Chapter 28 twenty years

In the dream, she was still the same as when I first met her, walking in a hurry, holding a lot of textbooks in her hands, and walking out of the library wearing a red and white checkered school uniform. She walked quickly, but suddenly raised her head, half a dozen Hiding his face behind the textbook, he glanced at me quietly and carefully. Last night, I dreamed about Xu Zhen again. In the dream, she was still the same as when I first met her, walking in a hurry, holding a lot of textbooks in her hands, and walking out of the library wearing a red and white checkered school uniform. She walked quickly, but suddenly raised her head, half a dozen Hiding his face behind the textbook, he glanced at me quietly and carefully.

It was that look that woke me up. I haven't seen her for many years, and naturally I haven't dreamed of her. I've heard that when everyone is old, they like to look back and remember the best things in life.But I am in my prime, how can I keep recalling the past like an old man? I put on my clothes and got out of bed.Open the curtains, the morning light outside the window, the birds on the tree are singing and singing as usual.The servants were up and busy in the garden.The golden sunlight overflowed like flowing water, covering every corner of the room. At seven o'clock sharp, I went downstairs to have breakfast.

For more than ten years, I have trained myself to be a regular person. I used to laugh at my dad and brother's strict schedule back then, and I'm the same person now.It's not obsessive-compulsive disorder, it's just that there are too many things every day, and the most efficient way is to arrange the time accurately to the minute. As usual, the breakfast is light, and the news scrolls across the large TV screen across the table. Zhang Fei entered the room and reported to me about the day's work. After reporting, she hesitated for a moment, instead of leaving as usual, she went to the car to wait for me.

She was so indecisive, usually so efficient, that I looked up at her. "Director Lin," she said, "there is one thing..." "how?" She looked at me, and finally said: "Miss Xu Zhen will return to China tomorrow." At that moment, I suddenly remembered the dream of last night, and couldn't help but think: So, that dream should be today. When I met Xu Zhen, I was still in high school. Many people think that middle school is the most important years of a person's life, but for me, it's nothing more than that.After five years of being on campus, I thought nothing surprising would happen in my life.Who would have thought that she would know Xu Zhen.

My initial impression of Xu Zhen has faded, and I can't remember when I saw her for the first time.After so many years of thinking about it many times, I couldn't think of the reason. Later, when I asked her tentatively, she just laughed and didn't answer me. The impression she gave me was like a painting, rendered layer by layer. At first it was a blank sheet of paper, on which someone held a charcoal pencil and randomly sketched a few strokes, which was a meager and light image.Afterwards, the line was drawn with a stroke of a pen, and the color gradually deepened. The thin color was dried, and the color was repainted. The picture looked radiant in the sun.

In my memory, she is different from other girls in the school. Whenever she is crystal clear, she is like a clear stream in the campus.It was only later that I learned that Knife had been traveling around the world with her father on archaeological excavations before she was in high school—no wonder she didn’t have a sense of worldliness. Many people find it difficult to wash off the urban atmosphere after practicing for a lifetime, but her life experience is the opposite. I don't want to provoke her, I just nod slightly every time I see her. But when she faces me, she always blush. Of course I know her little thoughts.I studied etiquette courses since I was a child, and I have excellent intuition about better understanding people's minds from body movements and subtleties, so I have always been very accurate in judging people.The thing is clear at a glance, she is a girl who has just begun to fall in love, and I am a particularly suitable object for fantasy.

There are a lot of girls who like me, and I'm not actually proud of it.Most of the girls' love for me was born from my family background and glamorous appearance, supplemented by their imagination-thus producing the emotion called liking.It was like a gust of wind when it came, and it was like a gust of wind when it went. At that time, I was very serious, but then I completely forgot about it. I can't control other people's feelings, but I never thought she would confess to me. There are many girls who like me, but not many have the courage to come to me and confess to me.

