Chapter 13 revenge

After the ups and downs, it is calm, but it does not mean that the rain is over. Without waiting until the next morning, Xu Feng regretted it almost immediately.Falling asleep in the arms of a lover until dawn is an absurd plot that can only be found in film and television dramas.A man's impulse is sometimes only for a few minutes, but a few minutes of impulse can ruin a lifetime of happiness. Xu Feng's face was as cold as iron, and the bottom of the pot was as black.He looked coldly at the disheveled walnut, with remorse, intolerance, irritability, and disgust in his eyes. He didn't know whether he hated himself or the walnut: "What should I do?"

"Yeah, what should we do?" Walnut's face is full of peach blossoms and spring breeze, she is full of rural views of right and wrong - as long as a man and a woman do that, they are considered husband and wife, and the man has to marry This woman, this woman is this man. "Brother Xu, I'm yours." She spoke a line that was most often said by rural girls for thousands of years, and said it tenderly and firmly, "What should we do now? How can we tell Sister Lu? " "You can't say it!" Xu Feng shouted decisively, "You can't tell Chen'er, you can't let Chen'er know, you can't tell Chen'er!"

The four "can'ts" are actually just one sentence, but they are more affirmative, more decisive, and more inviolable when they are said again and again.Xu Feng looked at Walnut, and he fully understood what he did wrong, and how to remedy it now. "Walnut, tell me, what can I do for you? Introduce a job? Give you money? I can do whatever you want, except for one thing: I will not be separated from Chen'er." "You don't like me?" Walnut was dizzy, she was already his, but he didn't want her, how could she live? "You don't like me, why...you want my body again?"

Xu Feng said in his heart: I don't want it, but you want to give it.But he couldn't say it.In any case, he did the wrong thing, and he should always bear the responsibility.He is also willing to pay any price, except - to let Chen'er know.If Chen'er found out, she would never forgive him.And he couldn't lose Chen'er.For more than ten or twenty years since childhood, Ai Chen'er has been his only goal in life. Even though he has resentment and dissatisfaction, it does not mean that he is willing to give up Chen'er. "Walnut, it's my fault, I admit it, and I'm willing to do anything to make it up, but I can't let Chen'er down."

Walnut's entire world collapsed. The great joy just now and the huge blow at this moment tore her heart apart. Brother Xu, the greatest, most glorious and most correct brother in her mind, became a devil in an instant, the most terrifying The most evil and cruel devil!How is this going?He wanted his own body, but he didn't want his own people, his own love, or his own future. He just played with her and destroyed her!Walnut became crazy, she rushed to Xu Feng, wanted to catch him, bite him, kick him, and beat him, but she just knelt down, cried, and begged: "No, brother Xu, you can't let me go, please!" , as long as you are willing to marry me, I am willing to do anything. I will serve you all my life, cook for you, wash clothes, and do anything. I will not quarrel with you every now and then like Miss Lu. Do……"

It's okay if she didn't mention Chen'er, but when she mentioned Chen'er, Xu Feng's eyes turned red, and he shouted: "Don't talk about it! Walnut, I beg you too, I am willing to do anything, as long as you promise not to mention Chen'er." Tell Chen'er about this! You can't tell her! I love her, I only love her, and I will always love her alone, do you understand?" When Tianchi and Cheng Zhifang came back from watching the movie, Walnut and Xu Feng had already negotiated, and the conditions were very complicated and trivial-he wanted to help her find a job with a monthly salary of more than 1000 yuan, and before that, he would first help her rent a house and live in another place. Provide 1,000 yuan of living expenses per month (Hetao himself said that he could continue to live in Ji's house, but Xu Feng insisted on refusing, fearing that Hetao would leak the secret to Tianchi, which would be tantamount to confessing to Chen'er).

The relationship between men and women is probably the ugliest stage at this stage. Ironically, this relationship happened between a man who should have been the most responsible and a girl who was the most simple and simple. After the conditions were negotiated, both of them were a little tired.After Xu Feng exhorted many pale words, he left alone, and Walnut packed up and went to bed crying.And Tianchi came back at this time. Cheng Zhifang escorted her to the door without any excuse to come in for a cup of coffee.Tianchi is quite self-contained, and Cheng Zhifang has never been in a hurry. He has been waiting for these years and doesn't care about waiting for a while.

