Chapter 11 Chapter 9 Remodeling

Shen Wei woke up drowsily from her sleep, it was already noon, she was a little thirsty, she casually grabbed a glass of cold water by the bedside and drank it, the sound of the water in her throat was as urgent as if someone had dried up. Perhaps after sleeping for too long, her body became weak, and she felt a sense of buoyancy when she stepped on the ground. She opened the thick curtains, and the birds on the balcony seemed not to be frightened, and they were still pacing up and down leisurely. Rubbing his sleepy eyes, he leaned his face against the glass, carefully observing the bird's every move.

It was quiet and silent, but Shen Wei's throat was itchy, and she couldn't help coughing lightly, the bird seemed to be frightened, fluttering its small wings and fled away in a panic. Shen Wei was a little annoyed with herself, she lost the leisure time just now. She walked slowly to the dressing table and picked up the comb, but her hands were stiff and motionless. For some reason, there was already an inexplicable heat in her eyes. She hated herself for being like this. In the days since she came back, how could she live in peace, and the shadow of that person always lingered in her dreams, the shadow standing like a sculpture at the airport.

She hated the airport, hated why she always dreamed of his incomparably beautiful appearance. Why was it him who lost his memory and not her? She cried bitterly in front of the mirror alone like this. It was the first time that Shen Wei felt more and more like she was in a sinking ship, and she was going to sink in the vast ocean in a blink of an eye. There was no driftwood, no sight Marginal, can only watch helplessly as he struggles to perish in the sea water. She was like the bird that flew away in a panic just now, she was peaceful and peaceful, but was disturbed by his reappearance and could no longer be at peace.

The operation was very successful. On the day Zhang Xiangbei was transferred from the ICU to the general ward, she left in a hurry without saying goodbye. Zhang Qiluo called her. She sat in the waiting room and let the signal light of her mobile phone flash continuously until There was no sound and no movement. Shen Wei recalled An Ning's words, "Wei Wei, I think you are just a paper tiger. You look tough on the outside, but you are actually weaker than anyone else on the inside." Shen Wei rushed into the bathroom and washed her face vigorously. Her eyes were red, and her skin, which was flushed due to excessive force, was soaked in tears. Yes, her heart was more fragile than anyone else. She almost wanted to thank An Ning for letting her see herself clearly. Otherwise, why would she have a nervous breakdown and become the ghost in the mirror?

When a friend is hurt, you can help lick the wound, thinking that she will be better.When I was really injured, I realized that no matter how much I licked, the wound would fester in pain until it was numb from the pain, but the scab would not form. Love is a sea of ​​bitterness, and it is difficult to go ashore.There was no one to help, so I had to swim through it icily.Otherwise, drown. In fact, she could have said goodbye to Zhenzhong in a chic way, and then disappeared in front of the mother and child. "Shen Wei, Shen Wei..." She scolded herself fiercely in the mirror, "You are a big idiot who is still obsessed with being dumped, you are a coward who sneaks away! No one can remember that you are How old are you, and you still keep dreaming about others, I look down on you!"

Her blushing face in the mirror was ridiculous. Yes, it is ridiculous. After half a month of such ridiculous days, Shen Wei felt that she was about to be tormented by the repeated dreams to the brink of collapse. Shen Wei began to regret her decision to return to China to take care of Zhang Xiangbei, but such regrets were full of Contradictions, just thinking about it gives me a splitting headache. But all this seemed to be not thorough enough. Shen Wei received an email from Zhang Xiangbei. With just one simple sentence, Shen Wei felt that her mind went blank, and everything seemed like a drama.

