Chapter 6 6. Change your heart for mine

When the daffodils were in bloom, my mother told me that Yizhong was back and would come to pay New Year's greetings tomorrow. I just made a cup of honey juice and fruit tea when I suddenly lost control. I was holding the teacup but couldn’t hold it up, and couldn’t put it down. The Spring Festival is a big festival in China. It is only right and proper for apprentices to pay New Year greetings to their master and mother.When Yizhong was in Xi'an, he used to come here every year, but he has been in Beijing for more than a year, and the sudden reunion seems like a world away. My mother said: "Yizhong's research project in Beijing, the results came out, and three new drugs have applied for patent rights, and he holds a large share. When I come back this time, I want to reopen the Yizhong clinic. The Beijing research institute invested a lot of money." Funding is regarded as a branch in Beijing, and Yizhong is the executive director, this time, the business will really grow."

I finally had to meet him. Saying "have to" may be hypocritical, but if you really want to avoid it, you will always find an excuse to avoid it. But maybe deep down, I didn't want to avoid him. I looked at him greedily, I was so greedy that I felt pity for myself, and I couldn't give up my eyes.He seemed to be getting old, and the deep "Chuan" lines between his eyebrows were newly added, appearing and disappearing from time to time, as if he was about to say something. What makes me sad is that he also looked back at me for a long time, unable to turn his eyes away for a long time.

All the thoughts are vented, at an unguarded moment, when the fireworks are going off one after another, and every family goes to the old to welcome the new, Yizhong and I finally express all our lovesickness clearly for the first time without a word with love. The firecrackers sounded so earth-shattering that anyone with eyes would clearly know what happened in this room. But no one broke. My sister tried her best to make a noise, interposed between Yizhong and me, took the fat baby from Xiao Lizi's arms, laughed and praised, and gave a lot of lucky money.Xiao Lizi taught the baby to bow his hands to say thank you, and taught him to greet his mother-in-law.

Mom laughed, awkwardly and stiffly. Then the banquet started, everyone kept persuading everyone to drink and serve dishes, but the dishes on the table never stopped. Their minds are like rocks, and their eyes are numb. Xiao Lizi quickly said goodbye, dragged Yizhong away, and the family of three walked out the door crowded side by side, even their backs were connected, leaving me alone like a piece of cotton wool, unable to stick together no matter what. My sister took me to the hut and whispered: "So you like big brother?" "Yes." I bravely admitted, "From childhood to adulthood, I have only loved him."

"When did this start?" "Not started." "You mean, you're secretly in love, wishful thinking?" My sister was surprised, "But it's not like, the surname Song obviously has a deep affection for you." "Really, sister, do you really think that senior brother likes me too?" "I'm a person from here, what can I hide from my piercing eyes? Song Yizhong lost his mind the whole night, and it wasn't just me, Xiao Lizi also noticed it, his face was green and white, and he didn't know how to make trouble when he went back tonight." Bai Shao sighed, "Little sister, your love this time is really a bitter pill."

"I have swallowed this bitter fruit for more than ten years, and it has already taken root and sprouted and thrived." "What's so good about big brother?" "What's so good about Ye Zizhen?" I frowned, "I've been with him day and night for a year and a half, and I can't find anything better than Yizhong even after digging hard. Otherwise, maybe I can rein in the precipice." My sister laughed, and happily took out a pen and paper to settle the accounts, counting the love test as a stock market. "Well, for men, there are five scoring criteria for money, power, talent, appearance, and if the full score is 100, then these five items will each account for 20 points. This is Song Yizhong, and this is Ye Zizhen. Let's calculate whose score it is." high."

When Bai Shao was a girl, her dating schedule was full seven days a week, her dancing partner was different every night, and her love life was rich and colorful. However, after marriage, due to the high pressure of work, she suddenly stopped fighting.Now that I have found a good topic on me, I am really good at gossiping. I will write quickly and list items one by one, as if analyzing the stock trend: "Let's count the money first, and the money is on the top. Ye Zizhen must have full marks." "Not necessarily." I shook my head greatly, "Zizhen's money belongs to his family, not earned by him, nor distributed by himself. Yizhong is different. He started from nothing, from an apprentice to the executive director of a large company. , I earn every penny by myself, relying on my real skills and talents. Therefore, Yizhong’s score should be higher than Zizhen’s. If Yizhong is given 15 points, Zizhen’s score is at most a pass, and 12 points is not at all. If you have money, you just don’t need money.”