Walnut didn't think much when they did this before, but today, when they hid in the door and listened to the two people say goodbye, they suddenly felt infinitely harsh.At this moment, she understood a truth: a lady is a lady, and a nanny is a nanny. Even if the nanny steals the lady's man for one night, it is impossible for the nanny to really get the treatment of the lady.Besides, she delivered it to the door herself, so it was even cheaper by three points.She felt pity for herself deeply. Thinking back from her birth to today, she only felt that the world was full of cruelty and injustice.Children nowadays, if others eat meat, if they are vegetarians, they are already suffering, and they never think of starvation at all.

However, Walnut was really poor when he was a child, not only when he was a child, but even now, his family is still poor, with only food for the month.Walnut’s monthly wages are sent back home for the younger brother to study, and his own food and clothing are all from the boss——Tianchi and Chen’er have some old clothes for her that they only wear for one season and then discard. Selling them in the countryside is more expensive than the clothes worn by rural girls during the Chinese New Year. She even thought of some more trivial and commonplace things, such as she saw Tianchi wearing a white cheongsam with a white shawl, Chen'er wearing a gauze skirt over jeans, and sometimes wearing summer boots with a dress.She thought it looked good, so she also tried a red sweater with a red jacket, and also tried wearing a pair of leggings under a skirt, but Chen'er laughed at her for being outrageous and inferior.She is a country person, a little nanny, she does something wrong, and she is born to be laughed at for fun.

Not fair, really not fair.It is because of this inherent injustice that Tianchi can enjoy her service calmly even if she sleeps on the bed, and enjoy Cheng Zhifang's respectful waiting and care; Because she is from the country, and country people are worthless in the eyes of city people.She loved him so humblely and wronged, but she couldn't get any pity, care and tenderness. The little nanny's view of love has always been simple and straightforward, either one or the other, if he can't go to heaven, he will go straight to hell, there is no middle way to turn.The little nanny, Walnut, was driven to a corner. In her simple logic, one iron fact was established: Xu Feng played with her and then abandoned her. , they were all bullying her.

