Chapter 19 Chapter 19 A Strong Choice
In the blink of an eye, it was autumn, and one day I just came out of the Hall of Qinzheng, and I ran into Yao Niang who was walking towards the Hall of Qinzheng with tea.I squinted my eyes to look at her, ah, no matter how many times I look at her, I can't find the uniqueness of this woman.
I looked at her condescendingly, and said: "Oh, didn't the emperor say that there is no need to do this? The emperor's daily meals are prepared by the imperial dining room, so why bother Fengyi Palace?"
Holding the tea, Yaoniang bent her knee casually and said, "Your servant is just following orders." After she finished speaking, she was about to bypass us and go straight to Qinzheng Hall.
I stared at her blankly, I couldn't imagine, this, who gave her so much courage to be so arrogant and rude!
Her behavior irritated me. Thinking about all these days of her deliberate attempts to get close to King Quan Yu, it all made me irritable and angry.I stopped her, slapped her across the face and said, "Bitch! How can you be so rude!"
The tea was overturned and Yao Niang lay on the ground, her left face suddenly swelled up.She covered her face, staring at me with hatred in her red eyes.
That naked hatred suddenly reminded me of the reason, her father was killed by my younger brother...
"Bold! How dare you look directly at the Empress Dowager!" the palace man beside me shouted loudly.
Yao Niang burst into tears more and more, and what followed was a scene that everyone present could not have imagined. She left the tea and ran directly to the Palace of Qinzheng!
I even heard her throwing open the palace door, calling out in a desolate voice: "Your Majesty..."
I rushed to the gate of Qinzheng Hall with disbelief, and heard Yao Niang kneeling there crying: "Your Majesty, Empress Dowager, Empress Dowager, she slapped the servant for some reason..." At this time, King Quan Yu was walking from the palace. Standing up from the throne, he looked in front of him in surprise.
What absurdity is this scene!
Not to mention the reason why I slapped her, she is a little servant, what qualifications does she have to cry in front of the emperor!
King Quan Yu might have planned to ask her something, but when he saw that I was also at the door, he scolded unnaturally: "Bold, you must not be so rude as a slave!"
"But, but," Yao Niang continued to say aggrievedly without any scruples: "The tea that the empress ordered the slave to bring has been overturned. The slave does not know how to explain to the empress when she goes back. She will definitely scold the slave. of……"
"Forget it, forget it," King Quan Yu said a little irritably, "I will explain this to the queen. Yao Niang, do you know that you made the following mistakes today? You are a slave, and the queen mother is the master of the harem. No matter how you act, you can't behave like you are now. Why don't you hurry up and apologize to the Queen Mother?!"
Only then did Yao Niang confess her mistake to me crying.King Quan Yu made a rescue from the side and said: "Since Yao Niang knows that she is wrong, she just entered the palace and didn't understand the rules. The queen mother is magnanimous, so let her be spared this time."
I watched King Quanyu and Yaoniang singing together in front of me, which meant that this was the end of the matter.King Quan Yu, since you are pleading for Yao Niang, I can't deny you favor, but tell me in what capacity are you pleading for Yao Niang?
He also understands that Yaoniang's actions are rebellious, but he doesn't want me to kill Yaoniang because of this, he wants to save Yaoniang's life.
Seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time, King Quan Yu knew that I was wrong, and said to Yaoniang sternly: "Didn't I say that I don't need to come to Qinzheng Hall to deliver things again? Does the queen still take my words to heart? Go back and tell the queen , this is the last time, otherwise it will be dealt with as a crime next time, you know?"
Yao Niang nodded obediently, looking like pear blossoms with rain.
"Don't back down!" King Quan Yu ordered Yaoniang to say.
After Yaoniang left, Qinzheng Palace fell into silence, and even the palace guards who served around felt a little embarrassed.
King Quan Yu said apologetically: "This incident has indeed wronged the Queen Mother. If a similar incident happens next time, no matter who it is, I will never forgive you lightly."
With a pale face, I said weakly: "Since the emperor has said so, what else can the Ai family say...Farewell."
At night, King Quan Yu couldn't wait to come to me and said all good things, just hoping that I would not take the day's affairs to heart.
He even flattered me by saying: "Wu'er and Hong'er are getting bigger and bigger, especially Wu'er, who has grown very tall and strong in a short time. I see that he is smart and sensible, and he will definitely be able to take on great positions in the future. After some time, I want to announce it to the world and appoint him as the crown prince."
"That's right... The children are getting bigger and bigger. I, an old woman who has given birth twice, can't please you more than a young woman..."
King Quan Yu heard that my tone was wrong, he took my shoulder and said seriously: "How can you say that?"
At this time, my eyes were already red, and tears flowed silently.
The uneasiness and grievances that have been accumulated in my heart can no longer be suppressed, and the so-called self-esteem has long been vulnerable.
Seeing that I was so flustered, King Quan Yu asked me, "Nuxi, how can you think so?"
"You, you have changed your mind..."
I don't want to admit it, I don't want to admit it, but in the choking of sobs, I still said what I have been buried in my heart, and when I said it, tears were streaming down my face.
"There is no such thing," King Quan Yu hurriedly explained, "Did I misunderstand you by what I did? I asked myself that I still treat you the same as before. Didn't I severely criticize Yaoniang for what happened today? I just wanted to forgive you. It's just her life, don't you mind it so much?"
"Do you dare to say that you really have nothing to Yaoniang?" I looked into his eyes and asked aggressively.
King Quan Yu was stopped by the question, and suddenly he let me go in discouragement and remained silent.My heart sank to the bottom.
"She really looks like Yi Ren..." At some point, King Quan Yu suddenly said softly.
I was so sad that I laughed back: "Speaking of which, I am really redundant... Maybe I will move out of the palace one day, so that you two can live a quiet life."
"No no," King Quan Yu immediately denied, "It's you that I have in mind. She just looks like Fuwan. I was too surprised at the beginning, so I lost my composure. After thinking about it, I have never been close to Fuwan. She, you should know this. How can I not understand, the person in front of me is you, so many years have passed, so many happy times, you and I have two lovely children, how could I be so happy because of her And abandon you? I have never considered this issue."
"I don't believe it, I don't believe it. You have changed your mind..." I shook my head and said with tears.
King Quan Yu said solemnly: "You have no reason not to believe it! Is that why you don't believe me? You have been with me for so many years, you should be clear about my affection for you, is it so easy for you to be seduced by others?" .Take a ten thousand step back, so how can mother compare with you? Where is the confident and proud person in the past?!"