"Vivi, if one day I remember you, I believe that I still love you deeply. From the first time I saw you after I was sick, I fell in love with you. Please believe my sincerity. - Zhang North." Shen Wei sat blankly in front of the computer like this until the middle of the night, but she couldn't reply him a single word or a word. happy?Could this be what she was waiting for, but it just happened to be wrong.angry?But she couldn't find a reason to vent her anger.To her, the person who wrote such a sentence now has changed beyond recognition. Shen Wei felt helpless and depressed, she realized that she could not deceive herself anymore, she still loves him, loves the one who will silently watch her leave at the airport, watch her disappear without moving, but still stand still and can't bear to go His.

She also clearly understands that what she loves is the best old dream in her youth. She used to think that no matter how far she went, as long as she turned around, she would be able to see him standing there, unable to be blown by the wind or blown away by the rain, looking at her like he was staring at the most precious treasure in the world.But all of this was just what she thought, but he had already disappeared. You must know that there are too many sad things in this world, all of which come from the three words "I think". In the second half of the night, Shen Wei's eyes were already slightly heavy after staying up late, but she still replied to him who was actually a stranger in the distance, with a few words, but after careful consideration, "I will forget you, just like you, even if it is difficult .—Shen Wei."

The moment I closed the computer, my heart throbbed, "Why did you and I become like this?" It seemed that the everlasting love was a lie, or it never existed at all. They are entangled with each other, but they always go back to the front of the breeding of love and become the most important stranger. Shen Wei worked hard to get herself back on track. In fact, she had never put in such efforts even during the days when she broke up with him. She went to bed early and woke up early, started exercising, and was extremely devoted to work. Seeing that her face was getting more and more rosy, her colleagues made fun of her and asked her if she had a boyfriend. She laughed unrestrainedly, "If I am in love, will I still insist on working overtime?"

When I came back from an outing with my colleagues on the weekend, I looked at myself in the mirror, and my energetic self seemed to be back again. Shen Wei raised the corners of her mouth in front of the mirror, and asked herself: "Is there a knot in each of us that cannot be untied, but we can always pretend to ignore it?" Oh, because life is meant to be lived after all. In the afternoon, she moved the wicker chair from the balcony to the room, turned on the stereo and listened to soothing light music, walked to the big bookshelf that she hadn’t visited for a long time, and began to flip through it. Her fingers crossed Agatha’s detective series and moved slowly to the left. The yellow and elegant book came into sight, and Shen Wei suddenly felt a strange feeling in her heart. The feeling of being entangled in mysteries in the hospital seemed to rush into her mind, and she subconsciously pulled out the carefully packaged book.

Such beautiful book paper, light yellow background, sprinkled with elegant and white daisies, holding it in your hand like this, you can feel a faint fragrance, the fragrance of this book paper is like a mirror of time, the memory of memory The screen rushed to my eyes. At that time, she was still a high school student, with a high ponytail, neat and lovely bangs, and a light blue dress. She was standing in front of a bookstore on the street waiting for her classmates. The appointment time had passed. For a full quarter of an hour, she muttered and smoothed her bangs stuck to her forehead due to sweat, "I won't wait for her anymore, I'm always late!" But she couldn't just leave in a fit of anger. If she said she didn't come, wouldn't she be a person who broke her promise? Shen Wei went into the study room after thinking about it, wanting to read a book to pass the time, the boss is a kind old man, seeing her coming in with sweat on his face, he made fun of her, "Little girl is so stupid, standing outside for so long , I don’t even blow the air conditioner here, so I have to make it so embarrassing, are you dating your boyfriend?” Shen Wei felt that the old man was really meddling, so she didn't reply to him, anyway, he didn't believe it. But it's no wonder the old man would say that. There are two high schools here. It's nothing new for high school students to fall in love, and there are many people dating in bookstores. Shen Wei walked into the bookstore thinking so, and saw a pair of high school