She thought, she had to give a sigh of relief for the rural people, she had to take revenge! Walnut proposed to Tianchi to resign the next morning. Tianchi was a little reluctant, but he didn't keep her. He just gave her an extra month's salary and it was over.From Tianchi's point of view, she is already a healthy and normal person, and she no longer needs a nanny, but because she couldn't bear to dismiss Walnut, she kept her by her side; Er Zexiang came to visit every night, and she was afraid that Walnut would see her Talking to the air is nothing but provoking disputes. Seeing her voluntarily resigning, there is no reason to object. However, from Walnut's point of view, there is more hatred. She wants me to serve you and eat and wear you for so many years, and I have served you from a living dead who can only pant but can't speak to one who can talk, laugh, jump, and dance. You are about to get married and start a family, how much kindness is this?But now that I'm leaving, you just dismissed me so indifferently, how can there be any humanity?Why do you still see me as a human being? In the bottom of Walnut's heart, she has always regarded Tianchi's resurrection as her own credit, almost treating her as a life created by herself.But now, how much she loved her, how much she hates her now.Xu Feng, Chen'er, Tianchi, and even Cheng Zhifang are now her No. 1 enemy in Hetao Tianzi, enemies she would rather sell her soul to the devil to deal with. Tianchi's progress in work has been rapid.However, she is still not satisfied, and has higher requirements for herself. She has already studied design and painting, and now she has added a photography course. After all, she was married to a first-class photographer.However, her tutor is not Lu Yue, but she has specially enrolled in a photography class, and would rather take a long way to go to class every day. This made Cheng Zhifang a little satisfied, and the cold war between the two eased.Cheng Zhifang somewhat gloated and comforted himself: Tianchi lost his father since he was a child, suffered bullying, learned to knock out teeth and swallow blood, and endured everything blindly.The by-product is gradually not knowing how to express their true feelings. At the beginning, Tianchi and Lu Yue got divorced not because of her stinginess, but because of her stubborn personality and unwillingness to explain everything, so that the misunderstanding became deeper and deeper, and finally got out of hand .Now Tianchi is willing to go far and near for him, obviously because he cares about his feelings, and is willing to make compromises for him, so what else does he care about?Although she is no longer the Ji Tianchi with strong love, she is still Ji Tianchi after all. Leaving her and finding another woman, doesn't that mean she still doesn't understand true love?Finding this one, who has gone through vicissitudes, is mature and sensible, has an independent personality and ability, is it much better than a mediocre fan? Cheng Zhifang said to himself: So many people in the world suffer from mental illness, the root cause of which is nothing but greed and never-satisfaction.And he, Cheng Zhifang, should be one of those rare sober and satisfied people. Besides, most of the time, the two of them get along harmoniously. They are not unreasonable young people anymore. They have some experience and knowledge. They are much more mature than ordinary peers, and they know how to cherish everything and live with each other. As long as they are willing to control their emotions and greedy nature a little , it is not difficult to coexist peacefully. A meal is also negotiable: "How about the steak? This restaurant's fillet steak is very famous." "It's all up to you. But the red wine can be omitted. I prefer Baileys." Tianchi occasionally complained: "I jumped from an assistant to an editor in the United States to an editor. Many colleagues couldn't see it, saying that I had means, and they didn't want to see my efforts and achievements." Cheng Zhifang comforted: "Tell them that there are geniuses in the world. It is said that the writer Xilingxue was also born in plate-making." Tianchi laughed: "That said, I still have a lot to do." "Don't pay too much attention to the gossip of irrelevant people, I will support you anyway." Before the wedding, the golden wedding can already be celebrated. Cheng Zhifang even boasted: "Everyone says Xu Feng and Chen'er are a classic couple, I bet we will beat them." Tianchi didn't want to continue this topic: "Chen'er has been away for more than a month, and even Xu Feng has rarely seen each other recently, I really miss them." "Walnut resigned from work, and no one made dinner. Of course Xu Feng refused to come. I passed by 'Xue Nihong' a few days ago, and I stopped by to see him. He has lost a lot of weight." Xu Feng couldn't help but lose weight.He transformed Walnut from a girl to a woman, and from a mortal to a devil in a few minutes.And he himself became Judas wearing the sin, Jesus carrying the shackles, and a lost lamb who was in constant fear. He didn't dare to call Chen'er, and he didn't dare to come to Tianchi's house again. He was even afraid of going to work in "Xue Nihong", wishing he could dig a hole to hide himself.At every moment, there is a huge question mark on him: What if Chen'er finds out? What if Chen'er found out?No, Chen'er must not let Chen'er know! But