sad and deeply painful, and he looked at her babbling in pain. The fear of cessation twisted his chest like a tsunami, causing severe pain! "I promise you……" "Xia Mo……" "As long as you get better...let me do anything..." Holding her hand tightly, Ou Chen buried his face in her hot and weak palm, his back raised lonely in the evening light, trembling slightly imperceptibly. Yin Cheng couldn't stay in his sister's ward, he couldn't continue to watch his sister's high fever persisting in coma and pain, that kind of torture would make him prefer to undergo a kidney transplant operation, and he only hoped that her sister would recover quickly! But, what is the difference between that and drinking poison to quench thirst... Maybe that would make my sister's condition better for a while, but then, it would make my sister lose the qualification to be happy... Reason told him no, but his sister's high fever and comatose appearance seemed to be tearing away all his reason, and the inner battle between heaven and man made him unable to stay in his sister's ward for a moment.He asked Zhen En to find out from Shen Qiang the hospital where Luo Xi's brother was staying, and he came here when he heard that Luo Xi's brother was still in a coma. "Brother Luo Xi..." Yin Cheng stared blankly at the pale figure covered in various tubes on the hospital bed in front of him. Is that brother Luoxi? No matter in the memories of my childhood, or the brother Luoxi I met when I grew up, he was always so gentle and free.Brother Luo Xi is always smiling, as if he doesn't care about anything, he is as perfect as an angel, even if he is hurt innocently, he will just smile and pass by calmly. But…… Brother Luo Xi actually chose to commit suicide... "I'm sorry..." Yin Cheng whispered to the unconscious Luo Xi.He loves his sister deeply, so he chose to commit suicide after his sister left in despair. Although this suicide behavior caused his sister to fall into a painful situation, the pain and despair in his heart at the moment he chose to die It must also be unbearable. "...don't resent my sister...it's not my sister's fault...it's all for me...my sister chooses to do that..." The door of the ward was gently pushed open. Suddenly hearing a voice from inside, Jie Ni's hand was on the doorknob, listening, she raised her head in astonishment, and looked at Shen Qiang's equally astonished face. "...It's because of me...my sister is going to marry Ou Chen...Ou Chen exchanged his kidney...Only my sister married him...he agreed to transplant his kidney to me..." "...so...that marriage was just a deal..." Shen Qiang at the door listened in shock, she couldn't believe her ears, and there was a bang in her heart, she couldn't tell what it was like. "I think……" "...My sister loves you...otherwise she wouldn't always smile at you like that...she wouldn't feel sad every time she sees you...Brother Luoxi...my sister is always used to it Bury her emotions in the deepest part of her heart...she always doesn't say anything..." Yin Cheng's heart ached. Looking at Luo Xi, who was as lifeless as his sister on the hospital bed, and the white gauze bandaged on Luo Xi's wrist, he took a deep breath, and said in a low voice, "Brother Luo Xi... If you still love sister ...just get well soon...you know what...she's sick...very sick...just as unconscious as you are now..." "Beep—" "Beep—" The electrocardiogram monitor made a monotonous sound, and the zigzag lines were beating.Luo Xi lay quietly on the hospital bed. He had lost a lot of weight, his lips were light-colored, and his skin was almost transparent. He looked like a sleeping prince, but the princess who could wake him never came again. "My sister has been living very hard...Although she is always as strong as a big tree...but she is also tired...and needs to rest..." "Maybe