Chapter 9 the truth came out

Ji Tianchi and Lu Yue sat face to face again. This pair of former lovers, short-lived husband and wife, finally met again in the name of husband and wife after going through so many grievances and separations.However, the way she looked at him was so strange, suspicious, and unwilling to believe. The distance between them is more distant than when they first met under the gable of Kwai Ying Road, far beyond reach. What separates them is not only a broken marriage, a sad past, but also life and death together. Life and death are on the line. She had almost crossed the line before, but now she was finally pulled back.However, she had already forgotten him, so completely and decisively that she left him on the other side of the yin and yang world.

"Tianchi..." Lu Yue whispered, exhaled, but suddenly choked up.He really wanted to hold her in his arms, hold her tightly, hold her tightly, and cry bitterly.This is his relative, this is his first wife, what unforgivable mistake did he make, actually lost her in the journey of life, separated from others, gradually drifted away, and finally went to two extremes.In this life, is there any chance for him to find her again?A few days ago, they were very friendly and happy. She liked to see him. Now that she knew his identity, would she still want to be with him? A glimmer of hope rose in his heart, Lu Yue cheered up, and shouted again: "Tianchi, do you remember?"

"You are... my husband?" Tianchi asked timidly. "Yes. I am. Will you forgive me?" Lu Yue asked hopefully. However, Tianchi shook his head: "I don't remember, it was Chen'er who told me this. Chen'er said, we were once married and then divorced, why?" "You, don't you remember?" "I'm sorry." Tianchi smiled apologetically, such a weak and faint smile, charming and charming, "Lu Yue, did I do something wrong?" Lu Yue was stunned.What did she do wrong?Tianchi, the kind and self-restraining Tianchi, although her appearance has become very different from before, her heart has not changed at all, and she still prefers to blame herself rather than blame others.Married and divorced, her first question was whether she had done something wrong.God knows how perfect she is, how impeccable, she has done nothing wrong.It was he who did the wrong thing, this unforgivable sinner!

However, does he have the courage to tell her all those sinful pasts?Lu Yue was silent, he couldn't speak, he didn't have the courage to tell Tianchi the sad past, he couldn't repeat to her everything he had done to her.During these days, he met Tianchi from time to time, every time he was very excited, but also caused him great pain, because he didn't know what would happen when the truth came out.Now he knows, even if people tell Tianchi that she used to be his wife, she still can't remember the past, she still doesn't want to remember the past! Just because the past was too cruel and unbearable.And only he knows the cruel past.He was speechless.

When Judas knelt before Jesus, even if he was willing to confess his sins, would he be able to calmly repeat those crimes one by one?That would be more painful than Jesus crucified. The cross was not only carried on the back of Jesus, but also nailed to the heart of Judas. It was Judas, not Jesus, who was truly doomed! Lu Yue finally knew that he and Tianchi would never have another chance.Her forgetting is the most complete rejection.Either never mention it, or never know, but now, she already "knows" but still hasn't "remembered", what chance does he have? It's not that he didn't work hard, they met, dated, danced together, and interacted gently like a pair of close friends—if they were really just good friends, it would be fine, but he loved her so much, it was painful and desperate to love her forever .

Despair is his destiny, his cross, he must bear it!And jealousy and betrayal are the vertical and vertical crosses on the cross, binding him, and he cannot be shirked for the rest of his life. "When I think of you, I always think of the sea first. Lu Yue, what is the relationship between us and the sea?" Tianchi asked blankly. Lu Yue was taken aback again.What do they have to do with the sea?Hate that the sea is hard to fill, but they stand on both sides of the sea, looking at each other without knowing each other. He seemed to see how Tianchi stepped into the boundless sea of ​​hatred step by step, and he didn't save her, but just watched her sink—no, he was the one who pushed him into the sea!

