Chapter 21 Not every misunderstanding is beautiful

The next morning, I woke up to the scent of the gardenia and saw the sunlight from a window.The singing of birds and the fragrance of flowers made me think for a moment that I had returned to the Qinling Mountains, but then the white crocheted curtains woke me up from my dream. The rich fragrance of gardenia is carried by the wind. Looking at it, I think of the scene when Yiran gave it to me in the first place.He said: "Gardenia's flower language is 'I am very happy', I give you happiness, I hope you will always be happy because of me." "I'm very happy".Am I happy?

The sun is beating on the glass windows, I am safe in my own home, but why is my heart so confused and lost.Am I happy?Am I really back? At this time, a voice suddenly jumped into my mind: "What about us? What about our relationship?" Yes, that was the conversation I heard in the ward. At that time, I didn't hear the other party's answer clearly, but now, it is clearly reflected in my memory. I remember that the woman answered like this: " So, I wish you happiness." "So, I wish you happiness." The person who asked the question was yes; and the woman who answered was Wuyou.

Worry free!All of a sudden, I thought through all the details clearly, Wuyou and Yiran, they have long been in love, when I was kidnapped by Zhong Chubo, the two of them got along day and night, in order to rescue me, they had to walk together often, and In the process of working together, love came quietly.However, they agreed that they would not formally fall in love unless I was rescued safely.But when I returned to Dalian with all the scars, they couldn't speak to my pain and helplessness.So Wuyou decided to give up on love, and she said to Yiran: "Yiran, I wish you happiness." But, will Yiran be happy?will i be happy

The sound of my mother making breakfast came from the kitchen. I was careful not to disturb her, so I sneaked out of the house and decided to take a trip to "Shui Wuyou". After all, this is a matter between Yiran, Wuyou and myself, and the person concerned has the most say, and has nothing to do with the parents of the two families. Maybe it's unreasonable to do this, because Ke's parents are elders after all, since they agreed to come and see me, I should stay at home obediently, dressed up and waiting to be inspected. But I don't want to. I'm afraid of such polite greetings.

I don’t know since when, I have gradually become infected with Zhong Chubo’s disregarding personality, I don’t want to play cards according to common sense, I don’t want to do things according to dogma, his evil, his wildness, his domineering and indifference are all in my heart Make a deep imprint on your body. It turned out that what was kidnapped was not my body, but my spirit. Now the body has returned, but the spirit is still in the mountains and forests, in the depths of the Qinling Mountains where the partridges sound. Unfortunately, the employee said that Wuyou was giving a lecture and asked me to wait in the tea room for a while.They also told me that "Shui Wuyou" has developed a new project: open classes to teach and spread tea art.

Worry-free, a true tea lover. The classroom is the largest "green smoke" private room.A worry-free voice came from inside, calm and calm: "The origin of tea can be traced back to the Shennong family in the Middle Ages more than 2,700 years ago. It is said that Shennong tasted a hundred herbs, and every time he ate poisonous weeds by mistake, he would drink them with tea. Tea can be used to detoxify. However, the earliest written records appeared in the book, there is a sentence in "Gu Feng": whoever says that tea is bitter, but its sweetness is like a shepherd's. The word "tea" refers to "tea"..."

I stood by the stairs, listening intently, this is the first time I have heard of this allusion. "In the Tang Dynasty, Lu Yu's "Tea Classic" came out, and the word "tea" was subtracted by a horizontal line, and it was officially named "tea". Therefore, Lu Yu became the real originator of tea, known as the "God of Tea". His "Tea Classic" "To this day, it still has a strong guiding significance for tea people. It is divided into ten chapters, one is the source, the second is the utensils, the third is the creation, the fourth is the utensils, the fifth is the cooking, the sixth is the drinking, the seventh is the thing, and the eighth Out, the outline of the nine, the picture of the ten. Lu Yu's name is Ji, and the character is Hongjian, and the private room next to him comes from these two characters..."

The names of each private room in "Shui Wuyou" have allusions.Just like "Green Smoke", Jia Baoyu's pair in the code: Baoding tea is still green when the smoke is idle, and the chess in the quiet window is still cold. Wuyou clearly showed her elegance and care in these small places. There is also "Pine Wind", which also comes from a poem, "The eyes of the crab are more than the eyes of the fish, and the whistling is like the sound of the pine wind." Wuyou said that "crab eyes" and "fish eyes" both refer to the blisters after boiling water; while "pine wind sound" refers to the sound of boiling water.

