Chapter 5 lose to identity

After enjoying the first few months of being idle in the wealthy family, Ruan Mi'er soon got bored and said to Li Jia, "I want to go out and work." "Come back just after the announcement of retirement?" Li Jia disagreed, "Isn't it too fast?" "Not making movies, just looking for a job, whatever." "Then you come to my company to do cleaning." Li Jia joked, "I just invested in a fitness center, from handyman to general manager, you can choose any position, you can go to work whenever you want, and you can quit at any time if you don't want to do it , except for one thing: the position of the proprietress is not allowed to resign."

"I don't want to rely on you all the time." "You want to be self-reliant? My dear, in the more than twenty years without me, you have fully proved that you have the ability and skills to make a living. It is not a crime to be lazy now." "I don't want to be the general manager, but I can be the manager's secretary. I've always wanted to work as a clerk; a fitness trainer is fine too, I've learned about physical fitness before; and business promotion, if not, I can be the front desk." Mi'er Planning, "But you have to promise me that no one will know that I am your wife."

"I'm afraid it won't be easy. You are too beautiful and famous. If you want to visit in private, you have to disfigure your face." Ruan Mi'er was discouraged: "It seems that I can only be a cleaner, and I can wear a mask to wrap myself tightly." "Yes, you will be the most dressed woman in the gym." All joking aside, Ruan Mi'er actually went to work in the "Su Yao Pavilion" fitness center after two days as a planner for the promotion department. This was Chen Yu's proposal to her. On that day, two wealthy idlers held a prospect meeting on the phone for half a day.Chen Yu said: "Why do you have to find a place to work? If you think you have too much time, you can travel around like me, and you will have a good harvest. Or you can learn from Lu Yu and become a vocational student. If you have nothing to do, you can get two The certificate is bluffing, and you can also find Liang Shanbo to sing about two butterflies."

Mi'er smiled: "You are really inseparable from Aventure, you regard love as your first life, no matter what you do, you always take advantage of it. I really don't know if you seduced the obstetrician by the way when you gave birth." "I thought about it, but it's a pity that the doctor is a woman." Chen Yu also smiled. on the road', so of course a lot of it is on the road." Mi'er said: "I don't want to run around. I used to run and hurt when I was filming and running on location. It's even more difficult to learn from Lu Yu. I have a headache when I see books, so I don't want to go to class. I have to take exams. I have to pass 800 exams. but."

"Then it's better to open a shop by yourself, whether it's a tea house or an embroidery house. Anyway, it's just to pass the time. Or open a boutique, hire two girls to look after the shop, and live the addiction of the proprietress. It's not bad." "I'm already the proprietress. Li Jia's big fitness center, restaurant, restaurant, and even magazines have invested in it. I need to buy that fame. I just want to work when I can't be idle. It's not filming, just pretending." !" Chen Yu was a little sour: "That's right, I forgot that you had already flown up the branches and turned into a phoenix, and looked down on small teahouses and restaurants."

Mi'er laughed: "If Lu Yu said what you said, it makes sense. You yourself are pampered and your eyes are higher than the top. What kind of sour are you? Senior officials' wives, romantic housewives, who do you not live better than?" "I love hearing that." Chen Yu cheered up again, "How about a magazine? If you want to try white-collar life, being an editor is the most readily available." Mi'er smiled: "What kind of bad ideas are you talking about? What am I going to do in a magazine? Article editor or American editor? I know quite a few media outlets. It's okay to pretend to hold a press conference and do interviews by myself. But it won't work."

Chen Yu had an idea: "That's right, you used to be the best at courting reporters when you were an actor, and now you can still use this to promote your husband's business. If you do planning and promotion, at least you are familiar with dealing with the media." of." Mi'er was reminded: "By the way, I also thought about doing business promotion. I'll just listen to you." Chen Yu was not sure yet, and said hesitantly: "You should discuss it with Keyi again and listen to her opinion." But Ke Yi fully agreed: "No problem, I thought it was too early for you to retire to be a full-time wife. If you succeed, you will have more experience in life. Even if you come back in the future, you will have more experience in life." If you want to promote fitness, I will be the first to support you, and I will set up two pages in "Fairy" to cooperate with you."

Mi'er felt a little sorry: "You are so busy with your own affairs, and you still have to worry about me. Thank you so much." Ke Yi laughed: "Did I hear you right? Is it really Ruan Mi'er who is talking to you?" "Of course it's me, Ruan Mier who loves you to the bone." Mier laughed. Ke Yi believed it: "It is indeed Mi'er. Since this is the case, you can do it now. I will select the topic, and you will provide models and photographers. I will put the words 'Su Yao Pavilion Co-organized' on the magazine, and I can help you In the Shanghai area, a voucher is given along with the magazine, which is the best of both worlds, and it is also good for the distribution of the magazine. As long as the first issue is done, it will be easy to negotiate with other magazines or newspapers with the sample in the future. "

Mi'er was even more moved. Keyi not only provided spiritual support, but also immediately gave the most practical and specific operation plan in action, which is exactly what she needs most at present.She can quickly turn up results in the fitness center, showing that she is not just an embroidered pillow that depends on her husband to eat and drink. "Yeah, you are always so eager to help your friends, but you have something to do, but I can't help you at all." "Who said it didn't help? There are so many people on the Internet who say everything, but you are the only one who is sincerely complaining for me." Keyi said sincerely, "I have never said thank you to you, so don't tell me. I'm being polite."