He stood up and said sadly: "Don't ask, Tianchi, don't ask, in short, I'm sorry for you. Let's not meet again." He turned his back and walked out staggeringly, with a stooped figure and staggering steps , as if, really nailed a cross on the back. "Brother!" Chen'er was in a hurry, it was not easy to finally reunite the brother and sister-in-law, why is the brother so unbelievable and easily surrendered?She chased out the door and stopped her brother in the corridor, "You left just like that?" "If you don't leave, so what?" Lu Yue asked back. At this moment, he seemed to be ten years old, and he said to Chen'er disheartened: "God is fair, he has given me a chance to bring the world to life." The most precious girl was given to me, but I didn't cherish it. Now, God takes back his gift, how can I complain? Chen'er, I resigned to my fate, I gave up. Since Tianchi has forgotten me, let her Never remember. I have decided to withdraw from her life forever."

"You gave up?" Chen'er called unwillingly, "But where are you going to find me such a good sister-in-law again?" "I don't plan to marry again in the future." "My parents will be so mad at you when they hear this." Chen'er was furious, "You know they want you to remarry Sister Ji." "I have to let my parents down." Lu Yue sighed, "Chen'er, if you were me, marrying a perfect wife like Tianchi and letting her down, forcing her to throw herself into the sea, would you have the face to find her again? ? Do you still have the courage to remarry?"

Cheng Zhifang also chased after him, and he couldn't help being taken aback when he heard this sentence: "You want to never marry for Tianchi?" Lu Yue took a deep look at Lao Cheng: "Old Cheng, you warned me before that I would definitely pay the price for what I did. Now you see, I am already paying the price. Take good care of me Tianchi, I will never bother her again, I would rather live the rest of my life with the memories she gave me." "Patient! You should see a psychiatrist the most!" Chen'er hated iron and steel: "You haven't tried it, how do you know it's okay? You go in and tell her that you still love her, and hope she forgives you and gives you the best of luck." Opportunity, why didn't you say it?"

Cheng Zhifang also rubbed his hands, and said unwillingly: "Lu Yue, if you have something to say, it's better to say it all at once. Since I invited you to see Tianchi, I am sure: Tianchi can bear it." "No need." Lu Yue sighed, "Actually, Tianchi and I have already met before today." Both Chen'er and Cheng Zhifang were shocked: "What? When? Where?" "I met by chance on the road." Lu Yue hesitated to speak, since he had already decided to withdraw from Tianchi's life, why bother to bring up the date these days to make Lao Cheng dissatisfied, he decided to play it lightly, "That day, I was on the side of the road. When I met her, I told her that I was Chen'er's brother and invited her to drink coffee. We stayed together for the whole noon, but I didn't say anything. When I faced her, I couldn't speak. Last time That’s right, it’s still the same today. Chen’er, we’re done, do you know that feeling? Even though I still love her, I’ve been waiting for her to wake up, but now that she’s really awake, when I’m really face to face with her, I found myself speechless. The only feeling is that Tianchi and I have ended our fate, we are finished..."