From this point of view, she is very brave. It may be the life of exploring the wild with her father that gave her fearless courage. The opposite sex who has a close relationship with me, whether it is a girl or a woman, most of them have outstanding family backgrounds, have interests with my family, and speak straightforwardly, and speak directly if they have the intention, and will not play such a small confession game; and more The opposite sex thinks I am unattainable.I know how I look to ordinary people—well-mannered, educated, and noble at the same time. When she lowered her head and gently said to me, "Dating with me", her crystal face was blushing, but her voice was clear and her eyes were firm.

I smile. remarkably brave. Every day at half past seven, I go out on time. Before getting into the car, there was an accident. The nanny came out of the house and called me cautiously, "Mr. Lin, Lin Yueshao refuses to go downstairs to eat or go to class. He is making a big fuss." My face sank, the older he gets, the more arrogant and self-willed he will be, and if he doesn't satisfy a single request, he will turn the family upside down.Exactly the same as his mother in how to play his temper. "Then let him go." After I got in the car, I read the documents in the car, giving instructions one by one.Zhang Fei took the document I signed and reported to me today's affairs and the people who must meet.There are four assistants in total, and Zhang Fei is the most courageous one. She is very good at coordinating time, her brain is like a machine, and she remembers everything clearly.

After my father retired, my elder brother and I were in charge. My elder brother took over overseas business and focused on expansion, while I was in charge of domestic companies and investment affairs.I want to seize every minute and every second to do things. Time is never enough, and the only thing money and power can't buy is time. I arrived at the office on time for today's business.At nine o'clock, the assistant knocked on the door and whispered, "Mr. Lin, you can go to the hospital." While I firmly believe that I am in good health, I do a full physical at Esther Medical Center every year.Esther Medical Center not only has Lin's investment, but also a large amount of Lin's donation for cancer research every year.

It was a routine inspection, but something happened when he was about to leave.Dean Fang, who has cooperated with me for many years, called me to her office and told me solemnly: "Mr. Lin, we want to do another re-examination." The corners of my eyes sank, and I let out a "hmm". The dean took the X-ray and spread it out on the table, "We found that there is a small shadow in your lung." At that moment, I suddenly thought whether it is necessary to change the will. Although I rejected Xu Zhen, I never thought of getting into a stalemate with her. The pool party that night was nothing more than nonsense. My mother died young, and my father was devoted to his career, flying around the world, dealing with politicians, businessmen, and all kinds of people; my eldest brother was studying abroad, and the people closest to me were not by my side.Most of the relatives, friends and classmates around me have plans. But I don't hate this kind of hypocrisy, the way things are in the world. In this world, there is no better investment than people. Among those who fawn on you, there may not be no wise people; among those who are humble and humble, there may not be no doers; among those who are extravagant and dissipated, there may not be no adventurers.Having a group of people who are loyal to you is the foundation; people who can be on an equal footing with you are even more necessary to make friends with. It is impossible for a single-handed person to survive in this society, no matter how strong you are. Society is a network, and interpersonal relationships are even more a network.Economics, politics, culture... All kinds of relationships are intertwined and dense like a giant net. Using each other, mutual benefit, and a balance can maintain the Lin family's power undefeated. I, like everyone in the Lin family, entered a noble middle school, and I needed to have my own social circle.It's up to money and charisma to suggest it. Reading is an interesting thing for me. I can't say I like studying very much, but I do like to see my scores are far ahead and come out on top.The pride of the Lin family is also reflected here. Test scores in school are never everything, but only if they are perfect, then others will listen to him. All A’s on the report card are the perfect answer to a proof question—excellent mind, meticulous thinking, and extraordinary learning ability. The simple and easy way is to let them see that you are much better than them in terms of learning ability. The people in the circle are all from famous families, and if they own too much, it is inevitable that they will be extravagant and dissipated.In the empty teenage years, when there is nothing to do, it is inevitable to make something out of