Chapter 9 Chapter 9 A Woman's Capital

Then my expression suddenly changed, this medicine is poisonous! I slammed the medicine bowl on the ground, and the porcelain bowl fell into pieces immediately, and the black medicine also overflowed, slowly spreading around, as if implying some kind of conspiracy. I didn't explain anything to the bewildered Zhu Yu, but secretly called Ruyi and asked, "Who sent this medicine?" Ruyi replied: "It is said that it was sent by the emperor...the one who delivered the medicine has always been that Gong'e, it seems to be the girl named Shuang'er who is serving the emperor."

Why?Why did Zhuan Fu do that, to poison his own child and queen? I went straight to the Hall of Qinzheng, and saw Zhuan Fu sitting there reviewing the memorials. Zhuan Fu was surprised to see me come back, and asked, "Queen Mother, why did you come back early?" I told Zhuan Fu what happened just now, but Zhuan Fu also changed his face, and said in surprise: "There is such a thing?!" I looked at Zhuan Fu suspiciously, and questioned, "It was Shuang'er, who was always sent by the emperor to deliver medicine, to deliver it." At this time, Qiu Quan said in surprise, "Shuang'er? Just now the emperor's teacup was empty, but she was called Shuang'er, but he didn't agree. We were just wondering where she went."

I lowered my head and fell into deep thought. If Shuang'er was not sent by Zhuan Fu, then who is she working for? "Come here, go and get Shuang'er..." Just as Zhuan Fu ordered, he saw a eunuch trotting in. He hesitated for a while, but he still greeted Zhuan Fu and me, and then said: "A guard said just now, A female corpse was found in the Imperial Garden, it seems to be Shuang'er! Her face is purple and foaming at the mouth, she must have died of poisoning!" Kill and silence!No proof! Zhuan Fu and I were shocked and looked at each other. I asked Jiao Hao who was kneeling below with a sullen face, "Did you send someone to poison the queen?"

Jiao Hao's face suddenly turned pale, and he replied, "Queen Mother, how could you doubt your concubine?!" "The Ai family has to suspect you. Because in the harem you are the most competitive, jealous, and usually the most disrespectful towards the queen." Jiao Hao was frightened and wronged, "Yes, the queen mother is right, maybe the concubine is really jealous of the queen, the queen who can give birth to an heir first. But who is not jealous of the women in the harem? It's just that the concubine is stupid. It's all for the concubine to show it. Although she lacks respect for the queen, it doesn't mean that the concubine dares to do something to poison her!"

I was dubious about Jiao Hao's words, so I bowed my head and remained silent. "Isn't there a saying that the most dangerous enemy is the one who hides the deepest? Maybe the person who did this is the most gentle and virtuous person!" "Who are you suspecting?" Jiao Hao bowed her head and thought for a while, then said: "Concubine Dan. If you say that you are the most jealous, it should be the concubine Dan who is barren. The emperor goes to her so often, but she has nothing. Instead, she is conceived by the neglected queen." Is she pregnant? This is the biggest irony for her, right? Besides, she was loved by thousands of people before, but after the relocation, the emperor doesn't even look at her anymore. I'm afraid she is also dissatisfied with you, the queen mother. I'm lost She who is full of resentment will inevitably not do such a terrible thing."

What Jiao Hao said is not unreasonable, but the relationship between Jiao Hao and Dai Jun is not good. Maybe this is just to evade the crime or put the blame on Dai Jun? In fact, I really don't want to go to Ruique Palace again in my heart, maybe I have some guilt in my heart.I found that I still can't understand Zhuan Fu, he even quarreled with me because of Dai Jun before, but now when we can be together, he doesn't care about Dai Jun. Ruique Palace is very quiet, and there are very few people coming and going, completely losing the momentum of the palace of the four concubines, which also declares the loneliness of the concubine who lives there.

When I arrived, Mr. Tai was copying Buddhist scriptures. Although she was still very young, she was wearing a dark green dress with simple patterns, as if her whole person was gloomy.In a trance, I remember hearing such a saying that if a person goes to the path of Buddhism, he must be in extreme hardship and have nothing to rely on in his heart, so he seeks spiritual sustenance and comfort in this way. Dai Jun served me tea respectfully, with neither joy nor anger on his expression. "Have you heard that the queen was almost poisoned?" "The concubine doesn't know." Dai Jun didn't change his expression at all, just replied lightly.

I couldn't figure out the meaning behind her reaction, and then I asked: "Where were you during the imperial confinement yesterday, who were you with, and what did you do?" Tai Jun lowered his eyebrows and replied: "Yesterday I didn't walk out of Ruique Palace for half a step, and no one came to visit my concubines. I was just with the palace people. I can't remember what I was doing at that time." I didn't find any clues or flaws from Mr. Dai's reply, so I'm afraid I won't be able to find anything if I ask again. I coughed and said something irrelevant to the purpose of this trip, "Is your life okay? Has anyone cheated or made things difficult for you?"

The aunt next to Dai Jun was about to complain, but Dai Jun replied first: "This is very good." I don't know if Mr. Dai deliberately used such a light expression and an indifferent attitude to condemn me and satirize me, but I felt very uncomfortable in my heart, so I just sat there for a while and then left embarrassingly. After cross-examining like this, everyone seems to be suspicious, but everyone is defending their innocence. The key is that Shuang'er, the only person who knows everything, can no longer speak, and the matter still has no result in the end. Later, I ordered everyone in the harem not to send food or even items to Zhu Yu for any reason until the child was born healthy.

"Queen Mother, please don't worry about it like that. This should be the son's business." Zhuan Fu said distressedly. I sighed, "Fortunately, Ai's family came back early. If anything happens, Ai's family will never feel at ease for the rest of their lives." "Mother, in fact, you don't have to take this matter so seriously." I smiled helplessly and said, "For an old man like me, the meaning of staying in the palace is to protect the emperor, your child." Zhuan Fu thought for a while and said: "Then the minister and the queen mother will guard together. The minister will pay more attention to the queen in the future and will never let this kind of thing happen again. Please rest assured, the queen mother."