students. The couple who looked like they were flirting. Although Shen Wei pretended not to notice and didn't care, her ears couldn't help but turn red. These two students were really bold enough to address them as "wife and husband" in such a public place. How old are they? Just like what the teacher said, Falling in love is like rushing to reincarnate. We all want to cast early and enjoy early. It's better to be patient and go to college before breaking out, so as not to be sneaky like an underground organization like this now. Now that Shen Wei thinks about it, she thinks this sentence is very funny, describing high school as like being in prison, and going to college is like being released after serving a sentence, and there is no problem in doing what she wants to do.If there is a Garden of Eden in the world, it will be the university described by the teacher before the college entrance examination. She turned around and walked forward, passing by another couple who were talking and laughing, she felt a little irritable, looked at her watch, looked outside again, but still hadn't arrived, I really don't know this classmate Whether there is a concept of time, Shen Wei regrets it to the extreme, she really shouldn't allow such a person to come out and go shopping together. She leaned against the bookshelf, picked up a book and flipped through it, but before she had even glanced at it, the old man sitting at the door shouted: "Little girl, there are collected books on this bookshelf, only for sale. Rent, 10 yuan a book." Shen Wei glanced at it, and there was indeed a wooden sign, which said, "10 yuan per book". These so-called recycled old books are actually about 90% new. The old man may think that they can be sold at a high price. Shen Wei thinks that books are recycled regardless of whether they are old or new. It looks like new ones are being sold, so the profit is high. Shen Wei wondered who would buy your old book, and put the book in her hand back to its original place. She was planning to go to the book rental area to have a look after putting it away, but she just walked two steps, but the corner of her eyes was attracted by a light yellow book After passing by, she couldn't help reaching for the book, pulled it out, and was immediately attracted by the book's wrapping paper. The white daisies were like flowers blooming on clouds, slowly growing against the light yellow background. Slowly floating, the touch is very delicate when touched by the hand, and the unique light fragrance of the book paper comes to the nostrils.I couldn't help but muttered in my heart: "I have never seen such exquisite book paper, what book is worth wrapping so well?" She opened it, and it turned out to be. She was a little disappointed. It seemed that the person who packaged this book was a careful mother. How could children have such exquisite aesthetics?Nowadays, there are not many people who pack books. But in the end she still bought it because she simply liked the book wrapping paper. When the old man collected the money, he stared at the book and muttered, "This book paper is so beautiful!" Shen Wei could no longer remember the old man's face, but the old voice penetrated into her ears through a long time, she gently stroked the book paper, and the time overlapped. There seemed to be sparks bursting out in her mind. Shen Wei turned to the first page of the book and saw the owner's name. She knew why she felt everything was so familiar in the hospital, but she felt so pale when thinking about it. Why was it so serious at the time, even though she has gradually forgotten that mystery over the past year.It turned out that she had already interpreted such a secret belonging to time. Although she had already seen it from the perspective of a stranger when she was young, she left it behind in the long years. Shen Wei happened to be on a business trip to Shanghai, so she called An Ning and asked for Jiang Wei's contact information. While gnawing on an apple, An Ning asked strangely, "Why are you asking my cousin? You don't even know each other well." "I'll send her something." "Things? What things? Tell me and I'll listen." "a book." "Books? Tsk, you don't know her well, what books to send to her, it's strange." "Oh, don't break the casserole and ask the bottom line. It's just a book. It's not a big deal. Hurry up and tell me the address." "Tch, what's so strange, I don't want to know yet, well, my cousin, yo, I remembered, I called her the day before yesterday, and she said that she would be back in two days, her grandma was ill, Do you want her home address or grandma's address?" "You still let me do multiple-choice questions, whichever one I can get." "That book is not a forbidden book. My aunt is not an idler. She is the absolute leader of the family. I have never been afraid of her since I was a