Chapter 96 Want to find cause and effect to Mei An

The moonlight is hazy, what I encountered this night, is it what I look forward to, or is it what I try to escape?It seems that everything has a cause and effect, everything is destined, some people, some things, even if you want to escape, you will still meet after going through several twists and turns.Just like two falling flowers in the wind, after flying, they will fall together after time passes.Just like two rotating fallen leaves in running water, after years of drifting, they will still meet.But I believe that Chunzhen and I just met by chance a few times, maybe there was an unresolved fate in the previous life, that's all.

Stepping on the thin moonlight to go to the Moon Central Palace, if someone tells me that I will lose my way in Zijin City, I will believe it.The same palaces and pavilions, the same pavilions and waterside pavilions, walking through the long corridors, I can never step on my own shadow. When I returned to Yueyang Palace, the little eunuch guarding the gate looked very anxious: "Master, you are back." I thought to myself, could it be that Chunyi is here? I walked straight towards the Meiyun Hall, only to realize that the plum branch I had folded just now was still in my hand. In the Meiyun Hall, the red paper, plum heart, and bamboo heart were all there. Seeing me enter the door, they hurriedly greeted me: "Master, it can be regarded as my return." gone."

I asked Hongjian, "What's wrong?" Hong Jian took off the peacock fur cloak for me, and said: "Qiu Xi has ordered people to come back and ask several times, saying that I can't find you, and I am very anxious." I smiled and said: "I can still get lost, but I just went to Shanglinyuan for a walk, you know I don't like the lively atmosphere." After speaking, I asked: "What about Xiao Xingzi and the others?" "They have been sent out to search for you quietly, not daring to disturb others." Hong Jian replied. I nodded: "Go and order the other people in the palace to find them, and say that I am back, so as not to alarm others, it's New Year's Eve."

"Yes." Hong Jian turned and left. I felt very tired, so I said to them: "Just play around, watch the New Year's Eve tonight, there is nothing to do, so don't be restrained." After speaking, I went to Nuange. When I entered the Nuan Pavilion, a burst of fragrance and warmth hit me, and I sneezed. Maybe it was because I had stood in the wind for a long time, got cold, and had to drink a bowl of ginger soup in a while. Put plum branches in the porcelain vase, and the Nuan Pavilion is full of spring in an instant. Occasionally, such embellishments in life are also colorful.

Sitting alone in front of the fire, warming my cold hands, this New Year's Eve will also pass in such a dull way, leaving nothing behind, but adding a dignified touch to my age.The reason why it is dignified is because I feel that I am old.Although, I don't care about my age, but in the harem, old women are no longer elegant.I think on that day, I should live in Shuangliyuan, sooner or later I will go. Qiuxi and the others came back one after another, gathered around Meiyun Hall to gamble and drink, today is a special day, let them make trouble. When Qiuxi came in, I was lying on a pear wood chair, covered with a mink coat.

She walked to my side and said in a low voice: "Your Majesty, just now the Emperor ordered someone to pass the message. Tonight he will stay in the Queen's Empress's Danxia Hall and cannot come through Yueyang Palace. Let you have a good rest, don't watch the year too late, tomorrow Come and see you." I nodded lightly: "Understood." I thought to myself, if he doesn't come tonight, it will make me feel relieved, seeing Chunzhen at night, I don't want to be with Chunyi again, it makes me feel burdened. Lying quietly, Hong Jian fetched the boiled ginger soup for me. After drinking it, it was hot and spicy, and I felt a slight pain in my heart.It was a very peaceful night, but also very warm. They all gathered together to have fun, and I lay quietly, thinking about anything, and not thinking about anything.

I spent the night lying on a pear wood chair, because my sleep was very light, and my dreams were also light.When I fell asleep, the room was filled with the smell of burning silver charcoal, and the smell of tea soaked overnight. The sun shone in through the window lattice, bringing a touch of warmth. I knew it was another sunny day. I went to the mirror to do my makeup, and because it was the New Year, I tried to dress myself festively.I don't want to participate in any activities today, but I don't want to be bored in Yueyang Palace. When I'm tired and lazy and don't know why, Xie Ronghua and Concubine Wu invited me here.