Zhu Yu's swollen belly became more prominent. I gently stroked Zhu Yu's belly, and said to myself, "According to this shape, no matter how you look at it, it's a boy." It just so happened that Zhuan Fu also came to visit at this time, I called Zhuan Fu to come over, put his hand lightly on Zhu Yu's belly that protruded like a small hill, and said to him: "Emperor, come and feel it, this is the first one you have inside." Where is the child?" Zhuan Fu looked up at Zhu Yu, who lowered her head in embarrassment. Zhuan Fu's hand covered it, rubbing it lightly. I was relieved to see this scene, and was about to tell Ruyi to drink tea, when suddenly I heard Zhu Yu whispering: "Your Majesty, it hurts! Don't press it so hard..." "emperor?!" Zhuan Fu suddenly came to his senses, let go of his hand hastily, and blamed himself: "Ah, I was not careful, I didn't mean it." "Emperor," I complained softly, "this little life is still very fragile, you have to be careful." "I will pay attention next time. Empress, because the queen is pregnant, the atmosphere in the harem has been a little tense, which is not conducive to the queen's pregnancy. I thought it would be better to hold a banquet to make the harem lively, and at the same time, it can be regarded as a celebration of the queen's pregnancy. one thing." "Wow, that's a good idea. It's been a long time since the harem has been busy." I agreed. The banquet was held on a grand scale, not only did Concubine Hui and Zhuan Ming be invited, but also the relatives in the harem were allowed to invite their mothers and sisters. Zhuan Fu and Zhu Yu were sitting on both sides of me. Zhuan Fu was looking around, looking for something, but Zhu Yu seemed a little cramped today and dropped his bowls and chopsticks several times. After a while, Jingming came over and whispered in my ear: "Miss, look, the emperor has been staring at that lady." I looked at Zhuan Fu, and I was really a little dazed. Following his gaze, there was a slim girl sitting on the seat in front, she was really a beauty. Compared with the harem, that appearance is more than inferior, and it is not an exaggeration to describe it as sinking fish and falling geese, and closing the moon to shame the flowers. "Who is that girl? Such an outstanding appearance was not selected into the palace." I asked Shanshan. Shanshan replied in a low voice: "This young lady is Wancai's cousin, she comes from a famous family, her great-grandfather once served as a minister in the Daqian court, but she was still young when she was drafted, and it was only recently that she was able to perform the ceremony. .” "No wonder." I said clearly, it seems that Zhuan Fu has fallen in love with that beautiful girl. At this time, Zhuan Fu stood up and said in a drunken tone, "Go and deliver this plate of melons and fruits to that young lady." The little eunuch understood and brought it in front of the girl. The little girl and the people around were all taken aback, and the little girl got up quickly to thank her. Zhuan Fu asked, "What's your name?" The girl lowered her eyebrows and replied softly: "The daughter of the people, Mrs. Jiang, has a single name." Zhuan Fu nodded and said, "Jiang Qing, Jiang Qing, do you know that in terms of appearance, you are the most beautiful I have ever seen, not the first, but also the second most beautiful, so I can easily notice you." Jiang Qing shyly replied: "The emperor has praised you..." "Absurd praise?" Zhuan Fu said with a smile, "I'm not talking nonsense. If you don't believe me, let me ask other people. What do you think, Empress?" I smiled and nodded. "What do you think, Mrs. Hui?" Concubine Hui replied: "Of course the emperor's vision is not bad." Zhuan Fu turned his head and asked Zhu Yu, "Empress, what do you think, if any man marries her, wouldn't it be a great blessing?" When Zhuan Fu asked the queen these words, everyone felt that the emperor's intention to accept Jiang Qing as a concubine was already obvious. Zhu Yu was slightly embarrassed, but she still replied calmly: "What the emperor said is...if you marry such a beauty." "Jiang Qing, look, I'm not wrong, oh, that's right." Zhuan Fu finally asked Zhuan Ming who was sitting below: "Fifth Emperor Brother, you and I are both men. From your point of view, Jiang How is Qing?" Zhuan Ming stood up and replied in fear and fear: "Of course it is just like what the emperor said, it is the appearance that can overwhelm a country and a city." Zhuan Fu smiled and said, "Jiang Qing, you are a lucky person. Wait for the good news from the palace in a few days." On the second day, when Zhuan Fu came to Eryu Palace to pay his respects, he said, "Mother, about Jiang Qing..." I think the matter of asking Jiang Qing to enter the palace is really about to be mentioned. It's really rare to see Zhuan Fu caring so much about a woman. However, Zhuan Fu continued to say: "I want to promise this Jiang Qing to Zhuan Ming." This is beyond my expectation, isn't Zhuan Fu interested in her?Zhuan Fu didn't keep such a beautiful woman for himself, but gave it to Zhuan Ming? "Emperor, what do you mean by this move?" Zhuan Fu replied: "Too many things happened a while ago, I have been ignoring my brother, but