Chapter 20 Twenty, the original

Huang Chang scratched Zhuo Wen's name on the frost on the glass window over and over with his finger, but winter passed and spring came, and the window could no longer be covered with frost, but Zhuo Wen still did not come back. The white light in the phonograph sang plaintively over and over again: "Why don't you come, I want to wait for you to come back. I wait and wait and wait, the people who wait for you are so anxious. I'm waiting for you to come back, I think of you coming back , why don't you come, I want to wait for you to come back..." Waiting and waiting, but just can't wait. The hope of "declining and declining Hu will not return" has become "Qingqing Zijin, take my heart, I will not go, Zining will not listen."

But there is still no news. The requirements were lowered a little bit, and finally I just wanted to hear about him, to know if he was safe, and if he missed her too.But that doesn't work either.His whole body seemed to have disappeared from the air, and it seemed that he had never had it before. All the love and affection in the past were all dreams.Now that the spring is warm and the flowers are blooming, the dreams are scattered with the clouds, and the flowers are flown by the water.And the arrest warrants have been issued, plastered all over the streets and alleys of Shanghai. At this time, Ke Yi also knew what happened, so he came to visit Huang Chang on purpose.Huang Chang came to see him in the living room wrapped in a quilt, with a sallow face, and asked sadly, "Mr. Ke, do you still think Zhuo Wen is a traitor?" Before Ke Yi could answer, she smiled wryly and said, "I know, you I also want to say that Zhuo Wen's actions are just appearances, for personal reasons, not for principles. But I just want you to know that he has indeed done some good things, and that's enough."

Jiaxiu was sitting at the side, afraid that they would start arguing, when Mama Cui brought tea, she took the opportunity to interrupt and said, "This is Mingqian tea that a friend just sent the day before yesterday. You should try it. I am not Miaoyu, and I have no What ghost face green harvested the snow on the plum blossoms to make tea, but this cup is an authentic Ming Dynasty Jun kiln product, so I don’t think it’s vulgar.” Then he opened the cabinet and took out a crystal cup, pretending to be He said casually, "This is a bit of sweet-scented osmanthus stew. You seem to have said that it is your favorite food. Now that you have caught up, you can take it back."

The golden sweet-scented osmanthus brine is stored in a transparent crystal cup, before smelling its fragrance, you can see its beauty first.Ke Yi naturally understood that this was by no means a coincidence, but Jia Xiu heard that he liked sweet-scented osmanthus stew last time, so he specially made it for him.But why did it take more than half a year to take it out?Apparently she was consciously reckless and deliberately postponed, so that her gift would not appear so deliberate.All kinds of affectionate songs in the middle are really rare. Ke Yi was sincerely grateful in his heart, but he was afraid that he would be annoyed by being too revealing, so he just took it away in a casual manner, took a sip of tea with his head down, and praised: "Sure enough, good tea. How much did you get? I'll go back later." When the time comes, pack a bag and bring it with me.”

Jiaxiu said angrily: "How can there be such a person, who eats and still takes it, really thick-skinned." Cui's mother said from the side: "You have wronged Mr. Ke. Mr. Ke is the most gentle and shy person, and he talks like this because he doesn't see outsiders. Mr. Ke is not an outsider in the first place." Ke Yi was picking out the tea foam with a silver toothpick, and he couldn't help smiling slightly when he heard this. Jiaxiu blushed, and angrily said to Mama Cui, "What's your business here?" Just as he was about to say more, the French cook came and asked, "Mr. Ke is here, do you want to add another dish for lunch? Mr. Ke's favorite food The roast veal is still the same, half-ripe, with iron plate?" Ke Yi laughed even harder, and before Jiaxiu could speak, he answered in fluent French: "That's good, I haven't eaten Smith for a long time. Monsieur's roast veal and cream soup."