nothing. I don't need enemies, I need collaborators, and I don't mind messing around with them at all, it's fun. Under the catalysis of alcohol and drugs, everyone reveals their true colors. Good wine, good sex, good gambling and good money, everyone has their weaknesses. If you see clearly at this time, it will be much easier to control them in the future. This is not a major event, but in Xu Zhen's eyes, it looks like the sky is falling. She actually started to fight me.In today's society, any sensible person would know how to retreat in spite of difficulties, but she couldn't learn it.In my eyes, her behavior is no different from a fly shaking a tree, but I find it interesting.The feeling of hatred has always been born with love, the more she hates me and annoys me, the deeper her feelings for me will be. I slightly instigated someone to deal with her. She is indomitable. If the locker is stolen, put two locks on it; if the homework book is torn off, make a new one.Sometimes when I met her on the road, she would stare at me angrily, as if she would rush up and bite me in the next second. I really think she's interesting now. On the way back, I was silent. Many conditions may cause shadows in the lungs, but the location and character of the shadows are critical. Unfortunately, I encountered the worst kind.The doctor said conservatively that a biopsy was needed to find out what that shadow was and tried to tell me that I'd better get a retest as soon as possible, she said it would be this afternoon if needed. My answer is "three days later". I believe that I have the quality of being fearless in times of crisis, able to control the overall situation, solve many problems at the same time, and have the ability to deal with various emergencies. On a strange morning, I heard the words "you may have a tumor in your lungs". Zhang Fei didn't know what had happened yet, she looked at me and hesitated to speak. I was silent for a while, and asked her, "What time does Lin Yue finish class?" "after an hour." I said to the driver, "Go pick up Lin Yue." Although it was already summer vacation, Lin Yue was asked by me to learn art and a few languages.I know that for a child of his age, this task is too heavy and demanding, but I also came here in the same way back then, and I don't think there is anything wrong with it.I never liked school and I didn't like reading, I just liked the feeling of getting good grades. Lin Yue didn't seem to expect that I would come to pick him up. When I sat in the car and saw him coming out of the school gate accompanied by bodyguards, he was awkward and reluctant. I got out of the car, stood by the door, and called him. "Lin Yue." He followed the sound and saw me, and stood outside the school gate, stunned for several seconds.It just occurred to me that this was probably the first time I picked him up at school, no wonder he was so surprised. The bodyguard led him up to me, and I took his hand.He frowned and pouted, as if he was reluctant. I glanced at him, and I knew the power of this glance.Sure enough, he let me hold his hand. "What do you want for lunch?" He stares at me and doesn't call me, as if I'm not his dad but an alien. I originally wanted to frown and reprimand him, but after thinking about it, I held back. "There is no class this afternoon," I said, "go to dinner with Dad." He didn't make a sound, just pursed his lips, and reluctantly followed behind me.He didn't dare to resist in front of me, so he could only express his anger towards me with a nonchalant attitude.Children's hatred, it can be said that it is not far-reaching. For the first time, I realized that I have been busy all my life, busy with work, busy investing, even reading documents in the scattered time of driving and flying, and even getting married in only two days. He was at war with the whole world, only to find that he had no time to be a good father in the end. In the three years of high school, nothing went beyond my plan.I went to college and put the high school pranks behind me.Until I saw Xu Zhen's name again on the freshman roster.I remember she once said that she would become an archaeologist like her father in the future, so I never thought she would become my school girl. Looking at the freshman roster, I couldn't help laughing out loud. Other people in the office looked at me as if they had seen a ghost, and looked at each other. I smiled and said to them, "Do me a favor." I see her in the dim light.She is just as spirited as she was two years ago.The light was weak, but she still looked radiant, and the boys stared at her wherever she went.I smiled and walked towards her. I'm not a saint, I make mistakes and sometimes do childish things. She used to like me very much, but I thought it was just a young girl's dream, and now—I really wonder if that liking is still there.My original intention was just to tease her, to do a little test to see how much she still has feelings for me.I'm not the kind of person who doesn't believe in love, but I know that it's easy to fall in love with