Chapter 19 worry-free story

It's raining, and the raindrops are beating on the window, like an out-of-tune tune. When Wuyou entered the door, the umbrella in his hand was dripping water all the way, his face was sweaty or rainy, there was a kind of moist streamer, he was wearing a black satin embroidered tunic with puff sleeves and a long white skirt. , with water stains printed on the hem of the skirt, the whole person is fresh and elegant, like a newly bloomed daffodil. I was pleasantly surprised: "It's raining so much, you still come to see me?" She smiled: "This kind of weather is the most likely to hurt spring and autumn, and you are such a sensitive person, it's hard to guarantee that you won't think wildly."

A warm feeling immediately surrounded me, and I couldn't help laughing: "Really, just before you entered the door, I was still reciting that poem by Li Yu." Then, I really recited: "The rain outside the curtain is murmuring , the spring is fading, and Luo Qun can't bear the five-watch cold. In the dream, I don't know that I am a guest, and I am greedy for joy..." Worry-free comfort: "You're homesick, right? But it's okay, you'll be discharged from the hospital soon. At that time, you'll be 'no longer a guest in your dreams, you'll be sleeping soundly'."

She brought me Song Zhong's Phoenix Dancong, her treasure.It's a pity that there are not enough tea sets in the ward, and the good tea was wasted for nothing, but it is already like fairy dew to me, so I can't help but take a big sip from the cow. Wuyou hurriedly advised: "Don't choke, drink slowly." I laughed: "If Miaoyu was here, she would definitely call me a fool, but if it were Wuyou, she would only persuade people to drink slowly." Wuyou said: "So I can't be considered a good tea person." "It's wrong, it's because you can't be a family member. Tea Zen blindly doesn't mean that everyone who loves tea can be a family member."

A trace of sadness suddenly flashed in Wuyou's eyes: "But, I would rather go to become a monk. Once it's over, I have no thoughts or desires." I immediately caught her babble, and laughed at her: "So, you have thoughts and desires now? Tell me, who planted lovesickness in your heart into red beans? Who twisted the bright moon like a hook?" Don't worry about me.I sang softly to myself: "Who planted the lovesickness in my heart into red beans? Wait for me to grind the beans into dust to see if there is still lovesickness? Who twisted the bright moon in the sky like a hook? Wait for me to turn the moon into a mirror , according to the eternal reunion in the world..."

I sang it over and over again, but Wuyou still didn’t ring. I begged her, “It’s so boring, tell me your story, okay?” "Me? What can I say?" Worriless evaded. I feigned anger: "All my stories are transparent to you, but you are like a wall in front of me." "Really? Is this how I feel to you?" Wuyou looked at me, with thought flashing in his eyes. I immediately regretted it, and quickly apologized: "That's not what I meant, Wuyou, I didn't mean to force your privacy." "It's not about privacy. It's just that I don't want to mention those past events for a long time. However, they have been bored in my heart for so long. In fact, I have long wanted to have a good talk with you."

"Really? Are you really willing to tell me your past?" I was a little surprised, but I was shy because of my gossiping curiosity, "Wuyou, do you know? I always thought you were very mysterious .” So, on that rainy afternoon, I finally knew the story of worry-free. I always guessed that Wuyou was a girl with a story, but I didn't expect it to be so bizarre and pathetic... Wuyou's first love is a man named Cheng.He is her university senior, three grades higher than her. When she was in school, he was already preparing for graduation thesis and TOEFL exam.During such turbulent times, they were still in love, and the love was deep and passionate.

Neither of them had much money, but sitting in the noodle shop eating ramen with too much chili could eat happily and tears filled her eyes. She often didn't know whether the tears were because of the chili or because of too much love for him. Every day, she grabs every minute and second from his time to get together with him, snatches it, but does nothing, just holds hands and faces each other quietly, counting the time every minute, every time she sees him Face to face is one point closer to separation, so every meeting becomes parting of life and death. "I love very hard." Wuyou said, "Every time I meet him, I am afraid that it will be the last time. We talk about separation when we get together. Before I had time to enjoy the sweetness of love, I had tasted the pain of lovesickness. Under the flower tree, he promised me over and over again: "I will come back, I will definitely come back. Neither time nor distance can change my love for you." I believe it, I believe in him so much, because I believe in my love and the power of love that can surpass everything, so I also believe that he will be the same as me, steadfast, persistent, and guard our love. But, it turns out that there is no..."

