Chapter 4 Chapter 2 The Forgotten Vivian

In the twelfth lunar month of winter, the sky was gloomy, the air was cold and dry, and Shen Wei shivered as soon as she got off the taxi in thin clothes. She shrank her hands into her sleeves, and the person passing by her muttered: "It's really cold, I'm afraid it will snow today." Another weak voice echoed: "Isn't it?" The voice was getting farther and farther away, and it was hard to hear clearly. Shen Wei sniffed, and the air she exhaled immediately turned into a white mist, and she laughed at herself. She hasn't been back for a long time. Maybe she can see the snow scene in her hometown. .

Thinking of this, she walked faster unconsciously. There were very few people in front of the hospital, but there was a long queue at the toll office in the lobby. Most of the people in the queue were dressed in gray and looked blank.Shen Wei, who was wearing a bright orange windbreaker, looked very eye-catching as soon as she entered. In the city's boastful words, she was very Western-style. Shen Wei was a little surprised that she walked in without the slightest hesitation. She even thought about it on the plane, what if she regretted it when she got to the hospital gate, and Shen Wei had always been unable to do the matter of running away. , It can be seen how many times she has struggled in her heart when she came back this time.

But she still didn't stop and went straight to the third floor of the inpatient department. In the long aisle, the nurses who came and went hurriedly walked, but they couldn't help but glance at her. At this moment, her heart suddenly tugged. , that person is close at hand, he must be pale and haggard, seeing her coming, his eyes are full of surprise, shame, sadness, or... Shen Wei's palms gradually became moist, but the corners of her mouth suddenly bent upwards, and she sighed in her heart: "Shen Wei, Shen Wei, you are such a fool, the number one fool in the world."

Shen Wei subconsciously brushed the broken hair around her ears, her feet fluttered towards the ward as if she had been stripped of her body, and it seemed that she had already seen the familiar but unfamiliar pale face in front of her, but when she walked to the door of the ward, she was greeted by The scene froze. Zhang Xiangbei was half lying on the hospital bed wearing a blue and white striped hospital gown, and was chatting with the patient in the same room with great interest. Come on, those long eyes just stared straight at her like this, the emotions she wanted to detect from these eyes didn't even have the most basic trace of surprise, before she could react, just Seeing him turn his head away, he said to his roommate in a relaxed and normal tone: "Looking for you?"

Those three words were like a heavy hammer hitting her heart fiercely. The wounded heart had not yet healed, but now it was smashed to a pulp. She just left in embarrassment with her luggage. "Comrade Zhang Xiangbei, in order for me to successfully break into the foreigner's interior and learn from the barbarian's skills to control the barbarian, you old man can use your big brain and give me the whole English name?" "Vivian." "Vivienne...you usually call me Weiwei, but in the end you asked me to give me a foreigner name, so you just add the word 'an' to me. You're too easy of trouble, and you want to get rid of it as soon as you roll your little eyes. me."

"Isn't it good? I think it sounds good. It sounds very ladylike." "Look at your uncouth appearance, as if you have never seen a lady before." On that midsummer afternoon, her giggling seemed to never stop. She wandered wantonly in the steaming green grass, and the students passing by couldn't help but glance at her. With fine beads of sweat, he whispered to the heartless her: "Pay attention to your image, others are watching." She always remembered his appearance at that time clearly, like a little daughter-in-law who swallowed her anger.She has always been an extremely contented person, and she doesn't require her significant other to be outstanding, as long as she can tolerate her madness.

The youth was so beautiful, the pair of young lovers seemed to live in another world, and now she can still easily see that world that only belongs to them, and he has completely forgotten it. Shen Wei felt hot air floating in her eyes, but she inadvertently let out a snort in her throat, this world is really unfair. On this day, Shen Wei had to accept the reality that she became the forgotten Vivian. "Pituitary gland tumors, some patients will experience short-term loss of memory fragments. At present, the tumor has expanded to the hypothalamus, and if it spreads further, it will affect vision. Therefore, surgical resection of the tumor is necessary. Before the operation, pay attention to light diet and avoid spicy food Raw and cold food, avoid smoking and drinking. Please also pay attention to family members.”