child. I am afraid that she will stare and eat people. If there is any secret in this book that falls to my aunt In your hands, my cousin was tricked by you. I still remind you, send it to her grandma's house, she will definitely spend most of her time at her grandma's house when she comes back this time. " "It's a bunch of nonsense, you make your aunt look like a tigress, hurry up and address..." "Green Orchid Village..." After Shen Wei finished writing the address, An Ning asked An Ning to repeat it twice. An Ning was a little impatient and called her obsessive-compulsive disorder. She looked at the address written on the white paper, and recalled in her mind the day she found this book at home. She was staring at the name "Jiang Wei" on the book at that time, as if her stagnant brain suddenly became clear, and she finally connected her series of short-term confusions together, like a straight line without breakpoints. She thought of An Ning's introduction at An Ning's wedding, "This is my cousin Jiang Wei, who came to my wedding as soon as she got off the plane, a strong woman who is busy with work." "What about a strong woman? Your sister and I are just a female worker." I remember the way Jiang Wei smiled, it was very sweet, and she seemed to be a very cheerful person. Also, An Ning's cousin, even if An Ning was not noisy, at least she was lively and cute. She smiled brightly back at Jiang Wei. Things at the wedding were very complicated, and she never got in touch with her again. But at that time, a familiar feeling lingered in her heart, where did the name "Jiang Wei" come from? Have you seen or heard of it? But I can't remember anything. Perhaps this name is too common, and it may not be heard on the street one day, but is it true? The moment she picked up the wallet in the hospital cafeteria and saw the picture of the wallet, she seemed to be even more confused, "Who is this little girl, why does she seem to have seen it before?" Shen Wei looked at the book in front of her, and couldn't help laughing at her own strong curiosity. The answer was revealed, everything was so simple, but those memories were too small and not related to her, she had forgotten them for a while. Shen Wei packed her schoolbag and thought about whether she should write a letter and put it in it, but after thinking about it, she decided to just leave it at that. It's better not to say a word than to say a lot, anyway, it's not her that matters. After the book was sent out, Shen Wei smiled and shook her head, feeling that this was the most amazing thing she had ever experienced in her life. She is not a gossip person, and she has no right to know other people's privacy. No matter what the truth is, she still made such a decision to return it. Everything that happened when this book appeared in front of the old bookstall, now read It doesn't matter anymore. Its real owner is not her. Perhaps, she was looking forward to the miracle of love in her bones. She believed in her intuition, believed that the book was lost, not discarded, and firmly believed that Jiang Wei did not know the story of that book. If there is no basis for such an intuitive belief, then she would rather say that what she believes is warmth and sincerity. "Zhang Xiangbei, do you know that we used to be warm in love, but you have forgotten all this, shouldn't it matter to me?" This night, she finally had the courage to open the unread email in the mailbox. She wanted to open it many times during the past few days, but gave up. Maybe this thing she did today vented the five flavors wrapped in her heart for her. Miscellaneous. "Let's start over, give me another chance, please? Weiwei.——Zhang Xiangbei." Shen Wei seemed to be able to hear him calling her with the most familiar deep voice, "Weiwei..." again and again. Until she comes back to reality. Shen Wei never knew that Zhang Xiangbei was so persistent, and the scene of breaking up resurfaced in her mind. She hoped that he would turn around or hold her back. Even if he shook her body and said sorry, it would be better than him not saying a word. Turn around and leave. How could it be important to give up so easily?Since it is important, then stick to it. Zhang Xiangbei, who knows that the saddest part of Shen Wei's heart is like this. She hated the betrayer in a relationship who couldn't persist. "How can I have any chance here? You are looking for the wrong one.