Chapter 9 Serpent's Mission

It is sad for a person to have a secret but not enough time to say it, but it is even more sad for a person who has a secret and the opportunity to say it, but is not allowed to say it out. Su Mu finally understood that what is more painful than poverty is lovesickness, and what is more painful than lovesickness is forbearance. Forbearance's love is like a sword that can't be pierced, it can only reach into one's heart, leaving bloodstains; and forbearance's secret is more like thousands of sharp arrows with barbs, ten thousand arrows piercing the heart, life Better to die.

Su Mu endured the pain of thousands of arrows piercing his heart every day, surrounded by brocades and emerald greens, surrounded by paper and gold, withered and dejected. When a person falls in love with another person, it is a debt owed to this person in the previous life.Su Mu believed it now.He owed Xue Bingchan too much, and it was not enough to repay it with the pain of a lifetime, and he had to advance it to the next life.This is the cycle of love. How many reincarnations will he be able to join hands with her again, and smile at each other; He began to develop a habit, every day when he had time, he drove to the downstairs of Bingchan Building, staring at the windows of Xue Bingchan in a daze.

Even if one cannot see her, it is good to look at her window. If you love someone deeply, you will love everything related to her, including the windows of her office. Now, for Su Mu, the most beautiful scenery in the world is the window of the general manager's office on the top floor of Bingchan Building. The world in that window is Su Mu's paradise. Xue Bingchan was also looking at the same window. The windows cut the landscape into squares. There are mountains in this block, trees in that block, and the top of a building in the corner block. On the top of the building, there is a flag swaying in the wind, and birds are flying Walking between cubes is like people visiting from room to room.

Xue Bingchan watched all this quietly, and the memories in her heart were also small pieces, but they could not be connected into a landscape.Perhaps, a bird will have to wear them. She thought that the snake-man Zhuyeqing was that bird. Ever since she ignited the ambergris that Zhuyeqing gave her, her life has been completely changed. She seems to have two selves. One lives in the modern age and is the general manager of Bingchan Real Estate Company; The infatuated and hard-working princess, who lived a life of ups and downs and encountered inhumane situations, fell in love with the cruelest and most ruthless gambler in the world——Su Muzhe.

She began to have hallucinations more and more frequently, often doing things well, suddenly there would be many inexplicable thoughts in her mind, and some memories that did not belong to her suddenly hit her, making her feel miserable and even painful. The pain gradually became a scar, separating her from Zhong Lai. She has been in a lukewarm relationship with Zhong Lai for two years, and in private, it's not that she hasn't hoped that he will have further performances.However, when Zhong Lai finally proposed to her formally, although she had expected it, when it happened, she still felt it was sudden and hesitant.

If you consult a psychologist, they may say that this is due to girls' reserve.All women will regard themselves as Chang'e in the moon, and no matter who they marry, they will feel that they have fallen into the mundane world by mistake and married off. Or it can be said that because of romance, women always like to fantasize. Love is a good novel, but marriage is a movie made from a novel, making all fantasies come true and finalized.Women like to watch movies, but they are afraid of the kind of loss after watching the movie.Because ideals are always more beautiful and colorful than reality.

We are all.Not quite right.Since childhood, Bingchan has always been more mature and rational than girls of the same age.For her, love has always been regarded as a part of the future of life, and it is closely related to career. Marriage is like running a company, which needs to be managed.She doesn't believe in unrequited love, and scoffs at the love dreams of ordinary girls. She doesn't even like watching romance movies. Her best pastime is Jim Carrey and Zhou Xingchi, absurd but relaxed. But hallucinations and dreams made her different.It was the man in the dream who disturbed her usual calm state of mind, making her suddenly yearn for love, ideals, adventures, and all unrealistic things...

"Manager, your mysterious breakfast is here again." Secretary Jia Jia knocked on the door and came in, interrupting her meditation. Xue Bingchan shrugged, showing a trance smile: "Or was it sent by that little boy?" "still." "Still refused to say who asked him to deliver it?" "Still." Jiajia put down the egg tart, "Do you want to bet, if you really want to know, I have a way to get that brat to tell me." Bingchan shook her head: "He must feel very happy and excited when he keeps the secret. If we use adult cunning to deal with him, it will not only be unfair to him, but also make him break a dream and doubt himself."

Jiajia frowned beautifully, as if she didn't understand what the manager was talking about. Bingchan shrugged again: "Let us keep this secret with him. Quandeng is a cute game." "The person who delivered the egg tower really has a heart," Jia Jia said enviously, "If someone treats me like this, I will rush over without hesitation and immediately drag him to the church to get married." Bingchan smiled, and deliberately said: "Don't think so romantically, maybe it's done by the PR department of a cooperative unit, I want to give some small favors as emotional investment first, and then propose a very harsh cooperation terms, and go for a long time to catch big money." fish."

