Chapter 11 fairy wings

Qu Feng did not find his swan. The dying swan, which could no longer fly, has not been heard from since it disappeared on the operating table of the pet hospital. The doctor said: before death, all spiritual beings know how to find a hidden place to hide and maintain their final dignity.To them, death is sacred and inviolable. This makes the genre almost insane.He couldn't believe that his swan would be willing to leave like this and never see him again. That was his savior, how could he let her disappear without a trace?No!He wants to find her!To stay with her!She was alive, and he wanted to find the best doctor to cure her; when she died, he built the best tomb for her, and buried her solemnly like a person, a truly dignified person.

He ran all over the city's lakesides, zoos, and poultry exhibition halls, hoping to find traces of swans. but no. The swan seemed to have disappeared from the earth, leaving no trace. Where can she go in the reinforced concrete urban jungle? Qu Feng thought for the first time, where did she come from in the reinforced concrete urban jungle? It seemed that she came to this world just to accompany him and save him. Now, after saving him, she left.Leave him a debt. He owed her, owed her too much.How to return it? When looking for swans, he thought of Ruan Danbing again.Suddenly, I felt that this swan and Dan Bing had too many similarities. They both loved dancing, were equally noble and proud, and both died to save him.

He came to Dan Bing's house and played the piano one after another until his fingers became numb, thinking it was a redemption for the swan. In the sound of his piano, there is a kind of pure sadness, which reflects the loneliness and sadness in the deepest part of the soul.Accompanied by the fragrance of gardenias, the sound of the piano flies to the distant sky, where there are no traces of swans. Xiao Lin accompanied Qu Feng to find the swan. She has forgiven him.Because when he was on the verge of death, after all, it was the swan that saved his life; and because that day in the hospital, he finally stayed and waited by Shui'er's bed, sharing sorrow and joy with her family.

Because of Shui'er, the relationship between him and her family has improved by leaps and bounds, and they have reached the closeness of family members almost without any process. He finally agreed to go to her house for dinner. Mother Lin looked at him as if she were looking at a son-in-law-to-be, and he also naturally blended into this atmosphere, playing chess with Father Lin, discussing Shui'er's illness with Da Lin and his wife, and obediently at the banquet. Eat the food that Kobayashi clothed for him. Everything is in order. The rebirth of Shui'er has brought Qu Feng and the Lin family closer together, and it feels like they have become a family.

But Shui'er itself made Xiao Lin feel more and more uneasy. After waking up again, she is more beautiful than before. What is beautiful is not her facial features, but her expression. Suddenly, there was a mature beauty in her expression that did not belong to her age.An ominous glamor—innocence with coquettishness, childishness with provocation, and even a touch of vicissitudes that cannot be grasped. All kinds of impossible expressions are concentrated on the face of a twelve-year-old girl, and what is gathered is amazing charm. In the past, she was so beautiful as a painting; now, she only takes photos of the water, the water waves flow, and the shadows are ever-changing, and it is impossible to grasp a precise appearance.

The beauty of Shui'er is erratic and unpopular, surpassing the concept of beauty in the mundane world. Most of the time she sleeps deeply, and every time she wakes up, the first thing she does is to look for Qu Feng. If she can't find it, she closes her eyes and doesn't speak; The infinitely tactful sadness made Xiaolin feel chills in his bones. She became capricious, angry, and fretful, as if she did not accept her reawakening at all.He likes to be indifferent to people, and his face is full of wariness and unfamiliarity, even refusing to call "mother".She was not used to Dalin making out with her, she frowned slightly, as if she didn't know how to deal with such full of enthusiasm.To bathe her and wipe her body, she was shy and asked to come by herself, and let her mother avoid it.

She is familiar with Xiao Lin, but there is hostility in her eyes, and she is too concerned about her aunt's love life, and she will suddenly ask her "Have you dated Qu Feng recently?" "Does Qu Feng like you?" question.Once, she even asked curiously: "What is the reason why so many people fall in love with a man like Don Juan at the same time?" When she asked, there was a hint of sincere confusion on her face, which made Xiao Lin both angry and funny, and at the same time Shui'er's comparison of Qu Feng to the famous, handsome and romantic Don Juan also made her feel novel.

