Chapter 12 she is lonelier than fireworks

Once upon a time, is a poignant and cruel story. It's like a beautiful and splendid firework, after flying into the sky after being smashed to pieces, it finally blooms in the night without hesitation, it only blooms once in a lifetime, gorgeous, but short-lived. After the splendor, the night became even darker and boundless.And Ruo Meiying's life experience is hidden in the darkest part of the night... Ruo Meiying, a real beauty and a famous actress in Liyuan, was sold into an opera troupe at the age of four, made her debut on stage at the age of eight, and became popular in Beijing and Shanghai at the age of thirteen.The stage is full of beauties from the former dynasty Jiao'e, but her own life experience is bleak, and neither her name nor her parents can be tested.

The drunkenness of life and the feasting and feasting are just flowers in the mirror. After washing away the lead, the plain face only leaves countless crying marks. Therefore, there is always a kind of thirst in the fundus of the eyes. It's the thirst that desperately wants something and doesn't get it. That thing is called love. The person I fell in love with was Zhang Chaotian. Zhang Chaotian came, Zhang Chaotian went, Zhang Chaotian was watching her, Zhang Chaotian didn't come to the backstage to offer flowers, Zhang Chaotian wrote an article praising her, Zhang Chaotian refused the request to have dinner with her...

Zhang Chaotian's actions dominated all her thoughts, all her emotions were only for him, but he still lived so chicly, as if nothing had happened, ignoring all her tenderness. But so affectionate.For such an affectionate and beautiful girl, Tie Shi would also be tempted. He finally agreed to meet her. Junior sister Lin Juying learns from Hong Niang to send notes and meet on her behalf.Sprinkle gold paper, with a light fragrance of powder, printed with petals and lipstick.Such as women's feelings of resentment. They meet at the lake. She told him that the commander's big red wedding invitation had been delivered, and she had to follow or run away, the ending was the same, that is, she had to bid farewell to her career in the Liyuan.Speaking of the season, the corners of the eyes and brows are full of affection.

He promised her, we get married, I will take you away, we elope, and we will never be separated. Embracing each other, the world is condensed into a unique kiss.The tenderness is like water, the wedding is like a dream, and the only kiss in my life. He finally melted for her. He gave her beads and flowers, took pictures with her, made vows of eternal love, and booked a hotel as a bridal chamber. However, in the end, it was still a mirror image. That night, Ruo Meiying came to the hotel with the fragrant pillow and embroidered mattress she had quietly prepared, and waited for him all night and day in the bridal chamber that she personally arranged.

What a night and a day, the spring silkworm is dead, the wax torch is turned to ashes, but he failed. Mei Ying's beauty withered overnight, and Jianshui's eyes were so dry that she couldn't even shed a tear.The world is so big, but she was forced to a dead end and had no place to stand.The inn intended to be a temporary bridal chamber has become the tomb of love. Where can the living dead in the tomb go? She had a bleak face and went on stage wearing that phoenix coronet and Xiapei. That was her last time on stage. July 14th, Ghost Festival, the day when Commander He robbed the bride.She wore the red wedding dress embroidered all over her body and sang "Yingtai Crying Grave" on stage.

"Establish a tombstone, erect a tombstone, brother Liang, you set up two red and black tombstones, the red one is engraved with my Zhu Yingtai, and the black one is engraved with your Liang Shanbo. Brother Liang, you and I cannot be married, we will die And the same grave." Liang Shanbo got the death covenant, returned sadly, coughed up blood and died.When the auspicious day came, Zhu Yingtai, Feng Guanxia, ​​boarded a sedan chair and was carried to Ma's house.On the way to welcome her, a strange wind suddenly blows her to a grave.There are two steles in black and red. The black one says Liang Shanbo, and the red one says Zhu Yingtai.Only then did Yingtai realize that Brother Liang was dead, and she cried until her heart broke, and the rain poured down.A flash of lightning flashed by, and the tomb was opened. Zhu Yingtai took off her wedding dress, but she was dressed in plain clothes, jumped up and threw herself into the tomb.In a moment, there are two butterflies flying out.