when I saw him a few days ago, I suddenly realized that he is already a tall and straight boy, he has grown up, he should be a king It's time. According to Dayin's ancestral system, isn't it necessary to marry a wife before being named a prince? So this son-in-law wanted to make this marriage happen." It turned out to be like this... To be honest, I have never waited to see Zhuan Ming's child, so I didn't pay much attention to his affairs. Thinking about it this way, I have indeed reached the age to be a prince. No wonder Concubine Hui has been hesitant to speak recently. It turned out that it was because of Zhuan Ming's appointment as king. I'm afraid she also knows my attitude towards Zhuan Ming, so it's too late to open her mouth. "Things can be done according to the emperor's will... But the Ai family thinks that Jiang Qing is really beautiful, so the emperor doesn't feel it is a pity?" Zhuan Fu smiled, and replied: "I don't know if my mother still remembers what my son said. My son said that she is not the most beautiful, but she is also the second most beautiful. But, I have already seen the most beautiful, so what?" Would you feel sorry for it?" "Oh? The most beautiful one? Where is it?" I asked curiously. Zhuan Fu paused, and replied, "In my son's heart." After that banquet, Zhu Yu's health became unwell, and she heard from the servants that she was moody, crying and laughing at the same time. Several times, Zhu Yu even cried bitterly and begged me: "Queen Mother, I don't want to have a child anymore... I don't want to have this child anymore." I only thought that she was having trouble during pregnancy, but I didn't take it seriously, I only had good words to comfort her. One day, Concubine Hui came to see me and brought a lot of dim sum made by herself.I was chatting and laughing with her when I heard Concubine Hui sigh suddenly. I knew she had something to tell me, so I stopped smiling and asked calmly, "Does Concubine Hui have something on her mind? You and I are both smart people, so you might as well speak up if you have something to say." Concubine Hui replied with some embarrassment: "The Empress Dowager, that child Zhuan Ming said that he doesn't want to get married..." My complexion changed slightly, "This is the emperor's decree personally, won't the wedding be held in ten days or so?" "Of course the concubine knows the pros and cons. It's just that Zhuan Ming is at that age, and his heart is too rebellious. The concubine would not listen to his persuasion. He also said that if he is forced to get married, he will be like the nine princes of the late emperor. I want to become a monk. As a mother and concubine, my concubine is anxious, so I will tell you to see if you can think of a way..." Dowager Hui said in a very embarrassed way. "Going to become a monk?" I snorted coldly, "What's wrong with Dayin's princes, none of them want to get married, and they threaten to become a monk. Who is this tempered against?" Concubine Hui lowered her head. "Go back and tell the fifteenth prince that the emperor is thinking about the marriage. Jiang Qing is the emperor's choice to give him a beautiful girl. After marriage, he can be named a prince. What's wrong with him? If he really wants to become a monk, let him think about the way out, which monastery would dare to accept him." "Hey, the concubine will try to persuade him when he goes back... Queen Mother, don't be angry with him. After all, he is still young and ignorant." "Concubine Hui, Aijia and you are old friends. Aijia respects your character and wisdom. It's just that although Zhuanming has been with you for more than ten years, he doesn't behave like you at all. Could it be that this child Or did he follow his biological mother? This child is calculating and ambitious, but it is easy to be seen by others, which is very dangerous for him. After all, you are only his child, you must educate him well Him." I said to Concubine Hui sincerely. In the end, Zhuan Ming and Jiang Qing got married smoothly, but I was a little surprised by Zhuan Fu's way of making the king. Zhuan Fu's love for his younger brother is obvious to all. Everyone thought that Zhuan Fu would treat him especially preferentially in the fief, but they didn't want Zhuan Ming to be named the King of Ningshan in the end. The fief is Ningshan, a remote place far from the capital. I think Zhuan Fu must have his reasons for doing this, maybe he finally discovered that the princes are the biggest threat to the imperial power. One month after he became king, Zhuan Ming was about to leave for his fiefdom. Before he left, he looked around the palace for the last time with infinite sentimentality, but in the end he smiled as if to comfort himself. This year’s winter came very early, and it was extremely cold. Heavy snow and hailstorms continued for more than ten days. From time to time, there were reports of naked people freezing to death on the road. The Qin Tianjian said that this kind of vision was It is rare to see it for decades, and it seems to herald the beginning of all bad luck... Zhu Yu's belly is getting bigger and bigger, as if a fresh life will pop out at any moment.I'm nervously anticipating. Zhuan Fu hadn't been to