Chapter 7 contest and choice

Can a person love two people at the same time?When a man sincerely regards his wife as a lifelong partner and never intends to change her course, must his sweet words to another woman be lies?When marriage transforms love into family affection, is the new passion generated by men outside marriage more real and pure?If he stays true to his feelings and ends his marriage and becomes a man made for love, will he be accused of being a modern day Chan Se Mi?And if he violated his own heart in order to maintain the integrity of the family, and shed tears with his lover, is he morally perfect or lacks courage?

Chen Yu and Lu Na are sitting face to face in the coffee shop. Is this a contest between the original partner and the lover, or a choice between marriage and love? To Chen Yu's surprise, Luna is not the image of a "vixen" in the usual sense—she has an ordinary appearance, with only dignified features;There is nothing in her body that is better than Chen Yu's, not even more gentle and younger than Chen Yu's. The only bright spot is her pair of big eyes, black and white, like stars and water, with a clarity and brightness that does not match her age. "You must be wondering what attracts your husband to me, right? I think maybe it's because I'm ordinary enough." Luna looked at Chen Yu frankly, "You are more beautiful than I imagined."

Chen Yu secretly said that it was because my installation fee was higher than my budget.She showed a smile that she is used to see through: "The emperor eats a lot of delicacies, and he will also miss the 'red-billed green parrot'. You invited me here today, just to tell me how ordinary you are, and how beautiful I am?" ?” "Of course it's more than that." Luna still opened a pair of black and white eyes openly, and said calmly, "I just don't want to be too sneaky. Even if this relationship ends here, I have to give it a good end and give myself a happy ending." Clearly explain, a clear name."

"The identity of the third party?" Chen Yu's tone gradually became harsh.This woman is too shameless, a vixen, actually asked her original partner for her title!At the same time, she couldn't help but sigh in her heart: hell, how can an adult have such clean and innocent eyes?Maybe, my husband is fascinated by such a pair of lying eyes?Today's third party no longer winks like silk, but just pretends to be innocent and can have an affair calmly. "What does the third party mean?" Luna suddenly smiled, "If I am the third party, who is the first party? You? Or him? I think this is a question of perspective, everyone stands on their own Look at the world from the standpoint of the universe, assuming that you are the center of the universe, and then look at the people and things around you as the background and secondary. Between you and him, I am the third party that destroys the relationship between your husband and wife; but between me and him , but you are a third party who clings to the empty shell of marriage and deceives yourself. We really love each other, and we used to be intimate, where were you at that time? You are not even a third party. "

Chen Yu was furious, but he had no words to respond.She suddenly thought of a terrible problem: when her husband was lying next to her in the same bed, maybe he was thinking about the woman in front of him; but when he was with this woman, he completely forgot about himself.At that time, where was he?I am not even a third party! What could tear the curtain of marriage more nakedly than that?Chen Yu felt that she had bought this Chanel suit worth over ten thousand for nothing. She was sitting naked in front of Luna, sitting in front of her husband's lover, allowing her to humiliate, trample on her, and laugh at her proudly marriage and dignity.

Luna is still talking and laughing: "Compared with 'third party', I prefer the word 'lover'. I am willing to be his lover. Whether it is a year or a month, we will be lovers for a day, Just like one day’s true love; just like one day’s family life when you are his wife, it’s all a kind of status. Lovers and wives are just a layer of wrapping paper wrapped around the relationship between men and women. " Chen Yu heard a crackling sound in his heart.She knew that it was the crack in her marriage.Ever since the cell phone incident happened, she had guessed that her husband was having an affair, but if she didn't face it, she could put on a mask and behave as a human being.But now, Lu Na forcibly tore off the mask, and because of excessive force, Chen Yu's face was also torn off.However, she still forced a smile and said: "Wrong, marriage is not a layer of paper, but two certificates - a marriage certificate. Lover, but there is nothing." She did not allow her weakness and despair to be exposed in front of her rival, Even if you work hard, you have to wait until you get home before you vomit.Since this woman is so confident, she can almost be called upright, so she can't be too bad.

In this day and age, those who cry and pretend to be happy are often not prostitutes who force women into prostitution, but women from good families who care for their husbands and teach their children. Chen Yu pressed a banknote under the coffee cup and stood up: "I think I am a good wife and can take care of my husband's three meals a day, but I never remember to buy snacks for him. Thank you for reminding me." When Chen Yu was defeated by her husband's lover, Lu Yu was forced to face her lover's girlfriend. As soon as she returned to Dalian, the girl in the restaurant couldn't wait to report to her: "There is a woman named Hu Xiaomei who calls you every day. I asked her if she was in a hurry, and she said no, and she wouldn't let us call. You, said to wait until you come back."

Before the words finished, the phone rang again, and it was Hu Xiaomei.She said that she loves tea art, has admired Lu Yu for a long time, and wants to meet her very much. Lu Yu knew that there must be something strange, and guessed many possibilities, and at the first sight of meeting, she recognized that this was the girl who walked with Wei Jianming outside the Haagen-Dazs store that day.She secretly laughed, she saw them that day, but they didn't see her.Therefore, this girl still thinks that she is unfathomable, and wants to play a private interview on a micro-service, to know herself and her enemy.Don't you know that this trick is Lu Yu's forte.