Mi'er asked sympathetically, "How about that matter now? Didn't you say you want to report it?" "Reported, but the Internet police refused to file a case." Ke Yi said disheartenedly, "It is said that it does not comply with the 'Nine Articles', the evidence of the crime is insufficient, and the consequences of harm have not yet been caused. Unless I also commit suicide and leave a suicide note Come down, or no one will take it seriously." Mi'er was also very helpless: "I knew it would be this kind of result. Those people on the Internet spread rumors when they were free. A few days ago, they said that a certain female star is a transgender person, that a certain and a certain are gay; and that a certain An innocent girl who pretended to be sixteen years old was actually over thirty years old and had plastic surgery; there were also some people who were too popular to report to the police, but in the end, they all swallowed it all up? Can’t all of them follow the example of Qiu Ju’s lawsuit—— Let’s put it this way, let’s not talk about wasting people’s money and money, and we can’t afford to spend that time and can’t hurt our hearts. The law is not for us people.”

Ke Yi was at a loss: "But the law doesn't protect us, who can we count on to protect us? We were hurt so plainly, and there was no reason for it. I suddenly realized that my life was so insecure." "That troublemaker, Nail, is too addicted to hype this time. At the beginning, he called himself an author, and then he called himself a writer. Now he is even worse. He simply acts as a leader in the literary world and wants to wipe out your literary world. Scum. I saw him add another sentence at the end of the post in a serious manner: According to reliable sources, Yue Keyi is still the editor-in-chief of "Red Beauty" magazine. I don't know how he will justify himself." "He doesn't need to justify himself, he just needs to deceive himself and others." Ke Yi smiled, but her voice was full of desolation, "Nowadays, how many people claim to be photographers with a digital camera, and become famous after posting two posts on the Internet? Writer. This is called 'How bold people are, how productive they are'." "What does Professor Qian say about this?" "I didn't let him know." "What? You didn't tell him such a big thing?" "Tell him, he won't be able to help, but he will have to talk for a long time, so why bother?" Ke didn't want to talk too much, so he assigned homework and said, "The topic for your first issue is called 'OL's Chair Fuck' , design a set of simple exercises that white-collar workers can do at any time during their lunch break in the office, there must be a reasonable design and analysis, and each step should be clearly photographed." "No problem, we promise to complete the task." However, when it came to specific operations, Mi'er found that the difficulty of the work was far beyond her imagination. First of all, the lack of cooperation of colleagues, they tacitly showed a very unified respect for her arrival, and all the plans she proposed, they all praised in unison: "It's really good, why didn't we think of it?" words of advice. Mi'er asked: "How should I design the movements of this chair exercise? It is very simple and practical to do, and it is also beautiful to shoot. It is going to be published in a magazine, and the movements designed for office white-collar workers have to be included in the article. Explain the reasons and benefits of doing so." The colleagues hummed and laughed, but no one was willing to answer her question. Mi'er had no choice but to call the name: "Coach Sun, can you design a set of movements?" Coach Sun said hesitantly: "That's not sure. I teach yoga. The most important thing about yoga is peace of mind. It is not suitable for the office. This is a regular gym. Every exercise is very professional. In the office Do chair exercises? I never learned." "What about Latin dance?" Mi'er turned to another coach, "Can you incorporate Latin dance movements into chair exercises?" "This...you might as well discuss it with Coach Li. She teaches pedal exercises. Since you can use pedals to exercise, you should also use chairs, right?" It was easy to work out the design, but who should make the mirror model has become a new problem. The manager of the planning department reminded meaningfully: "This is the first time for our 'Su Yao Pavilion' to cooperate with the media. Everyone Coaches want to have the opportunity to show their faces, so you have to think about this candidate, if you are not careful, it will affect morale and create unnecessary conflicts among coaches." Mi'er asked: "Then who do you think should show up on the scene?" The planning manager said: "You are in charge of the proposal, and of course