"Wow, even a public relations person, if he is willing to pay such careful attention to all your hobbies and habits, he will probably fall in love with you." "Jiajia, tell me, what does it mean to truly fall in love with someone?" Xue Bingchan actually discussed the love issue with the secretary with great interest. "You're asking the right person." Jiajia is a typical gossip girl among modern crushes. She is used to the strictness and dignity of her boss, and it's rare to see a fairy who can move her heart. She is willing to talk to her about topics other than work. He was elated, and his eloquence was a hundred times more fluent than usual in answering real estate business. It was a witty line: "If you fall in love with someone, you will suffer from lovesickness syndrome, you will be distracted, you will have trouble sleeping and eating, and you will dream of him every night. He is sad, always wants to cry when thinking of him, often has fantasies in his mind, and feels wronged..."

all hit.Xue Bingchan was in a daze.What she said seemed like what she said to Su Mu, but it didn't seem to be the case. "I'm in a daze for no reason, no matter what irrelevant topics I hear, I still have to get entangled with him..." Jia Jia continued to talk, "...I mentioned him for no reason, said his name dozens of times when I had something to say, and said nothing when I had nothing to do. More than a dozen times, I always just wanted to be with him, and I always felt that there were a lot of things to say to him, but when I really said it, I felt it was all nonsense, and I never said what I should say... When did I feel that I had finished talking, two people It's really over, and it's time to break up." Bingchan was surprised: "Don't you feel tired after talking so much?" "That, that, this is another one, that is, you will never feel tired when you are with the person you love, but when you leave him, you say you are sleepy and tired, and you want to sleep. When I was lying on the bed, I couldn’t fall asleep, I tossed and turned thinking about him, and I was just anxious to see each other again at dawn.” Finally, Jiajia stopped talking and looked at the manager curiously, “Miss Xue, have you ever tried to fall in love?” "What about you?" Bingchan passed the ball back, "You are so experienced, you must have tried it ten times or eight times?" "Ten times and eight times no, it's indispensable to go on and on, and I have more job hunting experience than me." Jiajia laughed crisply, like a flower. Bingchan looked at her and realized for the first time that her secretary was actually a pretty girl.Perhaps, when every young girl talks about the topic of love, she will suddenly possess a stunning beauty. At the same time, she suddenly remembered clearly that she once loved someone, deeply, deeply.He looked at her, and she was the flower that bloomed brilliantly under the sunshine; when he turned his back, she withered—— She clearly remembered that it was the eve of the Spring Festival. "With the sound of firecrackers, thousands of households enter Tusu." According to the festival, on this day, every household must prepare pepper flower wine. Drink together and congratulate. Li Shizhen contained Chen Yanzhi's "Small Prescription", which described in detail which medicines there were and how much each medicine cost. On New Year's Eve, the medicines were put into bags, put into well water by hanging strings, and soaked overnight.In the Spring Festival, the medicine is taken out and fried into wine, and the whole family drinks it from young to old, which can cure all diseases. The host family is a famous family and pays special attention to etiquette.Naturally, it is indispensable to make medicine according to the prescription.That medicinal wine is a fine wine for holding a grand event in the gambling world.And Bingchan, in addition to wearing white dance clothes, "Miao Duo Qi Yan Song Green Wine", also has to act as a chess player and become the bet in this "six tournaments". That morning, she took a wooden basin to the well to get water and medicine, but happened to meet Su Muzhe who was being pestered by a boring village woman. She relieved him of his embarrassment and drank his horse, and he promised to repay her. The way to repay her is to win her in the "Six Bo" competition, and then give her back her freedom. At that moment, she looked up at him like looking at Yunni in a severe drought. That feeling was like being alone in the boundless wilderness, there was no one around, and there was no sound at all, but the sunlight penetrated her body in an instant, illuminating her transparently. She saw herself and her heart clearly at this moment like never before: I fell in love with him! Love makes people feel full, that the whole body does not exist, the cavity is empty, but the sun shines on her, making her feel the existence of herself, the existence of the soul, and love. She was stirred by this love, saw her soul dance in the sunshine, and when one person fell in love with another person, she would have an epiphany about the true driving force of the earth's rotation-that is love. It is love that makes the sun warm, it is love that makes the moonlit night gentle, it is love that makes the