Chapter 20 souls come and go

"I love, what should I do?" This question really broke Qu Feng's heart.In the wind, he seemed to hear Dan Bing's sigh, so sad and helpless, frowning slightly, he asked in a low voice: "I love, what should I do?" What should I do?When Dan Bing loved him, he couldn't tell; now, he knows Dan Bing's love and wants to love her, but what should he do? Dan Bing is leaving and going to the United States with her father. If she can't keep it, she doesn't dare to, because that is Dan Bing's only hope of surviving.But, how could he bear to watch her leave when he already knew her love?

Her love is thorough and deep, pure as jade.That kind of love comes only once in a lifetime and cannot be repeated. The thought of it kills him. He finally believes that there will never be another person who loves him like Dan Bing in this life. He tried to say to Kobayashi: "Let's break up." Xiao Lin was shocked: "Why? Is it because of Shui'er? You still can't forget her? But she is dead and won't come again." "It's because of Dan Bing." He said sadly, "I want to wait for Dan Bing to wake up." "Dan Bing? But, that's impossible. The rate of vegetative people being rescued is one in ten million, and Dan Bing is already dead!" Xiao Lin shook his arm and cried, "Qu Feng, why did you Fall in love with others again and again, but just refuse to fall in love with the person who loves you? Sometimes it’s Shui’er, sometimes it’s Dan Bing, you always prevaricate me with some impossible people, why? If my opponent is a woman who is evenly matched , I can compete with her, compare with her, but Shui'er and Dan Bing are dead people, but you have been obsessed with it all the time, are you trying to embarrass me? Just because I love you, you treat me so lowly ?”

"Love?" Qu Feng looked at Xiao Lin strangely, and suddenly burst out laughing, sad and helpless, "Love? Do you really know what love is? Love, who else can love as thoroughly as Dan Bing? What kind of love can be more sacred than her? Do you want me to learn to love? Give me back Dan Bing! Give me back Dan Bing's life!" Qu Feng yelled at the sky hoarsely, as if to Pierce the sky. That kind of grief and despair frightened Xiao Lin. She rushed forward, hugged him, and comforted him in a panic: "Qu Feng, don't do this, don't do this. Dan Bing has no hope, but you are still alive, and you still have thoughts. Feelings, you can’t always indulge in the pain of loss! As long as you take a good look at me, you will know that there are people in the world who love you more than Dan Bing.”

She kept complaining that Qu Feng didn't understand feelings, but she didn't expect that he was not a ruthless person, but his feelings were hidden too deep, and once they broke out, they could be ten times and a hundred times stronger than ordinary people.She hugged him and fell limp from crying. She still hugged his leg tightly, and while talking and crying, she showed him her heart clearly and said to him: "Qu Feng, don't you?" Only Dan Bing knows how to love. I have always loved you too. From the first day I saw you, I fell in love with you. I don’t believe that I love you less than Dan Bing. But, I don’t have a I have a chance to confess my love to you. If I was the person standing next to you when the chandelier fell that day, I would also rush to save you, Qu Feng, I will, you believe me! I will be like Dan Love you like ice, love you more than her! Believe me!"

"No, no one will love like Dan Bing." Qu Feng calmed down, he sighed deeply, and suddenly felt infinite desolation.No, no one will ever love him like Dan Bing, so silently, tenderly, deeply and intensely.Dan Bing can die for him a thousand times without confessing to him once.Xiao Lin couldn't, she had already said too much before she could do it.However, even this is hard to come by. There are not many modern people who are willing to speak out, because they are afraid of taking responsibility. He believed that Kobayashi really loved him.Now he knows what love is. Dan Bing has taught him to love, and even taught him to cherish love. He is already sorry for Dan Bing, and he can no longer be sorry for Xiao Lin.He looked at Xiao Lin, her face was full of tears, her hair was loose, and her eyes were full of embarrassing enthusiasm.Hey, what virtue can he have, let such an excellent woman love him so much, for him, and feel so wronged for him!