the harem for quite a while, and I heard that he was busy discussing disaster relief with the ministers in the Palace of Qinzheng every day, and sometimes he simply stayed there overnight when it was too late. Even if the emperor is suffering so much, the harem has completely lost the laughter of the past. With this natural disaster, the entire palace is suppressed in a tense and heavy atmosphere. Zhu Yu was depressed every day, and I felt anxious after watching it, so I held a small banquet in Eryu Palace to relieve her boredom. I listened comfortably to the sound of silk and bamboo below, and then asked Zhu Yu: "Queen, what do you think of this newly presented Hu Ban? It was personally recommended by the royal bedroom Biche." Seeing that Zhu Yu was already in tears, "I miss my father very much, I really want to see him..." I fell into silence, I knew Zhu Yu was lonely in the harem, but this was the first time I felt her loneliness and helplessness so deeply.Even if she is married, even if she is to be a mother, she still seems to be the little girl who is attached to her father. Maybe I can't understand the feeling of attachment, because I have no one to rely on when I was very young, all I know is to grow up and climb up step by step in order to survive. I sighed and was about to answer when I saw Cusi running in nervously and said: "Queen Mother, there was news from outside the palace just now, saying that King Ningshan died of a sudden illness on the way to his post!" I was taken aback, how old was that kid!How can I say that if you die, you will die! Counting the time it took for the messenger to come back, it means that King Ningshan passed away in more than 20 days! Before I could express my surprise, I heard a bang, and the teacup on Zhu's table fell to the ground. Everyone looked at Zhu Yu in a daze, Zhu Yu herself was also surprised, and then suddenly laughed! "Ha...haha...haha..." As if uncontrollable, Zhu Yu laughed so hard that she was out of breath, and finally she couldn't even lie down on the table and laughed. I frowned and blamed: "Queen, you are so presumptuous, is it so funny to die alone?!" Zhu Yu smiled while rubbing her belly: "No, no, I'm dying of laughter. People who were alive and kicking yesterday are not panting today. Isn't that funny? It's so funny..." The palace people whispered in horror: "Is the empress bewitched by something?" I also felt that Zhu Yu was very abnormal since she became pregnant, so I quickly asked someone to help her down. The death of King Ningshan did not cause much disturbance in the harem, except for the occasional two words of regret after dinner.It's just that Concubine Hui is aging rapidly, and her hair has turned gray overnight. When I went to see Zhuan Fu, he was discussing matters with the ministers, and the eunuch guarding the gate wanted to go in to report, I waved my hand to stop him, and stood outside with a small hand stove and waited with my entourage.It was really cold, and I walked back and forth slowly, intermittently looking at the wisps of white air I exhaled. After a while, all the ministers came out in a file. Seeing me outside, they all greeted me with some surprise.I asked one of the ministers how the situation outside the palace was. The minister shook his head and replied bluntly: "Empress Dowager, even if you feel the severe cold in this fine mink fur coat, what about those poor people? The number of people dying of starvation is increasing every day..." I felt very heavy when I heard that, and walked in slowly. I haven't seen Zhuan Fu for a long time, I don't think he has become so haggard, with bloodshot eyes, scruffy beard, and a sad face. I felt distressed for a while, and was about to ask him why he was so tired, but Zhuan Fu stood up and asked me nervously: "Mother, why did you come in person, the tip of your nose is also red, are you freezing outside?" I waved my hand, "Ai's family ate and slept well in the palace, don't worry, it's the emperor, why did you make yourself so haggard!" Zhuan Fu smiled and comforted me and said, "My body is fine, but those people outside the palace are poor. I remember that you taught me to care about the people at all times, and I will never forget it for a moment." I was moved when I heard this, and I patted Zhuan Fu on the shoulder to encourage him and said: "Yes, yes, the emperor is really happy to think of the queen mother in this way. I believe we will be able to overcome this difficulty." Zhuan Fu nodded, and then asked me, "Queen Mother, what is your reason for looking for this son-in-law?" I paused, not sure if it was appropriate to say it at this time, but I still said: "The queen has been very ill recently, and her pregnancy is at the critical stage. She has a small body and a big belly. I feel guilty when I look at her. So Aijia misses the emperor. Even though you are busy, let's find time to comfort the queen." For some reason, Zhuan Fu sneered and said, "I'm afraid the empress doesn't need sons and ministers, does she? She's afraid of me when she sees me." "Hey, which concubine in the harem doesn't respect and fear the emperor? Respect, love and fear should be the attitude of a concubine to the monarch." "If—" Zhuan