Chapter 13 Soul Comes Back

When I return to Xi'an, I feel ten years old. It seems to be abandoned by life again.I knew I would never smile like I did in college again. It was my elder brother who came to pick me up at the station. As soon as I got off the bus, I threw myself into his arms and cried bitterly. The elder brother also had tears all over his face, and said repeatedly: "How can I believe it? How can I believe it?" How can you believe it?Dai'er, who was alive and smiling just a year ago, left us so easily and turned into nothing.Such a fresh life, such a passionate woman, how could she be willing to leave the world she loved so much?

Even just the night before her death, her departed soul purposely wandered to Xi'an to meet me, inquire about Ziqi, and inquire about her unquestionable love. If, if I hadn't told her about Ziqi's betrayal, maybe she wouldn't have died, and she wouldn't have just disappeared like this. Dai'er said that her love for Ziqi is the atmosphere she lives on, and her greatest concern for the world.It was me who made her expectations come to naught and her concerns were broken, so she despaired, gave up, and stayed away. She walked very calmly.Because she was so desperate, she didn't even have any sorrow.

And it's all because of me.It was me, I killed her.Once again, killed my beloved relatives!it's me! I am seriously ill.In the haze, he either confessed to his mother or cried to Dai'er. Day and night are no longer clear to me, and I have always been living in endless nightmares.The vengeful Miss Chen also demanded my life with the baby in her arms, and asked in a voice of resentment, "Why didn't you stop her? Why didn't you stop her?" Jiuwen and Lan Gezi made an appointment to visit me together, and often stayed at my house for a whole day. Sometimes I am sober, and I can talk to them casually, but sometimes I have more energy than I want. I clearly see them sitting beside my bed, but my sanity has already flown out involuntarily, and I can’t help myself. I don't know where it flew to.

I often think that Dai'er's soul I saw flew away from her body and came to see me in Xi'an in such a state?Will it, if I go on like this, I will also become a vegetable until I die? But I don't care about life or death anymore.Mother died, Dai'er died, they were all killed by me, why am I still alive? All night and all night, I heard my mother singing "Jiao Hong Ji": "I am now a confidante who strives to be the king, so it would be very sad to die. But Lang's temperament is weak, he is always sick, and his body is weak. Is it worth tens of thousands of dollars? I'm afraid I'll miss you, I'm afraid I'll miss you in the spring night of the brocade account."

Maybe it was the father playing the tape. But what I heard was Dai'er's voice. After sleeping for a long time before waking up again, it feels like a lifetime away. The wind blows gently, with a slight aroma.Is it Dai Wangshu's lilac?Teresa Teng's Jasmine?Or Xi Murong's Qilixiang?An indistinguishable fragrance in the darkness.Oh, it's already midsummer, and you don't even have to close the windows at night. I leaned against the window and looked at the sky full of stars.The moon is very round, very bright, and very white, it is a full moon. I was suddenly full of strength and desire.

It's full moon!full moon!If I have the strength to stick to the city wall, I will see Qin Yue! Without hesitation, I changed my clothes and tiptoed out the door. As I passed my brother's room, I heard him snore slightly.Then the door clicked, shutting the sound behind the door.And I am like a reborn butterfly, flying lightly to the city wall, like a nightingale flying to a rose. For some reason, in foreign fairy tales, the nightingale is always accompanied by roses and tears. The most beautiful song, the reddest blood, the most painful love, like three twin sisters who can never be separated.

The ancient city wall looks particularly silent and vicissitudes tonight.Every delineation is a storm, and every brick and stone is a history. I slowly climbed up the stairs, my heart full of sadness. Then, I raised my head, and saw Qin Yue waiting for me at the top of the city! I looked at him, and finally I saw him again, but this time, I couldn't even shed tears. Qin Yue looked at me with pity: "You, are you still unwilling to forgive yourself?" I opened my mouth, only to find that my voice was hoarse.So I looked at him and didn't speak.I know he can read my thoughts in my eyes.

We know each other so well that we don't even need language to communicate. A bell is heard in the distance. It was the sound of the bell tower. Qin Yue said: "The bell tower is the heart of Xi'an, and the sound of the bell is the heartbeat of the city. The city is old, but the heart is still young. This is a very strong heart." I looked at him, not understanding his words. He added: "Do you know what is the most precious thing in the world? What is my most longing for?" I shake my head. "It's life! Whether it's love or hatred, wisdom or aspirations, all should be realized with life as the carrier and rely on the form of life. Without life, all ideals and pains will be vain."

