a million kisses... A trace of melancholy, and a trace of joy, who is it?Who is he? A name that I had ignored for a long time but never for a moment came to mind, but, will it?Could it be him?It seems that a lot of beans have been planted in my heart, and after passing through the water, they germinate, and they are about to pop out, isn't it him?Yeah?will it be

At the curtain call, I saw him pay the bill, get up, and go out. Suddenly, I couldn't help myself, I grabbed my shawl and chased after him. As soon as I opened the door of the club, I saw him. With his back to me, he stood under the moonlight, his broad and slightly chubby figure was as steady as a mountain, as if it had stood there for thousands of years, only waiting for me to come before he would look back. Waiting for thousands of years is only for this look back. My eyes suddenly filled with tears, I already knew who he was.Although they have never met each other, although they have not spoken a word, two people who love each other are like two winds blending together. Even if they are far away in the sky, they can feel the common breath of each other, let alone so close at this moment?

He turned his head gently, slowly, and finally turned his head. Our eyes intertwined and collided under the moonlight, and he said: "You haven't surfed the Internet for a long time, and I can't find you on QQ. I'm very worried, and I can't help but want to find out... Yun, you are more beautiful than I thought, Even better, you make me feel ashamed, and I dare not see you anymore." "Wind? Are you the wind?" As if a heavy hammer hit me hard behind me, I cried out in surprise, rushed forward and threw myself into his arms. All the conversations flashed in the night sky as if they were lit up in my mind——

"Wind, tell me what love is." "Love is a person waiting for another person's breath at night. Although thousands of miles are separated, I know you are on the other side of the computer, so I will wait every night." "Are you afraid of waiting in vain? Are you afraid of missing an appointment?" "Not afraid. Waiting for the rabbit is the greatest happiness in the world, because he has a goal to wait for." "Even if I don't come?" "Even if you don't come, I'm still grateful because you gave me hope and a reason to wait."

"Feng, are you in love with me?" "I don't know if this is love, but if it is not love, I also don't know what kind of emotion to describe this waiting. For the Cowherd and Weaver Girl Qixi Festival, a rainbow bridge appeared in the sky; for you and me to meet, The world invented the internet and chat rooms. It was God's will." "Feng, how I want to see you right away." "Me too." "What would you do if we met?" "Kiss you. Even if everyone is watching, even if the road is blocked, even if there are thousands of cars honking at me, I will still desperately hug you, kiss you, and kiss you eleven million times."

"So, what are we waiting for?" Lily Garden, Baihualou, where a hundred flowers bloom. We rolled, embraced and kissed on the big snow-white bed, changing various positions and impatiently handing ourselves over to each other, as if we wanted to make up for the twenty years lost in the past. How could such a close body not be familiar until today? I want to kiss Cover every inch of his body, wake up all his sleeping memories, tell him: This is my lips, you are my body, we should be one, why did we wait until today to meet? I don't know when the sun will kiss the window screen.

I wake up in the arms of the wind, snuggle lazily, and feel alive again.The sleeping feelings slowly revived, and the heart became soft and moist again, with an itchy feeling. I said to myself: I love again.I love him.Am I in love with him?Is this really love? I put my arms around my shoulders, surrounded by that feeling of shame and joy, and flew out in a trance, smiling secretly, and my whole body was lazy, as if being embraced by the sun. Feng woke up, kissed my back, I pretended to sleep, felt his lips move inch by inch on my skin, and whispered softly in my ear: "I want to kiss your whole body."

My ears were itching, my whole body was itching, and it was getting hot. Finally, I couldn't help it. I turned around suddenly, hugged him tightly, and echoed him, like clouds echoing wind, mountains echoing rain, tides echo moonshine, and cuckoos echo In spring, in the Garden of Eden of love, repeat the never-tiring game of Adam and Eve a thousand times with him... If there is only one man in the world, it is him; if there is only one woman in the world, it is me; if there is only one love in the world, it is me and him! The world is so big, I only miss a bed measuring two meters by two meters.Other than that, I don't want to go anywhere.