"If you want to learn tea art, you can come to my tea ceremony class to sign up. The next class will start soon." Lu Yu said enthusiastically, "Would you like to show you our leaflet and class schedule?" "Oh, no need, how much is it?" Hu Xiaomei obviously never thought that Lu Yu would come to this trick. "It's very cheap. A total of 480 yuan is charged for 16 class hours in one semester, including the tea set used in the practice." "So expensive?" Hu Xiaomei was taken aback. "It's not expensive." Lu Yu smiled nonchalantly: "Drinking a pot of Tieguanyin King here costs 580 yuan. 480 yuan is already a symbolic fee. My purpose is not to make money, but to popularize tea art and tea ceremony. Chinese people make friends. Doesn’t Miss Hu like the tea ceremony very much?”

"Oh..." Hu Xiaomei's cheeks were flushed, and she muttered, "Let me think about it again." She picked up a tea list and flipped through it. The numbers on it really made her dizzy. It is expensive, and it also includes various items such as tea seat fee, private room fee, and service fee. Hu Xiaomei didn't dare to sit longer, afraid that Lu Yu would charge her if she talked for a while, so she managed to hold on for another two minutes, then fled in despair. A new taekwondo coach named Men Hai came to "Su Yao Pavilion", and immediately launched a fierce pursuit of Ruan Mi'er.Everyone saw it clearly, but no one expressed or hinted at Mi'er's true identity. Mi'er herself was inconvenient to show up as a proprietress for no reason. Refined and elegant, there is nothing offensive or negligent, and Mi'er can only pretend to be ignorant and let it go.

After work this day, colleagues from the fitness center met to go to karaoke to sing, and both Mi'er and Menhai went.Menhai clicked a few love songs in a row, and when he sang, his eyes drifted to Mi'er, and he couldn't hide his affection.All the colleagues watched secretly amused, waiting for a good show to be staged.Mi'er knows everyone's thoughts well, but she asks for tea and songbooks, but refuses to meet Menhai's eyes.But the spectators are willing to wait for a long time, a play has already been played, and Xiaosheng has sung, but Xiaodan still refuses to appear, so he booed and asked Ruan Mier and Menhai to sing a song together, and then plugged the microphone into the microphone. in hand.Mi'er didn't refuse, took it and sang "Pearl of the Orient", and his colleagues applauded vigorously, saying it was a perfect match, and ordered a few more classic songs sung by men and women for them on their own initiative.Of course Mi'er knew that they had no good intentions, but one hadn't sung for a long time, and her throat was really itchy; After a bout of singing addiction. In the middle of the night, everyone dispersed, and everyone took a taxi to go home. Menhai volunteered to see Mier off, but when the crowd was gone, he thought it would be better to go for a walk before taking the car.Mi'er sang so warmly that she didn't insist on it.The moonlight is like water, and although it is early winter, the night breeze in Shanghai is still gentle.Mi'er watched the figures of the two people under the streetlights fluctuating from far to near to long and short, and she couldn't help but feel a strange feeling in her heart, as if watching a movie, she was divided into two, one was performing on the screen, and the other was in the auditorium Watching the show online, I don't know which one is the real self. Suddenly Menhai chuckled and said: "Three great things in life: meeting a bosom friend in song, meeting an opponent in chess, meeting a bosom friend in wine." Mi'er's heart moved, and she felt quite the same, but she deliberately said tactfully: "My husband often said the same thing. Every time he played chess with me, he thought I was bad, and said that life is not always good. The worst thing is that you can't match your opponent." "Life is often unsatisfactory." Men Hai repeated softly, then suddenly stood down, looked at Mi'er, and said seriously, "But the most regrettable thing is that I met you too late." Mi'er was a little flustered, two thoughts flashed through her mind at the same time: Menhai actually knew that she was married; but he was still determined to confess his love tonight.She pointed at the sky in a panic: "Who said that? The biggest regret is that the moon can only be full once a month." "Once is better than nothing." Menhai asked, "Mi'er, are you hinting at me?" "What?" Mi'er was puzzled for a moment. Menhai's eyes sparkled and he said, "Are you telling me that you are willing to be with me? Even if it's only once a month." Mi'er was even more flustered, and simply played her aggressive nature, joking recklessly: "Once a month is menstruation." She scolded herself in her heart, and there was nothing worse than this. As expected, Menhai's