Having said that, but every little detail of his past has aroused my uneasiness, and even I can't decide if it's just my superfluous intentions or it really is.I couldn't describe the problem in detail at all, and he couldn't understand my anxiety, and even thought I was being overly sensitive.
King Quan Yu hugged me tightly, and said in a deep voice: "Don't cry, your unstoppable tears are condemning me drop by drop, but I didn't do anything sorry for you, it really hurts my heart. The woman I like is you, do you have to tell me clearly, I thought you knew..."
"But you once promised me to abolish the empress..." I suddenly thought about when this anxiety started.
"I asked Doctor Yushi, but he said..." King Quan Yu suddenly realized as he was talking, he pulled me and asked, "It turns out that this is what you have been worrying about. Doctor Yushi said that since ancient times, he hastily abandoned In the end, it was all an act of fooling the emperor, and I do not agree with it. This matter is indeed a difficult matter for me, but if you really mind it so much, I will fulfill your wish."
I didn't expect King Quan Yu to agree so readily, and I felt better, but I still asked uneasy: "So, what are you going to do with that Yao Niang?"
King Quan Yu was stunned for a moment, and then replied: "As her aunt still wants to leave the palace to marry, it's up to her...it has nothing to do with me."
The next day, regardless of the censor's ramblings and objections, I ordered him to write down the abolished imperial edict immediately.After the edict was written, I didn't want to worry about what the courtiers would say, so I sent people directly to Fengyi Palace to issue the edict.I really can't wait to see the queen's expression after she loses, so what if she becomes a Yaoniang.
When our group arrived at Fengyi Palace, we saw Fengyi Palace busy up and down, and we didn't know what happened.When King Quanyu and I entered the house, the queen led all the palace people to greet us, not wanting to have two imperial physicians from the Imperial Hospital among them.
I just sat down, in order to avoid long nights and dreams, I directly ordered the doctor Yushi: "Recite the emperor's meaning to the queen."
When the queen saw the doctor Yu Shi coming, she couldn't help but change her face, and she must have guessed in her heart that it was almost inseparable.
While Doctor Yushi was hesitating, the queen didn't even look at me, she knelt down to King Quan Yu and said, "Does the emperor want to abolish the concubines?"
King Quan Yu didn't dare to look at her directly, and before he could answer, the queen asked sadly, "May I ask the emperor, what virtue did the concubine lose that made you decide to abolish the concubine? The concubine has served you for so many years and worked hard without complaint. Is there anything I did wrong?"
Then the queen looked at me fiercely, and accused me with words: "Or are you being instigated by villains to do such things that harm Mingjun?"
I warned myself to calm down, and shouted to the queen: "Do you think you can change anything with a few sophistry! As the mother of the country, you have not assumed the responsibility of procreating children; as the queen, you have no ability to command the harem; your family member Youshi is away. Domineering and domineering, oppressing the common people, do you still want to be in the back seat?"
The queen smiled sadly, "It's really a crime of wanting to add it, why not excuse it! Your Majesty, you and I are husband and wife, and my concubine has worked hard by your side for half a lifetime. Now that I am old, will I be reduced to a waste queen..."
"Doctor Yushi, what are you still doing in a daze?!" I said sternly to Doctor Yushi, because King Quan Yu had promised me before, and he was afraid of causing my displeasure, so he didn't dare to stop him.
Doctor Yushi hurriedly opened the imperial edict, and read out word by word, "When the weather is in order, I am ordered by you. The queen Youshi has no heirs, and she is persistent and resentful. She has violated the edict many times and has no virtue of "Guanju" , how can I entrust you to a young orphan, and respectfully accept Mingsi..." Before I read halfway, I saw Yao Niang coming out on her knees to stop her and said, "Don't read it, don't read it..." Then she moved to King Quanyu's knee , cried and said: "Your Majesty, don't read it anymore, even if you don't abandon Auntie, she may not have much time..."
As soon as this remark came out, everyone was shocked.Many maids in Fengyi Palace turned their faces away and quietly wiped away their tears. The queen clutched her chest with a painful expression, but she still said sharply: "Yao Niang, what nonsense are you talking about!"
Yao Niang looked back at the Queen, and cried, "Auntie has come to this situation, what are you hiding..." Then she said to the shocked King Quan Yu: "If your Majesty doesn't believe it, you can ask the two imperial physicians present. , They are here to see a doctor for my aunt today..."
The two imperial physicians hastily came out and said: "The empress...the empress discovered a lump and pain in her chest some time ago, but the empress insisted not to allow me to wait for close-up diagnosis and treatment, and only relied on geranium to suppress the pain. I'm afraid it's impossible to diagnose and treat as Miss Yaoniang said... The empress is so loyal and holy for the emperor, the servants can't help but dare to plead for the empress..."
After listening to the reports of the two imperial physicians, I was surprised that the queen had a hidden disease?
At this time, the queen was avoiding her and dared not look at my face. I suddenly remembered that when she banned the medical women's hospital a while ago, she said solemnly that if a woman has a hidden disease, it must be karma. .
Ah, then queen, what kind of karma did you get to lead to the current situation?
How ironic and funny this is.
Now that this is the case, what is the difference between the abolished empress and the non-abolished empress? If the empress died of hidden illness, she would not be allowed to enter the emperor's tomb to share her husband's tomb.
King Quan Yu looked at me with some reluctance, why should I play the role of that cruel person at this moment, and said to the queen with pride in my heart: "Queen, the Ai family really don't know what to say... Now that things are going on, what else can I pursue?" What about you? Just focus on recuperating well.”
The queen's face was full of shame and anger, but she couldn't say anything.
At this time, Yaoniang kowtowed to King Quanyu again, and she said in embarrassment and shame: "Your Majesty, I have another merciless request... Can you borrow the Miao doctor girl under the queen mother to come over and see for my aunt?" ... I really can't bear to see my aunt suffer... I heard from the imperial doctor that if I don't deal with it, I'm afraid it will fester after a while..."
"Yao Niang, shut up!" The queen yelled sharply, "If the beggar doesn't eat the food, how can I go back on my word! Everything is left to the fate, how can I go against the sky!"
I sneered and said: "The queen is right. How can the queen allow the filthy hands of the medical lady to touch her noble body? In this regard, you, Yaoniang, may not be as good as your aunt. Speaking of filth, I am sorry." Everyone thinks that Fengyi Palace is the most unclean right now, and you shouldn't stay longer, Your Majesty, let's go first."
After coming out, King Quan Yu said with emotion: "I never thought that I would end up in such a field."