how can we guarantee that Chen'er won't know about it?Xu Feng thought wildly every night, and even had the idea of ​​killing people to silence him, but of course it was just a flash, he didn't have the courage to do it.He only hoped that Walnut could put forward a more straightforward condition, and then simply disappear from his life from now on, so that he would never see her again. But no, Walnut's conditions were so harsh and trivial, she first lived in the hotel for two days, then moved into the house he rented for her, and waited for him to arrange her future and introduce jobs for her.She called him every three days and asked him to do this and that for her, changing the light bulb today and repairing the faucet the next, making him more capable than Chen'er.If he dared to ask, "Can't you do it yourself?" She would cry immediately and say something like "I gave you my body, please don't do even a little thing", which made him feel like a bucket. Xu Feng remembered what Walnut cried to him that night: "As long as you are willing to marry me, I am willing to do anything. I will serve you all my life, cook for you, wash your clothes, and do anything. I will not be like Miss Lu. That way, I'll quarrel with you every now and then, and don't do any housework..." Hmph, he didn't believe it.Even a domestic chicken flying on a branch can't turn into a phoenix, but she will regard herself as a phoenix, and her posture is far stronger than the real phoenix, and her cry is louder.On the contrary, a natural young lady like Chen'er, no matter in good times or bad times, no matter how angry she is, her temperament is limited, and there is always a measure of propriety.After thinking about it, Xu Feng regretted his recklessness even more. He almost wondered if he ate something with walnuts that day, so he became obsessed with ghosts. He begged all the friends he could, hoping to find a good job for Walnut, but most people shook their heads when they heard the conditions of Walnut. Want a basic salary of 1,000?There is a lack of master of ceremonies in some large hotels, and those who promised to see someone for an interview, but they all declined when they met Walnut, not because of Walnut's bad looks, but because of her eyes that the world owes her three hundred dollars, and her eyes are on her forehead. People can't stand the vigor, so they said to Xu Feng in private: "Where did you invite such an aunt? It's not that she is looking for a job, but we are begging her with a golden rice bowl." Xu Feng had no choice but to raise walnuts first. Anyway, one thousand plus the rent per month is only one thousand and five thousand, and he can get it from east to west. The only thing to worry about is how to hide it from Chen'er That's good.The two parents-in-law started a company together, and all income and expenses are clearly accounted for. He disappears 1,500 yuan a month, which is easy once or twice.However, as of today, we have to take a step forward. Walnut sometimes gets happy, and cooks a table of dishes and invites Xu Feng to drink. Where Xu Feng dares to go, he always pushes back and forth, saying that the company is busy, and that he is asking a friend to find a job for her. Walnut will cry and say sadly: "You forgot about me, you got tired of me so quickly." Xu Feng was so eager to hit the wall, he couldn't figure out why he provoked a walnut, and went on the old road of Lu Yue. Thinking of Lu Yue, he remembered the series of encounters in Tianchi, and couldn't help but break out in sweat.Lu Yue took a model back then, and almost didn't ruin his family. Although Tianchi has come back to life, he is already a family member. Lu Yue himself has never recovered from a setback.Do I have to step on his path today and step into the pit step by step? Sometimes Xu Feng wanted to make a dangerous move, so he simply told Chen'er the truth.He wants to kill and cut, but just that ax is better than the pain of piecemeal cutting now, not to mention he still holds a glimmer of hope: Maybe Chen'er will forgive himself.In this matter, in the end, it still depends on Chen'er's intentions, otherwise, there will always be troubles that cannot be explained clearly.If the husband occasionally cheats and finds his way back, as long as the wife doesn't pursue it, it's not a big deal, right?As long as Chen'er is willing to forgive herself, Walnut's threat will be broken by itself, it's nothing, but give her some money, once it's done, it's over. Thinking of this, Xu Feng was looking forward to Chen'er's return sooner, the matter would be over sooner, and he would die sooner and be reborn sooner. He really had enough of this kind of fearful life. On the returning plane, Chen'er and He Hao sat side by side, both silent. I have only been in Kunming for ten days, and I have traveled to Cangshan and Erhai Lakes together to listen to the evening drums and morning bells. I have also bargained with customers and fought wits and wits. There was a businessman who stole half a day to find special shops in the ancient city... The story of one month seems to be as long as the last life. However, after all, it is only a month, and there must be an end after all. After all, the happy days go by quickly, and the return date is in a blink of an eye, and the return date is the end. What is the difference?In Kunming, we still meet each other like water, and in Dalian we can