enthusiasm was half repelled, and he took a few steps forward sullenly, before sighing, "I didn't believe in love at first sight before, thinking that those were all good wishes made up by novelists. But when I met Only then did I realize how painful it really was.” The deep helplessness and nostalgia in his words moved Mi'er.Mi'er's eyes were moist. No one had ever said these words to her. Even when she was filming a movie, she had never heard such a heart-to-heart dialogue.This line is better than that written by all the big name screenwriters in the circle, and it is more beautiful than that recited by all the male protagonists, because Menhai is sincere. At this moment, Mi'er regards herself as the heroine of a love tragedy, just like what Keyi once said: "From the day I met him, I knew that he didn't belong to me, it was impossible, and I hadn't waited for true love. In reality, I was already defeated by that sense of despair, by the tragic spirit of the story, by my own pity and helplessness, so I fell into a bitter love and couldn't extricate myself, and I no longer had the energy and leisure to think about it. Is a man worthy of my love?" She looked at Menhai and said sadly, "I used to be an actor and acted in many absurd romance films, but later I discovered that life is always more exciting than movies." "I know, I have a scrapbook, which is full of reports about you, and I have a collection of all your film and television works." "You know?" Mi'er was stunned, almost thinking that he had met Meng Haixia again - both of them had Hai in their names - did they lose to the extras again this time? "Then you also know who I married?" "I know, but I can only pretend not to know." Men Hai said quietly: "Aside from pretending not to know that you are married, what other reason do I have to allow myself to stay in Suyao Pavilion so that I can continue to see you?" You, what about chasing you?" Mi'er was stunned again. At this moment, several people suddenly poured out from the corner of the street, surrounding Mi'er and Menhai.Mi'er thought it was a robbery, and was about to scream, but saw those people all holding up their cameras to take pictures of them, the spotlights flashing wildly, and it turned out to be reporters, and they asked questions in one go: "Miss Ruan, may I ask this person?" Is it your rumored boyfriend?" "Someone said that you have a new boyfriend just four months after you married into the Li family, is that true?" "Sir, may I ask your surname, are you pursuing Li? Mrs?" Mi'er was inexplicably alarmed, and almost saw the headline on the entertainment section of tomorrow's newspaper: "Retired movie star is unwilling to be lonely, married into a wealthy family is still romantic".If Li Jia saw the newspaper, if Li Jia's family saw the newspaper, if Su Yao Pavilion's colleagues saw the newspaper... the consequences would be unimaginable.When she was in the entertainment industry, she only thought of scandals as publicity, but now that she is married to a wife, having an affair is a crime and a taint.She tried her best to defend herself: "This is just my colleague, drop me off to take me home. Don't write nonsense. Don't take pictures, don't take pictures..." Men Hai suddenly kicked, kicking left and right, one kick at a time, kicking away the cameras in the reporter's hands.In a blink of an eye, he already had seven or eight extra cameras in his hand.The reporters yelled: "Beat someone!" "You dare to hurt someone?" "We're going to sue you!" Simply and neatly sold the stolen goods.He stood in front of Mi'er and said in a gentle manner: "Mister reporters, can I have a word?" The reporters probably didn't expect that the "adulterant" not only dared to hit someone, but also had the courage to stand up and speak out, so they all fell silent. Men Hai then talked eloquently: "I'm just an employee in Ms. Ruan's company. Today is a company party. Every male employee is responsible for sending a female colleague home. It's just that I happened to be lucky enough to send Ms. Ruan off. This is the truth. If you don’t believe me, you can call the company tomorrow to inquire. Ms. Ruan has retired and is no longer suitable for these superficial hypes. I hope you don’t make trouble out of nothing; An ordinary person will sue you in order to protect his reputation. I just took away your cameras just now and did not hurt anyone, and I hope you will not hurt Ms. Ruan with false reports." The reporters woke up from the chaos and found that they were not injured, but the cameras in their hands disappeared. They all admired Men Hai's kung fu, and after hearing his neither humble nor overbearing and polite words, they all cheered in unison. They all clapped their hands together and said with a smile: "Since you can say that, we won't scribble unreasonably. Give us back