Fu elongated his voice a little and said, "If the queen mother really thinks that the queen's pregnancy is a punishment, why not let her give birth to the child? Wouldn't the pain end like this?" I was taken aback, and said, "What kind of nonsense is the emperor talking about?" Zhuan Fu smiled, waved his hands as if trying to drive away some thoughts, and replied, "I'm just joking with you. After all, this is my first child. I hope it will be a boy, and then I will let him be the crown prince." This reminded me, "Yes, the eldest son is really the prince. Speaking of which, the mother is really nervous, always thinking, will this child look like the emperor, will his personality be like you or like the emperor?" Where's the queen?" Zhuan Fu said lightly: "If it's a boy, it should be more like my mother. I'm really busy here, I'm afraid I won't be able to spare time, how about this, I will send an envoy to visit the queen, and express my love for her and her mother." Concern for the child." In the words, I could vaguely feel that Zhuan Fu didn't care about Zhu Yu, but I could also hear some expectations of Zhuan Fu for this child. Although I was a little puzzled, I didn't think deeply about it. This winter has been one nightmare after another. This winter, the Ninth Prince died of illness in the Thanksgiving Temple. I knelt in front of the Buddhist hall, took off my gorgeous clothes, clasped my palms together, and recited scriptures for the Nine Princes. Outside the door are a large number of eminent monks offering salvation to the Nine Princes. This has been going on for a month. During this month, I ate very little, just chanting scriptures, chanting scriptures non-stop, and my ears were full of those dizzy scriptures. It's down, but I still insist on kneeling there, if this can make up for my guilt towards the Ninth Prince. In fact, I knew from the last time I saw him that his body was already very weak, not to mention that in such bad weather, he must have struggled until now. That man has a clean face and a flawless heart. That person once left a string of footprints in the snow for me in winter. I heard that your expression was very peaceful when you passed away. Does this death also represent a kind of relief for you?I hope you can live well in your next life. This month, I have completely isolated myself from the outside world, and I only live in my nostalgia and sorrow. I even forgot to care about Zhuan Fu, Jiu Zhen, and Zhu Yu's birth. Shanshan persuaded me from the side: "Miss, there is no way for you to keep doing this... Life is impermanent, let's be sad and change." I said weakly: "Shan, sometimes I think about what life is, how fragile it is, and why living is suffering. When I think about it this way, my heart feels ashamed. I might as well just let it go..." Shanshan changed his face and said: "Miss, what's the matter with you, you actually said such things..." I shook my head and said: "That's right, I still have two children, so I can't bear to part with them... But you can let me persist in this Buddhist ritual until seventy-seven forty-nine days, even if it is the last time I can do for the Ninth Prince." something..." Shanshan sighed sadly. At this time, Xing Shan broke in without notification, and I looked at her kindly and in amazement, only to see that she was holding her chest and panting. I said that I will not see anyone else within these forty-nine days, not to mention that Xingdan is still wearing a red skirt at this time, and breaking into this sacred prayer hall without permission and without bathing and changing clothes makes people feel very abrupt.But I know that Xingdan has always been cautious in doing things, and she wouldn't do it unless there was something particularly important. She bowed her head and whispered something to me. My face turned pale, and I was so shocked that I couldn't speak. She said, for some reason, the emperor suddenly went to the cold palace today and picked up a crazy woman back! It was getting dark. The door of the Buddhist hall was violently opened, and the wind blew in coldly. Even though my back was facing, I could still know who was coming. What should come will always come.After listening to what Xing Shan said, I thought about thousands of ways and thousands of words, but finally gave up.I shouldn't have lied to that kid again, I did hurt his mother. "Emperor, you are here." I said flatly, still kneeling in front of the Buddha statue with my eyes closed. Zhuan Fu screamed behind me: "That woman is my biological mother, isn't she?!" My hands trembled. "Yes." I answered briefly. "Why, why..." Zhuan Fu's voice trembled violently, "Why did you treat her like this..." I don't know how to explain it, am I going to tell him about the life-and-death harem struggle... No, no, even if I explain it, he won't forgive me for treating his biological mother like this. "You won't understand." Zhuan Fu rushed in front of me, easily lifted me up, squeezed my shoulders tightly, and said loudly, "Explain! Give me an explanation! Why do you want to be so harmful? , Drive my queen mother crazy, marry my sister to a fool! Are you really as vicious as they say!" I turned my head to one side, not daring