Qu Feng sighed, sighed again, bent down to support Xiao Lin, hugged her tightly in his arms, printed her tears on his shoulders, and dripped his tears into her hair, If, if he has lost Dan Bing forever, at least, at least he still has time to cherish Xiao Lin. When Qu Feng came to Dan Bing's house again, the building was empty, not even grandma.He opened the door with a spare key—the key was given to him by grandma a long time ago, but he never used it because he didn’t care—he went upstairs alone, sat down on the wicker chair with hanging basket on the balcony, swayed gently, Imagine the situation when Dan Bing sat here in the past.

Dan Bing, will Dan Bing never appear here again?On this rattan chair covered with rose branches, her girlish dreams once swayed, those weeping traces and laughing shadows still linger around the flower branches? He thought of the sentence in "A Message from the Swan", "The end of the world is still the end of the world; lovesickness is still lovesickness to the extreme." What kind of love?What kind of idiot?Dan Bing Dan Bing, if you are alive in the sky, where are you wandering at this moment?You can see how regretful, how hated, how helpless I am infatuated!How can there be such a dull and insensitive person like me in the world, how can such a dull and insensitive person deserve your love?Dan Bing, Dan Bing, come back, let me make it up to you, and repay your endless love with my whole life.

Footsteps sounded behind him, and Qu Feng suddenly turned his head: "Dan Bing!" That's Ah Tong.Her pretty figure stood at the door, and said clearly: "Qu Feng, you are here." "Dan Bing she..." "I know, Dan Bing went to the hospital." "What?" Qu Feng was taken aback, "Didn't she be picked up by her father?" Ah Tong lowered her head, desolate like autumn: "The doctor said that her vital signs were close to failure and she could not travel long distances. This morning, her heart stopped beating for a short time, so she was sent to the hospital, and her father and grandma went with her." ..." At this point, he knew that he had made a slip of the tongue, and hurriedly kept silent, feeling infinitely sad.Ever since she was a child, she and her father have been together less often and far away more. Now, because of her illness, her father has put aside his career and rushed back, worrying about her. How can you be so unfilial if you say "Dad"?

Now, everything is coming to an end.The body will die, the soul will disappear, and her love and sincerity will also turn into dust.What needs to be done now is how to try to return this body to Ah Tong, and also, to minimize the pain of relatives. She said: "Next week is the day for me to participate in the competition. It's a pity that Dan Bing can't hear it..." She had a premonition that Ah Tong made a wish for the piano competition, and wanted to exchange her soul for a true love experience , then, when the competition is over and her wish is fulfilled, this transaction of soul and body should also end, and her life will also end from now on.

Qu Feng's cell phone rang at this time, it was Xiao Lin, saying that Lin's mother invited him to have dinner together.Qu Feng faltered: "I have something to do, I'll talk about it later..." He hung up casually and let out a long sigh. Ah Tong asked clearly: "Is it Xiao Lin?" "A Tong..." "Don't let Xiao Lin down, that's also a heart that loves you." Qu Feng raised his head and looked at Ah Tong's eyes. Are those eyes really blind?But she clearly sees clearly better than everyone else, and can always see into people's hearts.Her eyes were not "focused", solid and had no "gaze".But for some reason, he saw deep loneliness and longing in sorrow.Is it hallucination?

