Chapter 171 Broken front edge on a snowy night

Tonight to sweep the dust and entertain guests, I ordered Hong Jian and Mei Xin to go to the backyard to pick a lot of snow plums, and I also ordered them to pick up a few jars of snow on the petals of plum blossoms, and after dusk, the snow at that time was quiet and clean , Cooking plum blossoms can wash your heart. At dusk, I also put on my beloved white fox fur coat and went to the backyard to pick plums.After passing the snow-colored corridor, I have never been to this backyard since I returned to Yueyang Palace from Cuimei Temple.Most of the imperial courtyards are similar, with pavilions, rockery streams, and Yueyang Palace. The difference is that a large area of ​​plum blossoms are planted.Although it is not as good as the Xiangxue Sea in Shanglinyuan, it is still a prosperous Xiangxue world.

Dressed in white, standing in the snow, I picked off a few branches of my favorite white and green plums, thinking, if I spend my whole life with plums and have no desires or desires, can I still give myself a reason to live hard? ? Back in the Nuan Pavilion, cook tea around the stove, feel the fragrance overflowing, and the tea cleanses the heart. Although I am just an ordinary woman without any magic power, I still feel that there is a visitor tonight.On a snowy night, it's just that he is not mine. When Chun Zhen came, I wasn't surprised, because he was the one I cleaned up and treated, and he was also the one who cooked the plum blossom tea and so on.Since returning to Zijin City, although I met him a few times, every time I passed by in a hurry, I didn't sit down and chat with him in detail.

When today comes, we all know in our hearts that it is time to give each other an explanation and give each other a result. I saw that he was wearing a crown and a dragon robe, and his elegant demeanor was very similar to Chunyi. If he was not familiar with him, he must have mistakenly thought they were the same person.Looking at him, I think of Chun Yi, but I can't deceive myself. I bowed to him and said: "My concubine sees the emperor, all blessings to the emperor." He hurriedly greeted me and raised my hand: "Hurry up and forgive me." He looked at me intently: "Can you allow me to call your eyebrows?" I thought of Chunyi, as if it was a replay of a scene from a snowy night.He didn't want to call me Huangsao, he would rather call me Meiwan. In fact, how could I like to hear that Huangsao?

I nodded slightly: "Of course." "It smells so good, it must be the plum blossom tea you cooked." He smelled the tea and smiled. I smiled: "Yes, plum blossom tea, specially prepared for the emperor." He turned his eyebrows and looked at me: "Oh, you know that I will come to Yueyang Palace tonight?" I nodded: "Yes, with this feeling, it's time for the emperor to come to Yueyang Palace." He frowned slightly: "Yes, it's time to come to Yueyang Palace. Since you returned to the palace, too many things have happened. I have just ascended the throne, and many political affairs need to be dealt with. These days are a little quieter, and I don't want to Knowing the result so soon, so I kept procrastinating until today." It turned out that Chunzhen was telling me that he had been avoiding it all the time, and didn't want to know the result so soon, he was afraid that the result would not be what he wanted.It's just that I've been calm, the result lies in me, in my heart.

I smiled slightly: "Actually, the result is already known, isn't it? No matter when you face it, it will always be the result." He supported my arms with both hands, and lowered his voice: "I want you to say it yourself, and since it is the result of two people, you can tell me the result in your heart, and I will tell you the result in my heart This is fair, how do you feel?" My face was calm: "Okay, everything depends on the emperor." He held my hand tightly: "Let me speak first, I am afraid that if you speak first, then I will be speechless."

I smiled: "Your Majesty, look at you, you still look like a child." After saying this, I felt sore in my heart. I also said that to Chunyi back then, but now things are different.I know that even though I have a special affection for Chunzhen, I can't face him calmly, because when I look at him, I will always remember the moments when I was with Chunyi.I can't forget the years of getting along with each other and the years of being together.He was blind for me and died depressed for me, how could I be so selfish and leave him behind to be on good terms with his imperial brother.