Sensitively, I lowered my face and said, "What does this have to do with me?"
"I'm not saying that it's related to you, but the queen is quite emotional now. You know that she has always been stubborn, but she doesn't have much time, so why should you bother with her? Why don't you borrow the doctor's girl from her and ask her to help you?" The harem shows your generosity."
"I'm afraid it can't be done. If you ask me for someone for Yao Niang, let me tell you, it's probably not what your little lover wants."
King Quan Yu's expression changed, and he said, "Why did you mention her so suddenly? I'm just seeking truth from facts, and it would still be the same if it were someone else. When did you become like this, Nuxi?"
I saw that King Quan Yu was really angry, and I also secretly criticized myself for being too careless. After all, King Quan Yu and the Queen have been married for decades, and now she is sick but cannot be cured. He must be feeling uncomfortable at the moment. Why should I speak? stab him.
Maybe I shouldn't fight for this moment... So I changed my tone and explained to him: "I saw the queen like this today, she is also a woman, how can I not feel pity at all. What I just said It was just a moment of anger, I planned to go back and send Doctor Miao to visit her."
King Quan Yu's expression softened, "It seems that I misunderstood you..."
"It's just...the queen's illness must be cured. If I send someone there, if something happens during this period, I'm afraid someone will chew my tongue and say that I killed the queen. How can I not be scrupled." I worried. Tell King Quanyu.
"I will never doubt you, let alone allow others to talk, don't worry."
After a period of time, the queen, as everyone expected, died of a hidden disease.At the beginning, she rejected Dr. Miao many times, until she was so painful that she lost consciousness, so she didn't care about whether she was close to her and who was treating her.
I knew in my heart that the queen died a little earlier than she should have, but who can say that I did not benefit her, and let her be freed from this boundless pain earlier.The first thing after the Queen's death is that I should arrange for Shao He to take the throne.
The queen was still struggling in pain before she died, but with the last bit of strength, she took King Quan Yu's hand and said that she had something special to say to him.
I could even guess what she was going to say, but I couldn't stop this request, and King Quan Yu agreed to talk to her alone.
The queen said, the first must be to separate King Quanyu from me, and the second must be to tell him to take care of Yaoniang.
King Quan Yu should know my thoughts, he should know what answer I want.I tried my best to pretend to be calm, but I lowered my head and kept fiddling with the bracelet on my wrist, when I heard movement in the room, King Quan Yu came out with a painful expression on his face.
"The queen has gone." King Quan Yu said in a deep voice.
Everyone knelt down one after another, and the weeping of the harem concubines and the people of Fengyi Palace could be heard from behind.
King Quan Yu looked up at me, his expression was a bit difficult to express, but I understood what he meant... He agreed, he agreed.
Sure enough, King Quan Yu walked up to me while no one was paying attention, and explained: "When the queen was dying, she took my hand and said that I should take good care of her niece, saying that she had no one to live outside the palace... She was really sad when she left. Poor, I can't bear to refuse her request..."
So do you have the heart to see me like this now?I questioned him silently.
"I just want to arrange her to work in Concubine Zhuang De's palace, not to become my concubine." King Quan Yu hurriedly explained.
Forget it... I don't want to listen to his explanation anymore, I'm too tired after listening to so much.I don't care what he promised the queen, after the queen withdrew her coffin, I will drive Yaoniang out of the palace, even if I kill her after leaving the palace.
On the one hand, I am preparing to handle Shao He's ascension to the throne, on the other hand, I am waiting for the empress to evacuate the coffin in seven days, and in a few days, King Duanyu will escort Jiuzhen back to the palace.Finally, on the day when the queen evacuated the coffin, I wanted to find Yaoniang, but I was told that she was packing up her personal belongings in the bedroom where the former queen lived. I didn't ask the palace servants to follow me, and came to the bedroom alone.
After the queen's death, the place was in a mess, and many things still had time to be taken care of.It was even quieter in the hall, and most people were guarding the queen's coffin outside.
I gently turned around the crescent door, and finally came to the innermost room where the bed was placed.However, the scene in front of me is something I don't want to see. Yao Niang is kneeling on the ground, leaning against King Quan Yu's arms, and King Quan Yu's hand rests on her face, as if he is about to wipe away the tears on her face .
The brain suddenly surged with blood, and then went blank.I looked at the scene in front of me in disbelief.
After waking up, I immediately turned around, stumbled and just wanted to leave.At this moment, King Quan Yu was startled, and shouted from behind: "Slave!"
I ignored him at all and walked straight back.King Quan Yu ran in front of me, grabbed my shoulders and refused to let me go, panting roughly, "Yao Niang just passed out from crying, I just helped her out of desperation..."
"You were touching her face just now!"
"She cried so sadly, I, I don't know what to do, just for a while..."
King Quan Yu's explanation didn't make me happy, so I waved him away and continued walking regardless.
"Nu Xi, I really have nothing to do with her!"
"Enough!" I turned my head and shouted hoarsely: "Enough, I have heard enough of your sophistry! Even if all your explanations are true, but you are the emperor, tell me why you are alone with that woman Together? Where are your squires? Where are they without your orders?!"
King Quan Yu was at a loss for words, he couldn't answer this question at all, and he didn't even realize what he was doing.
My tears flowed out uncontrollably, "I hate you, I hate you! You bring me hope, but right now you are torturing my heart! I hate you!"
"Nuxi, it's my fault, it's my fault, can you give me another chance?" King Quan Yu begged in pain.
"Opportunity? Okay." Tears flowed down my face unstoppably, and I stared at King Quan Yu with swollen eyes, "You once said that you promised me everything, so now I want one last thing from you." Things—the life of Yao Niang. That person like Concubine You killed her."
Seeing what King Quan Yu wanted to say, I interrupted him fiercely and said, "I don't want you to tell me if this is right. I just want you to come to me with her life, otherwise... don't come to me again..."
This time King Quan Yu didn't come after him again.Thinking back on all the unusual things about him since Yao Niang appeared, I am even more convinced that it was not my superfluous intentions.He has changed, he has really changed... He himself has not found that his heart has violated his explanation and promise.
And I lost it all.Yao Niang is indeed nothing to be afraid of, I lost to Concubine You who was always hidden in his heart.
One day I saw a portrait of Concubine You...she looked like Yaoniang, even a bit blessed, with a peaceful demeanor.
Just because of such an ordinary woman... Isn't that true love?The person he loves her will not be diminished in the slightest because of her aging face.
And how can I compare with her, who seems to have both talent and beauty... It's really sad.