These words were all explained to her by an assistant doctor. The chief surgeon, Dr. Jiang, simply observed and asked questions, with a calm voice and very few words. This was the first time Shen Wei saw Jiang Zimo. He was slender, with a fair face, neat black hair, and well-dressed. Under the white coat was a dark blue cashmere cardigan, a white shirt, black and white tie, black Trousers.The four people behind him seemed to be surrounded by him and walked in, Shen Wei inexplicably thought of the four words "extraordinary elegance" in her mind at that time. That's right, for a man who is already clear and handsome, and puts on a handsome white coat, anyone will think of such words reflexively.

The only thing she doubted was his age and aptitude. Also, when I heard this name for the first time, the weak spark that appeared in my mind suddenly burst into flames, and then quickly disappeared in a mass of bad memories. She didn't have time to think about it, so Zhang Qiluo dragged her out, saying that she wanted to consult an old Chinese doctor about postoperative nutritional recipes.That day when she fled the ward in embarrassment, she was met by Zhang Qiluo. She met her once, but treated her like family. During the years she was wandering abroad, few people remembered her birthday, but Zhang Qiluo would remember to give it to her every year. She called, earlier than her parents did, and had done so for years.

Even though she and Zhang Xiangbei broke up badly back then, she always remembered his mother's kindness. "I don't have a daughter. If I can't be a daughter-in-law, I can be my daughter. I really like you little girl." Shen Wei has never doubted the sincerity of this love, but people are selfish and contradictory after all, the scene of Zhang Qiluo calling her that day seems to be still in front of her eyes. That was the first time she heard a mother's begging. Shen Wei's mind was blank when she first heard the word "brain tumor". Seeing that she hadn't answered for a long time, Zhang Qiluo begged her with sobs: "Xiaobei really wants to see you. I'm sorry for the wrong things he did before, Weiwei, come back and visit him, just for my sake."

When she came back to her senses, she was already cramped. The hand holding the phone seemed to be numb. Her sharp fingernails scraped vigorously at the phone. At the bottom of her heart, she pursed her lips tightly and lowered her eyes. Once she was not desperate for Zhang Xiangbei, such a fiery feeling could not be resolved in her small heart, she was just hopeless peacefully, and that to her That's the scariest thing. She opened her mouth to say what kind of status am I going to be now?Back then, he said so harshly that he would never communicate with each other until death. She didn't say it.She knew in her heart that even if she said it out, Zhang Qiluo would have some pleading words to catch her.After all she was a poor mother now without any pretense. Shen Wei finally agreed, but she kept looking for a way out for herself. In fact, she could have enough reasons not to come, but she has clearly come here. After getting off the plane, she first called her friend An Ning. The phone was very noisy, as if she was in a performance venue, and the sound was a bit deafening. She almost shouted at An Ning: "I'm back in China, I'll go back in a few days Looking for you!" An Ning ran all the way to the bathroom with her hands on the microphone, her voice was high-pitched, "You're really back, the heartless man deserves to be punished, what kind of mercy is your old man, is it possible that you still want to come back and perform twenty-four filial piety for him? " At that time, she actually replied casually: "Buying and selling cannot be done with benevolence and righteousness." An Ning spat at her angrily: "How about benevolence and righteousness? Why didn't he think of benevolence and righteousness when he was a mistress? What kind of benevolence and righteousness do you have for this kind of wolf?" Shen Wei was held hands affectionately by Zhang Qiluo, but in her heart she repeated the words that seemed to be the most appropriate for the occasion with a wry smile: "Buying and selling can't be done with benevolence and righteousness." Over the years, the pain has gradually eased over time, but when she thinks of that scene back then, her hands still tremble uncontrollably, like the sequelae of that accident. In a relationship, nothing is happier than having it, and nothing is more painful than losing it. The reality seemed to be laughing at her, so it created such a funny amnesia, she clearly remembered every