——Shen Wei." Clicking the mouse, the email has been sent, she closed her eyes and faced the night alone. She knew better than anyone else that, yes, she still had thoughts about him, but she couldn't be together anymore, and she had lost the courage to start a business again. She has always been a flame. When there is love, the fire burns until she dies. Without love, she would rather burn the sparks slowly by herself until they are extinguished, until her life is exhausted. Zhang Xiangbei backed down and never heard from him again. The mailbox is full of work letters. Shen Wei felt that when she looked at the mailbox like this every day, she felt like a passerby. She was glad that she was so straightforward and decisive. "Zhang Xiangbei, love is something that shouldn't be given up lightly. Even you today don't understand." Forget it. Perhaps, this is the best way to end it completely. She accepted the pursuit of Senior An who had been silently waiting for her. Just because of his sentence: "In a lifetime, if there is someone worth waiting for, that is a great fortune. The most fearful thing is that the person who is worth waiting for will never appear." Shen Wei knew that she and An Yang were the same kind of person. Why not give yourself a warm chance?Even if you get hurt again, it's nothing more than that. When she broke up with Zhang Xiangbei, An Yang had always encouraged her. At that time, An Yang had a girlfriend, who was also in a foreign country and believed in love with difficulty. After Shen Wei broke up, An Yang had an unconscious regret on his face. Many people can't help but sigh when they see lovers who have been in love for many years finally end up breaking up.Because the time together is so beautiful, but the ending is so sudden.Beautiful emotions, anyone will look forward to.Even if it's just someone else's story. But at least, you can believe it exists.Rather than the ashes in reality. An Yang asked her why she didn't persevere, even for a while. Shen Wei said with a smile: "I also want to persevere, but I really can't go on." She didn't tell An Yang the real pain in her heart.Just leave it to yourself to lick it. An Yang's faith was also shattered that year. The result of the answer was exactly the same as hers, and she couldn't go on. It turns out that when people are injured and separated, they always find a good reason: they can't go on. But who can be fooled by the pain in the eyes? The difference is that he still believes in the existence of true love in this world even though he has experienced a heart-wrenching emotional injury, while she is disheartened.She couldn't forget his eyes that gleamed secretly under the light after drinking a glass of beer with his head up. "I still believe in love. Maybe, I suffered all these injuries in order to meet the right person, the real right person." Believe, there will be.Without belief, life does not grant miracles. When eating together in the evening, An Yang told her a lot of jokes. Shen Wei, who was already low in laughter, naturally laughed up and down. When he was nervous, Shen Wei looked straight into his eyes, and An Yang said word by word: "Weiwei, I will try my best to make you happy." A very corny sentence. But it sounds more practical than any words. Shen Wei smiled and said yes. She is no longer a child now, she willfully only asks for the purest love.They are each other's wounded people. These years, he has been by his side, and he said that it may be because of the long-term love for each other. But she still slowed him down a step.He has always been the one who took the initiative, and he waited silently, never leaving because of her wandering. Then they can sit together and say the frank words of giving happiness. Pursue a person, if you can't get it all the time, then you will gradually be stingy in giving.Nowadays, people don't have much patience to exhaust everything on one person, because it is a gamble that may lose everything.Many people don't participate because they can't afford to lose. So from the very beginning, I was cautious, wandering around, and trembling with fear.It is really not easy to have a peaceful and natural start, and to be happy with each other, so we should cherish it all the more. An Yang sent her downstairs, and didn't act too intimately with her abruptly, but just hugged her lightly, she looked at his serious eyes under the street lamp, and said to him and herself: "I I will work hard too." He stroked her head with a smile. Ask her in a pretendingly deep voice: "Vivi, you don't mind if I'm 3 years older than you?" Shen Wei just burst out laughing. So let's start reshaping with a happy mood, although he has already walked in front of her, and she has just started. The new romance is going well. They have a lot of topics in common, live in a foreign country together, and An Yang is very active, the two often go out and play together, and the days always feel that they pass quickly. This day, Shen Wei came out of the bathroom to brush her teeth, but saw the signal lights of the mobile phones left on the bed flashing alternately. She had already turned off the sound before washing up. She lay down on the bed and didn't look at the screen, thinking it was An Yang calling again. But he heard the