you are the one to decide on the model candidate." He turned around and walked away calmly. Mi'er stared angrily, and said bitterly, "It's a big deal and I'll perform it myself." Having said that, she also knew that it was inappropriate to do so, because "a little carelessness" would have a more serious impact.She herself can imagine what gossip those chattering colleagues would say—— "After all, I'm an actor. I can't change my habit of being in the limelight. I can't make movies. I have to fight to show my face in magazines. It's really boring." "She is the proprietress, don't talk about finding a topic to show her face in a magazine, as long as she is willing, it's okay to ask Mr. Li to pay for the magazine for her to play with." "Really, isn't it good to be a young mistress at home? If she wants to come here to do some promotional planning, she'd be very interested." Mi'er is not an ivory tower Sleeping Beauty who is unsophisticated. She has also gone through vicissitudes and ups and downs all the way by her own ability. She has never seen any kind of face or heard any ugly words. I've seen it in the book, it's really nothing.She was just unconvinced, she wasn't competing for the top heroine in the crew, she just wanted to do something for the company, she had already lowered her profile and was willing to start from the grassroots, so why was she being restrained everywhere?If she really wanted to take advantage of her status as the proprietress, then she would need a general manager, or at least a department manager, to take the lead. Gossip came from every corner of the "Su Yao Pavilion". Ruan Mi'er only felt that she was struggling, but when Ke Yi called again, she couldn't help complaining: "I didn't know until today that I lost my marriage. What—identity. I only have one name now—Li Jia’s wife. I don’t have myself anymore. No matter how hard I try, people only see a young lady who relies on her face and body for food. I will never make it. I You can’t even choose a coach to be a mirror model.” Ke Yi said relaxedly: "This is simple, call everyone to vote by secret ballot, and say that it is good to choose talents anonymously. Then which coach you like in your mind, it will be announced that she has the highest number of votes." "This is a good way." Mi'er was woken up, but couldn't help asking, "Do you think I don't like people that much? Why are they all so angry at me?" "It's very clear. Most people with cheeks have no brains, and those with brains are usually unlucky. Beauty has always been unlucky, and rich women have always been idiots. You are lucky, you have both talent and beauty, marry into a wealthy family, and all the good things in the world are left to you alone." It's all over." Ke Yi made an exclamation, "Honey, you are too perfect, such a person should be envied by heaven, but God favors you so much, of course you will be envied by others." Mi'er laughed loudly: "Ke Yi, I love you to death." "Then you make a will now. Once God wakes up, he wants to take back his gifts to you, and you have to transfer them to me unconditionally." "Doesn't it include dental caries and dysmenorrhea?" "Mi'er, it's best not to have any sexual hints when talking and joking with others in the future. Because your identity is the boss's wife. Others have too much sense of humor when they do this. If you do this, you will become another one who relies on physical conditions to succeed. Prove it. If it is serious, it will be complained as sexual harassment.” Mi'er was surprised: "I will pay attention to it in the future." "The proprietress is the proprietress, don't expect others to treat you as a friend. Don't pay attention to those who sneer at you, and stay away from those who confide in you. They talk to you in exchange for benefits. You listened to his secrets I owe him a debt of favor." Keyi told Mi'er: "If your colleagues refuse to cooperate with you, you might as well pretend to be dull, don't get angry with them, don't be serious, but don't be too accommodating to them, what to do What, all the performances should be invisible. If they see that you don't respond, they will naturally stop." Mi'er was taught awe-inspiringly: "Keyi, you are really my good teacher and helpful friend." "Then, did you take a small notebook and write down my words like Chen Yu did?" "It's all in my heart." Mi'er said sincerely, "Is there anything else you want to remind me?" "Also, don't be too hasty, only come up with one plan every month, and do it well in a down-to-earth manner; after making it look, the inspiration is disposable, and it is best not to give people the feeling of being reckless. For example, for "The Beauty" "Fitness film, after finishing this issue, you might as well leave it to other colleagues to