Sure enough, King Quanyu did not come back that night.
I clearly remember that the wind outside was blowing very tightly that night, as if it was howling.I curled up and wrapped the brocade quilt tightly, but my whole body was still shaking slightly.
I woke up early the next day, although my heart was extremely sad, but because today was the day when Jiuzhen came back, I still had to cheer up.
I didn't want my aunt to comb my hair, so I picked up the black pen on the dressing table and painted my eyebrows bit by bit.Numbly, I used the beautifully crafted bottles and jars on the table one by one in order, and finally picked up the bright red printing paper and sipped it on my lips several times.
Seeing myself in the mirror getting brighter and brighter, my heart didn't cheer up, and my face seemed haggard, so I couldn't help but smeared the red on my cheeks with my fingers.
I only had a little meal in the morning, and the palace servants were packing up the dishes and saw that I got up to leave, so they reminded me: "Empress Dowager, there is still a while before Emperor Ji comes back. Besides, if we really arrive at the gate of the palace, there must be a servant came to report."
I smiled feebly and said, "Go early and wait, there's nothing wrong anyway."
Waiting for some time, I was blowing the cold wind outside, and suddenly thought that if Shanshan was still here, I would not be so embarrassed, at least she would talk with me, and happily wait for Jiuzhen to return.
Later, when I finally saw the servant trotting to deliver the message, I hurriedly collected my state of mind and excitedly waited for Jiuzhen's sedan chair to appear.
Sure enough, after a while, I saw a group of people coming here in a mighty manner, and they were getting closer, until they saw clearly that it was King Duanyu in front of them.
When we arrived at Xixia Gate, King Duanyu got off his horse first and came to see me. I hurriedly got him up and said to him, "Thank you for your hard work."
I looked at Jiuzhen's sedan chair again. Jiuzhen was being helped to step down. I fixed my eyes and couldn't help but widen my eyes. Is this really my daughter Jiuzhen?
Has the little girl in my impression grown into such a charming girl? It seems that I haven't seen my daughter for several years.
Jiuzhen was wearing a crescent-colored brocade robe with light yellow carnation patterns and a red cloak trimmed with rabbit fur. She was holding a silk palace fan with flowers and birds in her hand. Look up and look around and swing slightly.
At this time Jiuzhen saw me, her eyes were full of surprises, she wanted to run towards me, but after thinking about it, she walked up to me dignifiedly, knelt down and bowed, and said softly: "Jiuzhen pays homage to her mother, may she be happy Ankang."
I hastily pulled Jiuzhen up, couldn't help the red eyes, choked up and said: "Whose daughter is this, she is so sensible. Hey, the queen mother is so happy to see you like this, I don't know what to say..."
At this time, Jiuzhen hugged me and cried: "Mother, my daughter misses you too. Please forgive my daughter for not being filial by your side these years. Aunt Shanshan didn't know how sad you were when she passed away... Mother, don't cry It's all my daughter's fault..."
Jiuzhen and I wiped each other's tears, I controlled my emotions, and said embarrassedly: "Look at the two of us making Prince Duanyu laugh like this." I couldn't help turning my head and thanking Prince Duanyu again: "Thank you so much, Teach Jiuzhen so well."
King Duanyu replied in a low voice: "If the Empress Dowager said that, she would be too far-fetched."
I understand his intentions, for all these years he must have devoted himself to protecting Jiuzhen.
I nodded to King Duanyu, then took Jiuzhen by the hand and led her to Eryu Palace, asking her about her situation there tirelessly along the way.
I once thought that because I had three more children, my love for Jiuzhen was not as focused as before.But when I saw Jiuzhen today, I knew it was not like that.
There will never be another child who can surpass my affection for Jiuzhen, because Jiuzhen is as important as my own life.She came here with me through thick and thin, and she once gave me the courage to continue living.It is still the same now, how many scars in my heart healed by her reappearance.
Because of King Duanyu's entry into the palace and Jiuzhen's return, King Quanyu will set up a welcome banquet in the harem tonight due to affection and reason. However, since the queen has just passed away, the banquet is also held in a very low-key manner.
I have no reason to stop this banquet, and I have no reason not to attend it, but I was talking to Jiu Zhen throughout the banquet, and I didn't take a look at King Quan Yu who was sitting on my left.
"Mother, you seem to have relaxed a bit. Have you been doing well these years..." Jiuzhen said distressedly.
Both King Quanyu and King Duanyu heard Jiuzhen's words, and I hurriedly covered it up: "How could it be, the queen mother has no worries about food and clothing. If it is true that she has lost weight, it is not because she has been missing you all the time."
Jiu Zhen lowered her head in shame, and then said: "My daughter is ashamed of her mother... But my daughter has not been playing around there for so many years. My daughter has learned a lot from Brother Twelve Emperors and his concubines. My daughter has learned a lot. In addition to playing the piano, calligraphy and painting, I also read a lot of poems. The concubines of the Twelve Emperor Brothers have many talents. Among them, the emperor's wife taught me embroidery, and Ge Ye taught me how to ride a horse. By the way, Concubine Yun's singing and dancing are very beautiful , is Ge Ye's biological mother..."
King Duanyu smiled wryly from below, and said to Jiuzhen: "If Diji said this in front of her mother, she would be ridiculous. If it is about piano, chess, calligraphy and painting, there are probably very few people who can catch up with your mother. Not to mention ..." King Duanyu was in a trance, "How many years ago, the fan dance performed by your mother's queen was so beautiful, as beautiful as heaven..."
Jiuzhen asked me in amazement: "Mother, can you dance? But my daughter has never seen you dance."
Yes...that fan dance changed my fate later on.How can I pick it up again, as soon as I touch it, it will be full of scarred memories.
I said sadly: "That happened many years ago... I am afraid that my body will never be able to dance anymore. But speaking of that banquet, the song played by Prince Duanyu really made people laugh." It's a heavenly song. Jiuzhen, you should thank the prince for passing such a song to you."
I was talking with Jiuzhen and King Duanyu, while King Quanyu was silent all the time.
"Mother, will my daughter dedicate this song to you tonight?"
I nodded slightly to her.
Jiuzhen completely changed in front of Qin, her expression was so serious and solemn.She raised her soft hands, lowered her eyebrows and played slowly.
It is indeed the long-lost rhythm... Although it is the same piece of music, it is not the same as King Duanyu's.It's just that the expression, the gesture, and the feeling of playing all made me feel the breath of King Duanyu.This is the daughter he raised, as good as he is.
Until Jiuzhen finished playing, I was still immersed in my own thoughts.