"But Daier gave up her life." I finally had the ability to speak out, "She lost her most important love, life is no longer important to her." "No, it's not Dai'er who gave up her life, but life gave up on her. But her love, her love is still in the world. Didn't she ask you to apologize to those who loved her? Didn't she ask you to return it for her? The old pot in Liulichang? That is her love. She understood the value of love at the last moment before she died, and knew how to treat love correctly, cherish love, and deal with love. After she believed in nine rounds of reincarnation, when she was reborn , she will know how to re-choose her own happiness and never get lost again."

"What about Gao Ziqi? How should we treat Gao Ziqi? Dai'er died because of him, and I want to avenge Dai'er!" "No." Qin Yue shook his head, "Stop worrying about who killed Dai'er. No one hurt anyone, it's just that someone made a wrong choice. But there are many aspects to the formation of a mistake The reason for this is not as simple as one plus one equals two, nor is it anyone's fault." "Wrong?" I got angry, "Daier's only mistake is that she loves him more than he loves her; or simply put, she loves him, but he doesn't deserve her to love him. It's a misunderstanding from the beginning to the end."

"Hate may be a misunderstanding, but love is always true." Qin Yue's eyes were full of pity, "Since what happened, since Dai'er loved him deeply, and since Dai'er still cared about him at the last moment of her life, then We have reason to believe that Dai'er really loves him and will never hate him. If you go against her will and must hate on her behalf, you will live up to her love, which is for her. Blasphemy." I lowered my head: "However, sorrow pierced through my body and mind like a sword, and I can't forget the pain." "Forgive him, and forgive yourself." Qin Yue had deeper pity and intolerance in his eyes, "Let the hatred end with you, let the hostility in the harem end with you, and let the tragedy of women end with you. Do you still remember the story of Mrs. Qi? Zhao Wang Ruyi died of hatred, but Emperor Hui Liu Ying died of guilt and self-abandonment. He always believed that his brother's death was related to him, and held a strong "I will not kill Boren, Boren The complex of "benevolence will eventually die because of me" is brooding in his heart, and eventually he dies in depression. But what does it mean for himself, others, and even the people of the whole country? It will only cause a greater tragedy , more mistakes. Regret is the most useless thing. It has the same strong lethality as hatred, but the object of harm is yourself. And you, you are a person with wisdom, you should not be too obsessed with hatred And self-blame, add another point of resentment to this world." I looked at him, half understanding.But my heart has calmed down a little bit in the bell. There are people singing Qin opera in the city. "I love you, love each other, admire Bingzhi, I only wish that the love in the world will be true, and I will grow up to be the director of the world. Unexpectedly, the reincarnation in the sky has been reincarnated for thousands of years, and the love in the world is instant..." Yes, Yang Yuhuan understood Tang Minghuang. Between me and Qin Yue, isn't it possible that we live and die together, separated by heaven and earth? When the autumn wind blows, the cicadas rest and the leaves fall, the streets are golden, and the TV series "Tang Palace" is finally released. When it was premiered in Xi'an, the city was full of empty alleys, and the song "Let's Drink a Cup" resounded in every corner of the city from morning to end every day. I became an out-and-out star, and I was often recognized on the street and asked for an autograph.Posters with my photo were posted on billboards in the busiest areas of Xi’an, so that I became less and less afraid to go out casually. When I had to go out, I had to wear a pair of big sunglasses that covered half of my face. Dad is not used to suddenly having a celebrity daughter, and he racks his brains every day to decline the reporter's interview request on the phone, which is very troublesome. My elder brother was all smiles, and purposely enlarged my photo and placed it as a signboard at the entrance of the company, and said to everyone, "You know Tang Yan, right? The one who plays Shangguan Wan'er, the most popular female celebrity today, she is my sister!" My life experience was made public, and everyone knew that I was an abandoned baby and an adopted daughter.Reporters babble asking the same questions: "What would you do if your birth mother suddenly appeared in front of you?" or "Have you searched for your birth parents? Have you ever wondered what they might be like?" And my answer is the same as I answered my father back then: "There used to be a person in this world who cared for me, loved me, and raised me up. She was the only mother in my life. Her name was Zhou Qinglian." The swallow flew from the front of Wang Xietang to the people's house and it was still a swallow. As for the source, why bother to ask, who knows? I signed several new contracts, all of which are costume dramas. I'm not interested in fashion