Although Cui's mother didn't understand what they were saying, she guessed that they were quite close to each other by looking at their expressions, and said with a smile: "That's right. It's just like this. It's good to not see outsiders like this. Mr. Ke, don't treat yourself as an outsider." .” While nagging, he tidied up the saucer and wanted to avoid going out. Jiaxiu blushed, stared and said: "Mama Cui, the older you get, the more unruly you are, I really hate it." Ke Yi smiled and said: "I think Mama Cui is the best and the most humane." Teasing her mouth, suddenly Realizing that she was here to check on Huang Chang's illness, she had been left out in the cold for a long time. When she was about to make amends, she found that Huang Chang had already entered the house at some point. What does your lady usually do for pastimes?"

Cui's mother raised her head and thought about it, and said, "Miss sent me to buy a box of cigars the day before yesterday, and when I came back, I lit them one by one..." Jiaxiu was surprised: "When did Ah Chang learn to smoke?" "Where does Miss know how to smoke? She just lights it up and smells it. Every time she inhales and ignites, she is choked and coughed. But that cigar is very strange. It is lit, and after a while without smoking, it will automatically go out again." The missus shed tears—it doesn't look like it was all choked up by the smoke."

Jiaxiu and Ke Yi looked at each other, sighed at each other, and neither spoke for a while. Mama Cui went down with the saucer, and the room fell silent for a moment, it was eerily quiet.Ke Yi sighed again, and said: "I didn't expect Huang Chang to be so infatuated... Back then, why did you agree to marry that Cai Zhuowen?" Jiaxiu heard that there was a sense of complaint in his words, and in a moment of impatience, she blurted out: "It's not for you..." After half a sentence, she felt disrespectful and couldn't help swallowing. But Ke Yi has fully understood: "You mean that Cai Zhuowen agreed to rescue me from prison that time because you promised to marry Huang Chang to him? The price is too high, how can you be so confused?"

Jiaxiu was anxious and ashamed, and argued: "I didn't say I would marry Huang Chang to him, but I just agreed to their relationship. How could I have thought that things would develop to this point..." Thinking of what happened today, after all, it was my own day As a result of a transaction, I was so ashamed and regretful that I couldn't help but shed tears. Ke Yi watched, his heart softened.Thinking that Jiaxiu always regarded Huang Chang as her eyeball, but did something wrong for her that hurt her life, it shows how much she treats her.Feeling overwhelmed for a moment, she stepped forward to hold Jiaxiu's hand and said, "Jiaxiu, I..."

Unexpectedly, Jiaxiu took half a step back in shock as if she had been shocked by an electric shock, her eyes were full of sadness and helplessness.Ke Yimeng woke up, Jiaxiu betrayed Huang Chang for him, the consequences are still there, but at this moment, how could she accept her feelings.He sighed deeply, he really didn't understand why God played tricks on him like this.The two of them have been on and off for half their lives, sometimes tight and sometimes loose, but they just can't get what they want.Among them, if she makes half a step forward, or if he is nervous for a while, maybe it will be done.However, both of them are introverted and reserved. He looks at her like spring clouds coming out of Xiuxiu, but when she looks at him, it looks like autumn water is rising.The wind blows and the fog blows, it is always unclear, and the mountains and seas are always separated in the middle, making it difficult to make up for love, and hate for the sea. In the end, a good story becomes a lie, which is also called helplessness.