But Xiyan is waiting for me.I was worried that the prudish Xi Yan would embarrass Feng Qixi, but she just said "Hello" lightly, but I muttered to myself, I don't know if her calmness is due to absent-mindedness, or because she has opened up after the pain, no longer Put on a straight face and be a saint. I don't understand Xiyan more and more. Since that conversation about my mother, Xi Yan seems to have regained her spirits. One day she suddenly brought up this matter and advised me: "Wuxin, don't be too mean to your mother. Orphans and widows, your mother can earn a lot of money." Today's status in the arena is not easy, how can you play around without using a little capital?" "Why do you sound like me?" I was surprised, "Xi Yan, you shouldn't say such things, your lines should be: no matter a man or a woman, you should eat by your own ability, worthy of the world, and worthy of me Heart. This is you." "Really? I don't know." Xiyan laughed, "I thought my first choice since childhood was to be a vixen." "Fox spirit? You?" I pointed at her and smiled, "Then you have to learn to act like a baby to men first, this is almost like asking me to be your teacher. But, your qualifications are too poor, you can't even wink, probably I can't get out of the teacher." But no matter what, Xiyan finally smiled a little. Moreover, she seemed to really want to be a charming fox, and pestered me to ask me some tricks to please men, such as whether to welcome or reject three points, seven points, fakes, anger and joy, and said sincerely: "It's a science." I smiled wryly instead. It turns out that prostitutes always yearn to be good ladies, but saints also yearn to be depraved with the same desire, or in other words, yearn for sensuality and temptation.But I know that Xi Yan is just curious, the country is easy to change, but her nature is hard to change. If she really wants to sell herself, she will not obey even if she is killed. At this time, Xiyan can already take half a day off from time to time and leave the hospital for a walk, but her right hand is still bandaged, so she must be very careful. Let's go to have morning tea together. The tea is the most common chrysanthemum with sugar, four dishes of meat and four dishes of vegetarian food plus a radish and beef brisket. It is said to be morning tea, but in fact it is also settled for lunch. The red and tender shrimp balls are faintly revealed in the thin and transparent skin of the shrimp dumplings. It is my favorite. After eating one cage is not enough, I let the wind call for another cage. I acted coquettishly and flirted with Feng in front of Xiyan, ordered him to do some small things like serving tea and pouring water, and rewarded him with a kiss with my shoulders. Xi Yan looked on with great interest, and said in amazement: "So this is what is called love." After a pause, she added, "Is it the truest love that requires such meticulous care?" I laughed and pointed her out: "The so-called love is to let a man willingly do many trivial things for you. But if you really want to stand up to the sky and go through fire and water, it's best for a woman to do it herself. Don't test a man's heart." "Really?" Xi Yan frowned, thinking seriously. I couldn't help laughing again. During the dinner, Feng left his seat to answer a phone call, Xi Yan looked at my face, and I said calmly: "It's probably his wife, she's lying, and I need to talk a little more to cover it up." Xiyan was slightly surprised, endured and endured, and finally showed her disapproval: "You really don't care?" "From the moment I knew there was such a person as him, I knew he was married. It was his wife he lied to, not me. Why should I care? His wife should be nervous." "But will you have any results?" "Isn't the process the most important? The result between you and Qin Jin has come out. Do you regret loving him?" It’s very rare. Even if you cheat, you have to find someone who is willing to deceive you with all your heart. He flew all the way from Beijing to Meizhou to lie to me, I am very grateful.” "That's right." Xi Yan was confused again, and said foolishly, "If Qin Jin is willing to lie to me..." "Forget about Qin Jin." I interrupted her decisively, "No matter how good Qin Jin is, he's already gone. That chapter has already been turned over in your life, now it's time to gather your energy and start over from the beginning." Xiyan was still immersed in her own thoughts: "Miss Qin came to see me yesterday, and Arong ran away absent from work, saying that she was going to Guangzhou to find a boss." Xiyan said slowly, "She can really do it. Regardless of the consequences, you have more guts than me." I look at her. She smiled shyly, and asked hesitantly without confidence, "Perhaps, her appearance is called true love?" I feel worried that this serious illness seems to have shaken her entire outlook on life and love. Now she is like a newborn baby, not knowing what is right and what is wrong, everything is blurred. "Xiyan, everyone has their own way of doing things. Don't envy anyone, you are you, the most perfect Lin Xiyan." "But..." Xi Yan frowned, but finally shook her head, didn't say anything, only gave me a fluffy smile. I suddenly realized where Xiyan's crux was. There is a limit to everything, and beyond the limit is called intense.Rigidity is easy to break, love is deep and lifeless, extreme people are always easy to get hurt.However, Xiyan is always innocent and instinctively doing everything to the extreme. The extreme kindness turned into hypocrisy, the extreme purity led to loneliness, and the extreme seriousness made the men around her feel scared, stressed, and