someone, and it's hard to make sacrifices for love. But I didn't expect that someone misunderstood what I meant and locked her up in the name of a thief. I don't mean to excuse the incident, which is without a doubt the worst thing I've ever done to her.Xu Zhen obviously thought the same way, no matter what the truth was, it was all because of my little trick. When I picked her up from the basement, she looked at me with ashamed emotions in her eyes. Xu Zhen is as real and honest as her name, informal, open-minded and stubborn.She doesn't hide her estrangement from me, and I don't think that's a bad thing.I broke her heart, so she naturally wanted to run away.When apologies are useless, I just hope she doesn't hate me.But she never said anything bad about me to anyone, and she even gave me a precious gift before I was going to study abroad. However, the matter has come to this point, and it is useless to say anything.I just want to make it up to her. When I was studying abroad, I learned from An Lu that her father had liver cancer.Her father is her only spiritual support.I brought in the best oncologist for her, and having a doctor is better than anything else.I didn't think she would encounter financial problems at the time. Judging from her food and clothing expenses in high school, her family was not short of money, and her father, as a famous scholar, should have insurance. But her father died in the end.When I first met her back in China, I found that she was terribly thin and was running around for a part-time job.She used to be a little bit baby fat, with puffy cheeks, very cute, but now her whole face is thinned into an oval face, with a pointed chin, very pitiful. I felt I had to help her. After eating enough, Lin Yue soon became overwhelmed.I sent him home.He didn't talk to me for a whole meal, he just ate according to my order, occasionally looked up at me, his eyes were erratic, probably still angry with me. When the car passed by Shancha Street, I caught a glimpse of a figure on the side of the road, my heart tightened, and I blurted out two words. "parking!" The driver braked too hard, and the inertia was like a huge hand pushing hard on my back. I leaned forward and looked out. That's right, it's Xu Zhen. She has shoulder-length short hair, holding two huge supermarket paper bags in both hands, probably because the things are too heavy, she looks quite strenuous, and the bags on her shoulders are about to slip off.I know that Gu Chijun returned to China more than two months ago because of the movie, but she didn't come back at that time—maybe it was because her child was going to school, and she didn't return to Jinghai until yesterday. Back then, she and Gu Chijun left Jinghai resolutely and did not return for a full ten years. Ken appearing here this time must have made a lot of determination. "Xu Zhen." I haven't seen her for many years. She is no longer the youthful appearance she was when she was twenty years old. She is dressed plainly and stands on the side of the road holding a paper bag. Her forehead is covered with fine beads of sweat, and she looks silly.Her eyes were a little dazed, her lips moved, and she couldn't say a word for a long time.The car on the side of the road was speeding by, and she freed up a hand to stroke the hair that was about to be blown into her eyes by the wind. Her daughter—the little girl named Gu Zhu glanced at me, then tugged at her sleeve, "Mom, who is this uncle?" Only then did she react and lowered her eyelashes. I knew it was her controlling her emotions.Sure enough, she smiled at me the next second, "Senior." We used to be able to talk about any topic between the two of us, but now there is not much we can talk about. "Long time no see." I paused, "When did you come back?" Because I haven't seen her for too long, it freezes.At this time, the memory and embarrassment of the year were slowly recovered, and our conversation became more and more difficult. She smiled slightly, and the fine lines at the corners of her eyes disappeared, "I came back yesterday." She paused, then lowered her head and said to Gu Zhu, "Xiao Zhu, his name is Uncle Lin." I said calmly, "Uncle might be more appropriate." She was startled, then nodded slowly, "Well, that's right." Gu Zhu tilted his head to look at me, then gave me a sweet smile, "Hi, you are the Uncle Lin who sends me gifts every year?" , I also think she is sweet and well-behaved.It seems that, unlike me, Xu Zhen is a successful mother. I can't stay on the side of the road for too long, I leaned forward and asked her, "Shall I take you home?" She didn't seem to expect it, and her face was a bit complicated, "Ah? No need. My home is not far away." They live in the apartment her father left behind, which is not far away, and I don't need to argue with her about whether to send her home now. I nodded, "Since you have come back, I will take care of you." After thinking briefly, she nodded. "Okay. Senior, you have a lot of things to do, so you set a time." Xu Zhen is an overzealous person. I discovered