——Ruo Meiying never imagined that the butterfly paper-cut that she carved in the inn hinted at her swan song of love. She sang hoarsely.After the play, he was carried away by the commander. Putting on a hijab and being carried into the He Mansion in a small sedan chair, she walked through the side door and entered the back garden——she became the Fifth Aunt He. Zhang Chaotian never heard from him again. On one side are mandarin ducks lying under the red silk tent, and on the other side is the blue sea, blue sky and night heart. The pillow guest and the sweetheart are not the same. But after eating cigarettes, you will be confused about whether it is true or false, so there is no need to ask.

Since then, he has been drunk and dreamed of death, not much joy, anger, sorrow, joy, obedience and laziness like a living corpse. The commander soon got tired of her, and thought about attracting new prey again. It's a pity that he didn't make it to the next game in time. It's a pity. Because if that was the case, the wives would not hate Mei Ying so strongly, they would not target her with jealousy, and they would not vow to deal with her and take revenge on her after the death of the warlord. The commander died suddenly of a heart attack after being drunk. It was only three days since he was moved out of the hospital, so no one knew that he had lost interest in her.

In the eyes of others, she became the commander's favorite, but in the eyes of the eldest wife, she became the most hated in her life. She couldn't argue with a hundred words, and death was not a pity. But it doesn't matter anymore.Originally, she didn't care about the death of the commander, so naturally she didn't have to worry about the wives. They threw her out, along with her newborn baby. It's a baby girl. Throw it in front of the Guanyin Hall. Not just because she couldn't afford her, but also because she didn't love her at all and didn't want to have her.

That baby, it wasn't her choice. Like a warlord husband wasn't an option for her. Commander is dead.Of course, the commander's child shouldn't pester her anymore. She threw her at the door of Guanyin Hall. The grown-up baby was adopted by the self-comb girl and named Zhao Zihe. As the truth of the story slowly unfolds like a scroll painting, Xiao Wan and Zhang Zhi are becoming more and more surprised that they and Ruo Meiying are so closely related and inextricably linked. No wonder she found her. Everything in the world, in the dark, what kind of origin is unfolding?