Therefore, the true meaning of "pine wind" refers to neither "pine" nor "wind", but "water". A small misunderstanding. Life is full of such unexpected misunderstandings. Like cuckoo and partridge. Just like my relationship with Wuyou and Yiran. At this time, the waiter brought Qimen black tea and asked me to wait next door, and the door she opened was the private room of "Songfeng". There are as many misunderstandings in life as unspeakable coincidences. The wind blew in through the open window, and I suddenly remembered that on the day Zhong Chubo killed his wife, I bid farewell to Wuyou here, and I can still clearly remember every detail of that day: the Sophora japonica flowers within reach outside the window, The newly-launched Mingqian Longjing, the Gaochaolong "Yunmian" purple sand teapot in Wuyou's hand, and the tea book written by a Hong Kong native...

Now, the "Yun Mian" is still quietly on the coffee table, and the blue and white porcelain tea set next to it is the same as it was two months ago. There are also treasures wrapped in green leaves. Still, all grievances and grievances are dissolved in the boiling tea and annihilated, leaving no trace of time. But what about outside the window? The acacia flowers outside the window have fallen.While the flowers are blooming and falling, the world has undergone earth-shaking changes. I suddenly had the desire to cry, so I picked up the cup and drank it down. "Qimenhong" was poured into a jade porcelain cup, it was as red as blood, and gave off a faint rose fragrance.

