Chapter 3 3. The women of the Huang family

St. Mary's Girls' High School is located in a towering Western-style building on Baili South Road. Like the High School Attached to St. John's University, it belonged to the two most famous American Christian schools in Shanghai at that time.The environment is elegant and the students are elegant, all of them are like nuns. In addition to following the Chinese rule of "smiling without showing your teeth, skirts must be below your knees", they also strictly implement the rules and regulations of American religious education, praying in the morning and evening, and confessing regularly.

Someone described it: "In the Santa Maria Girls' High School, even a male fly can't see it." But on the other hand, girls are trained to behave in such a way, but it is only for the purpose of marrying into a good family and finding a good husband in the future.Because in their curriculum, in addition to astronomy and physics, there are also cooking and tailoring. As for the students who can attend St. Mary's Girls' High School, most of them are from rich or noble families. Of course, they don't come here to learn a skill in order to contribute to society in the future. Naturally, they can only contribute to their families.So at the same time they have to learn etiquette, dress, eat western food, dance ballroom dancing, and even how to be a hostess of a banquet.

All women's efforts are for men, including learning how to reject men. So there is another saying: "The diploma of St. Mary's Girls' High School is the best dowry for a daughter." But in any case, here is famous for its strict management and rigorous academic research.Because they couldn't bear the harsh school rules and heavy homework, students dropped out of school almost every year.However, Huang Chang was able to be consistent, winning the championship every year and receiving a scholarship from the school. Huang Shang was able to enter school smoothly, which was the result of Zhao Yifan and Huang Jiaxiu's hard work.

Six years ago, Zhao Yifan left Huang's family with a clean sleeve. The only condition was that Huang Jiaqi must send his daughter to the best western-style school and be responsible for all educational expenses.Then, on another rainy morning, he left home again, and soon left the country. Before leaving, Huang Jiaqi became nostalgic again, came to the door of Jiaxiu and begged Yifan to change his mind, saying: "I know you hate me for smoking opium, my wife, I will change everything in the future." However, Yifan was already disheartened, and said decisively: "We have been married for more than ten years, and I have heard you make these great wishes many times, but you have never seriously changed your mind. In a woman's love, there must always be some respect." However, over time, you have already exhausted the last ounce of respect I have for you. When we are separated, it is a relief for two people, but when we are tied together, we sink together, and no one can survive."

These words were too mean and heartless, Huang Jiaqi hated her for not showing him any sympathy in front of her sister, and said ruthlessly: "Okay, I'll see how you fly so far, if you have the ability, don't come back for the rest of your life." After leaving, even Jiaxiu became separated. Jiaxiu couldn't help worrying for Yifan, and asked with tears, "In order to get a divorce as soon as possible, you don't even want alimony, how will you live in the future?" Yifan replied: "Sell antiques." Then she said, "Our family origin is the bondage I hate most, but I can only live by its shadow."

So Yifan was not happy all his life. Because she always deals with people and things she doesn't like, and she comes from a world she doesn't like and lives in it all the time.Even if she went to a foreign country and traveled across the ocean, all the things she hated still existed in her blood, and until she was old and died, she would never let her go. Later, every time Huang Chang recalled this passage, he felt worthless for his mother. Because she saw with her own eyes how the third aunt moved away the family property in boxes and cabinets when she left home. But my father said that it was a divorce, which was different from a divorce. Compensation and alimony were required.

This made Huang Chang even more confused. Could it be that divorce is more honorable than divorce?Or is the status of a concubine even more honorable than that of the original wife? But one thing she is certain of is that her mother has sacrificed a lot, and all of this is for her. Before her mother left, she went through all the admission procedures for Huang Chang and led her into the high school with her own hands.In the following years, every time I received a letter, I always asked about Huang Chang's further study. Originally, everyone was not sure whether Huang Jiaqi was willing to spend this sum of money in the end.Aunt Jiaxiu said to her more than once: "For you, sometimes I really want to marry someone, marry a rich man, so that he can get a tuition fee."