"You are right. The next item is the right to say. Needless to say, you must be saying that Yizhong's company is yours, and Zizhen's position is given by his father. Zizhen is not as good as a senior brother?" The sister swiped a pen , addition, subtraction, multiplication, and division, "Then senior brother has 15 points, and Zizhen has 12 points. It's talent, what do you say about talent?" "Of course Yizhong wins. Yizhong understands medical skills and has learned a lot from others. No matter what he says, he can be in tune with me." My sister disagrees. "It's better to be fair. You told me that Zizhen is also very knowledgeable, otherwise he wouldn't help our family redeem the yellow rosewood furniture. He also knows how to play. He is not as old-fashioned as Yizhong. He works hard. The talents of modern people should not only be astronomy and geography, but also have a romantic interest. Zizhen is proficient in playing."

"That's not necessarily the case. My Western food etiquette was all taught by Yizhong. When I was young, he was the one who took me to play everywhere..." "Forget it, let's just assume that they are tied with 15 points." The sister waved her hand, "What is it now? Love? Wow, Zizhen has an absolute chance of winning this item. Don't forget As for Yizhong, it is you who have a crush on her; Zizhen is the one he chases after you. Of course, his feelings for you are better than Yizhong's. The highest compliment a man can give a woman is to propose to her. And, Yizhong Zhong is a man with a sweet heart, and I don’t know how many girlfriends he has.”

"Isn't Zizhen the same? Have you forgotten about Hu Sirong? What kind of feelings do you have for an unfaithful husband?" Sister sighed: "That's right. It's harder to ask a man to be single-minded than a rooster. This one is exempted. Both of them have zero points and don't count. The last one, the last one is appearance. Zizhen is ten years younger than Yizhong." Years old, it should be ten years old, right?" "Five points more is barely enough. Yizhong looks only 30 years old at most, a little wrinkle will only make him more mature and tasteful, and his demeanor is much more chic than Zizhenke."