"Mother, mother?" Jiuzhen called me and asked nervously: "Mother, is your daughter playing well?"
"Of course," I took the lead in applauding, "Of course, every time I listen to this piece of music, my mother always thinks of many things. It's evocative, isn't this the state that everyone pursues when playing the piano? Proud."
On the contrary, Jiuzhen felt a little embarrassed, lowered her head and said modestly: "But I don't have any special feelings when my daughter plays. Brother Twelve Emperor told me that it was because I was still young, and I will definitely feel more and more deeply in the future."
I glanced at King Duanyu who was sitting below. It was exactly, and this is why King Duanyu and Jiuzhen played the same piece but gave people different impressions.If King Duanyu played it, it would be even more exciting.
During this period, King Quanyu and King Duanyu congratulated each other and toasted each other. More often, he toasted and drank silently. I don't know what he was thinking under his calm expression, or he was still thinking about what I would give him. There is a problem, or he is already thinking about Yao Niang who has no status to attend the banquet.
If it weren't for Jiu Zhen not knowing why and talking endlessly, the banquet would have been very awkward.
I said to Jiuzhen: "Daughter, we will sleep in the mother's bedroom today. Let's talk together under the quilt, okay?"
After I finished speaking, I could feel King Quan Yu's gaze on this side.
"Okay, my daughter has a lot to say to the queen mother." Jiu Zhen happily agreed.
After that, there was no other words, just listening to King Duanyu's answer to other people's questions and the suppressed dance below.
Unknowingly, he was toasted with a few glasses of wine by the concubine, and his mind became a little dazed.I knew I was probably drunk, so I raised my arms and gently pressed my forehead, hoping to wake up.
King Quan Yu finally spoke at this time, and told the left and right: "I'm afraid the queen mother is drunk, help the queen mother back."
"The Ai family is too strong to drink..." I knew that I might lose my manners if I kept on going, so I stood up and walked lightly, "You guys continue to drink happily, and the Ai family has to leave first. Before leaving, the Ai family should pay respects to Prince Yu at the end. A cup, thank you for taking care of Duoyi for so many years. Come, King Duanyu, Aijia toasts you."
King Duanyu hurriedly raised his cup and looked at me worriedly.I approached him, clinked the glass with him crookedly, and drank the wine in one gulp. Unexpectedly, my body was so weak that I couldn't support it, and I almost fell down.
King Duanyu frantically supported me, and then he heard King Quanyu sternly say to the left and right: "Servant! Why are you still standing there!"
I fell softly into King Duanyu's arms, gasped slightly, and thought to myself why I hadn't discovered that the incense on King Duanyu's body smelled so good...
I waved my hand to stop the servant who wanted to catch up, and said weakly: "Don't touch Ai's family with your dirty hands! King Duanyu, Ai's family is very dizzy, help Ai's family back..."
I put my hand on King Duanyu's arm, and I was about to leave staggeringly, when King Quanyu rushed over, pulled my left arm, and said in a deep voice, "I'm afraid King Duanyu doesn't know Eryu." The way to the palace, let me take the queen mother back."
Is it just superficial meaning that King Quan Yu said, or is he trying to imply something to King Duanyu?
Don't look at me with sad eyes, have you ever thought about how I feel when you show tenderness to Yaoniang?
So I shook his hand away with all my strength, and said coldly: "The emperor's filial piety... The heart of the family has been appreciated. The emperor should be busy with his own affairs."
When I came out, taking advantage of Jiuzhen's inattention, King Duanyu asked me in a low voice: "Nuxi, did you suffer any grievances here?"
I shook my head desperately, "Why, I'm just happy today and drank a few more glasses. Hey, I feel much better now that I'm blown by the night wind. You'd better go back to the palace first, and I'll ask the palace servants to take me back. "
King Duanyu said angrily: "I have been with you for so many years, how could I not know that if you drink when you are happy, you will not be so overwhelmed by alcohol."
"No, we've been separated for so many years, I've changed some of my habits a long time ago... You can't possibly know me as well as before." I strongly denied.
For the next few days, Jiuzhen slept with me all the time. It was impossible for King Quanyu to come over, and Yaoniang was still alive and well in Fengyi Palace.
In fact, I already knew in my heart that this would be the result, but my heart still hurts when I said that my heart was ashamed.
I am gratified that Jiuzhen finally returned to my side, because she is always clinging to King Duanyu, which also gave King Duanyu many reasons to come and go to Eryu Palace.After being separated for so many years, it was always a little strange to get along at the beginning, but when it comes to the plants and trees in the harem, we are all familiar with it, and we can't be more familiar with it. After that, both of them were full of emotions.
Jiuzhen listened to us recalling the past with surprise and envy. After listening, she said: "Mother, you and Brother Twelve Emperors are like the childhood sweethearts mentioned in the book? If you didn't marry Father Emperor later, I am afraid Now he is the child of the Twelve Emperor Brothers."
King Duanyu and I looked at each other, and King Duanyu stared at me tenderly and profoundly, just like King Quanyu looked at Concubine You through Yaoniang.Yes, King Duanyu and I are childhood sweethearts, but why did I fall into the bitter love for King Quanyu without hesitation at the beginning, but never thought about King Duanyu who was always by my side?
Am I a person who is easy to get but doesn't know how to cherish it?Or is King Quan Yu's father-like teaching and occasional reprimands what I have been longing for and pursuing since I was a child?
If I could go back in time, would I choose another life?Ask the emperor to marry her, and have children with King Duanyu, and live in harmony for the rest of her life.
"Mother, can we play a song together, the three of us?"
"At this moment, this scene matches that song, shall we play this song together?" I called the palace servants to bring musical instruments, and ordered them to open the windows. The snow that had already fallen all day reflected the vast expanse of whiteness outside. .
I know that in addition to playing the piano, King Duanyu is also good at playing the xun.King Duanyu also knows that although I often play the qin, I am also proficient in the pipa.So Jiuzhen played the qin, King Duanyu blew the xun, and I played the pipa, and the three of them echoed hummingly.
Such a scene made me temporarily forget the melancholy of so many days, and I just immersed myself in the melodious and melodious music, and my heart seemed to be purified.
The charcoal fire occasionally crackled.