the camera." It's a waste." "Yes, just now we thought you were some actor, and you and Miss Ruan are so good together, no wonder we misunderstood." The reporters took back their cameras and left with a wave of their hands. The bustling scene just now suddenly became deserted, but Mi'er's heart was more restless than ever.I have dealt with similar scenes many times before, and I have also faced more thrilling and absurd problems, but I have never encountered such a daring male protagonist.The previous opponents were all focused on protecting themselves at the first moment, or rushing to clean up, or pretending to be mysterious, but no one, like Menhai in front of him, cared about, considered, and guaranteed her wholeheartedly. .What's more, his skills just now are so handsome, his words are so good, his demeanor is so chic, he looks like a French knight.Yes, Zorro! Mi'er raised her head and said affectionately, "I met a Zorro!" That night, Mi'er woke up with her eyes open until dawn, and Menhai's affectionate confession, kicking the camera, and speeches in front of reporters, all repeated in front of her eyes like a movie, Zoom in, slow down, and freeze into eternal moments. She turned her body sideways and looked at Li Jia who was sleeping soundly beside her. Few people could be so handsome, deep and sad when they were fast asleep—Mi'er couldn't help thinking, what was on Li Jia's mind?They have been husband and wife for a while, but his world and her world are still in the same space and different time, and there is no communication at all. Love at first sight, three-day engagement, although it is still a cliché story of a starlet marrying a rich young master, but this kind of fate is still every Cinderella's fairy tale dream.Now Mi'er is the heroine of this fairy tale, but apart from being able to bask in the sun unscrupulously in the rose garden in broad daylight, there is nothing special to be happy about.They are newly married and respect each other as guests, so they have nothing to complain about at first. At first, they suspected that Li Jia was cold, but later found out that it was a false alarm. However, Mier still felt that something was wrong and alienated. There seemed to be a constant relationship between herself and Li Jia. It may be a wall, it may be a person, it may be a past event, in short, even though they share the same bed and are in harmony with each other, their heartbeats are always at different frequencies. Mi'er longs for love, she is willing to take a break from filming, and is willing to live the life of ordinary people, nothing more than to enjoy a real love, love each other down-to-earth, and get along with each other sincerely.However, what Li Jianeng gave her was just an empty shell of marriage, the title of noble lady. He never opened up to her, and rarely even talked to her.If she needs it urgently and hints at him clearly, he will also cooperate with her to complete a husband and wife show; however, he seldom takes the initiative and turns a blind eye to her coquettishness.When he came back after marrying her, he placed her at home like a precious item from an auction, and regarded her as a kind of possession. Mi'er always wanted to be the heroine, but accidentally became the hostess.All she could do was lie under the rose bushes, bask in the sun endlessly, and daydream endlessly. Now, the hero of her dream appeared, he is not some prince charming, but a modern Zorro, he said to her: "The biggest regret in life is that I met you too late." She, do you want to stand down and wait for him to catch up? It took two days for Mi'er to tell her good friends about Menhai, but this did not prevent her from speaking vividly. "It was too late and then quickly, he rushed forward, with a sweeping leg on the left and a scissors kick on the right, and kicked all the cameras into the air. It's all in his hands. It's even more exciting than the movie!" "Mi'er, what you're talking about is a movie!" Chen Yu couldn't believe it, "You are handsome, good at martial arts, good at eloquence, and have a deep love for you. If there is such a person in life, you won't wait until today without a girlfriend gone." "Maybe it's because he has good eyesight." Mi'er said, "Men Hai said that he didn't believe in love at first sight before, but only after he saw me." Lu Yu smiled: "We'd better not doubt Mi'er, otherwise she will say that we are jealous of her." Ke Yi also said: "I'm really jealous. But I still doubt—not whether Men Hai exists, but whether what Men Hai did is reasonable—how could those reporters appear at that time How did they know that you would walk past there? You are not a popular star, and the paparazzi have no time for that, and follow your actions 24 hours a day. Don’t you think it’s a bit strange?” "Maybe they just finished another interview