Chapter 18 Wushan cloud

Ah Tong took leave and came to take care of Dan Bing every day. She gives her a bubble bath. ——Immersed in the fragrant water, the stiff body seemed to become soft.The mist was hazy, and her expression was serene, as if smiling. She serves her.One is Dan Bing's soul, and the other is Dan Bing's body.The one who serves and the one who is served are one. The spirit says to the flesh: "Wake up quickly, only when you wake up will you have the strength to love." She was determined to take care of herself, wake herself up, and try anyway.Otherwise, how can you fight for Qu Feng's love if you stay in someone else's body all the time?

She thinks about her strange experience, every reincarnation is a new fate, but also new helplessness and sadness.She used to be able to fly, and she was as innocent and self-willed as a child, and now, she can play the piano again. Every time she is attached to a different identity, her skills and personality will also be different.This is probably because people are inherently three-dimensional and have multiple personalities, but a certain virtue is more important in some people, while it is lighter in others.Since ancient times, the question of whether people are inherently evil or inherently good has been debated since ancient times. This is actually the same principle, and it is all due to different souls and different carriers.

If the soul can continue to wander like this, and meet again a few times, I wonder if she will learn martial arts, gossip, gardening or even high technology because of it?Or, in the presence of a murderous underworld boss, he might already be wielding two guns and kicking mandarin ducks when he opens his eyes. Nothing is impossible, right?She even tried to fly. Ah Tong couldn't help but smile, this is the luckiest of misfortunes, her whole life is equal to the lives of others, so it's not considered a loss, right? She became friends with Qu Feng, but she never told him who she was.Since I have to leave sooner or later, why bother with grievances?She has changed her plan, no, she doesn't want to be Shui'er No. 2, but to go back to Ruan Danbing.She will work hard to help herself resurrect, and fight for Qu Feng's love with her own hands.

Grandma heard the blind girl talking to her granddaughter through the door one day—— "If you really love him so much, you should try your best to stand up and tell him. What's the matter with always lying down?" After a while, he said again: "How can you tell him like this? He is neither human nor ghost, so don't scare him to death." It was clearly one person's voice, but when asked and answered, it sounded like two people talking. Grandma was terrified. When Qu Feng came again, she asked him: "Do you feel that Ah Tong looks like a person?" "Like a person?" Qu Feng didn't understand, "Like who?"

"Bing Bing." Grandma said thoughtfully, "Her tone of voice, expression, and even her movements all resemble Bing Bing." "Grandma, you miss Dan Bing so much." Qu Feng comforted, "A Tong is Ah Tong, and Dan Bing is Dan Bing. I don't think they resemble them at all. Dan Bing is much more lively than Ah Tong." "That's right. Ah Tong is too quiet." Grandma changed her mind immediately without making up her mind, "Xiao Qu, you are all young people. I think she can talk and laugh more lively when she is with you. She talks a lot."

Qu Feng smiled, in fact, he also likes to talk with Ah Tong.In front of her, he was relaxed and frank, without a pair of piercing eyes staring at her, as if he was talking to his own heart, expressing his feelings without any hesitation. Since Shui'er died, this was the first time he felt calm and soft, and he had the desire to talk again.He told her about swans, about water, and even about Xiao Lin and his flirtatious girlfriends, but he never mentioned Dan Bing.In his mind, Dan Bing always exists as a benefactor and has nothing to do with feelings. Ah Tong was secretly sad, not knowing how to remind him of her affection for him.

One day, he said to her, "I have a feeling that we've known each other for a long time." She was taken aback for a moment, then smiled and replied, "Maybe, maybe this is called fate." "But why?" he persisted. "Why do I feel as though you know me so well?" Loneliness and desolation flashed across Ah Tong's face, he paused, and suddenly recited softly: "People can only see the essence of things clearly with their own mind, and they cannot see with their eyes alone." Qu Feng fell silent, he knew that this was Li Fox's words.It turned out that Ah Tong had also seen it.He suddenly thought, here, is it the little prince who tamed the fox?Or did the fox tame the little prince?

The fox said to the little prince: Please tame me. In fact, in this process, the little prince has also been tamed by the fox.Because not only the little prince became the unique boy in the eyes of the fox, but the fox also became the unique fox in the eyes of the little prince, just like the rose, unique and unique. He remembered the story Shui'er told him for the first time, and also remembered the situation when he mentioned this book to Xiao Lin.There are two girls, one is bright and the other is blind, but for some reason, Qu Feng thinks that Ah Tong seems to see everything more clearly than Xiao Lin.Day by day, he has a deeper affection and curiosity for this blind female luthier, and always wants to know more about her story.