Because she is young, Xiao Lin doesn't want to argue with her, and often just smiles and doesn't answer all the questions, but secretly suspects in his heart, what does these questions concern the little girl?And, is she really a little girl?A little girl who is so beautiful, but also so self-willed? And what disturbed Kobayashi even more was the music style. Qu Feng is clearly attracted to Shui'er, often staring into her eyes and asking, "Who the hell are you? Such beauty!" Shui'er replied, "It's a fairy." "Is it the Seven Fairies next to the Queen Mother?" Qu Feng teased her.

But Water replied, "No, it is the fairy Sylphida of Tarinio." Qu Feng and Xiao Lin were both stunned. Water is talking about a famous dance performed by Tarinio: the romantic and passionate Scottish youth James dreamed of a forest fairy Sylphida on the eve of his wedding. He fell in love with her and followed her to the forest wonderland. .But because she listened to the witch's slander, she hastily put the white clothes stained with the potion on the fairy's body, and her pair of wings fell off immediately... Qu Feng asked Shui'er: "Who told you this story?"

"It's me." Shui'er replied sadly, with a sad and helpless face full of emotion, "My wings are gone, and I can't fly anymore." Her words made Qu Feng feel sad, but Xiao Lin was terrified. She didn't understand why this niece, who had always been innocent and innocent, suddenly became so strange, always saying some inexplicable words, which made her afraid. At this moment, Shui'er suddenly raised her head, with a strange brilliance in her eyes, she looked at Qu Feng: "Qu Feng, don't you know who I am?" She stared into his eyes, word by word, "You Look carefully, I'll dance for you."