At that moment, Ke Yi dazedly took his hat and said goodbye.Jiaxiu was upset and didn't want to stay, she listened silently to the elevator going down one step at a time, the sound of "Kongtong" landed on the floor, the door opened and closed again, she had to get up lazily to put away the teacup and saucer, warming her hands, tea It's still hot, but people are far away.She couldn't help but fell down and sat down again, feeling extremely melancholy.But at this time the French cook came up to report: "Miss, the roast veal is ready, let's serve dinner now?" Jiaxiu was even more desolate, choked her throat and said: "I'm a little sick, I don't want to eat, you can eat it yourself. " The cook was stunned: "Why did Mr. Ke leave?" Then he realized that the matter had nothing to do with him, so he stopped again, happily brought delicious food and went downstairs to invite all the servants to have a feast. Here Ke went downstairs, but instead of leaving, he stood at the door and stared blankly for a while.It was a sunny day with light clouds and a slight chill, but it only made it more refreshing.He thought about how he and Jiaxiu had been getting along in the past few years, sharing weal and woe, and getting to know each other more and more, but why the relationship was always deep and shallow, similar to the cloud on the other side of the day, elusive and unattainable? A swallow shot across the blue sky like an arrow, and before his eyes caught it clearly, it had disappeared without a trace.A few years later, the love for his fellow family show is also gone without trace, right? Cai Zhuowen finally returned to Caijia Village. The sky is thick with soil, deep water and mountains, and there is only one word "poor" written all over the mountains and plains.In the countryside, poverty is visible, unobstructed, and all self-esteem and implicitness are peeled off, and the desolation is shocking.However, Zhuo Wen was just numb looking at all this. Back then, when he didn't know what prosperity was, he yearned for prosperity, longed to leave the mountain village, leave poverty, and leave the vulgar farming and fishing career.How hard it was for him to leave this remote and backward Caijia Village. It was a poor place that he did not even want to go back to in his dreams after he left. , Hunting in winter, busy all year round, but only for the words "food" and "clothing", and a higher requirement is "sex".As for "love", it is extravagant and therefore unclean and shameful to speak of. Everyone in the village is named Cai, with relatives and roots. From the depths of A’s eyes, you can see B’s vision. Everyone hides a self in each person. Every funeral is to bury a self. It's just another self. He longed to go far away. From a very young age, since he was sensible, he wanted to get away from all this, to a place where no one recognized him and no one remembered him.Once he did it, when he and Huang Shang went boating on the West Lake and met in a hotel, the life of fishermen in the poor villages on the north bank of the Yangtze River was far away from him.But because of Huang Chang's sudden thought, he harmed people and saved them again, forcing him to return to this village again, to face his divorced wife again, and to gloat with the expression of "final retribution" written all over his face. The villagers, his pride and passion were completely defeated. If I knew today, why bother? Everything is coming back, turning back and starting from where we were. Sitting in the yard, he misses his car, his apartment, his Russian-style steel bed that can accommodate four people side by side, the cellar of red wine that is more than a century old, the fragrant shaving water, and cigars... Saying empty is empty. So what is the purpose of struggling and suffering all these years?for what? Hu Qiang and Pei Yi called him "comrade", encouraged him every day, told him the principles of resisting Japan and saving the nation, described the bright prospects of the revolution, and discussed Marxism with him.He didn't think so, but he was still willing to listen, because here, they were the only two people he could talk to. They also sometimes talked about Huang Chang.Hu Qiang said: "According to me, your sister-in-law (that's how he called Xiumei) is a real good wife and mother, who can give birth, support and work. Like Ms. Huang, she writes plays, and she is like a woman in the play. Such a person will go back to the play after a while, and it won’t last long. Such a person, it’s not bad to put it on the altar for offerings, and it’s absurd to marry home and be a daughter-in-law.” Pei Yi disagreed: "I think Ms. Huang is very good. She is smart, calm, general-minded, dignified and brave, and has the courage to think. A wife should be like that. They have a common language and communication. The so-called fairy couples