films. Stories that are too romantic are unrealistic, but true stories of Yizu are boring.Life itself is mediocre enough, who has the patience to create a more vulgar version of me in the screen world? Today, I behave and talk more and more like a blue dove, and I treat reporters with the same catchphrase that the blue dove used to treat me. "I'm sorry, can you please discuss this issue with my agent?" "Sorry, no comment." Presumably, the reporters complained and accused me just like I did to the blue pigeon back then, right? I understand now that it's not that you become proud once you become a celebrity, but that if you are not proud, you simply don't want to be an ordinary person.Because after all, I can't use it to receive reporters 24 hours a day, smile at them, confess my love, betray my feelings and even my privacy. Thinking that I was also one of these boring reporters who took it as their mission to expose scars and poach corners back then, I am ashamed and unbelievable. It turns out that everything is just because of the different roles.It is not only emperors and generals who seek their own government in their positions, but also ordinary people. I understand more about Shangguan Wan'er's struggle between power and men.That's just for survival.Qin Yue said that the most precious thing in the world is life, and all wisdom and emotion must be carried by life.So, what reason do I have to be too harsh and demanding on people? I try to learn to forgive and forget. One day, I received a call from my old colleague Zhang Jinding, who said periodically, "Tang Yan, you are famous now, don't you remember your old friend?" Of course I remember him, but I don't remember when he became an "old friend".The old things from the past come to my mind, the people and things that used to be so laborious, now I just feel indifferent when I think of them.So he smiled easily, noncommittal. Hearing that my tone was good, he hesitated to make a request: "My girlfriend told others that she knew you, but no one believed her. She begged me to ask you if I could let her take a photo with you, I know This request is a bit, hey, a bit..." I see.I politely interrupted him: "How about this, I will give you ten signed stills with your girlfriend's name on them, she can keep them for herself or give them away, and no one will believe that she knows me ? Do you like it?" Zhang Jinding was overjoyed, so he had nothing to say.Thinking about how Zhang Jinding and his girlfriend’s transactional love can last for such a long time, and it’s not easy to be submissive until today. If you can really act like this for a lifetime, and grow old all at once, it can’t be regarded as a happy marriage.As for what was the purpose of the union in the first place, who cares when the white hair becomes frost and the descendants are full? While seriously signing the back of my photo, I thought to myself that it seems that I have really cultivated the Tao, and I no longer worry about the old grievances. But it didn't take long for me to be happy, and a narrow encounter with Gao Ziqi revealed my true colors. It was in the supermarket. When I was picking up something from a low-priced item, I suddenly raised my head and bumped into the other person's arm. I cried out "Hey" in pain, and the sunglasses fell to the ground and shattered. The two looked at each other in blank dismay, and I couldn't help but secretly sighed that Enemy's road is narrow. That Gao Ziqi greeted unexpectedly: "Tang Yan, it's you, long time no see." I didn't laugh, and said coldly: "I have seen you, in the video studio, but you were busy with socializing, so you didn't see me." "Is that so?" His face was slightly red, and then he remembered to ask: "Have you been in touch with Dai'er recently?" "No, Dai'er's soul is gone, and she doesn't want to see me anymore." Speaking of this, there is a bit of resentment.But Gao Mou still didn't hear it, he still laughed to himself: "Tang Yan, you really know how to joke." I just remembered that I didn't even know that Dai'er was dead.Poor Daier died in tears for him, but he was ignorant from beginning to end.I'm not worthy for Dai'er, even that handsome face suddenly felt ferocious and vulgar, and suddenly I became jealous, turned around and left without saying hello, and didn't want to say a word to him again. When I walked out of the supermarket, the wind blew, I felt my face was cold, and I realized that I didn't know when I shed tears. I no longer have any interest in shopping, so I took a car and headed for West Avenue. It has been several months since Dai'er passed away, but I still can't bear to give up the rent of the house on West Street.We have left too many common memories here. Whenever I miss it too much, I will come here to sit and think about it. Recently, due to the inconvenience of going out, it has been a long time, the house is full of cobwebs, and there is an ambiguous old atmosphere.Regardless of the dust, I sat down by the bed, took out the beer I just bought and poured it myself. While drunk, I suddenly heard a low voice reading aloud from the next door, and I asked casually, "Dai'er, are you reading The Little Prince again?" Walking over while supporting the wall, halfway