continue, rather you find another media by yourself, or I can introduce it for you." "Then why?" Mi'er was a little unwilling. "No matter how successful the planning is, if you do it three times in a row, others will find fault with your eggs, thinking that you just relied on a certain relationship, and will wipe out all the achievements you have already made. Although it is said that 'not to be envied is a mediocrity' , but we must also leave room for others and ourselves.” "As smart as you, how could you not succeed?" Mi'er suddenly sighed, "Yeah, now I believe that I am indeed a lucky one." Yue Keyi has so many tricks up her sleeve to teach Mi'er, but her own interpersonal relationship is a mess. "Those who can heal don't heal themselves." She thought mockingly, but she could really do one of those rules and regulations, so she wouldn't be in such a mess today.Take the present as an example, knowing that everything is done by the editor Yu and Nai Ying, but what should I do with Yu? Without evidence, there is no reason.The law cannot protect the innocent, but discipline can protect the cunning.There is another point that I can't figure out: I treat Xiao Yu so well, and the treatment in "The Beauty" is very high, why does Xiao Xiao hate himself so much and want to trap himself in injustice? In the 30 years of my life, there has never been a time like this that made Keyi feel like a failure, and felt deeply disappointed and fearful of human nature.Why do some people want to harm others but not themselves?Why do we have to force ourselves to learn to resent?Does self-cleaning mean digging one's own grave?Don't the Chinese always believe that "if you don't do anything wrong in your life, you won't be afraid of ghosts knocking on your door at midnight"?Since when did the truth of life become "meanness is the passport of the mean, and nobility is the epitaph of the noble"? Chen Yu acted more reconciled than she did: "How can this matter end like this? You can't sue him for that nail, but Yu is your subordinate. At least you have to fire her, and it's considered evil as evil." "You think I don't want to?" Ke Yi said helplessly, "I have to pretend to be ignorant when I face someone who framed me every day. Do you think it feels good? If I don't die young before the age of forty, at least I also have lung stones. When I am cremated, you must remember to pick up the bones for me, and you must find two relics." "Bah, bah, bah!" Chen Yuzhuang said fiercely, "No matter how well you pretend, you won't win an Oscar. What you need now is not acting skills, but good lines. You have to find a reason to drive Xiao Yu away, and you have to drive beautifully. Take it easy on yourself." "Then how about I ask you to be a screenwriter?" Keyi joked, "You can help me write a script." "No problem, if I don't say this for you, I will be your bosom friend for so many years." Chen Yu was in high spirits, as if he had been injected with chicken blood, "You just wait and see the good show." Chen Yu's method is actually very simple, but practical.She used the name "Butterfly in the Wind" to go online, and applied to become Yu's friend in the name of submitting an article. It's too late to meet each other, and it's a matter of speculation. Then Chen Yu asked Yu Yu: "I saw the news about Yue Keyi's corruption on the Internet. Is it true or not? That Yue Keyi doesn't write very well. I don't believe that she is better than you. The editor-in-chief must be tricky." After all, Xiao Yu is not the opponent of the director's wife, Chen Yu. After hearing a few words of praise, she immediately became excited, and said without hesitation, "Well, she will be 30 this year, and she only pays so much for writing a book. It's amazing, what's the matter, when I reach thirty, I will definitely be better than her." "Is it true that she was embezzled? If a fly doesn't cling to a flawless egg, there is always a shadow, right?" "Of course it's true. I saw the boss check with her with my own eyes. The boss pointed at the door and told her to get out. She was ashamed and went back to her mother's house to avoid the limelight for a few days, and then begged to come back. None of us editors talked to her. , she was also embarrassed, and walked around." "Your boss is the same. How can you let her come and go freely? Knowing that she is corrupt, you still let her continue to be the editor-in-chief?" "You don't know that, she is very powerful, you know that so-and-so, so-and-so, she has an affair with her, otherwise how could she publish so many books." trader's name. Chen Yu was secretly startled, thinking of Yu Yu's groveling in front of Keyi and pretending to be affectionate, she couldn't help but feel sick.I have always thought that I am enough to