But soon the marriage of Huang and Sun came up on the agenda. Since Huang Jiaqi wanted to remarry, he couldn't help feeling a little bit guilty for his ex-wife, and wished that his daughter would leave home far away, so he readily agreed to Huang Shang's admission to the expensive boarding school Shengma. Leah Girls High School. Huang Chang knew that the opportunity was hard to come by, so he forced himself to work hard.Whenever Sister Maha, who teaches English, mentioned her, she would always say: "Misi Huang is really a masterpiece of God, the whitest lamb I have ever seen."

But so what?Back then, the private school teacher also praised him full of praise, but he couldn't be the number one female champion; now, does the beautiful title of "the whitest lamb" help him?Isn't she still looked down upon by her classmates? It's just that, in this famous aristocratic school, she didn't even have a suit of clothes that really belonged to her. All her clothes are old clothes from the time when she was a girl, gifted by her stepmother Sun Peilan. They are fat and outdated, like quasi-antiques with ambiguous sentiments.Saying new is not new, saying old is not old enough, no matter how you roll the gold thread and tie it, it just makes people feel dirty and embarrassing.And because it has been aged in the bottom of the box, the whole thing is soaked in an indelible camphor smell, which makes a young girl even more ashamed in such a young age.

One winter, Cui's mother got two moth cocoons from nowhere, and made toys for Huang Chang.Because Huang Chang heard that silk was made from silk, he was a little interested. He played with it for a while, and then put it in the box.Every time I opened the box to change clothes, I saw two cocoons, so I took them out to play with them again, and when I closed the box, I turned around and forgot.Unexpectedly, in the spring of the following year, as soon as the lid of the box was opened one day, two moths flew out and hit her face, causing her to fall down and scream.Cui's mother quickly opened the window, and threw the towel on the ground again and again, leading the two moths to fly out of the house.However, the corners of the table on the window sill were already covered with scales of moths, everywhere, dusty and fluffy, and there was an indescribably greasy smell in the eyes.

From then on, whenever Huang Chang thought of the stepmother's old clothes that were pressed at the bottom of the box, he would think of the two moths, and felt that the dust of gray moths was all over his body, sticky, dirty, and very unpleasant. . Later, after Huang Chang became financially independent, he developed a strange obsession with clothes. He liked to design his own clothes, and he wanted to dress in strange clothes so that passers-by would stare.Perhaps, it was because of the sequelae left by being confused for too long by the question of dressing at that time. Speaking of the departure of the third concubine, it was because of the ability of Huang Jiaqi's newly married wife, Sun Peilan. It is said that Ms. Peilan is also from a famous family, and she still looks fashionable and sharp, with a generous face and a shaved chin, a very clean and neat person, but it is said that she has a bad temper and is addicted to drugs, so she is still in her boudoir in her late thirties. .But her background didn't allow her to marry too much, so she came and went to fill in the house for the second master. According to Sun Peilan later said, it was instigated by a matchmaker, a deception.Originally, I didn't know that the population of the Huang family was so troublesome and wordy, otherwise, they wouldn't enter the door easily. Huang Shang didn't know how the matchmaker "deceived" Sun Peilan, but the matchmaker's words to his father Huang Jiaqi were repeated to her by the nanny Cui Ma—— "It's good-looking, knowledgeable, and good-natured, but I'm a bit high-minded, saying that I must marry a child of the Eight Banners. But there are very few people in Shanghai Banners, and they are all snobbish, so it's delayed. I heard about your father's talent. I am very envious and think that I am the most agreeable person, so Baba asked someone to write a post. You know the master's temper, and you can't hear three good words. At that time, you smiled and said that you will never give up, and Taishan loves you, my little nephew. With the courtesy of humility, everything depends on Taishan. Hey miss, who is this Taishan? But a famous local person? The master respects him very much." Huang Chang laughed.In an instant, but troubled.She had read a lot of legends about her stepmother from Chinese and foreign stories, but she never thought that one day this story would fall on her, and she made herself the suffering heroine in the story.She