The elder sister stared blankly and shook her head: "I have never seen a wife like you, but you are trying to hurt your husband. You, your heart has long been wild, not to mention Ye Zizhen, it is Andy Lau and Li Ka-shing standing here, You will also pick out a bunch of faults. In short, only Yizhong is good in the world, and everything else is rubbish. You have been bewitched!" "Yes, yes." This time I finally nodded, "Eldest brother is proficient in medicine, maybe he really gave me some kind of infatuation drug." My sister also laughed: "But it's true. Song Yizhong didn't know how to do it. When he was young, he was more mature than his peers. After ten years, he was more energetic than all his peers. The benefits of being a man, he knows all about it." It's all over." Our two sisters sighed and laughed at each other, chatting until the moon was setting and the stars were sinking before resting.In the end, the sister said: "If you want to love, love it. Be careful not to let Ye Zizhen know. It's better to save one thing than to save one thing. Marriage is marriage, love is love, just be happy." My sister has never been right and wrong. In other words, my sister has always been very clear about right and wrong. In short, what my family does is right, but others are wrong. I wish that the sun, moon, and galaxy follow my heart. The tides don’t have to follow the moon, and the moon doesn’t have to revolve around the earth. It’s all based on my will Everything is safe for the transfer. Tired of chatting, she waved her hand: "Go to sleep, I have to accompany your brother-in-law to his house to celebrate the New Year tomorrow." But how can I sleep? I tossed and turned on the pillow.Opening and closing eyes, they all saw Yizhong's handsome eyes, facing each other with affection. Forget it, for nothing, gritted your teeth and swore viciously, and practiced hard for two years. Once I saw him, my skills were completely useless. I didn't need the other party to fight, or even say a word, but my eyes were so swollen, I lost my helmet If you abandon your armor, you will be defeated. This moment let me know more clearly than ever that I love him and I love Song Yijung.There is no way to fall in love with someone. I have already fallen into reincarnation, and I am beyond redemption. Falling in love with him is my life. On the third day of junior high school, the Yizhong couple hosted a banquet at the hotel to invite us back. My sister went out of town with her brother-in-law. Zizhen said that there was a social gathering, and only my mother and I went to the banquet.Although my mother didn't say it clearly, Huo Jian didn't like me to accompany her very much.I knew it was a Hongmen banquet, but I was unwilling to avoid it. I pretended not to understand what my mother meant. I got up early in the morning to dress up, changed and changed more than a dozen sets of clothes, tried and tried, and deliberately competed with Xiao Lizi. However, it never occurred to him that as soon as he entered the hotel, he would already see a pair of people that he should not have seen.Instinctively, she shortened her body, hid behind her mother, and said hastily, "Let's change to another hotel." Xiao Lizi didn't know why, so he just asked, "I've already reserved a table, why are you leaving all of a sudden?" Mom sighed and said, "Let's talk about it later." After leaving the hotel, I lost all interest, my husband couldn't control me, so why fight with other women?This world is really fair. I miss other people's husbands, but my husband is having an affair with other people. Little Lizi was inexplicably excited. He was going to deal with me with all his strength. He didn't expect to win without a fight. He was very proud and giggled uncontrollably: "The thief is not afraid, but the thief is afraid? Bai Zhu, if I You, I went up and overturned the table, and slapped that vixen so hard that he couldn’t find him.” Vixen?I laughed.Isn't Hu Sirong's surname Hu? My mother is still covering for me: "Maybe it's a business..." "It's not official business." I sighed, failing to such an extent, but it didn't matter, I simply explained it all, and let them laugh, "I avoided them, not because I was afraid or angry, but I just didn't want to hear him explain to me. At that time, I didn’t know what to say. That woman’s name was Hu Sirong, Zizhen’s lover. They had been dating for a while, and they broke up once. I thought it was broken, but they were still in touch. I don’t know. Whether it's been disconnected all the time, or just resurfaced recently, but it doesn't matter. Anyway, it's not Hu Sirong, it will be someone else. Ye Zizhen will not be willing to be lonely." "You just let him like this?" Yizhong's veins showed, "Bai Shu, don't let him deceive you that your natal family has no one. Do you want me to talk to that kid?" "What's there to talk about?" I smiled indifferently. I couldn't understand Xiao Lizi's schadenfreude, and I deliberately pretended to be crazy, forcing myself to play naughty. Change girlfriends." "But, how can Ye Zizhen treat you?" Yizhong was really angry, "Let me teach that kid a lesson, how could he treat you like this?" I was suddenly moved.Even though all the men are capricious, but in Yizhong, I still think that I should meet an exception, the best one after thousands of choices.Is it because of this slim hope that he treats me so self-controlled?Keep me, leave it to a man who may be different, and be happy. But I only met Ye Zizhen, a playboy who is more philandering than Yizhong, the second generation ancestor. Now, what reason does he have to reject me?snub me? Seeing my own husband having an affair with Yizhong face to face made me feel relaxed and even inexplicably happy. Instead, I sympathized with Ye Zizhen.Maybe he can't be blamed for coming to this point, after all, he once thought about repenting and paid half a million for it.In the end, we still have to be together. There is always a little real feeling, right? Love is an entanglement.Whether it is the desire for money or the desire for no money, as long as the matchmaker is not marrying, or is hiding an adulterous affair, and laughing at fifty steps, even if there is a money transaction, it is still not without sincerity; There is no difference between morality and morality. I consider myself a sinner, and I don't want to pretend to be chaste. I just said to Yizhong: "A man's heart can be torn apart. As long as his man is by my side, I don't care if he has me in his heart. Similarly, if I can get A person's heart may not necessarily care about whether he can really get him." In front of Xiao Lizi, such a clear statement forced them to remain silent. Anyway, it's a loss, and if you lose so much that you can't lose any more, that is to say, you win. When I got home, Zizhen asked me, "Did you have fun during the day?" "Yes, the atmosphere is very harmonious. Mom is very happy, as if she is a few years younger. How about you? How are you socializing?" "Ordinary customers meet to enhance communication, and maybe there will be business contacts in the next year." When the two of them told a lie, they didn't change their faces, and they answered each other fluently.It's like a master's move, evenly matched. If you can always