Chapter 38 Chapter 38 Love is in Fengdu

March 28th is the fifth anniversary of my marriage with Cheng Yuan.But after a meal, he actually said to me: "Keep, let's get a divorce." I looked at him, my brain went blank at this moment, and I couldn't understand exactly what he meant. The blanket with dark patterns on the Japanese-style tatami, the mahogany tea table carved with dragons and phoenixes, the fragrant Ukiyo-e hand scrolls opposite, and the small bronze-colored mirror stand under the hand scrolls all suddenly become illusory at this moment, as clear and unreal as a dream. reality. How I wish all this was a dream.But Cheng Yuan's voice pierced the dream and showed me the cruel reality: "Keep, I don't know how to explain it, but all the reasons are actually excuses. The root cause is——I fell in love with someone else."

Cheng Yuan confessed to me like this.Even if he's not a devoted husband.However, he is indeed an honest man. I looked across to the mirror, trying to critically examine myself in his shoes: my hair was scrupulously combed, my eyes were still bright, my skin was taut, and my lips were full. No, I'm not old and ugly, and I'm not a sleazy, vulgar woman.I have a noble occupation, a decent income, and a taste and grace.All my mistakes are nothing new to him. No longer fresh.No matter how beautiful a rose is, it is just a rose.He's tired of me. I guessed what his new love looked like, and thought unconvinced, maybe she might not be prettier than me, smarter, gentler, capable, or even younger than me, right?But she, and her, her, and her after her, are always fresher and more exciting than the previous one or me.

How unfortunate, liking the new and disliking the old is a common problem among men all over the world. What's even more unfortunate is that women's common problem is nostalgia for the past and unwillingness to change the status quo.What's more, I love my husband without any reluctance. Even though I have seen through his flaws and seen that he is just an ordinary man who likes the new and dislikes the old, I still love him. Swallowing my tears, I tried to keep myself calm and rational, so as not to cry, beg or stalk like an ordinary shrew. "Cheng Yuan, no matter what it is for, I hope you will think about it again and give me a month to let me know whether our marriage is really hopeless."

a month.I only have one month.I decided to use all my strength to seize this month for a marriage defense battle. Early the next morning, I went to the bookstore and bought a stack of books about marriage guides and came back to catch up.A large number of theoretical data point out that a successful wife should first be a virtuous wife, and a virtuous wife should have good cooking skills. I scoffed, it's not that I haven't thought about it, but a delicious meal is no longer the highest pursuit of a modern man.Besides, as a professional woman, I am used to keeping things simple. Microwave ovens and rice cookers are my best helpers. Three or two hand gestures are more than enough to fill my stomach. Whenever there is a banquet, I have various takeaways from famous Sichuan and Shanghai restaurants to help me. Why do I have to do everything myself? ?It's been a long time since I've been cool, so it's ridiculous to come here now to fix things after a dead sheep. If it doesn't work, it will be three points more cheap.

If this trick doesn't work, find another way.I studied hard all night, and I worked harder than when I was admitted to college.An American female writer wrote a book saying that wives should change their image frequently and give their husbands new stimulation every day. This seems to hit the key point of marriage, but no matter how I change my image, I am still myself, and I cannot become another person just because of a change of clothes or hairstyle.What's more, Cheng Yuan fell in love with me back then and chose me because I have irreplaceable advantages, so why should I become someone else?

This trick didn't work either, so I covered my head and sighed.There is Yan Ruyu in the book, and the golden house in the book.But there are still no happy families, loving couples in the book. As a last resort, I found my girlfriend to go to the coffee shop to have a secret chat on weekends. I didn't care about my family's scandals, so I confessed all my depression.The girlfriend was surprised: "You are the marriage classics in our circle, you are comparable to Yang Guo Xiaolongnv, and you will also have marriage changes?" I sighed: "Yang Guo and Xiaolongnv will face all kinds of temptations after leaving the ancient tomb, let alone me?"

The girlfriend nodded: "So husbands and wives in this world are like working partners, they are all cooperative relationships. If the business is doing well, they will cooperate to make another order. Suddenly they find a bigger account or a better partner, and immediately turn the rudder. It is useless to ask. " I called: "Hey, let you find a way to pour cold water on me?" The girlfriend pondered for a while, and finally suggested that it is better to cooperate with the inside and outside, establish a united front with his family and friends, infiltrate layer by layer, and force him to submit.