are It means that Miss Huang is as beautiful as a flower like a fairy." Regardless of praise or criticism, they all have the same attitude when talking about Huang Chang, with awe and envy in an unattainable tone, as if they are talking about a god in the clouds, not a person. Zhuo Wen was very satisfied with this and was quite self-confident.So he led them to talk about her more, as if they could get closer to Huang Chang. But after recovering from their injuries, even they left, saying that they would go to northern Jiangsu to join the New Fourth Army.Zhuo Wen became completely lonely, facing his wife who was no longer his wife all day long, feeling double embarrassment. However, Xiumei was very calm, she didn't care what Zhuo Wen thought of her, as long as he came back and lived by her side, she would be very happy.She thought, maybe her wish was successful?She kowtowed so many times in front of the Bodhisattva, until a piece of the green brick collapsed, finally knocking her husband back.This time he probably won't go again.Although he still ignores him now, as long as he takes good care of his mother-in-law and takes care of his son, one day he will change his mind. It's not that Zhuo Wen didn't think about reconciling with Xiumei just like this, but when he thought of Huang Chang, his heart hurt after all, and he didn't want to let her down.I have already failed Xiumei, and I can no longer lose Huang Chang.In his life, he must always be responsible to at least one woman.He thought, if he can't return to Shanghai in this life, let Huang Chang become a rose thorn in his heart forever.The sharper the thorns of a rose and the more painful it is, the brighter the rose will bloom and the more fragrant it will be. Thinking of the emotion, he couldn't help but hit the ground with his straw sandals, and sang in the style of Li Jia Baoyu's red bean lyrics: "I can't wake up from the dream, gentle and affectionate in the countryside, I can't finish singing the rich fragrance in the bushes, Dancing never falling willow branches go upstairs to the first moon, Can't say eachother and mountain alliance. Don't drink coffee and wine to get drunk with the spring breeze, I can't draw the twelve layers of red-sleeved railings. The unstoppable green mountains and green waters, The endless evening drum and morning bell. Ah, suddenly like a spring dream that is easy to disperse with the clouds, Peach blossoms fly away in the moonlight. " He didn't know that when he was so sad, Huang Chang had come quietly. After talking with Ke Yi, Huang Chang missed Zhuo Wen even more.At this time, she no longer expected Zhuo Wen to come back, but began to consider going to him by herself. "I don't want to go, but Zining doesn't follow the sound." Since the son didn't follow the sound, I was the only one who went there. But knowing that Jiaxiu and Cui's mother would never let her go on a long journey alone, they had to prepare secretly, packing away a few pieces of laundry, and packing up some valuable jewelry for emergencies. It was so easy to wait until the Yellow Emperor's hundredth day, Jiaxiu took Mama Cui to visit the tomb, but because Huang Chang was ill, she was not allowed to go with her.However, as soon as Jiaxiu left, Huang Chang took out the package he wanted to hide, kowtowed in front of Yifan, and said in tears, "Mom, I don't know when I will come back after I go. The current situation is unstable. If I If you can’t come back here, Mom, you must take care of yourself.” Yifan has also been in a daze since the death of the Yellow Emperor, and it is difficult to say a word at ordinary times, but now he seems to have realized something, stretched out his hand and stroked his daughter's head, humming a song softly in his mouth, it was still the song "" You are the seven-story pagoda and I am the wind chime on the eaves of the tower." Huang Chang was even more sad, kowtowed his head again and stood up, hugged Yifan again, then turned and went downstairs.Seeing her leave, several foreign servants stared at her blue eyes and muttered a few words, but they didn't ask more questions as usual.This is the difference between foreign servants and Chinese servants. If this was put on Cui's mother, she would definitely talk about it endlessly.But foreign servants know how to treat employment as a job, just do their own work, and don't say a word more. This is Huang Chang's first time on a boat.When passing through Chongqing, there was a storm on the river.Huang Chang was already very dizzy, but at this time he vomited all kinds of meat and vegetables, his eyes were full of red, green, yellow, and blue flying around, his ears were full of cymbals, cymbals, gongs, exhausted, and his mouth was full. The taste of sour, bitter, spicy, and salty surged up and down, lying on the deck, wishing to vomit up the liver, intestines, stomach, and