Chen'er cried, and she watched her brother turn and leave without stopping him.It turns out that sometimes two people break up not because they no longer love each other, but because love has no way out.She sympathizes with Tianchi, and she pities her elder brother even more. After all, that is her dearest elder brother who was born of one mother and has been intimate since childhood.Although, in those days when he was ashamed of Tianchi, she had resented him and hated him, but no matter what, the blood relationship is unbroken. When her brother is sad, her heart will also hurt.But what else could she do and say? Cheng Zhifang was also extremely embarrassed. Among them, his identity was the most complicated. He was a psychiatrist, a client, a friend of Lu Yue, a rival in love, an admirer of Tianchi, and an outsider.No matter which position he stands on, he should show something, but at the same time, there is another layer of identity that makes it inconvenient for him to speak.What's more, now is really not the time to talk, Chen'er is in the midst of disappointment and anger, it is impossible to guarantee that he will not misinterpret his meaning, he does not want to start a war with the good sisters in Tianchi, and become a villain who takes advantage of others' danger Charges; Two Tianchi's memory was forcibly awakened, he had to be alone for a while to reflect, settle, choose and absorb, he could no longer put the slightest emotional pressure on her because of himself. He sighed, and said to Chen'er: "You stay with her well, and I'm leaving too." "Are you going too?" Chen'er was a little scared, "Aren't you going in to persuade her?" "She doesn't need to be persuaded now, she just needs to think about it." Cheng Zhifang said, "No matter what she asks you, just tell her the truth. The matter has come to this point, there is nothing to hide. As for how much you can digest, it's up to Tianchi himself It's gone." Lu Yue left, Cheng Zhifang left, and Walnut also hid in his room and dared not come out. For a moment, the room was quiet, only Tianchi was left blankly looking at Chen'er, his eyes full of surprise and helplessness.After a while, Fang timidly asked: "Your brother seems very sad, isn't it, what did I feel sorry for him before?" This time, even Chen'er couldn't help feeling guilty, couldn't help holding Tianchi's hand with tears in his eyes and said: "Sister Ji, I really don't blame you, it's my brother's fault." Tianchi thought hard, and there were stars twinkling in the sky of memory, but he still couldn't see the moon when the clouds opened. "Wu Zhou and your brother, who is the person I love?" "It's the two of them." Chen'er looked at Ji Tianchi, "You have loved Wu Zhou silently since you were young, and you have loved Wu Zhou for more than ten years; when you were in college, you often asked me to accompany you to the factory to wait for him to get off work. In the afternoon, just to see his back, you looked at him, never dared to call him, I wanted to find him for you, but you refused to let me; Later, Wu Zhou had a car accident and became a vegetable, and his fiancée went abroad , leave him alone, you are by his side, take care of him 24 hours a day, do the dirtiest and most tiring things for him, spend every penny you earn on him, you start a company, It was for him that he worked so hard to establish 'Xue Nihong'; he finally woke up, but the first thing he did after waking up was to ask where Pei Linglong was. He had no idea that during his sleepy days, you How much did he do for him, what did he give, he didn't remember anything, it seemed that he also had an amnesia. Pei Linglong rushed back from England, and they got married. You hide everything in your heart and refuse to show any emotion , but at the wedding, you got drunk and went home alone, crying until the sky was dark..." Chen'er's tears flowed down, and she didn't bother to wipe them off.Tianchi trembled slightly, as if he was listening to another person's story. Many fragments of memories flickered in his mind. There is a terrible secret hidden deep in this narrative, and that secret is getting closer and closer, ready to be revealed. She grabbed Chen'er's hand, gripping it tighter and tighter, she already remembered that gorgeous and cruel wedding, and what was even more cruel was the end of that wedding, which happened at Ji Tianchi's home on Wu Zhou's wedding night things.Those things made her dare not think about them, and she didn't want to face them, not because of how terrible the things themselves were, but because of the consequences of those things, which may be the direct cause of her amnesia.She suddenly felt terrified, so terrified that she gave up: "Chen'er, don't talk, don't talk anymore, I don't want to know what happened next." "No." Chen'er held Tianchi's hand instead, "Sister Ji, it's time to face it, I know you can bear it, you have to be strong, listen to me." She took a deep breath and continued : "That night, my brother went to see you, he found you in your house, you cried to him, read poems to him, told him the story of you from childhood to adulthood, without hiding anything, he hugged you , comfort you, kiss you..." "No, don't say