told her aunt about this concern, but the aunt couldn't help but persuaded: "That's an adult's business, you can't tell your father not to marry just like that, no one is old or young, and it doesn't matter if there is no woman in the house." Huang Chang wanted to say, why there are no women, don't there are two aunts and grandmas in the family?But she didn't ask after all.Although she is not very clear, she also knows a little bit that concubine is not a person, just like servants and the family car, they are just a need, a kind of ostentation. Later when Sun Peilan entered the door, the first thing she did was to reaffirm order and establish prestige.Sitting upright in the lobby by himself, he summoned the whole family, young and old, and ordered everyone to kneel and listen to the training. He said at length: "In the past, there was no one in charge in this family, so you are left to domineering, no matter how big or small, you will treat the young master and the young lady all the same." There are no rules. I don’t want to talk about him anymore. There is really no one to discipline me. But now, since I’m here, I absolutely don’t allow any more messy things to happen. Who doesn’t have a master in their eyes, let alone someone who has a reputation The housekeeper mother, even the old people of three or five generations, can't say anything, and they should be punished accordingly. At that time, don't say that I don't respect the old and don't give face, don't think that I am a newcomer and I will not be ashamed." The servants didn't dare to make a sound after eating the new grandma's disarming power.Cui's mother and Lin's mother murmured in private: "In the past, I only thought that my wife was amazing, but now I realize that my wife is actually a fool. She only pays attention to civilized order, and wants to teach everyone a lesson. Look at this one, that one." It’s a real grab for power, if you say something, you will do it, if you say something, you will drive someone out, how can there be any use for it?” From then on, the Huangshang sister and brother suffered misfortune, and they were picked out every now and then and fined to stand.Although Huang Chang's mother was not around since he was a child, he grew up with slaves and maidservants in rich clothes and fine clothes. When he suffered such suffering and was stubborn and unyielding by nature, he would inevitably have quarrels with his stepmother.On the grounds that she does not respect her elders, Sun Peilan frequently asks a monk to teach her the way of education.Because Huang Jiaqi is a newlywed, he is inseparable from his new wife, and he heard her say, "I'm new here, if I don't establish the rules early, my stepmother will be hard to do anything in the future, and there will be no place to stand", so everything is handed over. She is the master, she can control the life and death of her children. Once Huang Chang was doing handicrafts at school and asked Sun Peilan for white cloth and thread.Boss Sun Peilan grumbled reluctantly: "You can go to a foreign school, which is expensive and cumbersome. If you don't teach knowledge well, you have to learn some needlework. If you want to learn needlework, there are not enough maids at home. Who can't give you advice, and you have to use foreign countries. Learn in school?" He took a piece of coarse white cloth for sewing rags and patches and a roll of thick white thread for sewing quilts and came out. Huang Chang shook his head, and wanted to fetch fine white cloth and thin white thread. Sun Peilan was furious: "Fine white cloth? Fine white cloth is a good thing. It is used to make clothes to wear. Is it for you to use as a rag to learn how to sew? It's from children's homes." Things, what kind of fine white cloth should I use? If you are not in charge, you don’t know how much firewood and rice are, but if you have coarse cloth, it’s good enough. Look at the poor people. I don’t know if there are one or two pieces of coarse white cloth. You want to use fine white cloth. Handicrafts? I spend all day learning in the school, but what I learn is to waste things?!" Huang Shangrao didn't get the fine cloth, so he was scolded for a while. When he returned to school, because the coarse cloth and thick thread didn't fit his hands, his handwork was inevitably thicker than others.Since then, they have become more separated from their stepmother, hiding in school if they can't go home, try not to come back, if they can't afford to hide, they just don't meet Sun Peilan. But the Yellow Emperor still used the old method, pretending to be ill every now and then to hide from trouble.When the wind is slack, she pretends to be sick at home, and when the wind is tight, she simply hides in the hospital. When she is not sick, she is