voice that hadn't appeared for a long time. "Weiwei, at this time, you should be going to bed soon, right?" There was a faint pain in her temple, "Zhang Xiangbei, what do you want?" The other party was silent for a while. She thought her distant tone made him back off, made him realize that it was a mistake to make the call. I wanted to press the phone, but I heard a sigh from him, "I'm downstairs at your house." Her brain exploded like sparks. She cut off the phone abruptly, biting her fingers unconsciously, thinking of something, and quickly came to the window sill, with the dull sliding sound of the curtains being drawn, she saw the familiar figure under the street lamp . Obviously gave up completely. Obviously she has decided to restart her life. But why is he still like this... Doesn't he know that, relying on her love for him, if she betrays him once, it will be beyond redemption, or if he completely forgets about the betrayal, he can justifiably chase him here, with the attitude of an infatuated person? Or, was he repeatedly rejected by her, which aroused his fighting spirit? She has no way of knowing this. She instinctively wanted to escape. But the cold glass was pressed against her back, which made her wake up suddenly. Can't escape. No matter in the past, present, or future, she has no reason to escape, why should she escape? If she continues to escape, then what is the difference between her and the one who left in a hurry? She finally stood in front of him. Putting on a windbreaker casually, looking at him in only a single coat, he still couldn't bear it in his heart, "Come with me." "Where are you going?" "There is a 24-hour coffee bar nearby, let's go there and chat." His originally eager eyes dimmed instantly after hearing her say this. Seeing his expression of disappointment, she knew that his heart must be churning. Her true thoughts also blurted out, "I already have a boyfriend. It would be irresponsible to him to bring you home so late. After all, we were together once." "Boyfriend... Although I can't remember what happened before, I know I must be wrong. Weiwei, why didn't you even give me a chance? You also forget those unpleasant things, and we can still start over again. It started, like... a new starting point." His hand was already holding her arm, so tight. She still couldn't be calm in her heart, and seeing his flustered and expectant expression, she felt a faint pain in her chest, "Zhang Xiangbei, it doesn't matter who is right and who is wrong. The important thing is that we are not together anymore. It's as simple as that .” She thought in her heart: "It's so cruel." It was cruel to still see him.Still can't forget those times, it's cruel.It is cruel to still be forced by him to look back at the past. Zhang Xiangbei turned her body and stared straight into her eyes, "Weiwei, you hate me that much?" She grinned suddenly, and looked at him squarely, "I don't hate anymore, not because I have a big heart, but because you are no longer important." His shoulders collapsed in such a dejected way. She turned her eyes away and didn't look. The night wind blows on the face, coldly mixed with light raindrops, it hits the face coolly, and cools down to the heart. "Weiwei, then, goodbye." She looked back at him with trembling lips, nodded and said goodbye. In fact, sometimes people are like this, even if they have vowed to each other, they will pretend that they don't even read a little bit of affection. But isn't it all true? Only the struggle and pain in my heart told myself. Why do we need to meet? Why talk about starting over. The only thing you can't choose and start over is life.The only thing that cannot be abandoned is love.Abandoned, how to start again? That night she fell asleep in a daze. In the dream, there was An Yang's caring face, Xiang Bei's slumped face, and her own crying. When she woke up, An Yang had already gone upstairs. She rumpled her messy hair and opened the door. An Yang held up the thermal bucket and the small woven picnic basket in her hand. "Weiwei lazy cat, I brought you breakfast! Hey, why are your eyes so red?" When he entered the room and put down the things in his hand, he cupped her face in panic, "Weiwei, what's wrong?" She rubbed her eyes. Pointing at the things he brought, he grinned and dispelled the heat in his eyes, "Besides my mother, you are the only one who makes breakfast for me." She is telling the truth. After dinner, she went out with him. The rain outside is sporadic, not very heavy. An Yang muttered: "I just stopped for a while, Weiwei, wait a moment, I'll get you an umbrella in the car." "It's raining..." But An Yang's tall back was running fast. She stood under the eaves blankly, looking at his back, her nose sore. An Yang, even though they are already together, she still seems to be far from doing well enough, far