to look him in the eye. Maybe it was destined to end like this from the beginning, I killed Si Xiurong, but adopted her son... Maybe this is called karma. "Emperor, it's up to you to deal with it." I said without the slightest struggle. Zhuan Fu grabbed me tighter and tighter, it hurt a lot, but I didn't cry out.Suddenly he let go of his hand, and I fell limply on the ground, panting weakly. Two lines of tears flowed down his face. "Ah—" he yelled, and fled like crazy. I fell to the ground, clutching my chest tightly, like a fish out of water, breathing heavily, my face and neck were wet, I don’t know whether it was sweat or tears, and the other hand beat the ground weakly, maybe I I have never hated myself more than I do now. I'm not worried about my own fate, I just feel sorry for Zhuan Fu, now that he knows the truth of the matter, he doesn't know how painful it must be, and all of this is my fault. After that, Zhuan Fu did not deal with me in any way, and the food and clothing expenses of Eryu Palace remained as usual, and everything was as peaceful as if nothing had happened, no, it was different, at least Eryu Palace never saw the emperor coming again Bai An's figure. In stark contrast to the desertedness of Eryu Palace, Si Chongyi was cared for. She was arranged to live in the Shou'an Palace. It's a bit ironic to think about it. In fact, the Shou'an Palace is the legitimate residence of the Empress Dowager. Even after Zhuan Fu ascended the throne, I have been staying in the Eryu Palace. I have already hinted at it It means that I am not the real queen mother, because Zhuan Fu is that person's son, but I have been occupying it all the time. I heard that Zhuan Fu had hired the best imperial physician to diagnose and treat Si Chongyi; I heard that Zhuan Fu would taste the soup and medicine that was presented to Si Chongyi every day, and then feed it to her spoon by spoon; Yi couldn't recognize her son at all, so she went crazy and scratched and scratched Zhuan Fu, but Zhuan Fu didn't dislike him at all, and even shed tears several times, saying that he was an unfilial son. I'm afraid Si Chongyi will also change her title. I heard that Zhuan Fu intends to take the throne for his biological mother and make her the late emperor's empress, that is, the queen mother.So what is my queen mother doing now? "Don't worry, Queen Mother, the courtiers will not agree to this kind of thing." Whenever Yuan Yao was always by my side, he comforted me. Seeing that I was stunned without any response, Yuan Yao stepped forward and whispered to me: "If you are really uncomfortable, then why not... I will try my best to help you. As far as I know, there are many courtiers who respect you Supporting you, Prime Minister Li, Lord Gao Yuan, and the powerful Nangong family, they will all follow you. The foundation of the emperor is not yet stable, so it should not be difficult..." I shook my head slowly, I just felt sad for a while after hearing Yuan Yao's words. I just hope that Zhuan Fu will be fine. Once when I went to the imperial garden, I saw Zhuan Fu's entourage. I watched from a distance and didn't dare to approach, but I saw that Zhuan Fu was thinner than before, and the dragon robe was hanging empty on his body, which was out of place. I saw him squatting quietly for a while in the sage garden that he had carefully tended, with the wind blowing into his robe, and it was hard to see what he was thinking at that time. He twirled the soil on the ground, and then gave some instructions to the left and right. After a while, an eunuch came over with a hoe and dug up a good piece of garden, as if digging on my heart. The wind was still blowing bitterly. I looked up at the gloomy sky and said to myself: "This year's winter is especially long. When will spring come?" I haven't visited Zhu Yu for more than 20 days, and it's almost time for her to give birth. When they arrived at Fengyi Palace, Zhu Yu was not there.Where would such a heavy body go?I wondered. I saw all kinds of jewelry on Zhu Yu's dressing table messily arranged on the table, and her closest maid was tidying up one by one. "Where is the queen?" That Gong'e knelt down and replied: "The Queen's Majesty went out after dressing up carefully today. She said she was going to visit the Emperor, but she didn't let us follow." I reproached them slightly and said, "What if something happens to the queen's body on the road? You are really careless." But I also know their difficulties, so I didn't punish them. I stayed in Fengyi Palace and waited for Zhu Yu, but Zhu Yu didn’t come back until it was dark, and the wind kept blowing outside, blowing the skinny branches and leaving black spots on the paper window, which made people feel sick. People feel very uneasy. At this time, Qiuquan broke in with a face full of horror, which shocked me. "Go down! You all go down!" Qiu Quan yelled, and a group of palace people were frightened and retreated one after another. Qiuquan knelt down in front of me all of a sudden, his speech was a little slurred, and he said: "Slave, I came from Eryu Palace, Eryu Palace, I finally found this place... Slave..." I looked at Qiuquan in surprise, not knowing what he was going to say, but