avoided them.She didn't do anything wrong, it's just that she was too right, she was too right, she didn't understand the truth that only the negative can be positive, hit the wall, her head was bleeding, she still didn't know how to turn, and she refused to turn back, she would rather lose her mind. But this time, she was hurt so badly that she didn't even have the strength to lick the wound. She had to admit that she was wrong, but she didn't know what was wrong.Seriously is it wrong?Or is purity wrong? I looked at Xiyan struggling alone in confusion with pity, secretly hurt.Looking at her, it was like seeing a suffering saint, shedding blood and tears everywhere, but still opening her hands helplessly, trying to cover the wounds that couldn't be covered all over her body. "Xiyan, you didn't do anything wrong, don't always doubt yourself, and make things difficult for yourself." I persuaded, "Besides, even if you are wrong, it's no big deal, the sky hasn't fallen, the sun still rises every day , After leaving the hospital, you are a complete, healthy and perfect person again." "But Ah Rong hates me." Xi Yan was deeply distressed, "She ran to Guangzhou without a word, not even asking for a job, and not leaving a way out. She has always hated me, thinking that I betrayed them and forced them to leave. Dry boy." "That's her own confusion." I interrupted her, unwilling to see her being bound by confusion and guilt, "Maybe she is not confused, she understands better than anyone else, you are not the savior, you can't even save Qin Jin, and you How can you keep the boy? But people like to blame others, she is full of resentment, and she always finds an outlet, and you sent it to your door to blame yourself, didn't you fall into her trap?" "But what's the right way? Is it like your mother? Or is it like you?" "It's like yourself! Whatever you want to do, it's right. Why do you ask so much? It's still the same sentence, so what if you're wrong? No one can do anything wrong ten times or eight times in a lifetime. What's the point of being a human being if you've done it once? The key is to make mistakes in time. Life after life, men and women, the so-called love is nothing more than a timely mistake. I'm most afraid of wasting my life. When I grow old, there will be nothing but a large blank Nothing left. Life is too short, no matter how good it is, it’s too late to think wrong!" "Well said!" Dafeng Qixi applauded, and he came back after making the phone call. I squinted at him: "Speak out for all the passionate men, right?" "I have explained the reason for all those who are eager to make mistakes." He laughed, "Yun, I really admire your intelligence. On QQ, when I haven't met you before, just seeing your witty words has already made me laugh. I fell in love with you because of your rascality and freedom." "Rogue? Free and easy? What kind of adjective is this?" I laughed, "Can this be considered a compliment?" "Let's change it to another sentence: Embroidered with a bright heart, every word is pearls." "It is said that if a girl is not beautiful, it is better to praise her for being smart. If you keep praising me for my eloquence, do you think I am vulgar?" "Clear water produces hibiscus, which can be carved naturally." "What about my song? You sneaked away to listen to it all night, and you still haven't said how well I sing?" "This song should only exist in the sky, how many times can we hear it in the world." "Then there is..." "Okay, okay." Xiyan couldn't help it, "You two are playing with flower guns, and I don't feel nasty, but the people next to me have sore teeth." I laughed and fell into the arms of the wind, partly because I was acting like a baby, but partly because I just wanted to make Xiyan happy. Seeing her finally talking and laughing happily, I felt that my lover and good friend were by my side, and the delicious food and tea were offered at the table. ! Many years later, when I think of this moment, it is also the happiest time in my life. If this is a mistake, I will never regret it if I can make such a mistake to my heart's content. The wind stayed in Meizhou for a week.Seven days and seven nights.The time when God created a world.Of course, it is more than enough to change a woman's life. Although there have been so many pursuits, intimacy, turmoil, and scars in the past, I have never been in love, and I have never really been in love, even once. It is the wind that turns ideals into reality. Day and night, day and night, we make love, hug, caress, and make out, just like a pair of kissing fish. Even if we fall asleep, we are reluctant to let go of the hands that hold each other. He looked at me and said with emotion: "I'm married and have children, I thought I have already decided my life, but I never thought that I would not know what love is until today." "I love you, I love you, I love you..." Apart from that, I have no other confession. I am not a poet. In front of him, I became stuttering and speechless, just like a little girl in first love, only worshiping and praying to my god, repeating a sentence thousands of times: I love you, I love you, I love you. Love you…… But we still have to talk, and face-to-face conversation is far different from QQ, where there is only the collision of souls, but in life there must be cause and effect, and all questions should always have an answer. For example, what kind of excuse did he use to come to Meizhou, and how to justify himself afterwards, for example, what is my future plan, and why do I live in such a luxurious villa. And my answer to him was: to help a friend look at the house. No one will believe such an