usually pale and silent, with the wind blowing down, making Sun Peilan feel angry when she looks at him, but it is inconvenient to take it seriously. Mao, after all, is the only boy in the family, and his status is not the same as Huang Chang, so we can't be too harsh on him. However, although Huang Sunpei Lan is pungent, she has something deeply in Huang Erye's mind, that is, like him, she is also an old smoker for many years, and she has practiced the good craft of burning cigarettes.The gentleness at this moment has outweighed all kinds of pungentness at other times.Whenever the two of them lay facing each other under the smoke lamp and on the smoke couch, talking about this while puffing and puffing, the second master felt that the new second mistress was very close to him, and they almost became one person. .Nothing is denied to her.Originally, she was the only one in the world, he was the only one like her, and the world between the two of them was only as big as a couch, so what else is there to care about? Therefore, the power of being the head of the family was put into the hands of the second grandma day by day. Later, even the second master had to ask the second grandma for money.But as long as Second Grandma's cigarette money is given in time, Second Master can discuss everything else.No matter what the second mistress did, he always believed that she was doing it for his own good, not to punish him deliberately. What's more, what the Second Mistress strictly deducted was only the gambling money and the money that the Second Master "spent" outside. As for the rest, the two of them have a lot in common in the art of eating, drinking and having fun. And they all like to eat canned asparagus imported from foreign countries, drink duck tongue soup, and like fresh cars.My daughter didn't have enough money to pay tuition for piano lessons, but the money to replace the old car with a new one was just right.It was all saved by the second grandma bit by bit.Second Mistress is really kind and virtuous.Huang Erye was satisfied. So when Second Grandma Huang asked Third Aunt to walk, Second Master Huang agreed without even a single trip. It was a cloudy and rainy day, and it was also on the cigarette couch. Second Grandma Huang was lighting a cigarette, lying face to face with Second Master on the couch to have fun, chatting about old things in Beijing.Naturally, Jia Qi couldn't help bragging, bragging about his skills as an expert in picking flowers and making powder, and boasting how popular he was in Bada Hutong back then. In order to grab his own business, he fought on the street, and he sometimes forgot to bring money when he went to prostitutes, and the girls would wait if they wanted to pay. Sun Peilan pursed her lips and said, "It is said that you have good eyesight and picked the oiran of Bada Hutong, but in my eyes, that third aunt is too good-looking." Jiaqi retorted: "Who said that? That's because she is old now, and the flowers and willows are gone. In the past, she was called Shui Ling. She really lives up to her name. She is a 'Sai Chang'e'. She can sing a good song again, clapper, Beijing opera, Kunqu opera, minor tunes, drums, qin, pipa, and flute, all of them are available, which can be regarded as a double masterpiece of color and art." He only cared about saving face for himself, but he didn't care about any taboos. He boasted about Sai Chang'e, how could Sun Peilan not be angry, and said sourly: "As you say, I want to see and see." On a whim, Jiaqi called the third aunt to join in the fun, and stood beside the cigarette couch, tuning the strings and singing. It is common for Sai Chang'e to sing songs for the second master to invite favors. In the past, it was the duty of a prostitute to sing songs for a whole table of male guests, but she had never tuned the strings in front of women, let alone opened her mouth like this. Sun Peilan's grandparents were lying on the high couch, and Sun Peilan looked her up and down with a pair of eyeballs. Qu sang a piece of "making trouble at school": "Don't take the swing with your hands, Feet are not allowed to step on the garden road. This provocative mouth, put the fragrant head on the scar; Be tricky, blind the embroidery needle. Then you are required to guard the inkstone and the desk, Accompanied by 'Shi Yun' and 'Zi Yue', there is no difference. Then I ask you how many strands of hair and how many back flowers? Dare to be afraid of those family laws in the wife's hall? " Jiaqi smiled brightly when she heard this, and before she could say the word "good", Sun Peilan was already furious, jumped off the cigarette couch and threw the bong at Sai Chang'e, scolding: "I don't need to." You 'keep the inkstone, follow the book table, accompany "Shiyun" and "Ziyue"', I