She slid down from the wheelchair, raised her arms above her head, made a graceful and skillful movement of folding her wrists, then tipped her toes, intending to fly into the air—but no, the pain made her not even have the strength to stand up, she fell to the ground, and suddenly felt When he got angry, he hit his leg angrily and shouted, "How could this happen? Why did this happen?" Qu Feng rushed over distressedly, hugged her and repeatedly comforted her. Xiao Lin was stunned for a long time, no, this is not Shui'er, there is another soul in Shui'er's body! The sun rises from the east, but sets from the west, never changing its course. After the sun sets, the moon rises. The moon has already come out, hanging timidly on the treetops, only a pale shadow, not very confident, showing half of the face and leaning sideways to wait for the scene, before the sun has completely set, is it right? Dare to make an official appearance. Then the stars also came out, they were little fellows who played tricks, jingling and clattering, clustered here and there, not in a very formation, but they all lit up as well as they did their duty. Xiao Lin and Qu Feng walked under the starlight, in the jungle of high-rise buildings with steel and iron frames, they were two tiny flies. Small and dazed. After a long time, it was Xiao Lin who broke the silence first: "Desolate." She spit out these two words through her teeth. "Desolation?" The style of music is unknown, so: "You mean Nanjing Road?" "No, it's about water." Xiao Lin explained, "The female writer who wrote it, her favorite word in her novels is desolation. Desolation is also used to describe a girl's eyes. I didn't understand at first, but desolation is Talking about the place, how can a person’s expression be desolate, so desolate that there are no people for thousands of miles, but I can understand it when I see Shui’er’s eyes. There is no other word for the feeling in her eyes except desolation It can be described." "Probably because of illness and a bad mood." Qu Feng comforted. Xiao Lin shook his head, and said puzzledly: "No, Shui'er has been sick since she was a child, and she has become a habit of staying in the hospital. When people saw it, they felt cold from the heart, and she seemed to be full of hostility towards me." "How could it be? You are her little aunt, and Shui'er has always been very close to you." "That was before." "What was it before and now? You are too cranky." Qu Feng felt that Xiao Lin was worrying too much. "She just got sick for a few days and was a little emotional. She will be fine in a few days." "Let's wait and see." Xiao Lin finally said, looking up at the sky, the stars are brighter now, coldly, like a string of musical notes. Shui'er's beauty and strangeness made Xiao Lin more and more uneasy. One day, she couldn't help asking her sister: "Do you think Shui'er is a bit strange? It seems that he suddenly knows how to dance?" Dalin ignored those, as long as his daughter was alive, he would be happy. Hearing this, he casually smiled: "When you get close to vermilion, you get red, and when you get close to ink, you get black. It's all because of the music that taught her." "She and Qu Feng really seem to have a good relationship." Mom also said, "In the evening, ask Qu Feng to come over for dinner." Xiao Lin agreed, and then asked, "The doctor checked Shui'er, what do you say?" "The condition is stable for the time being, but chemotherapy is required." "Chemotherapy?" Xiao Lin was taken aback, and immediately shifted his attention from doubts about the girl to concern, "She's still so young." Dalin lowered his head, his voice was full of bitterness: "Her hair will fall out, if it still doesn't get better, I'm afraid... I don't know if it's a good thing or a hard job to make her suffer more?" She had nothing on her mind but her daughter's health. The meaning of a daughter is a little child who calls her "Mom". As long as she calls her "Mom", she will treat her like a jewel and a treasure every day, and will not care whether she loves dancing or literature. One day she suddenly spoke six foreign languages ​​and grew wings on her back, and she was still her daughter. When Shui'er first woke up, she really refused to call her mother for a while, she just wanted to find Qu Feng, and when she found it, she didn't say anything else, just held him, and refused to let go. But then one day suddenly, she called her mother, crying, the crying was extremely touching, heart-pounding, as if she hadn't called for many years and suddenly found the warmth of mother's love again. At that moment, Dalin was more moved than ever that she was a mother. She opened her arms and hugged her lost and recovered little daughter tightly, like a hen protecting her chicks.Shui'er is so small, so weak, so helpless, she really hopes to bear all the pains for her daughter, and pay all the price in exchange for her daughter's health. However, she was helpless.Watching her daughter suffer from chemotherapy, her heart was pierced, but she could do nothing but stand by and watch.For a mother, this is more cruel and unbearable than any punishment.Holding her sickly daughter, she burst into tears and called out heartbroken: "Shui'er, mother is really useless, really useless..." Shui'er raised her hand to gently wipe away her mother's tears, and asked softly, "Mom, why are you so kind to me?" "I am your mother." Dalin looked at his daughter, crying and laughing, "In this world, a mother's most precious thing is her child. For you, I can do everything, but I I can't do anything, it hurts my heart." Shui'er cried, hugged Dalin and said, "Mom, I really didn't expect that maternal love is so great." She leaned against her mother and said sadly, "It's a pity that I can't stay with you for a long time. I know, my time Not much, Mom, did the doctor tell you how long I can live?" Hearing this sentence, Dalin's heart was broken, and he was sobbing but couldn't say a word. Instead, Xiao Shui'er was asked to comfort her mother: "Mom, don't cry, we can get together for one more day, which is also a fate. I am so lucky to have a mother who loves me so much. Mom, do you regret having me as a daughter in the future?" "Shui'er, you've grown up!" Dalin broke down in tears, but with joy blooming from the bottom of his heart, he said emotionally, "Mom doesn't regret it. No matter what happens, mother will never regret having a daughter like you. You are mother's dearest and most precious, getting you is mother's greatest happiness, losing you is mother's greatest pain..." "Mom, promise me, if one day I leave, don't be too sad, okay?" Shui'er's tears flowed with her mother, "Everyone will die. Death is not scary at all. It is