it, don't..." Tianchi's nails almost dug into Chen'er's hand. Chen'er endured, and continued word by word, almost cruelly, persistently, "That day, you possessed each other, and you became my brother's woman. What happened that day changed your life. You accepted your fate and said So you agreed to marry him. You announced the marriage to my parents the next day, and immediately prepared for the wedding..." "I, I..." Tianchi was speechless, Lu Yue once had her virginity, but they were not together in the end.Is it because she doesn't obey women's morals, or is he always abandoning her?Her face was pale, and she muttered to herself, "Why are we getting divorced? What did I do wrong?" "You didn't do anything wrong, Sister Ji, why do you always think that you did something wrong?" Chen'er hugged Tianchi, weeping, "Sister Ji, you are the kindest and most perfect, you have nothing wrong, others are sorry for you, let you down , It’s my brother. My brother doesn’t know how to appreciate, cherish, or tolerate. He’s narrow-minded, petty, and playful. He read the letters you wrote to Wu Zhou. He can’t stand it. He has loved other men passionately. He thinks that kind of love can only be once in a person's life. If you have given that time to Wu Zhou, you will never truly love him again. Even if he can get yours People can't get your complete heart, your original heart." those letters?right?I remember that when she found those letters for the first time, she was also shocked by such a deep love, and even imagined who would have such a passionate love. She read it as a novel, as a biography of boys and girls. Copy, as the highest pursuit and symbol of love.Later she knew, she remembered, she remembered, those letters were written by herself, and she wrote them to Wu Zhou.That kind of love really existed and happened, and the protagonist is herself.How shocked she had been! And if even she herself has to be shocked by such love, then how can Lu Yue, her husband, face this affectionate confession without being moved or angry?Was that why he left her? "It's not just that. It wasn't him who proposed the divorce, it was you." Chen'er shook her head, helplessly, slowly, "Sister Ji, the two of you actually pursue perfection in the same way. He can't stand that you used to be mentally You value other men more, and you can't bear him to take refuge in other women physically." "Other women?" Is there a fourth person in this story?Tianchi almost fainted, her past life was too complicated. "My brother is a photographer. He is very free and easy, but he is often reckless. He had a physical relationship with a female model and lived together. The model negotiated with you and threatened you with pregnancy to force you to agree to quit the love triangle. .You are divorced, but the model, is not with my brother. She is an internationally famous model, and she is still popular. She has no plans to get married, and of course she has never been pregnant. She just refuses to admit defeat , to try and see how much a man can sacrifice for her. My brother has actually seen through this, but he has no face to face you anymore, and can only watch things mess up. He is a coward and has no ability To save your love and happiness, it is he who harmed you and himself." In Wu Zhou's story, Pei Linglong scolded herself as a vixen, the third party who destroyed other people's families; but it turned out that in her own story, there was a third party, a vixen, and she was far smarter than herself , because she successfully broke up her own home. Although Chen'er didn't go into details, Tianchi can already imagine what kind of quarrels, breakups, and mutual hurts she and Lu Yue experienced before the divorce. If it wasn't so painful that she couldn't bear it, how could she choose to close herself in her sleep? Sleeping for a long time and not waking up, even if you wake up, you will not remember? It must be the pain to the extreme, the hatred to the extreme, wishing to die at this moment, wishing to disappear from now on, as if he had never been in this world, never seen this person. No matter if he was the original partner or the third party, he was so useless and failed.Wu Zhou, Lu Yue, she once loved them both, and lost them both!Now, both of them are willing to wait for her, maybe life should have no regrets so far, but why does she not feel complacent at all, but only depressed? "After the divorce, you put all your energy into the work of 'Snow Neon'. Because of your overwork and the pressure of competition, you gradually showed symptoms of trance, and one night half a year later, you worked overtime. When I came back, I probably wanted to go to the beach to relax before returning home, but somehow I went into the sea. Although people on the shore found it in time and were sent to the hospital, they were in a coma for a long time due to the accumulation of water in the brain. It is found that you Some people said, you look like you are walking, and you don’t look like you are going to commit suicide at all, so you didn’t react immediately to save you, which delayed the first rescue..." Chen'er tried her best to narrate the whole story, as if following Tianchi's fate from life to death and back