Back at the hotel, Xiaowan thought about Lin Juying's words and felt heartfelt grief.Mei Ying died so tragically that she had never expected, but her premonition told her that the complete truth must be even more terrifying and miserable than what she knew now. Why did Zhang Chaotian miss the appointment?What happened to Ruo Meiying during the few days in the small building?And why did he commit suicide by falling from a building? She faintly felt that behind this already tragic story, there was a bigger conspiracy hidden, a deadly secret, that secret was the key to the whole story, and also the final answer that Mei Ying had to die. She was a little scared, a little hesitant, but she felt involuntary.This matter has already entangled her body, and she can't feel at ease if she doesn't get to the bottom of it. She must find that answer for Meiying, ask that sentence, and untie that knot. The phone rang at this moment. "Shui Xiaowan, leave him immediately!" The voice was shrill and cold.It was that mysterious woman again.She actually followed her to Shanghai lingeringly. Xiaowan was terrified: "Who are you? How do you know the phone number of the hotel?" "Don't be with him, you won't have good results." "what are you talking about?" Then the other party has hung up the phone. Xiaowan put down the phone depressedly, then suddenly raised her head, and suddenly found a person looming on the window glass. a man. The man's face was pale, and he was holding some musical instrument in his hand, looking at himself sadly and intently, his image was a little vague, but there was indeed something, he was staring at himself. Xiaowan's hair stood on end, she clearly knew that it was not a real person, because the image he cast on the glass was so blurred and sad, like a ghost's reluctant nostalgia, but powerless projection. She didn't dare to turn her head, because she didn't know what she would see if she turned her head.Maybe, it is a shadow with only upper body but no lower body, maybe nothing.She just stared at the mirror, staring hard. The shadow seemed to be unable to bear the gaze, and slowly faded, fading, just like the scenes that often fade out in movies, and finally disappeared into the air. Xiao Wan let out a long sigh, slumped on the chair weakly, and turned her head slowly. And behind him, there was actually a person. That was Zhang Zhiye. He looked at Xiao Wan's pale face and asked with concern: "What's wrong with you? You look so pale." Xiaowan asked anxiously, "When did you come in?" "Just came in. Didn't you hear the door open?" "So, when you came in, did you see anything?" "I see." "what?" "You." Xiao Wan Bai glanced at him, knowing that it would be unnecessary to ask again, she lowered her head and did not speak. Zhang Zhi also seemed to be full of thoughts, and didn't notice what was wrong with Xiao Wan, so he handed her a note and said, "I have already found out Zhang Chaotian's whereabouts." "Really? Where is he?" "in Beijing." "Beijing?" Xiao Wan laughed, "We ran all the way to Shanghai and made a fuss for a long time, but he is in Beijing?" "This is the address, go back and find him." "What about you?" Xiaowan wondered, "Aren't you going back with me?" "Me? No, I have to stay in Shanghai for a few more days. I have an interview to do." "I'm waiting for you." "No, it's not good." Zhang Zhiye's attitude seemed very anxious, "This interview will take a long time, and I don't have time to accompany you when you're here. Why don't you go back first, find Zhang Chaotian early, and finish early. your wish." "That's true." Xiao Wan smiled, "The most important thing is that I promised Mei Ying that I must help her find the answer to that sentence." "Yes, yes, then go back quickly." Zhang Zhi also forced a smile: "Xiao Wan, if Mei Ying is not a ghost, I almost suspect that you are in love with her." Love?Xiaowan was startled, thinking that she really fell in love with her, the quiet beauty of the lotus pond like the moonlight, the coquettishness like Christmas fireworks, the eerie and mysterious like blue electric sparks on the high cable wires. When people describe a beautiful woman as extremely beautiful, they like to say that she is "out of this world".Mei Ying, don't you think that you don't eat fireworks? Lin Juying was sent to the emergency room the next day. It was the painful memory that drained her blood.The old man in his dying years could no longer bear such excitement. When Lin Juying's family saw Xiaowan and Zhang Zhiye, they were all indifferent, and there was a sense of blame in their words. Xiaowan didn't want to explain anything, but silently put the bouquet on the coffee table in the ward, and then left. Walking on the tree-lined road, her heart was heavy, as if a piece of lead had fallen. Zhang Zhi also comforted: "She is very old, no matter whether we have talked with her or not, her body will often get sick." "However, Mei Ying's clues were cut off again." Xiao Wan sighed, "I didn't expect Mei Ying to go through so much suffering!" "Maybe you can ask your grandma again, and you will know more." "I dare not, seeing Lin Juying's example, I'm afraid..." Xiao Wan hesitated to speak. Zhang Zhi also understood: "Are you afraid that grandma will be stimulated? Yes, it's better not to take risks." He thought for a while, "Now, there is only the last way left." "Find Zhang Chaotian!" "That's right, Mei Ying died for him, he will know the truth." Zhang Zhi also held Xiao Wan's hand and said, "So, you'd better go back to Beijing tomorrow, not only to find Zhang quickly Chaotian also tried to persuade Ruo Meiying to let her know that Zhao Zihe is her biological daughter, and tell her that there are still flesh and blood of her in this world. In this way, maybe she will have a little