rivers run endlessly, it is love that helps human beings thrive. She was intoxicated and still in this love, feeling the waves of emotion coming at her like waves, and she was moved by the shock, which gave birth to a new self in her. But when the agitation faded, as the tide recedes from the beach, she grew pale, for she was aware of pain as well as love—her love for him was hopeless, nothing at all. The distance between her and him is as far as the sandy beaches and islands in the ocean! Nothing to save! Xue Bingchan pressed her chest, feeling a dull pain there. She was a little afraid of the flood of memories, eager to escape quickly; but she was unbearably curious, eager to see through the complete story, and to experience that painful and lingering romance again. "Jinse has fifty strings for no reason, and one string and one column misses the year. Zhuang Shengxiao dreamed of butterflies, and Wang Dichun's heart entrusted cuckoos. There are tears in the moon and pearl in the sea, and the sun in Lantian is warm and the jade produces smoke.This feeling can be regarded as a memory, but it was already at a loss at that time. " What are those haunting past events? She finds Zhuyeqing and proposes to meet Su Mu again. But why meet?Just for the end of the story, or to make a break between him and Zhong Lai? Su Mu and Zhong Lai, two people whose superficial conditions seem to be very different, in terms of reputation and ability, Su Mu will not be Zhong Lai's opponent.But if Su Mu is willing to confess, Xue Bingchan is happy to give him a chance to compete fairly. However, Zhuyeqing actually said to her: Su Mu didn't see her. Su Mu, who once begged for nothing to see him and couldn't even call the police to make him retreat, when Xue Bingchan offered to meet him, he actually said he didn't want to see her.It's so unreasonable! Bingchan could hardly believe her ears: "Is this what Su Mu meant?" "Of course," Zhuyeqing said with a hint of exasperation, "It's not his idea, could it be mine? I wish you could meet soon." "Then why?" Bingchan suddenly thought of a question, "Zhuyeqing, why are you so enthusiastic about me and Su Mu?" Zhuyeqing suddenly felt shy, a kind of shyness of being peeked into the secret, which made her blush. Who blushes at the sight of a snake? "Miss Xue is really smart," she said, laughing in embarrassment at the same time, "If it were Su Mu, that idiot, I would never have thought of asking this question." "Why exactly?" Bingchan urged. "Actually, I'm helping you for my own sake," Zhuyeqing pondered, "My ancestors once made promises to your ancestors, but they broke their promises. Therefore, not only Su Muzhe owes you, but our Zhuyeqing family owes you too. You, the fate of our three families is linked together, only when the grievances between you and Su Muzhe are settled, our sins will be considered complete." Xue Bingchan recalled that dream, Zhao Jieyu and the snake man Zhu Yeqing in the dream, "You are the offspring of that snake man." "Zhuyeqing sees the princess." Zhuyeqing folded her hands, and suddenly made a big bow and knelt down. Xue Bingchan hurriedly helped her up, her mind became more and more in a trance, and she almost blurted out the sentence "free from courtesy and peace".What is this evening?Where is this place?In the distance, there is another faint sound of the flute, accompanied by Zhu Yeqing's detailed explanation of the root cause—— Everyone has flaws, even snakes have seven inches. The seven inches of Zhuyeqing's family lie in their debts - owed to Zhao Jieyu. Snake people can deceive, mislead and harm others, but they cannot deceive themselves or others.They can't have the slightest hypocrisy when they promise themselves, and they can't break their vows by themselves. However, Zhu Yeqing, the snake man who drank Zhao Jieyu's blood, broke his oath. She promised to keep Xue Bingchan's life safe, but she lost her. May is the day when snakes shed their cicadas once a year.That day, she searched for a cave to practice.The entrance of the cave was too small, although it was hidden, it was damp and narrow, so she had no choice but to put the baby princess in the entrance of the cave. It was an extremely painful transformation, just like Zhao Jieyu's pregnancy.The difference is that Jieyu exhausted her life after the birth of her daughter, while Zhuyeqing finally managed to shed her snake body and walk out of the dark cave into a slender girl. However, the little princess was gone. Zhuyeqing, who had just left the customs, was almost paralyzed from shock, and her soul was scattered. You know, she completed her transformation by relying on Zhao Jieyu's blood. Losing half of her real body made it impossible for her to achieve true Nirvana. From then on, her whole life of cultivation was spent searching for her mission, her true self, and her creditor. Only by finding Xue Bingchan, protecting her, maintaining her, and fulfilling her oath, can she be successful, and from then on, she will get rid of the history of snake people from generation to generation and become a real person. She took out her mirror, searched and searched, and illuminated all living beings. Finally, one day, when she saw Su Muzhe, she saw a glimmer of life.The mirror