Chapter 12 portrait of jenny

Qu Feng reproduced the scene of the fire that night in his dream: In the dream, his swan turned into a phoenix, and the fire phoenix reborn from Jixiangmu self-immolation.The raging flames were burning magnificently behind her, she sang loudly, spread her wings and hovered gracefully, and soared slowly in the flames, noble, fearless, holy and sad. That scene was simply spectacular. Qu Feng was relieved, knowing that his swan had ascended to heaven and was reborn in Nirvana. He stopped looking for swans and spent more time on Shui'er. Hospital patients often see such a scene: A man in his twenties led a little girl who was more than ten years younger than him, walking slowly among the flowers, chatting, and looked very intimate, neither father and daughter nor brother and sister, but very beautiful—— The man was tall and handsome, with a little bit of evil spirit; the girl was charming and charming, but her eyebrows and eyes were full of seductiveness that did not belong to her age. When she walked, her heels were bit by bit, like a bird, as if she would open her arms and fly away at any time.If you see them on a moonlit night, you will have the illusion that you have met a flower fairy.

But this period of time is the happiest time in Qu Feng's life. He loves without scruples, gives without reservation, and gives his true feelings without intention. Qu Feng has never tried that kind of love regardless of the cost and the future. It was a twelve-year-old girl who taught him to love sincerely. The girl walked in the wind, her skirt fluttering, and the bow on her back was about to fly away.Her footsteps were light and quick, leaping lightly from time to time, as swift as a deer. In the depths of the flowers, she stopped, and suddenly looked back with a smile, bright as a spring flower.

She waved to him, calling out heartlessly: "Follow me, if you catch me, I will marry you." His heart couldn't help but "thump", and his footsteps stopped instead. Without realizing it, she still waved to him, "Come on, chase me!" There was a twinkle in her eyes, and there was an indescribable coquettishness. He suddenly felt that his footsteps weighed several thousand catties, but it was only a few steps, but it seemed like he had walked for a long time, so he didn't dare to look her face in the face. Little girls are not aware of their coquettishness, so they are also provocative.She asked him, "Do you want to chase me or marry me?"

He put his hands in his trouser pockets and smiled slightly: "You are still young, so you are in such a hurry to get married?" With her chin in her hand, she squinted at him: "When I grow up, will you marry me?" He looked up and looked at her in surprise, she was serious.Qingli's little face was taut and her expression was cold. Wait a minute, when did you see this look? He was in a trance involuntarily. A 12-year-old innocent girl, her world should be full of beauty, but cancer cells took away her beauty prematurely, her small face began to wither, and her hair fell off in large quantities due to chemotherapy, making her Thinking of Dan Bing who has become a vegetable, I feel heartbroken.

However, she still doesn't know what is waiting for her in front of her, and she is still planning for the future when she grows up, to grow up, to marry him, and to be his bride. The world of sick children is also Fang Fei's. The girl was urging: "Will you marry me or not?" Can't help it.He replied without hindrance: "Marry." Because she was answering a girl who was only twelve years old, she answered firmly. The girl was satisfied, but she stretched out another finger: "Then, make an oath." He held her little hand, thumb to thumb, and stamped against each other.

Her hands were cold and fragrant, with an unusual softness. He was in a trance again. All night, he reflected on his trance.No, he is a normal man, and there is absolutely no shortage of women in his life.He's not a sex maniac, let alone a pedophile.But why did he have unspeakable emotions for a twelve-year-old girl? Moreover, he could see that this girl's love for him was not a whim, it was not a childish play, and it was not a child's play. When she asked him to swear, her expression was almost solemn and holy.Yes, she is asking him to swear, ask him to be sincere, and ask him to be single-minded.

Ha, dedicated?This is a word that he never thought of, and it is also a kind of ethics that he has never possessed. Now, a twelve-year-old girl is asking him for it.However, he answered so willingly.At that time, perhaps it was only because the other party was a little girl that she was so straightforward.But looking back now, isn't there a touch of emotion in that crispness?That answer is not perfunctory, not coping, and indeed, it is a promise! For the first time in his life, Qu Feng suffered from insomnia because of "love", because of the love of a twelve-year-old girl. As soon as Shui'er was able to walk on the ground, he showed a fanatical love for dancing.

Her enthusiasm and knowledge of dance amazed Qu Feng more than once.He clearly remembered playing "The Nutcracker" to her when he first met her, and also remembered her clumsy and naive dance steps.But now, although she staggered, her posture was well-regulated, as if she had been trained for a long time. Once I saw Yang Liping dancing a peacock on TV, and Shui'er commented expertly: "Yang Liping's dance is different from others. The most beautiful thing about her dancing peacock is not her toes, but her hands. Her hands have expressions and can It expresses the peacock's shock and joy in a quiet and moving manner, very vivid. There is a kind of lonely beauty." Halfway through seeing it, he lost his interest and said to Qu Feng: "Look, I will pretend to be a swan for you."