gossip, but now the generation after 80 years, the ability to talk nonsense is too surprising, do they still know what is conscience, what is justice, what is shame? In the face of real evil, Chen Yu felt for the first time that he was so upright and kind, that he was doing justice for the heavens, eliminating violence and bringing peace to the good. When Yue Keyi placed "Butterfly in the Wind" and Yu Yu's online chat record download file in front of Yu Yu, Yu was stunned, and she suddenly covered her face and began to cry: "Sister Yue, you won't believe this is true, will you?" ?” "You say it's fake?" "Someone must have deliberately framed me." Xiao Yu raised his head and said, "It must be so. They are hurting me, which means they are hurting you. When the accident happened on the Internet, I called Nail every day and broke up with him. Yes I beg him to stop making trouble every day, but I don’t know him well. He wants to talk nonsense. What can I do? I try my best to explain and clarify for you on the Internet every day. They all know me It is the one who protects you the most, so I want to get rid of me, so that I can continue to harm you." Ke Yi almost sighed: "Yu Yu, do you believe what you said?" "Sister Yue, whether you believe me or not, I swear to God, if I say anything against you, I will be hit by a car when I go out." "Enough." Ke Yi suddenly felt bored, she looked at Yu Yu, and said wearily: "Just treat it as someone else setting you up, but it's not wrong that the nail is your author, right? Now the reputation of the magazine has been so damaged , someone has to pay the price for this, just treat it as if you are taking the blame for Nail." "Sister Yue, what do you mean..." "From tomorrow onwards, you don't have to come to work anymore." Keyi smiled coldly, "Also, don't bother clarifying for me anymore, just pretend you and I don't know each other." Later, Yu posted a long article on the Internet to explain her expulsion. She said: Out of concern that the family should not be publicized, the boss was willing to suffer, and made her a scapegoat and a power struggle. A victim; before leaving, she was warned not to talk nonsense outside, but she will not stop her right to speak, and no one can try to intimidate her.In the end, she said that she did not lose in the truth, but in her identity.Because the person who won in the end has a higher status than her. The girlfriends appreciated and commented on the wonderful article, and they all felt dumbfounded.Lu Yu said, "It's a farce." "I directed it." Chen Yu said puzzledly, "I guessed the beginning of the story, but I couldn't guess the ending—I didn't expect her to explain it like that." Mi'er smiled: "Are you willing to bow down? She has a thicker skin than you, darker eyes than you, and absurd script than you, so the gimmicks are better than you." Ke Yi just felt tired: "I'm a victim and I'm so tired, don't they feel tired when they hurt people?" Mi'er said: "In their minds, they feel that they themselves are the victims. They didn't bring you down even after trying so hard, and they lost their jobs in vain. They might feel wronged right now." Lu Yu said: "She said something quite reasonable: she lost to her status. But since she knows that your status is higher than hers and your status is more important than hers, why is she trying to harm you? If she hurts herself instead of hurting others, she won't regret it?" Chen Yu said: "If they know how to introspect, they won't be so unconscionable. What is a gambler? They want to make big gains with their small ones. Winning is luck, and losing is bad luck. It has nothing to do with skills, let alone right or wrong." Mi'er admired: "Chen Yu still has a way, it's really not old BMW." Chen Yu was dissatisfied: "What's 'not old'? I'm not old at all." Lu Yu said: "It should be said that 'veteran will go out, one can beat two'." Mi'er intentionally said: "It's true that which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted. What's the 'veteran', it has been said that the word 'old' is not allowed, and it should be said that 'newborn calves are not afraid of tigers'." Chen Yu smiled: "The two of you can't sing together. Smaller than is worthy of the name 'tiger'? At most, it's just a snake with a fox's tail, and I'm a snake charmer with a seven-inch stick." Ke Yi lazily said: "No matter what, it's finally over. I want to award you a plaque with eight big characters written on it: Fight evil with evil, retaliate with a tooth." Ke Yi hates the hypocrisy and unscrupulousness of the Internet, but she was able to get some justice for herself only because Chen Yu took advantage of the convenience of the Internet. Perhaps, this is the most ironic aspect of this internet incident. During Zhang Xiaohui's 