Chunzhen seemed to see the contradictory struggle in my heart. After a long time, he sighed softly: "After so many days and nights of thinking, until today, I still can't say it." I smiled lightly: "Since it is the result, why bother to stick to it, but it doesn't matter." He took a deep breath and smiled gently: "Meiwan, can you stay with me and share the world together? I know you don't admire prosperity, but I just want to have a confidante like you by my side. Be with me, so that I won't be upset when facing state affairs, and won't be lonely." He still said it out, and even though I knew this result, I still didn't want to face it.

Because I knew it, my face was calm, and I only said tactfully: "Your Majesty, you don't need to be with your confidantes, you can think about it with your heart. There are three thousand beauties in the harem. There are many women who can understand the emperor's mind and take care of him. You will not be alone." "Others don't know, don't you know? Over the past few years, I have been suppressing your heart, and how has it changed. I know you will say that the emperor died, and I shouldn't discuss this matter with you, but I I believe that if Chunyi is here, he will definitely hope that someone can take good care of you, and he must hope that you will be happy." He spoke quickly, but I couldn't help but be shocked when I heard the word Chunyi.

There was a faint smile on the corner of my mouth: "You are wrong, Chun Yi will definitely not want others to take care of me, he only hopes that I will be taken care of by him in this life. Besides, what else can I talk about without him happiness?" "You love him." Chunzhen blurted out. I smiled: "I never say the word love easily, I don't know if I have love, but I know that after he met me, he has been giving his heart, until the last breath, he is still waiting for me. In this way My man, I still fail after all. May I ask, if I have failed, can I continue to fail with peace of mind?" After speaking, I sighed inwardly, it turned out that I was also looking for an excuse, looking for this high-sounding excuse.Because I rejected Chunzhen, not only because of Chunyi, but more because of my boredom, even if I can forget that I am Princess Dayan, the relationship with Chunyi is already considered a mistake, and I don’t want to extend this mistake to Chunzhen body.I am a weak-hearted woman, if I want to love him with all my heart, I can't.Since I don't admire the prosperity of the harem, and don't like the chaos in the world, why bother to tire others and myself? What I want to do should be free and easy, free and easy to leave without leaving any traces.

Chunzhen looked at me, he would understand my thoughts, since he is a confidant, he should know everything.After a long time, he sighed, "Okay, I won't force you." "Thank you, Your Majesty, since I returned to Yueyang Palace, I have nothing to ask for. My only thought is that people who understand me can follow me in everything. No matter what my choice is, they will follow me." "Then tell me your choice." He asked. I held his hand and sat down slowly: "It's been so long since I've been here, I'm just talking, and I haven't sat down to drink the plum blossom tea I brewed myself." Gradually, I changed my words and called myself a concubine in front of him, Always uncomfortable.