episode of their together, but he erased all the memories about her, he remembered other people, but alone Forgot her purposefully, this illness seemed to be redeeming him, but it was teasing her. That day Zhang Xiangbei asked her with a smile on his face, "Are you really my girlfriend?" She replied calmly: "No, it used to be." Zhang Xiangbei showed a puzzled look on his face, "But my mother told me that you are my girlfriend." Zhang Qiluo just came in, Shen Wei turned around and said politely to Zhang Qiluo: "Auntie, please explain for me, I'll go out first." Zhang Qiluo's expression was very unnatural. From the very beginning, Shen Wei should have known in her heart that to Zhang Qiluo, she was just a useful outsider, but she didn't understand why she had to do this. "Why did we break up? I want to hear the truth." In the evening, when she was about to leave, Zhang Xiangbei, who had been reticent for the past two days, suddenly asked her back. She turned her head, stared at his serious black eyes, and just smiled slightly, "Since I have forgotten it, don't lies and truths sound the same? I don't want to say such meaningless things." After saying this, her brows and eyes were all smiling. But Zhang Xiangbei's eyes drooped quickly, his face was bloodless under the pale light of the hospital, his dry lips moved, and his voice was soft but clear, "Actually, I like you very much, really. of." He said it so carefully, she stared at his face, her voice was so calm, "You only like yourself." The street where we broke up back then rushed to her eyes like a dark road. He was wearing a black coat, leaning against the corner with his head down, smoking a cigarette, and frowning. She hated his decadent and evasive appearance. , grabbed the cigarette in his hand, and stomped on it with her foot. At that time, she hated herself for not stepping on the hot cigarette butt with bare feet, so maybe her heart would not hurt so much. Seeing couples who parted ways before studying abroad, he seemed to want to give her some sense of security. Before going abroad, he joked that as long as she didn't hook up with foreigners, he would run a house for her. Such a thin-skinned person who can't speak, made her cry at the airport. Now that I think about it, he is not a master. Promising a family and expressing more emotionally is better than all the sweet words in the world. Exotic love is very hard. After being separated for too long, the reunion will be too sweet, and these short-term sweetness will only make it more sad when waving goodbye at the airport. Every time I look back at him, he stands there, motionless Looking at her intently, she told herself not to look back, but she still couldn't help but look back frequently until she could no longer see that familiar figure, and then sat alone in the waiting room with a sore throat. Too many people around her did not persist in such a long-distance relationship, and left one after another. She firmly believed that they would make it to the end. Everyone thinks that they will be an exception, but the reality is not. She witnessed him holding the hand of a strange girl, and the girl leaned on his shoulder intimately, and the smiles of the two were sweet and bright under the sun.And with a tired face, she stood blankly under the linden tree by the roadside, her hand holding the suitcase shook like a fool, her heart hurt as if it had been severely torn apart, and she sat down I have been on the plane for more than ten hours, just to see him, just to see him. He kept staring at the cigarette butt that she had crushed on the ground, without looking at her from the beginning to the end, and just whispered: "I'm sorry." She yelled back, her voice hoarse, "You told me you loved me last night, is this your bullshit love?" He looked up at her, his brows furrowed even more heavily, "I didn't lie to you, it's just..." She answered him and sneered, "Lonely? Don't tell me you're just physically cheating." He looked at the smile at the corner of her mouth, as if he mustered up the courage to say: "Maybe we are not suitable to be together anymore." Before she finished speaking, she laughed so hard that tears were about to flow. Passers-by must have thought she was crazy when they saw her like this. She reached out her hand and wanted to slap him hard, but in the end she couldn't do it. She was so sad , looking straight into his eyes and said: "When you are in love, everything is suitable. If you are not in love, you can open your eyes and say it is not suitable. You are just making excuses for yourself to change your mind! Zhang Xiangbei, from