After playing, I heard Nian Huan coughing softly outside.我叫她进来，年欢小步到我面前，在我耳边低声说：“刚刚皇上过来了，不过看见您在弹琴，在门口站了会儿就离去了……”
听到这话没有一点反应那是骗人的，但是过了一会儿我平静下来，解释说：“他恐怕是过来跟哀家商议一下皇后登位一事的……”
那么多天以来我和九珍与端豫王相处得很开心，亦是我首次没有催促让端豫王离开，不知为什么，突然舍不得他，不舍得放开和他在一起时心中的安宁。
转眼又到了上元灯节，而与权禹王共度上元灯节的日子已经不堪回首。
那天我沐浴更衣，出来后我像小时候一样，喜欢随意披着浴袍拖着湿漉漉的长发光着脚走来走去，后被告知端豫王已经等候一些时候了。我忽然想起，他应该是来向我来告别的，我留他到元宵节之后，然而待了一个多月的时间，他是不得不走了，也没有理由再留在这里。
我被人服侍着披上长袍，命人将端豫王请进小厅，那里面早已生了许多炭盆，温暖如春。
我靠在矮几上，两名宫娥低着头在后面细细为我擦干头发。
端豫王进来时先怔了一下，我有些不好意思地对他解释说：“请原谅哀家如此失礼……但若是等到头发干了，恐怕还要亲王候好些时候呢。”
端豫王眼睛不敢向前看，干咳了一下说：“没什么。太后随意好了。”
我见端豫王并未和九珍一起，想必是趁九珍不粘他时而来，这么多天还从未单独在一起过，走之前恐怕有些话要对我说吧。于是看头发干得差不多，就差左右服侍的宫娥出去了。
一时间两人无言，我低垂着眼眸像犯错误的小女孩般不敢说话。
“奴兮，可以像以前那样坐到我身边来吗？”端豫王突然开口恳求道。
我不忍驳他的意，点了点头，乖巧地来到他身边坐了下来。
他故作轻松地说：“看见你这个样子，我忽然想起小时候有一次我过去找你，你也是这样刚刚沐浴出来。”端豫王神色恍惚地回忆道，“不过你没有披上宫娥送上的外袍，对她们说'十二皇子不是外人'，就毫无拘束地坐在我身旁，然后我们一起看着外面的雨渐下渐大。你还记得吗？”
“记得……怎么不记得。我还知道那是我和你吵架和好后不久的事。”
端豫王点了点头，轻笑着说：“我一直没告诉你，那天你的脚有一点儿露在了衣外，害得我当时不知道眼睛往哪儿放，心扑通扑通跳得厉害。”
听他这么说，我能想象得到他那时的窘态，不由得轻声笑了出来。
端豫王却突然不笑了，他转头看向我，眼眸黑得深不见底。我心中不由得又想，九珍的眼睛和他长得多像啊。
“奴兮，小时候我们多好啊。那个时候你大大咧咧的，跟我什么也不顾忌，整天十二皇子、十二皇子地叫着，有时候也不怕犯忌讳直呼我的名字。你总喜欢跟我比个头，一直都是踮起脚尖比，还从不服输，直到后来你踮起脚也够不到我了才作罢。你还喜欢我抱着你转圈圈，直到停下时两人都看着对方上气不接下气，又是笑作一团……”
端豫王感慨着小时候发生的事，说出来明明是趣事，可是我听着听着不知道怎么眼睛就蒙上一层湿雾，于是慌忙低下头来，只有不停地点头算是回应。
“奴兮，跟你在一起的这一个多月，让我想起了很多很多咱们小时候的事。那年我十岁，是刚认识你的第一年，我对你说：'奴兮，我会保护你，不让任何人欺负你。'我记得我对你的承诺，我不愿意你受委屈，你现在这样，我走了不放心。”
我摇着头，多想回答：“我没事。”可是说出来就是自欺欺人。
他拉起我的手，问我：“奴兮，你和我在一起快乐吗？”那是他小时候问我的话。
那一刻仿若时光在倒流，他变成了那个十岁的男孩，而我又重回八岁的女孩。
“快乐呀。”我僵硬地，像小时候那样回答。
“那……那以后我们永远在一起，直到老，好不好？”
那个时候我的回答是“好”。
“好……”我的口中轻轻地吐出这个字，说出来已经是潸然泪下。
他伸手自然地搂住了我，我无声地顺着他的姿势靠在他的肩上。
他轻轻抚摸我半干的长发，说：“你的头发是多么美啊……那天也是这样的发香，搅动着一个少年情窦初开的心，至今依旧令人悸动。”他突然扳过我的肩膀，让我直视着他，下定决心般地说：“奴兮，我想和你在一起，我还是想和你在一起。”
我不知道如何开口回答他。
端豫王激动地说：“这么多天，我一直在想，我为什么要控制自己呢？你告诉我我为什么一定要抑制自己的心意。从小时候见到你的第一眼起，你就在我心里，我为什么从未告诉过你我心中真正的想法、令我每夜辗转反侧的想法——我想让你成为我的。不只是琴瑟和鸣，我还想让你真实地在我怀里，甚至在你每一寸的肌肤上都印上我的痕迹，我想，我无时无刻不这么想……”
听着端豫王带着痛苦的语气说着这些，我的泪流得更凶了，这并不是他的错，是我一直辜负着他。
我低头埋在他的胸膛，他稍放开我，看着我坚定地说：“奴兮，即便你恨我，我也……”然后将我紧紧地拉回他的身体，捧起我深情地亲吻上我的唇，那一次我没有拒绝。
我在他的怀里看见了暴风雨……上天！哪怕我此刻犯的是滔天大罪，哪怕这罪孽之身若能让他感到丝毫的快乐，我也不会放手。
若是真有来生，我依旧愿意与你青梅竹马，但我们要生死相守，白头到老……
我疲累地靠在白玉台上，八大青铜凤首中汩汩流出水来，四周升腾着水汽，汤白色的水池中零星地漂荡着梅花花瓣。
端豫王从后面搂住我，带着水流动的声音。他轻轻地亲吻着我的脖颈，喃喃地说：“这多么像一场梦，如同那天一般的美梦……”
我无力地甚至不想睁开眼睛，感伤地说：“那么就让我们一辈子不要从梦中醒来……”
“不，我们要醒来，我还要把它变成日复一日的现实。”