"No?" I immediately felt aggrieved, such a deep and pure feeling, such a beautiful and lovely girl, can I live up to it? Wuyou paused for a moment, and continued: "That fall, Cheng finally got the qualification to study in the United States. At the airport, I grabbed Cheng's hand tightly and cried until I couldn't cry. But Cheng didn't see much in his eyes. His heart has already flown to the United States ahead of time, and he no longer lingers on me. "Cheng has a good friend named Qi Sheng. When he saw that I was crying too much, he proposed to take me home. Halfway, he changed his mind and said that we should go to the beach to relax. We came to Fujiazhuang, on the beach. He sat down with his knees hugged. He didn't comfort me, but just told me some interesting things about Tong Cheng when he was a child, which made me laugh.

"After that, I often chatted with Qi Sheng and listened to him tell me stories about Cheng. I never got tired of listening to it. Whenever I was with Qi Sheng, I felt that Cheng was back again. I seemed to be very close to Cheng and knew him very well. I never separated. I told Cheng about my friendship with Qi Sheng in my letter, and repeated to him what Qi Sheng told me about his own childhood. But Cheng seldom wrote back. I heard from Qi Sheng that this made me run to Qi Sheng more frequently. "One day Qi Sheng took me to the beach again, handed me a letter, and said very seriously: 'Cheng Tuo, I advise you to speak, but I don't want to say it, because I think you have enough courage to digest this matter yourself. , so read the letter yourself.'

"A sense of foreboding flashed through my mind. My first thought was if something happened to Cheng. I asked Qi Sheng like this, and grabbed the letter. But nothing happened to Cheng. He is alive and well, that's great. , already has a talented and beautiful foreign student girlfriend and is about to get engaged, he just changed his mind, empathized, and doesn't want me..." Wuyou's eyes were moistened with crystal tears. I have never seen her such a sensitive side. Since we met, she has always been so calm and peaceful. In my eyes, she is almost the embodiment of reason.But now I realize that she is actually just a young girl, but she is only a few years older than me, and she also has the same emotional pain and struggle as me.