and happened to pass by there..." Mi'er argued. Chen Yu said: "I said it was basically a good show by the director beforehand. The hero saves the beauty. It's too old-fashioned." Lu Yu was still smiling: "New wine in old bottles, new plots in old dramas. In the past, the heroes who rescued the beauty were beaten by hooligans, but this time they beat the reporters." Mi'er was annoyed, and said in a temper: "Even if he is acting, it is well-intentioned." Ke Yi sighed: "When a woman falls into the trap of love, she will become blindly trusting. It's not because this woman is easy to trust, but because she only believes what she wants to believe." Mi'er retorted: "When a woman sees her friend's luck, she will become blind and suspicious. It's not because this woman is particularly cautious and smart, but because she doesn't want to believe in other people's luck and charm." Lu Yu laughed loudly, but Chen Yu immediately became excited: "Wait, I'll go get the book." Ke Yi asked Mi'er: "What are you going to do now?" Without waiting for Mi'er to answer, Chen Yu first advised her: "It doesn't matter what happens to him, let's talk about it after enjoying this romantic story. However, you have to learn to protect yourself. Divorce is not worth it because of an affair. You have to find out whether he is A man who is willing to keep a woman's secret." Lu Yu also said: "The most shameful thing a man can do is to talk about women's favor." Mi'er asked Chen Yu back: "What is your plan? A third party is calling, will you divorce your husband?" "I'm not that stupid." Chen Yu said angrily, and turned desolate, "I spent my youth waiting for a man to mature and succeed, and to conceive a pair of twins with him, even if the marriage is not as good as I imagined Perfect, but everything is still there; if I leave, there will be nothing, and I don’t want to do what that vixen wishes. At worst, he will be the first day of junior high school, and I will be the fifteenth day of junior high school. Ke Yi asked: "You mean to give one for another? Where is your 'Fifteen'?" Lu Yu asked, "Is it for revenge?" Mi'er replied for Chen Yu: "I don't do anything, I just want to find a true love. Realize what marriage has in marriage, and look for what marriage doesn't have outside of marriage, that is love." Mi'er's words expressed the common aspirations of the three girlfriends.For the first time in this girlfriend chat meeting, Keyi did not draw conclusions. Keyi didn't return to Xi'an for several weekends in a row. Professor Qian couldn't stay any longer and decided to come to Beijing to visit his wife in person.On the eve of his departure, Professor Qian felt uneasy and asked Keyi on the phone: "How is the temperature in Beijing now? How many sets of clothes should I bring? I have classes on Tuesday, can I buy tickets then? I want Why don't you just buy a ticket back when you get off the train?" Ke Yi checked the weather forecast on her mobile phone while talking on the phone, and said impatiently: "Beijing is similar to Xi'an. Anyway, it's winter over your side, and it's winter over here, so you should wear whatever you want. You'll be here for two days, and you'll wear a set. It’s enough to bring one set, and at worst, you can buy it when you come. It’s not the peak season for transportation, and it’s not difficult to buy train tickets, but at worst, you can buy air tickets if you can’t buy train tickets.” Professor Qian was dissatisfied: "'big deal' 'big deal', you are all 'big deal', 'big deal' I won't go, 'big deal' is the most worry-free when you want to go home." Ke Yi said angrily, "Aren't we going to quarrel every weekend? We haven't met yet, so what if you want to rehearse?" Professor Qian didn't want to make any noise, so he held back his anger and said, "Okay, I can figure it out. You don't need to pick me up, sleep more, anyway, I know the way, the 'big deal' can't find me, just go back to the original car .” The two hung up the phone, both depressed.Ke Yi looked at the ceiling and thought helplessly: This kind of tasteless marriage is really tasteless, a dilemma.But there seemed to be no reason for the divorce. Professor Qian was an upright person and devoted himself to himself. If he left him, would there be a better choice waiting for him around the corner? She remembered Mi'er's words: implement what marriage has in marriage, and look for what marriage doesn't have outside marriage.May I?Is it possible to do that? They used to be in love back then, and they also tried to fall in love at first sight, just like Ruan Mier and Menhai now.At that time, the telephone porridge lasted from night to dawn, and there were so many sweet words and sweet words. I wished to be together every second, so I got married—when I got married, I had to take care of daily necessities; if I wanted to live