I won't be able to stay with her for long..." "Brother Luo Xi... Please get better soon... In the days to come... Please take care of her for me... OK..." For a long time. Yin Cheng struggled to stand up slowly, he finally stared at Luo Xi who was in a deep coma, turned around, and walked towards the door of the ward. at the door. Jie Ni stood blankly, watching Yin Cheng walk past her.She opened her mouth, wanting to ask what was going on, but the paleness and pain in his expression prevented her from really asking. Shen Qiang walked stiffly to Luo Xi's hospital bed. For a moment, she couldn't digest and understand the words she just heard. Those words sounded so incredible that they overturned all her cognition. As for Luo Xi... Did he hear... late at night. Ou Chen still stayed by Yin Xiamo's hospital bed, without rest for several days and nights, dark blue beard marks appeared on his chin.Refusing the nurse's help, he put the ice pillow on her forehead with his own hands. In the coma of high fever, she unconsciously struggled, babbled, and shouted something chaotically. He pressed the ice pillow nervously to prevent it from slipping off her forehead. . Her body temperature was still boiling hot. It's like a fire that burns without end. "Xia Mo……" His bony fingers trembled slightly, and he gently touched her pale and flushed cheeks. The hot feeling seemed to be that her body was full of despair, and this despair penetrated into him bit by bit from his fingers. The bottom of my heart was torn apart inch by inch. After all, I still lost... Ou Chen's fingers clenched stiffly. Every time in front of her, he loses completely. Even if happiness is within easy reach, he still loses.She is already his wife, he can always be by her side, take care of her, make her happy, no one has the right to separate him from her! but…… Looking at her comatose and painful appearance, he knew that he had once again lost completely. All his hard work, the happiness he had earned through hard work, was so vulnerable... "what……" "Ah──!" On the hospital bed, she was tossing and turning in a coma, and suddenly, she opened her eyes suddenly with a rush of raving! "Xia Mo!" Ou Chen couldn't believe her eyes, and leaned over in surprise, she had never been awake for a moment in the past few days, even when the high fever occasionally subsided, she was still in a drowsy coma. "Mother……" Looking at the ceiling with slack eyes, the ice pillow was thrown aside in her struggle just now, she was panting desperately, her forehead began to sweat intermittently, as if waking up from a terrible nightmare, her sanity was still Chaotic and messy. "you……" The excitement in his chest made Ou Chen's throat seem to be blocked. He took a deep breath, calmed himself down from the ecstasy, and asked hoarsely, "Are you okay? I'll call the doctor right away!" "Mother!!" Her chest was heaving violently, as if in some frenzied mood, Yin Xiamo was trying to grab something in the air uneasily, he hurriedly held her hand, so her distracted eyes moved from the ceiling to him. She stared blankly at him. Two lines of tears slipped quietly from the corners of her eyes, and the tears flowed more and more urgently. She suddenly started to cry, crying like a little girl of seven or eight years old. "Mother……" "Mother……" "Xia Mo! Xia Mo!" Ou Chen's heart ached, her crying was unbearable for him, at this moment he wished to exchange everything with God, as long as he could bear all the pain for her. "Mother……" "Xiao Cheng...is about to die..." Coughing and crying, she was shaking from crying, big and big tears rolled down, like a child who was at a loss, she cried out in fear: "Save Xiaocheng... Mom... I beg you ...Save Xiaocheng...What should I do without Xiaocheng...You all left...I was left alone...I'm so scared...Mom...I beg you...Save