there, he had already reacted, his body softened, and he sat down on the dust, tears streaming down his face. No, not Dale, Dale would never say "If I fell in love with a flower among a million stars"... I covered my face and wept uncontrollably. At this time, I suddenly heard the door knock, I jumped up and ran to open the door. It's Dai'er, it must be Dai'er!Dai'er, come on, I'm not afraid, I want to see you, I have many things to say to you, I would like to meet your dream soul every night, just like I met Qin Yue, I believe, no matter life or death, we friendship will never change. When the door opened, it was Gao Ziqi holding a rose. I lowered my face: "What are you doing here?" He smiled, raised the rose in his hand, and said relaxedly: "Tang Yan, I have watched your TV series, and the acting is really good. You have become a big star now, and I haven't congratulated you yet." I blocked the door and stared at him, showing my disdain unabashedly and even deliberately: "No one cares more about your roses except Daier." A rose is a rose in the eyes of a lover, but it is nothing more than a poppy to me. "Tang Yan, you have misunderstood me too much." "No, there is no misunderstanding." I insisted, "Daer is gone, this is a truth darker than night, there is no misunderstanding." Gao Ziqi hastily held the door open: "But, listen to my explanation, I didn't lie to Dai'er..." "Give me back Dai'er!" My voice gradually became sharper, "Give me back Dai'er, you don't need any explanation!" I used all my strength to close the door "canopy". Life and death are the only things that don't need a special note. I sat on the ground and finally cried out loud. From college to work, Daier and I have long been inseparable and have become part of our lives.In the most hesitant period of my life, only she faithfully accompanied me.So many beautiful days and nights spent together have become unrepeatable memories in life.Now, she was forcefully dragged away from me and gouged out of my heart.That person is not only a betrayer of feelings, but also a robber, a devil, a murderer, and an executioner! The door was knocked again, I couldn't bear it any longer, I pulled it open, ready to yell at him recklessly, to hell with my demeanor and self-cultivation, at this moment, I have the heart to kill Gao Ziqi! But it wasn't Gao Ziqi standing outside the door, but Xia Jiuwen and Lan Gezi. Too much force, too much excitement, I couldn't put my face down. Jiuwen asked with concern: "I just passed by here and heard a voice inside, so I guessed it was you. Are you okay? Are you crying again?" "No, who said I was crying?" I retorted while wiping my tears. Blue Pigeon smiled "ha": "I'm becoming more and more a star, even if someone catches me right away, I'm capable of denying it." I smiled shyly and turned to let them into the room. "Sorry, it's dirty and messy here, and I don't know where to let you sit." Jiuwen looked around and found that he couldn't take a seat, so he simply said, "We're going to Fenxiang for tea, let's go together." I shook my head: "No, I don't want to go anywhere, I just want to stay here for a while." "Go, go." Lan Gezi persuaded attentively, "It's better to meet by chance than to invite each other. We haven't seen each other for a long time, let's catch up. Is it because the show is over, and you won't recognize me as the emperor anymore? Be careful, I ordered Spoiled your face too." Jiuwen laughed. I had no choice but to agree. Jiuwen then said to Lan Gezi: "You still have a way." His eyes were full of appreciation. Suddenly, I suddenly understood.It's no wonder that when we met today, I felt that the blue pigeon was different from usual. It was much more gorgeous and lively, and the crystal light on its face could not be achieved only by cosmetics.But Xia Jiuwen was obviously constrained, hesitating and ambiguous. It turned out to be like this. For a moment, I couldn't tell what it was like.It's been a while since I've seen Jiuwen. Although I never thought that he would be single forever for me, but the transference was so fast, but it was unexpected, and I couldn't help but feel a little bit disappointed.But when I thought about it again, it made sense.A beautiful woman like Lan Gezi dangled in front of her eyes every day, even Iron Man was moved.Perhaps the two of them became close during my illness. Having figured this out, I smiled and cupped my hands: "It turns out that the two of you are already in love, congratulations, but when are you going to hold the wedding?" Blue Pigeon blushed, uncharacteristically reserved and indifferent, and twisted my arm: "You ghost." Xia Jiuwen stood aside and just smiled, as if he was relieved. I'm glad, fortunately, to tell the truth, so as not to embarrass everyone. Because of this surprise, we drank tea and chatted this afternoon, and the conversation was very pleasant.Seeing Xia Jiuwen and Lan Gezi's entangled eyes, their gluey happiness, I don't feel jealous, I just feel happy, and I sincerely wish them well. The blue pigeon in the middle went to the bathroom once, and Jiuwen took this opportunity to ask me: "Are we still good friends?" "forever." "Yan'er, thank you, I will never regret loving you." It's hard