Chapter 12 The final chapter Xiazhi meets you are my forever love

Where can I find you again? Is it in the classroom? Is it in the hallway? Or, what about under the basketball hoop? Why can't we tell each other's directions even though we have met before? I can easily find others, but I can't find you. Have we really existed? In this noisy and mysterious world, what should we do to remember you? Leaving your side, I cry like a helpless child. On the tram, I'll wait for you to appear. I wait for you forever. Then Zhiwei, tell me, is there really such an unforgivable thing in this world?Or, is there really such a thing as impossible to accept?But what if it is unforgivable?But what if you can't accept it?What should I do if something like that happens to me one day?Although I have thought that the easiest solution is to say goodbye to this world, but is that really the only solution?Without my weight, the earth will just spin faster, right?Just thinking about it makes me feel so sad, so sad.

——From Su Ban Xiawei's Quotations Zhiwei hadn't gone to school for three days. During these three days, her mother devoted herself to work and didn't come home even once.In the past three days, her father had completely left the house and never heard from her again.During these three days, Su Banxia seemed to have disappeared from the world, and never appeared in front of Zhiwei again. Zhiwei sat in the room and stared blankly at the lights outside the window, at the twinkling stars in the sky.She lowered her head and glanced at the mobile phone on the bed, but there was no new call.

After a long time, she got off the bed.The clothes on her body were still from three days ago and had not been changed.She walked to the window and slowly closed the curtains, then walked to the desk, opened the drawer, and took out a red utility knife from inside. The sharp blade and the mottled rust spots on it danced with cold silver light in the air, Zhiwei stared at the tip of the blade, motionless.At this moment, the phone rang suddenly, Zhiwei was stunned for a moment, then went to the bedside to pick up the phone, and glanced at the name that was beating on the screen, it was "Sang Ran".

Without hesitation, she quickly picked it up and said "Hello". Sang Ran's slightly worried voice came from over there, "Zhiwei, are you sick? I heard from your class teacher that you haven't come to class for three days." "Hmm..." Zhiwei responded blankly, "It's okay, are you... okay?" "Oh, nothing, I'm just, a little worried about you." "thanks……" "What happened to your voice? Did you ever cry?" "Nothing, I'm going to hang up." "Are you going to sleep?" "Yeah, I'm going to sleep. I'm so tired. I'm so tired. I'm about to have had enough." After speaking, Zhiwei hung up the phone hastily.

She held the utility knife tightly, and tears fell onto the gleaming blade, splashing into transparent fragments. There was only a "beep" disconnection sound on the phone, Sang Ran looked at her cell phone, then raised her head again, looking at the room where Zhiwei drew the curtains tightly, it was pitch black. He has been standing downstairs in her house for a long time, and he doesn't really have any other plans, he just wants to stand here and look at her room from a distance, even if she never feels it, it doesn't matter. It seems that he has been repeating this behavior since he met her.

Sang Ran closed the phone, lowered her eyes and turned around to go back, but heard a small sound coming from Zhi Wei's room, like the sound of bumping into a chair.He stopped suddenly, raised his head and looked at Zhiwei's room again, then he frowned, and suddenly remembered what she said on the phone: I'm going to sleep, I'm so tired, I'm so tired , almost had enough. Suddenly, there was a noise buzzing in Sang Ran's mind. He didn't have time to think, and quickly ran into the corridor of Zhiwei's house. When he reached the third floor, he stopped and knocked hard on the "303" button. door, but no one answered him.He was a little anxious, so he increased his strength and continued to knock. In the end, Sang Ran chose to knock open the door with all his strength.