我惊恐地摇头道：“不，今生的命运已经如此，谁也无法改变……如果有来世，我嫁给你。但现在，不要再做什么，我亦再无所求……”
见端豫王还欲说些什么，我伸手堵上他的嘴，对他再次摇了摇头。
当一切渐渐归为理智，我亦不会对刚才的事情后悔。然而我辨别不出，到底我是真心怜惜端豫王，还只是被伤害得心如死灰后向他寻求慰藉？不不，我和他之间的姻缘已经不是一两个因由就可以解释的了。
只是……为什么我将自己给他，却感觉伤害了他。
端豫王离开了，在九珍不舍的眼泪和我伤感的心绪之中。
再过几日便是邵禾被册立为后的日子，她的母亲因此被封为邛国夫人，她的父亲被追封为平山侯，一时间家门荣耀至极。
凤仪宫易主，身为先后女官的幺娘已经不再有滞留在那儿的理由。直到有一天，我听人说权禹王留在了那里没有出来，又过了几天，幺娘搬到了本是留给贵妃的居所雎鸠宫。
权禹王，这便是你这么多天思考后给我的答案么。
我和端豫王也……我和他再也回不到过去了。
太妃的日子过得清闲无聊，而作为孀居的太后亦被视为同命相怜，于是她们经常来我这尔玉宫走动，对于幺娘搬到雎鸠宫一事自然少不了议论。
其中椒好啧啧说道：“你们说这叫什么事儿呀。现在全宫上上下下，最怕遇见她，住在雎鸠宫，却不是贵妃，见了也不知道该行什么礼，该以何称呼。对外说是给雎鸠宫守门的，可是雎鸠宫也不是空一天两天了……”
“不是听说雎鸠宫的宫人已私下以娘娘相称了么？”颛福时的一位妃子说道。
“这……你们说皇上到底临没临幸她啊？”
椒好神秘地低声说：“你们没听说宫中私下流传的处子血染龙袍的事吗？那件事啊，十有八九是真的。”
“血染龙袍，那岂不是大不吉……”穆宗时的赵婕妤担忧说道。
我听到这些已经是感到很麻木了，如同局外人般开口说：“哀家说你们啊，谈论这些事情似乎是乐在其中，如此口无遮拦。”
“我们怕什么呀，这日子过得也就剩下能说说话了。”众太妃纷纷说。
算了，我倒也能理解她们的心情，谁说以后我不是这样过日子呢？我推开矮几，站起来对她们兴致勃勃地说：“似乎许久不玩射覆游戏了，上次郝太妃玩得最好，这次谁若拔得头筹，哀家便把那匹绿盈春缎送给她。人生得意须尽欢，我们何必辜负时光，不及时行乐呢？”
哎，原来又是一年的玉兰花开……权禹王在后宫种植了许多的玉兰树，竟是避也避不开。不过这玉兰花洁白似雪，真的是美丽动人。古人时常感伤花落无情，但是花落还会开，人被伤了又该如何抚平呢？
走着走着，我停下了脚步。远远地竟看见也在附近赏观玉兰的权禹王，而他此时也明显看到了我，让我心中不禁一沉。
这段时间以来除了必要的朝见与他不咸不淡地说几句话外，私下竭力避免与他相处，难道这偌大的宫廷之内也要应了冤家路窄那句话吗。
他神色复杂地望着我，感到他欲向我这儿奔来，我毫不犹豫地转过身去。
“皇上，您看这么多春天的花儿，回去装扮雎鸠宫一定也有春天生机勃勃的气息吧。”背后传来一阵温和的声音，想必他正是和幺娘一起出来赏花的。
于是没有人再追过来，这样反而好。我绕了路才到凤仪宫，凤仪宫自从邵禾登位后，我又操办着重新装修了一番，现在已经是新人新气象了。
邵禾再不济，在后宫生活了这么长时间，也算是有点重妃的排场了。但她对我始终是毕恭毕敬的，因为她知道我与权禹王的关系，所以也从未像其他妃嫔般提起关于幺娘的事。
“太后娘娘，您怎么来了？若是有什么事，召唤臣妾到尔玉宫就是了。”邵禾诚惶诚恐地前来迎接。
“今天小厨房正巧做了豌豆糕送到尔玉宫，哀家想这正巧是四皇子爱吃的，便当作散步带了过来。不过，”我自嘲地说道，“现在还真有点后悔了呢。”
邵禾不明所以地看着我，我摆手说没什么，又问起雾儿是否在。
“啊，雾儿被姑姑带出去玩了，臣妾现在就遣人把他找回来。”邵禾回答，想当初她一直称雾儿为四皇子，我提醒过她，而她现在叫雾儿和弘儿已经十分顺口了。
我抱着弘儿等了一会儿，就见雾儿兴冲冲地回来了，他见到我也十分高兴的样子，亲昵地叫了声太后娘娘把我的心仿佛都融化了。
邵禾指着桌上的豌豆糕对雾儿说：“这是太后娘娘特意给你带过来的，还不快谢过太后娘娘。”
雾儿被宫娥伺候着擦干净手，嘴上谢过我后，便迫不及待地拿了一块。
只见他直接把豌豆糕塞到邵禾手里，带着孩童的声音认真地说：“母后先吃。”
邵禾愣了一下，然后眉开眼笑起来，那样子是只有当母亲才有的满足和欣慰。稍后她觉得有点不妥，对雾儿轻声责备说：“哪能这么没有规矩呢，有东西要先请太后娘娘品尝。”
雾儿有些迷惑，又将邵禾手里的点心送到我跟前来。而此刻我仿佛被打翻五味瓶般，哪有什么心情吃呢？
邵禾刚才的笑意刺痛了我。她现今的称心我来讲是多么的突兀啊。
之前我怎么那么傻，还以为自己万事如意。可实际上，丈夫不是丈夫，儿子不是儿子。
我要我的儿子……我低头看着怀里的弘儿，趁他们还不懂事，我没有时间再等了。
那天的事情着着实实刺激了我，更坚定了我实施一直以来埋藏于心的计划。
接下来的一个月里我对邵禾确实很好，我将她的两个妹妹都安排了好人家，还特许她的母亲在非节非日的时候进宫来看她，赏赐更是不断，话里话外一直都是对她这么多年养育两位皇子的感激。
那一日天色有些小阴，天空却没有一丝风。我又来到凤仪宫，问及雾儿和弘儿，邵禾颇歉意着说弘儿还在午睡，雾儿刚刚被皇上叫过去问话，问我是否要叫醒弘儿，我阻止了她，那正是我想要的。
邵禾虽然贵为皇后，但宫人数量却是在规格内较少的，人多嘴杂，这也是为了掩人耳目减少一些麻烦。
邵禾叫身边的宫娥去泡茶，我吩咐她说：“给哀家泡些清甜的茶来，最近正好这个。”