to come by.I have seen at least a dozen or so men who, after failing to pursue their girlfriend, turn around and complain to the person next to them: That woman is so unflattering, I actually didn't fall in love with her, in the past, she was just being self-indulgent. At that moment, I used tea as wine, and sincerely said to Jiu Wen: "Jiu Wen, I wish you well." After another week, my colleague sponsored the formalities, and finally decided to return the hut on West Street. The owner said regretfully: "I heard that this place will be remodeled, and West Street will be demolished soon. You are probably the last occupant of this house." A day later, he called me again: "Miss Tang, can I trouble you to come again?" I was surprised: "Is there a problem with the rent? Haven't I already moved all the luggage?" But the landlord said, "No, it's not luggage, it's a person." It was Gao Ziqi, who was sitting in front of the door with a bottle of wine in his arms, drunk as hell.Seeing me, I just repeat one sentence wordlessly: "Yan'er, listen to my explanation, don't hate me..." I sighed and wanted to leave him alone, but the landlord stood by and watched curiously, so I had to help him into the house and bring him a glass of water. "Are you sober now? Please go when you wake up." I was a little annoyed.Forgiving him is one thing, but being kind to him is another. Gao Ziqi sighed, "Yan'er, I don't want to see you smiling at me again in my lifetime." "My smile means nothing to you." "No. You're Del's best friend." The mention of Daier immediately made my nose sore. Ziqi said: "Believe me, I love Dai'er, my love for her is no less than her love for me, but my pressure is much greater than hers..." I interrupted her: "You have no right to love her at all." "I'm not qualified." Gao Ziqi wiped his tears with his sleeve, the handsome and unrestrained person he was back then was completely gone, now he is just a slovenly and sad person. I can't help but soften my heart.Of the two people who loved each other sincerely, one was already dead, so there was no reason to force the other to be buried for her. Ziqi cried: "Such a lovely person, beautiful, romantic, and passionate. Now that I have met her, how can I not fall in love with her? I told her that I was married, and I did not lie to her." , but she said she didn't care. I thought, well, since everyone has made it clear, there is no burden. But I didn't expect that the deeper the love for each other, the deeper the pain. So I don’t feel guilty. So I broke up with her later. It’s not that I don’t love her, it’s that I’m too tired. I really want to end. I didn’t know she was pregnant, she didn’t tell me..." "But what if she told you? Would things be different if she told you?" Ziqi was suffocated, and his eyes were even more dazed, "I don't know. I haven't thought about it. I'm just an ordinary person, and I'm not the only one like me, but why did I encounter such a tragedy... ..." I look at him.Yes, he is right, he is not a big villain, he is just a layman without responsibility.But in this world, there is no blood feud or heinous crime that is not shared by all, there are some, they are just these mediocre, vulgar, selfish common people who swarm up like flies when they see beauty, and run faster than flies when trouble arises. Everyone is fast, and when the matter is over, he plays Baoyu crying spirit with alcoholism and tears, and then masturbates with it for the rest of his life: I am an ordinary person, but because of an extraordinary love experience, my whole life It's different anyway... I loathe them.However Del... Qin Yue said that since Dai'er still cared about Ziqi at the last moment of her life, she would never hate him. If I hated him for her, it would be a failure of her love. A Dill who reads and reads cannot hate her lover. Dai'er always thinks I'm harsh on Ziqi.If she sees Ziqi so sad and crying, but I still don't let her go, I will definitely not be happy. I sighed, and finally said: "You don't have to explain anything to me, because Dai'er has never hated you. If she is alive in heaven, she will only bless you and bless you forever." Gao Ziqi looked up at me suspiciously, I nodded and smiled at him. Yes, I finally smiled again.For the first time in a long time, I laughed from the bottom of my heart. Let the hatred end, let the tragedy end.A smiling person is beautiful, a smiling world is beautiful... It was a night where the clouds were light and the wind was clear, and the moon was like a wash. I walked up the city wall under the reflection of the stars all over the sky. Qin Yue waited for me at the head of the night city as always, his armor was like a statue, tall and firm. He is my eternal God. "Now, forget about the hate?" he said. "I guess, I'm still learning." I walked over to meet him. "Qin Yue, why do I keep asking me to learn to forgive? Why can't I teach the world not to betray, so that there is no need for forgiveness? Why are there so few people in this world who know how to respect feelings? Why do men no longer take care of their women as their duty, but Want to make them cry or even die?" "Perhaps, all things in the world have the law that everything must be reversed. The human heart