warmth in her heart, so that she won't feel bad about this The world is full of hatred. She died so badly, and her grievance still persists. I am worried that if her hatred cannot be dispelled, more tragedies will happen one after another..." Xiao Wan couldn't help shivering, thinking about the cripple Hu, and then thinking of the mysterious woman's phone call. "Yeah, that woman called again." "Oh, when?" Zhang Zhi was also surprised, very troubled. "Just yesterday afternoon, before you came to see me, I was so busy telling you about the projection on the glass window that I forgot to mention it." Zhi also immediately changed the subject: "By the way, that man's shadow didn't reappear later, did he?" "No. He disappeared after you came in." When Xiaowan thought of that strange image, she felt an inexplicable pain in her heart, as if a meteor gliding across the sky.For that apparition, she felt more sorrow than fear. "Yeah, I'm a little scared." "Afraid of that shadow?" "No, afraid of that woman. The woman on the phone." "What is there to be afraid of women?" Zhang Zhiye was rather unwilling to discuss this issue, so he turned back and said, "Could that shadow be Zhang Chaotian?" "No way, that shadow is very young." "Isn't Ruo Meiying very young? Ghosts can choose their own image at will." "But he is dressed in a very modern way, not like people from that era." Xiaowan looked at Zhang Zhiye's panicked face and said considerately, "Zhiye, are you tired? Or, let's stop shopping and go back to Zhang Zhiye first." hotel." "But, I still have an interview to do." Zhi Ye became more and more troubled, "Also, you are going back tomorrow, so you must buy some gifts for your family." "That's right." Xiaowan smiled, "It's almost mid-autumn. My grandma likes Cantonese-style mooncakes, the kind with two duck egg yolks. She ate them in Shanghai back then, and now I want to buy them for her from Shanghai. Meaningful." She always remembers the box of mooncakes that were squashed and the fillings stuck together when grandma first told her about Ruomeiying.Grandma said that it was the best moon cake she had ever eaten. "You go to do your interview, and I go to buy my mooncakes. We will meet at the hotel in the evening and have dinner together." "Okay." Zhang Zhi also breathed a sigh of relief, and said gratefully, "Xiao Wan, you really understand me. Remember, come back early in the evening, I will reserve a seat in the restaurant and wait for you." Xiao Wan nodded, and suddenly asked: "Yeah, I want to ask you a word." Zhang Zhi was also startled, and looked closely at Xiao Wan. At first Xiao Wan didn't understand why he was so solemn, but suddenly she understood, she couldn't help smiling bitterly: "Are you afraid that I will be possessed by Mei Ying?" Zhang Zhi was also guessed, and smiled embarrassedly: "Your tone really resembles her." "No, I'm not her. It's me who wants to ask you a question." "You ask." Xiaowan hesitated for a while, and finally said: "I don't want to ask, let's talk about it another day, another day." In fact, Zhang Zhiye could roughly guess what Xiaowan wanted to ask. He asked himself, but didn't know how to answer. See, remember, dress nicely and surprise me." When Xiaowan came back, it was dusk. The dusk is dark, pedestrians are in a hurry, and there is a sense of melancholy in the air. The night in Shanghai is full of homely and gorgeous nostalgic colors, which is the scene in the faded and yellowed old photos.Pop songs from the 1934s were playing in the roadside cafes, which further exaggerated the illusion that the fake is real and the real is fake. Xiaowan raised her head, feeling the Shanghai wind blowing across her cheeks, her heart was cold and inexplicably terrified.At dusk, people's unique good times are no longer miserable and helpless.Along the way, she always felt as if someone was following her.Is it Ruo Meiying?Is it the "female ghost" on the phone?Is it the young man in the shadow of the glass window? Looking back again and again, but seeing nothing.On the contrary, the man behind him would be wrong, and smiled at her thinking he was affectionate, scaring Xiao Wan to quicken his pace and walk away in a hurry. With the moon cake box in her hand, she suddenly felt homesick.Warm true freshness home.In this evening in a foreign land, her heart is full of longing for home, longing for the warm light, longing for the faces of relatives under the light. Grandma must be very happy when she sees moon cakes, maybe it will be very bitter.The little girl who was begging for food by the West Lake back then is now gray-haired and full of children and grandchildren. When she ate the mooncakes presented by her granddaughter, Miss Ruo, whom she admired so much, had already passed away. She felt relieved Or is it desolate? It's only been a few days since I left Beijing, but as Mei Ying's story gradually came to light, it seems that I have followed her through her whole life in my heart.Learning opera, singing opera, falling in love, robbing marriages, abandoning babies, criticizing, falling from buildings, wandering spirits... Mei Ying's life, limited tenderness and infinite bitterness, brought her too much shock.At the most beautiful moment in life, because of a wrong love, the beauty died prematurely, and the fireworks ended—is it the fault of fate, or the fault of character? The elevator drove up to the fifth floor, and when passing Zhiye's room, he saw the door was half closed, and there was a strange sound coming from inside. Without thinking, Xiaowan pushed it away: "Yeah, are you there?" The men and women on the bed turned around—— As if a bomb was dropped, the color of the sky and the earth suddenly changed. Looking at each other, the three of them became clay puppets at the same time.