She wiped away her tears and continued: "Before that, I always thought that Cheng was the whole of my life. If I lost him one day, I would definitely not be able to live. But that day, when I saw his letter of resignation, which was more tactful and beautiful than a courtship letter, I was very sad. Calm, so calm that I can't even imagine it myself. I didn't scream, curse, or even complain about myself. I was almost scared to death, and I even smiled softly and said softly: "He It's fine.' My smile was later described by Qi Sheng as 'the smile that only angels can have'. "Then I tore up the letter carefully, dug a small hole in the sand and buried it, and buried my first love ever since. I did all this quietly, carefully and solemnly, as if in a ceremony ceremony. "I never cried, but at this moment Qi Sheng stood up and walked towards me. The moment his hand was on my shoulder, I grabbed his hand and threw myself on his lap and wept. I Choking, trembling like a leaf in the wind, tears poured out endlessly, but just couldn't cry. "When I came back from the beach that day, I was sick, and I couldn't help being depressed. Every day, I was thinking about what love is, how could it be said and said, how could it end so easily. "I kept fantasizing that he would come back, every time the phone rang I thought it was him, every knock on the door I thought he was coming back to see me, but no, not once. He was like from this world It's like disappearing from the world, ever since I asked Qi Sheng to bring me that letter, there hasn't been a single word. "Qi Sheng brought gifts to visit me every day, sometimes flowers, sometimes fruits, sometimes just a popular novel or a few CDs. He never mentioned the schedule, and if I didn't want to talk, he would not force me. He always They are not talkative people, but as long as he is there, I will feel comforted. He always sits silently by my bed, takes an apple or pear, and peels it carefully. After the fruit is peeled, the skins are still connected together and can be completely attached to the fruit, as if the roots are broken... "Until long after his death, when I thought of him, he was always sitting in front of my bed with his head bowed and peeling fruit with his heart. He was calm and gentle, just like an elder brother." "He's dead?" I couldn't help but scream out. Wuyou nodded, a tear rolled down from her eyes, slid across her pretty cheek, fell on the white silk skirt and broke into pieces. She went on to say: "The first time Qi Sheng talked about death with me was after drinking. At that time, my body had recovered and I had started to work in a newspaper office, but my heart, I thought I was still a wounded soldier, so I relied on Qi Sheng very much. Sheng, I just want to be with him every day, and if I don't see him for a few days, I feel empty and unreliable. "Just as he comforted my lovesickness after Cheng left, he comforted my frustration after Cheng said goodbye completely. That day was my twenty-third birthday, and Qi Sheng celebrated for me, just the two of us. I drank I drank a lot of wine and kept talking to Qi Sheng, and the one who talked the most was naturally Cheng. I said that Cheng hurt me too much, and that someone told me that the best way to heal a broken relationship is to fall in love again, and I said I am fine. Wanting to fall in love again, pointing to Qi Sheng drunkenly and asking him: "A Sheng, do you like me? Why aren't you my boyfriend?" "Qi Sheng stared at me, but said solemnly in a low voice: 'If I could love you less, if I didn't care so much about your happiness, if death wasn't so close to me, I would have proposed to you a long time ago.' "That was the first time he mentioned death. But when I was drunk, I didn't think about what he meant. After I woke up, I forgot about that day, and he never mentioned it again. After that, we still went out together. The couple talked about everything. But Cheng's name was gradually stopped, but he began to imagine the future of each other more and more. He said that he hoped to open a teahouse and let him be the boss, and the proprietress was a beautiful woman. A quiet woman, sitting in the fragrance of agarwood crumbs, making tea art. When he said this, he looked at me deeply, his eyes full of hope and longing. I started to feel a little bit, but because he never asked me I confessed, and it didn't attract my attention. "At that time, I had been promoted to the chief reporter in the newspaper office, and I was dedicated to tracking and reporting important manuscripts. During a follow-up report on the underworld, I found that Qi Sheng seemed to be related to the company I was tracking. I questioned him, but he was just vague. , I told him that if he regarded me as a friend, please resign immediately. He looked at me with a very painful expression, but he just refused to nod. I was so angry that I was so angry that I shed tears and told him loudly: We break up friendship! "At that time, I didn't think about why I was so angry. In fact, even if I disapproved of a friend's choice of career, why should I care so much? I didn't know, but I had already fallen in love with him at that time, so his The trade-offs between words and deeds made me so groggy, and because of his refusal, I was so embarrassed and excited." Worry-free cried, the tears flowed down continuously, she didn't even wipe them.I was overwhelmed by the beauty of this tragedy, and even forgot to comfort her, just listened to her talk silently.Her voice was cold and sad, full of unspeakable sorrow: "The huge sense of loss made me refuse to face him again, and we suddenly became strangers. But every time I ate fruit, I would suddenly think of Qi Sheng's way of lowering his head to peel a pear, and I couldn't help being in a daze for a while. "After about a month, the case I was following gradually became clear. One day, I even stumbled into the headquarters office of the underworld organization by mistake. Just in time, some of their leaders were having a meeting, and Qi Sheng also had a meeting. In. I was so shocked that I even forgot the purpose of my trip and the danger I was in, so I blurted out accusing him of collaborating with the underworld. "As soon as the words came out of my mouth, I knew I was in trouble, but it was too late. The boss of the underworld caught me and ordered Qi Sheng to execute me with his own hands to prove his loyalty. Qi Sheng shot, pointing at his boss... " "Ah!" I looked at Wuyou in shock, I couldn't imagine that her love experience turned out to be such a life-and-death struggle. If I hadn't experienced the thrilling escape myself, I could hardly believe that all this happened in reality. . The hand Wuyou held with me suddenly became wet and hard, almost