a better life, I had to endure it. The two places live apart; after a long time, the relationship becomes weaker and weaker, and condenses into jelly-like crystals.They have become more and more speechless, except for arguing.No one wants to quarrel. Unable to fall asleep, she simply sent a text message to Lu Yu: Did you sleep?I'm bored. Lu Yu quickly called back: "What's wrong? Sexual depression in the middle of the night?" Keyi is embarrassed: "You haven't slept yet? Don't disturb your rest?" "It's been a long night, I don't want to sleep. I just want to talk to someone." That is to say, Lu Yu is alone tonight.Keyi was relieved, and began to complain: "My husband will come over tomorrow." "That's just right, the problem of sexual distress can be solved soon." "However, I don't feel hopeful at all. Instead, I feel that it is a hard job. I wish I could finish it quickly and have a good rest. Shouldn't it be the end of the couple who have done this? I'm really afraid that we will quarrel again when we meet." Lu Yu stopped smiling and persuaded her earnestly: "Husband and wife need to communicate, and quarreling is also a kind of passive communication. From a psychological point of view, the reason you quarrel as soon as you meet is because you lack a sense of security in your heart and suppress too much. I want to communicate with each other about my thoughts and emotions, but I don’t know how to communicate, so I can’t help showing a kind of impatience, which turns into a quarrel. When a couple reaches this stage, they should be careful. It’s okay to quarrel, and calm down after the quarrel Sit down and have a good talk, when you are too lazy to quarrel, then the husband and wife will really be the leader. You two, there is still a long way to go. " Ke Yi was laughed at by Lu Yu: "You can indeed open a psychological clinic and charge for shifts, and you can look good when you start psychological counseling." "Well, you owe me a consulting fee." "In general, do psychiatrists have tips up their sleeves for their clients?" "There will be suggestions - I suggest you make a plan for yourself. Don't you plan for the magazine every day? Plan for your own marriage once, arrange two days of programs well, get back the feeling of first love, and see if you still love him. Is there any love?" Ke Yi's workaholic immediately exploded: "That's a good idea, why not call it "Finding Your First Love" next time, invite three to four couples, let the magazine arrange a whole day of activities, and design some fixed scenes, such as in the Summer Palace Come to "Amazing Dreams in the Garden", "Human and Ghost Love" in the Tao Bar, and finally "True Matching", follow up, shoot and interview all the way, record every bit of the whole process, and test them The degree of tacit understanding and harmony, and then asking you, a psychologist, to comment on the internal injuries and treatment methods of marriage, it is quite a sense of the scene." Lu Yu couldn't help laughing: "Yeah, if you manage your own marriage, it's good to have half of your dedication to work." "The sad thing is that after the last Internet incident, my love for work is no longer what it used to be." Ke Yi's mood sank again, "I finally know what it means to be 'involuntary in the rivers and lakes', Journal Circle Just like the Grand View Garden, everyone is performing, and you can’t do it if you don’t participate in the performance, because those who want to perform will still treat you as a living prop. The third sister You said well, 'If you can keep your innocence, you can't keep your name'. I'm really tired, I really want to resign and go home, quit this arena, and live my life cleanly." "Mi'er quit the film industry, and she will still be chased by the paparazzi. As long as she is alive and wants to live a good life, who doesn't roll in the rivers and lakes?" "Everyone wants to quit the rivers and lakes. I just don't know. Where did they go? In the past, there was still a crowned farmer. What about us? We didn't even have a piece of land. What kind of farmer did we belong to? Marriage? Family? Count on money The teacher raised me? I am afraid that I will not have this life in this life. I really envy the women in the past, "marry a man, marry a man, wear clothes and eat food". Nowadays, women are becoming less and less worthless. Marrying someone will only lead to a harder life , because I have to worry about the life and death of another person.” "Yeah, you seem to be particularly emotional these days, it's not like you." Lu Yu was a little worried, "Everyone has periods of low mood, and psychology calls this a 'black hole', which describes people wanting to hide in a hole The feeling of retreating and resting. However, you can no longer let this negative emotion continue to be decadent. If you have problems, you