is the same. When the material is extremely rich, the emotion is poor. But I believe that the world is not old, and the human heart is eternal. As a human being, there will always be people who respect feelings as gods, and there will always be real men and women who make everything in the world follow the proper balance of yin and yang, and the cycle goes on and on forever.” "But I've never seen a real man except you." "There will always be. Since there is a real woman like you in the world, there must be a real man again." "A real woman? Me?" "good." "But I'm not beautiful, nor gentle enough, and I have many shortcomings..." Qin Yue smiled: "A real woman is not equal to a perfect woman. You once mentioned the statue of Venus to me. Maybe Venus is beautiful, but what contribution does a beautiful woman with a broken arm have to human beings?" ?A real woman should be healthy, true, upright, and full of love. She has the most innocent respect and trust for the whole world and all life. She must know how to be grateful, refuse arrogance, and treat hurts with forgiveness and gentleness. Even if she lives in the most complicated world, she still has a childlike heart, and everyone will be happy knowing her..." The little prince said: "You will be happy to know me. You will always be my friend. You will want to laugh with me. Sometimes you will open the window unconsciously for joy. Your friends will look at you strangely, smiling and looking up at the sky. Then you can say to them: 'Yes, the stars always make me laugh!'  …” The wind blows, and Dai'er chuckles like a silver bell. I looked up and wondered which star in the sky Dai'er's soul was inhabiting at the moment. Did she see me under the starlight and miss her friendship forever? Suddenly I staggered, and I fell backwards, screaming instinctively: "Qin Yue, save me!" As a soldier, Qin Yue was well-trained and helped him in time. Our hands, our hands cross the air. At that moment when they had clearly grasped each other, they clearly missed it.I missed a thousand years! I fell hard and stared at him with wide eyes in disbelief. This is our first handshake, but I hold a handful of emptiness. I see! I finally know that he is not a mass of ice, nor a piece of iron, he is nothing, a piece of nothingness.too cruel! Qin Yue looked back at me miserably, completely overwhelmed by the unexpected reality.The infinite pain in his eyes gradually became hollow. I was suddenly terrified, I knew I was going to lose him, so I called: "Qin Yue!" But he has refused to respond. He is a real man who regards protecting women as his bounden duty.He once gave his life to defend the territory, but today, today is not Qin Cheng's era.There are no wars in peaceful years, and men are no longer needed to fight bloody battles for their women. What they want is just a little tenderness, the care of daily necessities, but Qin Cheng, seeing his beloved woman fall down, Not even able to reach out to help. This kind of reality was no longer acceptable to Qin Yue, his world was shattered at that moment.He looked at me again, and I saw desolation in his eyes.Then, he turned around and left. I yelled his name sadly: "Qin Yue!" No, my love, you can't just walk out of my life like this.I jumped up, my ankle felt a tearing pain, and I fell back on the ancient city wall.Qin Yue!I wept bitterly as he drifted away in the moonlight until he finally disappeared. I beat the city bricks in despair and cried bitterly. Qin Yue once said, "We fight to protect women. This is a man's bounden duty. However, I haven't had time to really know a woman and fall in love with her vigorously." "If many years later, there is a girl who is pure and kind, like the bright moon. She will appear on this city wall and read my blood-soaked name under the moonlight. At that time, my spirit will be reborn on this city brick , love her life and death." Qin Yue also said: "When I was learning art from Teacher Shangguan, Wan'er was still in her infancy. The teacher once joked that she wanted to marry Wan'er to me." "Before the teacher died, he ordered me to take good care of Wan'er. But that autumn, I died in battle and didn't even have the chance to see Wan'er again. This incident is still a matter of regret to me." ... I know that now Qin Yue has finally fulfilled his vow, left with the greatest satisfaction and the most painful regret, and will never see me again! He already has my love, but he is unable to afford this love.All the emotions and commitments in life must be carried by life itself, but Qin Yue has the most noble character and the greatest heart in the world, but he has no life.So he had to leave! Only leave! Under the stars at night, the moonlight shines like a wash, illuminating the name "Qin Yue" on the city bricks.Pain and despair came flooding in like a tide, and I couldn't resist it.The fact that I will never see Qin Yue again is something I have never even dared to think about, but now it is lying in front of me in such a cruel and sudden way.The person I love the most, the great soul who changed my whole life, just walked out of my field of vision and my life step by step in despair. Qin Yue!My heart was pierced like a knife, and I passed out...