They are dressed noble and elegant today, and their faces look dazzling.I hurriedly greeted her and said with a smile: "Sister Xue, Sister Shutong, Happy New Year, what is the happy event? So happy." Xie Ronghua walked up to hold my hand, looked at me, and said with a smile: "Sister Mei also has a happy New Year, she is really beautifully dressed today." I smiled and said, "No, it's no different from the usual ones." I turned to look at them: "Sister Xue and Sister Shutong's dresses are elegant and refreshing." I ordered Hong Jian to pour tea, and smiled at them, "Is there any happy event today?"

Xie Ronghua sat on the chair, smiled and said: "There is nothing to be happy about, it's New Years, it's always good to have a smile on your face." I nodded and smiled: "Yes, in the new year, there must always be new changes, otherwise it will be a year old in vain." Concubine Wu looked at Xie Ronghua, her eyes seemed to have something to say, Xie Ronghua turned to me, she was about to speak, but she didn't speak. I hurriedly asked: "Sister Shutong, what's the matter, why not tell me." Xie Ronghua nodded, and said with a smile: "Sister Mei, it's like this. Isn't it just a new year? There must be many people who want to come to Cuimei Temple to pray. Sister Xue and I plan to invite you to go with us. This is our wish, and it has never been possible. And go. I used to go often in the palace, and I will never have the chance to go again when I enter the palace." It seems that Wu Fei and Xie Ronghua came today because I wanted to ask Chunyi to allow us to go to Cuimei Temple. Before this matter, Wu The concubine also mentioned that I didn't do it, and I feel very ashamed in my heart.

I looked at Concubine Wu guiltily: "Sister Xue, I'm really sorry, I wanted to talk to the emperor about this several times, but you also know that the emperor has been busy with political affairs these past few months, so I couldn't even open my mouth, so I had to drag on. But I still remember it in my heart and never forget it.” Concubine Wu smiled and said softly: "It's hard for my sister to be at ease all the time. These days, the emperor is working hard on state affairs. If I propose to go outside the palace again, it is really inappropriate." I nodded: "Yes, but it's different this time. The end of the year is much quieter. In addition, at the beginning of the new year, all people enjoy the same joy. Let's go to Cuimei Temple to burn incense and pray for the prosperity of the country and the people, and the country will last forever. Best wishes, I believe the emperor will be very happy and will allow us to go."