hurting me, her voice trembled, even after such a long time, the sad past still made her hard to hold back when recalling: "I found out later that Qi Sheng's real identity is a plainclothes policeman. He is an undercover agent in that organization. He has been working there for two years. That organization will be exposed day by day, and even our newspaper office will find it inappropriate. It is all because of him. Thanks to him, they had arranged a siege on that day, and he had already covered all the eyeliners. If I were half an hour late, the police would have rushed into the venue and wiped out the gangsters. Out of me, Cheng Yaojin, forced him to launch an attack in advance, and because he didn't get rescued in time, he was for me, for me... "After he died, his mother gave me a diary, which was filled with my name. He said in the diary that his greatest desire is to be with me in the future, to open a small teahouse in Chenxiang Serving tea in a quiet place and living a peaceful life. He said that he couldn't restrain his emotions and wanted to propose to me for countless times, but when he thought of the nature of his work and the possible sacrifice at any time, he would I dare not say it anymore. He also said that after this job is over, he will resign to his superiors, find a relatively ordinary job, and then propose to me..." Wuyou cried bitterly. My tears also flowed down, what happened in the past?what kind of love?What kind of pain? ! After a long time, I asked, "What happened next?" "Qi Sheng is dead, what will happen next?" "No, what I mean is, what happened to you then? Did you not fall in love again? You are so beautiful and good, there must be many people pursuing you." Wuyou let out a long sigh, and finally raised his hand to wipe away the tears. "After Qi Sheng passed away, I couldn't live a normal life for a long time. I resigned from the newspaper office and opened this teahouse because it was Qi Sheng's last wish. Originally, I thought that I would never be able to recover in this lifetime. up until..." When she stopped here, I immediately held onto it: "Until what? Have you met a new lover? Have you found a new love?" "There is no result." Wuyou shook his head, paused, shook his head again, and smiled bitterly, "Maybe I am destined to be a person who cannot fall in love. For the first time, the person I love left me; The second time, the person who loved me died because of me; the third time, I finally met a person who was worthy of my love and he loved me, but it was too late, and it was doomed to have no results from the moment it appeared, yes wrong." "Why? As long as you are willing to fight for it, it is wrong to have no love." "But what if this love hurts other people's love?" Wuyou asked me back. I was stunned: "The love of others, you mean, that person is already married?" "That's about it." "When you get married, you are married. If you don't get married, you don't get married. What do you mean by almost?" "Then, it's considered married." Wuyou smiled bitterly again, and stood up, "Chen'er, let's stop talking about this. Now, I've told you all the stories, and you won't talk about yourself anymore. It is transparent in front of me, but I am a wall, right?" I lowered my head: "Wuyou, I'm sorry for reminding you of these sad memories." "I want to say it myself. I've kept it in my heart for a long time. It's rare to say it once, and it will make me feel happier." Wuyou took my hand again. At this moment, her palm was cool and sweatless again, she said, " After Qi Sheng's death, I already knew that falling in love is not the most terrible thing in the world, because the person you loved, even if he doesn't love you anymore, but knowing that he is still in this world and living well, you can also I feel that there is nothing to worry about. Even if you don’t love, you don’t need to hate. After all, he gave himself a happy life. But death is different. Death means nothing, it means disappear, it means it will never exist, death means nothing. No, nothing, nothing is impossible..." She didn't finish her sentence, but I understood what Wuyou meant. After going through that unforgettable life-and-death relationship, she has the ability to deal with any sadness, including broken love, so I don't have to worry about her anymore. .However, I still want to know, who is that person she just fell in love with?And why is it impossible to have a result with her?When Wuyou was talking, the rain outside the window kept pattering, monotonous and persistent, as if it came from ancient times and went to eternity, never intending to stop. This reminds me of the rain in the Qinling Mountains. When it rains, partridges will cry in the deep mountains, calling out "brother, brother", as if afraid that the rain will wet my brother, and call him to go home to avoid the rain. I told Wuyou the story of my younger sister bird: "Wuyou, do you still remember what you told me about 'partridge sky at the beginning of May'? In the mountains, every time I heard my sister bird call, I would think of you." Wuyou was surprised: "Sister Bird? You mean the cuckoo? You made a mistake. The 'partridge' and 'cuckoo' mentioned in 'Partridge Sky' are two different things." I was stunned: "Isn't the partridge the scientific name of the cuckoo?" "The scientific name of the cuckoo is 'Cuckoo', the cuckoo of 'Wangdichunxintuo Rhododendron'. The other name of the partridge is '鹁鹅', which is similar in pronunciation to cuckoo. No wonder you get confused." Oh, I was wrong, it turned out that Partridge Tian, ​​who had been sighing with emotion for so long, was just a misunderstanding. I lowered my head, feeling an indescribable loss in my heart. Wuyou was surprised: "Why are you so unhappy? It seems that you would rather go back to Qinling as a hostage." "Actually, during those days, I didn't feel like being a hostage." I couldn't help complaining, "If I could choose, I would rather live in the mountains for the rest of my life. It's just that I miss home and my parents so much. You, but after I came back, I felt that Yiran didn't care about me as much as I imagined, he hesitated every time he came, as if he had something on his mind." "Is it because you think too much? After a period of time, there will inevitably be a sense of strangeness." Wuyou persuaded me, but for some reason, his expression was a little unnatural. I sighed: "Maybe, but I always feel that he has something on his mind to hide from me. He doesn't seem to be eager to marry me." "No, I promise you, I will marry you after that. He has a marriage contract with you, and he will never be irresponsible." "You promise?" I laughed, "How do you promise? Are you going to be a lobbyist to Yiran for me?" Wuyou blushed.