Holding the cup in hand, just take a sip, the fragrance overflows. He praised: "Good tea, after drinking it, you will feel that your flesh and blood are ice-clear, and only you can cook this kind of ice-clean, cold and beautiful tea." I laughed and said, "Tea is good, but I have to find someone who understands tea like you." He smiled: "Tell me, your choice." I turned my eyebrows to look at him and said, "Why are you so persistent? Let me come and go lightly. No matter what choice I make, I hope you will follow me. Just follow me. Because I have I don’t have any worries, and I don’t have any regrets.” I said absolutely nothing, the fact is like this, and my heart can’t be changed. He looked at me, his eyes wanted to pierce my heart, and said firmly: "Okay, I will follow you. Even if I can only miss you in this life, I will continue this nostalgia until the end." I gently held his hand: "Thank you, Chunzhen." "Tell me, what request do you have, as long as you can do it, I will obey you." "Huafan, promise me, take care of Huafan." I blurted out. He nodded: "Okay, I promise you that I will take care of her." I continued: "Her talent and appearance are not inferior to mine, and she is even better than me. Her ability and courage to control the harem are far superior to other people. Such a woman, leaving it to the emperor, will only be beneficial and harmless. The emperor can promote her to be a concubine, and it is not an exaggeration to bestow her as a queen in the future. Because the emperor needs such a woman by his side, the harem also needs such a concubine. My words come from the bottom of my heart. Although it is a painting fan, it is also for you." After a while of silence, he nodded slowly: "Okay, I promise you. You are right, the harem needs such a concubine. There are thousands of women around me, and I don't care if there is another such excellent her. What's more, she has a relationship with you." My sister, for so many years, we have known each other warm and cold, looking at her, I can find your shadow." "No, take good care of her, don't look for my shadow in her, it will be a kind of harm to her." I said anxiously. "Okay, I promise you that I will do my best to love her, no matter what it is for, okay?" His tone was gentle, and his eyes were full of tenderness. I said gratefully, "Thank you, Your Majesty." He smiled: "You have said thank you several times tonight, but you were not like this in the past." "Because I really appreciate it," I replied. "If you have any other requirements, you have said it, and I will obey you." He said calmly. I thought about it, and said slowly: "And Xie Ronghua, if she wants to propose to leave Zijin City, please allow her. I will be with her as a sister. I don't want her to be buried here when she is young." Chunzhen nodded: "Okay, it's very simple, I agree." "Gu Wanyi also asks the emperor to treat her differently. She is an intelligent woman, and she is also a sister to me." "Okay, I promise you." He then asked, "Is there anything else?" I smiled and shook my head: "No, I haven't had many close friends in the palace for a few years. I still have concerns about them. Now that the emperor has agreed, I have no worries." "Don't you care about me at all?" He pierced into my heart every word. I pretended to be relaxed, and looked at him with a smile: "Daqi is stable. Mr. Chu also said that this peaceful and prosperous world will last for many years, so the emperor doesn't need me to worry about it." "Where is my heart?" I held his hand: "The emperor's heart will be slowly filled by someone." "Can……" I lightly covered his lips, motioned him not to continue, and said softly: "There is always a lot of helplessness in life, and it is inevitable to have some regrets in life. The Chunzhen I know has seen the ups and downs of the world, so all of this, for you, is very important. It’s nothing, isn’t it?” Thinking of the conversation I had with him in Huaxu’s Fantasyland, I admire his indomitable spirit.I remember that time when we parted, he said: "Let's go back and be ourselves, you will be your Mei Jieyu, and I will be my Prince of Ling." Now and now, he is his emperor, and I am my Shen Meiwan . "The vicissitudes of the past, a dream of Huaxu." He said in a low voice, it turned out that he, like me, remembered Huaxu's illusion.I was thinking that maybe a few years later, when he revisited his old place, there would be another woman by his side, and he would tell her that he had been there with a woman and had a close relationship. They may have been in love, maybe nothing. "Yimeng Hua Xu." I also whispered. He got up slowly and walked to the window. I followed him and looked at the snowflakes flying outside the window. Such a night is so beautiful that it hurts my heart. "I, can I hug you?" He said slowly, his eyes full of tender desire. I smiled frankly: "Of course." He gently hugged me in his arms. I closed my eyes and felt the breath on his body. This breath was somewhat similar to Chunyi's, but I could clearly smell a light breath, such a light breath , only on him.I know that the once romantic prince will become a wise king. No matter how long the hug is, we still have to separate after all. At the beginning, I was greedy for Chunyi's embrace, and I left him.I was greedy for Chu Yu's embrace, and I also left him.Now, I am so greedy for Chunzhen's embrace, I still want to leave him after all.This is my choice, because I know that this choice will be the most perfect. A night of getting along, just getting along quietly, with red candles shining brightly in the sky, and a good night, we did nothing, and we couldn't do anything. Chunzhen didn't get up until the sky became dim and the snow stopped.No need to say goodbye, in each other's eyes, we can understand everything.With Chunzhen and I spending one night together, this life is enough. When his back disappeared into the snow-colored morning dawn in winter, I still said in a low voice: "I will leave this time, and there will be no end." Heartache, but I like this pain.