She stood up, her legs didn't move very much, she just danced her hands like butterflies wearing flowers, sometimes raised above her head, sometimes circled around her body, sometimes folded her arms in half, soft and graceful, full of expressions. Qu Feng watched in amazement. He was used to pointe dancing, but it was the first time he noticed that one pair of hands could dance with such rich emotions.He could see God.But Shui'er had already stopped panting, and asked innocently: "Do I look good?" "Pretty, there has never been a more beautiful little girl than you." Qu Feng laughed, feeling like the mirror of Snow White's stepmother.

But Shui'er was not satisfied, lowered his head and said aggrievedly: "But you never look at me properly." "Who said that?" Qu Feng innocently defended, "You are so beautiful, anyone who sees you will have to take a second look at you." Shui'er shook her head, and said thoughtfully: "You only look at me when I'm dancing." Before she could finish her sentence, her thoughts wandered away again, and she said, "Qu Feng, I really want to hear you play the piano. Listening to you playing the piano, I really miss it. When will you play the piano for me again?"

Qu Feng was a little surprised, the girl's mind was changing rapidly, from anger to joy, without any certainty.She is indeed a bit different from the cute and cute but slightly dull Xiao Shui'er in the past, her beauty and aura are too much. She was originally beautiful and charming, but after her rebirth, she has an extraordinary blurred radiance: her eyes are flowing, and every time she stares or glances, she will reveal a new charm; her face is still pale, but there is a faint blush from time to time, which makes her bright and stunning Like a comet; every movement of hands and feet adds a ladylike look, even the toes have expressions, turning around or jumping lightly, radiant and graceful, without saying a word, she is already charming. In a word, she was just beautiful before, but now she is stunning. Such a girl is born to belong to music and dance, and is an art elf.In the past, it was just the disease that suppressed her nature, but now once she is awakened, she will show intelligence and understanding ten times higher than ordinary people, just like a sleeping chrysalis breaking out of its cocoon and turning into a butterfly.If one day she steps onto the stage, Gu Feng guarantees, she may become the second Ruan Danbing. "When you get better, I will ask the doctor for leave for you and take you to our theater company." Qufeng promised her: "I will take you to the rehearsal hall, play the piano for you, and let you replace the actors in our troupe." have a good time with your practice clothes and dancing shoes." "Really?" Shui'er's eyes lit up suddenly, "You want to take me to the troupe? I haven't been back to the troupe for a long time!" "Back to the troupe?" Qu Feng was surprised, and was about to ask again when Xiao Lin came in, holding a bunch of bananas and said with a smile, "Looking for you everywhere, so I hid here to watch TV." Shui'er immediately turned her head away, unwilling to look at the little aunt, and sat lazily on the wheelchair, showing a tired look.Qu Feng thought that she might be tired from dancing, so he didn't care. He peeled a banana and handed it to her, then he and Xiao Lin pushed her out of the lounge side by side, asking as they walked, "Why are you here so late today?" Kobayashi smiled: "Just got off work. You thought it was you, a big-name musician, who could go or not if he didn't have a performance. I'm an intern, and I have to follow the schedule. I'm still waiting for the theater troupe to write me a recommendation letter." .” Qu Feng suddenly remembered something: "I seem to have heard someone say that the head of the group intentionally left you in the theater, right?" "I heard? Who did you hear it from?" Xiao Lin was immediately taken aback. Qu Feng faltered: "I forgot, anyway, I have heard it so much." Shui'er, who was quietly eating bananas in the wheelchair, suddenly chuckled: "Listen to who? Listen to what the head of the group said. Qu Feng is not a gossip. He will always be the last to know about gossip. If he can hear it, you have heard it a long time ago, unless... the leader himself mentioned it to him, it would be so mysterious." "Really?" Xiao Lin was overjoyed, staring at Qu Feng and asked, "Is that so? What did the head tell you? What did you say?" She has always been sensitive, but this time, just because she cares, she will be confused. He kept asking himself about his work plan, but he didn't think why Shui'er knew so much, even more accurate than her. But Qu Feng, who has always been careless, was surprised. Shui'er's sentence "Qu Feng is not a gossip person" made him feel a sense of confidant. human being. Xiao Lin was still asking: "What did the head of the group tell you? In your opinion, how sure is it that I will stay?" "Do you really want to stay in the troupe?" Qu Feng smiled, "The treatment is not very good." "But the brand is right. If you can stay in the troupe, no matter where you want to go in the future, it will be easier to transfer. The most important thing about job distribution is that the starting point must be high. From my perspective, the highest starting point I can find now is I stayed in the troupe." Xiao Lin analyzed it realistically. Qu Feng looked at her seriously, thought for a long time, finally nodded, but answered irrelevantly: "If you want to stay so much, I will definitely help." Shui'er laughed again, and threw the banana peel into the fruit bin in the corner of