Xie Ronghua praised: "Yes, Sister Mei said well, I hope that the country will be safe and peaceful, and the country will last forever. Long live the emperor, and the emperor will definitely allow us to go when he is happy. Stay for three or five days, eat vegetarian food, and Buddha, it should be a lot What a pleasant thing." I laughed and said, "I'll stay for another three or five days, so I don't know if the emperor will allow it, but I will try my best until I persuade him." After speaking, I turned to them, "You can try too. Yes, when the emperor favors you, then it will be fine to ask." Xie Ronghua blushed, and said: "Sister Mei is joking, I mentioned it before, the emperor forbids it, it's just that you have been there a few times, we have never had the opportunity to go there." "I have something special to do." Speaking of this, I thought of Yanping again. Indeed, I want to go to Cuimei Nunnery to stay for a few days, and go to Meihuaxi to see Yanping. After all, it is the last place I can Find her remains. Concubine Wu looked at me, with longing in her eyes, and said: "Then there is Sister Laomei, and Sister Shutong and I are waiting for your good news. If I can follow my wish, I will burn incense and prostrate in front of the Buddha to thank the emperor for his kindness." .” I smiled and nodded: "I will try my best, I think the emperor will allow us to go, stay for three to five days and then come back, maybe we will be completely reborn." Xie Ronghua covered her lips and smiled: "Do you want to take off this mortal body? I'm afraid you won't become a Buddha, but a demon instead." "Hehe, well said, if you don't become a Buddha, you become a demon instead. I think there is evil in my bones." Concubine Wu smiled and said: "I also carry evil in my bones, I hope the Buddha can purify me." A slight smile rose from the corner of my mouth: "The Buddha can't purify you either. The Buddha just looks at you with his peaceful and benevolent eyes. As for whether he can penetrate your heart, it depends on his own understanding and good fortune." With a certain distrust, I actually know that the Buddha has a Buddha's world, and he can't transcend everything to save sentient beings, but can only enlighten the world with compassion and Zen principles.As for the ending, it's not what they can do. Concubine Wu smiled: "It seems that sister Mae has gone to Cuimei Nunnery more times, and she has a deeper understanding of Zen principles than me. If I go this time as I wish, I will definitely meditate and listen to Zen." Xie Ronghua nodded: "Yes, I also want to do the same. Last time sister Lao Mei lit a stick of heart incense for me, and Mrs. Lao Miaochen gave me a few scriptures as a gift. This time I have the opportunity to go there to fulfill my wish in person." I picked up the teacup, drank it down, and said with a smile: "It seems that this time only success is allowed, and failure is not allowed. I will be tied up with the emperor." "Well, sister Lao Mei is responsible for everything." Xie Ronghua held my hand tightly. Concubine Wu got up, walked to the window, looked at the plum blossoms in my porcelain vase, and praised: "It is unique, graceful and graceful. It seems that the strength of the plum blossoms is really only comparable to that of Mei Mei." I also got up and followed, and looked at the plum branch carefully. I couldn't see it clearly under the hazy moonlight. Yingren is really unique, with a strong character.Thinking of Concubine Wu's words just now, she couldn't help replying: "Sister Xue, everyone has a plant that suits them. Maybe this plant was their previous life, and my previous life might be a white plum, but in this life, I can't guarantee it. It can be as clean and pure as it is.” Xie Ronghua hurriedly came over to answer the words: "Who says it can't, Sister Mei is like this white plum, elegant and unconventional, unique in the harem." I chuckled and shook my head, not knowing what to say for a while. After a moment of silence, Xie Ronghua said in a low voice: "Actually, Sister Mei, there is one more thing to do when I go to Cuimei Temple this time." I looked up at her and asked, "What's the matter?" Xie Ronghua sighed softly: "Sister, you and I have nothing to do until now. I am better than you with Sister Wu. You have been in the palace for more than a year, and you have been favored by the emperor. As I said, You should understand." I nodded slightly: "Well, I understand, it's just that this matter can't be according to our wishes. Xie Ronghua sighed: "That's why I have to go to Cuimei Nunnery, donate some incense money, and pay homage to Guanyin who gave away my son." Concubine Wu agreed: "Yes, I also have the same idea. It is our responsibility as concubines to continue the future generations of the royal family. If this matter cannot be completed, then we are not too disappointed in the emperor's kindness." I sighed deeply: "Many things in the world are difficult to fulfill people's wishes. This can be regarded as a kind of tribulation." Concubine Wu faced the window, clasped her hands together, and said in a low voice, "I hope the Bodhisattva will take pity on us and give our sister Lin'er a continuous heir for the royal family." I don't know why, I feel a little lonely in my heart. I have been in the palace for so long, Chun Yi favors me, but my thoughts on Mian Mian's heirs are extremely indifferent, as if these things are dispensable, and it is said that a woman who becomes a mother is a real woman. woman, but I am not yet ready for such a thing.A mother is more expensive than a child, this is a saying often said by women in the harem, and my status, should I also rely on my flesh and blood with the emperor to maintain it?Seriously, I really don't care. Maybe because there are too many people who hate me because of this matter, they will think that I am favored by the emperor, so they have very little chance to get close to the emperor.Presumably the emperor will also blame me for this, but because she is not in good health, she did not find a chance to talk to me, it seems that I need to persuade Chunyi again. Concubine Wu and Xie Ronghua sat down and drank a few cups of tea with me, then got up to say goodbye, when I left, I did not forget to ask the emperor to intercede, allowing us to stay in Cuimei Temple for a few days.Thinking in my heart, they are sincerely worshiping the Buddha, and the emperor will definitely agree. Send them to the gate of Yueyang Palace, turn around and come back, standing in front of a few plum trees, meditating on what you just said. I told myself that everything is fate, if there is, I cherish it, if not, I will not force it.