我坐定和邵禾说着话，不一会儿宫娥便端着青禾茶出来了，我接过品了一小口然后皱眉道：“怎么会是苦味道的呢？”
邵禾也喝了一口，听我如此说放下手中杯子，诧异地凑过来说：“怎么会呢，正是有丝丝的甜味呀。”
我将茶递给她说：“你帮哀家尝尝看，是不是哀家的味觉出问题了。”
邵禾毫无戒备地接过去喝了一口，不解地说：“正是清甜的呢。”
“唉，”我轻叹了口气，忧心地说：“怕是近日哀家的肝脾不和，所以尝什么都是发苦。”
“太后保重凤体，要不然还是找……”邵禾说着说着突然不太自然，她抑制不住咳了咳，但还努力说道：“还是找太医看看吧。这种事马虎……”邵禾咳得更厉害了，她只得转过头去重重咳了几下。
邵禾拿出绢帕掩住嘴，不好意思地说：“在太后面前失仪了。这种事马虎不得……”说完这话后邵禾突然攥住胸口，似乎很难受的样子。
“皇后，你怎么了？”我问。
邵禾惊恐地看着我，从喉咙里勉强挤出几个字，“太后，臣妾好难受……不能，不能呼吸了……”
我变了脸色，扶住她道：“怎么会这样？快，你们快去叫太医！”
当四下宫人跑去找人，此时邵禾的脸色已经涨得发青，她扼住自己的脖子，样子十分痛苦。我轻轻地为她拍着背，在她耳边忧伤地说：“好孩子……再过一小会儿就不会痛苦了。”
邵禾睁大眼睛看向我，她明白了我说话的意思，她直视着我眼睛越瞪越大。
她的意思是想问为什么吗？是想问我为什么会杀她吗？我怎么说呢……也许就是她太把我的儿子当成她自己的儿子了吧。
“母后，外面下雨了，儿臣回来拿……”谁也想不到雾儿会在此时闯了进来。
雾儿看见此时的景象呆住了，他下意识地问：“母后，您怎么了？”
邵禾根本说不出话来，但她用尽最后的力气拿手指指着我，目瞪欲裂。
“奶娘，快带四皇子下去，还愣着干什么！”我心中一惊，立刻反应过来，厉声命令奶娘道。
这位奶娘是善善那边的人，看见此景也不说什么，拉着雾儿的手就往外面走。
雾儿不走，被扯着哭道：“安，你干什么？我要母后，我要母后，她到底怎么了……”
“四皇子，皇后娘娘怕是得了急病，您实在不宜在场添乱，太后守着她，一会儿太医会过来的……”奶娘子安解释的声音越来越远。
而此时邵禾也停止了呼吸。她瞪着眼，嘴角却浮现诡异的笑容。
邵禾……你死之前一定是非常恨着我吧。你想不通为什么这么多年尽心尽力照顾我的孩子，反而落得现在的下场。可是为了和我的孩子在一起，我别无他法，我以后会善待你的家人。
我伸手缓缓地将邵禾的双眼抚上。
邵禾之死一切症状都符合暴病身亡，太医院的太医们如是论断。更何况她喝的是自己宫内沏的茶，而在外人看来我也实在没有道理会加害自己一手扶持起来的皇后，因此无人怀疑。
甚至许多人私下议论说恐怕邵禾终是福薄，担不起这天大的恩赐，便早早折了寿去了，引得不少人一番唏嘘感慨。
在邵禾的灵柩面前，我掩面而泣，悲不自胜。谁说这里面没有我真情实感在呢。
我将雾儿和弘儿接到我的尔玉宫去，弘儿还懵懂不知，雾儿则有时流泪有时沉默。
我尽心尽力地照顾两个孩子，尤其是雾儿，时常拿些好吃好玩的哄他，就是希望他早日摆脱这所谓丧母之情。
“哀家真是怕那天的事给他留下什么心理阴影……”我不安地对雾儿的奶娘子安说。
奶娘子安安慰我道：“四皇子还少不更事，现在离了人，肯定不适应。小孩子忘性大，再过几年哪还记得这些事呢。况且看样子便知四皇子是孝子，以后没有不报太后养育之恩的道理啊。”
我认同地点了点头，的确，再过上十年半载，雾儿哪还会记得这事呢，他现在甚至还不明白死亡的意义，只是哭哭闹闹地说要见母后。
可是为什么我现在依旧深刻记得小时候父亲残暴对待我娘的事，小时候快乐的事情记不大清了，但对这件事却一直耿耿于怀。
这时九珍怒气冲冲地走进来，抱怨说：“吵死了，吵死了，那两个小子闹得很，女儿都不能好好练琴！”
我看了九珍一眼，淡淡地说：“你在你的小雅斋练你的琴，他们怎么扰到你了？”
“练琴怎可闭门造车，女儿本想在庭院中修身养性，陶冶情操，可耳边不时传来那两个小子的吵闹声，还有什么意境可言！”九珍烦躁地说。
“你呀，就知道笑话别人，你不知你小时候闹腾得比他们还欢畅呢。那时候宫人可都怕你，也就孝宗皇帝性情好容得下你。”
九珍被我提及往事，一下子涨红了脸，小声说：“小时候的事您也拿来取笑女儿，叫人怪难为情的……”
我和奶娘子安见了，不由得都笑出声来。
这时年欢匆匆走进来禀告说：“太后娘娘，皇上派人请您到勤政殿去一趟。”
我并不觉得太吃惊，他想必是质问我邵禾一事，我到那儿去也好，免得说些儿女情长的话来。
我来到勤政殿时，权禹王已经站在御案前等我。他挥手叫其他人退下，我则突然说：“王全你留在这里。”
王全左右为难，询问地看向权禹王，权禹王唯有沉默同意了。
他果然开口问我：“邵禾的死是怎么回事？”
“难道太医们没有对皇帝说吗？”我反问道。
“太医说是他们的，朕是问你到底怎么回事。”
“正如太医们所说的，皇帝再问哀家是什么意思呢？”
权禹王有些痛苦的不在这上面纠缠，直接点明说：“雾儿对朕说，当时你也在场，邵禾死前拿手指着你。”
我心中一惊，雾儿小小年纪便有如此心计吗？在我面前装作若无其事，却在背后对他的父皇说起这件事，是小孩子童言无忌吗？
我冷笑道：“那又怎么样呢，皇帝是怀疑哀家什么吗？皇上是想查办此事，然后治哀家的罪？还是要废掉哀家？皇帝废掉先后尚且如此困难，要废掉哀家，恐怕也没有那个本事！”
我死死地盯着权禹王，以极其强硬的姿态面对他而站，丝毫不肯泄露出自己半点软弱。
权禹王望了我半晌，突然有些泄