have to face them and find ways to actively solve them. Otherwise, it will be too unlike you." "I will. Tomorrow, I will go with Mr. Qian to 'wander in the garden' and 'the love between ghosts and ghosts'." Keyi really wants to ask Lu Yu, you have always cared about other people's moods, husband and wife are loving, you yourself Woolen cloth?To whom do you open your heart?You who live alone, even though you have a lot of romantic affairs, can those fleeting loves enter your heart?Perhaps this is the reason for Lu Yuxiu's psychology, but who can the psychologist turn to for help with his psychological problems?However, when the words came to her lips, what she asked was only a seemingly joking sentence: "Have you had an affair recently?" "Yes. But it's not an affair, it's an encounter. It's someone you know." "Who?" "Your boss, Gu Jianbo." "What?" Keyi was very surprised, "Gu Jianbo pursued you? Why didn't you tell me?" "Ever since I had a meal in Beijing last time, he has been calling and texting me. At most, he sent dozens of messages in a day. I thought that as long as I ignored him, I would be fine soon. After all, he is your boss, so if you talk too much, you are afraid of causing trouble. But the day before yesterday, he chased me to Dalian, and he said that he would never stop until he caught me. I really don't know what to do." "My God, it's no wonder that Gu Jianbo didn't come to the magazine office for several days, and he didn't call. It turns out that he is in Dalian." Ke Yi exclaimed again and again, but also found it funny, "Is there a time when you don't know what to do? Didn't you tell him you were married?" "Of course I did." When it came to his marriage, Lu Yu still didn't want to talk about it, and simply said, "Forget it, the soldiers will block it, and the water will cover it up. I don't like him, can he still force me? Tomorrow we will We still have to meet, so I decided to have a clear talk with him. Anyway, I have something to ask him, and I was too embarrassed to push too hard before, but now I can’t care too much.” "It's so serious. What's the matter?" Keyi felt uneasy, "Lu Yu, do you have something to hide from me?" "I'll tell you later. You're my best friend." "Of course." Ke Yi couldn't help but ask, "Lu Yu, you seem to have a lot of secrets. I don't want to pry into privacy, but friends are used to talk about your thoughts, but you never want to tell your troubles. " "If it doesn't help the matter, it's better not to say it. I understand myself, and it won't help me to talk." Lu Yu said again, "Yeah, one day the matter is resolved, and I will tell you." I wish I was even more uneasy, but there was only silence. Although it is already winter, the Summer Palace is verdant with verdant trees, warm sunshine, and tourists like crucian carp, couples and shadows, so there is no bleak chill at all.Ke Yi and Professor Qian walked side by side on the green avenue in the garden, pointing out those ancient and glorious palace buildings, with great interest, and had a rare common interest and topic.The two were sitting in the gazebo, and Keyi suddenly thought of a question: "Which dynasty did the emperor start wearing bright yellow dragon robes?" Professor Qian said: "From Emperor Wen of the Sui Dynasty, yellow became the designated color of dragon robes, and ordinary people were forbidden to wear yellow robes. In the Tang Dynasty, this regulation was further formatted, and a high-sounding reason was given: red and yellow are similar to the color of the sun. The sun is a symbol of the emperor's dignity. "There are no two suns in the sky, and there are no two masters in the country", so the red and yellow are not allowed to be used by the subjects except the emperor. At the end of the Tang Dynasty, the "Chenqiao Mutiny" persuaded Zhao Kuangyin in every possible way. No, so I simply put a yellow robe on him forcibly, and Zhao's "yellow robe added to his body", if there is divine help, he immediately nodded." Ke Yi laughed: "The yellow color stimulated him too much." Professor Qian continued: "In the Qing Dynasty, the classification of yellow became more and more detailed. Only the emperor could wear bright yellow. Whether he likes it or not, all clothes are bright yellow, even raincoats; Golden yellow; princes and sons, wear blue or azurite, and golden yellow can only be worn for special rewards; as for Baylor, Hou, and Bo, they can only wear azurite or blue, which is already insulated from yellow." The two of them were chatting, but the tourists next to them listened in. An old man couldn't help but leaned over and asked, "Is this gentleman a scholar? He must be a professor anyway." Professor Qian corrected: "It's a deputy, associate professor." The old man admired: "Sure enough, you are right. You are really knowledgeable." Accompanying the old man seemed to be the old man's son, and said with a smile, "Professor, please tell us more. In this kind of place, these stories are what I want to hear the most." Professor Qian became interested and said enthusiastically: "Okay, let's talk about the story of the imperial robe. It happened in this imperial city. It is a story told in Puyi's memoirs: When Puyi was a child, there was a time when he弟弟溥杰进宫来看他，两兄弟边做游戏边聊天，溥仪输了，应该受罚，他不肯，就指着弟弟的衣袖忽然变脸说：你怎么敢穿明黄？