this early on, but I don't think there is anything wrong with it. But being helpful enough to almost kill you in a fire is a different story. When I received An Lu's call, I heard my own heartbeat clearly for the first time in my life.Seeing her sleeping soundly in the hospital, I really didn't know whether to beat her up or myself.I am so dull, I have to wait until I have struggled once on the death line before I can see those past gains and losses more clearly, and realize who is the person I cannot lose. If there is any unexpected situation in my life, it must be that Xu Zhen and Liang Wanting are a mother and daughter.Because I didn't expect this, I also didn't expect that a man named Gu Chijun would suddenly appear in Xu Zhen's life, and he made me lose everything. I've always known that my father had a confidante, but I've always lacked interest in getting to know her.The most beautiful woman in my heart will always be my mother.The other women around my father are nothing more than that, I don't even want to hear Liang Wanting's name. Judging from the appearance, this female director is considered beautiful.No wonder my dad missed her so much for so many years. Then again, there are women who are more beautiful than her.No matter how beautiful she is, she is still a middle-aged woman of forty years old.The most important thing for a woman is to be young. A youthful woman does not need to be painted, her whole face is also beautiful, and she can shine even in the dark. But I'm not my dad after all, he has his aesthetics, and it's undeniable. My dad often said: "You can only express your opinions in front of me when you have the strength." I know about her from my eldest brother.My mother passed away a few years ago. If my father remarried, according to the usual practice, there would probably be another property dispute between the stepmother and our brother. But soon the eldest brother was relieved, because she didn't want to marry my father, Because my father failed to propose marriage many times, I specially watched Leung Wanting's movies, most of them are very good.She has her own ideas, so she doesn't want to marry my dad.A beautiful female star is one thing, but a beautiful female director is another.A woman who works hard for the world by herself is as determined as a man. She doesn't need to be a vine flower and cling to a big tree. I have seen my father and her together, there is not much talk between the two of them, but everyone can feel the atmosphere in the air. How did I know at the time that she would be Xu Zhen's mother. Later, I thought, this mother and daughter are really similar in terms of backbone. A few days ago, when I was talking on the phone with Xu Zhen, she suddenly asked me, did I have any opinion on her mother back then? She was completely wrong. I don't have much opinion on Leung Wanting herself. What I am angry with is my father. I don't understand why my wise and powerful father would be so obsessed with a certain woman for ten years, completely leaving my dead mother behind.You know, my father began to pursue Liang Wanting one year after my mother passed away. Now I finally understand how my father feels. Because pure love never lasts long, it always needs a little bit of admiration, because it is beyond reach, so it is hard to give up. The fact that there might be a problem with my physical condition quickly reached my father's ears. He asked me to ask questions, and then ordered me to take Lin Yue there. He relinquished part of his power a few years ago. Although he assumed the position of chairman, he was no longer in charge of specific affairs and had more time to spend with my stepmother.Leung Wanting is actually very young, but her body wants to be a job. She devoted all her energy to the film business in her early years. Film directors were originally a man's job. It is three times, five times, or even more than men.She worked desperately, overdrawn her own life, in exchange for a haggard body. So in the past ten years, she has never set foot in the film industry, but turned to the stage and directed several less tiring stage plays. Dad and her are now living in a quiet house with a large garden outside the city, and they visit the city from time to time, which seems like a young couple who come here for companionship. When I arrived, I was shocked by the lively scene in the yard. Three children were making a fuss in the yard, laughing and laughing. When did this place become so lively?Then I saw Xu Zhen sitting with her mother and chatting. To be precise, it was her mother who told the story, while Xu Zhen listened quietly. I said hello to them and walked over.Xu Zhen looked at me quietly through the phoenix flower stand, and when I approached, he nodded slightly and said, "Senior." Her address to me has not changed.Liang Wanting was noncommittal about this title, and said to the little head that popped up beside me: "Xiao Yue is here." Xu Zhen bowed down and smiled kindly at Lin Yue, "Xiao Yue, hello." She is kind to the child, I think