Xiaocheng..." "Xiao Cheng will not die." Being held tightly by her hand, as if a dying person was holding him tightly, Ou Chen looked sadly at her chaotic and crying face, and said in a hoarse voice: "I promise you! Xiao Cheng will not die." "Why should Xiaocheng be punished...it's my fault...I did all the wrong things!..." Tears spread on her face, pale cheeks, flushed cheekbones, her eyes were confused and out of focus, the fire was burning all over the sky, the white mist, the figure of her mother was looming, she desperately grabbed her mother, don't go, Only mother, only mother can save her! "...Mom...I have done many, many things wrong...If Father Yin was determined not to take Luo Xi in...no...if I kept Luo Xi at that time...Xiaocheng would not be sick...you don't have to go The hospital...there will be no car accidents..." "...If I hadn't angered Ou Chen...if I hadn't tried desperately to hurt him...I wouldn't have been arrested...I wouldn't have let Xiaocheng get caught in the rain...and made his body so bad... " "Look...Mom...it's all my fault...but why...Xiaocheng was punished...not me...they made a mistake...Mom...please...you are in heaven... ...you go and tell them...the one who died should be me!...not Xiaocheng...not Xiaocheng..." "Xia Mo, wake up!" Ou Chen held onto her frantically trembling shoulders in shock, trying to wake her up, her whole body seemed to be in a nightmare, and the back of his hand was wetted by the tears crazily flowing from her face.He had never seen Xia Mo like this before, under the raging high fever, she had completely collapsed, after the snow-like calm and calm mask was shattered, she was just as fragile as a child... "Xiao Cheng will not die! Did you hear that? I promise you, Xiao Cheng will not die!" He hugged her shoulders tightly and kept shouting. Her body was hot as fire, and the tears on her cheeks kept flowing into his neck. It was icy cold, and she was still trembling, as if she didn't hear what he was saying at all. what. "you……" On his shoulder, suddenly, she said tremblingly: "Are you dead too..." Gently pushing him away, she looked at him in a trance, her eyes were dazed, but there was an abnormal light in her eyes, as if she had penetrated his body and looked far, far away. "...Sorry...I didn't know you would commit suicide...I thought...you would hate me...and...forget about me..." "Luo Xi..." "You're dead, right...so...come to see me for the last time...doesn't it hurt...even if you hate me...but doing that...it must hurt..." Tears flowed quietly. Like a shattered star on her pale cheeks. "I don't know...I really don't know...you will choose to punish me with death...why are you so cruel..." She laughed hoarsely. "So... Luo Xi... this is my punishment... right... I hurt you because of Xiaocheng...so God wants to take Xiaocheng...to punish me..." Tears choked her throat, she closed her eyes, her dark eyelashes were stained bright and moist by tears, her pale cheeks were strangely flushed, she began to cough violently, her chest heaved violently, and the tears kept rolling fall. "So, are you punishing me?!" Ou Chen cried out in pain, the pain and sourness in his heart made him forget that she was raving about a high fever, he held her shoulder tightly and forced her to open her eyes , His voice was as painful as the last struggle of a dying animal. "It's because I threatened you with marriage! I refused to directly donate my kidney to Xiao Cheng! That's why all this happened! Luo Xi's suicide and Xiao Cheng's refusal of surgery are all because of my selfishness! So are you punishing me?" ?!" The voice close to her ears made her body gradually froze, like a needle piercing through the fire and white mist, creating a gap between the nightmare and reality. She stared blankly at him. Amidst his painful low cries, her