这是宫中大忌！溥杰分辩：哪里是明黄，这是金黄呀。但是溥仪已经端起架子来，虎着脸说：就是明黄，你敢大不敬！溥杰便跪下了……” 可意插话说：“我想溥杰可不是承认自己真的犯了错，而是突然意识到面前跟他做游戏的不只是一位哥哥，更是一位皇上。溥仪借题发挥，用衣服来提醒他：他是没有资格同自己辨是非论输赢的，否则便是大不敬。” 钱教授点点头，接着说：“后来溥仪在长春建立'伪满洲国'，日本人只许他穿陆军元帅的大礼服，他在别的事上都妥协，惟有这一宗却力争到底，终究是派人去荣惠皇太妃处取来了昔年的一套龙袍穿着登了基。此后，又在北京大栅栏绸缎庄悄悄订了数套明黄色的龙袍凤服，聊以自慰。纵然没机会穿，风朝雨夕，不眠之夜，拥着睡觉也好做个美梦啊。” 可意听了这句，忽然心里想到一个奇怪的比喻：丈夫，也好比溥仪的皇袍，纵然无用，风朝雨夕，不眠之夜，相拥而眠睡个安稳觉也好啊。侃侃而谈中国历史的钱教授又成了当初刚结识时那个风流倜傥的如意郎君，挥斥方遒，神采飞扬。在他所熟悉的领域里，他是潇洒的，自信的，也是非常有大男人气概的。 倘若刻意地只去看一个人的优点，并且努力将这优点发扬光大，也未必不可以重新爱上曾经爱过的人。 爱情可以死去，也可以重生，与其在婚姻之外寻找爱情，不如在婚姻之内重建爱情，既然不想离婚，或者可以试试重新去爱上那个从前爱过的人，是值得一试的吧？ 可意暗暗感谢陆雨的绝妙提议，庆幸这一个周末，终于可以相聚欢了。 陆雨的周末见面却是糟透了。见到古建波的第一眼，她就后悔自己选错了见面地点——本来以为在自己的茶楼里谈话可以隐密点也显得随意些，比较不像一个约会。可是古建波无比张扬地捧着一大束玫瑰花旁若无人地走进来，一进门就吸引了所有人的注意。茶馆的女孩子知道经理又多了一位新的追求者，都不禁挤眉弄眼地笑。 古建波浑然不觉，大声说：“陆雨，你今天可真漂亮，这么隆重的打扮，是为了我吗？” 陆雨哭笑不得：“这是工作服。” 古建波便大力点头，“啧啧”连声地说：“啧啧，你穿工作服也这么漂亮，啧啧，真难得！” 陆雨无奈地只好邀请古建波到包间里坐，湘帘半垂，檀香袅袅，气氛立刻显得暧昧。陆雨第一次在自己的地盘里坐立不安，嗔道：“你可不可以停止这游戏？我说过我已经结婚了。” “这同我追求你没有关系。”古建波毫不在意地说，“结婚了也可以离。” “我和你不会有任何结果的。”陆雨板起脸，索性实话实说：“我已经查过了，你妹妹的孩子不是男孩儿。你父母家的那个孩子，到底是不是慧慧的？” 古建波先是一愣，接着也沉了脸：“我也早找人查清楚了，你根本没有结过婚。你说的那个童钢，是个囚犯，什么留学海外？这些年，他根本就一直在坐牢！他是个杀人犯！” 陆雨如被五雷轰顶，失声叫起来：“不！童钢不是杀人犯！他只是开车撞死了人，他不是故意的！” 钱教授仍在滔滔不绝地讲述着皇城里的轶闻故事，凉亭里围拢来的人越来越多，都赞叹教授学问大，最难得是不读死书，故事讲得风趣幽默，深入浅出。 此刻，他又开始讲到了宫廷女人的绣花鞋：“据野史载，南唐后主李煜有一天心血来潮，亲自为宠妃缠足，以丝帛绕成新月形，让宫女扶着她绕着花阶行走，步态摇摆，弱不胜衣。宫中嫔妃以此为美，为了争宠，纷纷效仿，这就是裹脚的始祖。到了清朝，虽然民间仍然以脚小为贵，但是清宫统治者已经意识到这不是美而是弱，严禁宫中后妃缠足。” 有游客插嘴说：“唉，我在电视剧里看那些宫廷戏，格格呀妃子的，也都是摇摇摆摆，裙子底下蹬着高帮绣花鞋啊。” 钱教授笑着解释：“那叫'花盆底'，和裹小脚穿的'弓鞋'是两个概念。'弓鞋'一般为木底，底长三寸，缎面，面上绣花；'花盆底'也是木底，却是底高三寸，呈花盆状。北宋末年的弓鞋，盛行用两种颜色的布料拼作鞋帮，针脚绵密，两色杂陈，有个名堂叫作'错到底'，颇有意趣。” 可意微笑地陪在一旁，时不时插一两句，夫唱妇随，琴瑟相和。她第一次想，如果自己不做杂志社主编，不要那么能干，也没什么名气，仍然是刚结婚时的那个文学女青年，也许，她和丈夫的感情会比现在更好些。 虽然，那可能是一种假象，一种错误。然而有时候，“错到底”，也是一种美丽。 结婚是假象，留学是谎言。陆雨苦苦地保守了那么些年的婚姻神话，她的女友们一直费尽心机想知道而不能知道的秘密，今天，却被古建波随随便便的一句话，轻易地拆穿了。 陆雨忍不住轻轻地颤栗起来，她哽咽着为童钢申辩，仿佛古建波是判决童钢的法官。“童钢不是杀人犯，当时我们已经决定结婚，我答应了他的求婚。那天他很兴奋，喝了点酒，就在开车回家的路上……” “他被幸福冲昏了头脑是吗？”古建波轻轻地鼓掌，“真是个乐极生悲的最佳教材。酒后驾车，撞了人又逃逸，这罪名的确不小。” “他不是要逃逸。他醉得太厉害，根本不知道自己撞了人。” 陆雨有口难辩。当初，也就是因为童钢无法为自己辩白开罪，才会被判了重罪的。本来律师劝他们一直把官司打下去，要求轻判过失伤人。但是童钢说，不论怎么样，撞死人已经既成事实，他必须为自己的行为赎罪。无论判多少年，都是他应得的。只有服过刑，他才可以洗清罪孽，重新昂起头走在阳光下，才可以对得起陆雨的爱。从此，陆雨戴上了童钢送的戒指，再也没有摘下来过。她向所有人宣布，她已经结婚了，丈夫是童钢。但是她又为了自己小小的虚荣撒了个谎，说童钢出国留学去了。 陆雨说：“他向我求婚，我也答应了，我们已经是夫妻，无论法律承不承认，我都已经把自己当成他的妻子。我只当丈夫出门远行，而我在等他回家。” 古建波冷笑：“好一场爱情宣言，只可惜童钢听不到。如果他知道你的心意，一定会很感动，而且会很努力，好好改造，争取早一天出狱，回家。”他故意把“回家”两个字咬得很重，带着嘲笑的口吻。 陆雨的语气则比他更冷：“他正是这么做的。你既然已经把他的底细查得那么清楚了，还会不知道我每隔两个月都会去看他一次吗？” “我当然知道，只不过我没弄清楚他到底什么时候出来。”古建波故意放慢了语速，冷冷地又是缓缓地说，“如果他改造得好，明年春就该跟你团圆了吧？可要是改造不好，就很难说了。”他忽然放肆地将一只手搭在陆雨的腰上，亲昵而轻佻地说，“具体什么时候出来，要不要我帮你打听一下啊？” 陆雨忽觉背上发冷，仿佛有一条蛇从腰部蹿向颈部，寒气逼人。她猛地明白过来——古建波是在威胁她！古建波既然可以把童钢的事调查得这样清楚，自然是在特殊的部门里有特殊的朋友。他分明是在提出一个条件：如果她从了他，童钢明年就可以刑满释放；如果不从，也许童钢就会为此而受苦。 他在威胁她，她的决定会左右童钢的命运，她该怎么做？ 晚上，可意犹犹豫豫地透露了自己想辞职回家的愿望。 钱教授不以为意地笑着说：“你呀，就别身在福中不知福了，做杂志主编，名利双收，风吹不着日晒不着，又不用按时上下班，比我这个副教授强多了。你都想辞职，这世上就没什么人愿意工作了。” 可意烦恼地说：“你不知道这行业里的事，我真是太累了，我不适合做主编。” “你不是干得很好吗？”钱教授皱眉，“我还正托人帮忙活动，想在北京的高等学府里替我谋个名额，把我的关系调到北京来呢。已经有七八成了。我这次来，正想跟你商量，让你留意一下北京的房产行市，咱们在北京另买套房子吧，有了房，就算扎下根来了。” “买房？可是你知道北京的房子有多贵吗？” “当然知道。不是可以分贷吗？” 可意迅速地在心里算了一笔账，自己这些年的存款大概可以付个首期，然而分贷的路漫长遥远，如果辞了职，单凭写小说赚的钱，未必有把握按月付贷——没有固定的收入，又怎么敢承担固定的支出呢？凭钱教授那点课时费，最多也就够付利息的。 她知道，她算的这笔账，钱教授也早已经算过了，当然他认为是可以承担的，因为他娶了一个能干的老婆。他算账的时候，总是把她的工资算在头里，他可从没有打算过她有一天会辞职。 辞职回家——如果她真的辞了职，很可能她会连家也一并失去。 可意又一次感到了深深的绝望。陆雨的理论到底还是空中楼阁，游一次园就可以找回初恋的感觉，怎么可能？初恋时，可是没有想过买房分贷的烦恼。 陆雨和古建波站在电梯里。电梯一路升上去，陆雨的心却一直往下沉。 她到底还是带古建波回了自己的家。 童钢入狱的这些年里，她一直苦苦地守候着他，守着虚无的婚姻和固执的爱情，守着自己不可告人的秘密。她跟所有的人说自己结了婚，丈夫叫童钢，在国外留学。她把童钢的名字烙印在自己的身份上，使他与她密不可分，即使他们的人不能在一起，心也未必在一起，可是，他们的名字是在一起的。 她不是什么贞女烈妇，青春的萌动与身体的渴望是无法回避的，在露水姻缘的遇合里，她未尝没动过改弦易辙的心思，然而现实中也并没有什么男人可以有足够的力量使她决意放弃对童钢的等待——或者正相反，对现实一次又一次的失望，使她越来越依赖于自己对童钢的等待，使她有力量撑下去，相信千帆过尽，最终停靠在自己码头的，必然是最好的一艘航空母舰。 童钢是爱她的，童钢在向她求婚后的第二天便入了狱，因此童钢再也没有机会变心，至少在这五年里，他是不可能变心的。就像她依赖于对他的等待一样，他之所以力求上进，争取早日释放，也正是依赖于对她的热望。这热情的积累使他们的爱情愈久弥坚，丝毫没有因为空间的阻隔而淡泊，反而日渐升华成为理想或是信念那样的东西，高贵而坚定。 然而今天陆雨如果为了童钢而答应和古建波交易的话，那就无疑是辱没了这段爱情，这种信念。她可以放浪不羁，可以逢场作戏，但是不可以出卖自己，不可以出卖爱情——即使是为了爱情本身。 电梯门“叮”一声打开，陆雨走到自己的家门前，还不等掏出钥匙，古建波已经迫不及待地将她压在门前强吻。忽然之间，仿佛有人在天边轻轻叫：“陆雨，不要怕他！”那是晓慧的声音！ 陆雨一震，强大的屈辱感使她在电光石火间忽然清醒过来，用力推开古建波，突如其来地问：“你藏匿起慧慧的孩子，是为了恐吓谁？” 古建波一呆，本能地问：“你都知道什么？”然而立即意识到这无异于承认了自己是在挟孩子以胁某人，沉下脸冷哼，“你少胡说八道。” 然而陆雨已经胸有成竹，抢占先机，连珠炮地发问：“你可以用童钢来要胁我，一定不是第一次使用这种方法。这是你的惯用伎俩对不对？你就是这样的人，利用一个人去威胁另一个人，即使是刚出生的孩子也不放过。慧慧孩子的父亲是谁？你藏起那孩子，就是为了将来要胁他，对不对？” 步步紧逼的几个问题将古建波的脸激成了酱紫色，陆雨知道自己已经完全掌握了主动权，胜利地说：“我知道你不会告诉我答案，但是我会一直查下去。如果你不想我拆穿你，就不要伤害童钢半根毫毛。事实上我根本不相信你可以左右法律，但是小人之心不可不防，我还是要警告你：如果你想对童钢不利，我一定会对你不客气！我们来看看，到底是谁在作奸犯科，谁更千疮百孔，不堪一击！” 看着古建波狼狈地消失在电梯口，陆雨仰面流下泪来，喃喃着：晓慧，谢谢你！