to life, she was so tired that she almost collapsed, "You know the story after that. Anyway, Sister Ji, You didn't do anything wrong, my brother let you down, I'm sorry. But he has regretted it now, no, he regretted it when you got sick, no, he regretted it when he just got divorced..." Chen'er was talking in a hurry, but Tianchi was just at a loss, at first she was in a daze weeping, she was in a daze, then suddenly she smiled. Chen'er was shocked, thinking she was insane.However, Tianchi just said lazily: "So...it's getting late, let's sleep." "Sister Ji..." "I'm fine. Anyway, the worst is over. It's late, go to sleep, you have to go to work tomorrow." Unexpectedly, the last dialogue of the night was Tianchi who came to comfort Chen'er. But Chen'er took this sentence "the worst is over" deeply, she always remembered how miserable she was during Tianchi's comatose two years, no matter what, now Tianchi can talk and laugh after all, and is lively , even if she is crying sadly at the moment, tears are also an expression of life. After this day's ups and downs, she was exhausted, she couldn't help but nodded, pulled the quilt under her neck, and soon fell asleep. This is also the habit she developed when Tianchi was in a coma. She worked hard all day long, only thinking about the night's sleep, falling on the pillow to fall asleep, and regarded it as the only enjoyment in her hard-working life.The exhaustion and emotions made her ignore her friend's true intentions for the first time, and Ji Tianchi wished that she never woke up. All the stories of the "previous life" are finally in front of my eyes. Although I don't remember all of them, it doesn't matter anymore.The important thing is, do you want to continue that story?How to continue? She once loved Wu Zhou deeply, but he had already married Pei Linglong, Tianchi thought he was not Linglong's opponent; she once married Lu Yue, but became a vegetable because of his suspiciousness and betrayal. ——It's hard to say whether I became a vegetative person because of repeating the same mistakes towards Wu Zhou or because of the sadness and despair towards Lu Yue.However, no matter what, she no longer wanted to face these two people anymore. In the dream, that handsome man continued to yell at her, at this moment Tianchi already knew that it was none other than her ex-husband Lu Yue.In the dream, he is not the haggard and forbearing appearance that he sees every day, but he is arrogant and domineering, with no one in his eyes. "Don't mention those models to me anymore." He waved his arms and said, "It's the photographer's nature to love beauty, and it's the model's nature to flatter. Every move of the photographer is to capture beauty, just like the model's Every move is to release the beauty. The more cold and arrogant the expressions of the models on the stage, the more they will discharge. This is their homework, and they have become a habit. They play every minute and every second, especially under the camera. If you It’s a man, if you are a photographer, you will also go into this program, repeating certain processes like completing a rite of passage. Yes, it is repetition, and soon you will get bored, so you get deep, It settles down and matures. At that time, we can talk about what it means to be calm. Those models repeat the same beauty and temptation. Those temptations cannot be resisted by refusing, on the contrary, they are accepted. Accepted, familiarized, and used to it, we became indifferent, and our reason returned to our bodies. Only then did we know how to reject her next repetition. But you, Tianchi, you are different and unrepeatable, just like what I gave Your love, also for the first time, cannot be repeated." He gushed, as if giving a speech of love.Tianchi also clearly felt the coldness and depression in the dream, and his heart was shattered inch by inch during this speech, and it was smashed into powder. Finally, she asked him: "Repetition? Is the child also a repetition?" He was suddenly interrupted, all expressions and movements froze, including the end of the words, they stopped in mid-air and could not come down. Tianchi sighed: "She gave birth to a child for you, isn't this the first time? Is it also a repetition?" No one can be indifferent to a new life and turn a blind eye.Tianchi can't, and Lu Yue can't either.They are destined to separate. Although Chen'er said that everything turned out to be just an illusion, and it was the female model's family, but what's the difference between true and false?She and Lu Yue finally broke up because of this repeated misunderstanding and coldness. She is not Pei Linglong's opponent, nor is she a female model's opponent.As a result of the battle, one is to be smashed to pieces, and the other is to sleep forever. Tianchi really doesn't want to think of all this. She would have forgotten them. She'd rather never remember. Then, she will still have a ignorant curiosity and expectation for this world. It took her two years to wake up again, and she had great expectations and enthusiasm for the new world.But now, I haven't really set foot in the rivers and lakes, I haven't recharged my energy to make a comeback, and I haven't figured out what