inferior to his thoughtfulness and dedication to her. When he arrived at the destination that day, the rain was over and the sky was clear. He took a SLR to take pictures of her, and she squatted on the ground in a daze to watch the ants move. The bustling tiny creatures were very busy. But she didn't have enough concentration to finish it, so she stood up in a hurry, and dragged An Yang to another scene. Anyang wanted to see it very much. With a childlike expression, he said to Shen Wei: "Oh, why don't you have any patience at all? It's very interesting to watch the ants move. When I was young, I could squat until it was dark. Let's watch it for a while before leaving." After listening to An Yang's words, Shen Wei squatted down, but her mind became clear. Looking at the figure of the little ant, she couldn't help laughing at An Yang: "An Yang, tell me, is it because we are older that we do it? Nothing is so patient, because I don't believe in miracles, I don't believe that good results will wait there, but when we were young, we were so patient in doing one thing, watching crickets fight, watching ants move, and even folding A piece of lotus leaf blocks the drizzle for the ants, and it doesn’t matter if you get wet, you just wait patiently for the ants to return to their nests, with only one thing in your mind, so the wait is not long at all.” Seeing that she was lost in thought, An Yang patted her on the head, "The things you think in your little head are quite meaningful. When you were a child, it was easy to cling to ordinary things because it was simple. The adult world is easy because it is complicated." Give up what is most precious." Both of them were tired from squatting and stood up. An Yang hugged her. She looked back at the tiny ants that could no longer be seen, and showed a bright smile to An Yang, "I was thinking, if I make you wait any longer How many years have I been, do you still have patience?" An Yang looked at her, with a gentle smile on his lips, "Waiting for a few years is not important, the important thing is to believe that person, no matter which way, will come to me." Seeing her bowing her head and not speaking, he turned to look at her, "You still want to test me for a few more years, don't you?" Either way, you will come to your side... Shen Wei felt that the softest part of her heart was touched, at this moment, in this fragrant sunshine. Zhang Xiangbei was sitting in the waiting room, surrounded by mostly Chinese, and he came back so soon. From the moment he said goodbye to her yesterday. Only then did I really understand what she said: "You love yourself." He used to justify his actions, no, he loved her, it was her, how could it be himself, he put so much effort into acting, wasn't it still for loving her? But, he can no longer justify it now, he is indeed a selfish person who only loves himself, in order to regain the beautiful her, in order to wash away the haze of regret, he would rather fabricate a lie and perform a farce that is now seen, He did lose a small part of his memory, but not the scenes involving him and her.But he just pretended to lose all his memories of being with her. It's all a self-directed hoax, isn't it? Just to completely erase that terrible memory. Just to let them start again with a new starting point. Just to create a flawless opportunity to have her again. But he selfishly thought that if he erased it, could she turn back?Wrong is wrong, he chose to cheat so hypocritically, only to get salvation for his soul, and then hold hands with her again. How can there be such a good thing in the world? He, Zhang Xiangbei, overestimated his own charm and underestimated the extent of the damage she suffered. If I knew today, why bother? If I knew I would regret it, why give up? love…… He shook his head wryly. That is a wrong step, and it may be a chess game where all the games are lost. It was a gorgeous silk that could never be mended once it was torn. It was a white garment that had blemishes and could never be washed off and was completely discarded. He remembered his mother's phrase "cherishing the person in front of you is more important than any beautiful scene". How did he understand at that time. To preach to him, it is better to let him walk on the tip of the knife once, and he will know the truth of life after being hurt. It's a pity that it's too late to understand. Many times, the most important person in this life is right in front of you, but you search for it like a headless chicken all over the world.How can a person stop and keep happiness instead of tossing about indiscriminately?Whether we are young, grown-up, or middle-aged, we are the biggest fools if we don't see what's in front of us. In this world, the person who is most important to you, often, fate gives you a lucky chance to seize, only once.Just once.