When he rushed to Zhiwei's room, she was holding a red utility knife in her hand and slashed her left wrist slightly. Seeing Sang Ran's appearance, the utility knife in her hand suddenly fell onto the bed , blood rolled down from her wrist drop by drop, staining the snow-white bed sheet red. Sang Ran stood there, watching her tears flow down from her eyes, and then he heard her say to him in despair: "Hey... I really have had enough." When Su Banxia woke up, she found herself in the hospital ward. It's just that this is not Beimu Hospital. In a blur, she saw "Love Hospital" written on the sheet covering her body.Love Hospital, what an old-fashioned name for a hospital.Su Banxia thought so, raised her eyes tiredly and wanted to get up from the bed, but before she figured out what happened, she felt her left hand was severely hurt, she looked down and found that she was There was a transparent adhesive tape on the back of his hand, and when he looked up, there was a bag of Type B blood hanging above his head.

There was a pungent smell of disinfectant in the ward.It smells nasty. A nurse opened the door and walked in. She was wearing a white mask, looked at Su Banxia expressionlessly, and said, "You're awake." Su Banxia raised her head, looked at the nurse who came to change her drip, and asked, "How did I get here?" "You fainted. I heard that someone with good intentions sent you here." The nurse glanced at her several times and said with no expression, "You have been in a coma for three days. How can people with myocarditis be so careless?" Myocarditis——

Su Banxia pursed her lips and did not speak. After a long time, she asked in a low voice: "Medical expenses..." "Oh, just now your father finished handing it over to you." The nurse replaced the empty blood bag. Su Banxia suddenly opened her eyes wide, stared at the nurse's face with an incredulous look, and murmured, "Who are you talking about?" At this time, the door of the ward was opened again, and a middle-aged man walked in. The nurse looked at him, then at Su Banxia and said, "Here, isn't this your father?" For a moment, Su Banxia felt that her whole body was frozen there. There were fine layers of cold sweat oozing from her back and palms. She looked at the middle-aged man standing in front of her. There are apologetic and concerned eyes, and the heart is in pain like being run over.

He is not her father. He was just the man who was with his mother back then. He was the murderer who ruined her family. In the room with the tightly drawn curtains, there was a faint sweet smell of blood. Zhiwei bit her lip and sat on the bed, tears fell from her eye sockets, all smashed onto the messy ground. "I won't go to the hospital... I won't go to the hospital... I won't go to the hospital..." For a long time, she murmured and said the same words repeatedly, and one could guess that she was greatly stimulated, such as betrayal, such as abandonment. Sang Ran gently wrapped Zhiwei's left wrist with gauze, but the blood soon soaked the white gauze, so he had to bite off the new gauze with his teeth again, and then continued to touch Zhiwei's blood-stained Wrapped around the wrist.When he raised his head, what he saw was Zhiwei's bloodless face, sitting there like a puppet whose soul had been taken out, the lips were cracked and pale.