peaceful and very peaceful. Beauty, really, I don’t lie to you. If I die, don’t be too sad, because, I loved you, you loved me, that’s enough, I didn’t come here in vain, and you didn’t love me in vain One more day or one less day together, what difference does it make? Mom, I thank you for being so kind to me. I am really lucky to have a mother like you. I am lucky in life and lucky in death. Really, as long as there is love , no matter what kind of life is happy, mom, don’t cry, don’t cry, okay?” Dalin hugged her daughter, and she burst into tears. Every word of her daughter deeply touched her heart, so that she didn't even have time to think about how a twelve-year-old child suddenly became so sensible, how could he say This is an emotional and rational statement... Shui'er is getting better day by day, but is still weak and unable to stand, and her attachment to Qu Feng is getting stronger and stronger.Her pale sickness, only when she saw him, would there be a blush. But this does not affect her beauty at all, she often falls asleep, but as long as she wakes up, she still amazes everyone who sees her. On this day, Qu Feng couldn't resist her constant begging, and finally asked the doctor for permission, and he and Xiao Lin used a wheelchair to push her to the park to see the lotus. They strolled in the lotus pond, attracting the attention of everyone who passed by. Xiao Lin was very uncomfortable, but Qu Feng and Shui Er went their own way, turning a blind eye to people's eyes with different expressions. The pond is full of pink and white lotus flowers, the pink ones are like clouds and the white ones are like snow.Looking at the blooming lotus, Qu Feng couldn't help thinking of the past when he and the swan went fishing in the lotus pond, and asked Shui'er, "Do you remember our swan?" "Of course." Shui'er said, looking intently at Qu Feng's face, "I heard that she was burned to death, isn't it?" "Yes. I was the one who got drunk and killed her. I miss that swan very much. I used to think that I was taking care of her, but now that I think about it, I realize that she was actually the one who took care of me and accompanied me." "Are you sad that she left?" Shui'er asked. Qu Feng nodded heavily, and said seriously: "It's very sad. In the future, I will never have such a loyal friend again." "With me by your side, can't you comfort your sadness?" "That's different." Qu Feng said, squatting down and ruffling the girl's hair, "You know what? Some people and things cannot be repeated. Lost is lost, and there is no compensation." "Like that swan?" "Especially that swan." "Then, besides Swan, is there anyone else you can't forget, who you can't get back after losing her?" Shui'er suddenly grabbed his hand and asked eagerly, "Is there any love you cherish the most?" Is there something you want to miss for a long time? Is there any?" "Shui'er!" Xiao Lin interrupted her niece's question uneasily, and Shui'er's strange expression made her inexplicably terrified again - such a warm and urgent tone, such deep and dark eyes, and her voice was full of tension and tension. Trembling slightly in anticipation, her long black eyelashes fluttering like two butterflies, what is all this for? ——She said coaxingly: "Let's not discuss these issues, okay? You are still young, and you are not here to care about emotional matters." "No, I want to know." Shui'er didn't look at her, just shook Qu Feng's hand and asked: "Is there any? Is there such a person that you miss for a long time?" Qu Feng looked at her, with a sudden look of loneliness and sadness on his face.He thought of his parents, people who were abandoned by their biological parents, why talk about kindness and nostalgia?Since he was a child, he has lived in humbleness and shame, ashamed because of his status as an illegitimate child, humble because of his fate of being dependent on others, and even more criticized for his solitary personality.Everyone, including the aunt who brought him up, showed an attitude of both impatience and helplessness towards his existence, as if wondering why this redundant person who should not be born is still alive in the world.My aunt adopted him because of her kind nature, but she has been doubting the correctness of her kind deed for twenty years, and never concealed her doubts and regrets. Since childhood, the most familiar sentence he heard was : "If it weren't for me, you would have starved to death like a kitten or puppy. Your parents don't want you. I really don't know why I should meddle in this business..." To this day, every time he visits his aunt When he was at home, sometimes he would still hear her playing the same old tune, and he never tabooed whether such words would hurt his self-esteem.In their minds, he is no different from a wild dog who was taken in by Shi En. It is already a great gift to give him a nest and a mouthful of food, so why should he be given extra warmth?And a dog, how can it have any self-esteem personality? Yes, he has no relatives, only benefactors.This favor requires him to repay it with his whole life.The way to return is to send money.He hasn't been to his aunt's house for a long time, but he will send money back on time after receiving his salary every month.They have raised him for twenty years, and he has decided that he will send money to them to repay their kindness.It's just grace, no love. No kinship, no friendship.Since he was in the first grade of elementary school, he didn't know what a partner and a friend are. During his growth journey, he had only enemies and rivals.They belittled him, ridiculed him, excluded him, and called him a "wild child born with a mother but not taught by a mother".This wild child, with his extraordinary perseverance and spirituality, has been ranked among the best every year since the first grade, and successfully entered the university with a scholarship.But even so, he didn't get special attention from any teacher, because they didn't like his overly cold personality, and he liked to fight so much that he was almost expelled from school for punching his classmates.When the head teacher of the university died, he went to the memorial service, but amidst the mourning music, his only thought was to study the relationship between the tune and the sound... No, he doesn't miss anyone, he is the only one in his life.However, can these words be said to a twelve-year-old child?How could she understand his helplessness? He shook his head slightly: "Human? In my life, the swan is the best for me, better than anyone else. I have never been sad for losing anyone." Shui'er's eyes suddenly turned cold, she leaned her little head on the wheelchair, and said lazily, "Qufeng, I'm tired, can you push me back?"