Ah Tong went on to say: "Dan Bing loves a man who knows how to love and respect. You respect even a swan and a piece of music, let alone Xiao Lin is a person..." It was this sentence that broke the style of music. Although Ah Tong didn't say it too bluntly, he had already heard her subtext: "Since you have chosen Xiao Lin, you should take this responsibility." But…… He lowered his head and sighed deeply: "But, the person I love is Ruan Danbing..." Ah Tong was shocked, and asked anxiously, "What did you say?" "I love her. In fact, I have already fallen in love with her deeply. It's just that I don't admit it. I have been avoiding her. From the first time I saw her, I already liked her very much. I teased her and made her angry on purpose. , pay attention to her everywhere. However, I am not a person who can be serious about feelings, and I am also afraid that others will take me seriously. She is so pure, so proud, so persistent and passionate, I dare not bear it, so I have to escape..." Qu Feng's voice was choked with sobs, thinking Ah Tong couldn't see, so he no longer hesitated, and let the tears flow down his face, he didn't know that the hoarse voice had already betrayed him. ——"She was injured in order to save me, and I was sad and regretful. I drank my sorrows with wine every day. At that time, I thought, is this sad just because of gratitude? In fact, I love her, but I dare not Facing my own love... I am too inferior to bear the love of a princess, Dan Bing is too beautiful and noble in my mind, I have never had time to tell her that I love her..." Qu Feng finally cried aloud, unable to maintain his self-esteem, he simply stopped holding on, and shed tears to his heart's content. Ah Tong was stunned by the sound, not knowing whether it was sadness or joy, tears streaming down his face, unable to say a word.He loves her, he loves her!I see!She finally knew, but it was too late, too late!How can God trick people? However, no matter what, she had finally told him her love, and he had finally said that he loved her himself, even if he was ecstasy from then on, there would be no regrets! Ah Tong smiled in tears, her smile was poignant and beautiful. Qu Feng finally decided to go to the Lin family for dinner and propose marriage. so easy. But so what?Things have come to this, a man has to be a little bit worried.Ah Tong is right, Dan Bing loves responsible people, since he can't break up with Xiao Lin, he can only simply accept it. Dan Bing has been lost, it is impossible to expect to meet a second Dan Bing in life, and apart from Dan Bing, other women are no different.The only difference is his feelings for them.If he is willing to love single-mindedly, that woman will become the most different of all vague women. Thinking through this made him feel dead hearted and calm, with a kind of insight. It was Dan Bing who taught him what it means to love seriously, and he decided to accept this love and give it—seriously—to the woman closest to him, Xiao Lin. The only reason for choosing Xiao Lin may be as simple as that, because when he needs a lover, the person who appears by his side is her, not others. Therefore, he chose her and swore to love her for the rest of his life. Music and dance are the moon, Dan Bing is the fringe of the moon, and Xiao Lin is the person who spins the spinning wheel under the moonlight.The light is not bright enough, but it doesn't matter, as usual, circles of thread can be spun and woven into cloth, the thin ones can be made into clothes, and the thick ones can be exchanged for money.Shanghai women know best to keep all the best for themselves, but never waste the second-class. Shanghai women are real, living in the heart of life, warm, shrewd, trivial, and noisy.This hustle and bustle is also a kind of reality, better than Ruan Danbing's dream of peaceful sleep. When Qu Feng woke up next to Xiao Lin, it was not yet dawn, but there were already birds singing outside the window.Xiao Lin curled up, forming a shape of a baby in the mother's womb, a few strands of hair were blown out by the breath around his face and sucked in again, sweating slightly, it was so huge that it filled the whole room. In the morning when he didn't wake up, amidst the chirping of birds and Xiao Lin's sweat, Qu Feng shed tears quietly. Today is the day of Ah Tong's contest, he promised to support her and hold a special engagement ceremony amidst the sound of the piano.Use a ring to delimit his and Xiao Lin's life. No matter how reluctant he is, but since he has made a decision, he will not regret it.It's today, it's today, after today, there will be only one heroine in his life——Xiao Lin. In the Shanghai National Piano Competition, many talents are gearing up and eager to try.Among the crowd, A Tong, who is blind but has a dignified manner, looks very different. She is dressed in white, with her long hair parted in the middle. She is as elegant as a cloud and as ethereal as a gust of wind. She seems to be able to fly to the sound of the piano at any time. rise. Grandma, father, Qu Feng and Xiao Lin all came, and even the sleeping Ruan Danbing was sitting in a wheelchair, pushed by Qu Feng, to participate in this extraordinary competition.This is Dan Bing's request through A Tong's