be so magnanimous and open-minded, your life will not be easy.Anyway, I didn't intend to be loyal to Zizhen, so I didn't care about his infidelity.Still the same sentence, fifty steps laugh at a hundred steps, he just made a move earlier than me. At night, I fiddle with powder in front of the mirror.Zizhen held a scroll in his hand and shook his head: "The red tent is clean and the days are long, and the girl waits for the king every day." I asked casually: "Aren't the maids in the palace called palace maids? Why are they called maids?" Zizhen smiled: "You don't understand that. In ancient times, the royal family worried that the prince would live in the deep palace for a long time and be isolated from the world. They usually set up a special place in the palace to raise some small animals to educate the prince, such as taking the prince to see Male cats chase female cats, watch pigeons kissing and so on, and give those cats and dogs marquis titles. This girl does not refer to people, but to cats, which is a nickname for cats." "The girl is a cat?" I admired a little, "You really know a lot." Encouraged, Zizhen became more impassioned: "Everything in nature will come into heat at the right time, just like flowers bloom in spring, and birds sing in season. Only human beings must be inspired a lot, and they have to untie layers of shackles in order to be able to enjoy life." Psychics. That’s why humans are the most insensitive animals in the world.” As he said that, he came over and wanted to share with me the mysteries that cats and dogs will reveal in due time. I instinctively pushed away, and couldn't help but hang on my face. No matter how brilliant the acting skills are, they have to return to their original form when they meet each other. Zizhen and I are just natural actors, and we have not risen to the level of acting school. As a result, Zizhen moved to the guest room to sleep that night.Living in separate rooms is better than sharing the same bed with different dreams.But maybe, what we have in mind tonight can finally be consistent. The arrow is on the string, should it be retracted into the bag, or fired with the bow? In a blink of an eye, it is the Fifteenth Lantern Festival. My sister and I made an appointment with two families to go to Xingqing Palace to put lanterns together. Xingqing Palace was built in the Tang Dynasty, was once razed to ruins, and rebuilt after the Cultural Revolution.The pavilions, terraces and lofts in the inner garden are no longer royal, but the green hills are green and the water is flowing. Every festival, it is either a lantern festival or a flower show. It is a favorite park for ordinary people to join in the fun.It seems that on the fifteenth day of the first lunar month, it is considered a festival only if you go to Xingqing Palace to light up the lights, otherwise, you will always feel regretful. The lamp is made of lotus with five petals, pink and crystal clear, floating on the water.In the wick, there is the daughter's wish: "First, I wish my husband a thousand years; second, I wish my concubine a long and healthy life; third, I wish to be like Liang Shangyan, and see each other often every year" and so on. But the king in my heart is not the husband next to me, but the man who picked roses for me on the back slope of Qinglong Temple ten years ago.The hand of roses given to others will still have a lingering fragrance after ten years. The lotus lantern meandered away, and my sister and I chased our own lantern and followed along the shore, gradually getting separated. The lamp leaned towards the opposite bank without permission, entangled in the water plants and refused to go any further. I folded a branch and leaned over the railing to hook it across the stream. The person on the other side said: "Miss, is this your lamp? I'll help you." With a flick of his hand, the lotus lantern spun around in place and went downstream again. I looked across, full of suspicion: "Sir, thank you." The man was startled: "Bai Zhu, it's you?" The voice was as clear as a nail hitting a chopping block. If it's not the elder brother, who else is it? "Yizhong..." I suddenly choked up my sobs, ignoring Shi Hua's dew and coldness, I just staggered forward. The brother over there also trotted along the bank. Although his face was far away and I couldn't see his face clearly, I knew he was looking at me. Our eyes passed through the darkness, and we met and intertwined in the air one step ahead of our bodies. Walking in a hurry, walking in a hurry, the two finally met at the bridge in the middle, holding each other's hands, speechless for a while.It is the situation in my dream, which is my highest understanding and deepest interpretation of love. Finally, no one will lie to anyone, no one will be more, we will meet together and love each other together! "Yizhong, I, I..." I swallowed hard my tears and forced myself to complete the sentence, "I have been thinking about you all the time these days." "Me too." Shocked, he finally spit out these four words. Only I know how difficult it is for the elder brother to say such a thing. me too. Change your heart for mine, and I will know and remember each other deeply.Our hearts finally communicate with each other, we finally feel the same voice, we finally get rid of hardships, and we finally have a heart-to-heart bond. I told Yizhong: "You have always been afraid of ruining me. Now, I am married and separated. Yizhong, I don't see any resistance between us that makes us have reasons to go against our hearts. " Yizhong didn't speak, just walked over and hugged me gently. All of a sudden, I relaxed and tears fell wantonly.After waiting too long, once the dream came true, I couldn't believe it. The lights on the shore and the lights in the water complement each other, flowing and colorful, like a fairyland. A boatman passed under the bridge with an oar and asked in a voice, "Sir and wife, do you want a boat?" a boat.After ten years of cultivation, we can cross the same boat, and in the past year, we can sleep together.Since ancient times, romantic and tragic love stories have always been inseparable from boats: the white lady and Xu Xian held an umbrella, borrowed the rain, and met on the same boat; , Scattered all the treasure chests; After Xi Shi and Fan Li hung their crowns and returned to hermitage, they accompanied each other, went boating on the West Lake, and enjoyed the dawn wind and the waning moon... The pleasure boats at Xingqing Palace at this moment are the picturesque boats on the West Lake; Yizhong and I are White Snake and Xu Xian, Xi Shi and Fan Li.If you want to be better than your eyes, why die, you only envy mandarin ducks but not immortals.This boat is the spring supper in the bridal chamber; this lotus lantern is the red shadow of flowers and candles. In the distance, the theme song of the TV series "Legend of the White Snake" came faintly: "Wait once in a thousand years, oh..." How rare and precious it is to be reunited overnight after waiting for thousands of years!I hugged Yizhong and hugged him tightly: "Yizhong, I will never be separated from you again, never again." Reason abdicates, emotion surges up, like water flooding a golden mountain, unstoppable. We, never separate again.