100-day ceremony, Chen Yu and Keyi received a call from the landlord at the same time: Xiaohui's rent is due, and I hope they can come to clean up the relics.When Mi'er and Lu Yu heard the news, they also decided to come to help and make the last worship for Xiaohui. It was agreed to meet downstairs in Xiaohui's "former residence".Mier appeared last, dressed in a pink low-cut strappy tiered princess dress and pleated miniskirt, gorgeous makeup, dressed like a peacock with its tail spread.When getting out of the taxi, passers-by looked sideways. Chen Yu exclaimed: "Do you think we are going to a PARTY? Christmas is still one month away." Ke Yi teased: "She is attending Halloween." Lu Yu warned: "Don't be disrespectful to the undead." Mi'er's interest remained undiminished: "I haven't traveled alone for a long time. This is the first time I have gone out alone after marriage. Here, my identity is no longer Mrs. Li, but just your friend Ruan Mier. You can hit me as you like , make fun of me, but don't take away my power to dress up. I don't go out every day with such a good reason." "That's right, next time I'll just have to wait for my death." Ke Yi said, "It might really take a while." Lu Yu warned again: "Don't make fun of your life." She looked at Mi'er and said sympathetically, "It's not easy for her, just let her go." Mi'er smiled: "Lu Yu still loves me." The four friends went upstairs, tore off the seal, opened the door, and a gust of cold wind swept across Mo Ming.The house is full of dust and cobwebs, full of empty space.Mi'er said: "It seems to be the set of a martial arts drama." "I haven't seen a spider in a hundred years." Chen Yu also said, "I can't figure out how they make a living in an empty house. They can't eat wind and drink dew." Looking at Xiaohui's photo on the wall, Keyi said sadly, "Is there a soul after death? Doesn't it mean that matter is immortal, so even if the body decays and disappears, what about thoughts? Emotions? These things that were originally invisible in life What form do things exist after death? Will they be stored in our unknown realm, another time and space, another form, communicating with us in a special way?" Chen Yu shook his head: "Don't be a ghost, it's so scary. Be careful what you invite." Mi'er chuckled: "If Huihui really manifests, I won't be afraid." Lu Yu said: "People are willing to believe in the existence of ghosts because they are dissatisfied with the real world and unable to vent their helpless emotions, so they hope in the unfounded world of nothingness, so as to achieve a certain balance for themselves. Fortunately, you have been too nervous recently .” However, Keyi insisted: "I am not pessimistic, but I really believe that the soul is immortal. If life and death are not necessarily connected, then they lose their respective meanings at the same time. Life is a stage and a stage. There are internal connections and quantitative and qualitative changes, and the same is true for life and death, the body is disguised, but the soul is eternal." Mi'er said: "I understand what you mean, that is to say, the relationship between the soul and the body is like a soldier in a barracks made of iron, which is changing and maintaining a certain relationship." Chen Yu shivered, and said angrily, "I don't believe it. If there are ghosts, people become ghosts after death, and ghosts are reborn as humans, why haven't we seen ghosts?" Lu Yu pondered: "Some psychologists believe that the so-called soul refers to spiritual power. Not everyone has a strong spiritual power, so most of the time, when a person's body dies, the spirit also dissipates. It suddenly becomes lighter because the soul is gone. They think that the mind and the spirit also have weight." Mi'er said as if she had made up her mind: "After I die, I don't want to leave any spirit behind. This life is too tiring, just enjoy it. I don't want to keep my thoughts until the next life." Ke Yi sighed: "But even though Hui Hui died, she couldn't think anymore. She entrusted the child to us, but we lost the child, and it is still unknown whether he is alive or dead. We have a heavy entrustment, how can Hui Hui rest in peace?" Chen Yu suddenly sneezed and became even more frightened. He didn't even want to stay for a minute, and urged, "Is everything cleaned up? Let's go after cleaning up. The leftover garbage can only be cleaned by the housekeeping company. " Lu Yu took off the photo on the wall and said, "I'm going to take this away." Mi'er suddenly said: "Wait, why does this background look so familiar? I seem to have seen these roses somewhere." Chen Yu glanced at it and said nonchalantly: "Roses are everywhere, and they all look the same. Is there anything you have never seen before? Maybe the