mouth. She has decided to return her soul to A Tong in the arena and in the sound of the piano.Although she didn't know exactly what to do, but the premonition told her that today, she would make an end to her love and soul. She already clearly felt that there were two forces awakening in her body at the same time, and a thought that did not belong to her was throbbing. She knew that it was Ah Tong.Ah Tong's soul is about to return, asking her to return this body.And she is also willing to deliver with pleasure.Their transactions will be completed with the help of music in the sound of the piano. Finally, the announcer announced: "The next contestant: Shanghai, A Tong; entry:." Ah Tong stood up, walked steadily onto the stage, walked to the piano and sat down accurately.After thinking for a while, I pressed my ten fingers lightly, and the beautiful music sounded, like flowing clouds and flowing water, pouring unimpeded, and my lover called out in the wind, Dan Bing, Dan Bing, did you hear it? In the sound of the piano, all the listeners felt refreshed, as if they had returned to their youth, the distant first love, in the memory of childhood sweethearts, the birds were singing and the flowers were fragrant, the wind was clear and the clouds were calm, and there was no dust in the eyes of each other. Who has never had lovesickness? What about the years?Who has never been young, lost in love, captivated by a loved one?Those memories that were gradually buried in the heart along with the worldly concerns were awakened, as if a door was suddenly pushed open, and a cool wind blows in, blowing away all the accumulated dust and revealing the original heart.The body is like a bodhi tree, and the heart is like a mirror stand.Wipe it frequently, so as not to cause dust.The people you love are all saints and Buddhas who are enlightened. Amidst the sound of the piano, Qu Feng hugged Xiao Lin tightly. He finally took out the ring and put it on her finger, completing the simple and solemn engagement ceremony.No priest is asking: "Will you..." They are their own gods, responsible for their own life and love.They looked at each other and said softly at the same time: "I am willing." There was a huge distance between the stage and the audience, but the earth-shattering cry of "I do" clearly reached Dan Bing's ears.She couldn't help being shocked, couldn't help but be moved.She lived and died several times, traveled far and wide, to find him, all she wanted was to find him, to make him understand her love.Dedicated, pure, unswerving love. He finally understood and comprehended, but gave this single-mindedness to others. Should she be relieved, or should she be sad?Tears fly down in the wind, with a smile.She looked towards the sky, and there were flocks of swans slowly flying towards the horizon.To welcome her, or to bless him? She looks at them, yes, she "sees" them, she looks at them again, how?At the same time, she also clearly saw herself, oh no, it was Ah Tong.She saw Ah Tong sitting beside the piano and playing passionately, with a solemn and holy expression, pure and clear.And myself, I have been slowly flying up, getting lighter and lighter, is it about to die out of my wits? But there is no fear in her heart, no resentment, the people she loves and the people who love her are by her side, this kind of departure is not a tragedy, she looks at Ah Tong, grandma, father, Qu Feng, Xiao Lin in turn ... On the stage, Ah Tong's piano sound changed to "Swan Lake".She smiled slightly, her face was clean and beautiful, she swept away the inherent loneliness and glamour, and turned into a peaceful and serene one. It was no longer Ruan Danbing, but Ah Tong who had returned from her soul.A Tong exchanged her soul for a love experience. Now, she finally understands what is the real deep-rooted love. She blends this love into her playing, reaching perfection and reaching a desperate situation.This otherworldly music summoned more and more swans, and they danced lightly over the theater like flying like flying. The audience left their seats one after another, shouting and jumping, unable to believe their eyes, and their voices changed their tunes in surprise: "Swan, it's a real swan! Miss A Tong's piano sound attracted all the swans." !" Swans, really swans!The swans flocked in, swarming in, flying and circling around A Tong and Dan Bing, never avoiding people, it was a spectacle that could never be seen in dreams, it was spectacular beyond imagination, sacred, like the most brilliant The lightning flashed in the center of everyone's eyes. In the end, their wings were connected to each other, driving a bridge between A Tong next to the qin platform and Ruan Danbing in the wheelchair, covering everyone's sight. Stepped lightly on the Swan Bridge, left Ah Tong's body, and ran towards Ruan Danbing... At the same time, grandma suddenly called out: "Look, Dan Bing, Dan Bing!" Qu Feng ran over and saw Dan Bing in the wheelchair moving slightly, his eyebrows trembling like butterflies, and the tips of his hands trembling slightly, as if he was playing a piano .Mr. Ruan suddenly burst into tears: "Dan Bing, Dan Bing has hope..." Xilingxue completed the last manuscript in July 2002 in the old residence of Meiyuan in Xi'an