love is. It's just three tricks and two tricks. Tianchi was deeply tired, and only hoped that after closing his eyes, he would never have to wake up again.The boundless sea swept over again. The woman walked on the sea with the little boy, turning her head and waving to her from time to time.Tianchi murmured: "Mom, take me away." Tears welled up from the corners of her eyes and wet the side of the pillow. Chen'er slept soundly beside her. That night, Pei Linglong and Wu Zhou also had a very heart-to-heart conversation. It was perhaps the most candid conversation the couple had had in three years. Linglong told Wu Zhou: "I know you like Ji Tianchi, and I also know that maybe in the eyes of the world, she loves you more than me, and she is more worthy of your love. But I want to tell you, I love you, but it's different. People express love differently. I really can't do it like Ji Tianchi, who will stay by your side for 365 days and put you first in everything; but I also pay for you and keep festivals for you Yes. You also know that oriental girls are very popular in the UK. During the year you were in a coma, I don’t know how many people have pursued me. There are people from China and the UK. BMWs, Mercedes-Benz and Ferraris honk their horns every day downstairs in the apartment building. Who doesn't envy you? But I still wait for you wholeheartedly. I told myself that if Wu Zhou doesn't die, there is still hope for one day. As long as he wakes up, I will fly back to him and marry him immediately. I am I thought so, and I did the same. In the past three years of marriage, have I ever felt sorry for you?" She was quite right, without half a word.However, no matter how many things she has done, there is one fact that cannot be changed, that is, when Wu Zhou needed her most, she was not by his side; if there is no Ji Tianchi, Wu Zhou would not be where he is today, so I am sorry The conversation itself is superfluous. Both Wu Zhou and Pei Linglong understood this point very well, so she made more and more long speeches to bluff, and he more and more wanted to be concise and concise. "But I have already decided to be with Tianchi. Whatever conditions you have, feel free to ask." "My condition is that you give me back the youth and feelings that were wasted for you." Linglong replied passionately, "I am not making trouble for no reason, nor am I trying to make things difficult for others. But if you want me to make a difference between embarrassing others and embarrassing myself." If I choose, then I will protect myself first. I admit that I am selfish, but all love is selfish, and I cannot see the person I love follow others. And I do this because I still love You; at the same time, I know that you still love me. If it wasn't for Ji Tianchi, we would be a very loving couple. You want to leave me not because you no longer love me, but because there is another choice .Since there is a choice, there is room, Wu Zhou, we have not reached a desperate situation where we must leave." Wu Zhou was at a loss for words, as Pei Linglong said, if he never knew what Ji Tianchi had done for him, then he and Linglong would still be a loving couple.However, there are no ifs in life, Tianchi did pay for him, time, love, money, and even life.And he can't pretend that all this has never happened, and he can no longer ignore his own feelings. He has fallen in love with Ji Tianchi, and he knows very well that this love will always be with him, until old age, until death, and into the next life. "Linglong, I can't say against my will that I never loved you, but the person I really love now is Tianchi. Being together again will be very painful for both of us." "But if I watch my husband go with other women, I will suffer even more. Wu Zhou, I also tell you clearly, as long as I have a breath, I will never let myself be defeated by Ji Tianchi. .You can try to unilaterally apply for a divorce, or you can take her to elope, or you can even kill me to silence..." "Where did you go?" Wu Zhou yelled angrily, "Pei Linglong, don't forget that you are a lady!" "Well said. 'My fair lady, a gentleman is good'. If you can't be a good partner for a gentleman, why bother to be a lady? There is only a thin line between a lady and a shrew, and that line is in the hands of a gentleman! A gentleman connects the marriage line I don’t care, I’m going to tear it apart, am I still afraid of being a shrew?” "Linglong, what exactly do you want?" "It's not what I want, I just want to maintain the status quo, protect our family, and protect my happiness. However, if you want what, I will never agree. Wu Zhou, I know you don't care about anything, no matter what I do You won't even take it to heart. I can't do anything to you, but I will talk to Ji Tianchi again, or several times until you don't plan to do anything." Wu Zhou suddenly felt chills down his spine. "Lady" Pei Linglong didn't say a single dirty word or harsh word, but he already understood her subtext.She will never agree to a divorce, even if she fights to the death with Ji Tianchi, she will never agree to let it go. After sharing the same bed for three years, he discovered for the first time that he was actually a stranger to his wife.