today, We have never been in touch with each other, now you get out of this street for me! Get out!" He didn't hold back, didn't argue, and didn't even show a trace of helplessness. He just turned around quickly and walked west quickly. She wiped away the disappointing tears on her face and ran to the east, never turning back, and there would never be such a person standing behind her like a sculpture, watching her go. no more. At that moment, she understood that if you talk about love, you must endure the fleeting time and distance, otherwise it will be just the sudden gorgeous fireworks in the sky, leaving nothing but short-lived beauty. Youth, first love, the promised home, all dissipated. Shen Wei picked up a black cowhide wallet in the hospital restaurant, square, without fancy patterns or dark lines, so simple that it didn't even have a label.At that time, it was more than 3 o'clock in the afternoon, and it was no longer lunch time. The restaurant was empty, and the chef wearing a mask in the cafeteria asked her with a big spoon: "What do you want to eat?" She stared at the food that might still be hot, and thought to herself, since she doesn't have a good appetite, she shouldn't eat these leftovers, but the master thought she wasn't sure what she wanted to eat, so he enthusiastically recommended: " Today’s kidney bean buns are pretty good, would you like two, they’re still hot.” She came to her senses, feeling a little embarrassed, and thought she should eat two bites, "Then a kidney bean bun and a tomato scrambled egg." Holding the tray, she turned around, walked in, found a seat against the wall and sat down. The scrambled eggs with tomatoes were slightly cold, and the kidney bean buns were still warm. Shen Wei took two bites and felt a little tasteless. She just moved her foot slightly, feeling like she was stepping on something. She put down the bun in her hand, lowered her head, her feet had already been retracted, and a black wallet came into view. She bent over to pick it up, patted the ashes on the wallet, and the wallet fell lightly and thinly in her hand, turned it back and forth, thinking in her heart, such a simple style should belong to a man.Opening the wallet, wondering if he could find something like an ID card, he opened the folded wallet lightly, but saw a photo of a girl at a glance. This is a fairly standard ID photo. The girl has short hair, cheeks with baby fat that are unique to girls, a white shirt collar, and a blue lady's short tie. It looks like a student uniform.The corners of the girl's mouth were raised slightly, and that kind of smile gave the ordinary facial features a burst of vitality. Shen Wei suddenly stared at the girl's sunny smiling face in the photo without moving, and a scene quickly flashed in her mind. There was someone in the scene. Talking and laughing, blurred like a cloud of white mist, only swaying figures and ethereal voices, that feeling is very familiar, but too far away to be touched.She couldn't help frowning slightly, as if she couldn't capture the sudden memory picture anymore. Her head was about to hurt from thinking about it, her temples throbbed, she lowered her head and pressed hard, did her memory begin to decline, or was she hallucinating? But this girl, she stared at the smiling face sunk into time, her eyelashes fluttered rapidly, her subconscious told herself that she must have seen this face before. The buns have already cooled down. As if entering a foggy situation, Shen Wei's doubts, curiosity, and confusion all surged up. Who would be the owner of this wallet?Will it give her a vaguely familiar feeling like this girl, or will it let her get the answer all at once? She found the ID card as she wished, but the handsome face on the ID card made her more confused. She murmured the name: "Jiang Zimo, Jiang Zimo..." She thought of the scene when she went downstairs and met Dr. Jiang at the elevator door just now. An elderly male doctor was talking to him. He was listening attentively, but his expression was indifferent.Maybe he was born with such an indifferent appearance, giving people the impression that he is always silent and introverted, even a little cold. Such a person always gives people a sense of distance, at least it seems that he really does not seem to be a student who treats a girl What about the photos posted in the wallet? Shen Wei handed the wallet to Jiang Zimo, in return for a polite smile and thank you, Shen Wei is not very good at dealing with such people, so she politely replied: "You're welcome, I just picked it up." There is a large sofa in the office. When she came