"Does it hurt?" Sang Ran asked with a trembling voice, how he wished he could share the pain on her wrist. Zhiwei shook her head. Sang Ran frowned, endured the redness of her eyes and lowered her head, looking at Zhi Wei's left wrist: "Are you stupid, why are you playing this?" Zhiwei began to cry even more uncontrollably. After a while, she choked up and said, "Don't yell at me, I'm not used to this..." "Then don't do things that make me yell at you!" "Is it my fault..." Zhiwei bit her lip and said intermittently, "My father doesn't want me anymore, my mother doesn't care about me anymore, Lu Chuanzi broke up with me, and Ke Jiang hates me too... ...Ban Xia...Even she has left my side...She is also lying to me, saying that she will stay by my side forever...She clearly said that, but now, I have nothing..." "Am I... so annoying? Otherwise, why don't they want me? Did I do something wrong? What did I do wrong?" "What should I do so that they can come back? Sang Ran, tell me, what should I do?" Sang Ran tightly held Zhi Wei's trembling hand, he just wanted to comfort her with his warm palm.He didn't say anything, just held her hand for a long, long time.He blinked, tears streaming down his eyelashes. You have done nothing wrong, and no one has done wrong. Wrong, just this world. In the hospital ward, Su Banxia looked at the middle-aged man standing in front of her with cold hands and feet.She said coldly: "Get out, I don't want to see you." His appearance, like a new nightmare, repeated the despair and fear of Su Banxia's childhood. The middle-aged man closed his eyes sadly, he put the suitcase in his hand on the ground, and said softly, "I'm sorry..." Su Banxia wiped away the tears from the corners of her eyes. She took a few deep breaths, raised her hand suddenly and grabbed the needle on the back of her hand, and said to the middle-aged man, "Are you going? If you don't go, I'll pull it out." Drop this and die in front of you!" The middle-aged man lowered his head: "Don't do this, we need to talk." Su Banxia laughed a few times in despair, her eyes were filled with tears of deep grief, she smiled at him, her laughter was sharp and rough, like a poisonous mandala flower: "You and I Is there anything to talk about? Do you still think that our family has not been harmed enough? You always came to my mother in the past, and you drove to pick her up, and then let my father chase your car hysterically Curse, all the neighbors came to see our jokes, Zhi Jingcheng, why didn’t you die? Why didn’t you go to jail? It should be you, right?” The middle-aged man named Zhi Jingcheng let out a long sigh, and there was a touch of helplessness on his handsome face even though he was a little old, he said: "Son, I really don't know what happened to your family , I have also been looking for you for a long time." "Why are you looking for me? You, a man who specializes in seducing other people's wives, are you looking for fucks with me?!" "I want to make atonement to you." Zhi Jingcheng's eyes flashed transparent tears, he paused, and then continued, "If I can't pay back the debt I owe to your Su family in this life, I will let my daughter Zhi Weilai will make up for you, if you still can't finish it, I will let my daughter Zhiwei's children continue to make up for you..." There was a sudden loud bang in the brain, and there was a tearing pain in the eardrum.Su Banxia felt that she couldn't breathe, she opened her eyes wide in horror, she looked at Zhi Jingcheng standing in front of her, and asked in disbelief: "...Zhiwei?" Zhi Jingcheng raised his tear-ridden face and looked at Su Banxia. "You said, Zhiwei... is your daughter?" Zhi Jingcheng was silent for a while, then nodded: "I'm sorry, I used my daughter to find you. If I hadn't passed by Zhiwei's school that day, I wouldn't have seen you walking with her... Don't worry, I I have already divorced Zhiwei's mother, I will not let you have any burden, child, I really just want to make up for you, we can live together in the future..." "Enough." Su Banxia whispered, and then lay back on the bed, "Stop talking, go out, I want to sleep." Zhi Jingcheng opened his mouth, wanting to say something more, but in the end he was pushed back into his throat by reason.He took one last look at Su Banxia, ​​then left the ward with a sigh, and closed the door behind his back. Before leaving, he said in a low voice: "Ban Xia, you should think about it carefully." In the pale ward, Su Banxia lay quietly on the bed, she stared straight at the ceiling, tears streaming down her temples. Who is performing, who is manipulating, and who is watching whom in the end. The relationship between me and you is obviously full of hatred and despair, why did we become friends who can dedicate everything to each other without knowing it. I can't forget those countless dark days that used to squirm inside my heart. There is no way I will ever forget those sad days that have covered me with shame and pain. It was your father who made my mother a mistress. It was your father who put my father in jail for killing his wife. It was your father who made my life rubbed into a barren and desolate darkness. It turned out to be your father. So you are his daughter. It turns out we shouldn't have met in the first place. It turned out that our meeting was a mistake from the beginning. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. I shouldn't have met you. Do you know that if I hadn't met you, I wouldn't be in such pain as I am now. That night, in the dead of night, Su Banxia stood up from the bed in the ward.She went down, turned on the light, took out the paper and pen in the drawer of the cabinet, spread out the crumpled paper, and pressed it on the window sill to write something. She pressed the written thing with a thermos, and the white paper And the black pen lay quietly on top of the cabinet. Then she walked out of the ward and climbed along the corridor to the roof of the hospital until she reached the high roof. She walked forward, climbed over the railing on the roof, then raised her head and opened her arms The summer night breeze kissed her cheek. Tears were blown from the corners of her eyes by the wind, she lowered her head, looked at the lights of Wanjia under the tall buildings, smiled with tears, and said, "Zhiwei, goodbye. Fan Lu, goodbye." Then she closed her eyes, lowered the corners of her mouth forcefully, stretched out her feet, and took a step forward... In fact, it is very simple, and there is no pain at all, because this is like the scene she has dreamed about for a long time, climbing up a tall building, and then overlooking the world with open arms, in the end, there will be a "plop" in her ears There was a loud bang. Just treat it like a dream, right? Zhiwei, I really shouldn't have met you. So, I leave the last sentence for you: Please live a good life. Zhi Wei left Sang Ran a note saying "I'm going to find Pinellia, take care", and then left with some money and a few clothes left at home. She bought a train ticket, and the train number is 684. There were not many passengers in the carriage, so Zhiwei chose a seat by the window and sat down.She raised her wrist, and the train was five minutes away.From the corner of her eye, Zhiwei inadvertently caught a glimpse of the gauze on her wrist, on which was still clotted blood. She twitched the corners of her mouth and gave a lonely smile, then took out a piece of clothing from the backpack, and wrapped it around her gauze-wrapped left wrist. Sitting on the train, Zhiwei didn't know where to find Su Banxia, ​​but she firmly believed that she would be able to find her.She leaned her body against the soft back of the car, closed her eyes, and Mo Fanlu's face suddenly flashed in her mind.Then her chest began to throb inexplicably. After a few seconds, Zhiwei took out her phone from her pocket, and pressed a text message, the recipient was "Mo Fanlu", the content was: how are you lately?What are you doing now? After pressing send, soon, I received a reply from the other party. Zhiwei opened the message, and it said, "It's okay. I'm on the train now." Zhiwei couldn't help feeling puzzled, then she quickly dialed Mo Fanlu's phone number, it rang for a while before the other party said "Hello". "Where did you say you were?" Zhiwei asked. "On the train..." Mo Fanlu's voice sounded a little tired, as if he had just experienced something painful. Zhiwei was silent for a while, and then continued: "Really, then I am also on the train, the 684 train, how about you?" Mo Fanlu's startled breathing could be clearly felt on the phone, "What a coincidence, I am too." "where are you going?" "And you?" "...I'm going to find Pinellia." "...It seems that we are also 'the same kind'." Zhiwei couldn't help laughing, she stood up, looked around, and asked over the phone: "Mo Fanlu, which car are you in? I'll go find you now." "You tell me yours, and I'll go find you." Just after hearing this sentence, Zhiwei raised her head, and then she saw a boy walking towards her. Zhiwei smiled and waved to him.At this moment, the train started to start slowly, Zhiwei staggered and nearly fell to the ground. When she stood still, all the lights in the carriage went out with a "boom".It was pitch black, and I couldn't see anything. — can’t see anything. When Sang Ran came to Zhiwei's house, he opened the door with the spare key that Zhiwei gave him.As soon as he walked into the living room, he saw Zhiwei's note on the table. He pursed his lips, folded the note in two, and put it in his trousers pocket. Raising his head and looking out the window, he saw a blinding flash of lightning flashing across the sky, followed by muffled thunder. He walked to the window, looked at the sky, and murmured in a low voice: "Looks like it's going to be a rainstorm—" end: The next day, the city's news reported that a high school girl on the roof of Love Hospital tried to commit suicide by jumping off the building, but fortunately she was discovered by the hospital staff in time, but the girl's whereabouts are currently unknown.The name is Su Banxia. Anyone who knows the matter please contact this newspaper as soon as possible. Another report: 684 trains and 786 trains suddenly collided and exploded when they were starting. The number of people killed was 673, the number of people injured was 478, and the number of missing people is currently unknown. Missing Persons: Currently unknown. 〈End of full text〉