"I remember Kobayashi told me that you have a competition next month, right?" "Yes, my entry is." "I heard you play this piece the other day, and it was so good that I was fascinated." Qufeng said seriously, "Such a familiar tune can also fascinate people, which is enough to prove your skill, I believe you We will definitely do well in the competition.” Ah Tong smiled and did not answer. Qu Feng couldn't help it, and asked bluntly: "Actually, I want to say that you told Xiaolin that you don't understand the feeling of love, and you are worried that you can't play the piano well. But, I think you really understand feelings. People who know better than us.”

"That's because I once loved deeply..." Ah Tong whispered, and sighed imperceptibly. Qu Feng looked dazedly at her trace of melancholy.Seeing Ah Tong, I know what is beautiful and elegant.It doesn't really matter what a person looks like, it comes from his heart. In his eyes, Ah Tong can already be called a stunning beauty.He can't help but be respectful, and he can't help being curious. However, Ah Tong has already changed the subject: "Qu Feng, I want to ask you one thing." "What's up?" "I...I want to go to the dance practice troupe of your troupe."

"Look?" Qu Feng Daqi said, "You..." Ah Tong consciously lost his word, sighed and said, "I've always wanted to know what the dance troupe looks like, and I wanted to go for a walk, but I didn't want others to see me..." "I understand." Qu Feng readily agreed, "There is no one in the troupe on Sunday, so I will take you to the dance hall to play." Finally returning to the familiar rehearsal hall, Dan Bing had mixed feelings in his heart.She walked slowly holding on to the pole, and from time to time squatted down to touch the pine floor that was once dripping with her sweat. Those days of swinging flowers and dancing moon, have they just passed away like this? Close your eyes, memories come flooding back.Although it cannot be seen, every detail in every corner of the hall can be clearly seen.In a daze, she saw six girls with their hands on their backs, bouncing around like one piece, pretending to be little swans, and dancing in circles from the hall.oh swans... Standing on tiptoe, she lightly made a small jumping movement, then raised her hands, off the pole, staggered her toes, and gradually danced to the center of the hall. Qu Feng stared blankly at Ah Tong dancing lightly and dancing, feeling puzzled.She is not a beautiful woman, but she has a pretty face and a graceful figure, and her slightly slow walking posture is graceful, not faltering.At this moment, she is dancing around the field, her graceful figure is like catkins blowing in the wind, her dance steps are skillful, and there is no trace of a blind person, she is clearly a professionally trained expert. He couldn't help but sit in front of the piano and accompany her. When the gorgeous dance music of "Death of the Swan" sounded, Dan Bing felt even more emotional, turning around with the music, the more she danced, the sicker she became.The huge rehearsal hall is empty and there is no barrier, so there is no need to worry about being tripped by unknown objects.During these days, she was really bored.First, I was a little girl with advanced cancer, her plump soul was wrapped in a sickly body, and she was panting after taking two extra steps, and she couldn't finish dancing "Little Snowflake Dance".Now that she is a blind girl, she stumbles and fumbles when she walks, and she has to help her with her hands from time to time, dancing?Not to mention. At this moment, in this rehearsal field, it is spacious and safe. It doesn't matter if you can see it or not, as long as you have a pair of healthy legs.She danced with all her heart and perfection—the experience of swan nirvana made her truly understand the flight of swans, and also deeply experienced the sacredness of death. Her dancing posture was more escaped, elegant, desperate and poignant than ever before. When flying all over the field, it is completely a brave swan.Jumping, stretching, flying with both feet in the air, staggering bumps in the air, one, two, three, four, five, six! Qu Feng was stunned, and blurted out: "Dan Bing!" Ah Tong was startled suddenly, his heart was shattered, he jumped unsteadily and fell down. Qu Feng rushed forward to help him up, and asked with concern: "A Tong, how are you?" Unexpectedly, Ah Tong held his wrist tightly with his backhand, and asked eagerly, "Qu Feng, what did you call me?" "A Tong, what's wrong with you?" "Not this sentence, just now, when I was dancing, what did you call me?" Qu Feng smiled, and casually said: "Ah, my name was wrong, your appearance just now reminded me of Dan Bing, she was a very good dancer before the accident, and she was the only one in the troupe who could