in just now, she saw the cashmere blanket on the sofa. His face was slightly tired. Neurosurgery has always been a large project, precise and time-consuming. One operation takes six or seven. Hours are the norm. "Goodbye, you continue to rest." "goodbye." The door closed, with a soft bang sound, Shen Wei stroked her forehead, stood there for a while, and then unexpectedly opened the door behind her quickly again, Jiang Zimo did not rest on the sofa as she imagined, Instead, she was sitting at the desk with a wallet in her hand, and she could see what he was staring at at a glance. Dr. Jiang remained calm, with his hand still holding the wallet, turned his head, his dark eyes were as calm as water, as if her recklessness just now had never happened, and he only asked her: "Is there anything else?" Those eyes seemed to be able to see through her reason for coming. She obviously didn't do anything wrong, but instead stammered, "Just now... I looked at your wallet." "Ok, I know." Shen Wei's brain hadn't reacted yet, so she subconsciously let out an ah, her tone full of doubts. "Didn't you find me after seeing my ID card?" Shen Wei was ashamed in such a quiet rhetorical question, she was so stupid, as expected, she couldn't get in touch with this kind of person. "Yes... I just want to ask Dr. Jiang to confirm one thing. Do we know each other, or have we met?" Her question was very direct, and she came here with the mentality of wanting to solve the puzzle. But the other party's answer was more straightforward, "No." Shen Wei felt that her throat was extremely dry, but she still asked tentatively: "Then can you tell me who the girl in the wallet is?" When the matter developed to this point, Dr. Jiang's expression changed from calm to indifferent, and his voice became politely cold, "I'm sorry, this is my private matter." Apparently, it was the first time for Shen Wei to be interpreted as harassment. A female doctor came in and looked at her with strange eyes, Shen Wei replied angrily, "Then I won't bother you, goodbye." It was supposed to be a good thing to get money back, but it only ended up full of depression. Zhang Xiangbei's operation will be carried out the day after tomorrow. The chief surgeon is Jiang Zimo. Shen Wei has learned from many people in the past few days that Jiang Zimo's medical skills are superb. Noisy, the characteristics of his operation are extremely low morbidity rate, relatively short operation time, and high rate of total tumor resection. Shen Wei thought of her doubts at the beginning, and couldn't help but feel that she was a bit too judging by appearance.But when she came out of his office that day, she heard all kinds of gossip from the nurses about the harassment of this famous man, and she knew why the female doctor looked at her that way. Maybe she is regarded as a nympho chasing Dr. Jiang madly, right? At the same time, she also learned a fact about Jiang Zimo that day, that is, he already had a fiancee, but no one in the hospital had ever seen him. The girl's smiling face immediately appeared in Shen Wei's mind. Is it her? But who is she? Shen Wei's mind was turned upside down, she hated this familiar yet unfamiliar feeling, as if life was teasing her nerves, but she was always hovering on the edge of the facts, never getting in touch with the true nature of things. Jiang Zimo didn't know her, and she couldn't remember meeting such an outstanding person, but why she felt so familiar when she heard his name for the first time, although it happened in a flash, it was hard to get to the bottom of it. But why she remembers seeing that girl's face, but she can't figure out who it is, what her name is, and on what occasion she met it. However, these two people are overlapped and have some kind of intimate connection. Her strong curiosity and thirst for knowledge gave her a headache. It was like being in a foggy forest. She couldn't find the exit or see it. In the direction ahead, you can only stay in it and keep spinning around in place. That day when Shen Wei came out of the hospital, she went straight to Anning's new home. When Anning's husband Lin Xi saw Shen Wei coming over, he immediately picked up his coat and prepared to go out. Straight up." The corners of Lin Xi's eyes drooped, like a poor Shar Pei, complaining: "My aunt, I dare not wait to see you, it was An Ning of our family who told me to retreat as soon as I saw you, saying that I hurt you here Interested in chatting." Wearing a fluffy pink one-piece pajamas, An Ning waved at Lin Xi and said, "Hurry up, you want to spoil our sister's interest, right?" Lin Xi shook her