roses you have seen are reincarnated after these flowers died. There's an inner connection." Ke Yi suddenly called out at this time: "Look, what is this?" From the wastebasket in the bathroom, Ke Yi took out a hard-shell book with a gray and black cover, opened it, and the handwriting was smudged, obviously it was a diary that hadn't been burned in time. "The matter of that man must be recorded in it." Chen Yu was very excited, "Why didn't I find out last time? I wasted so much time for nothing." Lu Yu suddenly felt worried, looked at Xiaohui's photo and asked secretly: Is this what you mean?Have you changed your mind and decided to let the truth come to light? Mi'er turned to the first page and read: "I'm pregnant. For you, I don't know if it's good news or bad news. I'm full of worries. I don't know if I should tell you, when to tell you, and how to tell you. I don't even I know, when you hear the news, how will you react, will you propose to me? Will you fly into a rage? Or will you ask me to kill the baby? If you really say that, should I Listen to you? God, my heart is really messed up." Even after such a long time, when the four good friends heard this inner confession, they could still clearly feel Huihui's plight at that time, and what kind of torment her heart was in.They also wanted to know how the heartless man would react when he heard the news? But the last few pages of the diary were torn out.Obviously, because the diary was too thick, Xiaohui tore it up and burned it before she died, so some chapters were completely burned, and the unfinished ones were thrown into the wastebasket, so they were not completely burned. You can find a relatively complete paragraph on another page and continue reading: "The child is five months old. Even if I am willing to have an abortion now, it is too late. I hide myself and the child in order to force myself to be firm enough to make such a choice. Otherwise, if I see To you, if you give me orders again, I'm afraid I won't have the guts to go against your will. But I miss you so much, I can't wait to see you next minute, or at least give you a call , it’s good to hear your voice.” "It turned out that the man didn't know the existence of the child." Chen Yu said, "It seems that Huihui gave birth to the child without telling the man. Her purpose was probably to have a showdown with the man after the fait accompli. Why did you change your mind and commit suicide?" Mi'er guessed: "Maybe it was a showdown before the delivery, and the man refused to admit the child, so Huihui committed suicide after giving birth; or she called the man after giving birth, but the man didn't agree Huihui felt that she had miscalculated, so she committed suicide." Lu Yu's eyes floated the images of Gu Jianbo and the old man and his wife. He was quite unwilling to believe the cruelty of the facts, and urged, "Don't you know after reading it?" Keyi flipped through the diary, and most of the following chapters were torn out, and even the remaining ones were burnt indistinctly, and only fragments of words such as "marriage", "despair", and "death" could be vaguely recognized. Word startling. Keyi said tremblingly: "Huihui was pregnant for ten months, what kind of life in purgatory did she experience?" "Men are women's hell." Mi'er said bitterly, "If I find that man, I will drag him up the mountain of swords and into the pan of oil." But Lu Yu said: "Maybe that person has some unavoidable difficulties. If he was really such a miserable person, Huihui would not have fallen in love with him, and gave birth to a child for him willingly. After all, it is a matter of your love and my wish." Chen Yu disagreed: "A man has to take responsibility for what he did to a woman. If he has a child, he should be even more responsible. Anyway, now that Huihui is dead and the child is missing, the man should not Stay out of it. He's the father of the child." "Maybe he's already silently atoning for his actions." Lu Yu thought of the baby in Mr. Gu's house. "Once a man and a woman get in touch, it's either fate or sin. It's hard for others to comment." Mi'er was angry: "Why do you always protect men? I began to doubt your identity. Are you an undercover agent sent by men to the women's camp?" Lu Yu glanced at her and didn't answer, but took Huihui's diary and checked it carefully again. Suddenly, he glanced at the name "Gu Jianbo", startled, and read aloud: "Look at this business, 'Gu Jianbo' I called again today to confirm the date of the due date, and he also said, 'The words after this will be burned." Chen Yu shouted: "The child belongs to Gu Jianbo!" "No." Keyi woke up suddenly, "I used to doubt Gu Jianbo. But Huihui clearly stated that she had never talked to the child's father, and she hid herself