told her that if she found Su Muzhe, she could find the grown-up little princess. So she managed to make friends with Su Muchai, and generously gave him the mirror, hoping that one day he would use this mirror to look at Xue Bingchan, and then she would naturally follow the snake line and fulfill her wish . However, she never thought that Su Muzhe really found Xue Bingchan, but only regarded her as an unknown little maid, and never thought of using that mirror on her.A good demon mirror was given to him, but he only knew how to use it to identify opponents and speculate to win.As for Zhuyeqing, although she often visits Su's mansion and is often close to Xue Bingchan, she has never had the chance to meet each other by accident. What's more unexpected is that in order to further please Su Muzhe, she invented Wangqing San for him, but this time, Su Muzhe used it on Xue Bingchan, it's like inviting you into the urn.Later, when Zhuyeqing saw the tear in Su Muzhe's heart, she felt sorry for it, but she never thought that the poor little maid who lost her soul was the princess she had been looking for for many years. Soon, a fire broke out in the Su Mansion, and Xue Bingchan disappeared in the fire and turned into a butterfly.At that time, Zhuyeqing was recuperating with her eyes closed, when she suddenly felt a sharp pain in her chest, as if she had been poisoned with realgar wine, she was twisted beyond human shape, and almost lost her true energy. In a coma, she saw Zhao Jieyu standing in front of her completely naked, and said coldly: "You failed me and didn't take care of my daughter." That night, after Zhuyeqing gave birth to her second child, she was exhausted. From then on, each generation of Zhuyeqing repeated Zhao Jieyu's fate, and could not escape the doom of life and death.No mother of Zhuyeqing has the opportunity to see her daughter grow up. The birth of a new generation will always mean the death of the previous generation, which cannot be reversed. This became the greatest sorrow and the most unspeakable pain for the Zhuyeqing family. Only when he finds Xue Bingchan, picks up his promise again, follows her, and protects her, can he recognize his ancestors and return to his clan and fulfill his promise. The secret was not finally revealed until the tenth generation of Zhuyeqing practiced into a crystal ball—it was the crystal ball that reenacted the story of Su Muzhe and Xue Bingchan, so that Zhuyeqing finally understood the true identity of the little princess and Zhuyeqing's true identity. The ancestors once committed the unforgivable sin of digging their own graves. Thus, a new round of searching began... "Little princess, do you understand now?" Zhuyeqing started from the beginning and sighed sadly, "Su Mu's sufferings in this life are all because of your refusal to forgive, only you calmly forgave everything Su Muzhe did to you in the previous life , Su Mu in this life can change his luck, and I can no longer suffer from reincarnation." "It's easy. You bring Su Mu here, and I'll tell him face to face, just forgive him." "Thank you, princess," Zhuyeqing saluted again, but with a solemn expression, "However, the matter is not as simple as you imagined. It is not Su Mu in this life, but Su Muzhe in the previous life that needs to be forgiven. Princess, there are only you and Su Mu. Mu Zhe reconnects, and during this process, he takes the initiative to remember all the past events, and truly forgives from the bottom of his heart, only then will the curse be eliminated and the merits and virtues will be completed.” "Remember everything?" "All." Zhuyeqing said solemnly, "The process may be painful, but you must ensure yourself that you can treat those memories calmly and forgive them. Only in this way can a circle be drawn completely." Encounter only refers to the experience that happened to oneself, what happened to others is just a story. In other words, what Xue Bingchan wants to forgive is not the hero Su Mu in the story, but Su Muzhe's actual tragic memory.She must empathize with all the past events, be personally on the scene, become one with the little princess Xue Bingchan in her memory, and then calmly accept and forgive the tragic experience of becoming a maidservant.This process is actually quite difficult and cruel. However, Su Mu, who has been burdened with the sins of the past life and has been making atonement for this sinful relationship, is it even more tragic? "Since this matter is so important to Su Mu, why doesn't he want to see me?" Xue Bingchan asked, she became more and more curious about Su Mu. "Who knows what's going on in that idiot's mind!" Zhuyeqing complained angrily, "He said that you will have such good luck if you forget about him, if it reminds you of everything before, maybe your career will not be so smooth So he said, he would rather be unlucky for the rest of his life than drag you into the water. But he never thought that this is not his business alone, it also involves our Zhuyeqing family!" "He said that?" Bingchan was moved.People who are unlucky to this point even think about other people's luck. It is conceivable that Su Mu cares about himself. "Do you know where he lives? If he doesn't come to see me, I'll go find him."