head at Shen Wei with an expression of "you've seen it all", and while quickly putting on her shoes, she arched her head straight out of the door, as if there was a cannon bombing behind her buttocks. Shen Wei just said, " Slow down, Lin Xi, I'm sorry today." Lin Xi slammed the door shut with a bang, and due to the force, the ashes on the door slapped Shen Wei all over her face. Shen Wei wiped her face dumbfounded, and shouted at the charterer An Ning: "The door of your house is going to be built for cultural relics, isn't it? Look at the sky full of dust." However, An Ning rushed to the balcony regardless, and yelled at Lin Xi: "You have such a long face, you dare to slam the door, look back and see if you will peel your skin!" Shen Wei has long been used to An Ning's snarky skills. She looks like Wang Xifeng and Zhou Pai, but she dares to call An Ning by the name. Anyone who knows An Ning's character is ashamed of An Ning's father. An Ning said brazenly in front of a group of people: "The old man gave me such a name, which sounds like an eternal virgin. My father is educated enough." Lin Xi smiled foolishly with her white teeth shining.The two got married and fought back and forth, but they still lived like two children fighting and fighting.Maybe An Ning's personality needs to be matched with such a person. Shen Wei is very envious of this kind of life, she is simply a crazy version of a fairy couple.She used to think that she and Zhang Xiangbei would also live such a happy little life, but only she could enjoy happiness, but she never thought that she had the right life but the wrong partner. When An Ning got married, Lin Xi swore an oath in front of everyone: "I, Lin Xi, swear today that I will hang myself on this beautiful little tree, An Ning, for the rest of my life, and I will never regret it!" Shen Wei still remembered that Lin Xi's mother was sitting next to her at that time, muttering in her mouth: "This poor child, on a happy day, you can say whether you will die or not, and you don't have to keep your mouth shut. It really doesn't matter!" An Ning didn't care, just hooked her elbow, and kissed Lin Xi hard on the mouth. All the young boys screamed, and applause and whistles filled the sky. Lin Xi's mother couldn't take it anymore, and she patted her heart, "Oh, hey, these two poor children are really... really not embarrassing." At that time, Shen Wei comforted Lin Xi's mother, who was like Tang Seng, "Auntie, how can this be shameful, it is called being brave to love, and it is called having personality. Ordinary people really only have envy!" Only then did Lin Xi's mother stop complaining, and kept saying, "Really, it looks like I'm getting old! However, the young people these days are really capable of tossing around." Shen Wei was still immersed in that extraordinarily noisy wedding, hanging from a tree, why not the most dedicated gesture? "This man, when you love you, you are cute, lively, and have personality when you are crazy. If you don't love you, you will immediately think that you are Mei Chaofeng with disheveled hair and teeth and claws." An Ning poured a cup of milk tea into Shen Wei's hands, and continued to mutter non-stop: "So I said that Zhang Xiangbei is a big carrot, the love in his mouth is only a few years old, look at our parents Don't they all live a good life, love has a deadline, that is irresponsible and playing hooligans. If you are soft-hearted and come to serve him, I really admire you. " "I didn't take care of him much. I just stayed on the side like a fool. It was all because of his mother's busy schedule." Seeing that An Ning was about to mutter again, Shen Wei quickly added: "He has surgery the day after tomorrow, I'll go back after it's over." "Weiwei, it's good if you figure it out, he's not worth looking back over and over again. Find someone new, there are a lot of good men in the world." Shen Wei is quite thankful that her friend can say these words, there are still many good men in the world, which proves that An Ning has never suffered from a man. If it were a woman who encountered the same situation as her Shen Wei, she would probably shout out that sentence with an angry expression and without knowing it: "There is no man in this world who is a good thing." So happy and unlucky women look at men in completely opposite ways.One believed, one never believed again. Shen Wei was a little impatient, waved her hand, and changed the subject, "By the way, do you know Dr. Jiang Zimo from the Department of Neurosurgery at the Affiliated Hospital of Jiang University? Or have you heard of it?" An Ning nodded, "I've