really want to poke your "provocative mouth" and "fascinating eyes" scalds blind. What are those in the madam's hall? Family law'? Do you dare to mock me for using family law indiscriminately and treating my family harshly?" Then Sai Chang'e was not an easy-going lamp, she was already full of grievances and suffered a loss, so she simply threw herself at Sun Peilan, crying, "You hit me, you hit me, I'll let you beat me to death. Are you mistreating your family with family law? You don’t know it in your heart, but you still ask me? It’s true, “I have never eaten pork, but I have seen pigs running.” I have never seen anything in Sai Chang’e’s eyes. You are such a housekeeper who can put on airs and play tricks!" Huang Jiaqi originally thought that Sun Peilan was picky about the libretto, which was troublesome, but seeing Sai Chang'e rolling and spitting, snot lined with tears, disheveled hair like a monster, he couldn't help but get bored, and shouted: "Don't quarrel, there are no rules, this is the second grandma, You dare to quarrel with grandma like this in front of me, you can imagine how disgusting it is usually!" Seeing Jiaqi supporting her, Sun Peilan became more proud, and immediately forced him to give up his concubine.Sai Chang'e was not afraid, she rolled on the ground and cried loudly, "Shut up, who is afraid of whom? It's just that I have been in the Huang's family for so many years, and I have never stolen or raised troubles. You two have too many eyes. I think it's too cheap to drive me away, but I can't. It's easy to ask me to leave, just think that I said that Chang'e followed the wrong customer and was entrusted by the second master for many years, and now the business is over. The second master is a Understandable people, how much money should be paid for a month in the kiln, the second master naturally knows in his heart, if you want to pay me, but you can't lose a penny of hard work!" Huang Erye thought it was unbelievable at first, but after thinking about it carefully, he felt that it was not impossible.Originally in Zhao Yifan's era, the second master was already very troubled by the troubles brought to him by the third concubine, but because he was competitive, he refused to bow his head to his wife, and Sai Chang'e was still young and beautiful at that time, a plump peach was as fresh as water, It is indeed not willing.However, sister kiln ages quickly, and the more beautiful the scenery when she is young, the more she can't help but look at it when she is old. , it doesn't matter.Since the second mistress is willing to take care of his concubine's expenses on his behalf, then it's up to her, don't worry about it.As for Sai Chang'e's big talk, it's also human nature. After all, she has been with her for many years, and she is too degraded to be laughed at by others, so it doesn't matter if the severance package is generous. But Sun Peilan just wanted his concubine to leave, and it was settled once and for all. The severance fee was a trivial matter, so it was rare for him to be generous. He gave Sai Chang'e a large batch of gold and silver utensils and antique furniture that he didn't need in front of him, and sent her on the road in a glorious manner. . On the day Sai Chang'e left, she specially sent a letter to the countryside to ask her distant brother to pick her up in a car. happy event. The servants of Huang's family still remembered that scene many years later, and they often commented: "It is said all the time that a bitch goes ashore from a good life. Looking at it this way, it is true to go ashore after becoming a concubine and then being divorced, returning to wealth and freedom." Sun Peilan painstakingly squeezed Sai Chang'e away, but graciously kept her second concubine, Chu Hong. This was not because she was extra gracious to Chu Hong, but because she never regarded Chu Hong as a rival or concubine at all. , but only when she is a maid. It's true that she was confiscated and made a child, so what?If you are a maid for a day, you will be a maid for life, even worse than a maid.The girl still has a future, but Chu Hong was crucified on this cross for the rest of her life, and she was destined to serve Huang Erye and Huang Ermai for the rest of her life. Ever since Sun Peilan entered the door, Chu Hong had always been an almond-peeling machine in her eyes, with her body arched forever, her front bangs draped in one strand, her eyes downcast, her nose and her chest were blurred, and only two hands could be seen. It is moving, like a partial still painting. Huang Erye always has phlegm in his throat because of smoking, and he wants to drink almond tea to clear the fire.The second aunt is too Chu Hong, she seems to be married to make almonds, she either does not see anyone all day long, or she