I found that his outstretched hand was stained with solidified crimson blood. "Please, what's wrong with you? What's going on with this blood?!" "Your Majesty... Your Majesty..." Qiu Quan couldn't continue, and just said "My Majesty, Your Majesty" choked with sobs. When I heard Zhuan Fu, my heart tightened, and I asked anxiously, "What's wrong with the emperor?!" Qiu Quan kowtowed vigorously, "Slave, I dare not say...No one dares to say... Queen Mother, Queen Mother, you should go and see for yourself..." It seemed that Qiuquan couldn't say anything, so I pulled Qiuquan up, "Let's go! Take Ai's family to have a look!" Then in Si Chongyi's Shou'an Palace, I saw the most tragic scene, a bloody scene, which I often wake up from nightmares and never forget. The ground is already full of blood, frozen and gurgling. Zhu Yu fell to the ground, her swollen belly made her falling posture very awkward and weird. Her huge bulging belly seemed to be stabbed, and blood was bleeding from the hole, and the ground was buried. Wet one. The bloody Gao Long's stomach looked so weird, I couldn't stop vomiting when I saw it. Then I noticed that it was Zhuan Fu who fell beside her. Zhuan Fu! He was lying on his back, his face was purple, foaming at the mouth, his death was very grim. But not only that, his body was already riddled with holes, the blood had dyed the original bright yellow dragon robe red, and blood was still flowing out. His eyes were wide open, and one hand was raised up, frozen in mid-air, as if looking for something. Si Chongyi is tied to the red dragon post next to her. Her hair is disheveled, her eyes are fierce, her hands are scratching and scratching, her mouth is gagged, but she seems to be cursing and hating something. On the ground next to her Lying quietly was a bloody dagger. My body trembled badly, and I went to help Zhu Yu, but she didn't respond. I threw myself on Zhuan Fu again, calling out to him, "Fuer... Fuer..." Zhuan Fu didn't answer me, he was still frozen under that expression, my hands and clothes were covered with his blood. Qiuquan tremblingly said: "When the servant came in, he saw Si Chongyi stabbing His Majesty with a dagger... At that time, His Majesty might have... This servant tied her up later, and the other servants did not dare to say anything..." Qiu Quan was very cautious, but I couldn't think too much at that time, I just called Zhuan Fu hoarsely while crying. How can you just say that you are dead... I have raised my son for more than ten years, even if you hate me, I am willing to let you live. Zhu Yu, why did Zhu Yu die too... How did this son who carried my hope die in the few days before he was about to come into the world? I have never been so desperate. I don't know what kind of joke God has played with me. My mind is just blank.I just cried, kept crying, and called Zhuan Fu's name over and over again tirelessly, until I was exhausted. I stood up staggeringly, staggering, and even fell a few times, and my hair was loose, just like this crazy woman in front of me. I picked up the blood-stained dagger, the dagger with the blood of Zhuan Fu and Zhu Yu, and used my last bit of strength to insert the dagger deeply into Si Chongyi's chest. Si Chongyi trembled, stopped all the shouting, and suddenly dropped her head. Maybe I should have done this earlier. Maybe if I had done this earlier, the tragedy like today would not have happened. Losing all my strength, I collapsed and fell on Zhuan Fu's wet and greasy body, my eyes were only blood... Finally, I yelled sadly: "Fu'er——" In the dimness, it seemed that someone was shaking me, but I couldn't open my eyes. Sometimes I seem to be about to wake up. When I open my eyes, I can only look at people standing around in a daze. They seem to be talking to me, as if they are talking about who to choose, but I can’t think about that sentence at all. Meaning, he closed his eyes feebly and passed out. 等我真正清醒时，已经是一个月以后了，那时候春天已经到来，春柳抽出嫩绿的芽儿，回归的鸟儿开始唧唧地鸣叫。 江山却也已经易主。 没想到，我认为的，这些像是梦魇般的回忆，只是这么的几个呼吸之间便终结了。而现在，我不仅要警惕着，甚至对未来的恐惧和忐忑让我狼狈，可是，我还得保护好我的女儿。以及那些真正的关心我的，我在意的家人。 那次以后我与权禹王没有再交流过，他依旧是每日深夜造访，扰我醒来，脱衣，交欢，他大汗淋漓，然后拥着我很快入睡。 我没有抗拒也不叫顺从，只是听由他在床上摆弄着他喜欢的，很多时候他已经熟睡我却在黑暗中睁着双眼无法入睡。只有我知道，我的呻吟声越来越自然。 我与权禹王之间的事只有善善知道，我告诉了她，因为我不得不让她为我准备好事后避孕的汤药。善善不希望我喝那样的药，因为她知道这种药是极为伤身的，“小小姐，您总是喝这种药是在摧残自己的身体啊。” 我不顾那汤药的苦一饮而尽，无所谓地说：“这样的身子又有什么可珍惜的呢，不是吗。” 善善哀伤地叹了口气，她说我与权禹王之间是一场孽缘，但她又劝我说：“小小姐，您与权禹亲王本来不就是互相爱慕的吗，只是后来阴差阳错……换一种角度讲，也许现在你们在一起正是上天的安排。” 见我不语，善善又继续劝解道：“小小姐，您是不是怨四亲王趁您生病时夺了皇位？也许这听起来是四亲王篡位，但是如果这个消息不是被四亲王先知而是其他皇子呢？谁不会抓紧这个好机会。况且孝宗在位期间，正是四亲王对您的支持，才无人敢造反，这一点您恐怕也是心知肚明吧。孝宗驾崩后，只是他抓住了时机而已。” “再退一步说，即便没有任何亲王造反，小小姐，待您醒后，您会选择谁继承皇位呢？难道是再选年轻的皇室宗亲让您继续操劳吗，如果选的是年长的皇子，无论是四亲王还是十二亲王，那么局面和现在又有什么不同呢？” 善善的话惊醒了我，我陷入沉默，开始思考如果真是让我选我会选谁继承皇位？ 我不会选择那些年轻的皇室孩子……他们与我无亲无故，况且长大了终是要偏向自己亲生父母的吧？我也不想辅佐幼子垂帘听政，有过一次颛福的事已经彻底让我伤透了心。但是如果从年长的亲王中选，我会选谁？总不会是那些有怨的亲王，那么无论是权禹王登基抑或是端豫王，我都难逃身为女人被辱的局面吧。 区别只是主动的决定和现在的被动接受而已。 为什么善善都能看得这件事，而我却怎么也想不通呢？即便可以这样的理智分析，但是心理上我却依旧无法接受他。 可是就在善善说过这番话的那天晚上，随着夜越入越深，我的心也扑通扑通跳得厉害。 生怕什么时候门突然被推开，那副高大稳健的身躯就走了进来，然后一如既往地将我抱起，拉下床上的层层帷幔…… 我就这样胡思乱想着，迷迷糊糊过了一夜，直到天色发白，环视室内整洁如初，我突然意识到权禹王昨夜没来。 然后那天晚上，第二天晚上，第三天晚上……依旧没有他的踪影。 虽然表面上表现终于解脱般，然而我知道自己心里是介意的。 我介意的，我会不自觉地想到今夜他会不会来，原来他每夜的造访已经快成了一个可怕的习惯。 后来善善打听到，原来是权禹当亲王时的家眷已经陆续搬迁至宫廷，除了尔玉宫被隔离寂静得有些可怕外，后宫其他殿室一片忙碌，忙着封名号定宫室，而他，正为此事忙得焦头烂额。 