do heel kicks in the air Six strokes. By the way, Ah Tong, how could you do it?" Ah Tong didn't answer, sat down with his arms around his knees, and asked softly, "Qu Feng, can you tell me more about Dan Bing?" "She is a very good actress, but in order to save me..." "How about it?" "It's what you see now." Qu Feng sighed, thinking of Ruan Danbing made him feel heavy. Ah Tong still asked: "Is that all?" "I don't know her well. I didn't expect to bear such a great kindness from her. I really can't repay her." Qu Feng sighed again. Dan Bing was extremely lost, and shouted in his heart: No!I don't want you to repay your favor!I only want you to love me!At least, I want you to know that I once loved you! Suddenly, she made up her mind and said solemnly, "Qu Feng, I have something to show you." "What is it?" "Dan Bing's letter." "Dan Bing's letter?" "Yes, it's for you. It's in the third drawer of her dresser." "how do you know?" A Tong paused before saying, "I found it when I helped her clean up her bedroom." Qu Feng felt weird, even if he found a stack of letters, how would he know it was addressed to him?It is impossible for Dan Bing to leave a stack of Braille.However, this question was unkind, and he couldn't bear to ask it, so he could only say: "Okay, let's go to Dan Bing's house." When they knocked on the door of Dan Bing's house, they found grandma sitting downstairs crying.It turns out that today is Dan Bing's regular physical examination day. The doctor came just now. After the examination, he thinks that Dan Bing's vital signs are getting weaker and weaker. If he can't wake up in a short time, then... Qu Feng was shocked: "What, Dan Bing she..." He couldn't go on, couldn't bear to go on, stared blankly at grandma, unable to think for a while. Ah Tong swayed and almost fell.She leaned on the back of the sofa and said with difficulty: "I'll go and see Dan Bing." Going upstairs, she held her hand and knelt down slowly beside the bed, her heart was so disheartened that she didn't have any strength, she just felt that her mind was empty and the whole world didn't exist anymore.There are no tears, no sadness, no memories and past events, what is there is just desolation, endless desolation and helplessness. So, is it all over? Dan Bing sacrifices his life to save each other, swans come and go, Shui'er's soul leaves his body, A Tong whispers in the wind, all kinds of infatuated entanglements, lovesickness and looking at each other, just like this turned into nothingness? Those miserable and beautiful waiting, longing, death and reincarnation, have disappeared since then?Like the foam meteor after the soul of the sea's daughter dies, scattered into the vast ocean, without a trace? Before that, although several encounters with Qu Feng failed to fulfill his wish, there were some pleasant surprises.But now she knows that this kind of reincarnation also has a time limit.A Tong, it is likely to be his last life. She suddenly felt fear, no, not because of her own death, but because of Ah Tong—whether Ah Tong would be like her previous lives, when her soul left, her body would also die, just like The swan that was nirvana in the fire is like the water that dies by the lotus pond? Ah Tong, this kind and poor blind girl, who has never even tried love, is going to end her life early because of her own magpie's nest?So, didn't I hurt her?If this is the case, I would rather never have been here, and would rather accompany Shui'er's body to die in Qu Feng's arms than to take the lives of others in order to continue the soul. However, entering Ah Tong's body was not of his choice.Just like the nirvana of the swan and the reincarnation of the water are not my own choices.Every time is an opportunity of fate, destined for three lives.From beginning to end, she was helpless, helpless, heartless and powerless. How should she help Ah Tong and return this body to her? When Qu Feng helped grandma go upstairs, she saw Ah Tong holding Dan Bing's hand and sitting there in a daze, like a clock, but grandma felt complacent and comforted: "Miss Tong, don't be too sad. Actually, As early as the day Bingbing passed out, I knew that this was going to happen sooner or later. In the past few months, I have been crying so much that I can’t cry. Maybe it’s not a bad thing for Bingbing to leave early, it’s better than lying here like this, people No ghosts, no ghosts, suffer." Are people or ghosts?Dan Bing was taken aback, isn't this about himself?A soul that has left its own body, isn't it a ghost as the saying goes?So what is the body without the soul?The walking dead?Turned Ah Tong into a walking dead? No!Rather than sacrificing himself and losing his soul, he must return this body to Ah Tong!When his own soul occupied her body and was running around, what about Ah Tong's