Remember the first time you used tea as wine in "Songfeng", and you drank Pu'er, right? It was the friendship formed with Wuyou from then on. It was the first time I quarreled with Yiran, and Wuyou persuaded him to make peace.Later, because of Concubine Dorothy, I fell out with Yiran again, and it was also in this room, Yiran slammed the door and left, Wuyou came to comfort me, I hugged her and cried, and told her all about the ghost haunting.So, she found an exorcist for me, rescued me in time before I fell from the building at midnight, taught me to use candles to summon the soul of the piano, and accompanied me to solve the case together, until finally she helped me call the police with tea language... If there is no worry-free, maybe I would have fallen to my death. As I said, in this world, I have at least one true friend, and that is worry-free. But now, because of this, I have gradually become estranged from Wuyou. Is it worth sacrificing friendship for love? I tore off the creamer package a little bit, and tilted it slightly into the cup. Didi Fragrance quickly sank to the bottom and then floated up, and the thin round spots slowly spread out, like white pear blossoms blooming on the bed. On the lake full of sunshine—this is the best Qimen black tea: mellow, fragrant, colorful, and bright—I remember reading tea books before, and I always said that China’s Qimenhong has a unique fragrance, which is incomparable to other teas. It is called "Qi Men Xiang".But later, every time I ordered this tea at the teahouse, I found that the aroma was astringent, which was very ordinary.It was only at "Shui Wuyou" that I first experienced the mellow aroma of authentic Qimenhong. Similarly, it was also in "Shui Wuyou" for the first time that I really understood that friendship between the same sex can be very sincere and precious. The creamer floats up and down in the bright red tea soup, like a coquettish woman winking, just like... Dorothy. I suddenly thought, if Dorothy is compared to black tea, then Wuyou should be closer to green tea, right?So elegant and pleasant, slim and graceful.As for me, it can only be a cup of oolong tea, and it is the kind of big-leaf oolong that has not been fermented well. It is best to drink it directly. Too many processes will only lose the original taste of the tea, which is not suitable for me. Worry-free mainly deals in Taiwanese tea, which is characterized by a strong aroma. There is a kind of Alishan tea, which is special with its unique aroma.I once told her that after drinking so many teas, the most refreshing one was our domestic Anxi Tieguanyin.Wuyou laughed at me for this, but at the same time, he said that Tieguanyin is called "the holy and wonderful fragrance of Guanyin rhyme". Sell ​​alone.But what Yiran hopes is the best of both worlds. You can't have both the fish and the bear's paw, why not give up the fish and take the bear's paw?But, which one is a fish, and which one is a bear's paw? It is exhausting to guess a person's heart. And bored. If it's Zhong Chubo, you don't have to guess like this, because you can completely predict his answer: "It's you, of course it's you." In his emotional world, he never hesitated, love is love, not love is not love, there is never a middle line.Back then he liked Xu Nongqin, he really liked it, and he could go all out for her; now that he likes me, he is also sincere and fervent, and he can throw his head and blood.If one day you don't love anymore, then never procrastinate, just break it up, in order to regain freedom, you can even kill someone.All things and choices become simple and straightforward for him, as if all the clues can be solved easily, and there is no need to look forward and backward at all. After experiencing such a man, I can no longer accept mediocre feelings. I agree, maybe there was once a very pure and passionate love, but it was only once. Today, that love has already become reluctant, jerky, fragile and vulnerable. No, there is no need to ask Yiran for answers anymore, and there is no need to discuss anything with Wuyou anymore. Love that can be negotiated is no longer true love. At least, not the love I want. The sad thing is not that we no longer love each other, but that I am no longer the favorite in his heart.So, why bother to be persistent? I stood up and left the "Matsukaze" private room. When I got home, the parents of the Ke family had already left, and my mother was very angry when she saw me: "Where did you go so early in the morning? It made me cover up for you. The bigger you are, the more unruly you are." I sat down and said softly: "Mom, I have already decided to break up with you." "What?" Mom's eyes widened and she jumped up in surprise, as if seeing Zhong Chubo suddenly appearing in front of her. I said, "I don't want to marry Yiran." "What nonsense are you talking about? Just now I discussed with my mother-in-law about the day to do things, which is the eighth day of the next month, and you said you would not marry? How much I have worried and shed tears for your affairs, you Girl, why don't you understand the heart of being a mother? It's been two months since you disappeared, and my hair is getting gray. Finally, God has eyes, and you came back with no missing arms or legs, and you are still a girl with yellow flowers. I didn't feel disgusted or blamed, and I didn't ask about the past, and I promised to hold a make-up wedding immediately, but you didn't agree?" I was dumbfounded, why did my mother think that the Ke family had a reason to dislike me and blame me?It wasn't my fault that I was kidnapped, why did it seem like I had committed seven crimes, and it seemed that it was a blessing from God that I didn't get divorced.What is the logic?It's even more ridiculous than Zhong Chubo! Mom went on to say: "If it wasn't for the murderer surnamed Zhong, you and Yiran would have already entered the bridal chamber at this time, why would you use me to talk so hard? It just happens that things take a long time, Cheng Yaojin was killed on the way. Fortunately, you are back intact now. Why don’t you rush to make up the wedding ceremony? If you retire at this time, people will not think that it was you who proposed it. I guarantee that among the hundred people One hundred and twenty people believe that the Ke family divorced the marriage, so maybe some bad words will be spread? I must think that you were ruined by the murderer, and the Ke family does not want you..." "Mom!" I couldn't help interrupting her, "What are you talking about? Such ugly words came out." "You think that's ugly? If you really divorced, there will be more ugly words..." I covered my ears, and was so tired that I didn't want to listen any more, and I didn't want to argue any more, so I could only say weakly: "Mom, I don't want you to divorce the Ke family immediately, but I just said that it's not the right time to get married, I think , I actually don’t know enough about Yiran.” "You still don't understand? What else do you need to know?" Mom couldn't listen at all, "His family background is good, knowledgeable, good image, good job, good job and good for you. You are lucky to marry into the Ke family, neighbors and relatives Who doesn't envy it? What else can you find fault with?" "But we don't really love each other." "Not in love? You are in free love. If you don't love each other, you plan to get married? This husband was chosen by you yourself, and it was not arranged by your parents. Now