I pondered, it’s not that I haven’t thought about this, but before it’s implemented, I already feel aggrieved. I’ve always treated his family well.What's more, I don't want to make this matter known to the whole city. After all, only the feet know whether the shoes are suitable. Why should the eyes, ears, mouth and nose suffer? The best plan has never been brought out, and the time for the final showdown is getting closer and closer, and it is almost overwhelmed. I finally decided to put all my eggs in one basket and asked him: "Come with me on one last trip. Since our honeymoon trip, we haven't traveled far together in five years."

He looked at me, a little impatient and helpless, but finally agreed. I can't help but feel soft. After all, he is a good person and he doesn't want to embarrass others too much. Even though he has decided to divorce, even if he has decided to go, he is still willing to meet all the demands of his wife.Because of this, I still love him, and because of this, I am even more unwilling to give up. But I never said my sincerity.I don't want to give him the feeling of entanglement, let him avoid it.Some people say that some husbands were not firm when they filed for divorce, but because of their wives' quarrels, they made up their minds and never turned back.I don't want to be that idiot who adds fuel to the fire.

I chose Fengdu.On the guide map, it has always been the place I yearn for, because of those weird and mysterious legends. "It is said that in the Han Dynasty, there were two Taoists named Yin Changsheng and Wang Fangping. They became immortals on this Pingdu mountain and ascended in the daytime. Later generations read their names together and called them 'Yin Wang', and this capital city, It became a 'Yincao Difu' and 'Ghost Country'. There are Naihe Bridge, Jade Emperor Hall, Ghost Gate Pass, Huangquan Road, Meng Po Tower in the city..." After preparing enough homework, I told Cheng Yuan the legend of the ghost town along the way.