just sits on the back door sill peeling almonds, after a long time, a strange smell emanates from her whole body Green almond flavor, cold and fragrant. Huang's almond tea is very particular.As the saying goes: Southern apricots are sweet, while northern apricots are bitter.The usual almond tea is mostly made of sweet kernels, which are crushed, added with sugar and water, and then cooked with medium heat. However, Huang's family needs to add a few bitter kernels to the sweet kernels in strict proportions to increase their fragrance.Small heart-shaped almonds are soaked in cold water to remove the bitterness, then peeled by hand, paired with high-quality white rice, and ground into dust in a mortar, just like crushing a heart.Then add sugar and stew until cooked, and watch the heat, pour a little fresh milk before boiling, so that the almond tea will add a bit of milk flavor.Not too sweet, not too sweet - this is knowledge. The almond tea made by the second aunt, Chuhong, is sweet but not greasy, clear but not bitter, it is truly the best almond tea.If it weren't for this, the second master really couldn't remember that he had such a concubine, and he would never ask about her existence in his spare time.She was always there anyway, on time like clockwork, at just the right moment to deliver a bowl of well-brewed almond tea. But this morning the almond tea was discontinued, and the tea servant came back and reported that the second aunt was ill, she was asleep in bed, had a high fever, and was talking nonsense. It looked like she had typhoid fever. Huang Erye was very upset. How could an aunt, who can't get out of the wind and rain except for peeling almonds, be so delicate and have typhoid fever for no reason.Treat it, it's another expense, and if you die, there will be a half-dead person lying in the house.The second master really didn't have the mood to worry about these things, so he just waved his hand and said, "Ask grandma, let grandma make up her mind." Sun Peilan was very surprised: "Typhoid fever? That's an infectious disease. It killed people. Who else is there in the second aunt's family? Don't recuperate here, it will be terrible for others." Asked that the people in her hometown were indeed dead. , Then he frowned and said: "It's because I don't have money, but because I'm wordy. How can this be good? Take care of the kitchen and make some light food. Let's take a look at it for two days." The tone of her speech was like picking up a cat or dog on the side of the road, and she wanted to "keep it for a couple of days" on the spur of the moment.The servant was heartbroken, but he didn't dare to say more, so he could only follow Second Grandma's orders. On the contrary, the second master asked twice later, saying that since Chu Hong fell ill, the taste of this almond tea has been much worse, either it is overcooked and sweet, or it is bitter and astringent.This person's gestures are not as good as the second aunt's grandma, I don't know how long it will take for Chu Hong to get better. The second grandma said: "She is an infectious disease. I ventured in to see her once, but she didn't look very good. I have already informed the housekeeper. The next time Dr. Lin, who gave Xiaodi the injection, came again, I asked him to take a look at the second wife." My aunt. Dr. Lin has been coming in and out of our house for the past two years, and he has taken a lot of money. If you want him to show it to my second aunt, I think he will be embarrassed to talk about money, right?" The second master got dizzy when he heard the money, and muttered twice: "What is the price of western medicine now? A little emperor can't afford it anymore, so add another Chu Hong." After that, he didn't ask again. By the end of the year, my second aunt died.It is said that it is tuberculosis, which will damage Feng Shui, and the ancestral graves are not allowed to enter, so they are dragged to mass graves and buried casually. Since then, the second room of Huang's family has only one grandma in charge, ending the years of wives and concubines in groups. On this point, the behavior of the second grandmother Sun Peilan is much more thorough and effective than the former second grandmother Zhao Yifan who advocated monogamy wholeheartedly. Regarding the death of the second aunt Chu Hong, the legend of the servants of the Huang family has a romantic flavor. One of the hottest rumors is that the second aunt actually wanted to die voluntarily because she fell in love with a person who could not love each other——Dr. Lin from Renxin Hospital. Dr. Lin is a foreign student who works in Renxin Hospital. He was introduced to Huang's family by a friend, and he often comes to give injections to Master Huangdi. Huang Di was weak and sickly since he was a