she is really a good mother. I patted his head, "It's Aunt Xu." It's a pity that Lin Yue just rolled his eyes awkwardly, sat down on the chair, and said angrily: "I don't know her." Just like his appearance every time he was awkward. I was a little embarrassed for a moment, and was about to explode, but Xu Zhen smiled at me and shook his head, "It's nothing, the one at my house is even worse, hey, where did you go?" Liang Wanting said, "Ah Xiu, your father is in the study." Even with my eyes closed, I can imagine what Dad will say to me.Sure enough, it was nothing more than frowning and asking me why I was procrastinating and why I didn't go for a re-examination. "I'll be there." "when?" I don't like being pressed for questions, but this is my dad. I replied coldly: "I know." Dad's complexion was also bad, "It's been three or four days, how dare you tell me now? When did you procrastinate so much?" It's really not my character.I'm just worried, if diagnosed with malignancy, will I be able to bear waking up first thing every morning wondering if I'm going to die today. "Your grandfather suffered from lymphoma at the age of sixty-seven. After the treatment, he maintained an optimistic attitude and lived to eighty." Dad said calmly, "The earlier the diagnosis, the earlier the medical plan can be determined. There can't be a day's delay. " Dad is always thoughtful and will consider the worst outcome. I may have been more optimistic when I first stood on the edge of life and death than I am now, but the shadow of the car bomb incident was still there, and I didn't think about the accident for a while.But this time when his body was in a state of distress, the scene from that year seemed to still be in front of him. Walking out of the study, I saw Xu Zhen who was guarding the door. Just by looking at her expression, I knew that she also knew about the shadow on my lungs. I gestured to change places to talk. The tacit understanding of the year is still there, and we walked slowly around the flower garden, as if going back in time. I said, "I haven't gone for a re-examination yet." She asked, "Then when are you going?" I have always refused to think about it, but I can say it in front of her. I asked her calmly, "Have you ever thought about what would happen if I had a malignant tumor?" "Even if it is malignant, with the advancement of medicine, the cure rate is very high." She said sincerely, "Senior, you don't have to think about things that haven't happened yet." "I didn't think about it before, but now..." She raised the corners of her mouth and really smiled, "No, senior, you are so young. I believe in your luck, you will always save yourself from danger." "Hope it's as you say." She looked at me expectantly, "Then when will you go for the reexamination?" "Since when did you become my father's lobbyist?" I was joking and didn't expect her answer. But she shook her head, "No." I said, "Tomorrow." She breathed a sigh of relief, but her expression was quite hesitant. After a while, she looked up at me, "Senior, if you don't mind, let me check with you?" Unlike the plain face she saw that day, she I put on a little makeup today, and I look in good spirits. Children's laughter came from a distance, I didn't answer, I slowly raised my gaze, and saw the twins of the Gu family playing in a corner of the flower garden, Gu Zhu trotted along behind her two older brothers, Lin Yue walked alone Sit on the steps and watch them. Xu Zhen didn't bring up the idea of ​​going to the hospital with me again, and suddenly said: "Xiao Yue is very similar to you." "My son is naturally like me." I said, "It's a pity that he has a very bad temper. Don't mind." She gave a soft "hmm" and said after a while, "Because he is too lonely. Senior, don't you plan to have another child?" I suddenly laughed.Xu Zhen stroked his hair, looked at me in bewilderment, and smiled after a while.Yeah, ten years ago we would never have imagined that one day we would talk about the past peacefully and discuss ways to raise children together. My heart moved, and suddenly I had a good idea. The advantage of owning a hospital is that not only the physical examination process is very fast, but the laboratory tests are also very efficient. I sat in the conference room, distractedly watching the news, and the biopsy gave me a slight pain in my chest.I couldn't hear a word of what was playing on the TV.I know that my appearance must look calm and dignified.But I also know that no one can maintain peace of mind before such a sentence is pronounced.No matter how brave and calm a person thinks that he is not afraid of death, he will still be afraid when he really wants to hear the verdict. I finally admitted that I was afraid, afraid that all my future would be ruthlessly deprived by the disease.Several doctors opened the door and entered, and I saw the dean with a smile on his face, not hiding his joy. He said: "Mr. Lin, congratulations, the tumor is benign." I turned my back and slowly exhaled the breath that was trapped in my chest. I know I got