you are going to get married, and you say you don't love each other. What kind of love is it?" ?” I sighed, remembering a fairy tale I read when I was a child.The little prince can't explain his paintings to adults, and I can't explain the love I want to my mother. It's not that I don't love it, it's just that I didn't love it enough.Maybe most of the couples in the world live like that, as long as they can face it, it doesn't matter whether the inside is riddled with holes or not.However, that kind of love can no longer satisfy me.Marriage is its purpose and its grave. The image of a golden boy and a jade girl is the same as the fake smile on a wedding photo. It is a gesture of hard work, and it is more for others to see than for oneself to enjoy. I can imagine my life after marriage, I don’t know how to sing, because Yiran is not a person who loves to sing, and I don’t know how to follow, because of too much material life, we don’t even have conversations like egg geometry and rice price geometry There will be, occasionally talk about the rare goods in an antique store's recent auction, but I won't care too much.As for Zhu Dian's dialogue with seven bowls of tea, it is used to win the favor of the opposite sex when courting a mate, but it is completely useless for married life. The worry-free chapter will be revealed naturally, as if it never happened.Therefore, there may be other lovers in the future, but they will definitely not be high-spirited and self-loving, so our marriage will never be shaken.No matter how many confidante he has in private, the only one who will show up with him in public is me, Lu Chen'er, neatly dressed and smiling, standing side by side with him, acting as a loving couple with equal eyebrows. Such a marriage is not bad.But the love I want is not like that. It only lives in my heart. It may not be acceptable to most people, and it may be a little illogical and difficult to explain, but it is love, just like the boa constrictor in the painting of the little prince.The boa constrictor that ate the elephant is regarded as a top hat by adults, but children can tell at a glance, hey, what is in the belly of this boa constrictor? What I want is that confidant who may not necessarily guess what I'm thinking, but at least won't regard me as a top hat.He needs to have the heart of a child to explain me with the simplest logic, calling like a cuckoo.A cuckoo in the mountains at dawn and rain.That clear chirping wakes up my sleeping soul and gives me the most authentic guidance. The father was startled, he came out, and asked in confusion, "Chen'er, are you back? Where were you just now?" I sighed, and was about to repeat what I had said to my mother, but my mother was already yelling, "Where are you going? I think she was possessed by a demon! As soon as she came back, she said that she wanted to break off the engagement. Do you think marriage is It's a joke, if you say you get married, you get married, if you say you terminate the contract, you terminate the contract?" Dad was very surprised: "Is it true, Chen'er? You want to break off the engagement with Yiran?" "Yes, Dad." I looked at my parents in turn, and I felt very sorry in my heart. When Yiran and I decided to get married, they worried a lot. Now that I decided to terminate the contract, they became more worried. I am really a person An unfilial daughter repeatedly brings panic and worry to her parents.But, after all, I can't go against my heart, and I can't fulfill my filial piety with a lifetime of fake marriage.I swallowed and tried to explain my thoughts to them, "Dad, Mom, I've already thought it through, and I think you all know that during the time I was not in Dalian, Yi Ran's relationship didn't stand the test. He wavered, for worry-free." "I just said it was for the worry-free, right?" Mom suddenly realized, "But hasn't Yiran already made a choice? Hasn't he already decided to want you now? When his mother came just now, she was still negotiating the wedding date with me Woolen cloth." "But the problem is, I don't want him anymore. Because marriage is an established destiny, not just a choice." "What are you talking about? I don't understand at all." My mother protested dissatisfiedly, "Don't speak so politely, it's not acting. You are already in your twenties, you are no longer a child, why are you still so self-willed? Do things a little bit Don't even think about it for your parents. How do you let the mother explain in front of relatives?" "I'm not acting." I held back my anger, "Mom, can you respect my feelings? I am your daughter, not your proud weight and the capital you show off to your relatives and friends. Consider the happiness of your own life.” "Do you think we want you to marry Yiran just to show off to our relatives and friends?" The father who had been silent all this time suddenly spoke. I immediately regretted my harsh words: "Dad, I'm sorry." "Stop talking, Chen'er, you make me very sad." The father took his mother's arm and ended the conversation, "I just want you to know that we are your parents, and everything is for your own good. If you feel This marriage is wronged to you, so you can do whatever you want. I don't want one day in the future, you will complain that your parents hurt you because of the quarrel with Yiran. " They left and left me alone in the house.I thought, that's fine, just treat me as an unfilial and rude daughter.In this way, they may be sad and angry for a short period of time, and even a little embarrassed, but it will pass, and it is better than my whole life of hesitating in a loveless marriage. I don't know how long it took, there was a knock on the door, and I didn't want to pay attention.After a while, the door opened, and the sound of light footsteps stretched all the way to the bed. I peeked out from under my arm, and I couldn't help being stunned, that's why! I sighed in my heart, my mother was still unwilling to give up, and moved Yiran here after all.But at this time, I was too tired to explain, and I really don't want to say anything more. Yiran stood in front of my bed blankly, neither waking me up nor walking away.Anguish and helplessness were written on his handsome face.Oh, so, you still love me after all, don't you?Otherwise, you would not be so painful and so hesitant.However, you still don't love me enough, otherwise, you don't have to hesitate and worry like this. I know that at this time, as long as I stretch out my hand and call out, he will immediately fall to me, hug me, and whisper sweet words in my ear, but how much of that love is because of conditions, How much is because of the result of choice, how much is out of responsibility and obligation, out of sympathy and pity, and how much is just because of pure love? The figure of worry-free floating like a fairy appeared in front of me, I bit my lip, refusing to let myself call out. After a while, Yiran suddenly let out a long sigh, as if he was so desolate, my heart ached, I couldn't help but raise my head, but he had already turned and left. My stiff body suddenly relaxed, and I realized that I was sweating all over, and even the sheets under me were damp and wrinkled.Reason struggled too hard with emotion, I didn't know if it was really stupid to do so, and I didn't know whether I followed my heart or violated my heart after giving up. Tiredness hit me, and I suddenly returned to the sick state where my mind was out of control, and my will floated away involuntarily.