soul?Where is Ah Tong's soul stored? Dan Bing suddenly thought, how many ghosts like himself are there in the world?Are those people walking all over the street their real selves?Is there another soul living in their bodies? Leaving Dan Bing's house, Qu Feng found that it rained at some time, and it was as thin as a gossamer, and it seemed to be there.He was walking, not wanting to go home for a while, but he didn't know where to go, and unexpectedly, he came to the lotus pond again. The last lotus has also withered, and in the pattering rain, the lotus leaves in the pond are bleak, like a broken dream.The ancients said: Leave the residual lotus to listen to the sound of rain.Don't you know, the rain hits the lotus leaves, dripping in my heart, and the sound is ear-piercing. He sat down by the pond, and remembered the appearance of flying on the lotus pond with swans, Shui'er's pale and weak smile, and the secret phrase "When my body dies, my soul is free". Hun Wu Mi, the girl who looked like a lotus flower fairy also disappeared in the boundless rain.In such a short period of time, is this the first time he has faced death?Now, are you going to send Dan Bing away again? Dan Bing?He suddenly remembered that Ah Tong had said that Dan Bing had left him a stack of letters, and they had just returned to Dan Bing's home to win the letter.He hesitated for a moment, wondering if he should go back and get it. There was a beverage truck passing by behind him, so he stopped, ordered a dozen beers, and sat down to drink again.After the swan died, he had quit for a long time because he regretted that he was drunk and killed it. But today, at this moment, when he is sad, lonely and helpless, what else can quench the block in his heart except wine? The drunken country road is stable and easy to get there frequently, but other things are unbearable.He poured the wine down like water, and toasted to the lotus pond without lotus: "To you, cheers!" The phone rang again and again, and he hung up without looking at it.After half a dozen beers were gone, he calmed down, and there was a smile on his face, that kind of sluggish smile that is typical of drunks.Alcohol is really a good thing!With drunken eyes, a woman came slowly with an umbrella, and he whispered: "Shui'er!" "Qu Feng, it's me." It was Xiao Lin. She covered him with a big butter umbrella, and looked at him resentfully: "I looked for you everywhere, but I couldn't find you. I called Ruan's house. It was Ah Tong who answered the call. I never knew it. You and her have known each other for a long time..." Her voice was full of jealousy, but she didn't really mind it in her heart. She didn't believe that a blind man could become her rival in love. She was jealous and just acted like a baby. "A Tong told me that maybe I could find you here..." "A Tong said I'm here?" He shook his head, wondering, did he ever say he wanted to come to the lotus pond when he left Ruan's house?No way, because at that time, I didn't know where I was going.Feeling drunk, he hiccupped and asked in a daze, "Xiao Lin, what do you want from me?" "I don't know." Xiao Lin sat down beside him, "Qu Feng, before I came, I thought about asking you to clarify our affairs, but here I am, seeing you, I don't know what to say, or, I came here just to drink with you." Her words moved him, and he was also a little embarrassed. He asked her: "Why bother? You know very well that I am not a man who can be serious about feelings." "You are wrong." Xiao Lin looked at him enthusiastically, with tears in his eyes, "I used to think the same way, thinking that you were a flirtatious, Don Juan-like man. But now, I understand, your heart , has very deep and strong emotions, even stronger than ordinary men, but you will not give easily. You are kind to Shui'er, let me know that you can also be moved, and you will be serious, and once you Seriously, how beautiful and gentle your feelings will be. I hope that one day, I can let you treat me so tenderly. " "Xiao Lin," Qu Feng was stunned, talking about feelings face to face like this made him both moved and embarrassed, and in a hurry, he grasped a reason that was not a reason, "But, I have already promised Shui'er, Wait for her for ten years." "Ten years, how long will it take? Who knows the changes in ten years? You can wait for her, and I can wait for you. Qu Feng, maybe it won't take ten years, and you will find that I am more worthy of your love than her." "You're so stupid!" Qu Feng suddenly laughed, desolately and wildly, "Xiao Lin, how can I, Qu Feng, meet a woman who can love me so stupidly. Xiao Lin, I cheer for you! " "Okay, cheers!" Xiao Lin didn't wait to persuade, opened a can of beer and poured it down his throat.Wine, there is also a fire in her heart, and she needs wine to quench it.