to give birth secretly. Mentioning that Gu Jianbo knew about it just ruled out the suspicion that Gu Jianbo was the biological father of the child." "Wait, why am I a little overwhelmed?" Chen Yuang raised his head and straightened his thoughts, and gradually understood, "So, Gu Jianbo and Huihui have a very close relationship, and they even know her better than we do. She is pregnant and knows when the due date is. However, Gu Jianbo is not the child's biological father, and the father does not know that Huihui is going to have a child. Then, will Gu Jianbo know that the child's father is who?" "It's very possible." Keyi analyzed, "Gu Jianbo knows more about Huihui than we do, and even intervened in her childbirth, which means she seems to have some kind of responsibility for Huihui. 。既然他的身份不是孩子的父亲，就只能是孩子父母的朋友，这里有两种可能：一，他和慧慧是知己，或许对慧慧有爱慕之心，所以才这样关心她，有可能慧慧的搬家以及住院都是他一手安排的；二，他和慧慧的男友是知己，所以他是在替哥们儿照顾慧慧，并且帮慧慧隐瞒这一消息。” 陆雨点头：“可意分析得有道理。古建波一直很照顾慧慧，当初还是他托我向可意引荐慧慧给杂志投稿的。” 可意说：“但是这里又有一个疑点：既然他们那么亲密，为什么慧慧没有将孩子托付给古建波，反而要把孩子托给我们四个呢？” 咪儿说：“这个答案就只有古建波自己知道了。但是我们怎么问他呢？总不能当面质问他'你和慧慧有什么关系'吧？慧慧去世这么久，他都一直没露面，现在只怕也不会轻易暴露身份的。” 陈玉说：“要不我再当一回间谍，探探他？” 可意啼笑皆非：“古建波可不是小于，'吃跳蚤都恨不得留条后腿儿'，才不会吃你那一套的。” 古建波和慧慧有关，但并不是孩子的父亲。 张晓慧遗孤的身世之谜似乎有了一点点线索，却又陷入更加复杂的谜团中了。 这个晚上，咪儿和陆雨都借宿在可意的住处，继续探讨同古建波周旋探密的各种可能性，并用演戏的方式当场排练，检验效果。 陆雨扮演古建波，可意假装敲门进屋，呈上杂志打样说：“这是改版的新封面，古总您签个字吧。”然后假装不经意地说，“对了，明天就是张晓慧的百日祭了，我们几个朋友打算给她举行个小小仪式，您来不来？” 陆雨一惊，假装想不起来：“张晓慧？张晓慧是谁？” “当初不是您介绍给我的作者吗？她还说是您带她来北京的呢。” “噢，有点印象。”陆雨摸摸下巴，“是那个女孩儿呀。她死了？怎么死的？” “是自杀。” “真的？为什么自杀？” 可意泄气：“要是这么周旋下去，可是一点意义也没有，成老和尚给小和尚讲故事了。” 咪儿兼任观众和评委，点评说：“陆雨的表演，可能性非常大；可意这么做，是一点用处也没有。老男人最擅长的就是装聋作哑，他只要假装什么都想不起来，你就一点办法也没有。” 可意恨恨：“我是不行了，你对男人有经验，你来。” 现在是可意扮古建波，咪儿扮可意：“古总，咱们下期策划选题是'身份与责任'，先采访您一下吧，你对责任这个词是怎么看的？” 不等陆雨评判，可意就先否定了：“这什么跟什么呀，他就算写十万字论文出来都不会有一句说到点子上的。” 咪儿摊开手：“我对你老板毫无所知，根本不知道他的痒痒肉儿在哪里。陆雨是学心理的，叫陆雨出个招儿来。” 轮到陆雨演习：“古总，听说你们家多了个小孩儿，真巧，跟慧慧的孩子一般大。” 可意一愣：“你上次不是跟我说那孩子三岁了吗？” 陆雨语结，尴尬地笑着说：“这不是演戏吗？” 可意正要再问，忽然门铃响起来，她不禁一激凌：“怎么又是这个时候敲门？哪来的这么多不速之客。” 陆雨也紧张起来：“但愿不要又有什么坏消息才好。” 咪儿自告奋勇：“我才不相信事情还能再坏到什么程度，就算是慧慧的魂儿来了我也不怕。”说着走过去拉开门来，却是陈玉。 三个好友一齐叫起来：“三更半夜的，你怎么跑来了？” 陈玉气哼哼地走进来，一坐下就开始控诉：“你们说我起早贪黑，管完了两个小的管大的，让他们吃好穿好，从来不用为家里的事儿操一点儿心，我这个当老婆的还有什么不周到的？他居然还要不足，还在外面有花心，拈七搞八，他还有没有一点人心？” 马局长有外遇。三个女伴面面相觑，尽管陈玉的话没头没脑，她们却同时明白了她的意思。 可意最先小心翼翼地开口：“到底发生什么事了？我们才分开这么一小会儿，你刚才还是好好的。” 陈玉喝一口水，定定神说：“我回家的时候，他正在打电话，看见我回来，手忙脚乱地赶紧收线。我起初还没想什么，可是眼错不见，他又跑阳台上打手机去了，这不是明摆着做贼心虚吗？我追出去抢手机问他跟谁打电话，他拿过来把电池给拆了也不让我查，还跟我死撑是在谈公事。” 陆雨劝：“也许他真是在谈公事。官场上的是非多，他不愿意让你知道也是情有可原。” 咪儿推陆雨：“要不怎么说你是男人卧底呢？你是天真还是弱智？谈公事用得着那么神秘，连电池都拆了？” 可意轻轻拉咪儿一下，也笑着说：“那是马局长怕老陈脾气上来，真要按号码打回去查人家是男是女，那马局长多没面子呀。男人都在乎面子，又都有逆反心理，你越是要查，他越不愿意让你查，不一定就是有外遇，你别钻牛角尖儿。” 陈玉放下水杯：“我不是钻牛角尖儿，我就是想不通，我哪点做得不周到，他守着我这样一个才貌双全温良恭俭让的贤妻，竟然还要在外面花，这太不可思议了。别人都当我们是模范家庭，恩爱夫妻，都觉得他主外，我主内，两口子夫唱妇随，琴瑟和谐的，谁能想到连我们也是人心隔肚皮呢？你说我还能相信谁？每次他们局里出去旅游，可以带家属的，我都不愿意去，我根本不愿意跟那些三八太太说话，可是为了他的面子，我每次都去了。人家个个都说马局长的太太年轻漂亮，有气质有派头有学问，他多有面子呀。他还要有外心，你说男人怎么这么贪得无厌？” 咪儿不以为然：“得陇望蜀是人的天性，你自己不也是总趁着旅游找艳遇吗？” “可我那只是逢场作戏。” 咪儿不愿意听，说：“我去卸妆。”留下陆雨和可意对着陈玉继续苦口婆心。 陈玉诅咒：“小心把整张脸都洗下来。” 陆雨劝：“你可以逢场作戏，马局长也可以偶一风流呀。就算电话那头真是个女的，也不代表她和马局长就有什么，要是真有什么，反而不在电话里唠叨了，才犯不着给你点眼药呢。现在的第三者都精着呢，怎么会那么没眼色儿，明知道你在家，还要没完没了地讲电话呢？” “那女人是故意的。她就是做给我看，要拆散我的家庭。你也知道我们家老马，才四十岁就升了局长，也算是前途无量了。他长得又帅，一米八的个子，在他们局里一向被人叫做美男子，风度又好，经过我这么多年薰陶，又有点小情小趣，会哄女人，我每次跟他们局里出去，那些女的见他那个殷勤呀，装着开玩笑又拍又拉的，恨不得当着我的面就把他抢走似的。” “可不是谁都没把他抢走吗？”可意也劝着，“人家要抢，你倒从家里跑出来，不是正遂了别人的心思？你就该假装不知道，该干什么还干什么。刚才咪儿还说呢：男人装聋作哑是本能。其实女人也应该适当地装傻，不然硬要把什么都撕开来看清楚，不一定是好事儿。” “我不能再装傻了。我是真傻。结婚十三年了，我一直都相信自己的眼光没错，我看着他从一个小科员一直升到局长，人家都说我是真正的贤妻良母，有帮夫运。如果不是我把家务打理得井井有条，什么都不用他操心，他会有今天吗？他连儿子的老师姓什么都不知道。我出得厅堂，入得厨房，哪里不做足一百分？你看他那些同事的三八太太，今儿要吃，明儿要穿，哪有一个省事儿的？我可从来没给他添过堵，我自己还赚稿费呢。我把青春全都贡献给家庭了，可是他回报我什么了？可意，就说你吧，写了这么多书，这是你自己的成绩，谁也抢不走，我有什么，我把十三年都给了家庭，我得到了什么？” “你得到了一个局长老公。”咪儿到厨房里找了蜂蜜和鸡蛋出来，自己做了一碗面膜，用刷子往脸上一层层刷着，一边嘻笑，“你还得到了局长太太的身份，不然哪来这些年衣来伸手，饭来张口的好日子？” 陈玉火了：“我那叫衣来伸手吗？他们的日子才真是饭来张口呢。”她恶狠狠地看着咪儿，伸手到她的面膜碗里蘸了蘸，舔了舔，“是甜的。” 咪儿笑：“对，外敷去皱，内服去火，刚好适合你。” 陈玉想想，觉得她的话不错，便也接过刷子往脸上涂抹起来，一边仍然絮絮叨叨地说：“前些日子他老说要加班，有应酬，动不动就不回来吃饭，连结婚十三年纪念日都忘了，当时我就觉得不对劲儿。多问他两句，还嫌烦，打他电话，动不动就关机，还说有重要事谈。稍有教养的人会把电话打到家里来谈公事吗？还一谈就谈几个小时。他哄鬼呢！” 咪儿提醒：“做面膜不能表情太丰富，不然就跟做石膏像似的，把皱纹都刻在脸上了。” 陈玉赶紧端正形象，却仍忍不住嘟嘟哝哝：“我一日三餐换着样儿做，生怕他们不可口，要好吃，还要健康，要营养均衡，我看菜谱和看小说一般多，就跟陆雨进修证书那样向着健康食谱顶礼膜拜。可是陆雨能得到文凭，我却连一句好评都没得到，只得到了一个不明身份的女人的骚扰电话。最可怕的是，他还要护着她！” 可意说：“他那不是护着她，是护着你，怕伤了你的心。你也说那是骚扰电话了，你就当她过眼烟云不好吗？既然马局长说了是谈公事，你信也好，不信也好，至少他肯骗你，就还是在乎你，在乎这个家。不然他骗都不肯骗，你不是更难面对？非要逼他承认有私情有外遇，对你有什么好？反正他也知道错了，以后就不会再发生这种事情了，你只当是个小插曲，过去就过去了，别太放心上，小题大做，反而没事吵出事儿来。” “他知错了？他那是知错的态度吗？你没看他刚才跟我多凶！他抢电话的时候还把我推了一跤，他以前从来都没动过我一指头，那会儿眼珠子瞪的，就跟换了个人似的。我太心寒了，侍候了十几年竟然侍候出这么个负心人来，竟然跟我狮子吼。” “那不叫狮子吼，叫黔驴技穷。”陆雨笑着说：“男人就是这样的，有时候越是心虚就越表现得凶神恶煞似的，尤其是在被谎言拆穿想不出圆谎的办法来的时候，就更剩下虚张声势了。如果这时候你肯稍稍让一步，让他过关，他心里会感激的；但是如果你一直跟他较真，把他逼到死巷里，一直逼上梁山，假怒逼成真火，就可能弄巧成拙，真起义了。” “我才不怕呢。这回他不跟我说清楚，我跟他没完。他们这些人我最清楚了，就怕丢官儿。他是明知道我顾及身份，在乎面子，不会跟他闹，他才敢跟我这么凶的。换了是他们局里那些三八太太，他敢这么嚣张才怪，非闹一个鱼死网破、声败名裂不可。兔子急了还咬人呢，他也不能当我太老实了。当着我的面就敢跑阳台上打电话，还骗我说谈公事，他当我是死人还是三岁小孩，那么好骗。” 咪儿烦了，一句话堵回去：“好，就当是你老公不是东西，真有外遇，你离婚算了。” 陈玉一下子沉默了。