heard of it, isn't it the doctor who performed brain tumor surgery on that famous singer a while ago? It was reported in newspapers and on TV. My mother also said that this person had surgery at a young age. The surgery is definitely unreliable, but there are so many people, the singer's vocal cords were not damaged at all, and he recovered very quickly, and the news said that he would come back for a concert soon." Shen Wei shook An Ning's big head, "Hey, An Ning, it's not easy for you to memorize so many things!" An Ning smiled extraordinarily happily, "Nonsense, handsome guy can't remember, can I still be called An Ning?" After speaking, she rolled her eyes, "Oh, my Miss Wei Wei, don't rush to prick me, You ask what this person is doing, and say, what is the plan!" Shen Wei waved An Ning's hand away, "What intention? He is Zhang Xiangbei's attending doctor." An Ning immediately jumped up from the sofa excitedly, with an expression like a little mouse stealing rice, "Huh? You're quite capable, find such a good doctor, let's meet in private, and if you don't tell the truth, it must be with Zhang Xiang Compared with Bei Yi, it’s obviously too good to be true, sister, if you want to be interesting, just say it, don’t pretend to be a mimosa with my sister, haha!” Shen Wei rolled her eyes at An Ning, "Kill me, Ji Ji is so whimsical, it's true that he looks good and has great medical skills, but thinking of him opening people's heads all day long, even my little desires are gone, don't you understand? Understand?" "If it's a female neurosurgery doctor, according to what you say, no man will want it. When you think of opening someone's head, all men will be impotent?" Shen Wei laughed so hard, "No, I think Jiang Zimo's name is very familiar to me, but I can't remember it, but I'm sure I've never seen such a person. It's fine if they have the same name and surname. The point is, I I picked up his wallet, and there is a picture of a girl in the wallet, I must have seen that girl, but I can't remember who it is, my mind is like a pot of porridge." "Returning the porridge, you are really blind to that pot of porridge, I think you are a pile of rotten paste, what kind of brains are you? This is none of your business, such an adult, you are playing detective novels, usually look at that Conan Forget it, you don't care who he is, who can pat his chest to ensure that he can't forget it, I think you are very curious, or you are jealous of that girl, if you want to chase Dr. Jiang, just say so." Shen Wei got a headache from An Ning's crackling words, so she hurriedly stopped, "Don't, don't! Can you not pour dirty water on me as soon as you hear a male?" "You just lack the instinct that a female animal should have. If you like that Dr. Jiang, I will kill him tomorrow to help you." Shen Wei drooped her head speechlessly, begging for mercy: "I'm not interested in that kind of iceberg man, I swear!" An Ning's face was as solemn as if he was going to send a funeral, as if he was going to send a funeral, and sat down next to Shen Wei, his voice changed from sharp to low, "Vivi, tell me the truth, do you still love Zhang Xiangbei? ?” Shen Wei smiled, "I feel uncomfortable when you are serious." That smile didn't hold on tenaciously for too long, and it collapsed like a landslide. At first, Shen Wei just felt as if a very sour orange was stuffed in her mouth, and the sourness reached her throat. After a while, the sourness reached her eyes, esophagus In, and in my heart.Until his face was so sour that hot tears covered his face, he just lay on An Ning's shoulder and cried, "Why, why can't I forget, but he can forget everything so easily, why should I be the only one to remember? " She can't deceive herself in her heart, everything can't be broken into pieces, she has held it so deeply, even if she wants to bury him, she has to find a piece of wet land, longing for rain and sunshine, longing for the miracle of the vanished energy Like breaking out of the ground, even if a small green shoot is exposed, it means that the earth has rejuvenated and life has been revived. Loved, how can I be willing to end like this, although the rest is already in front of me.Maybe it's not loving myself enough, loving a person who has been lost, so I have to torture myself with past affection over and over again. She thought of Jiang Zimo's focused and serious eyes looking at the photo. She might have retrieved the most precious thing for him, even though it might just be a lost item. So what about her lost property, even if it is still precious when you think about it now, what is the point?