meet every day, but there is a kind of confusion and melancholy in my heart that the beauty is no longer there, and I can't stop thinking: I went back, woke up from the dream, and he (she) will not be him when we meet again (she) has. The small plane encountered a strong turbulence in the middle and bumped violently. Some children cried loudly, and even the stewardess covered her mouth and ran away. The passengers whispered: "The stewardess is vomiting." The news spread like a gust of wind. In the entire cabin, people were even more uneasy, but He Hao, with a clear mind, turned his head and smiled at Chen'er, and said calmly, "I'd rather hope that the plane has an accident." Chen'er didn't ask why, but she already understood: if something happened to the plane right now, they would die together, and they would never be separated again. She suddenly remembered the dream Tianchi had mentioned, in the dream, a man said to her: I will die with you.And Tianchi replied: I am willing to die for you a thousand times.Tianchi couldn't remember who that vague-faced man was.But now Chen'er suddenly understands: maybe, the man Tianchi dreamed about is not anyone, but just an ideal of love. People always yearn for such a love that promises life and death forever, but knowing that this love is impossible, they would rather die to make it eternal.Ultimate love is incompatible with ordinary life. The peace and prosperity are all-encompassing, but the most difficult thing to achieve is the love in troubled times like Zhang Ailing's. When people deceive themselves, they always like to look to the future.However, she and He Hao have no future. All they have is now. But now, there is nothing. "It's the most difficult thing to keep in the world, and Zhu Yan bids farewell to the old flowers and trees." What is more fleeting and elusive than Zhu Yan and spring flowers is happiness. She turned her head and leaned gently on He Hao's shoulder. During this process, neither of them said a word. The plane stabilized again and landed slowly. The whole city of Dalian was already under our feet. The hills were undulating and rippling, and the crowded streets were interspersed between mountains and seas, as if the leisurely embellishment of small bridges and flowing water. It didn’t have the generosity and boldness of a metropolis, but a bit of the elegance of a mountain village. She has small eyebrows and small eyes.They came back alive after all. Dalian is here, and their time limit is up.Chen'er heaved a long sigh, tears welled up from the corners of her eyes, dripped on He Hao's shoulders, and was absorbed by the canvas shirt immediately.The shirt has recorded Chen'er's tears, so why don't you know? It finally landed on the ground, but a heart was still hanging in the air, flickering.Chen'er and He Hao got out of the cabin one after the other, and they all walked very slowly by coincidence, as if it would be good to delay for an extra hour and a half.When they got to the door, they got up in a hurry, and there was a kind of heroic heroism. Xu Feng had already looked away at the pick-up station, and the two husband and wife met each other with a gentle hug as usual.The movements that were so familiar and smooth in the past are quite unnatural today.When Chen'er fell into Xu Feng's arms, he couldn't help but glanced at He Hao beside him, He Hao quickly turned his head away, but the empty look in his eyes made Chen'er's heart ache a little bit, It was the slightly cold wind that cut a ripple on the lake; Xu Feng lowered his head and refused to look into his wife's eyes, as if he was afraid that she would notice something from it. The two husbands and wives were both pregnant with ghosts, and they both felt a little uneasy. One suggested: "Shall we go to see Tianchi first?" The other immediately agreed: "Okay, long time no see, it would be nice to have a reunion dinner together." They were not in a hurry. Going home, I can delay the embarrassment of being alone for a minute, as if afraid of going to the guillotine. When they arrived at Tianchi's home, the two husbands and wives respected each other as guests, even giving way to each other for a cup of tea.Tianchi made fun of: "This is called respecting each other like guests, right? Shall I lend you a tray and perform a show of raising eyebrows?" Chen'er looked around and said to him: "Where are the walnuts? Why do you want to pour the tea yourself?" Xu Feng's hands trembled, and the tea spilled out.Tianchi didn't realize it, and said with a smile: "She resigned." "How to say well and then resign?" "I also find it strange, but she didn't tell me, so I didn't ask. Everyone has his own ambitions, and it doesn't mean that he will be detained as a babysitter for a lifetime." Tianchi and Chen'er were gossiping, Xu Feng took out a paper towel and wiped the water on the coffee table, wiped and wiped again, sweat protruded densely from his forehead, as if tea had been spilled on his forehead. Cheng Zhifang cooks himself, cooking his specialty dish curry chicken, and his brow is sweating too much.Tianchi came in to help, Cheng Zhifang said: "You should accompany the guests, I'm enough here, the oily smoke is so choking, you just took a shower, after a meal, you have to wash your hair again." Tianchi said: "It has to be washed, cut and cooked, how can you handle it all by yourself? They are not customers, so it's okay." Chen'er