answer that is not an answer, but we must always give each other a step down. Only then did they have the time to re-examine each other, they were no longer boys and girls, they were already covered in scars, each had a bitter history on their backs, and they were just trying to survive in the cracks.That suffering love, who knows where to go? Sometimes when I went shopping with him, I saw him standing in the children's area for a long time, thoughtful, with a slight smile on the corner of his mouth, far away, suddenly close to me. I know he misses the toddler. Not without grudges.I was naked and devoted myself to each other, but he was Lala Zhaza and brought a whole family to get along with me, just like Xiyan said—what would be the result? But now that I have gone all out, I have made up my mind to be a generous and safe lover. I will not make any excessive demands. "Feng, I won't ask you to divorce. Don't worry, I will never put pressure on you. As long as I can be with you, one more day, one more day, I am satisfied." "Yun, I can't bear you. I can't imagine how to go back to that ordinary life after experiencing such love." "Will you forget me?" "Never. Twelve never." "Then, enjoy this day with me. Love me this day, and I will give it back to you forever." "But I always want to go back." "I'll go back with you, rent a hut near your house, wait for you, wait for you, as long as you come to see me occasionally, I'm satisfied." "Yun, you are so beautiful and young, I can't let you waste your youth for me." "I would." The bride replied to the priest at the wedding church: I am willing, I am willing to love and support each other with him regardless of illness, poverty, or suffering. The wishing bride is happy, pure, and divine. What about the lover's answer? I do.I am willing to have the same heartfelt love for you regardless of status, price, or result, and I will follow you to the death. Should lovers be cursed? He hugged me, lowered his head again, kissed me repeatedly, and dried my tears. When did I shed tears? When was it, I was like a weeping lily, unbearable to touch, weeping from time to time. Love makes people so soft, and I bloom in tears. At night, I sang Sun Yue's new song "Crying Lily" in "Night Angel".Tears filled my eyes. The woman I love has become so fragile, it hurts wherever I touch it, and she will cry at every turn. Wind, will he remember my singing?remember my tears? ! It was the rainy season, as if God was crying with me. Even when it is not raining, the air is moist and lingering, as if to say: I am going to cry, I am going to cry. Rain can fall any moment. Tears will fall anytime. A weeping lily, a short-lived lily out of the soil.From the day when it was in full bloom in the vase, it had already predicted its fate of withering, but it still bloomed once in tears regardless. However, they finally parted. On the way to send him to the airport, he kept saying, "Laugh, you know? I want to see you smile." When there is rain, the wiper of the car sweeps back and forth again and again, just like my shaky and helpless heart. I turned around and looked at him with my beautiful smile. I leaned my head on his shoulder and softly sang a heartbreaking song: If the song could never be finished, if the road could never be walked, if you and I would never be separated—how beautiful the world would be. However, the song has not stopped, the road has come to an end, you and I who are in love are about to break up. That was a real breakup - the two loving hands were hardly willing to let go day and night, but at this time, after all, they were about to separate. It's like prying with a sharp knife, I don't want to let go, I don't want to let go. "Wind, wind..." Apart from calling his name, I didn't have the energy to say the second word. He broke my fingers hard, one by one, and turned and walked into the cabin.Follow the crowd to go deeper and get out of my sight.Obviously walking in the crowd, but it seems to be walking in the wilderness with no one, under the heavy snow, the wind is rushing, without leaving any footprints. I flung myself on the glass partition wall and tried to keep my eyes wide open to see him go away. Suddenly, I shouted earth-shatteringly: "Wind! Wind! Wind! I have something to tell you!" Everyone was startled and looked at me in astonishment.Feng looked back in embarrassment, hesitated for a moment, walked back in a hurry, stood at the door and asked, "What are you talking about?" Regardless of everything, I suddenly pushed away the lady who was blocking me, rushed into the waiting room, threw myself into Feng's arms, leaned on his shoulder, and said softly: "I forgot an important word." Lowering my head suddenly, I grabbed the collar on his shoulder and pulled it back, biting down on his shoulder hard. The wind pain made my whole body tense up suddenly, I pushed me away hard, and gasped for air: "What are you doing?" My whole body softened, and I smiled softly: "I want you to leave a wound, I want your wife to ask you how the injury came about, I want you to rack your brains to find the answer... time, remember me." Two ladies came forward and carried me out of the waiting room. I had no more strength left, so I let them drag me out, but my eyes, I only have a pair of eyes and the last feeling left, firmly Staring at Dafengqixi, tears welled up slowly. Tears blurred my vision, when the lady let go of me and threw me onto the bench, when I finally had the strength to raise my hand to wipe away the tears, I couldn't see anything. If there is no strong wind, what does the busy crowd have to do with me?At this moment the world has become a vast jungle.