Walking on the road of yin and yang, we also became two ghosts—it would be fine if we were really ghosts, but I have to go back to the human world after all.In the world, there are more troubles and anguish waiting than in Huangquan, for example, the separation that I don't want to see. I don't want to, I don't want to, love, why do you force me to leave? I said to Cheng Yuan: "I don't know if Mengpolou still sells Mengpo soup? When I was young, this is what I heard most from the elders." "What are you talking about? You said that after drinking Mengpo soup, you will forget your previous life and remember the past, right? I think this is a good thing. Life is full of hardships and hardships. This life is already annoying enough, and I have to remember it in the next life." Wouldn't it be hard to go?" Cheng Yuan answered me like this.This heartless person. I glanced at him, my heart was full of tenderness, and I was very sad. It's already spring, but the coolness is still deep. The leaves of the winter trees have fallen and danced desolately with the wind. In my eyes, there is a kind of bleak autumn. We walked all the way across the Naihe Bridge, passed through the Gate of Ghosts, walked across Huangquan Road, and finally came to the front of Po Meng’s building. There was indeed a woman selling tea in front of the building, but I don’t know if her surname is Meng. Cheng Yuan took a sip and said with a smile: "It turns out that Po Meng is from Beijing, and she sells big bowls of tea." I knew he was joking because he wanted to alleviate the depressive atmosphere of parting, but I didn't want to appreciate it, so I picked up a bowl of tea and poured it all on the spot, and said to him: "I don't want to drink this Mengpo soup, and don't forget this life. Reincarnation, I will definitely remember you again, and I still want to find you and renew my fate in this life." Tea crawled like a snake, and soon got into the ground, into the underworld, and could never be reborn forever. In fact, what is the difference between drinking and not drinking?He had made up his mind to forget it before he drank it.If you decide to forget, there is nothing you can't forget.But I don’t want to forget, even if I drank all the Mengpo soup in the world, I still can’t forget it. It's not that I don't understand, but I'm not reconciled.Not painstakingly. He was a little shaken, sighed, and said slowly: "Yeah, I hope you understand, I don't want to betray you, it's just that when two people are together, there is no emotion anymore, so it's better to forget about it." I smiled wryly, swallowed the tide of tears, looked into his eyes, stubbornly, clearly, word by word: "No, I don't want to drink Mengpo soup. I don't want to forget you. If there is reincarnation and afterlife, I am willing Forgot who I am, but I don't want to forget you, I will look for you everywhere from the moment I landed, until I am with you again." My voice softened, and the tears still flowed down: "It's just, Cheng Yuan, you must wait for me and tell me what I did wrong in this life. In the next life, let me correct it and be with you again, never to be separated again, okay. Is it?" Cheng Yuan backed away, his eyes couldn't help getting wet, the tea in his hand was only half drunk, and it was also spilled.He said: "Okay, then let us not forget. What we drink is troubles and grievances, but what we pour out is mutual gratification. See you again in the next life. I hope I don't remember the betrayal and alienation in this life, but, I will remember you." This is a promise, a promise made in this life but fulfilled in the next life. However, the past was cut off in two. However, is the past completely broken?We hugged each other and continued to walk forward, without speaking for a while. All I could hear was the gurgling of the brook, the bursting of forest waves, the road narrowed suddenly, and the bushes became denser and denser.The green trees in the mountains are real green trees. The leaves are thick and clean, reflecting the sunlight bit by bit, like jade like emerald green, dazzling people's eyes.There is also the chirping of birds, which is also like being washed by spring water, with a kind of transparent clarity. However, in Ghost Domain, the mountains and forests are the mountains and forests of another world, and the sunshine is also the sunshine of another world.I was walking all the way, and when I heard the sound of water, I couldn't help but wonder if the stream flowed into the underworld; when I saw a bird, I couldn't help wondering whether the bird was the soul of an infatuated woman who died sadly.In short, everything is parting, and it is also sad. After walking for a while, the corner of a building appeared on the top of the forest. Going closer, I saw carved pavilions and embroidered pillars, and three large characters written on the lintel - "Wangxiang Terrace". We stopped at the same time, looked at each other, and went up the stairs hand in hand. From the open window on the upper floor, a few bats flew out. They were messengers from hell, and they came here specially to welcome the two newly arrived ghosts.But here are two people, not dead yet, still angry.So they circled around twice, and then flew away again. However, their demonic aura remained, casting a shadow of death on the upper floor, and even the sunlight suddenly dimmed.Wangxiang Terrace is the last nostalgia of the undead for the previous life.Leaving this Wangxiang Terrace, the water is far away from the mountains and the mountains are high, and the soul is gone. Go up the tall building alone, looking at the end of the world.At the end of the world, the world of mortals is billowing, turning into fly ash.This is the place to make wishes, but Cheng Yuan and I are about to be separated. From then on, we will be separated from each other, and there will be no joy in life. What other wishes can we make? I covered my head with my hands, and gazed into the southeast. After a long time, I finally said softly: "If you don't donate, don't go back to the way. Try to add food." Cheng Yuan suddenly couldn't hold it anymore, turned around and hugged me, exhausting all his strength, hugging me almost suffocated: "Forgive me, I believe that in this life, you are the first woman I love, and I will never regret it .” I said: "You are the last and only one I love. I will never love again in the future, because if I fall in love with others, it is a denial of my past. However, I have never regretted loving over you." These are two living people, who also have love and affection, but they want to make a farewell on the lookout stage.Never see you again, just to see you again is not you, it is better to remember the past.Wave your hand without taking a cloud?Easier said than done.Even if you don't take it away, can you not keep it? What was left was a broken heart. Cheng Yuan cried: "Why? Why do two living people have to say goodbye in a ghost town, since we are still in love?" I looked at him and didn't speak. This heartless act of beating a mandarin duck was originally his decision, so who is it to ask?I don't have no complaints in my heart, but it's useless to say, I would rather wrap him with thousands of threads of love, even if we are separated, I will still show mercy. He felt it, and he let go of his strength slightly, but he still didn't let me go, his eyes were full of hesitation and struggle. Five years of husband and wife, there are always some acquaintances. I understood his hesitation, struck while the iron was hot, and decided to step up the whip, and said softly: "Why not cherish this life instead of meeting in the next life?" Cheng Yuan was slightly taken aback, his eyes suddenly opened up, after a long, long time, he finally smiled brightly. Returning from the ghost town to the human world, needless to say, we have spent the sixth year of our wedding anniversary together, and we will also spend the eighth and ninth years together, and so on.When I saw my girlfriend again, I told her: "The story of Yang Guo and Xiaolongnv is still instructive. Although the world of mortals is not the tomb of the living dead, when difficulties come, why not go back to the ancient tomb to take refuge for a while, reviewing the past and learning the new, is it not a joy?" If I also open a forum to teach, write a book and explain how a wife can keep her husband’s heart, I will tell the same sex: first, don’t resent, everything is based on love; second, advance with retreat and calm down; Three, travel.