was leaning against the door with a cup of tea in his hand and smiled: "You two are like this now, so you are really called raising your eyebrows and respecting each other like guests, right?" Old Cheng chuckled, with a look of complacency that couldn't be concealed. Chen'er said again: "People's blessings for a happy marriage are nothing more than growing old together, but what's the fun in knowing what will happen fifty years ago? Are those fifty years wasted?" Cheng Zhifang laughed: "You are talking about your own feelings? Be careful Xu Feng is anxious." Xu Feng smiled awkwardly, and opened the window on the pretext of being hot, muttering: "It's just summer, and the weather is getting hotter as soon as it says it's hot, as if I can't wait." Tianchi made fun of Chen'er: "You brought Xia Tian back from Kunming." Chen'er turned a deaf ear to it, went out and lay down on the balcony, trying her best to stick her head out to look at the direction of the sunset, with confusion and nostalgia on her face, wishing that hands would grow out of her eyes, grab the tail of the sunset, and prevent it from sinking into the western mountain.Although the sun will rise tomorrow, but tomorrow is not today, everything will always be different. If you go today, you will go, and you will never come back. Once all the good moments become memories, they will never come back. Happiness cannot be repeated. What can be repeated is only the details of life, not happiness. Tianchi peeked at Chen'er's expression, secretly worried.Chen'er is the kind of child who grew up in the most normal family.There is no more normal child than her—her father is a teacher, a veteran teacher who has worked hard in middle school for 30 years; her mother is a doctor and pediatrician, and even her words and deeds have an almost exaggerated enthusiasm and kindness. Children who grow up in such a family should be healthy and bright, but the two brothers and sisters met Ji Tianchi—I don’t know whether it was fate or disaster. Since then, the two brothers and sisters have learned to worry, and the lingering and deep sorrow is like a rainy day. .The elder brother is obsessed with regret and guilt all day long and does not want to make progress, while the younger sister is exhausted for medical expenses and various living bills. All for her. Tianchi felt that he owed Chen'er too much.The older brother who provokes a good friend is a debt, and getting married and divorced is a debt. It goes without saying that it is a debt to sleep for two years and teach your friends to burn out, and teach Lu Yue to lose their bones. owe. But if you don't owe Chen'er, you have to owe Lao Cheng, and the debt is too heavy to bear. Ji Tianchi only wished he could learn from Nezha, pick out the bones to repay his old age, and cut off the flesh and blood to send to Chen'er. In the next life, you are destined to be a cow and a horse. However, in the present and present, there are still worries and worries—the good friend clearly has a knot in her heart. She went to Kunming with He Hao. Could it be that...the marriage between Chen'er and Xu Feng was facilitated by her, and she sincerely hopes They can remain unchanged for fifty years and grow old together.If there is a little bit of misfortune between them, it is more unwilling to see it than she herself goes up the mountain of swords and down into the sea of ​​flames. The setting sun sank little by little until it became invisible, Tianchi said softly: "If you don't want to go home tonight, don't go back, don't be too impulsive, if you have anything to say, think it through before you say it." Chen'er smiled wryly: "Where did you go? Nothing happened." Tianchi stopped talking, and he was really relieved.The two met each other after many days, and they still had no taboos at all, and they finished talking about their most private words at once, but it seemed as if they hadn't started to say anything, and they looked at each other, somewhat in a daze. The dusk was getting hazy, and Chen'er's small face floated in the hazy dusk, with a kind of indescribable beauty.Tianchi couldn't help holding her hand, and called softly: "Chen'er, I just want you to be well." "I know." Chen'er replied.That was all she could answer.However, she herself does not know what is "good". Cheng Zhifang has already found out: "The two sisters talk endlessly as soon as they meet, don't just bully Chen'er, the husband and wife are still better than newlyweds." Xu Feng felt embarrassed when he said it: "What is Lao Cheng talking about? But it's not early yet, so it's time to go back." Xu Feng was planning along the way, should he surrender Walnut to Chen'er in advance?If you confess, is there any chance of leniency?It is too embarrassing to conceal the truth. One is that he himself has never been above Qiqing, and he has no city mansion, so it is not that material;It's not difficult to hide it from her for a day or two, but it's not easy to hide it from her for the rest of my life, and can I keep crawling with this cross on my back for fifty years? However, the development of the matter was far more serious than he imagined, and before he could think about whether he should confess or whether he could be lenient, when the car drove to the front of the house, two policemen came straight up and said, "Are you Xu Feng? Come with us." Walnut actually sued him!The charge is rape!