gallbladder. It was so easy to get off the boat, the three souls had already left the seven souls, at least they didn't go to the husband's platform.After inquiring all the way, I came to Caijia Village. Just as I mentioned Cai Zhuowen, the half-grown man who was standing with a hoe and staring at her with good eyesight already said "Yeah" and started to run away. With an ambiguous smile on his face, he said: "This little dwarf tiger, who beats rabbits and plants, is quite clever. You can't go wrong if you follow him." Huang Chang then followed the "little dwarf tiger", passing chicken, duck, goose droppings, tented windows and bamboo doors, earthen walls and mud stacks, cow pens and latrines, and came to a small courtyard at the end of the village.The courtyard door was open, and one could see at a glance the sparse clumps of vegetables and two fruit trees in the courtyard. A man squatted barefoot under the trees, eating pickles and porridge. The dog whirled around under his feet, hoping to drop a little crumb now and then so that he could enjoy himself with his master. The "little short-footed tiger" made a "bang", kicked the already open door a little further, and raised its voice, calling: "Uncle Bracelet, a woman is looking for you." "What are you doing?" The man called "Uncle Bracelet" raised his head in bewilderment with a standard local accent, revealing stubble on his face, from his chin to his eyebrows, protruding from the vertical and horizontal stripes. The forehead lines are like an appearance on the stage after the drums are in full swing, where the lights are shining, everything is silent, and there is only a startling face—then, that is her relatives!How did you come down to this point? Huang Chang looked at it in shock, but was speechless for a moment.When he was in Shanghai, his figure in a cloak and suit suddenly appeared, his face was like ancient jade, his temples were black and blue, and his pair of leather shoes were shining.That Cai Zhuowen who is always well-dressed, that Mr. Cai who gets out of the car and enters the hotel, and this barefoot "Uncle Bracelet", are they really the same person? Zhuo Wen didn't seem surprised when he saw Huang Chang, but only felt indifferent. "Why are you here?" he said.His eyes were so cold, it was so cold that it made people shiver.It is already spring, and the water in the river has melted.But his eyes were still frozen. "I'll come to see you." Huang Chang was confused and deeply wronged at the same time. She didn't expect the meeting to be like this. How could it be like this?She came to see him through all kinds of hardships and dangers, and she was so lucky that she didn't die. She thought that he would be moved and pleasantly surprised, but it was like this. "I can't help but know how you are doing now. I don't feel relieved. Shanghai has issued a warrant. I want to know if you are safe." Like a female student who has done something wrong, she is explaining her mistake to the teacher, However, the more you paint, the more black you paint, and the more you paint, the more black you paint, and eventually the real becomes fake, and the red becomes black. "Wanted warrant?" He laughed, his voice was strange and gloomy. "Wanted warrant..." he repeated, without any real meaning, just a simple repetition.His eyes, his voice, seeped into the background, perfectly fitting.On the long bamboo pole behind him were a few pieces of old washed clothes, gray-blue, thin and bright by the sun, waving in the wind, like a flag.He was also wearing a gray-blue dress of the same texture and color, with the front open, revealing a long and narrow chest, which also looked like a flag.And the stone pier under his feet, blue, gray, purple and brown, the sunny side has been polished brightly, while the shaded side is covered with moss, they all look like flags.These flags waved and shouted together, there was no sound, but they were murderous. Huang Chang stared blankly at all this, the sun was warming down, but she felt a chill in her heart.She reached into the backpack she brought with her and took out a long strip of things wrapped in oiled paper: "I brought this for you. There was a storm on the road, so I don't know if it got wet." Zhuo Wen didn't get up, just squatted on the stone pier to take it, and opened it layer by layer, like peeling off her heart layer by layer-it was a pack of cigarettes, a big cigar.He put them under his nose and sniffed, as if wondering what to do next. The familiar smell of cigars made him feel sad and sad.Sad to meet in such a situation.He originally thought that her heart was clearer and clearer than the autumn sky, but he was a goose flying across the sky.No matter how high the geese fly, they will eventually live in the wild. That is the direction that the sky does not need to know.As long as the sky remembers