away with it again.I took a spin around the edge of a dangerous cliff and came back.Although the tumor was benign, surgery was still required, scheduled for a week later—the rest was up to the doctor to discuss. I left the hospital and went downstairs and across the hall. I walked quickly until I saw a thin figure standing in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows in the hospital lobby. She was looking at the scenery outside the window, as if she was listening to sounds outside of nature.I slowed down, but she was still aware of it. The next second, she quickly turned around, leaned over to look at me, and asked in a low voice, "How is it?" I raised my eyebrows and walked towards her. The sunlight outside the window enveloped her whole body, even her hair was glistening. She stared at my face for a long time, then suddenly lowered her head and whispered, "It's good that you're fine." I sighed a lot, remembering that after the fire that year, I just stood in her ward, standing stubbornly, waiting for her to wake up.Ten years later, the scene was completely changed. "Although it is benign, it still needs to be taken out by surgery." She said, "It's all right, right?" "It is said." It was said that she smiled happily.When she smiled, there were already fine lines at the corners of her eyes, but her smiling eyes were exactly the same as before. "Is Xiao Yue still obedient?" "Well, very well-behaved." "The word well-behaved can't be used on him anyway. You don't have to give me face and speak so politely." She smiled, "It's not that serious, Xiao Yue is a very smart child, my twins can't compare." "He's just too smart." "Smartness is never too much. Senior, you are too strict with Xiaoyue, and your requirements are too high." "You don't care about the children." "As long as there are no major mistakes, I will let it go." "real?" She pursed her lips, "Well, to be honest, I really can't handle it. I'm thankful for letting them go out clean every day." One child is already a headache for me, and I can't imagine the hardship of raising three children.Besides, they have no servants. "I'm not saying that being too strict is bad at all. Every child has their own personality, and every family has its own tutoring model. But senior, you may not realize that Xiao Yue admires you very much." She thought intently I thought about it. "You can spend as much time with Xiao Yue as you can. Because his mother is not around." I replied: "I will." I looked at her, "Go to dinner together? I said I'd cleanse you up." She asked for my opinion, "Shall I call the kids out?" "it is good." In the third year after Xu Zhen left, I also got married.For me at that time, it didn't matter who I married.The other party has the same family background as my family, and it is a standard political marriage.Later, Lin Yue was born, and the days passed by like flowing water. Running a business empire is time consuming and I have to work every minute so I don't have much time for my family and my wife thinks I'm running away from her - I don't see what she can do of.After some meaningless quarrels, our feelings quickly faded and we separated naturally. Obviously everything is missing, but raising children is still very hard.Being separated from his mother made Lin Yue feel very uncomfortable. He always pestered me and asked me "Why?" It is difficult to explain to him the things between adults. His mother complained a lot to me, so I didn't like him going to her.Parents' extreme ideas are not good for children's growth.And he is very smart - this is inherited from himself. Smart children often make more serious mistakes than ordinary children. To Lin Yue, I feel more and more helpless. So, I entrusted Lin Yue to Xu Zhen and asked her to take care of Lin Yue for a while.Although He Zixi and I haven't divorced yet, Lin Yue is similar to a child from a single-parent family.He was indeed too lonely, if he stayed with the three children of the Gu family, he might become less eccentric and stubborn. Xu Zhen will stay in Jinghai until October. During this time, I asked my servant to send Lin Yue to Gu's house every morning and pick him up at night. At first I thought that Lin Yue would object, but in fact he objected for a few days and caused some troubles, but after a while he was able to accept this matter, and most of the time he would obediently go to Gu's family - I am glad that I chose . But no matter what, Xu Zhen always wanted to leave. When she left, I didn't see her off. I just sat in the office and approved the documents sent by the assistant.I know very well that we will never be able to get along well with each other, nor can we forget each other in the rivers and lakes. The only way is to live in peace with each other. She went to Europe with Gu Chijun and never came back, but I stood there forever, looking at the traces of her going away from the tall building in Jinghai. True love often comes only once in a lifetime. I finally understand this sentence now. You have been here, I know. I love you and I know it.