child, and there were more bad times than good times, so the family often needed a doctor.Later, Mr. Lin was fixed because his attitude was exceptionally good and the fee was exceptionally low. Dr. Lin's good attitude is obvious to all. He speaks politely to everyone. Unless he sees a doctor and prescribes a prescription, he will never sit when others are standing, and the same is true with his servants.If the servant is polite to him, he will say: "Everyone is equal, I should respect you." Everyone thinks he is good, but also thinks he is weird, and often makes jokes about his words and deeds.The second aunt is no exception. But at that time, after all, he was far away, at most, he would glance at each other, nod and say hello to each other, and she couldn't even serve tea and water, and there were a lot of maids and women scrambling to do it.But now, now they were suddenly closer than ever before.He was sitting by her bed, holding her hand with one hand, and stroking her forehead with the other, muttering worriedly, tenderly, and concernedly: "The fever is very severe, we need to take medicine quickly." Oh my god, the second aunt Chu Hong almost passed out at that moment.No man had ever spoken to her with such tenderness and concern, let alone such a civilized and noble gentleman. Chu Hong choked with sobs, unable to speak for a while.Dr. Lin misunderstood, and comforted him more softly: "Don't worry, I will help you. Come, drink some water." After speaking, he sat up with one hand on Chu Hong's shoulder, and the other hand took the The cup was brought to her mouth. "Don't worry, I will help you." This is undoubtedly the most heartwarming sentence my second aunt heard in her life, and it can be engraved on the epitaph.Leaning in Dr. Lin's arms, she felt happy even if she died at this moment.Now she was suddenly grateful for the illness.If it wasn't for the typhoid fever, how could she have had the opportunity to approach Dr. Lin, and how could she have let him say "don't worry" to her hand in hand.He also said, "I will help you." How would he help her?take her away?Leave this Huang family? Chu Hong was taken aback by her own thoughts.Before that, she never thought that she could have another way, that she could leave Huang Jiaqi and Huang Ermao.But now she thought of it.Even if she can't realize it, she already has such a wish, such a dream.And the origin of all crazy dreams stems from that person! Maybe a patient shouldn't be too cranky, that's really not good for her health.Although Chu Hong was taking medicine, her illness became worse day by day.Dr. Lin was very confused, and blamed himself very much: "I am really not good at learning, so I can't help you." It was already difficult for Chu Hong to speak at that time, but she still blushed and said happily, "I don't blame you." Her face was so red, even better than the rouge of the former third concubine Sai Chang'e.And she herself has never used rouge.She was very afraid that Dr. Lin's eyes would make him look down upon her. However, Dr. Lin explained otherwise, thinking that this is the usual agitation and morbidity of patients with lung diseases.He felt even more guilty about it. In autumn, Chu Hong's illness had become serious, and it seemed hopeless.As usual, the Yellow Emperor would inevitably get sick every spring and autumn, and had to be admitted to the hospital.Grandma Huang also told Dr. Lin not to come again. From then on, Chu Hong's originally dim hut lost even more sunlight, except for the servant who brought her meals, there was almost no one to see.And she was unconscious most of the time, and when she was a little better, she leaned against the window and stared hard, as if she was looking forward to it. The leaves are turning yellow day by day, but that person did not come; The leaves fell day by day, but the man did not come; Winter is a season without flowers, but there is snow, if snow is also a kind of flower. Seeds germinate under the snow, and thoughts are refrigerated in the snow.Aunt Chu Hong never told anyone what was on her mind, and no one asked. Then she died, as silently as in life. It wasn't until the next morning when someone delivered the meal that the second aunt had passed away, so she hurriedly reported it to the second grandmother.Second Mistress sighed, as if relieved from a heavy burden, and said, "It's another expense." But in fact, no funeral of any kind was arranged, but all the bedding and utensils in the house were burned, for fear that there would be germs left behind. When she was packing her luggage, the servant found a medicine bottle under her pillow, which was full of western medicine prescribed by Dr. Lin. That is a life-saving medicine!Dr. Lin gave them to her one by one out of his own pocket, why didn't she eat them?