the chirping of geese. He turned around and left. What he hoped to leave for Huang Chang was the back view of a hero, a kind of desolation and profoundness of "the wind is rustling, the water is cold, and the strong man will never return when he is gone".But now, she has found the hero's hometown, the mire of Yanluo. What she saw was not a hero in distress, but a restored peasant, which made him inexplicably shocked. At this time, the curtain was lifted, and four people came out of the house. One could tell at a glance that it was the daughter-in-law supporting the mother-in-law, and the elder brother pulling the younger brother. come out.They are all wearing gray-blue clothes, the original color is light, and the patches are a little darker—but maybe the patch is the original color, and it has become white after a long time of washing, because the age of the stickers is different, so the shades are different—— Four People were stunned when they saw Huang Chang, and the daughter-in-law greeted first: "Father, is there a visitor at home? Why don't you ask people to sit down?" Let's inquire about the ins and outs of the uninvited guest: "Hey, whose family's daughter is this, so neat and tidy." Only then did Zhuowen stand up and put the rice bowl on the stone pier casually, and the big yellow dog jumped forward immediately.Zhuo Wen had no choice but to pick it up again, and muttered, "This is Huang Chang, the daughter-in-law I married in Shanghai." "The daughter-in-law married in Shanghai" may have no grammatical problems, but emotionally, it is greatly unreasonable.Huang Chang suddenly felt terrified, "Shanghai's daughter-in-law" should only stay in Shanghai, right?How did he come to Caijia Village in Fengdu?It seems that the characters in the movie ran into reality, so out of place.Caijia Village, as the name suggests, is populated by members of the Cai family. Although she is married to Cai Zhuowen, can she be considered a member of the Cai family?Besides, since he wants to specifically emphasize "the daughter-in-law married in Shanghai", there should naturally be another "this" and "the daughter-in-law married in the village".Is it the virtuous daughter-in-law in front of me who supports the old and the young?But isn't he divorced?Why is she still here?He still calls his mother Mom, and his children also call her Mom? Before clarifying these personal relationships, the old lady Cai Granny was already bluffing: "Hey, that's a distinguished guest, why don't you come in quickly?" She bit the word "guest" very hard on purpose, and ordered her son to come in. Daughter-in-law, "Really, a small and poor family, there is nothing to entertain girls, Xiumei, go wash some fruits for Miss Huang to taste. My daughter-in-law is good at everything, even if I have no eye value, I don't know how to entertain guests." He also annoyed the two children, "Why don't you call me someone? Call me, call me aunt. This is the woman your father married outside. In the past, you should call her Erniang. Now it's not fun, just call me aunt." .Call it." Huang Chang only felt that the old lady had eyes in the front and back of her head, mouths all over her body, flying nails and shooting arrows, which made it completely difficult for her to resist. "Wife married outside", "daughter-in-law married in Shanghai", here she is The one without a name is just an outsider, a "house-filler" with a bad name. Suddenly, the words that his father praised and criticized Ruan Lingyu on the cigarette couch all of a sudden came to mind-"Then Tao Jize is not a good person. He used to have a wife in his hometown. This Ruan Lingyu is also, making troubles, and still being a child for others." ——Thinking about it now, it hurts my heart.She looked at Zhuo Wen: "You said you were divorced." Weakly, as if asking for confirmation. "I didn't lie to you, I was indeed divorced, but she refused to leave." That's it, nothing else. This is the truth.But her heart was still stabbed, and she sank again and again, until she sank into the bottomless abyss, the surroundings were pitch black, and she would never find her whereabouts. Who will save her?She looked at Zhuo Wen for help, but his eyes were only ruthless, embarrassed, and distant.His breathing was clearly audible, and she could even feel her hair brushing against his clothes, but they were far away, far away in the sky. She stretched out her hand and stretched out into the void: "Zhuowen, save me." She thought she was shouting, but there was no sound at all.She suddenly realized that since she was a child, she hated her stepmother, but now that she has become his stepmother herself, she is not as prestigious as Sun Peilan back then, and she cannot even be recognized by her family. She wanted to shout again, but suddenly opened her mouth, a mouthful of blood spurted out, and she passed out.