后宫安排，那确实是很让人棘手的事，光封号就要仔细顾虑到女人本身的身份及其家族背后的势力。 自己的妻妾已到，他以后就不会再来我这儿了吧，我故意这么轻松地想。 那时侍卫对我的看管已经宽松了些，九珍那天嚷着让我带她去沁春媛，她已经悲伤许多天，难得有这样的心情。她后来也听说宫里换了新皇帝，哭哭啼啼问我福儿哥哥到哪里去了。我哀伤地看着她，只有告诉她福儿哥哥暴病身亡的事。九珍对颛福的感情很深，毕竟从小颛福就陪在她身边，毕竟只有颛福最有耐心哄她玩，毕竟只有颛福有好脾气从不对她发火。 她说想采些春花献在佛堂上祭奠她的福儿哥哥，我又怎么可能会不准呢。 九珍采花时表情很认真很庄重，仿佛她手里的不只是花，更是她对颛福的纪念。我陪着她在一旁看得心酸，后来路上也碰见了一名手提花篮正在采摘花瓣的小宫娥。 那名宫娥许是见我陌生，上下打量我一番，然后迟疑地问：“哎，哎，莫非您是……” 我也对那名宫娥眼生，听她说话还稍稍带些口音，想必是从权禹王封地府上带过来的丫鬟，之所以认出我恐怕是从衣服上的凤纹揣测出的吧。 这时不远处另一名宫娥也发现了我们，她却装作没看到我般，拽住那名将要行礼的宫娥就往回走。 “小兰，你拽我干什么，那位似乎就是皇太后……” 远处那名宫娥压低声音的回答还是传入了我的耳朵，“傻瓜，什么皇太后啊，她又不是皇上的亲娘。咱家王爷，不，皇上好像也很忌讳她，你刚才差点触了霉头还不知道，幸亏我救你……” 我看着渐渐远走的两名宫娥窃窃私语的背影，一股强烈的羞辱感涌了上来。 在这后宫没有名分的女人竟是如此可悲，连那小小的宫娥都敢轻贱于你。 此时九珍的表情又是迷惑又是哀伤，我拉起九珍的手，打起精神对她说：“女儿，我们回去吧。” 不想走了几步，就听见后面有人说：“站住。” 我回过头，只见刚才那两名宫娥又折了回来，还多了一名女子站在前面，二十左右的样子，瓜子脸单眼皮，身着宝蓝色底子白玉兰花衣袍，盘髻上插着珠光宝气的头饰，身姿曼妙婀娜，十分妖娆。 那女子拿苛刻的眼神上上下下地打量我，然后对身后的两名宫娥问：“这就是你们俩刚才说到的……”然后带着不屑说：“传说中的大胤第一贵妇也不过如此吧！我又差她哪里？” 我心中一阵恼怒，哪轮得到你评论哀家！ 想来她是权禹王的哪位小妾，一定是刚才听两位宫娥说遇见我的事，所以自恃有几分姿色前来比较。她刚才那番话自然有故意贬低我的意思，但我醒来后心情黯淡，无心打扮，想必与之前的神采飞扬不可同日而语了。 我本想冷语反驳她，可是一想这又何必呢，颛福死后我心如死灰，亦无所追求。那一瞬我甚至想转身离开。 可是我看着那张满是嚣张气焰的年轻脸庞，突然意识到自己正真真切切地处于后宫之中，我仿佛找到一种久违发热的感觉，那是将自己化解不了的痛苦转化为摧残别人的快感，直至脚踏着别人的血肉之躯登上最高位后冷傲俯视的成就。 突然间长久以来闷在胸口的悲愤与哀愁好像骤然消散，我全身感觉到难得的轻快，颛福在位时沉沉压在我身上的那只鸾凤突然鲜活起来，直欲展翅翱翔，在九重云霄中高傲地鸣叫。 我的痛苦终是要找人来承担。 我在那名女子面前优雅地躬下身去，抬头时露出了一个无比妩媚的笑容。 受我之礼的那名年轻女子反而惊慌起来，一时间不知所措。 那是我对她表示我确实的感谢，谢谢她让我真正意识到了自己，醒了过来。 可是当我起身时我的笑容已经不在，脸上顿时寒如冰霜。 那名女子终究是没见过世面的人，看见我的表情吓得竟不自觉退了几步。 我居高临下地看着她，语气无比高傲寒冷，“哀家似乎已经许多年没有向任何人行礼了，也许你真应该感到荣幸。”然后我伸出手直直地指向她，“那也要看你命够不够硬，当不当得起。” 权禹王再来时，已经是七八天之后了。 我并不知道他什么时候会来，然而我却时刻准备着他的到来。 当我听见他推门的声音时，浅睡的我便已醒来。我起身披上一件深蓝透纱外袍，随意挽起长发，下了床将他迎接到椅子上坐着。 桌子上的水晶瓶中插了几只今天新采摘的鲜红玫瑰，在这朦胧的烛光中显得分外妖娆。 他伸手揉捏了一下玫瑰花厚软的花瓣，同时看似随意地问我：“这是你叫人采的？” “不，这是我自己去花园挑选的，闲着出去走走。”我平静地回答。 “哦——”他拉长了声音，问：“你这几日就这么打发时间？” 这岂不是在明知故问。“也会弹琴作画，薰香也拣了起来。”我回答。 他没说话，屋子里有短暂的沉默，我将袖子伸到他的面前说：“你要不要闻闻看我新调配的薰香？” 他真的凑上去嗅了嗅，然后抬头看我。 我无畏地迎上他的目光，风姿绰约地站在他面前，感受到他的目光从上至下而后又从下至上地来回打量。 我的脖颈纤细而白皙，我的发丝乌黑而柔软，我的腰肢如杨柳般款款，我的眼神温柔又多情，我的嘴唇红润欲滴，那是多少次被先皇不厌其烦夸赞的啊。更何况我垂下的发丝增添了我的妩媚，我丰满有韵的身体在薄透衣服的掩盖下若隐若现，我身上的薰香若有若无散发出甜腻的气息。 我的身体曾经是我作为女人最基础的本钱，现在依旧是。 他的手渐渐地摸索到我细软的腰身，然后蛮横地一用力一把将我揽坐在他怀中。 他恨恨地说：“你这个倔强的女人，你就不想朕？！” 我在心中微微地笑了，那正是我想要的表情，那是我想要他说的话。 “这句话，该是谁责备谁呢？”我的目光如秋水盈盈，半是哀怨半是挑衅地轻声说。 他根本想不出我会说出这番话来，一脸的不可置信，刚欲开口我便将纤纤玉指搭在他的唇上，阻止他的疑问，小口叼住他带着硬硬胡茬的下巴。 权禹王的身体一下子僵住了，我微微地笑了。我以手勾住他的领口，顺着将衣扣一个个解开来，然后我将手轻轻覆在他那壮实的胸口上，也许我的手指冰冷，他被刺激得倒吸了一口气，胸口剧烈地起伏起来。 我右手无名指上的金底蓝花珐琅代指在烛光的照耀下发出柔媚的光芒。 我的手指微微翘起，以指尖若有似无地在他胸口流连，然后我俯身下去亲吻，此时我自己整个人都在微微颤抖着。 权禹王闷哼了一声，将手插进我的长发使我的头发全部倾泻下来，我的蓝透纱衣也有一侧从肩膀滑落下来，露出左侧大半的削肩和里面绣着大片牡丹花纹的肚兜。 我轻轻地呢喃一声，感觉此时如同中了蛊，自己去麻醉自己，只忘情地去亲吻他。 “说，说你想朕了。”权禹王气喘吁吁地命令道。 “我想……”我在他怀中不安分地扭动了一下。 权禹王被撩拨起来，他大手一挥将桌上的花瓶推掉，花瓶掉落在厚实的地毯上发出闷闷的声响，几支玫瑰花也散落开来。 他站起身将我上身放在桌子上，那是我所预料不及的，便有些惊慌地说：“不，别在这儿……” 这时他已经将我的小袍扯下来抛在空中，呼吸不匀地说：“等不及了……”然后他俯下身轻咬住我的耳垂，声音低沉地说：“别忘了你刚才说的话。” 而那时我才要反悔，伸手欲推开他，他的这番话好像是在提醒我。 以己之身去引诱自己名义上的继子来重新谋求权力，我不知道自己这样是不是太过下作。之前明明已经下定的决心，却突然有些迟疑了。 但已容不得我反悔了。 我枕在自己厚软的发丝上，但背部桌面的丝丝冰凉还是传递过来，我将头转到左边，根本不敢直视眼前的一切。 当我们上身碰触的一刻，我的肌肤仿佛被灼烫了一下，那是一种带有羞耻的愉悦感。 我发现自己的身体蕴藏着渴望，仿佛久旱的田地渴望被滋养，我听说雨露可以使一个女人变得年轻而又漂亮。 于是我微微转头去看他，伸手主动去抚摸他的脸庞。 我端详他，他依旧那样英气逼人。他的唇角带着一丝冷峭，他的眉宇间布满稳重与睿智，仿佛已看尽沧桑。可是这个本该波澜不惊的男人现在在我怀中，带着隐忍痛苦的表情，渴望着我。 他细密地吻着我每一寸肌肤，嘴唇带着温湿的触感，如孩子般迷恋地深深吮吸。 渐渐地我的身体传来阵阵异样的感觉，呼吸急促起来，甚至还无意识地轻扯着他的发。 “奴兮，你好香……”他的手背碰触我发烫的脸颊，轻声说。 在他的触摸下，我的意识已经迷蒙不清，身体似乎瘫化成水，言语上喃喃地不知道自己究竟在说些什么。 我只任由他摆布着。他说：“奴兮，也许今夜才真正算是我们的新婚之夜，你的身体真真正正属于朕。” 刹那间微微的痛感伴随着充实感使我不由得嘤咛出声，随后身下的桌子随着他的动作一下下地发出声音，仿佛在提示它身上的男女正在发生的不齿之事，而那声音又刺激着我们更加疯狂，室内的气氛已经是淫靡不堪。 我感觉自己仿佛置身于浩然无边的大海之中，一波又一波的海浪冲了过来，我感到恐惧，而眼前这个男人是我唯一的救命稻草，我纤细的胳膊如蛇般缠绕上他粗壮的手臂，并发出轻微的哀求。 我的体内好像着了火，炙热得似乎要将我烧毁。我微躬起身子抬起头，无意识地喃喃说：“亲我，亲我……” 是的，我向他索吻，如果这可以带给我一丝清凉的话。 权禹王的吻深深地压了下来，我近似贪婪地与他纠缠。 渐渐那潮越来越汹涌，暴风雨似乎已经来临，将我漂泊的身体吹打得湿漉漉的，我骤然感觉自己被一个巨大的浪高高抛起，仿佛直指天日，于是止不住地尖叫起来，脑中已是一片空白。 不知何时我感觉自己活了过来，化身一片洁白的羽毛，在半空中飘忽，直到慢慢地降落地面。 潮来潮退……海面终于恢复了平静，一片升平。 我整个人陷入了一种虚脱，当我费力地睁开眼睛，看着权禹王手臂支撑着在我上方，他微微喘着气，额头上细密的全是汗，大滴大滴的汗水滴落在我的身上。 我推开他要起身，他沉声说了句“别动”，我看到一摊污浊，现在已冰凉如玉。 他对这个一向是很注意的。 他找了件衣物将我的身体擦拭干净，然后将我抱回到床上。 我疲累得已经睁不开眼睛，什么都不想去想，只是过后有点淡淡的哀伤，想想这次也不过是各有所求罢了。 当我醒来时已经是日上三竿，身边早已没有了权禹王的身影，但是旁边褶皱的痕迹暗示着他确实存在过，我轻轻往他的位置靠了靠，那儿仿佛还残留着他的气息。 想起了昨晚的事情我的心不禁还怦怦地跳着，说着这没什么，但还是觉得有些不一样。 当我起身时才发现身上没有着任何衣裳，于是脸又是一红，好不容易先裹了被单将衣服找全了，我这才穿着整齐走出寝殿。 尔玉宫的宫人们照常忙碌着，见我出来忙向我行礼，解释说：“皇太后娘娘请恕罪，善善姑姑说您这几日休息不好，要我们等您自然醒来，不让奴婢们去打扰。” 我听了有些心虚，说：“是的，最近你们不用叫哀家起床，寝殿也过后再打扫吧。” 宫人们领命，这时也准备好了金铜盆、巾帕等洗漱用具。 我仔细地洗漱好，后面一排宫人替换上前，在我面前摆了十几件衣服供我挑选。 我一一看过那些衣服，最后选中了一件带有簇簇棣棠花的衣袍，领口与腰结用的是明亮的蓝色，并绣着一些云纹，颜色的冲突使这件衣服显得十分亮丽。 也不知道是不是受到明亮衣饰的感染，今日的梳头姑姑也十分有灵感，为我梳好了参鸾髻，发式精巧绚丽而不繁重，又插以下垂玉帘金凤含珠步摇和几朵海棠华胜作为点缀。 最后我来到梳妆台旁硕大的铜镜前，轻压发髻左右端量自己，感到无比满意。 我叫退了要为我化妆的宫娥，难得自己动手，先傅上一层薄薄的玉容妆粉，然后精细地为自己描叶眉，点朱唇，匀胭脂…… 待我梳妆完毕回头时，听到的是久违的由衷赞叹声。 “小小姐，您这样的容颜说起来是二八少女也不为过啊。” “是么？”我有一点不相信地再次回头打量自己。抛却年龄，我真的还像以前那样年轻美丽吗？ 我的手缓缓滑过我精致的面容，这时我从镜中看到了身后的权禹王。 那一刻我真是又惊又喜。 他不是早上刚走的吗？我从来没有想过会在白天见到他。 他的嘴角不着痕迹地扯出一丝微笑。 这时有宫娥才说着：“太后娘娘，皇上来看您了。” 他恢复了那种威严严肃的表情，我也意识到这是他第一次以皇帝的身份来拜访身为皇太后的我。 于是我站起身来，淡淡地说：“哦，皇帝过来了，请坐，看茶。” 我们隔着一张桌子相坐，权禹王说道：“朕即位不久，一时急需处理的事情繁多，因此现在才来尔玉宫拜见，希望皇太后不要怪罪。” 我也以公事公办的口吻回道：“皇上能抽空来，哀家已经很是欣慰了。” “尔玉宫若有什么短缺，皇太后尽可与内管事吩咐。” “多谢皇帝挂念。” “他是以前就在朕身边的内侍，叫王全，是朕信任的人。”权禹王介绍他身后侍候着的一名五十岁左右的太监说。 王全恭恭敬敬地到我面前给我行礼，我抬手叫他起身，心想着想必他就是那天窗外躬身过来吩咐的人，那么他对我和权禹王的事情恐怕也是知道一二的。 后来我们继续以平淡的口吻说着一些客套的话，直到权禹王对下面的人吩咐道：“朕有些事情要与皇太后商讨，你们先退下吧。” 我低下了头，心不禁加速跳动起来。 他又将我置于他的腿上，轻笑道：“你这皇太后做得真是面不改色啊。” 我抬头望见他的笑容，这与刚才冷淡的他简直像换了一个人般，于是说：“你不也是一样吗。” 然后又问他：“你怎么就突然过来了？” 他很直白地回答：“想你了，于是下了早朝就过来了。”接着是一个无比缠绵的吻。 正当我微微沉醉时，突然发现他的手已来到我的肩胛处，伸手将我