the corridor. Xiao Lin frowned: "Shui'er, your laughter is so pleasant." Shui'er was stunned, and raised his head: "You said that I laughed badly again." Instead, Xiao Lin was taken aback: "Again? Have I ever told you that your laughter is ugly?" "Have you forgotten?" Shui'er looked at her resentfully, with almost a hint of ferocity in her eyes, "Not long ago, you said that I laughed badly and wanted to burn the lute and cook the crane!" Xiao Lin remembered that it was the first time she brought Shui'er to Qu Feng's house as a guest. At that time, the swan was still alive and made trouble with her everywhere. She once scolded the swan and threatened it to cook it.But what's the matter with the water?She patiently explained: "I meant that swan had an ugly smile, but I didn't mention you." Shui'er turned his head to one side, and said bitterly: "Hmph, the toad wants to eat swan meat!" This time, even Qu Feng felt that it was too much, and couldn't help but say: "Shui'er, why are you talking to your aunt like that?" Shui'er was furious, and stood up abruptly: "You help her?" With eyes full of anger, he turned and ran.However, after all, he was still seriously ill, ran in a hurry, and couldn't make a turn at the corner, so he staggered and fell heavily to the ground.There was a "hiss" sound from the pain, and he was covered in cold sweat.But still struggled to stand up, and had to run again. Qu Feng had already rushed over to help him up, his vocal cords were so distressed that his vocal cords were tight, and he asked repeatedly: "Shui'er, what's the matter? Did the fall hurt? Let me see, where did you fall?" "Don't worry about it!" Shui'er pushed his hand away vigorously, "You bully me! You help her! Don't help me!" "It's all my fault, can I apologize to you?" Qu Feng hugged her and coaxed her: "I don't dare to scold you anymore, I will treat you well in the future, don't be angry, okay?" Shui'er burst into tears, hugged Qufeng's neck, choked with sobs: "Qufeng, you can't treat me like this again! Don't lose your temper with me! Don't scold me!" "Don't scold, don't scold." Qu Feng responded, feeling unspeakably sad.The little girl's aggrieved cry deeply hurt his heart and made him feel guilty. This girl who is as beautiful as a flower and as weak as the wind relies so much on him to get close to him. How could he have the heart to disobey her and make her cry? ?He hugged her tightly, as if afraid that someone would snatch her from his arms.For this little girl, he is willing to do everything and pay any price, even if it means sacrificing his life. There is an ocean of emotion in everyone's heart, it's just that some people are exposed and some are restrained, and there are still some people, there is a dormant extinct volcano under his ocean, which has to wait for the right time to erupt.If it has not been touched, it will always be asleep, making people misunderstand that it is a cold-blooded person.However, once it broke out, his feelings were stronger and deeper than anyone else's. Qufeng's heart is such a sea of ​​emotions, and under the sea is a deeply buried volcano.Shui'er is the source of love for diving into the sea and blasting!Holding Shui'er in his arms, he solemnly swore: "Shui'er, I will never scold you again, if I make you angry, I will be a bastard tortoise!" Shui'er burst into laughter: "You said it yourself, don't be foolish!" She had lost her temper enough, was tired, and leaned weakly in his arms, panting slightly, while her fragrance was cold, and said in a low voice: "The way you lose your temper is so ugly!" Xiao Lin looked at this scene in shock, looking at Shui'er's beautiful face, there was a sense of despair in her beauty, unstained, wandering and fragile.At this moment, there were teardrops hanging on that face, like a peach blossom with dew, gorgeous and desolate. She suddenly remembered talking about Shui'er with Qu Feng once, Qu Feng once said: "She is like Jenny." "Jenny? Who's Jenny?" "It's the protagonist of a famous movie called "Portrait of Jenny". The episode of that movie is very special." Qu Feng replied, and hummed softly, "No one knows where I come from, and where I go , no one understands, the wind is blowing, the sea is rushing, where I go..." Where he couldn't remember the lyrics, he whistled instead, the song was gloomy, sentimental, and not popular. She covered her ears and shouted: "What a horrible song, eerie and ghostly, it makes people chill." "Yes, it is indeed a very spooky film. The story is beautiful and sad. The main character is Jenny, who looks a bit like Shui'er. Jenny is not a real person, but the inspiration of the painter. She When I met the painter for the first time, she was just a little girl, but she told him, wait a minute, I will turn around three times, and then I will grow up. She really turned around three times. Later, she saw the painter again At that time, she was already a young girl..." "What nonsense are you talking about?" I remember asking him at that time: "Qu Feng, do you really want Shui'er to grow up?" "I don't know. But, there really has never been a girl who really touched me like Shui'er." At that time, she didn't care about it, but now, she finally understands that Qu Feng is serious, he is sincerely waiting for Shui'er to grow up, and regards her as his Jenny.The way he hugs her is like hugging his own heart. There is nothing more fragile, more precious and worthy of his life to protect than this in the world. Xiao Lin's heart was suddenly filled with a deep sense of frustration, and when he started to compete seriously, she was not the little girl's opponent!