chaotic and slack eyes gradually became a little focused, she stared blankly at him, her body was hot and cold, and her mind was buzzing like a dream that could not be woken up. , she couldn't hear what he was saying, but the thrilling pain in his eyes scalded her. "Selfish……" Tears slowly rolled down her black eyelashes, she stared blankly at him, her chapped lips moved, and said very softly: "Is there... anyone more selfish than me... for Xiao Cheng... you can put Everyone else is sacrificed...Knowing that it will hurt Luo Xi...Knowing that such a marriage...It will only bring you pain...Knowing that even after the operation...Xiaocheng may still leave...I still want to take yours kidney……" "I do not care……" Ou Chen pursed his lips tightly, staring at the tears on her face.At this moment, are her tears flowing for him?Even if she is in high fever, there is still a little place for him in her heart, right? that way... That is, you can recall a lifetime of happiness... "You're not wrong...it's always been me...Xia Mo, it's because I want to have you so much...it's because I hold you too tightly...that's why it hurts you so much..." in the ward. The deep night enveloped the two people on the hospital bed. He gently wiped the tears from her face. Then, he gently hugged her into his arms. He didn't hold her tightly like before, but gently, so lightly that she could leave freely as long as she struggled. It's just that she has no strength, and she leans weakly on his shoulder with a high fever, her body is hot and cold, as if there is a diffuse mist filling her body, and it seems that there is a scorching flame burning her, her body is weak and weak, only The words that Xiaocheng once said to her repeatedly flashed back in her mind──...... "So Brother Luo Xi can die... Brother Luo Xi has committed suicide because of that wedding! He is lying on the hospital bed for rescue!...Aren't you afraid that he will really die?!" ... "And brother Ou Chen...for me...to remove one of his kidneys...for me...do you really have to sacrifice so many people..." ... "...But... I will not agree to undergo surgery... Sister... No matter what you say... I will... never... undergo surgery..." ... Maybe…… That's fine too... Xiao Cheng will not be alone... Mom won't be alone... Luo Xi will not be alone... 在欧辰的肩头，尹夏沫又昏迷了过去，她紧紧地闭着眼睛，脸色依旧苍白，颧骨上的潮红益发惊人，好像是全身的生命里都在那里燃烧，当燃烧殆尽时，也许她的生命就会如灰烬般轻飘飘地被吹散…… 只要她也死掉…… 就会永远陪在他们身边…… only…… 欧辰呢…… 他一个人…… 病房的门被轻轻关上，脚步声空荡荡地回响在走廊中，欧辰沉默地走着，脸上没有任何表情，只是嘴唇紧紧地抿着，眼睛幽深而黯然。 In the bench. 有一个孤独的身影。 尹澄呆呆地望着地面，双手无力地拉扯着自己的头发。他不知道该怎么办，就好像上天在给他开一个很大的玩笑，要他必须在姐姐的高烧不退和姐姐今后的幸福之间做出一个选择，可是，究竟怎样的选择才是正确的…… 脚步停在尹澄的面前。 “请替我照顾她几个小时。”欧辰低声说。 尹澄微怔，他缓缓地抬起头，不是诧异欧辰在几天的寸步不离之后终于要离开，而是吃惊欧辰居然会拜托他去照顾自己的姐姐。那是他的姐姐，就算欧辰不说，他也会…… 忽然，心中一片苦涩。 是他忘了，欧辰如今已经是姐姐的丈夫，是姐姐“最亲近”的人…… "it is good." 尹澄默默地看着他，心中的苦涩越染越浓。这几天以来欧辰日夜守在姐姐的病房，迅速削瘦憔悴起来，欧辰对姐姐的感情一向非常深厚执着，从很小开始他就知道。 如果不是用换肾手术交换婚姻，他会祝福欧辰和姐姐，也会欣慰欧辰多年来对姐姐的爱终于有了幸福的结局。 But…… 望着欧辰渐渐消失在走廊尽头的背影，那黯然寂寞的背影使得尹澄仿佛透不过气般的难过。 in the ward. 尹夏沫依旧深深地昏迷着，高烧让她不时地辗转反侧，嘴里模糊地呓语着一些话语。但是，她颤抖的挣扎少了很多，好像已经放弃了什么，脸上有依稀的泪痕。 尹澄怔怔地坐在病床边。 "sister……" 用手指怔怔地拭去她眼角残留的泪水，然后，泪水从他的面颊无声地滑落。 “……究竟该怎么做……” 同样的深夜。 液体从吊瓶中一滴一滴流淌下来。 洛熙静静地躺着，苍白的手指虚弱地放在雪白的床单上，如同已经死去般，只是因为倚靠着呼吸机，他的胸口才有了浅浅的起伏。 “今天尹夏沫的弟弟来看你了……”沈蔷凝视着他说，“……他说了些什么你一定也都听到了……那你为什么还不醒过来……” “他说尹夏沫爱的是你……” “他说那场结婚只不过是尹夏沫和欧辰做的一项交易……” “他说拜托你以后照顾他的姐姐……” 苍白安静地躺着。 洛熙恍若听不见外界的所有声音，只有输液管中液体一滴一滴静静地流淌。 “……或者，你不醒过来也好……”沈蔷淡淡地说，“……听说尹夏沫也生病了，高烧好几天都没有退烧……也许她是因为你的自杀而歉疚吧……如果你一直无法醒来……她的病也许就永远不会好……” “我想……你是恨她的……” “那就让她陪着你一起离开这个世界吧……” The night was dark. 尹夏沫昏迷在滚烫的高烧中，尹澄用冰毛巾轻柔细心地擦拭着她的额头和四肢。 一抹淡色的月光。 困乏已久的沈蔷渐渐趴在病床边睡去。 雪白的床单上。 洛熙的手指无意识地抽搐了一下，良久，又轻轻地握起。 第二天上午十点左右。 欧辰回到了医院。 “你不同意做换肾手术，只是因为不想用夏沫的婚姻来作为交换，对吗？”仿佛又是一夜没睡，欧辰下巴上青色的胡须痕迹更加浓重了些，他深深望着尹澄。 "..." 尹澄无语地望向窗外，他怎么可以因为自己而牺牲掉姐姐的幸福。 “这是我签过字的离婚协议书。” 一份薄薄的文件出现在尹澄面前，黑色墨水的签名在上午的阳光中隐隐反光，尹澄惊愕地霍然抬起头，空气中欧辰的声音沙哑而低沉：“只要你同意做手术，这份离婚协议书就从此由你保管，我和夏沫的婚姻……随时可以结束……”